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I did the things',12,5,1),(13,'one does in daylight, I acquitted myself,',13,5,1),(14,'but I moved like a sleepwalker.',14,5,1),(15,'It was enough and it no longer involved you.',15,6,1),(16,'A few days in a strange city.',16,6,1),(17,'A conversation, the touch of a hand.',17,6,1),(18,'And afterward, I took off my wedding ring.',18,6,1),(19,'That was what I wanted: to be naked.',19,7,1),(20,'My father, in middle age, falls in love with a dog.',1,1,2),(21,'He who kicked dogs in anger when I was a child,',2,1,2),(22,'who liked his comb always on the same shelf,',3,1,2),(23,'who drank martinis to make his mind quiet.',4,1,2),(24,'He who worked and worked—his shirts',5,2,2),(25,'wrapped in plastic, his heart ironed',6,2,2),(26,'like a collar. He who—like so many men—',7,2,2),(27,'loved his children but thought the money',8,2,2),(28,'he made for them was more important',9,3,2),(29,'than the rough tweed of his presence.',10,3,2),(30,'The love of my father’s later years is',11,3,2),(31,'a Golden Retriever—more red',12,3,2),(32,'than yellow—a nervous dog who knows',13,4,2),(33,'his work clothes from his casual ones,',14,4,2),(34,'can read his creased face, who waits for',15,4,2),(35,'him at the front door—her paws crossed',16,4,2),(36,'like a child’s arms. She doesn’t berate him',17,5,2),(37,'for being late, doesn’t need new shoes',18,5,2),(38,'or college. There is no pressure to raise her',19,5,2),(39,'right, which is why she chews the furniture,',20,5,2),(40,'pees on rugs, barks at strangers who',21,6,2),(41,'cross the lawn. She is his responsible soul',22,6,2),(42,'broken free. She is the children he couldn’t',23,6,2),(43,'come home to made young again.',24,6,2),(44,'She is like my mother but never angry,',25,7,2),(45,'always devoted. He cooks for his dog—',26,7,2),(46,'my father who raised us in restaurants—',27,7,2),(47,'and takes her on business trips like',28,7,2),(48,'a wife. Sometimes, sitting beside her',29,8,2),(49,'in the hair-filled van he drives to make',30,8,2),(50,'her more comfortable, my father’s dog',31,8,2),(51,'turns her head to one side as if',32,8,2),(52,'thinking and, in this pose, more than',33,9,2),(53,'one of us has mistaken her for a person.',34,9,2),(54,'We would be jealous if she didn’t make',35,9,2),(55,'him so happy—he who never took',36,9,2),(56,'more than one trip on his expensive',37,10,2),(57,'sailboat, whose Mercedes was wrecked',38,10,2),(58,'by a valet. My mother saw him behind',39,10,2),(59,'the counter of a now-fallen fast food',40,10,2),(60,'restaurant when she was nineteen.',41,11,2),(61,'They kissed beside a river where fish',42,11,2),(62,'no longer swim. My father who was',43,11,2),(63,'always serious has fallen in love with',44,11,2),(64,'a dog. What can I do but be happy for him?',45,12,2),(65,'Everyone who left us we find everywhere.',1,1,3),(66,'It’s easier now to look them in the eyes —',2,1,3),(67,'At gravesites, in bed, when the phone rings.',3,1,3),(68,'Of course, we wonder if they think of us.',4,1,3),(69,'It’s easier, now, to look them in the eyes,',5,2,3),(70,'Imagine touching a hand, listening to them talk.',6,2,3),(71,'Of course, we wonder if they think of us',7,2,3),(72,'When nights, like tonight, turn salty, warm.',8,2,3),(73,'Imagine touching a hand, listening to them talk —',9,3,3),(74,'Hard to believe they’re capable of such coldness.',10,3,3),(75,'When nights, like tonight, turn salty, warm,',11,3,3),(76,'We think of calling them, leaving messages.',12,3,3),(77,'Hard to believe they’re capable of such coldness —',13,4,3),(78,'No color, no pulse, not even a nerve reaction.',14,4,3),(79,'We think of calling them, leaving messages',15,4,3),(80,'Vivid with news we’re sure they’d want to know.',16,4,3),(81,'No color, no pulse, not even a nerve reaction:',17,5,3),(82,'We close our eyes in order not to see them.',18,5,3),(83,'Vivid with news, we’re sure they’d want to know',19,5,3),(84,'We don’t blame them, really. They weren’t cruel.',20,5,3),(85,'We close our eyes in order not to see them',21,6,3),(86,'Reading, making love, or falling asleep.',22,6,3),(87,'We don’t blame them. Really, they weren’t cruel,',23,6,3),(88,'Though it hurts every time we think of them:',24,6,3),(89,'Reading, making love, or falling asleep,',25,7,3),(90,'Enjoying the usual pleasures and boredoms.',26,7,3),(91,'Though it hurts every time we think of them,',27,7,3),(92,'Like a taste we can’t swallow, their names stay.',28,7,3),(93,'Enjoying the usual pleasures and boredoms,',29,8,3),(94,'Then, they leave us the look of their faces',30,8,3),(95,'Like a taste we can’t swallow. Their names stay,',31,8,3),(96,'Diminishing our own, getting in the way',32,8,3),(97,'At gravesites, in bed, when the phone rings.',33,9,3),(98,'Everyone who left us we find everywhere,',34,9,3),(99,'Then they leave us, the look of their faces',35,9,3),(100,'Diminishing, our own getting in the way.',36,9,3),(101,'Your absence has gone through me',1,1,4),(102,'Like thread through a needle.',2,1,4),(103,'Everything I do is stitched with its color.',3,1,4),(104,'I have eaten',1,1,5),(105,'the plums',2,1,5),(106,'that were in',3,1,5),(107,'the icebox',4,1,5),(108,'and which',5,2,5),(109,'you were probably',6,2,5),(110,'saving',7,2,5),(111,'for breakfast',8,2,5),(112,'Forgive me',9,3,5),(113,'they were delicious',10,3,5),(114,'so sweet',11,3,5),(115,'and so cold',12,3,5),(116,'I imagined that you’d miss me, thought',1,1,6),(117,'you’d pace your hardwood floor in odd',2,1,6),(118,'worn socks, watch the clock sit stuck,',3,1,6),(119,'get late to work, type my name caps lock',4,2,6),(120,'press and hold shift/break, miss buses, meals',5,2,6),(121,'or sit with fork half-way, lost, for minutes,',6,2,6),(122,'hours, sleep badly, late, dream chases, shake',7,2,6),(123,'send fingers out to pad the pillow, find',8,2,6),(124,'my hollow, start awake, roll over, hug a gap,',9,2,6),(125,'an ache, take a walk, damp dawn, of course,',10,3,6),(126,'wrapped in a mac with the collar up, glimpse',11,3,6),(127,'a slice of face, tap a stranger’s back, draw a blank;',12,3,6),(128,'as I have. Each time, I run to press your face',13,4,6),(129,'to mine, mine, shining with imagined rain.',14,4,6),(130,'it is so long since my heart has been with yours',1,1,7),(131,'shut by our mingling arms through',2,2,7),(132,'a darkness where new lights begin and',3,2,7),(133,'increase,',4,2,7),(134,'since your mind has walked into',5,2,7),(135,'my kiss as a stranger',6,2,7),(136,'into the streets and colours of a town–',7,2,7),(137,'that i have perhaps forgotten',8,3,7),(138,'how,always(from',9,3,7),(139,'these hurrying crudities',10,3,7),(140,'of blood and flesh)Love',11,3,7),(141,'coins His most gradual gesture,',12,3,7),(142,'and whittles life to eternity',13,4,7),(143,'–after which our separating selves become museums',14,5,7),(144,'filled with skilfully stuffed memories',15,5,7),(145,'Nothing’s going to become of anyone',1,1,8),(146,'except death:',2,1,8),(147,'therefore: it’s okay',3,1,8),(148,'to yearn',4,1,8),(149,'too high:',5,1,8),(150,'the grave accommodates',6,1,8),(151,'swell rambunctiousness &',7,1,8),(152,'ruin’s not',8,2,8),(153,'compromised by magnificence:',9,2,8),(154,'the cut-off point',10,3,8),(155,'liberates us to the',11,3,8),(156,'common disaster: so',12,3,8),(157,'pick a perch —',13,3,8),(158,'apple bough for example in bloom —',14,3,8),(159,'tune up',15,3,8),(160,'and if you like',16,3,8),(161,'drill imagination right through necessity:',17,4,8),(162,'it’s all right:',18,4,8),(163,'it’s been taken care of:',19,4,8),(164,'is allowed, considering',20,5,8),(165,'Sa almusal kanina, namagitan sa atin',1,1,9),(166,'Ang dalawang basong tsaa at kubong asukal,',2,1,9),(167,'Ang dalawang bilog ng matamis na tinapay,',3,1,9),(168,'Ang pagbanghay sa pandiwang inuunlapian,',4,1,9),(169,'Mga tanong-sagutan, walang kabagay-bagay,',5,1,9),(170,'Pakulang-tingin, palihim na pakiramdaman,',6,1,9),(171,'At wari’y pagkabigat-bigat na pananamlay',7,1,9),(172,'Dala ng kagabing pagkakahimbing na kulang.',8,1,9),(173,'Nagsimulang bumalong sa aking kalooban,',9,2,9),(174,'Halos dalamhating walang ngalan, walang saysay,',10,2,9),(175,'Parang sinat o panlalatang palatandaan',11,2,9),(176,'Ng totoong karamdamang saka pa dadalaw.',12,2,9),(177,'At nabatid kong muli ang lubhang pag-iisa,',13,3,9),(178,'Ang makubkob sa sariling alaala lamang,',14,3,9),(179,'Sa mga iniisip na walang matutunguhan.',15,3,9),(180,'Sa ilang sandali, namamahay pala kita',16,3,9),(181,'Sa katahimikang walang bintana, pintuan.',17,3,9),(182,'What will suffice for a true-love knot? Even the rain?',1,1,10),(183,'But he has bought grief’s lottery, bought even the rain.',2,1,10),(184,'“our glosses / wanting in this world” “Can you remember?”',3,2,10),(185,'Anyone! “when we thought / the poets taught” even the rain?',4,2,10),(186,'After we died—That was it!—God left us in the dark.',5,3,10),(187,'And as we forgot the dark, we forgot even the rain.',6,3,10),(188,'Drought was over. Where was I? Drinks were on the house.',7,4,10),(189,'For mixers, my love, you’d poured—what?—even the rain.',8,4,10),(190,'Of this pear-shaped orange’s perfumed twist, I will say:',9,5,10),(191,'Extract Vermouth from the bergamot, even the rain.',10,5,10),(192,'How did the Enemy love you—with earth? air? and fire?',11,6,10),(193,'He held just one thing back till he got even: the rain.',12,6,10),(194,'This is God’s site for a new house of executions?',13,7,10),(195,'You swear by the Bible, Despot, even the rain?',14,7,10),(196,'After the bones—those flowers—this was found in the urn:',15,8,10),(197,'The lost river, ashes from the ghat, even the rain.',16,8,10),(198,'What was I to prophesy if not the end of the world?',17,9,10),(199,'A salt pillar for the lonely lot, even the rain.',18,9,10),(200,'How the air raged, desperate, streaming the earth with flames—',19,10,10),(201,'to help burn down my house, Fire sought even the rain.',20,10,10),(202,'He would raze the mountains, he would level the waves,',21,11,10),(203,'he would, to smooth his epic plot, even the rain.',22,11,10),(204,'New York belongs at daybreak to only me, just me—',23,12,10),(205,'to make this claim Memory’s brought even the rain.',24,12,10),(206,'They’ve found the knife that killed you, but whose prints are these?',25,13,10),(207,'No one has such small hands, Shahid, not even the rain.',26,13,10),(208,'Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?',1,1,11),(209,'Thou art more lovely and more temperate.',2,1,11),(210,'Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,',3,1,11),(211,'And summer’s lease hath all too short a date.',4,1,11),(212,'Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,',5,1,11),(213,'And often is his gold complexion dimmed;',6,1,11),(214,'And every fair from fair sometime declines,',7,1,11),(215,'By chance, or nature’s changing course, untrimmed;',8,1,11),(216,'But thy eternal summer shall not fade,',9,1,11),(217,'Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow’st,',10,1,11),(218,'Nor shall death brag thou wand’rest in his shade,',11,1,11),(219,'When in eternal lines to Time thou grow’st.',12,1,11),(220,'So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,',13,1,11),(221,'So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.',14,1,11),(222,'I gave my heart to a woman –',1,1,12),(223,'I gave it to her, branch and root.',2,1,12),(224,'She bruised, she wrung, she tortured,',3,1,12),(225,'She cast it under foot.',4,1,12),(226,'Under her feet she cast it,',5,2,12),(227,'She trampled it where it fell,',6,2,12),(228,'She broke it all to pieces,',7,2,12),(229,'And each was a clot of hell.',8,2,12),(230,'There in the rain and the sunshine',9,3,12),(231,'They lay and smouldered long;',10,3,12),(232,'And each, when again she viewed them,',11,3,12),(233,'Had turned to a living song.',12,3,12),(234,'She always writes poems. This summer',1,1,13),(235,'she’s starting a novel. It’s in trouble already.',2,1,13),(236,'The characters are easy—a girl',3,1,13),(237,'and her friend who is a girl',4,1,13),(238,'and the boy down the block with his first car,',5,1,13),(239,'an older boy, sixteen, who sometimes',6,1,13),(240,'these warm evenings leaves his house to go dancing',7,1,13),(241,'in dressy clothes though it’s still light out.',8,1,13),(242,'The girl has a brother who has lots of friends,',9,1,13),(243,'is good in math, and just plain good which',10,1,13),(244,'doesn’t help the story. The story',11,1,13),(245,'should have rescues & escapes in it',12,1,13),(246,'which means who’s the bad guy; he couldn’t be',13,1,13),(247,'the brother or the grandpa or the father either,',14,1,13),(248,'or even the boy down the block with his first car.',15,1,13),(249,'People in novels have to need something,',16,1,13),(250,'she thinks, that it takes about',17,1,13),(251,'two hundred pages to get.',18,1,13),(252,'She can’t imagine that. Nothing',19,1,13),(253,'she needs can be got; if it could',20,1,13),(254,'she’d go get it: the answer to nightmares;',21,1,13),(255,'a mother who’d be proud of her; doing things',22,1,13),(256,'a mother could be proud of; having hips',23,1,13),(257,'& knowing how to squeal at the beach laughing',24,1,13),(258,'when the boy down the block picked her up & carried her',25,1,13),(259,'& threw her in the water. If she’d laughed',26,1,13),(260,'squealing he might still take her swimming',27,1,13),(261,'& his mother wouldn’t say she’s crazy, she would',28,1,13),(262,'not have got her teeth into his shoulder till',29,1,13),(263,'well yes she bit him, and the marks',30,1,13),(264,'lasted & lasted, his mother said so,',31,1,13),(265,'but that couldn’t be in a novel.',32,1,13),(266,'She’ll never squeal laughing, she’d never',33,2,13),(267,'not bite him, she hates cute girls, she hates',34,2,13),(268,'boys who like them. Biting is embarrassing',35,2,13),(269,'and wrong & she has no intention of doing it again',36,2,13),(270,'but she would if he did if he dared,',37,2,13),(271,'and there’s no story if there’s no hope of change.',38,2,13),(272,'I take off my shirt, I show you.',1,1,14),(273,'I shaved the hair out under my arms.',2,1,14),(274,'I roll up my pants, I scraped off the hair',3,1,14),(275,'on my legs with a knife, getting white.',4,1,14),(276,'My hair is the color of chopped maples.',5,2,14),(277,'My eyes dark as beans cooked in the south.',6,2,14),(278,'(Coal fields in the moon on torn-up hills)',7,2,14),(279,'Skin polished as a Ming bowl',8,3,14),(280,'showing its blood cracks, its age, I have hundreds',9,3,14),(281,'of names for the snow, for this, all of them quiet.',10,3,14),(282,'In the night I come to you and it seems a shame',11,4,14),(283,'to waste my deepest shudders on a wall of a man.',12,4,14),(284,'You recognize strangers,',13,5,14),(285,'think you lived through destruction.',14,5,14),(286,'You can’t explain this night, my face, your memory.',15,5,14),(287,'You want to know what I know?',16,6,14),(288,'Your own hands are lying.',17,6,14),(289,'Today, like every other day, we wake up empty',1,1,15),(290,'and frightened. Don’t open the door to the study',2,1,15),(291,'and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.',3,1,15),(292,'Let the beauty we love be what we do.',4,1,15),(293,'There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.',5,1,15),(294,'The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.',6,2,15),(295,'Don’t go back to sleep.',7,2,15),(296,'You must ask for what you really want.',8,2,15),(297,'Don’t go back to sleep.',9,2,15),(298,'People are going back and forth across the doorsill',10,2,15),(299,'where the two worlds touch.',11,2,15),(300,'The door is round and open.',12,2,15),(301,'Don’t go back to sleep.',13,2,15),(302,'I would love to kiss you.',14,2,15),(303,'The price of kissing is your life.',15,2,15),(304,'Now my loving is running toward my life shouting,',16,2,15),(305,'What a bargain, let’s buy it.',17,2,15),(306,'Daylight, full of small dancing particles',18,3,15),(307,'and the one great turning, our souls',19,3,15),(308,'are dancing with you, without feet, they dance.',20,3,15),(309,'Can you see them when I whisper in your ear?',21,3,15),(310,'All day and night, music,',22,3,15),(311,'a quiet, bright',23,3,15),(312,'reedsong. If it',24,3,15),(313,'fades, we fade.',25,3,15),(314,'It was a sacrilege, the neighbors cried,',1,1,16),(315,'The way she shattered every mullioned pane',2,1,16),(316,'To let a firebrand in. They tried in vain',3,1,16),(317,'To understand how one so carved from pride',4,1,16),(318,'And glassed in dream could have so flung aside',5,1,16),(319,'Her graven days, or why she dared profane',6,1,16),(320,'The bread and wine of life for some insane',7,1,16),(321,'Moment with him. The scandal never died.',8,1,16),(322,'But no one guessed that loveliness would claim',9,2,16),(323,'Her soul’s cathedral burned by his desires',10,2,16),(324,'Or that he left her aureoled in flame…',11,2,16),(325,'And seeing nothing but her blackened spires,',12,2,16),(326,'The town condemned this girl who loved too well',13,2,16),(327,'and found her heaven in the depths of hell.',14,2,16),(328,'O to be free at last, to sleep at last',1,1,17),(329,'As infants sleep within the womb of rest!',2,1,17),(330,'To stir and stirring find no blackness vast',3,2,17),(331,'With passion weighted down upon the breast,',4,2,17),(332,'To turn the face this way and that and feel',5,3,17),(333,'No kisses festering on it like sores,',6,3,17),(334,'To be alone at last, broken the seal',7,4,17),(335,'That marks the flesh no better than a whore’s!',8,4,17),(336,'I',1,1,18),(337,'You are my earth and all the earth implies:',2,1,18),(338,'The gravity that ballasts me in space,',3,1,18),(339,'The air I breathe, the land that stills my cries',4,1,18),(340,'For food and shelter against devouring days.',5,1,18),(341,'You are the earth whose orbit marks my way',6,1,18),(342,'And sets my north and south, my east and west,',7,1,18),(343,'You are the final, elemented clay',8,1,18),(344,'The driven heart must turn to for its rest.',9,1,18),(345,'If in your arms that hold me now so near',10,2,18),(346,'I lift my keening thoughts to Helicon',11,2,18),(347,'As trees long rooted to the earth uprear',12,2,18),(348,'Their quickening leaves and flowers to the sun,',13,2,18),(349,'You who are earth, O never doubt that I',14,2,18),(350,'Need you no less because I need the sky!',15,2,18),(351,'II',16,3,18),(352,'I can not love you with a love',17,3,18),(353,'That outcompares the boundless sea,',18,3,18),(354,'For that were false, as no such love',19,3,18),(355,'And no such ocean can ever be.',20,3,18),(356,'But I can love you with a love',21,4,18),(357,'As finite as the wave that dies',22,4,18),(358,'And dying holds from crest to crest',23,4,18),(359,'The blue of everlasting skies.',24,4,18),(360,'Sun in the knifed horizon bleeds the sky',1,1,19),(361,'Spilling a peacock stain upon the sands,',2,1,19),(362,'Across some murdered rocks refused to die.',3,1,19),(363,'It is your absence touches my sad hands',4,1,19),(364,'Blinded like flags in the wreck of air.',5,1,19),(365,'And catacombs of cloud enshroud the cool',6,2,19),(366,'And calm involvement of the darkened plains,',7,2,19),(367,'The stunted mourners here: and here, a full',8,2,19),(368,'And universal tenderness which drains',9,2,19),(369,'The sucked and golden breath of sky comes bare.',10,2,19),(370,'Now, while the dark basins the void of space,',11,3,19),(371,'Some sudden crickets, ambushing me near,',12,3,19),(372,'Discover vowels of your whispered face',13,3,19),(373,'And subtly cry. I touch your absence here',14,3,19),(374,'Remembering the speeches of your hair.',15,3,19),(375,'to Sappho',1,1,20),(376,'Word you created',2,2,20),(377,'which we translate',3,2,20),(378,'bittersweet',4,2,20),(379,'thereby',5,2,20),(380,'reversing the terms',6,2,20),(381,'as if we thought pain',7,2,20),(382,'came first',8,2,20),(383,'and pleasure only later;',9,2,20),(384,'for you maybe joy',10,2,20),(385,'was initial,',11,2,20),(386,'to be followed',12,2,20),(387,'by harsh disappointment.',13,2,20),(388,'Yet in the word itself',14,3,20),(389,'the two fuse,',15,3,20),(390,'and in the condition',16,3,20),(391,'it refers to',17,3,20),(392,'they mingle,',18,3,20),(393,'indistinguishable,',19,3,20),(394,'not to be separated',20,3,20),(395,'by any force.',21,3,20),(396,'It was',22,4,20),(397,'your word for love.',23,4,20),(398,'Just when it has seemed I couldn’t bear',1,1,21),(399,'one more friend',2,1,21),(400,'waking with a tumor, one more maniac',3,1,21),(401,'with a perfect reason, often a sweetness',4,2,21),(402,'has come',5,2,21),(403,'and changed nothing in the world',6,2,21),(404,'except the way I stumbled through it,',7,3,21),(405,'for a while lost',8,3,21),(406,'in the ignorance of loving',9,3,21),(407,'someone or something, the world shrunk',10,4,21),(408,'to mouth-size,',11,4,21),(409,'hand-size, and never seeming small.',12,4,21),(410,'I acknowledge there is no sweetness',13,5,21),(411,'that doesn’t leave a stain,',14,5,21),(412,'no sweetness that’s ever sufficiently sweet…',15,5,21),(413,'Tonight a friend called to say his lover',16,6,21),(414,'was killed in a car',17,6,21),(415,'he was driving. His voice was low',18,6,21),(416,'and guttural, he repeated what he needed',19,7,21),(417,'to repeat, and I repeated',20,7,21),(418,'the one or two words we have for such grief',21,7,21),(419,'until we were speaking only in tones.',22,8,21),(420,'Often a sweetness comes',23,8,21),(421,'as if on loan, stays just long enough',24,8,21),(422,'to make sense of what it means to be alive,',25,9,21),(423,'then returns to its dark',26,9,21),(424,'source. As for me, I don’t care',27,9,21),(425,'where it’s been, or what bitter road',28,10,21),(426,'it’s traveled',29,10,21),(427,'to come so far, to taste so good.',30,10,21),(428,'While the long grain is softening',1,1,22),(429,'in the water, gurgling',2,1,22),(430,'over a low stove flame, before',3,1,22),(431,'the salted Winter Vegetable is sliced',4,1,22),(432,'for breakfast, before the birds,',5,1,22),(433,'my mother glides an ivory comb',6,1,22),(434,'through her hair, heavy',7,1,22),(435,'and black as calligrapher’s ink.',8,1,22),(436,'She sits at the foot of the bed.',9,2,22),(437,'My father watches, listens for',10,2,22),(438,'the music of comb',11,2,22),(439,'against hair.',12,2,22),(440,'My mother combs,',13,3,22),(441,'pulls her hair back',14,3,22),(442,'tight, rolls it',15,3,22),(443,'around two fingers, pins it',16,3,22),(444,'in a bun to the back of her head.',17,3,22),(445,'For half a hundred years she has done this.',18,3,22),(446,'My father likes to see it like this.',19,3,22),(447,'He says it is kempt.',20,3,22),(448,'But I know',21,4,22),(449,'it is because of the way',22,4,22),(450,'my mother’s hair falls',23,4,22),(451,'when he pulls the pins out.',24,4,22),(452,'Easily, like the curtains',25,4,22),(453,'when they untie them in the evening.',26,4,22),(454,'To pull the metal splinter from my palm',1,1,23),(455,'my father recited a story in a low voice.',2,1,23),(456,'I watched his lovely face and not the blade.',3,1,23),(457,'Before the story ended, he’d removed',4,1,23),(458,'the iron sliver I thought I’d die from.',5,1,23),(459,'I can’t remember the tale,',6,2,23),(460,'but hear his voice still, a well',7,2,23),(461,'of dark water, a prayer.',8,2,23),(462,'And I recall his hands,',9,2,23),(463,'two measures of tenderness',10,2,23),(464,'he laid against my face,',11,2,23),(465,'the flames of discipline',12,2,23),(466,'he raised above my head.',13,2,23),(467,'Had you entered that afternoon',14,3,23),(468,'you would have thought you saw a man',15,3,23),(469,'planting something in a boy’s palm,',16,3,23),(470,'a silver tear, a tiny flame.',17,3,23),(471,'Had you followed that boy',18,3,23),(472,'you would have arrived here,',19,3,23),(473,'where I bend over my wife’s right hand.',20,3,23),(474,'Look how I shave her thumbnail down',21,4,23),(475,'so carefully she feels no pain.',22,4,23),(476,'Watch as I lift the splinter out.',23,4,23),(477,'I was seven when my father',24,4,23),(478,'took my hand like this,',25,4,23),(479,'and I did not hold that shard',26,4,23),(480,'between my fingers and think,',27,4,23),(481,'Metal that will bury me,',28,4,23),(482,'christen it Little Assassin,',29,4,23),(483,'Ore Going Deep for My Heart.',30,4,23),(484,'And I did not lift up my wound and cry,',31,4,23),(485,'Death visited here!',32,4,23),(486,'I did what a child does',33,4,23),(487,'when he’s given something to keep.',34,4,23),(488,'I kissed my father.',35,4,23),(489,'Because my husband would not read my poems,',1,1,24),(490,'I wrote one about how I did not love him.',2,1,24),(491,'In lines of strict iambic pentameter,',3,1,24),(492,'I detailed his coldness, his lack of humor.',4,1,24),(493,'It felt good to do this.',5,1,24),(494,'Stanza by stanza, I grew bolder and bolder.',6,2,24),(495,'Towards the end, struck by inspiration,',7,2,24),(496,'I wrote about my old boyfriend,',8,2,24),(497,'a boy I had not loved enough to marry',9,2,24),(498,'but who could make me laugh and laugh.',10,2,24),(499,'I wrote about a night years after we parted',11,2,24),(500,'when my husband’s coldness drove me from the house',12,2,24),(501,'and back to my old boyfriend.',13,2,24),(502,'I even included the name of a seedy motel',14,2,24),(503,'well-known for hosting quickies.',15,2,24),(504,'I have a talent for verisimilitude.',16,2,24),(505,'In sensuous images, I described',17,3,24),(506,'how my boyfriend and I stripped off our clothes,',18,3,24),(507,'got into bed, and kissed and kissed,',19,3,24),(508,'then spent half the night telling jokes,',20,3,24),(509,'many of them about my husband.',21,3,24),(510,'I left the ending deliberately ambiguous,',22,3,24),(511,'then hid the poem away',23,3,24),(512,'in an old trunk in the basement.',24,3,24),(513,'You know how this story ends,',25,4,24),(514,'how my husband one day loses something,',26,4,24),(515,'goes into the basement,',27,4,24),(516,'and rummages through the old trunk,',28,4,24),(517,'how he uncovers the hidden poem',29,4,24),(518,'and sits down to read it.',30,4,24),(519,'But do you hear the strange sounds',31,5,24),(520,'that floated up the stairs that day,',32,5,24),(521,'the sounds of an animal, its paw caught',33,5,24),(522,'in one of those traps with teeth of steel?',34,5,24),(523,'Do you see the wounded creature',35,5,24),(524,'at the bottom of the stairs,',36,5,24),(525,'his shoulders hunched over and shaking,',37,5,24),(526,'fist in his mouth and choking back sobs?',38,5,24),(527,'It was my husband paying tribute to my art.',39,5,24),(528,'Any body can die, evidently. Few',1,1,25),(529,'Go happily, irradiating joy,',2,1,25),(530,'Knowledge, love. Many',3,2,25),(531,'Need oblivion, painkillers,',4,2,25),(532,'Quickest respite.',5,2,25),(533,'Sweet time unafflicted,',6,3,25),(534,'Various world:',7,3,25),(535,'X=your zenith.',8,3,25),(536,'Like primitives we buried the cat',1,1,26),(537,'with his bowl. Bare-handed',2,1,26),(538,'we scraped sand and gravel',3,1,26),(539,'back into the hole.',4,1,26),(540,'They fell with a hiss',5,1,26),(541,'and thud on his side,',6,1,26),(542,'on his long red fur, the white feathers',7,1,26),(543,'between his toes, and his',8,1,26),(544,'long, not to say aquiline, nose.',9,1,26),(545,'We stood and brushed each other off.',10,2,26),(546,'There are sorrows keener than these.',11,2,26),(547,'Silent the rest of the day, we worked,',12,3,26),(548,'ate, stared, and slept. It stormed',13,3,26),(549,'all night; now it clears, and a robin',14,3,26),(550,'burbles from a dripping bush',15,3,26),(551,'like the neighbor who means well',16,3,26),(552,'but always says the wrong thing.',17,3,26),(553,'Seems like a long time',1,1,27),(554,'Since the waiter took my order.',2,1,27),(555,'Grimy little luncheonette,',3,1,27),(556,'The snow falling outside.',4,1,27),(557,'Seems like it has grown darker',5,2,27),(558,'Since I last heard the kitchen door',6,2,27),(559,'Behind my back',7,2,27),(560,'Since I last noticed',8,2,27),(561,'Anyone pass on the street.',9,2,27),(562,'A glass of ice-water',10,3,27),(563,'Keeps me company',11,3,27),(564,'At this table I chose myself',12,3,27),(565,'Upon entering.',13,3,27),(566,'And a longing,',14,4,27),(567,'Incredible longing',15,4,27),(568,'To eavesdrop',16,4,27),(569,'On the conversation',17,4,27),(570,'Of cooks.',18,4,27),(571,'Between the computer, a pencil, and a typewriter',1,1,28),(572,'half my day passes. One day it will be half a century.',2,1,28),(573,'I live in strange cities and sometimes talk',3,1,28),(574,'with strangers about matters strange to me.',4,1,28),(575,'I listen to music a lot: Bach, Mahler, Chopin, Shostakovich.',5,1,28),(576,'I see three elements in music: weakness, power, and pain.',6,1,28),(577,'The fourth has no name.',7,1,28),(578,'I read poets, living and dead, who teach me',8,1,28),(579,'tenacity, faith, and pride. I try to understand',9,1,28),(580,'the great philosophers—but usually catch just',10,1,28),(581,'scraps of their precious thoughts.',11,1,28),(582,'I like to take long walks on Paris streets',12,1,28),(583,'and watch my fellow creatures, quickened by envy,',13,1,28),(584,'anger, desire; to trace a silver coin',14,1,28),(585,'passing from hand to hand as it slowly',15,1,28),(586,'loses its round shape (the emperor’s profile is erased).',16,1,28),(587,'Beside me trees expressing nothing',17,1,28),(588,'but a green, indifferent perfection.',18,1,28),(589,'Black birds pace the fields,',19,1,28),(590,'waiting patiently like Spanish widows.',20,1,28),(591,'I’m no longer young, but someone else is always older.',21,1,28),(592,'I like deep sleep, when I cease to exist,',22,1,28),(593,'and fast bike rides on country roads when poplars and houses',23,1,28),(594,'dissolve like cumuli on sunny days.',24,1,28),(595,'Sometimes in museums the paintings speak to me',25,1,28),(596,'and irony suddenly vanishes.',26,1,28),(597,'I love gazing at my wife’s face.',27,1,28),(598,'Every Sunday I call my father.',28,1,28),(599,'Every other week I meet with friends,',29,1,28),(600,'thus proving my fidelity.',30,1,28),(601,'My country freed itself from one evil. I wish',31,1,28),(602,'another liberation would follow.',32,1,28),(603,'Could I help in this? I don’t know.',33,1,28),(604,'I’m truly not a child of the ocean,',34,1,28),(605,'as Antonio Machado wrote about himself,',35,1,28),(606,'but a child of air, mint, and cello',36,1,28),(607,'and not all the ways of the high world',37,1,28),(608,'cross paths with the life that—so far—',38,1,28),(609,'belongs to me.',39,1,28),(610,'Miracle’s truck comes down the little avenue,',1,1,29),(611,'Scott Joplin ragtime strewn behind it like pearls,',2,1,29),(612,'and, yes, you can feel happy',3,1,29),(613,'with one piece of your heart.',4,1,29),(614,'Take what’s still given: in a room’s rich shadow',5,2,29),(615,'a woman’s breasts swinging lightly as she bends.',6,2,29),(616,'Early now the pearl of dusk dissolves.',7,2,29),(617,'Late, you sit weighing the evening news,',8,2,29),(618,'fast-food miracles, ghostly revolutions,',9,2,29),(619,'the rest of your heart.',10,2,29),(620,'Look, the trees',1,1,30),(621,'are turning',2,1,30),(622,'their own bodies',3,1,30),(623,'into pillars',4,1,30),(624,'of light,',5,2,30),(625,'are giving off the rich',6,2,30),(626,'fragrance of cinnamon',7,2,30),(627,'and fulfillment,',8,2,30),(628,'the long tapers',9,3,30),(629,'of cattails',10,3,30),(630,'are bursting and floating away over',11,3,30),(631,'the blue shoulders',12,3,30),(632,'of the ponds,',13,4,30),(633,'and every pond,',14,4,30),(634,'no matter what its',15,4,30),(635,'name is, is',16,4,30),(636,'nameless now.',17,5,30),(637,'Every year',18,5,30),(638,'everything',19,5,30),(639,'I have ever learned',20,5,30),(640,'in my lifetime',21,6,30),(641,'leads back to this: the fires',22,6,30),(642,'and the black river of loss',23,6,30),(643,'whose other side',24,6,30),(644,'is salvation,',25,7,30),(645,'whose meaning',26,7,30),(646,'none of us will ever know.',27,7,30),(647,'To live in this world',28,7,30),(648,'you must be able',29,8,30),(649,'to do three things:',30,8,30),(650,'to love what is mortal;',31,8,30),(651,'to hold it',32,8,30),(652,'against your bones knowing',33,9,30),(653,'your own life depends on it;',34,9,30),(654,'and, when the time comes to let it go,',35,9,30),(655,'to let it go.',36,9,30),(656,'What have you known of loss That makes you different from other men? — Gilgamesh',1,1,31),(657,'When the desert refused my history,',2,2,31),(658,'Refused to acknowledge that I had lived',3,2,31),(659,'there, with you, among a vanished tribe,',4,2,31),(660,'two, three thousand years ago, you parted',5,3,31),(661,'the dawn rain, its thickest monsoon curtains,',6,3,31),(662,'and beckoned me to the northern canyons.',7,4,31),(663,'There, among the red rocks, you lived alone.',8,4,31),(664,'I had still not learned the style of nomads:',9,4,31),(665,'to walk between the rain drops to keep dry.',10,5,31),(666,'Wet and cold, I spoke like a poor man,',11,5,31),(667,'without irony. You showed me the relics',12,6,31),(668,'of our former life, proof that we’d at last',13,6,31),(669,'found each other, but in your arms I felt',14,6,31),(670,'singled out for loss. When you lit the fire',15,7,31),(671,'and poured the wine, “I am going,” I murmured,',16,7,31),(672,'repeatedly, “going where no one has been',17,7,31),(673,'and no one will be… Will you come with me?”',18,7,31),(674,'You took my hand, and we walked through the streets',19,7,31),(675,'of an emptied world, vulnerable',20,8,31),(676,'to our suddenly bare history in which I was,',21,8,31),(677,'but you said won’t again be, singled',22,9,31),(678,'out for loss in your arms, won’t ever again',23,9,31),(679,'be exiled, never again, from your arms.',24,9,31),(680,'Every morning the maple leaves.',1,1,32),(681,'Every morning another chapter where the hero shifts',2,1,32),(682,'from one foot to the other. Every morning the same big',3,1,32),(683,'and little words all spelling out desire, all spelling out',4,1,32),(684,'You will be alone always and then you will die.',5,1,32),(685,'So maybe I wanted to give you something more than a catalog',6,1,32),(686,'of non-definitive acts,',7,2,32),(687,'something other than the desperation.',8,2,32),(688,'Dear So-and-So, I’m sorry I couldn’t come to your party.',9,2,32),(689,'Dear So-and-So, I’m sorry I came to your party',10,2,32),(690,'and seduced you',11,2,32),(691,'and left you bruised and ruined, you poor sad thing.',12,2,32),(692,'You want a better story. Who wouldn’t?',13,2,32),(693,'A forest, then. Beautiful trees. And a lady singing.',14,2,32),(694,'Love on the water, love underwater, love, love and so on.',15,3,32),(695,'What a sweet lady. Sing lady, sing! Of course, she wakes the dragon.',16,3,32),(696,'Love always wakes the dragon and suddenly',17,3,32),(697,'flames everywhere.',18,3,32),(698,'I can tell already you think I’m the dragon,',19,3,32),(699,'that would be so like me, but I’m not. I’m not the dragon.',20,3,32),(700,'I’m not the princess either.',21,3,32),(701,'Who am I? I’m just a writer. I write things down.',22,4,32),(702,'I walk through your dreams and invent the future. Sure,',23,4,32),(703,'I sink the boat of love, but that comes later. And yes, I swallow',24,4,32),(704,'glass, but that comes later.',25,4,32),(705,'And the part where I push you',26,4,32),(706,'flush against the wall and every part of your body rubs against the bricks,',27,4,32),(707,'shut up',28,4,32),(708,'I’m getting to it.',29,4,32),(709,'For a while I thought I was the dragon.',30,5,32),(710,'I guess I can tell you that now. And, for a while, I thought I was',31,5,32),(711,'the princess,',32,5,32),(712,'cotton candy pink, sitting there in my room, in the tower of the castle,',33,5,32),(713,'young and beautiful and in love and waiting for you with',34,5,32),(714,'confidence',35,5,32),(715,'but the princess looks into her mirror and only sees the princess,',36,5,32),(716,'while I’m out here, slogging through the mud, breathing fire,',37,5,32),(717,'and getting stabbed to death.',38,6,32),(718,'Okay, so I’m the dragon. Bid deal.',39,6,32),(719,'You still get to be the hero.',40,6,32),(720,'You get the magic gloves! A fish that talks! You get eyes like flashlights!',41,6,32),(721,'What more do you want?',42,6,32),(722,'I make you pancakes, I take you hunting, I talk to you as if you’re',43,6,32),(723,'really there.',44,6,32),(724,'Are you there, sweetheart? Do you know me? Is this microphone live?',45,6,32),(725,'Let me do it right for once,',46,7,32),(726,'for the record, let me make a thing of cream and stars that becomes,',47,7,32),(727,'you know the story, simply heaven.',48,7,32),(728,'Inside your head you hear a phone ringing',49,7,32),(729,'and when you open your eyes',50,7,32),(730,'only a clearing with deer in it. Hello deer.',51,7,32),(731,'Inside your head the sound of glass,',52,7,32),(732,'a car crash sound as the trucks roll over and explode in slow motion.',53,8,32),(733,'Hello darling, sorry about that.',54,8,32),(734,'Sorry about the bony elbows, sorry we',55,8,32),(735,'lived here, sorry about the scene at the bottom of the stairwell',56,8,32),(736,'and how I ruined everything by saying it out loud.',57,8,32),(737,'Especially that, but I should have known.',58,8,32),(738,'You see, I take the parts that I remember and stitch them back together',59,8,32),(739,'to make a creature that will do what I say',60,9,32),(740,'or love me back.',61,9,32),(741,'I’m not really sure why I do it, but in this version you are not',62,9,32),(742,'feeding yourself to a bad man',63,9,32),(743,'against a black sky prickled with small lights.',64,9,32),(744,'I take it back.',65,9,32),(745,'The wooden halls likes caskets. These terms from the lower depths.',66,9,32),(746,'I take them back.',67,9,32),(747,'Here is the repeated image of the lover destroyed.',68,10,32),(748,'Crossed out.',69,10,32),(749,'Clumsy hands in a dark room. Crossed out. There is something',70,10,32),(750,'underneath the floorboards.',71,10,32),(751,'Crossed out. And here is the tabernacle',72,10,32),(752,'reconstructed.',73,10,32),(753,'Here is the part where everyone was happy all the time and we were all',74,10,32),(754,'forgiven,',75,11,32),(755,'even though we didn’t deserve it.',76,11,32),(756,'Inside your head you hear',77,11,32),(757,'a phone ringing, and when you open your eyes you’re washing up',78,11,32),(758,'in a stranger’s bathroom,',79,11,32),(759,'standing by the window in a yellow towel, only twenty minutes away',80,11,32),(760,'from the dirtiest thing you know.',81,11,32),(761,'All the rooms of the castle except this one, says someone, and suddenly',82,11,32),(762,'darkness,',83,11,32),(763,'suddenly only darkness.',84,12,32),(764,'In the living room, in the broken yard,',85,12,32),(765,'in the back of the car as the lights go by. In the airport',86,12,32),(766,'bathroom’s gurgle and flush, bathed in a pharmacy of',87,12,32),(767,'unnatural light,',88,12,32),(768,'my hands looking weird, my face weird, my feet too far away.',89,12,32),(769,'And the the airplane, the window seat over the wing with a view',90,12,32),(770,'of the wing and a little foil bag of peanuts.',91,13,32),(771,'I arrived in the city and you met me at the station,',92,13,32),(772,'smiling in a way',93,13,32),(773,'that made me frightened. Down the alley, around the arcade,',94,13,32),(774,'up the stairs of the building',95,13,32),(775,'to the little room with the broken faucets, your drawings, all your things,',96,13,32),(776,'I looked out the window and said',97,13,32),(777,'This doesn’t look that much different from home,',98,14,32),(778,'because it didn’t,',99,14,32),(779,'but then I noticed the black sky and all those lights.',100,14,32),(780,'We walked through the house to the elevated train.',101,14,32),(781,'All these buildings, all that glass and the shiny beautiful',102,14,32),(782,'mechanical wind.',103,14,32),(783,'We were inside the train car when I started to cry. You were crying too,',104,14,32),(784,'smiling and crying in a way that made me',105,14,32),(785,'even more hysterical. You said I could have anything I wanted, but I',106,15,32),(786,'just couldn’t say it out loud.',107,15,32),(787,'Actually, you said Love, for you,',108,15,32),(788,'is larger than the usual romantic love. It’s like a religion. It’s',109,15,32),(789,'terrifying. No one',110,15,32),(790,'will ever want to sleep with you.',111,15,32),(791,'Okay, if you’re so great, you do it—',112,15,32),(792,'here’s the pencil, make it work…',113,16,32),(793,'If the window is on your right, you are in your own bed. If the window',114,16,32),(794,'is over your heart, and it is painted shut, then we are breathing',115,16,32),(795,'river water.',116,16,32),(796,'Build me a city and call it Jerusalem. Build me another and call it',117,16,32),(797,'Jerusalem.',118,16,32),(798,'We have come back from Jerusalem where we found not',119,16,32),(799,'what we sought, so do it over, give me another version,',120,16,32),(800,'a different room, another hallway, the kitchen painted over',121,17,32),(801,'and over,',122,17,32),(802,'another bowl of soup.',123,17,32),(803,'The entire history of human desire takes about seventy minutes to tell.',124,17,32),(804,'Unfortunately, we don’t have that kind of time.',125,17,32),(805,'Forget the dragon,',126,17,32),(806,'leave the gun on the table, this has nothing to do with happiness.',127,18,32),(807,'Let’s jump ahead to the moment of epiphany,',128,18,32),(808,'in gold light, as the camera pans to where',129,18,32),(809,'the action is,',130,18,32),(810,'lakeside and backlit, and it all falls into frame, close enough to see',131,18,32),(811,'the blue rings of my eyes as I say',132,18,32),(812,'something ugly.',133,18,32),(813,'I never liked that ending either. More love streaming out the wrong way,',134,19,32),(814,'and I don’t want to be the kind that says the wrong way.',135,19,32),(815,'But it doesn’t work, these erasures, this constant refolding of the pleats.',136,19,32),(816,'There were some nice parts, sure,',137,19,32),(817,'all lemondrop and mellonball, laughing in silk pajamas',138,19,32),(818,'and the grains of sugar',139,19,32),(819,'on the toast, love love or whatever, take a number. I’m sorry',140,19,32),(820,'it’s such a lousy story.',141,20,32),(821,'Dear Forgiveness, you know that recently',142,20,32),(822,'we have had our difficulties and there are many things',143,20,32),(823,'I want to ask you.',144,20,32),(824,'I tried that one time, high school, second lunch, and then again,',145,20,32),(825,'years later, in the chlorinated pool.',146,20,32),(826,'I am still talking to you about help. I still do not have',147,20,32),(827,'these luxuries.',148,21,32),(828,'I have told you where I’m coming from, so put it together.',149,21,32),(829,'We clutch our bellies and roll on the floor…',150,21,32),(830,'When I say this, it should mean laughter,',151,21,32),(831,'not poison.',152,21,32),(832,'I want more applesauce. I want more seats reserved for heroes.',153,21,32),(833,'Dear Forgiveness, I saved a plate for you.',154,22,32),(834,'Quit milling around the yard and come inside.',155,22,32),(835,'As I walked out one evening,',1,1,33),(836,'Walking down Bristol Street,',2,1,33),(837,'The crowds upon the pavement',3,1,33),(838,'Were fields of harvest wheat.',4,1,33),(839,'And down by the brimming river',5,2,33),(840,'I heard a lover sing',6,2,33),(841,'Under an arch of the railway:',7,2,33),(842,'‘Love has no ending.',8,2,33),(843,'‘I’ll love you, dear, I’ll love you',9,3,33),(844,'Till China and Africa meet,',10,3,33),(845,'And the river jumps over the mountain',11,3,33),(846,'And the salmon sing in the street,',12,3,33),(847,'‘I’ll love you till the ocean',13,4,33),(848,'Is folded and hung up to dry',14,4,33),(849,'And the seven stars go squawking',15,4,33),(850,'Like geese about the sky.',16,4,33),(851,'‘The years shall run like rabbits,',17,5,33),(852,'For in my arms I hold',18,5,33),(853,'The Flower of the Ages,',19,5,33),(854,'And the first love of the world.’',20,5,33),(855,'But all the clocks in the city',21,6,33),(856,'Began to whirr and chime:',22,6,33),(857,'‘O let not Time deceive you,',23,6,33),(858,'You cannot conquer Time.',24,6,33),(859,'‘In the burrows of the Nightmare',25,7,33),(860,'Where Justice naked is,',26,7,33),(861,'Time watches from the shadow',27,7,33),(862,'And coughs when you would kiss.',28,7,33),(863,'‘In headaches and in worry',29,8,33),(864,'Vaguely life leaks away,',30,8,33),(865,'And Time will have his fancy',31,8,33),(866,'To-morrow or to-day.',32,8,33),(867,'‘Into many a green valley',33,9,33),(868,'Drifts the appalling snow;',34,9,33),(869,'Time breaks the threaded dances',35,9,33),(870,'And the diver’s brilliant bow.',36,9,33),(871,'‘O plunge your hands in water,',37,10,33),(872,'Plunge them in up to the wrist;',38,10,33),(873,'Stare, stare in the basin',39,10,33),(874,'And wonder what you’ve missed.',40,10,33),(875,'‘The glacier knocks in the cupboard,',41,11,33),(876,'The desert sighs in the bed,',42,11,33),(877,'And the crack in the tea-cup opens',43,11,33),(878,'A lane to the land of the dead.',44,11,33),(879,'‘Where the beggars raffle the banknotes',45,12,33),(880,'And the Giant is enchanting to Jack,',46,12,33),(881,'And the Lily-white Boy is a Roarer,',47,12,33),(882,'And Jill goes down on her back.',48,12,33),(883,'‘O look, look in the mirror,',49,13,33),(884,'O look in your distress:',50,13,33),(885,'Life remains a blessing',51,13,33),(886,'Although you cannot bless.',52,13,33),(887,'‘O stand, stand at the window',53,14,33),(888,'As the tears scald and start;',54,14,33),(889,'You shall love your crooked neighbour',55,14,33),(890,'With your crooked heart.’',56,14,33),(891,'It was late, late in the evening,',57,15,33),(892,'The lovers they were gone;',58,15,33),(893,'The clocks had ceased their chiming,',59,15,33),(894,'And the deep river ran on.',60,15,33),(895,'Above us, stars. Beneath us, constellations.',1,1,34),(896,'Five billion miles away, a galaxy dies',2,1,34),(897,'like a snowflake falling on water. Below us,',3,1,34),(898,'some farmer, feeling the chill of that distant death,',4,1,34),(899,'snaps on his yard light, drawing his sheds and barn',5,1,34),(900,'back into the little system of his care.',6,1,34),(901,'All night, the cities, like shimmering novas,',7,1,34),(902,'tug with bright streets at lonely lights like',8,1,34),(903,'his.',9,1,34),(904,'Let the light of late afternoon',1,1,35),(905,'shine through chinks in the barn, moving',2,1,35),(906,'up the bales as the sun moves down.',3,1,35),(907,'Let the cricket take up chafing',4,2,35),(908,'as a woman takes up her needles',5,2,35),(909,'and her yarn. Let evening come.',6,2,35),(910,'Let dew collect on the hoe abandoned',7,3,35),(911,'in long grass. Let the stars appear',8,3,35),(912,'and the moon disclose her silver horn.',9,3,35),(913,'Let the fox go back to its sandy den.',10,4,35),(914,'Let the wind die down. Let the shed',11,4,35),(915,'go black inside. Let evening come.',12,4,35),(916,'To the bottle in the ditch, to the scoop',13,5,35),(917,'in the oats, to air in the lung',14,5,35),(918,'let evening come.',15,5,35),(919,'Let it come, as it will, and don’t',16,6,35),(920,'be afraid. God does not leave us',17,6,35),(921,'comfortless, so let evening come.',18,6,35),(922,'Bend low again, night of summer stars.',1,1,36),(923,'So near you are, sky of summer stars,',2,1,36),(924,'So near, a long-arm man can pick off stars,',3,1,36),(925,'Pick off what he wants in the sky bowl,',4,1,36),(926,'So near you are, summer stars,',5,1,36),(927,'So near, strumming, strumming,',6,1,36),(928,'So lazy and hum-strumming.',7,1,36),(929,'Ink runs from the corners of my mouth.',1,1,37),(930,'There is no happiness like mine.',2,1,37),(931,'I have been eating poetry.',3,1,37),(932,'The librarian does not believe what she sees.',4,2,37),(933,'Her eyes are sad',5,2,37),(934,'and she walks with her hands in her dress.',6,2,37),(935,'The poems are gone.',7,3,37),(936,'The light is dim.',8,3,37),(937,'The dogs are on the basement stairs and coming up.',9,3,37),(938,'Their eyeballs roll,',10,4,37),(939,'their blond legs burn like brush.',11,4,37),(940,'The poor librarian begins to stamp her feet and weep.',12,4,37),(941,'She does not understand.',13,5,37),(942,'When I get on my knees and lick her hand,',14,5,37),(943,'she screams.',15,5,37),(944,'I am a new man.',16,6,37),(945,'I snarl at her and bark.',17,6,37),(946,'I romp with joy in the bookish dark.',18,6,37),(947,'these hips are big hips.',1,1,38),(948,'they need space to',2,1,38),(949,'move around in.',3,1,38),(950,'they don’t fit into little',4,1,38),(951,'petty places. these hips',5,1,38),(952,'are free hips.',6,1,38),(953,'they don’t like to be held back.',7,1,38),(954,'these hips have never been enslaved,',8,1,38),(955,'they go where they want to go',9,1,38),(956,'they do what they want to do.',10,1,38),(957,'these hips are mighty hips.',11,1,38),(958,'these hips are magic hips.',12,1,38),(959,'i have known them',13,1,38),(960,'to put a spell on a man and',14,1,38),(961,'spin him like a top',15,1,38),(962,'Those groans men use',1,1,39),(963,'passing a woman on the street',2,1,39),(964,'or on the steps of the subway',3,1,39),(965,'to tell her she is a female',4,2,39),(966,'and their flesh knows it,',5,2,39),(967,'are they a sort of tune,',6,3,39),(968,'an ugly enough song, sung',7,3,39),(969,'by a bird with a slit tongue',8,3,39),(970,'but meant for music?',9,4,39),(971,'Or are they the muffled roaring',10,5,39),(972,'of deafmutes trapped in a building that is',11,5,39),(973,'slowly filling with smoke?',12,5,39),(974,'Perhaps both.',13,6,39),(975,'Such men most often',14,7,39),(976,'look as if groan were all they could do,',15,7,39),(977,'yet a woman, in spite of herself,',16,7,39),(978,'knows it’s a tribute:',17,8,39),(979,'if she were lacking all grace',18,8,39),(980,'they’d pass her in silence:',19,8,39),(981,'so it’s not only to say she’s',20,9,39),(982,'a warm hole. It’s a word',21,9,39),(983,'in grief-language, nothing to do with',22,10,39),(984,'primitive, not an ur-language;',23,10,39),(985,'language stricken, sickened, cast down',24,10,39),(986,'in decrepitude. She wants to',25,11,39),(987,'throw the tribute away, dis-',26,11,39),(988,'gusted, and can’t,',27,11,39),(989,'it goes on buzzing in her ear,',28,12,39),(990,'it changes the pace of her walk,',29,12,39),(991,'the torn posters in echoing corridors',30,12,39),(992,'spell it out, it',31,13,39),(993,'quakes and gnashes as the train comes in.',32,13,39),(994,'Her pulse sullenly',33,13,39),(995,'had picked up speed,',34,14,39),(996,'but the cars slow down and',35,14,39),(997,'jar to a stop while her understanding',36,14,39),(998,'keeps on translating:',37,15,39),(999,'‘Life after life after life goes by',38,15,39),(1000,'without poetry,',39,16,39),(1001,'without seemliness,',40,16,39),(1002,'without love.’',41,16,39),(1003,'When the Regime commanded that books with harmful knowledge',1,1,40),(1004,'Should be publicly burned on all sides',2,1,40),(1005,'Oxen were forced to drag cart loads of books',3,1,40),(1006,'To the bonfires, a banished',4,1,40),(1007,'Writer, one of the best, scanning the list of the',5,1,40),(1008,'Burned, was shocked to find that his',6,1,40),(1009,'Books had been passed over. He rushed to his desk',7,1,40),(1010,'On wings of wrath, and wrote a letter to those in power.',8,1,40),(1011,'Burn me! he wrote with flying pen, burn me. Haven’t my books',9,1,40),(1012,'Always reported the truth? And here you are',10,1,40),(1013,'Treating me like a liar! I command you:',11,1,40),(1014,'Burn me!',12,1,40),(1015,'Lie still now',1,1,41),(1016,'while I prepare for my future,',2,1,41),(1017,'certain hard days ahead,',3,1,41),(1018,'when I’ll need what I know so clearly this moment.',4,1,41),(1019,'I am making use',5,2,41),(1020,'of the one thing I learned',6,2,41),(1021,'of all the things my father tried to teach me:',7,2,41),(1022,'the art of memory.',8,2,41),(1023,'I am letting this room',9,3,41),(1024,'and everything in it',10,3,41),(1025,'stand for my ideas about love',11,3,41),(1026,'and its difficulties.',12,3,41),(1027,'I’ll let your love-cries,',13,4,41),(1028,'those spacious notes',14,4,41),(1029,'of a moment ago,',15,4,41),(1030,'stand for distance.',16,4,41),(1031,'Your scent,',17,5,41),(1032,'that scent',18,5,41),(1033,'of spice and a wound,',19,5,41),(1034,'I’ll let stand for mystery.',20,5,41),(1035,'Your sunken belly',21,6,41),(1036,'is the daily cup',22,6,41),(1037,'of milk I drank',23,6,41),(1038,'as a boy before morning prayer.',24,6,41),(1039,'The sun on the face',25,7,41),(1040,'of the wall',26,7,41),(1041,'is God, the face',27,7,41),(1042,'I can’t see, my soul,',28,7,41),(1043,'and so on, each thing',29,8,41),(1044,'standing for a separate idea,',30,8,41),(1045,'and those ideas forming the constellation',31,8,41),(1046,'of my greater idea.',32,8,41),(1047,'And one day, when I need',33,8,41),(1048,'to tell myself something intelligent',34,8,41),(1049,'about love,',35,8,41),(1050,'I’ll close my eyes',36,9,41),(1051,'and recall this room and everything in it:',37,9,41),(1052,'My body is estrangement.',38,9,41),(1053,'This desire, perfection.',39,9,41),(1054,'Your closed eyes my extinction.',40,9,41),(1055,'Now I’ve forgotten my',41,9,41),(1056,'idea. The book',42,9,41),(1057,'on the windowsill, riffled by wind…',43,9,41),(1058,'the even-numbered pages are',44,9,41),(1059,'the past, the odd-',45,9,41),(1060,'numbered pages, the future.',46,9,41),(1061,'The sun is',47,9,41),(1062,'God, your body is milk…',48,9,41),(1063,'useless, useless…',49,10,41),(1064,'your cries are song, my body’s not me…',50,10,41),(1065,'no good…my idea',51,10,41),(1066,'has evaporated…your hair is time, your thighs are song…',52,10,41),(1067,'it had something to do',53,10,41),(1068,'with death…it had something',54,10,41),(1069,'to do with love.',55,10,41),(1070,'Looking up at the stars, I know quite well',1,1,42),(1071,'That, for all they care, I can go to hell,',2,1,42),(1072,'But on earth indifference is the least',3,1,42),(1073,'We have to dread from man or beast.',4,1,42),(1074,'How should we like it were stars to burn',5,1,42),(1075,'With a passion for us we could not return?',6,1,42),(1076,'If equal affection cannot be,',7,1,42),(1077,'Let the more loving one be me.',8,1,42),(1078,'Admirer as I think I am',9,2,42),(1079,'Of stars that do not give a damn,',10,2,42),(1080,'I cannot, now I see them, say',11,2,42),(1081,'I missed one terribly all day.',12,2,42),(1082,'Were all stars to disappear or die,',13,3,42),(1083,'I should learn to look at an empty sky',14,3,42),(1084,'And feel its total darkness sublime,',15,3,42),(1085,'Though this might take me a little time.',16,3,42),(1086,'The old are kind',1,1,43),(1087,'but the young are hot.',2,1,43),(1088,'Love may be blind',3,1,43),(1089,'but Desire is not.',4,1,43),(1090,'When you are old and grey and full of sleep,',1,1,44),(1091,'And nodding by the fire, take down this book,',2,1,44),(1092,'And slowly read, and dream of the soft look',3,1,44),(1093,'Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;',4,1,44),(1094,'How many loved your moments of glad grace,',5,1,44),(1095,'And loved your beauty with love false or true,',6,1,44),(1096,'But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,',7,1,44),(1097,'And loved the sorrows of your changing face;',8,1,44),(1098,'And bending down beside the glowing bars,',9,1,44),(1099,'Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled',10,1,44),(1100,'And paced upon the mountains overhead',11,1,44),(1101,'And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.',12,1,44),(1102,'Death comes to me again, a girl',1,1,45),(1103,'in a cotton slip, barefoot, giggling.',2,1,45),(1104,'It’s not so terrible she tells me,',3,1,45),(1105,'not like you think, all darkness',4,1,45),(1106,'and silence. There are windchimes',5,1,45),(1107,'and the smell of lemons, some days',6,1,45),(1108,'it rains, but more often the air is dry',7,1,45),(1109,'and sweet. I sit beneath the staircase',8,1,45),(1110,'built from hair and bone and listen',9,1,45),(1111,'to the voices of the living. I like it,',10,1,45),(1112,'she says, shaking the dust from her hair,',11,1,45),(1113,'especially when they fight, and when they sing.',12,1,45),(1114,'I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;',1,1,46),(1115,'I lift my lids and all is born again.',2,1,46),(1116,'(I think I made you up inside my head.)',3,1,46),(1117,'The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,',4,2,46),(1118,'And arbitrary blackness gallops in:',5,2,46),(1119,'I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.',6,2,46),(1120,'I dreamed that you bewitched me into bed',7,3,46),(1121,'And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane.',8,3,46),(1122,'(I think I made you up inside my head.)',9,3,46),(1123,'God topples from the sky, hell’s fires fade:',10,4,46),(1124,'Exit seraphim and Satan’s men:',11,4,46),(1125,'I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.',12,4,46),(1126,'I fancied you’d return the way you said,',13,5,46),(1127,'But I grow old and I forget your name.',14,5,46),(1128,'(I think I made you up inside my head.)',15,5,46),(1129,'I should have loved a thunderbird instead;',16,6,46),(1130,'At least when spring comes they roar back again.',17,6,46),(1131,'I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.',18,6,46),(1132,'(I think I made you up inside my head.)',19,6,46),(1133,'Something',1,1,47),(1134,'comes into the world unwelcome',2,1,47),(1135,'calling disorder, disorder—',3,1,47),(1136,'If you hate me so much',4,2,47),(1137,'don’t bother to give me',5,2,47),(1138,'a name: do you need',6,2,47),(1139,'one more slur',7,2,47),(1140,'in your language, another',8,2,47),(1141,'way to blame',9,2,47),(1142,'one tribe for everything—',10,2,47),(1143,'as we both know,',11,3,47),(1144,'if you worship',12,3,47),(1145,'one god, you only need',13,3,47),(1146,'One enemy—',14,3,47),(1147,'I’m not the enemy.',15,4,47),(1148,'Only a ruse to ignore',16,4,47),(1149,'what you see happening',17,4,47),(1150,'right here in this bed,',18,4,47),(1151,'a little paradigm',19,4,47),(1152,'of failure. One of your precious flowers',20,4,47),(1153,'dies here almost every day',21,4,47),(1154,'and you can’t rest until',22,4,47),(1155,'you attack the cause, meaning',23,4,47),(1156,'whatever is left, whatever',24,4,47),(1157,'happens to be sturdier',25,4,47),(1158,'than your personal passion—',26,4,47),(1159,'It was not meant',27,5,47),(1160,'to last forever in the real world.',28,5,47),(1161,'But why admit that, when you can go on',29,5,47),(1162,'doing what you always do,',30,5,47),(1163,'mourning and laying blame,',31,5,47),(1164,'always the two together.',32,5,47),(1165,'I don’t need your praise',33,6,47),(1166,'to survive. I was here first,',34,6,47),(1167,'before you were here, before',35,6,47),(1168,'you ever planted a garden.',36,6,47),(1169,'And I’ll be here when only the sun and moon',37,6,47),(1170,'are left, and the sea, and the wide field.',38,6,47),(1171,'I will constitute the field.',39,7,47),(1172,'My mother never forgave my father',1,1,48),(1173,'for killing himself,',2,1,48),(1174,'especially at such an awkward time',3,1,48),(1175,'and in a public park,',4,1,48),(1176,'that spring',5,1,48),(1177,'when I was waiting to be born.',6,1,48),(1178,'She locked his name',7,1,48),(1179,'in her deepest cabinet',8,1,48),(1180,'and would not let him out,',9,1,48),(1181,'though I could hear him thumping.',10,1,48),(1182,'When I came down from the attic',11,1,48),(1183,'with the pastel portrait in my hand',12,1,48),(1184,'of a long-lipped stranger',13,1,48),(1185,'with a brave moustache',14,1,48),(1186,'and deep brown level eyes,',15,1,48),(1187,'she ripped it into shreds',16,1,48),(1188,'without a single word',17,1,48),(1189,'and slapped me hard.',18,1,48),(1190,'In my sixty-fourth year',19,1,48),(1191,'I can feel my cheek',20,1,48),(1192,'still burning.',21,1,48),(1193,'In grayish doubt and black despair,',1,1,49),(1194,'I drafted hymns to the earth and the air,',2,1,49),(1195,'pretending to joy, although I lacked it.',3,1,49),(1196,'The age had made lament redundant.',4,1,49),(1197,'So here’s the question — who can answer it —',5,2,49),(1198,'Was he a brave man or a hypocrite?',6,2,49),(1199,'You always called late and drunk,',1,1,50),(1200,'your voice luxurious with pain,',2,1,50),(1201,'I, tightly wrapped in dreaming,',3,1,50),(1202,'listening as if to a ghost.',4,1,50),(1203,'Tonight a friend called to say your body',5,2,50),(1204,'was found in your apartment, where',6,2,50),(1205,'it had lain for days. You’d lost your job,',7,2,50),(1206,'stopped writing, saw nobody for weeks.',8,2,50),(1207,'Your heart, he said. Drink had destroyed you.',9,2,50),(1208,'We met in a college town, first teaching jobs,',10,3,50),(1209,'poems flowing from a grief we enshrined',11,3,50),(1210,'with myth and alcohol. I envied the way',12,3,50),(1211,'women looked at you, a bear blunt with rage,',13,3,50),(1212,'tearing through an ever-darkening wood.',14,3,50),(1213,'Once we traded poems like photos of women',15,4,50),(1214,'whose beauty tested God’s faith. ‘Read this one',16,4,50),(1215,'about how friendship among the young can’t last,',17,4,50),(1216,'it will rip your heart out of your chest!’',18,4,50),(1217,'Once you called to say J was leaving,',19,5,50),(1218,'the pain stuck in your throat like a razor blade.',20,5,50),(1219,'A woman was calling me back to bed',21,5,50),(1220,'so I said I’d call back. But I never did.',22,5,50),(1221,'The deep forlorn smell of moss and pine',23,6,50),(1222,'behind your stone house, you strumming',24,6,50),(1223,'and singing Lorca, Vallejo, De Andrade,',25,6,50),(1224,'as if each syllable tasted of blood,',26,6,50),(1225,'as if you had all the time in the world…',27,6,50),(1226,'You knew your angels loved you',28,7,50),(1227,'but you also knew they would leave',29,7,50),(1228,'someone they could not save.',30,7,50),(1229,'If you keep taking stabs at utopia',1,1,51),(1230,'sooner or later there will be scars.',2,1,51),(1231,'Suppose there was a thermometer able to measure',3,2,51),(1232,'contentment. Would you slide it under',4,2,51),(1233,'your tongue and risk being told you were on par',5,3,51),(1234,'with a thirteenth century farmer who lost',6,3,51),(1235,'all his teeth in a game of hide and seek? Would you',7,4,51),(1236,'be tempted to abandon your portable conscience,',8,4,51),(1237,'the remote control that lets you choose who you are',9,5,51),(1238,'for every occasion? I wish we cared more',10,5,51),(1239,'about how we sounded than how we looked.',11,6,51),(1240,'Instead of primping before mirrors each morning,',12,6,51),(1241,'we’d huddle in echo chambers, practicing our scales.',13,7,51),(1242,'As a kid, I thought the local amputee was dying in',14,7,51),(1243,'pieces,',15,7,51),(1244,'that his left arm was leaning against a tree in heaven,',16,8,51),(1245,'waiting for the rest of him to arrive, as if God',17,8,51),(1246,'was dismantling him like a jigsaw puzzle, but now',18,9,51),(1247,'I understand we’re all missing something. I wish',19,9,51),(1248,'there were Band Aids for what you don’t know, whisky',20,10,51),(1249,'breath mints for sober people to fit in at wild parties.',21,10,51),(1250,'There ought to be a Smithsonian for misfits,',22,11,51),(1251,'where an insomniac’s clammy pillow hangs over',23,11,51),(1252,'a narcoleptic’s drool cup, the teeth of an anorexic',24,12,51),(1253,'displayed like a white picket fence designed',25,12,51),(1254,'to keep food from trespassing. I wish the White House',26,13,51),(1255,'was made out of mood ring rock, reflecting',27,13,51),(1256,'the health of the nation. And an atheist hour',28,14,51),(1257,'at every church, and needle exchange programs,',29,14,51),(1258,'and haystack exchange programs too, and emotional',30,15,51),(1259,'baggage thrift stores, a Mount Rushmore for assassins.',31,15,51),(1260,'I’m sick of strip malls and billboards. I dream',32,16,51),(1261,'of a road lit by people who set themselves on fire,',33,16,51),(1262,'no asphalt, no rest stops, just a bunch of dead grass',34,17,51),(1263,'with footprints so deep, like a track meet in wet cement.',35,17,51),(1264,'Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,',1,1,52),(1265,'Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,',2,1,52),(1266,'Silence the pianos and with muffled drum',3,1,52),(1267,'Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.',4,1,52),(1268,'Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead',5,2,52),(1269,'Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.',6,2,52),(1270,'Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,',7,2,52),(1271,'Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.',8,2,52),(1272,'He was my North, my South, my East and West,',9,3,52),(1273,'My working week and my Sunday rest,',10,3,52),(1274,'My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;',11,3,52),(1275,'I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.',12,3,52),(1276,'The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,',13,4,52),(1277,'Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,',14,4,52),(1278,'Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;',15,4,52),(1279,'For nothing now can ever come to any good.',16,4,52),(1280,'What have I to say to you',1,1,53),(1281,'When we shall meet?',2,1,53),(1282,'Yet—',3,1,53),(1283,'I lie here thinking of you.',4,1,53),(1284,'The stain of love',5,2,53),(1285,'Is upon the world.',6,2,53),(1286,'Yellow, yellow, yellow,',7,2,53),(1287,'It eats into the leaves,',8,2,53),(1288,'Smears with saffron',9,2,53),(1289,'The horned branches that lean',10,2,53),(1290,'Heavily',11,2,53),(1291,'Against a smooth purple sky.',12,2,53),(1292,'There is no light—',13,3,53),(1293,'Only a honey-thick stain',14,3,53),(1294,'That drips from leaf to leaf',15,3,53),(1295,'And limb to limb',16,3,53),(1296,'Spoiling the colours',17,3,53),(1297,'Of the whole world.',18,3,53),(1298,'I am alone.',19,4,53),(1299,'The weight of love',20,4,53),(1300,'Has buoyed me up',21,4,53),(1301,'Till my head',22,4,53),(1302,'Knocks against the sky.',23,4,53),(1303,'See me!',24,5,53),(1304,'My hair is dripping with nectar—',25,5,53),(1305,'Starlings carry it',26,5,53),(1306,'On their black wings.',27,5,53),(1307,'See, at last',28,5,53),(1308,'My arms and my hands',29,5,53),(1309,'Are lying idle.',30,5,53),(1310,'How can I tell',31,6,53),(1311,'If I shall ever love you again',32,6,53),(1312,'As I do now?',33,6,53),(1313,'may i feel said he',1,1,54),(1314,'(i’ll squeal said she',2,1,54),(1315,'just once said he)',3,1,54),(1316,'it’s fun said she',4,1,54),(1317,'(may i touch said he',5,2,54),(1318,'how much said she',6,2,54),(1319,'a lot said he)',7,2,54),(1320,'why not said she',8,2,54),(1321,'(let’s go said he',9,3,54),(1322,'not too far said she',10,3,54),(1323,'what’s too far said he',11,3,54),(1324,'where you are said she)',12,3,54),(1325,'may i stay said he',13,4,54),(1326,'(which way said she',14,4,54),(1327,'like this said he',15,4,54),(1328,'if you kiss said she',16,4,54),(1329,'may i move said he',17,5,54),(1330,'is it love said she)',18,5,54),(1331,'if you’re willing said he',19,5,54),(1332,'(but you’re killing said she',20,5,54),(1333,'but it’s life said he',21,6,54),(1334,'but your wife said she',22,6,54),(1335,'now said he)',23,6,54),(1336,'ow said she',24,6,54),(1337,'(tiptop said he',25,7,54),(1338,'don’t stop said she',26,7,54),(1339,'oh no said he)',27,7,54),(1340,'go slow said she',28,7,54),(1341,'(cccome?said he',29,8,54),(1342,'ummm said she)',30,8,54),(1343,'you’re divine!said he',31,8,54),(1344,'(you are Mine said she)',32,8,54),(1345,'You might come here Sunday on a whim.',1,1,55),(1346,'Say your life broke down. The last good kiss',2,1,55),(1347,'you had was years ago. You walk these streets',3,1,55),(1348,'laid out by the insane, past hotels',4,1,55),(1349,'that didn’t last, bars that did, the tortured try',5,1,55),(1350,'of local drivers to accelerate their lives.',6,1,55),(1351,'Only churches are kept up. The jail',7,1,55),(1352,'turned 70 this year. The only prisoner',8,1,55),(1353,'is always in, not knowing what he’s done.',9,1,55),(1354,'The principal supporting business now',10,2,55),(1355,'is rage. Hatred of the various grays',11,2,55),(1356,'the mountain sends, hatred of the mill,',12,2,55),(1357,'The Silver Bill repeal, the best liked girls',13,2,55),(1358,'who leave each year for Butte. One good',14,2,55),(1359,'restaurant and bars can’t wipe the boredom out.',15,2,55),(1360,'The 1907 boom, eight going silver mines,',16,2,55),(1361,'a dance floor built on springs—',17,2,55),(1362,'all memory resolves itself in gaze,',18,2,55),(1363,'in panoramic green you know the cattle eat',19,2,55),(1364,'or two stacks high above the town,',20,2,55),(1365,'two dead kilns, the huge mill in collapse',21,2,55),(1366,'for fifty years that won’t fall finally down.',22,2,55),(1367,'Isn’t this your life? That ancient kiss',23,3,55),(1368,'still burning out your eyes? Isn’t this defeat',24,3,55),(1369,'so accurate, the church bell simply seems',25,3,55),(1370,'a pure announcement: ring and no one comes?',26,3,55),(1371,'Don’t empty houses ring? Are magnesium',27,3,55),(1372,'and scorn sufficient to support a town,',28,3,55),(1373,'not just Philipsburg, but towns',29,3,55),(1374,'of towering blondes, good jazz and booze',30,3,55),(1375,'the world will never let you have',31,3,55),(1376,'until the town you came from dies inside?',32,3,55),(1377,'Say no to yourself. The old man, twenty',33,4,55),(1378,'when the jail was built, still laughs',34,4,55),(1379,'although his lips collapse. Someday soon,',35,4,55),(1380,'he says, I’ll go to sleep and not wake up.',36,4,55),(1381,'You tell him no. You’re talking to yourself.',37,4,55),(1382,'The car that brought you here still runs.',38,4,55),(1383,'The money you buy lunch with,',39,4,55),(1384,'no matter where it’s mined, is silver',40,4,55),(1385,'and the girl who serves your food',41,4,55),(1386,'is slender and her red hair lights the wall.',42,4,55),(1387,'I found it and I named it, being versed',1,1,56),(1388,'in taxonomic Latin; thus became',2,1,56),(1389,'godfather to an insect and its first',3,1,56),(1390,'describer — and I want no other fame.',4,1,56),(1391,'Wide open on its pin (though fast asleep),',5,2,56),(1392,'and safe from creeping relatives and rust,',6,2,56),(1393,'in the secluded stronghold where we keep',7,2,56),(1394,'type specimens it will transcend its dust.',8,2,56),(1395,'Dark pictures, thrones, the stones that pilgrims kiss,',9,3,56),(1396,'poems that take a thousand years to die',10,3,56),(1397,'but ape the immortality of this',11,3,56),(1398,'red label on a little butterfly.',12,3,56),(1399,'Skin remembers how long the years grow',1,1,57),(1400,'when skin is not touched, a gray tunnel',2,1,57),(1401,'of singleness, feather lost from the tail',3,1,57),(1402,'of a bird, swirling onto a step,',4,1,57),(1403,'swept away by someone who never saw',5,1,57),(1404,'it was a feather. Skin ate, walked,',6,1,57),(1405,'slept by itself, knew how to raise a',7,1,57),(1406,'see-you-later hand. But skin felt',8,1,57),(1407,'it was never seen, never known as',9,1,57),(1408,'a land on the map, nose like a city,',10,1,57),(1409,'hip like a city, gleaming dome of the mosque',11,1,57),(1410,'and the hundred corridors of cinnamon and rope.',12,1,57),(1411,'Skin had hope, that’s what skin does.',13,2,57),(1412,'Heals over the scarred place, makes a road.',14,2,57),(1413,'Love means you breathe in two countries.',15,2,57),(1414,'And skin remembers–silk, spiny grass,',16,2,57),(1415,'deep in the pocket that is skin’s secret own.',17,2,57),(1416,'Even now, when skin is not alone,',18,2,57),(1417,'it remembers being alone and thanks something larger',19,2,57),(1418,'that there are travelers, that people go places',20,2,57),(1419,'larger than themselves.',21,2,57),(1420,'There you are, exhausted from a night of crying, curled up on the couch,',1,1,58),(1421,'the floor, at the foot of the bed, anywhere you fall you fall down crying,',2,1,58),(1422,'half amazed at what the body is capable of, not believing you can cry',3,1,58),(1423,'anymore. And there they are, his socks, his shirt, your underwear',4,1,58),(1424,'and your winter gloves, all in a loose pile next to the bathroom door,',5,1,58),(1425,'and you fall down again. Someday, years from now, things will be',6,1,58),(1426,'different, the house clean for once, everything in its place, windows',7,1,58),(1427,'shining, sun coming in easily now, sliding across the high shine of wax',8,1,58),(1428,'on the wood floor. You’ll be peeling an orange or watching a bird',9,1,58),(1429,'spring from the edge of the rooftop next door, noticing how,',10,1,58),(1430,'for an instant, its body is stopped on the air, only a moment before',11,1,58),(1431,'gathering the will to fly into the ruff at its wings and then doing it:',12,1,58),(1432,'flying. You’ll be reading, and for a moment there will be a word',13,1,58),(1433,'you don’t understand, a simple word like now or what or is',14,1,58),(1434,'and you’ll ponder over it like a child discovering language.',15,1,58),(1435,'Is you’ll say over and over until it begins to make sense, and that’s',16,1,58),(1436,'when you’ll say it, for the first time, out loud: He’s dead. He’s not',17,1,58),(1437,'coming back. And it will be the first time you believe it.',18,1,58),(1438,'I want to get up early one more morning,',1,1,59),(1439,'before sunrise. Before the birds, even.',2,1,59),(1440,'I want to throw cold water on my face',3,1,59),(1441,'and be at my work table',4,1,59),(1442,'when the sky lightens and smoke',5,1,59),(1443,'begins to rise from the chimneys',6,1,59),(1444,'of the other houses.',7,1,59),(1445,'I want to see the waves break',8,1,59),(1446,'on this rocky beach, not just hear them',9,1,59),(1447,'break as I did all night in my sleep.',10,1,59),(1448,'I want to see again the ships',11,1,59),(1449,'that pass through the Strait from every',12,1,59),(1450,'seafaring country in the world—',13,1,59),(1451,'old, dirty freighters just barely moving along,',14,1,59),(1452,'and the swift new cargo vessels',15,1,59),(1453,'painted every color under the sun',16,1,59),(1454,'that cut the water as they pass.',17,1,59),(1455,'I want to keep an eye out for them.',18,1,59),(1456,'And for the little boat that plies',19,1,59),(1457,'the water between the ships',20,1,59),(1458,'and the pilot station near the lighthouse.',21,1,59),(1459,'I want to see them take a man off the ship',22,1,59),(1460,'and put another up on board.',23,1,59),(1461,'I want to spend the day watching this happen',24,1,59),(1462,'and reach my own conclusions.',25,1,59),(1463,'I hate to seem greedy—I have so much',26,1,59),(1464,'to be thankful for already.',27,1,59),(1465,'But I want to get up early one more morning, at least.',28,1,59),(1466,'And go to my place with some coffee and wait.',29,1,59),(1467,'Just wait, to see what’s going to happen.',30,1,59),(1468,'Perhaps to love is to learn',1,1,60),(1469,'to walk through this world.',2,1,60),(1470,'To learn to be silent',3,1,60),(1471,'like the oak and the linden of the fable.',4,1,60),(1472,'To learn to see.',5,1,60),(1473,'Your glance scattered seeds.',6,1,60),(1474,'It planted a tree.',7,1,60),(1475,'I talk',8,1,60),(1476,'because you shake its leaves.',9,1,60),(1477,'The door is closed, the curtains drawn within',1,1,61),(1478,'One room, a brilliant question mark of light…',2,1,61),(1479,'Outside her gate an empty limousine',3,1,61),(1480,'Waits in the brimming emptiness of night.',4,1,61),(1481,'To the memory of Consuelo',1,1,62),(1482,'And so, it all must come to this—a dying afternoon,',2,2,62),(1483,'Thin cerements of rain around the forlorn ghost of weeping,',3,2,62),(1484,'White tombs so desolately splendid, a priestly monotone',4,2,62),(1485,'Drifting in sacramental grace, and then—the final sleeping.',5,2,62),(1486,'What else is there to say? (The last word has been said too soon',6,3,62),(1487,'For you and all the golden hopes once minted for your keeping)',7,3,62),(1488,'White tombs so desolately splendid, bone unto alien bone,',8,3,62),(1489,'What else is there to say, now that the sleepless dead are sleeping?',9,3,62),(1490,'Perhaps the years will get me after all,',1,1,63),(1491,'Though I have sought to cheat them of their due',2,1,63),(1492,'By documenting in beauty’s name my soul',3,1,63),(1493,'And locking out of sight my revenue',4,1,63),(1494,'Of golden rapture and of sterling tears,',5,1,63),(1495,'Let others give to Caesar Caesar’s own:',6,1,63),(1496,'I have begrudged the dictatorial years',7,2,63),(1497,'The right usurious to tax me to the bone,',8,2,63),(1498,'Therefore behold me now, a Timon bent',9,2,63),(1499,'On hoarding each coin of love that should be spent',10,2,63),(1500,'On you and you, and hushing all display',11,2,63),(1501,'Of passionate splendour lest I betray',12,2,63),(1502,'My wealth, lest the sharp years in tithes retrieve',13,2,63),(1503,'Even the heart not worn upon my sleeve.',14,2,63),(1504,'It was not love-why should I love you?-',1,1,64),(1505,'It was not folly, for I was wise,',2,1,64),(1506,'Yet when you looked at me, your looking',3,1,64),(1507,'Opened a kingdom to my eyes,',4,1,64),(1508,'It was not love, it was not folly,',5,2,64),(1509,'I have no name to know it by,',6,2,64),(1510,'I only know one shining instant',7,2,64),(1511,'You held my earth, you held my sky.',8,2,64),(1512,'Out through the fields and the woods',1,1,65),(1513,'And over the walls I have wended;',2,1,65),(1514,'I have climbed the hills of view',3,1,65),(1515,'And looked at the world, and descended;',4,1,65),(1516,'I have come by the highway home,',5,1,65),(1517,'And lo, it is ended.',6,1,65),(1518,'The leaves are all dead on the ground,',7,2,65),(1519,'Save those that the oak is keeping',8,2,65),(1520,'To ravel them one by one',9,2,65),(1521,'And let them go scraping and creeping',10,2,65),(1522,'Out over the crusted snow,',11,2,65),(1523,'When others are sleeping.',12,2,65),(1524,'And the dead leaves lie huddled and still,',13,3,65),(1525,'No longer blown hither and thither;',14,3,65),(1526,'The last lone aster is gone;',15,3,65),(1527,'The flowers of the witch hazel wither;',16,3,65),(1528,'The heart is still aching to seek,',17,3,65),(1529,'But the feet question “Whither?”',18,3,65),(1530,'Ah, when to the heart of man',19,4,65),(1531,'Was it ever less than a treason',20,4,65),(1532,'To go with the drift of things,',21,4,65),(1533,'To yield with a grace to reason,',22,4,65),(1534,'And bow and accept the end',23,4,65),(1535,'Of a love or a season?',24,4,65),(1536,'Whose woods these are I think I know.',1,1,66),(1537,'His house is in the village though;',2,1,66),(1538,'He will not see me stopping here',3,1,66),(1539,'To watch his woods fill up with snow.',4,1,66),(1540,'My little horse must think it queer',5,2,66),(1541,'To stop without a farmhouse near',6,2,66),(1542,'Between the woods and frozen lake',7,2,66),(1543,'The darkest evening of the year.',8,2,66),(1544,'He gives his harness bells a shake',9,3,66),(1545,'To ask if there is some mistake.',10,3,66),(1546,'The only other sound’s the sweep',11,3,66),(1547,'Of the easy wind and downy flake.',12,3,66),(1548,'The woods are lovely, dark, and deep,',13,4,66),(1549,'But I have promises to keep,',14,4,66),(1550,'And miles to go before I sleep,',15,4,66),(1551,'And miles to go before I sleep.',16,4,66),(1552,'Some say the world will end in fire,',1,1,67),(1553,'Some say in ice.',2,1,67),(1554,'From what I’ve tasted of desire',3,1,67),(1555,'I hold with those who favor fire.',4,1,67),(1556,'But if I had to perish twice,',5,1,67),(1557,'I think I know enough of hate',6,1,67),(1558,'To say that for destruction ice',7,1,67),(1559,'Is also great',8,1,67),(1560,'And would suffice.',9,1,67),(1561,'I have been wondering',1,1,68),(1562,'What you are thinking about, and by now suppose',2,1,68),(1563,'It is certainly not me.',3,1,68),(1564,'But the crocus is up, and the lark, and the blundering',4,1,68),(1565,'Blood knows what it knows.',5,1,68),(1566,'It talks to itself all night, like a sliding moonlit sea.',6,1,68),(1567,'Of course, it is talking of you.',7,2,68),(1568,'At dawn, where the ocean has netted its catch of lights,',8,2,68),(1569,'The sun plants one lithe foot',9,2,68),(1570,'On that spill of mirrors, but the blood goes worming through',10,2,68),(1571,'Its warm Arabian nights,',11,2,68),(1572,'Naming your pounding name again in the dark heart-root.',12,2,68),(1573,'Who shall, of course, be nameless.',13,3,68),(1574,'Anyway, I should want you to know I have done my best,',14,3,68),(1575,'As I’m sure you have, too.',15,3,68),(1576,'Others are bound to us, the gentle and blameless',16,3,68),(1577,'Whose names are not confessed',17,3,68),(1578,'In the ceaseless palaver. My dearest, the clear unquaried blue',18,3,68),(1579,'Of those depths is all but blinding.',19,4,68),(1580,'You may remember that once you brought my boys',20,4,68),(1581,'Two little woolly birds.',21,4,68),(1582,'Yesterday the older one asked for you upon finding',22,4,68),(1583,'Your thrush among his toys.',23,4,68),(1584,'And the tides welled about me, and I could find no words.',24,4,68),(1585,'There is not much else to tell.',25,5,68),(1586,'One tries one’s best to continue as before,',26,5,68),(1587,'Doing some little good.',27,5,68),(1588,'But I would have you know that all is not well',28,5,68),(1589,'With a man dead set to ignore',29,5,68),(1590,'The endless repetitions of his own murmurous blood.',30,5,68),(1591,'My sister rubs the doll’s face in mud,',1,1,69),(1592,'then climbs through the truck window.',2,1,69),(1593,'She ignores me as I walk around it,',3,1,69),(1594,'hitting the flat tires with an iron rod.',4,1,69),(1595,'The old man yells for me to help hitch the team,',5,1,69),(1596,'but I keep walking around the truck, hitting harder,',6,1,69),(1597,'until my mother calls.',7,1,69),(1598,'I pick up a rock and throw it at the kitchen window,',8,1,69),(1599,'but it falls short.',9,1,69),(1600,'The old man’s voice bounces off the air like a ball',10,1,69),(1601,'I can’t lift my leg over.',11,1,69),(1602,'I stand beside him, waiting, but he doesn’t look up',12,2,69),(1603,'and I squeeze the rod, raise it, his skull splits open.',13,2,69),(1604,'Mother runs toward us. I stand still,',14,2,69),(1605,'get her across the spine as she bends over him.',15,2,69),(1606,'I drop the rod and take the rifle from the house.',16,2,69),(1607,'Roses are red, violets are blue,',17,2,69),(1608,'one bullet for the black horse, two for the brown.',18,2,69),(1609,'They’re down quick. I spit, my tongue’s bloody;',19,2,69),(1610,'I’ve bitten it. I laugh, remember the one out back.',20,2,69),(1611,'I catch her climbing from the truck, shoot.',21,2,69),(1612,'The doll lands on the ground with her.',22,2,69),(1613,'I pick it up, rock it in my arms.',23,2,69),(1614,'Yeah. I’m Jack, Hogarth’s son.',24,2,69),(1615,'I’m nimble, I’m quick.',25,2,69),(1616,'In the house, I put on the old man’s best suit',26,2,69),(1617,'and his patent leather shoes.',27,2,69),(1618,'I pack my mother’s satin nightgown',28,2,69),(1619,'and my sister’s doll in the suitcase.',29,2,69),(1620,'Then I go outside and cross the fields to the highway.',30,2,69),(1621,'I’m fourteen. I’m a wind from nowhere.',31,2,69),(1622,'I can break your heart.',32,2,69),(1623,'you fit into me',1,1,70),(1624,'like a hook into an eye',2,1,70),(1625,'a fish hook',3,2,70),(1626,'an open eye',4,2,70),(1627,'Slated for demolition.',1,1,71),(1628,'(for Mila)',1,1,72),(1629,'My father taught me',2,2,72),(1630,'this one thing:',3,2,72),(1631,'that pain knows no',4,3,72),(1632,'size no breadth.',5,3,72),(1633,'It understands',6,3,72),(1634,'no bigger no',7,3,72),(1635,'smaller no',8,3,72),(1636,'more no less.',9,3,72),(1637,'All pain',10,4,72),(1638,'blinds.',11,4,72),(1639,'All pain',12,4,72),(1640,'is intimate.',13,4,72),(1641,'Have you',14,5,72),(1642,'felt it?',15,5,72),(1643,'It is the same',16,6,72),(1644,'for both women',17,6,72),(1645,'and men. The rich',18,6,72),(1646,'feel it as much',19,6,72),(1647,'as the poor.',20,6,72),(1648,'Pain: who do you blame',21,7,72),(1649,'when you feel it?',22,7,72),(1650,'It has made everyone',23,8,72),(1651,'the saddest person in the world.',24,8,72),(1652,'You ask how I spend my time–',1,1,73),(1653,'I nestle against a treetrunk',2,1,73),(1654,'and listen to autumn winds',3,1,73),(1655,'in the pines all night and day.',4,1,73),(1656,'Shantung wine can’t get me drunk.',5,2,73),(1657,'The local poets bore me.',6,2,73),(1658,'My thoughts remain with you,',7,2,73),(1659,'like the Wen River, endlessly flowing.',8,2,73),(1660,'Oh I got up and went to work',1,1,74),(1661,'and worked and came back home',2,1,74),(1662,'and ate and talked and went to sleep.',3,1,74),(1663,'Then I got up and went to work',4,1,74),(1664,'and worked and came back home',5,1,74),(1665,'from work and ate and slept.',6,1,74),(1666,'Then I got up and went to work',7,1,74),(1667,'and worked and came back home',8,1,74),(1668,'and ate and watched a show and slept.',9,1,74),(1669,'Then I got up and went to work',10,1,74),(1670,'and worked and came back home',11,1,74),(1671,'and ate steak and went to sleep.',12,1,74),(1672,'Then I got up and went to work',13,1,74),(1673,'and worked and came back home',14,1,74),(1674,'and ate and fucked and went to sleep.',15,1,74),(1675,'Then it was Saturday, Saturday, Saturday!',16,1,74),(1676,'Love must be the reason for the week!',17,1,74),(1677,'We went shopping! I saw clouds!',18,1,74),(1678,'The children explained everything!',19,1,74),(1679,'I could talk about the main thing!',20,1,74),(1680,'What did I drink on Saturday night',21,1,74),(1681,'that lost the first, best half of Sunday?',22,1,74),(1682,'The last half wasn’t worth this ‘word.’',23,1,74),(1683,'Then I got up and went to work',24,1,74),(1684,'and worked and came back home',25,1,74),(1685,'from work and ate and went to sleep,',26,1,74),(1686,'refreshed but tired by the weekend.',27,1,74),(1687,'Now we will count to twelve',1,1,75),(1688,'and we will all keep still.',2,1,75),(1689,'For once on earth',3,2,75),(1690,'let’s not speak in any language,',4,2,75),(1691,'let’s stop for one second,',5,2,75),(1692,'and not move our arms so much.',6,2,75),(1693,'It would be a delicious moment',7,3,75),(1694,'without rush, without engines,',8,3,75),(1695,'we would all be together',9,3,75),(1696,'in a sudden strangeness.',10,3,75),(1697,'Fishermen in the cold sea',11,4,75),(1698,'would not harm whales',12,4,75),(1699,'and the man gathering salt',13,4,75),(1700,'would look at his hurt hands.',14,4,75),(1701,'Those who prepare green wars,',15,5,75),(1702,'wars with gas, wars with fire,',16,5,75),(1703,'victory with no survivors,',17,5,75),(1704,'would put on clean clothes',18,5,75),(1705,'and walk about with their brothers',19,5,75),(1706,'in the shade, doing nothing.',20,5,75),(1707,'What I want should not be confused',21,6,75),(1708,'with final inactivity.',22,6,75),(1709,'Life alone is what matters:',23,6,75),(1710,'I want nothing to do with death.',24,6,75),(1711,'If we were not so single-minded',25,7,75),(1712,'about keeping our lives moving,',26,7,75),(1713,'and for once could do nothing,',27,7,75),(1714,'perhaps a huge silence',28,7,75),(1715,'might interrupt this sadness',29,7,75),(1716,'of never understanding ourselves',30,7,75),(1717,'and of threatening ourselves with death.',31,7,75),(1718,'Perhaps the earth can teach us',32,7,75),(1719,'as when everything seems dead',33,7,75),(1720,'and later proves to be alive.',34,7,75),(1721,'Now I’ll count up to twelve',35,8,75),(1722,'and you keep quiet and I will go.',36,8,75),(1723,'When death comes',1,1,76),(1724,'like the hungry bear in autumn;',2,1,76),(1725,'when death comes and takes all the bright coins from his purse',3,1,76),(1726,'to buy me, and snaps the purse shut;',4,2,76),(1727,'when death comes',5,2,76),(1728,'like the measle-pox;',6,2,76),(1729,'when death comes',7,3,76),(1730,'like an iceberg between the shoulder blades,',8,3,76),(1731,'I want to step through the door full of curiosity, wondering:',9,4,76),(1732,'what is it going to be like, that cottage of darkness?',10,4,76),(1733,'And therefore I look upon everything',11,5,76),(1734,'as a brotherhood and a sisterhood,',12,5,76),(1735,'and I look upon time as no more than an idea,',13,5,76),(1736,'and I consider eternity as another possibility,',14,5,76),(1737,'and I think of each life as a flower, as common',15,6,76),(1738,'as a field daisy, and as singular,',16,6,76),(1739,'and each name a comfortable music in the mouth,',17,7,76),(1740,'tending, as all music does, toward silence,',18,7,76),(1741,'and each body a lion of courage, and something',19,8,76),(1742,'precious to the earth.',20,8,76),(1743,'When it’s over, I want to say: all my life',21,9,76),(1744,'I was a bride married to amazement.',22,9,76),(1745,'I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms.',23,9,76),(1746,'When it’s over, I don’t want to wonder',24,10,76),(1747,'if I have made of my life something particular, and real.',25,10,76),(1748,'I don’t want to find myself sighing and frightened,',26,10,76),(1749,'or full of argument.',27,10,76),(1750,'I don’t want to end up simply having visited this world.',28,11,76),(1751,'on Venus, time passes slowly because',1,1,77),(1752,'we are all preoccupied with love.',2,1,77),(1753,'The trees build up like sponges,',3,1,77),(1754,'the crust under us accumulates like coral,',4,1,77),(1755,'we begin to feel the long pressure',5,1,77),(1756,'the jewel feels, if the jewel feels,',6,1,77),(1757,'and, although this is suspicious belief,',7,1,77),(1758,'we welcome the illusion with that thrill',8,1,77),(1759,'formerly reserved for the profane.',9,1,77),(1760,'His hands are under her buttocks;',10,1,77),(1761,'her legs are bent on his shoulders;',11,1,77),(1762,'their extensions are the piping for',12,1,77),(1763,'“the best that has been thought or said.”',13,1,77),(1764,'The image is of a brain for all space.',14,1,77),(1765,'The universe, remember, is a ribbon',15,1,77),(1766,'where we follow back to the beginning',16,1,77),(1767,'and so meet that one of whom you were thinking',17,1,77),(1768,'when you mistook being here for being there.',18,1,77),(1769,'There was an apple tree in the yard —',1,1,78),(1770,'this would have been',2,1,78),(1771,'forty years ago — behind,',3,1,78),(1772,'only meadows. Drifts',4,1,78),(1773,'off crocus in the damp grass.',5,1,78),(1774,'I stood at that window:',6,1,78),(1775,'late April. Spring',7,1,78),(1776,'flowers in the neighbor’s yard.',8,1,78),(1777,'How many times, really, did the tree',9,1,78),(1778,'flower on my birthday,',10,1,78),(1779,'the exact day, not',11,1,78),(1780,'before, not after? Substitution',12,1,78),(1781,'of the immutable',13,1,78),(1782,'for the shifting, the evolving.',14,1,78),(1783,'Substitution of the image',15,1,78),(1784,'for relentless earth. What',16,1,78),(1785,'do I know of this place,',17,1,78),(1786,'the role of the tree for decades',18,1,78),(1787,'taken by a bonsai, voices',19,1,78),(1788,'rising from tennis courts —',20,1,78),(1789,'Fields. Smell of the tall grass, new cut.',21,1,78),(1790,'As one expects of a lyric poet.',22,1,78),(1791,'We look at the world once, in childhood.',23,1,78),(1792,'The rest is memory.',24,1,78),(1793,'Hair is heaven’s water flowing eerily over us',1,1,79),(1794,'Often a someone drifts off down their long hair and is lost',2,1,79),(1795,'The spider, dropping down from twig',1,1,80),(1796,'Unwinds a thread of her devising:',2,1,80),(1797,'A thin, premeditated rig',3,1,80),(1798,'To use in rising.',4,1,80),(1799,'And all the journey down through space,',5,2,80),(1800,'In cool descent, and loyal-hearted,',6,2,80),(1801,'She builds a ladder to the place',7,2,80),(1802,'From which she started.',8,2,80),(1803,'This I, gone forth, as spiders do,',9,3,80),(1804,'In spider’s web a truth discerning,',10,3,80),(1805,'Attach one silken strand to you',11,3,80),(1806,'For my returning.',12,3,80),(1807,'Each gesture',1,1,81),(1808,'is a common one, a',2,1,81),(1809,'black dog, crying, a',3,1,81),(1810,'man, crying.',4,1,81),(1811,'All alike, people',5,2,81),(1812,'or things grow',6,2,81),(1813,'fixed with what',7,2,81),(1814,'happens to them.',8,2,81),(1815,'I throw a stone.',9,3,81),(1816,'It hits the wall,',10,3,81),(1817,'it hits a dog,',11,3,81),(1818,'it hits a child—',12,3,81),(1819,'my sentimental',13,4,81),(1820,'names for years',14,4,81),(1821,'and years ago, from',15,4,81),(1822,'something I’ve not become.',16,4,81),(1823,'If I look',17,5,81),(1824,'in the mirror,',18,5,81),(1825,'the wall, I',19,5,81),(1826,'see myself.',20,5,81),(1827,'If I try',21,6,81),(1828,'to do better',22,6,81),(1829,'and better, I',23,6,81),(1830,'do the same thing.',24,6,81),(1831,'Let me hit you.',25,7,81),(1832,'Will it hurt.',26,7,81),(1833,'Your face is hurt',27,7,81),(1834,'all the same.',28,7,81),(1835,'Like a reminder of this life',1,1,82),(1836,'of trams, sun, sparrows,',2,1,82),(1837,'and the flighty uncontrolledness',3,1,82),(1838,'of streams leaping like thermometers,',4,1,82),(1839,'and because ducks are quacking somewhere',5,1,82),(1840,'above the crackling of the last, paper-thin ice,',6,1,82),(1841,'and because children are crying bitterly',7,1,82),(1842,'(remember children’s lives are so sweet!)',8,1,82),(1843,'and because in the drunken, shimmering starlight',9,1,82),(1844,'the new moon whoops it up,',10,1,82),(1845,'and a stocking crackles a bit at the knee,',11,1,82),(1846,'gold in itself and tinged by the sun,',12,1,82),(1847,'like a reminder of life,',13,1,82),(1848,'and because there is resin on tree trunks,',14,1,82),(1849,'and because I was madly mistaken',15,1,82),(1850,'in thinking that my life was over,',16,1,82),(1851,'like a reminder of my life—',17,1,82),(1852,'you entered into me on stockinged feet.',18,1,82),(1853,'You entered—neither too late nor too early—',19,1,82),(1854,'at exactly the right time, as my very own,',20,1,82),(1855,'and with a smile, uprooted me',21,1,82),(1856,'from memories, as from a grave.',22,1,82),(1857,'And I, once again whirling among',23,1,82),(1858,'the painted horses, gladly exchange,',24,1,82),(1859,'for one reminder of life,',25,1,82),(1860,'all its memories.',26,1,82),(1861,'Why did you vanish',1,1,83),(1862,'into empty sky?',2,1,83),(1863,'Even the fragile snow,',3,1,83),(1864,'when it falls,',4,1,83),(1865,'falls in this world.',5,1,83),(1866,'The river is famous to the fish.',1,1,84),(1867,'The loud voice is famous to silence,',2,2,84),(1868,'which knew it would inherit the earth',3,2,84),(1869,'before anybody said so.',4,2,84),(1870,'The cat sleeping on the fence is famous to the birds',5,3,84),(1871,'watching him from the birdhouse.',6,3,84),(1872,'The tear is famous, briefly, to the cheek.',7,4,84),(1873,'The idea you carry close to your bosom',8,5,84),(1874,'is famous to your bosom.',9,5,84),(1875,'The boot is famous to the earth,',10,6,84),(1876,'more famous than the dress shoe,',11,6,84),(1877,'which is famous only to floors.',12,6,84),(1878,'The bent photograph is famous to the one who carries it',13,7,84),(1879,'and not at all famous to the one who is pictured.',14,7,84),(1880,'I want to be famous to shuffling men',15,8,84),(1881,'who smile while crossing streets,',16,8,84),(1882,'sticky children in grocery lines,',17,8,84),(1883,'famous as the one who smiled back.',18,8,84),(1884,'I want to be famous in the way a pulley is famous,',19,9,84),(1885,'or a buttonhole, not because it did anything spectacular,',20,9,84),(1886,'but because it never forgot what it could do.',21,9,84),(1887,'Between going and staying the day wavers,',1,1,85),(1888,'in love with its own transparency.',2,1,85),(1889,'The circular afternoon is now a bay',3,2,85),(1890,'where the world in stillness rocks.',4,2,85),(1891,'All is visible and all elusive,',5,3,85),(1892,'all is near and can’t be touched.',6,3,85),(1893,'Paper, book, pencil, glass,',7,4,85),(1894,'rest in the shade of their names.',8,4,85),(1895,'Time throbbing in my temples repeats',9,5,85),(1896,'the same unchanging syllable of blood.',10,5,85),(1897,'The light turns the indifferent wall',11,6,85),(1898,'into a ghostly theater of reflections.',12,6,85),(1899,'I find myself in the middle of an eye,',13,7,85),(1900,'watching myself in its blank stare.',14,7,85),(1901,'The moment scatters. Motionless,',15,8,85),(1902,'I stay and go: I am a pause.',16,8,85),(1903,'1',1,1,86),(1904,'We are reading the story of our lives',2,1,86),(1905,'which takes place in a room.',3,1,86),(1906,'The room looks out on a street.',4,1,86),(1907,'There is no one there,',5,1,86),(1908,'no sound of anything.',6,1,86),(1909,'The tress are heavy with leaves,',7,1,86),(1910,'the parked cars never move.',8,1,86),(1911,'We keep turning the pages, hoping for something,',9,1,86),(1912,'something like mercy or change,',10,1,86),(1913,'a black line that would bind us',11,1,86),(1914,'or keep us apart.',12,1,86),(1915,'The way it is, it would seem',13,1,86),(1916,'the book of our lives is empty.',14,1,86),(1917,'The furniture in the room is never shifted,',15,1,86),(1918,'and the rugs become darker each time',16,1,86),(1919,'our shadows pass over them.',17,1,86),(1920,'It is almost as if the room were the world.',18,1,86),(1921,'We sit beside each other on the couch,',19,1,86),(1922,'reading about the couch.',20,1,86),(1923,'We say it is ideal.',21,1,86),(1924,'It is ideal.',22,1,86),(1925,'2',23,2,86),(1926,'We are reading the story of our lives,',24,2,86),(1927,'as though we were in it,',25,2,86),(1928,'as though we had written it.',26,2,86),(1929,'This comes up again and again.',27,2,86),(1930,'In one of the chapters',28,2,86),(1931,'I lean back and push the book aside',29,2,86),(1932,'because the book says',30,2,86),(1933,'it is what I am doing.',31,2,86),(1934,'I lean back and begin to write about the book.',32,2,86),(1935,'I write that I wish to move beyond the book.',33,2,86),(1936,'Beyond my life into another life.',34,2,86),(1937,'I put the pen down.',35,2,86),(1938,'The book says: “He put the pen down',36,2,86),(1939,'and turned and watched her reading',37,2,86),(1940,'the part about herself falling in love.”',38,2,86),(1941,'The book is more accurate than we can imagine.',39,2,86),(1942,'I lean back and watch you read',40,2,86),(1943,'about the man across the street.',41,2,86),(1944,'They built a house there,',42,2,86),(1945,'and one day a man walked out of it.',43,2,86),(1946,'You fell in love with him',44,2,86),(1947,'because you knew that he would never visit you,',45,2,86),(1948,'would never know you were waiting.',46,2,86),(1949,'Night after night you would say',47,2,86),(1950,'that he was like me.',48,2,86),(1951,'I lean back and watch you grow older without me.',49,2,86),(1952,'Sunlight falls on your silver hair.',50,2,86),(1953,'The rugs, the furniture,',51,2,86),(1954,'seem almost imaginary now.',52,2,86),(1955,'“She continued to read.',53,2,86),(1956,'She seemed to consider his absence',54,2,86),(1957,'of no special importance,',55,2,86),(1958,'as someone on a perfect day will consider',56,2,86),(1959,'the weather a failure',57,2,86),(1960,'because it did not change his mind.”',58,2,86),(1961,'You narrow your eyes.',59,2,86),(1962,'You have the impulse to close the book',60,2,86),(1963,'which describes my resistance:',61,2,86),(1964,'how when I lean back I imagine',62,2,86),(1965,'my life without you, imagine moving',63,2,86),(1966,'into another life, another book.',64,2,86),(1967,'It describes your dependence on desire,',65,2,86),(1968,'how the momentary disclosures',66,2,86),(1969,'of purpose make you afraid.',67,2,86),(1970,'The book describes much more than it should.',68,2,86),(1971,'It wants to divide us.',69,2,86),(1972,'3',70,3,86),(1973,'This morning I woke and believed',71,3,86),(1974,'there was no more to to our lives',72,3,86),(1975,'than the story of our lives.',73,3,86),(1976,'When you disagreed, I pointed',74,3,86),(1977,'to the place in the book where you disagreed.',75,3,86),(1978,'You fell back to sleep and I began to read',76,3,86),(1979,'those mysterious parts you used to guess at',77,3,86),(1980,'while they were being written',78,3,86),(1981,'and lose interest in after they became',79,3,86),(1982,'part of the story.',80,3,86),(1983,'In one of them cold dresses of moonlight',81,3,86),(1984,'are draped over the chairs in a man’s room.',82,3,86),(1985,'He dreams of a woman whose dresses are lost,',83,3,86),(1986,'who sits in a garden and waits.',84,3,86),(1987,'She believes that love is a sacrifice.',85,3,86),(1988,'The part describes her death',86,3,86),(1989,'and she is never named,',87,3,86),(1990,'which is one of the things',88,3,86),(1991,'you could not stand about her.',89,3,86),(1992,'A little later we learn',90,3,86),(1993,'that the dreaming man lives',91,3,86),(1994,'in the new house across the street.',92,3,86),(1995,'This morning after you fell back to sleep',93,3,86),(1996,'I began to turn the pages early in the book:',94,3,86),(1997,'it was like dreaming of childhood,',95,3,86),(1998,'so much seemed to vanish,',96,3,86),(1999,'so much seemed to come to life again.',97,3,86),(2000,'I did not know what to do.',98,3,86),(2001,'The book said: “In those moments it was his book.',99,3,86),(2002,'A bleak crown rested uneasily on his head.',100,3,86),(2003,'He was the brief ruler of inner and outer discord,',101,3,86),(2004,'anxious in his own kingdom.”',102,3,86),(2005,'4',103,4,86),(2006,'Before you woke',104,4,86),(2007,'I read another part that described your absence',105,4,86),(2008,'and told how you sleep to reverse',106,4,86),(2009,'the progress of your life.',107,4,86),(2010,'I was touched by my own loneliness as I read,',108,4,86),(2011,'knowing that what I feel is often the crude',109,4,86),(2012,'and unsuccessful form of a story',110,4,86),(2013,'that may never be told.',111,4,86),(2014,'“He wanted to see her naked and vulnerable,',112,4,86),(2015,'to see her in the refuse, the discarded',113,4,86),(2016,'plots of old dreams, the costumes and masks',114,4,86),(2017,'of unattainable states.',115,4,86),(2018,'It was as if he were drawn',116,4,86),(2019,'irresistably to failure.”',117,4,86),(2020,'It was hard to keep reading.',118,4,86),(2021,'I was tired and wanted to give up.',119,4,86),(2022,'The book seemed aware of this.',120,4,86),(2023,'It hinted at changing the subject.',121,4,86),(2024,'I waited for you to wake not knowing',122,4,86),(2025,'how long I waited,',123,4,86),(2026,'and it seemed that I was no longer reading.',124,4,86),(2027,'I heard the wind passing',125,4,86),(2028,'like a stream of sighs',126,4,86),(2029,'and I heard the shiver of leaves',127,4,86),(2030,'in the trees outside the window.',128,4,86),(2031,'It would be in the book.',129,4,86),(2032,'Everything would be there.',130,4,86),(2033,'I looked at your face',131,4,86),(2034,'and I read the eyes, the nose, the mouth . . .',132,4,86),(2035,'5',133,5,86),(2036,'If only there were a perfect moment in the book;',134,5,86),(2037,'if only we could live in that moment,',135,5,86),(2038,'we could being the book again',136,5,86),(2039,'as if we had not written it,',137,5,86),(2040,'as if we were not in it.',138,5,86),(2041,'But the dark approaches',139,5,86),(2042,'to any page are too numerous',140,5,86),(2043,'and the escapes are too narrow.',141,5,86),(2044,'We read through the day.',142,5,86),(2045,'Each page turning is like a candle',143,5,86),(2046,'moving through the mind.',144,5,86),(2047,'Each moment is like a hopeless cause.',145,5,86),(2048,'If only we could stop reading.',146,5,86),(2049,'“He never wanted to read another book',147,5,86),(2050,'and she kept staring into the street.',148,5,86),(2051,'The cars were still there,',149,5,86),(2052,'the deep shade of trees covered them.',150,5,86),(2053,'The shades were drawn in the new house.',151,5,86),(2054,'Maybe the man who lived there,',152,5,86),(2055,'the man she loved, was reading',153,5,86),(2056,'the story of another life.',154,5,86),(2057,'She imagine a bare parlor,',155,5,86),(2058,'a cold fireplace, a man sitting',156,5,86),(2059,'writing a letter to a woman',157,5,86),(2060,'who has sacrificed her life for love.”',158,5,86),(2061,'If there were a perfect moment in the book,',159,5,86),(2062,'it would be the last.',160,5,86),(2063,'The book never discusses the causes of love.',161,5,86),(2064,'It claims confusion is a necessary good.',162,5,86),(2065,'It never explains. It only reveals.',163,5,86),(2066,'6',164,6,86),(2067,'The day goes on.',165,6,86),(2068,'We study what we remember.',166,6,86),(2069,'We look into the mirror across the room.',167,6,86),(2070,'We cannot bear to be alone.',168,6,86),(2071,'The book goes on.',169,6,86),(2072,'“They became silent and did not know how to begin',170,6,86),(2073,'the dialogue which was necessary.',171,6,86),(2074,'It was words that created divisions in the first place,',172,6,86),(2075,'that created loneliness.',173,6,86),(2076,'They waited',174,6,86),(2077,'they would turn the pages, hoping',175,6,86),(2078,'something would happen.',176,6,86),(2079,'They would patch up their lives in secret:',177,6,86),(2080,'each defeat forgiven because it could not be tested,',178,6,86),(2081,'each pain rewarded because it was unreal.',179,6,86),(2082,'They did nothing.”',180,6,86),(2083,'7',181,7,86),(2084,'The book will not survive.',182,7,86),(2085,'We are the living proof of that.',183,7,86),(2086,'It is dark outside, in the room it is darker.',184,7,86),(2087,'I hear your breathing.',185,7,86),(2088,'You are asking me if I am tired,',186,7,86),(2089,'if I want to keep reading.',187,7,86),(2090,'Yes, I am tired.',188,7,86),(2091,'Yes, I want to keep reading.',189,7,86),(2092,'I say yes to everything.',190,7,86),(2093,'You cannot hear me.',191,7,86),(2094,'“They sat beside each other on the couch.',192,7,86),(2095,'They were the copies, the tired phantoms',193,7,86),(2096,'of something they had been before.',194,7,86),(2097,'The attitudes they took were jaded.',195,7,86),(2098,'They stared into the book',196,7,86),(2099,'and were horrified by their innocence,',197,7,86),(2100,'their reluctance to give up.',198,7,86),(2101,'They sat beside each other on the couch.',199,7,86),(2102,'They were determined to accept the truth.',200,7,86),(2103,'Whatever it was they would accept it.',201,7,86),(2104,'The book would have to be written',202,7,86),(2105,'and would have to be read.',203,7,86),(2106,'They are the book and they are',204,7,86),(2107,'nothing else.',205,7,86),(2108,'Talking in bed ought to be easiest',1,1,87),(2109,'Lying together there goes back so far',2,1,87),(2110,'An emblem of two people being honest.',3,1,87),(2111,'Yet more and more time passes silently.',4,2,87),(2112,'Outside the wind’s incomplete unrest',5,2,87),(2113,'builds and disperses clouds about the sky.',6,2,87),(2114,'And dark towns heap up on the horizon.',7,3,87),(2115,'None of this cares for us. Nothing shows why',8,3,87),(2116,'At this unique distance from isolation',9,3,87),(2117,'It becomes still more difficult to find',10,4,87),(2118,'Words at once true and kind',11,4,87),(2119,'Or not untrue and not unkind.',12,4,87),(2120,'I said I will find what is lowly',1,1,88),(2121,'and put the roots of my identity',2,1,88),(2122,'down there:',3,1,88),(2123,'each day I’ll wake up',4,1,88),(2124,'and find the lowly nearby,',5,1,88),(2125,'a handy focus and reminder,',6,1,88),(2126,'a ready measure of my significance,',7,1,88),(2127,'the voice by which I would be heard,',8,1,88),(2128,'the wills, the kinds of selfishness',9,1,88),(2129,'I could',10,1,88),(2130,'freely adopt as my own:',11,1,88),(2131,'but though I have looked everywhere,',12,2,88),(2132,'I can find nothing',13,2,88),(2133,'to give myself to:',14,2,88),(2134,'everything is',15,2,88),(2135,'magnificent with existence, is in',16,3,88),(2136,'surfeit of glory:',17,3,88),(2137,'nothing is diminished,',18,3,88),(2138,'nothing has been diminished for me:',19,3,88),(2139,'I said what is more lowly than the grass:',20,4,88),(2140,'ah, underneath,',21,4,88),(2141,'a ground-crust of dry-burnt moss:',22,4,88),(2142,'I looked at it closely',23,4,88),(2143,'and said this can be my habitat: but',24,4,88),(2144,'nestling in I',25,4,88),(2145,'found',26,4,88),(2146,'below the brown exterior',27,4,88),(2147,'green mechanisms beyond the intellect',28,4,88),(2148,'awaiting resurrection in rain: so I got up',29,4,88),(2149,'and ran saying there is nothing lowly in the universe:',30,5,88),(2150,'I found a beggar:',31,5,88),(2151,'he had stumps for legs: nobody was paying',32,5,88),(2152,'him any attention: everybody went on by:',33,5,88),(2153,'I nestled in and found his life:',34,5,88),(2154,'there, love shook his body like a devastation:',35,5,88),(2155,'I said',36,5,88),(2156,'though I have looked everywhere',37,5,88),(2157,'I can find nothing lowly',38,5,88),(2158,'in the universe:',39,5,88),(2159,'I whirled though transfigurations up and down,',40,6,88),(2160,'transfigurations of size and shape and place:',41,6,88),(2161,'at one sudden point came still,',42,7,88),(2162,'stood in wonder:',43,7,88),(2163,'moss, beggar, weed, tick, pine, self, magnificent',44,7,88),(2164,'with being!',45,7,88),(2165,'Every morning',1,1,89),(2166,'the world',2,1,89),(2167,'is created.',3,1,89),(2168,'Under the orange',4,1,89),(2169,'sticks of the sun',5,2,89),(2170,'the heaped',6,2,89),(2171,'ashes of the night',7,2,89),(2172,'turn into leaves again',8,2,89),(2173,'and fasten themselves to the high branches —',9,3,89),(2174,'and the ponds appear',10,3,89),(2175,'like black cloth',11,3,89),(2176,'on which are painted islands',12,3,89),(2177,'of summer lilies.',13,4,89),(2178,'If it is your nature',14,4,89),(2179,'to be happy',15,4,89),(2180,'you will swim away along the soft trails',16,4,89),(2181,'for hours, your imagination',17,5,89),(2182,'alighting everywhere.',18,5,89),(2183,'And if your spirit',19,5,89),(2184,'carries within it',20,5,89),(2185,'the thorn',21,6,89),(2186,'that is heavier than lead —',22,6,89),(2187,'if it’s all you can do',23,6,89),(2188,'to keep on trudging —',24,6,89),(2189,'there is still',25,7,89),(2190,'somewhere deep within you',26,7,89),(2191,'a beast shouting that the earth',27,7,89),(2192,'is exactly what it wanted —',28,7,89),(2193,'each pond with its blazing lilies',29,8,89),(2194,'is a prayer heard and answered',30,8,89),(2195,'lavishly,',31,8,89),(2196,'every morning,',32,8,89),(2197,'whether or not',33,9,89),(2198,'you have ever dared to be happy,',34,9,89),(2199,'whether or not',35,9,89),(2200,'you have ever dared to pray.',36,9,89),(2201,'My party piece:',1,1,90),(2202,'I strike, then from the moment when the matchstick',2,1,90),(2203,'conjures up its light, to when the brightness moves',3,1,90),(2204,'beyond its means, and dies, I say the story',4,1,90),(2205,'of my life –',5,1,90),(2206,'dates and places, torches I carried,',6,2,90),(2207,'a cast of names and faces, those',7,2,90),(2208,'who showed me love, or came close,',8,2,90),(2209,'the changes I made, the lessons I learnt –',9,2,90),(2210,'then somehow still find time to stall and blush',10,3,90),(2211,'before I’m bitten by the flame, and burnt.',11,3,90),(2212,'A warning, though, to anyone nursing',12,4,90),(2213,'an ounce of sadness, anyone alone:',13,4,90),(2214,'don’t try this on your own; it’s dangerous,',14,4,90),(2215,'madness.',15,4,90),(2216,'A serious moment for the water is when it boils',1,1,91),(2217,'And though one usually regards it merely as a convenience',2,1,91),(2218,'To have the boiling water available for bath or table',3,1,91),(2219,'Occasionally there is someone',4,1,91),(2220,'Around who understands',5,1,91),(2221,'The importance of this moment for the water — maybe a saint,',6,1,91),(2222,'Maybe a poet, maybe a crazy man, or just someone temporarily disturbed',7,1,91),(2223,'With his mind “floating” in a sense, away from his deepest',8,1,91),(2224,'Personal concerns to more “unreal” things…',9,1,91),(2225,'A serious moment for the island is when its trees',10,2,91),(2226,'Begin to give it shade, and another is when the ocean washes',11,2,91),(2227,'Big heavy things against its side. One walks around and looks at the island',12,2,91),(2228,'But not really at it, at what is on it, and one things,',13,2,91),(2229,'It must be serious, even, to be this island, at all, here.',14,2,91),(2230,'Since it is lying here exposed to the whole sea. All its',15,2,91),(2231,'Moments might be serious. It is serious, in such windy weather, to be a sail',16,2,91),(2232,'Or an open window, or a feather flying in the street…',17,2,91),(2233,'Seriousness, how often I have thought of seriousness',18,3,91),(2234,'And how little I have understood it, except this: serious is urgent',19,3,91),(2235,'And it has to do with change. You say to the water,',20,3,91),(2236,'It’s not necessary to boil now, and you turn it off. It stops',21,3,91),(2237,'Fidgeting. And starts to cool. You put your hand in it',22,3,91),(2238,'And say, The water isn’t serious any more. It has the potential,',23,3,91),(2239,'However — that urgency to give off bubbles, to',24,3,91),(2240,'Change itself to steam. And the wind,',25,3,91),(2241,'When it becomes part of a hurricane, blowing up the beach',26,3,91),(2242,'And the sand dunes can’t keep it away.',27,3,91),(2243,'Fainting is one sign of seriousness, crying is another.',28,3,91),(2244,'Shuddering all over is another one.',29,3,91),(2245,'A serious moment for the telephone is when it rings.',30,4,91),(2246,'And a person answers, it is Angelica, or it is you.',31,4,91),(2247,'A serious moment for the fly is when its wings',32,5,91),(2248,'Are moving, and a serious moment for the duck',33,5,91),(2249,'Is when it swims, when it first touches water, then spreads',34,5,91),(2250,'Its smile upon the water…',35,5,91),(2251,'A serious moment for the match is when it bursts into flame…',36,6,91),(2252,'Serious for me is that I met you, and serious for you',37,7,91),(2253,'That you met me, and that we do not know',38,7,91),(2254,'If we will ever be close to anyone again. Serious the recognition of the probability',39,7,91),(2255,'That we will, although time stretches terribly in between…',40,7,91),(2256,'Virginia Woolf, incested',1,1,92),(2257,'though her childhood, wrote',2,1,92),(2258,'that she imagined herself',3,1,92),(2259,'growing up inside a grape.',4,1,92),(2260,'Grapes are sealed and safe.',5,1,92),(2261,'You wouldn’t quite float',6,1,92),(2262,'in one; you’d sit locked',7,1,92),(2263,'in enough moisture to keep',8,1,92),(2264,'from drying out, the world',9,1,92),(2265,'outside though gelid green.',10,1,92),(2266,'Picture everyone’s edges',11,1,92),(2267,'smudged. Picture everyone',12,1,92),(2268,'a green as delicate',13,1,92),(2269,'as a Ming celadon. Pic-',14,1,92),(2270,'ture yourself a mollusk',15,1,92),(2271,'with an unsegmented body',16,1,92),(2272,'in a skin so tight and taut',17,1,92),(2273,'that you’d be safe. You could',18,1,92),(2274,'ruminate all night about',19,1,92),(2275,'the difference between “taut”',20,1,92),(2276,'and “tight,” “molest” and “incest.”',21,1,92),(2277,'“Taut means tightly-drawn,',22,1,92),(2278,'high-strung. What is tight',23,1,92),(2279,'is structured so as not to',24,1,92),(2280,'permit passage of liquid',25,1,92),(2281,'or gas, air, or light.',26,1,92),(2282,'Home is so sad. It stays as it was left,',1,1,93),(2283,'Shaped in the comfort of the last to go',2,1,93),(2284,'As if to win them back. Instead, bereft',3,1,93),(2285,'Of anyone to please, it withers so,',4,1,93),(2286,'Having no heart to put aside the theft.',5,1,93),(2287,'And turn again to what it started as,',6,2,93),(2288,'A joyous shot at how things ought to be,',7,2,93),(2289,'Long fallen wide. You can see how it was:',8,2,93),(2290,'Look at the pictures and the cutlery.',9,2,93),(2291,'The music in the piano stool. That vase.',10,2,93),(2292,'Geese appear high over us,',1,1,94),(2293,'pass, and the sky closes. Abandon,',2,1,94),(2294,'as in love or sleep, holds',3,1,94),(2295,'them to their way, clear',4,1,94),(2296,'in the ancient faith: what we need',5,1,94),(2297,'is here. And we pray, not',6,1,94),(2298,'for new earth or heaven, but to be',7,1,94),(2299,'quiet in heart, and in eye,',8,1,94),(2300,'clear. What we need is here.',9,1,94),(2301,'Oh, I can smile for you, and tilt my head,',1,1,95),(2302,'And drink your rushing words with eager lips,',2,1,95),(2303,'And paint my mouth for you a fragrant red,',3,1,95),(2304,'And trace your brows with tutored finger-tips.',4,1,95),(2305,'When you rehearse your list of loves to me,',5,1,95),(2306,'Oh, I can laugh and marvel, rapturous-eyed.',6,1,95),(2307,'And you laugh back, nor can you ever see',7,1,95),(2308,'The thousand little deaths my heart has died.',8,1,95),(2309,'And you believe, so well I know my part,',9,1,95),(2310,'That I am gay as morning, light as snow,',10,1,95),(2311,'And all the straining things within my heart',11,1,95),(2312,'You’ll never know.',12,1,95),(2313,'Oh, I can laugh and listen, when we meet,',13,2,95),(2314,'And you bring tales of fresh adventurings, —',14,2,95),(2315,'Of ladies delicately indiscreet,',15,2,95),(2316,'Of lingering hands, and gently whispered things.',16,2,95),(2317,'And you are pleased with me, and strive anew',17,2,95),(2318,'To sing me sagas of your late delights.',18,2,95),(2319,'Thus do you want me — marveling, gay, and true,',19,2,95),(2320,'Nor do you see my staring eyes of nights.',20,2,95),(2321,'And when, in search of novelty, you stray,',21,2,95),(2322,'Oh, I can kiss you blithely as you go…',22,2,95),(2323,'And what goes on, my love, while you’re away,',23,2,95),(2324,'You’ll never know.',24,2,95),(2325,'Perhaps,',1,1,96),(2326,'in the exaggerated grace',2,1,96),(2327,'of his weight',3,1,96),(2328,'settling,',4,1,96),(2329,'the wings',5,2,96),(2330,'raised, held in',6,2,96),(2331,'strike-or-embrace',7,2,96),(2332,'position,',8,2,96),(2333,'I recognized',9,3,96),(2334,'something more',10,3,96),(2335,'than swan, I can’t say.',11,3,96),(2336,'There was just',12,4,96),(2337,'this barely defined',13,4,96),(2338,'shoulder, whose feathers',14,4,96),(2339,'came away in my hands,',15,4,96),(2340,'and the bit of world',16,5,96),(2341,'left beyond it, coming down',17,5,96),(2342,'to the heat-crippled field,',18,6,96),(2343,'ravens the precise color of',19,7,96),(2344,'sorrow in good light, neither',20,7,96),(2345,'black nor blue, like fallen',21,7,96),(2346,'stitches upon it,',22,7,96),(2347,'and the hour forever,',23,8,96),(2348,'it seemed, half-stepping',24,8,96),(2349,'its way elsewhere—',25,8,96),(2350,'then',26,9,96),(2351,'everything, I',27,9,96),(2352,'remember, began',28,9,96),(2353,'happening more quickly.',29,9,96),(2354,'One day people will touch and talk perhaps easily,',1,1,97),(2355,'And loving be natural as breathing and warm as sunlight,',2,1,97),(2356,'And people will untie themselves, as string is unknotted,',3,1,97),(2357,'Unfold and yawn and stretch and spread their fingers,',4,1,97),(2358,'Unfurl, uncurl like seaweed returned to the sea,',5,1,97),(2359,'And work will be simple and swift',6,1,97),(2360,'as a seagull flying,',7,1,97),(2361,'And play will be casual and quiet',8,1,97),(2362,'as a seagull settling,',9,1,97),(2363,'And the clocks will stop, and no one will wonder',10,1,97),(2364,'or care or notice,',11,1,97),(2365,'And people will smile without reason,',12,1,97),(2366,'Even in winter, even in the rain.',13,1,97),(2367,'How many blues has the Mediterranean conjured?',1,1,98),(2368,'RAFAEL ALBERTI',2,1,98),(2369,'And now they’ve all gone back',3,2,98),(2370,'to the source that is more blue',4,2,98),(2371,'than anyone has ever seen,',5,2,98),(2372,'everything I lost before I came here,',6,2,98),(2373,'everything that’s cast back on this shore.',7,2,98),(2374,'Because I wanted them so much,',8,3,98),(2375,'because I dreamt too hard,',9,3,98),(2376,'because I said all the wrong words,',10,3,98),(2377,'because I’ve worn out',11,3,98),(2378,'the consolation of prayers,',12,3,98),(2379,'the undertow of longing.',13,3,98),(2380,'The moon at daytime',14,4,98),(2381,'still thick with honey and minerals,',15,4,98),(2382,'the flood tide of rare',16,4,98),(2383,'and malleable metal.',17,4,98),(2384,'There must be logic',18,4,98),(2385,'far more human than the sea,',19,4,98),(2386,'although its mourning',20,4,98),(2387,'finds no shore,',21,4,98),(2388,'although it keeps on breathing',22,4,98),(2389,'like a being whose compassion',23,4,98),(2390,'we are only beginning to understand.',24,4,98),(2391,'Long ago I had a question for everything',25,5,98),(2392,'but now I know better: everything goes',26,5,98),(2393,'and only the questions remain.',27,5,98),(2394,'I must have been drawn',28,5,98),(2395,'to the impossible alchemy,',29,5,98),(2396,'the silence with which',30,5,98),(2397,'all things let go',31,5,98),(2398,'and become water.',32,5,98),(2399,'***',33,6,98),(2400,'This morning,',34,7,98),(2401,'after a storm,',35,7,98),(2402,'the mist reveals',36,7,98),(2403,'the jagged peaks of the Sierra Cabrera,',37,7,98),(2404,'like blue ghosts stirred awake',38,7,98),(2405,'by poisons in daguerrotypes.',39,7,98),(2406,'Every day it is the same,',40,8,98),(2407,'the ancient cabrero crosses this path',41,8,98),(2408,'with his billy goats and a shaggy dog',42,8,98),(2409,'nipping at their heels.',43,8,98),(2410,'I have come to rely',44,9,98),(2411,'on their presence,',45,9,98),(2412,'marking time by the tinkling',46,9,98),(2413,'of bells and the red dust rising',47,9,98),(2414,'and the way the newborn',48,10,98),(2415,'always hobbles away,',49,10,98),(2416,'its legs still soft',50,10,98),(2417,'with the memory of water.',51,10,98),(2418,'***',52,11,98),(2419,'This will be the time of miracles,',53,12,98),(2420,'all that we need to know',54,12,98),(2421,'will be revealed in dreams,',55,12,98),(2422,'in water, in the desert,',56,12,98),(2423,'in arteries, in stones.',57,12,98),(2424,'We will understand',58,13,98),(2425,'the persistence of trees',59,13,98),(2426,'and the agony of rivers,',60,13,98),(2427,'we will wear the silence',61,14,98),(2428,'of eclipses,',62,14,98),(2429,'and in our poverty',63,15,98),(2430,'there will be much to give',64,15,98),(2431,'and more light than we can imagine.',65,15,98),(2432,'Marahang-marahang',1,1,99),(2433,'manaog ka, Irog, at kata’y lalakad,',2,1,99),(2434,'maglulunoy katang',3,1,99),(2435,'payapang-payapa sa tabi ng dagat;',4,1,99),(2436,'di na kailangang',5,1,99),(2437,'sapnan pa ang paang binalat-sibuyas,',6,1,99),(2438,'ang daliring garing',7,1,99),(2439,'at sakong na wari’y kinuyom na rosas!',8,1,99),(2440,'Manunulay kata,',9,1,99),(2441,'habang maaga pa, sa isang pilapil',10,1,99),(2442,'na nalalatagan',11,1,99),(2443,'ng damong may luha ng mga bituin;',12,1,99),(2444,'patiyad na tayo',13,1,99),(2445,'ay maghahabulang simbilis ng hangin,',14,1,99),(2446,'nguni’t walang ingay,',15,1,99),(2447,'hanggang sa sumapit sa tiping buhangin…',16,1,99),(2448,'Pagdating sa tubig,',17,1,99),(2449,'mapapaurong kang parang nangingimi,',18,1,99),(2450,'gaganyakin kata',19,1,99),(2451,'sa nangaroroong mga lamang-lati:',20,1,99),(2452,'doon ay may tahong,',21,1,99),(2453,'talaba’t halaang kabigha-bighani,',22,1,99),(2454,'hindi kaya natin',23,1,99),(2455,'mapuno ang buslo bago tumanghali?',24,1,99),(2456,'Pagdadapit-hapon',25,1,99),(2457,'kata’y magbabalik sa pinanggalingan,',26,1,99),(2458,'sugatan ang paa',27,1,99),(2459,'at sunog ang balat sa sikat ng araw…',28,1,99),(2460,'Talagang ganoon:',29,1,99),(2461,'Sa dagat man, irog, ng kaligayahan,',30,1,99),(2462,'lahat, pati puso',31,1,99),(2463,'ay naaagnas ding marahang-marahan…',32,1,99),(2464,'I picked an azalea',1,1,100),(2465,'And brought it home.',2,1,100),(2466,'Now when I contemplate it,',3,1,100),(2467,'In its crimson dye',4,1,100),(2468,'I see the color',5,1,100),(2469,'Of my lover’s robe.',6,1,100),(2470,'(Para kay Ella)',1,1,101),(2471,'Sa iyo hahapon ang aking umaga,',2,2,101),(2472,'Sintang maligalig kapag umaalon.',3,2,101),(2473,'Kulubin mo ako sa usok at baga;',4,2,101),(2474,'Ang bawat araw ko’y tulutang humapon.',5,2,101),(2475,'Sa iyo pipitak, liwanag ng loob,',6,3,101),(2476,'Mahal kong kay rupok, akala mo’y ulap.',7,3,101),(2477,'Payapa kong ito’y payapa ng tulog,',8,3,101),(2478,'At lalong payapa tuwing mamumulat.',9,3,101),(2479,'Sa iyo tataas ang aking tanghali;',10,4,101),(2480,'Lahat ng anino’y magtatalilisan.',11,4,101),(2481,'Sa tanghaling tapat, ako ang itangi;',12,4,101),(2482,'Kasuyo, huwag mo akong bibitawan.',13,4,101),(2483,'Sa iyo lalatag, pilak ng ligaya,',14,5,101),(2484,'Aakyat ang buwan, titining ang dagat.',15,5,101),(2485,'Aba’y biglang-bigla, di halos makaya,',16,5,101),(2486,'Hudyat ng tag-ulang bubugso, kakalat.',17,5,101),(2487,'Some tourist of love',1,1,102),(2488,'in his cheap suit of longing',2,1,102),(2489,'will elbow the bar',3,1,102),(2490,'in the lounge of no last names,',4,1,102),(2491,'dip his cuff accidentally',5,1,102),(2492,'in your seven & seven',6,1,102),(2493,'and ask you to dance',7,1,102),(2494,'to the faint moan of muzak,',8,1,102),(2495,'perfume your earrings',9,1,102),(2496,'with breath mints and gin',10,1,102),(2497,'as the lights grow yet dimmer',11,1,102),(2498,'as his hand on the switch',12,1,102),(2499,'hovers inches away',13,1,102),(2500,'from the slick red edge',14,1,102),(2501,'of your hungover heart',15,1,102),(2502,'with its faded no vacancy sign.',16,1,102),(2503,'How beautiful the sun as it skims',1,1,103),(2504,'across the air in the hush of ten degrees,',2,1,103),(2505,'disc of palest yellow hope along a sky',3,1,103),(2506,'of circumstance; how beautifully we watch it fall,',4,2,103),(2507,'the random tern, forgotten mole,',5,2,103),(2508,'the infant tree inside rough winter bark.',6,2,103),(2509,'How beautiful this frost, female fingers',7,3,103),(2510,'tracing down the glass, how beautiful',8,3,103),(2511,'this world too cold to criticize itself;',9,3,103),(2512,'how beautiful Earth’s creatures are, happy',10,4,103),(2513,'and forever safe from the only perfect tragedy,',11,4,103),(2514,'which is of course to never have been born.',12,4,103),(2515,'I never meant the words I said,',1,1,104),(2516,'So trouble not your honest head',2,1,104),(2517,'And never mean the words I write,',3,1,104),(2518,'But come and kiss me now goodnight.',4,1,104),(2519,'The words I said break with the thunder',5,2,104),(2520,'Of billows surging into spray:',6,2,104),(2521,'Unfathomed depths withhold the wonder',7,2,104),(2522,'Of all the words I never say.',8,2,104),(2523,'By the first of August',1,1,105),(2524,'the invisible beetles began',2,1,105),(2525,'to snore and the grass was',3,1,105),(2526,'as tough as hemp and was',4,1,105),(2527,'no color–no more than',5,1,105),(2528,'the sand was a color and',6,1,105),(2529,'we had worn our bare feet',7,1,105),(2530,'bare since the twentieth',8,1,105),(2531,'of June and there were times',9,1,105),(2532,'we forgot to wind up your',10,1,105),(2533,'alarm clock and some nights',11,1,105),(2534,'we took our gin warm and neat',12,1,105),(2535,'from old jelly glasses while',13,1,105),(2536,'the sun blew out of sight',14,1,105),(2537,'like a red picture hat and',15,1,105),(2538,'one day I tied my hair back',16,1,105),(2539,'with a ribbon and you said',17,1,105),(2540,'that I looked almost like',18,1,105),(2541,'a puritan lady and what',19,1,105),(2542,'I remember best is that',20,1,105),(2543,'the door to your room was',21,1,105),(2544,'the door to mine.',22,1,105),(2545,'Suddenly I remember the holes,',1,1,106),(2546,'Suddenly I think of a man with no entrances,',2,1,106),(2547,'no exits, the closed man, with feelers or claws',3,1,106),(2548,'so sensitive that he can tell',4,1,106),(2549,'what rock is, or flesh, water, or flame.',5,1,106),(2550,'Where does everything go when it comes in?',6,1,106),(2551,'What should I do with the pure speech of cells',7,1,106),(2552,'where we find ourselves?',8,1,106),(2553,'The river flies, the dusk crawls into the ground,',9,1,106),(2554,'the streets get up and leave,',10,1,106),(2555,'the sun recklessly feeds our blood.',11,1,106),(2556,'We could be crouching on the branch, we could be',12,1,106),(2557,'gnawing the brown feathers and thighs of a new animal,',13,1,106),(2558,'we could be plotting under the ice while others dream.',14,1,106),(2559,'But I want the infinite man who sleeps',15,1,106),(2560,'in my veins to rise, I want to hear',16,1,106),(2561,'the thin buzzing that floats out of my chest',17,1,106),(2562,'like an arm of locusts making terrible decisions.',18,1,106),(2563,'Sometimes I want to die because of this.',19,1,106),(2564,'The word Faith means when someone sees',1,1,107),(2565,'A dew-drop or a floating leaf, and knows',2,1,107),(2566,'That they are, because they have to be.',3,1,107),(2567,'And even if you dreamed, or closed your eyes',4,1,107),(2568,'And wished, the world would still be what it was,',5,1,107),(2569,'And the leaf would still be carried down the river.',6,1,107),(2570,'It means that when someone’s foot is hurt',7,2,107),(2571,'By a sharp rock, he also knows that rocks',8,2,107),(2572,'Are here so they can hurt our feet.',9,2,107),(2573,'Look, see the long shadow cast by the trees;',10,2,107),(2574,'And flowers and people throw shadows on the earth:',11,2,107),(2575,'What has no shadow has no strength to live.',12,2,107),(2576,'Today the snow is drifting',1,1,108),(2577,'on Belle Isle, and the ducks',2,1,108),(2578,'are searching for some opening',3,1,108),(2579,'to the filthy waters of the their river.',4,1,108),(2580,'On Grand River Avenue, which is not',5,1,108),(2581,'in Venice but in Detroit, Michigan,',6,1,108),(2582,'the traffic has slowed to a standstill',7,1,108),(2583,'and yet a sober man has hit a parked car',8,1,108),(2584,'and swears to the police he was',9,1,108),(2585,'not guilty. The bright squads of children',10,1,108),(2586,'on their way to school howl',11,1,108),(2587,'at the foolishness of the world',12,1,108),(2588,'they will try not to inherit.',13,1,108),(2589,'Seen from inside a window,',14,1,108),(2590,'even a filthy one like those',15,1,108),(2591,'at Automotive Supply Company, the snow,',16,1,108),(2592,'which has been falling for hours,',17,1,108),(2593,'is more beautiful than even the spring',18,1,108),(2594,'grass which once unfurled here',19,1,108),(2595,'before the invention of steel and fire,',20,1,108),(2596,'for spring grass is what the earth sang',21,1,108),(2597,'in answer to the new sun, to',22,1,108),(2598,'melting snow, and the dark rain',23,1,108),(2599,'of spring nights.',24,1,108),(2600,'But snow is nothing.',25,2,108),(2601,'It has no melody of form, it',26,2,108),(2602,'is as though the tears of all',27,2,108),(2603,'the lost souls rose to heaven',28,2,108),(2604,'and were finally heard and blessed',29,2,108),(2605,'with substance and the power of flight',30,2,108),(2606,'and, given their choice, chose then',31,2,108),(2607,'to return to earth, to lay their',32,2,108),(2608,'great pale cheek against the burning',33,2,108),(2609,'cheek of earth and say, “There, there, child.”',34,2,108),(2610,'In a field',1,1,109),(2611,'I am the absence',2,1,109),(2612,'of field.',3,1,109),(2613,'This is',4,1,109),(2614,'always the case.',5,1,109),(2615,'Wherever I am',6,1,109),(2616,'I am what is missing.',7,1,109),(2617,'When I walk',8,2,109),(2618,'I part the air',9,2,109),(2619,'and always',10,2,109),(2620,'the air moves in',11,2,109),(2621,'to fill the spaces',12,2,109),(2622,'where my body’s been.',13,2,109),(2623,'We all have reasons',14,3,109),(2624,'for moving.',15,3,109),(2625,'I move',16,3,109),(2626,'to keep things whole.',17,3,109),(2627,'Meditation is old and honorable, so why should I',1,1,110),(2628,'not sit, every morning of my life, on the hillside,',2,1,110),(2629,'looking into the shining world? Because, properly',3,1,110),(2630,'attended to, delight, as well as havoc, is suggestion.',4,1,110),(2631,'Can one be passionate about the just, the',5,1,110),(2632,'ideal, the sublime, and the holy, and yet commit',6,1,110),(2633,'to no labor in its cause? I don’t think so.',7,1,110),(2634,'All summations have a beginning, all effect has a',8,2,110),(2635,'story, all kindness begins with the sown seed.',9,2,110),(2636,'Thought buds toward radiance. The gospel of',10,2,110),(2637,'light is the crossroads of — indolence, or action.',11,2,110),(2638,'Be ignited, or be gone.',12,3,110),(2639,'Lord she’s gone done left me',1,1,111),(2640,'done packed up and split',2,1,111),(2641,'and I with no way to make her',3,1,111),(2642,'come back and everywhere the world is bare',4,1,111),(2643,'bright bone white crystal sand glistens',5,1,111),(2644,'dope death dead dying and jiving drove',6,1,111),(2645,'her away made her take her laughter and her smiles',7,1,111),(2646,'and her softness and her midnight sighs—',8,1,111),(2647,'Fuck Coltrane and music and clouds drifting in the sky',9,2,111),(2648,'fuck the sea and trees and the sky and birds',10,2,111),(2649,'and alligators and all the animals that roam the earth',11,2,111),(2650,'fuck marx and mao fuck fidel and nkrumah and',12,2,111),(2651,'democracy and communism fuck smack and pot',13,2,111),(2652,'and red ripe tomatoes fuck joseph fuck mary fuck',14,2,111),(2653,'god jesus and all the disciples fuck fanon nixon',15,2,111),(2654,'and malcom fuck the revolution fuck freedom fuck',16,2,111),(2655,'the whole muthafucking thing',17,2,111),(2656,'all i want now is my woman back',18,2,111),(2657,'so my soul can sing',19,2,111),(2658,'EYES:……………………………………Medium',1,1,112),(2659,'HAIR:……………………………………Medium',2,1,112),(2660,'WEIGHT:………………………………Medium',3,1,112),(2661,'HEIGHT:………………………………Medium',4,1,112),(2662,'DISTINGUISHING FEATURES…None',5,1,112),(2663,'NUMBER OF FINGERS:………..Ten',6,1,112),(2664,'NUMBER OF TOES………………Ten',7,1,112),(2665,'INTELLIGENCE…………………….Medium',8,1,112),(2666,'What did you expect?',9,2,112),(2667,'Talons?',10,3,112),(2668,'Oversize incisors?',11,4,112),(2669,'Green saliva?',12,5,112),(2670,'Madness?',13,6,112),(2671,'A cold rain starting',1,1,113),(2672,'And no hat —',2,1,113),(2673,'So?',3,1,113),(2674,'Tonight I can write the saddest lines.',1,1,114),(2675,'Write, for example,’The night is shattered',2,2,114),(2676,'and the blue stars shiver in the distance.’',3,2,114),(2677,'The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.',4,3,114),(2678,'Tonight I can write the saddest lines.',5,4,114),(2679,'I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.',6,4,114),(2680,'Through nights like this one I held her in my arms',7,5,114),(2681,'I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.',8,5,114),(2682,'She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.',9,6,114),(2683,'How could one not have loved her great still eyes.',10,6,114),(2684,'Tonight I can write the saddest lines.',11,7,114),(2685,'To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.',12,7,114),(2686,'To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.',13,8,114),(2687,'And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.',14,8,114),(2688,'What does it matter that my love could not keep her.',15,9,114),(2689,'The night is shattered and she is not with me.',16,9,114),(2690,'This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.',17,10,114),(2691,'My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.',18,10,114),(2692,'My sight searches for her as though to go to her.',19,11,114),(2693,'My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.',20,11,114),(2694,'The same night whitening the same trees.',21,12,114),(2695,'We, of that time, are no longer the same.',22,12,114),(2696,'I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.',23,13,114),(2697,'My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.',24,13,114),(2698,'Another’s. She will be another’s. Like my kisses before.',25,14,114),(2699,'Her voide. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes.',26,14,114),(2700,'I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.',27,15,114),(2701,'Love is so short, forgetting is so long.',28,15,114),(2702,'Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms',29,16,114),(2703,'my sould is not satisfied that it has lost her.',30,16,114),(2704,'Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer',31,17,114),(2705,'and these the last verses that I write for her.',32,17,114),(2706,'when you’re lonely in your room, and the year',1,1,115),(2707,'is hovering in your eyes; remember, when',2,1,115),(2708,'he calls you late and sorry, how the tears',3,1,115),(2709,'had made you wise; how it happened again',4,1,115),(2710,'and again, pushing you out and pulling you in,',5,1,115),(2711,'and how his words were wind that fanned your fears;',6,1,115),(2712,'how he could not help himself, though his skin',7,1,115),(2713,'was sweet and soft, and though — when you were near —',8,1,115),(2714,'he was drawn to you; how his body was truth and on-',9,1,115),(2715,'ly his body was truth — no, no, remember how lost',10,1,115),(2716,'you felt and how often, and how high the cost,',11,1,115),(2717,'and how close Love sat next to Lone.',12,1,115),(2718,'Remember — a whispering in your vein — how keen',13,1,115),(2719,'the pleasure, but how stabbing deep the pain.',14,1,115),(2720,'If I were a cinnamon peeler',1,1,116),(2721,'I would ride your bed',2,1,116),(2722,'and leave the yellow bark dust',3,1,116),(2723,'on your pillow.',4,1,116),(2724,'Your breasts and shoulders would reek',5,2,116),(2725,'you could never walk through markets',6,2,116),(2726,'without the profession of my fingers',7,2,116),(2727,'floating over you. The blind would',8,2,116),(2728,'stumble certain of whom they approached',9,2,116),(2729,'though you might bathe',10,2,116),(2730,'under rain gutters, monsoon.',11,2,116),(2731,'Here on the upper thigh',12,3,116),(2732,'at this smooth pasture',13,3,116),(2733,'neighbor to your hair',14,3,116),(2734,'or the crease',15,3,116),(2735,'that cuts your back. This ankle.',16,3,116),(2736,'You will be known among strangers',17,3,116),(2737,'as the cinnamon peeler’s wife.',18,3,116),(2738,'I could hardly glance at you',19,4,116),(2739,'before marriage',20,4,116),(2740,'never touch you',21,4,116),(2741,'— your keen nosed mother, your rough brothers.',22,4,116),(2742,'I buried my hands',23,4,116),(2743,'in saffron, disguised them',24,4,116),(2744,'over smoking tar,',25,4,116),(2745,'helped the honey gatherers…',26,4,116),(2746,'When we swam once',27,5,116),(2747,'I touched you in water',28,5,116),(2748,'and our bodies remained free,',29,5,116),(2749,'you could hold me and be blind of smell.',30,5,116),(2750,'You climbed the bank and said',31,5,116),(2751,'this is how you touch other women',32,6,116),(2752,'the grasscutter’s wife, the lime burner’s daughter.',33,6,116),(2753,'And you searched your arms',34,6,116),(2754,'for the missing perfume.',35,6,116),(2755,'and knew',36,6,116),(2756,'what good is it',37,6,116),(2757,'to be the lime burner’s daughter',38,6,116),(2758,'left with no trace',39,6,116),(2759,'as if not spoken to in an act of love',40,6,116),(2760,'as if wounded without the pleasure of scar.',41,6,116),(2761,'You touched',42,7,116),(2762,'your belly to my hands',43,7,116),(2763,'in the dry air and said',44,7,116),(2764,'I am the cinnamon',45,7,116),(2765,'peeler’s wife. Smell me.',46,7,116),(2766,'I would like to watch you sleeping,',1,1,117),(2767,'which may not happen.',2,1,117),(2768,'I would like to watch you,',3,1,117),(2769,'sleeping. I would like to sleep',4,1,117),(2770,'with you, to enter',5,1,117),(2771,'your sleep as its smooth dark wave',6,1,117),(2772,'slides over my head',7,1,117),(2773,'and walk with you through that lucent',8,2,117),(2774,'wavering forest of bluegreen leaves',9,2,117),(2775,'with its watery sun & three moons',10,2,117),(2776,'towards the cave where you must descend,',11,2,117),(2777,'towards your worst fear',12,2,117),(2778,'I would like to give you the silver',13,3,117),(2779,'branch, the small white flower, the one',14,3,117),(2780,'word that will protect you',15,3,117),(2781,'from the grief at the center',16,3,117),(2782,'of your dream, from the grief',17,3,117),(2783,'at the center. I would like to follow',18,3,117),(2784,'you up the long stairway',19,3,117),(2785,'again & become',20,3,117),(2786,'the boat that would row you back',21,3,117),(2787,'carefully, a flame',22,3,117),(2788,'in two cupped hands',23,3,117),(2789,'to where your body lies',24,3,117),(2790,'beside me, and you enter',25,3,117),(2791,'it as easily as breathing in',26,3,117),(2792,'I would like to be the air',27,4,117),(2793,'that inhabits you for a moment',28,4,117),(2794,'only. I would like to be that unnoticed',29,4,117),(2795,'& that necessary.',30,4,117),(2796,'A neighbourhood.',1,1,118),(2797,'At dusk.',2,1,118),(2798,'Things are getting ready',3,2,118),(2799,'to happen',4,2,118),(2800,'out of sight.',5,2,118),(2801,'Stars and moths.',6,3,118),(2802,'And rinds slanting around fruit.',7,3,118),(2803,'But not yet.',8,4,118),(2804,'One tree is black.',9,5,118),(2805,'One window is yellow as butter.',10,5,118),(2806,'A woman leans down to catch a child',11,6,118),(2807,'who has run into her arms',12,6,118),(2808,'this moment.',13,6,118),(2809,'Stars rise.',14,7,118),(2810,'Moths flutter.',15,7,118),(2811,'Apples sweeten in the dark.',16,7,118),(2812,'No, I’ll not take the half of anything!',1,1,119),(2813,'Give me the whole sky! The far-flung earth!',2,1,119),(2814,'Seas and rivers and mountain avalanches—',3,1,119),(2815,'All these are mine! I’ll accept no less!',4,1,119),(2816,'No, life, you cannot woo me with a part.',5,2,119),(2817,'Let it be all or nothing! I can shoulder that!',6,2,119),(2818,'I don’t want happiness by halves,',7,2,119),(2819,'Nor is half of sorrow what I want.',8,2,119),(2820,'Yet there’s a pillow I would share,',9,3,119),(2821,'Where gently pressed against a cheek,',10,3,119),(2822,'Like a helpless star, a falling star,',11,3,119),(2823,'A ring glimmers on a finger of your hand.',12,3,119),(2824,'How do they do it, the ones who make love',1,1,120),(2825,'without love? Beautiful as dancers,',2,1,120),(2826,'Gliding over each other like ice-skaters',3,1,120),(2827,'over the ice, fingers hooked',4,1,120),(2828,'inside each other’s bodies, faces',5,1,120),(2829,'red as steak, wine, wet as the',6,1,120),(2830,'children at birth, whose mothers are going to',7,1,120),(2831,'give them away. How do they come to the',8,1,120),(2832,'come to the come to the God come to the',9,1,120),(2833,'still waters, and not love',10,1,120),(2834,'the one who came there with them, light',11,1,120),(2835,'rising slowly as steam off their joined',12,1,120),(2836,'skin? These are the true religious,',13,1,120),(2837,'the purists, the pros, the ones who will not',14,1,120),(2838,'accept a false Messiah, love the',15,1,120),(2839,'priest instead of the God. They do not',16,1,120),(2840,'mistake the lover for their own pleasure,',17,1,120),(2841,'they are like great runners: they know they are alone',18,1,120),(2842,'with the road surface, the cold, the wind,',19,1,120),(2843,'the fit of their shoes, their over-all cardio',20,1,120),(2844,'vascular health–just factors, like the partner',21,1,120),(2845,'in the bed, and not the truth, which is the',22,1,120),(2846,'single body alone in the universe',23,1,120),(2847,'against its own best time.',24,1,120),(2848,'I’m thinking of you. What else can I say?',1,1,121),(2849,'The palm trees on the reverse',2,1,121),(2850,'are a delusion; so is the pink sand.',3,1,121),(2851,'What we have are the usual',4,1,121),(2852,'fractured coke bottles and the smell',5,1,121),(2853,'of backed-up drains, too sweet,',6,1,121),(2854,'like a mango on the verge',7,1,121),(2855,'of rot, which we have also.',8,1,121),(2856,'The air clear sweat, mosquitos',9,1,121),(2857,'& their tracks; birds, blue & elusive.',10,1,121),(2858,'Time comes in waves here, a sickness, one',11,2,121),(2859,'day after the other rolling on;',12,2,121),(2860,'I move up, its called',13,2,121),(2861,'awake, then down into the uneasy',14,2,121),(2862,'nights but never',15,2,121),(2863,'forward. The roosters crow',16,2,121),(2864,'for hours before dawn, and a prodded',17,2,121),(2865,'child howls & howls',18,2,121),(2866,'on the pocked road to school.',19,2,121),(2867,'In the hold with the baggage',20,2,121),(2868,'there are two prisoners,',21,2,121),(2869,'their heads shaved by bayonets, & ten crates',22,2,121),(2870,'of queasy chicks. Each spring',23,2,121),(2871,'there’s a race of cripples, from the store',24,2,121),(2872,'to the church. This is the sort of junk',25,2,121),(2873,'I carry with me; and a clipping',26,2,121),(2874,'about democracy from the local paper.',27,2,121),(2875,'Outside the window',28,2,121),(2876,'they’re building the damn hotel,',29,2,121),(2877,'nail by nail, someone’s',30,2,121),(2878,'crumbling dream. A universe that includes you',31,2,121),(2879,'can’t be all bad, but',32,2,121),(2880,'does it? At this distance',33,2,121),(2881,'you’re a mirage, a glossy image',34,2,121),(2882,'fixed in the posture',35,2,121),(2883,'of the last time i saw you.',36,2,121),(2884,'Turn you over, there’s the place',37,2,121),(2885,'for the address. Wish you were',38,2,121),(2886,'here. Love comes',39,2,121),(2887,'in waves like the ocean, a sickness which goes on',40,2,121),(2888,'& on, a hollow cave',41,2,121),(2889,'in the head, filling and pounding, a kicked ear.',42,2,121),(2890,'Above the quiet dock in midnight,',1,1,122),(2891,'Tangled in the tall mast’s corded height,',2,1,122),(2892,'Hangs the moon. What seemed so far away',3,1,122),(2893,'Is but a child’s balloon, forgotten after play.',4,1,122),(2894,'“What can be said can’t be said,',1,1,123),(2895,'and can’t be whistled either.”',2,1,123),(2896,'– Wittgenstein',3,1,123),(2897,'Wittgenstein was wrong: when lovers kiss',4,2,123),(2898,'they whistle into each other’s mouth',5,2,123),(2899,'a truth old and sayable as the sun,',6,2,123),(2900,'for flesh is palace, aurora borealis,',7,2,123),(2901,'and the world is all subtraction in the end.',8,2,123),(2902,'The world is all subtraction in the end,',9,3,123),(2903,'yet, in a small vaulted room at the azimuth',10,3,123),(2904,'of desire, even our awkward numbers sum.',11,3,123),(2905,'Love’s syllogism only love can test.',12,3,123),(2906,'But who would quarrel with its sprawling proof?',13,4,123),(2907,'The daftest logic brings such sweet unrest.',14,4,123),(2908,'Love speaks in tongues, its natural idiom.',15,4,123),(2909,'Tingling, your lips drift down the xylophone',16,4,123),(2910,'of my ribs, and I close my eyes and chime.',17,4,123),(2911,'How can I sustain',1,1,124),(2912,'this troubled swelling:',2,1,124),(2913,'my heart like an eggplant,',3,1,124),(2914,'blackened, bulbous, grows too greedy:',4,2,124),(2915,'bruised and sorrowful,',5,2,124),(2916,'it will not let its great loss go,',6,2,124),(2917,'wanting to be pendulous with child.',7,3,124),(2918,'Private pain in time of trouble',8,3,124),(2919,'as the dark-eyed children burn.',9,3,124),(2920,'They stretch out their small hands to me:',10,4,124),(2921,'sparrows, and I do not hear.',11,4,124),(2922,'It is a false spring this year.',12,4,124),(2923,'It seems these poets have nothing',1,1,125),(2924,'up their ample sleeves',2,1,125),(2925,'they turn over so many cards so early,',3,1,125),(2926,'telling us before the first line',4,1,125),(2927,'whether it is wet or dry,',5,1,125),(2928,'night or day, the season the man is standing in,',6,1,125),(2929,'even how much he has had to drink.',7,1,125),(2930,'Maybe it is autumn and he is looking at a sparrow.',8,2,125),(2931,'Maybe it is snowing on a town with a beautiful name.',9,2,125),(2932,'“Viewing Peonies at the Temple of Good Fortune',10,3,125),(2933,'on a Cloudy Afternoon” is one of Sun Tung Po’s.',11,3,125),(2934,'“Dipping Water from the River and Simmering Tea”',12,3,125),(2935,'is another one, or just',13,3,125),(2936,'“On a Boat, Awake at Night.”',14,3,125),(2937,'And Lu Yu takes the simple rice cake with',15,4,125),(2938,'“In a Boat on a Summer Evening',16,4,125),(2939,'I Heard the Cry of a Waterbird.',17,4,125),(2940,'It Was Very Sad and Seemed To Be Saying',18,4,125),(2941,'My Woman Is Cruel–Moved, I Wrote This Poem.”',19,4,125),(2942,'There is no iron turnstile to push against here',20,5,125),(2943,'as with headings like “Vortex on a String,”',21,5,125),(2944,'“The Horn of Neurosis,” or whatever.',22,5,125),(2945,'No confusingly inscribed welcome mat to puzzle over.',23,5,125),(2946,'Instead, “I Walk Out on a Summer Morning',24,6,125),(2947,'to the Sound of Birds and a Waterfall”',25,6,125),(2948,'is a beaded curtain brushing over my shoulders.',26,6,125),(2949,'And “Ten Days of Spring Rain Have Kept Me Indoors”',27,7,125),(2950,'is a servant who shows me into the room',28,7,125),(2951,'where a poet with a thin beard',29,7,125),(2952,'is sitting on a mat with a jug of wine',30,7,125),(2953,'whispering something about clouds and cold wind,',31,7,125),(2954,'about sickness and the loss of friends.',32,7,125),(2955,'How easy he has made it for me to enter here,',33,8,125),(2956,'to sit down in a corner,',34,8,125),(2957,'cross my legs like his, and listen.',35,8,125),(2958,'Am I to become profligate as if I were a blonde? Or religious as if I were French?',1,1,126),(2959,'Each time my heart is broken it makes me feel more adventurous (and how the same names keep recurring on that interminable list!), but one of these days there’ll be nothing left with which to venture forth.',2,2,126),(2960,'Why should I share you? Why don’t you get rid of someone else for a change?',3,3,126),(2961,'I am the least difficult of men. All I want is boundless love.',4,4,126),(2962,'Even trees understand me! Good heavens, I lie under them, too, don’t I? I’m just like a pile of leaves.',5,5,126),(2963,'However, I have never clogged myself with the praises of pastoral life, nor with nostalgia for an innocent past of perverted acts in pastures. No. One need never leave the confines of New York to get all the greenery one wishes—I can’t even enjoy a blade of grass unless I know there’s a subway handy, or a record store or some other sign that people do not totally regret life. It is more important to affirm the least sincere; the clouds get enough attention as it is and even they continue to pass. Do they know what they’re missing? Uh huh.',6,6,126),(2964,'My eyes are vague blue, like the sky, and change all the time; they are indiscriminate but fleeting, entirely specific and disloyal, so that no one trusts me. I am always looking away. Or again at something after it has given me up. It makes me restless and that makes me unhappy, but I cannot keep them still. If only I had grey, green, black, brown, yellow eyes; I would stay at home and do something. It’s not that I’m curious. On the contrary, I am bored but it’s my duty to be attentive, I am needed by things as the sky must be above the earth. And lately, so great has their anxiety become, I can spare myself little sleep.',7,7,126),(2965,'Now there is only one man I love to kiss when he is unshaven. Heterosexuality! you are inexorably approaching. (How discourage her?)',8,8,126),(2966,'St. Serapion, I wrap myself in the robes of your whiteness which is like midnight in Dostoevsky. How am I to become a legend, my dear? I’ve tried love, but that hides you in the bosom of another and I am always springing forth from it like the lotus—the ecstasy of always bursting forth! (but one must not be distracted by it!) or like a hyacinth, “to keep the filth of life away,” yes, there, even in the heart, where the filth is pumped in and slanders and pollutes and determines. I will my will, though I may become famous for a mysterious vacancy in that department, that greenhouse.',9,9,126),(2967,'Destroy yourself, if you don’t know!',10,10,126),(2968,'It is easy to be beautiful; it is difficult to appear so. I admire you, beloved, for the trap you’ve set. It’s like a final chapter no one reads because the plot is over.',11,11,126),(2969,'“Fanny Brown is run away—scampered off with a Cornet of Horse; I do love that little Minx, & hope She may be happy, tho’ She has vexed me by this Exploit a little too. —Poor silly Cecchina! or F:B: as we used to call her. —I wish She had a good Whipping and 10,000 pounds.” —Mrs. Thrale.',12,12,126),(2970,'I’ve got to get out of here. I choose a piece of shawl and my dirtiest suntans. I’ll be back, I’ll re-emerge, defeated, from the valley; you don’t want me to go where you go, so I go where you don’t want me to. It’s only afternoon, there’s a lot ahead. There won’t be any mail downstairs. Turning, I spit in the lock and the knob turns.',13,13,126),(2971,'Dear Madam, you have seen this play;',1,1,127),(2972,'I never saw it till today.',2,1,127),(2973,'You know the details of the plot,',3,1,127),(2974,'But, let me tell you, I do not.',4,1,127),(2975,'The author seeks to keep from me',5,1,127),(2976,'The murderer’s identity,',6,1,127),(2977,'And you are not a friend of his',7,1,127),(2978,'If you keep shouting who it is.',8,1,127),(2979,'The actors in their funny way',9,1,127),(2980,'Have several funny things to say,',10,1,127),(2981,'But they do not amuse me more',11,1,127),(2982,'If you have said them just before;',12,1,127),(2983,'The merit of the drama lies,',13,1,127),(2984,'I understand, in some surprise;',14,1,127),(2985,'But the surprise must now be small',15,1,127),(2986,'Since you have just foretold it all.',16,1,127),(2987,'The lady you have brought with you',17,1,127),(2988,'Is, I infer, a half-wit too,',18,1,127),(2989,'But I can understand the piece',19,1,127),(2990,'Without assistance from your niece.',20,1,127),(2991,'In short, foul woman, it would suit',21,1,127),(2992,'Me just as well if you were mute;',22,1,127),(2993,'In fact, to make my meaning plain,',23,1,127),(2994,'I trust you will not speak again.',24,1,127),(2995,'And—may I add one human touch?—',25,1,127),(2996,'Don’t breathe upon my neck so much.',26,1,127),(2997,'We find out the heart only by dismantling what',1,1,128),(2998,'the heart knows. By redefining the morning,',2,1,128),(2999,'we find a morning that comes just after darkness.',3,1,128),(3000,'We can break through marriage into marriage.',4,1,128),(3001,'By insisting on love we spoil it, get beyond',5,1,128),(3002,'affection and wade mouth-deep into love.',6,1,128),(3003,'We must unlearn the constellations to see the stars.',7,1,128),(3004,'But going back toward childhood will not help.',8,1,128),(3005,'The village is not better than Pittsburgh.',9,1,128),(3006,'Only Pittsburgh is more than Pittsburgh.',10,1,128),(3007,'Rome is better than Rome in the same way the sound',11,1,128),(3008,'of racoon tongues licking the inside walls',12,1,128),(3009,'of the garbage tub is more than the stir',13,1,128),(3010,'of them in the muck of the garbage. Love is not',14,1,128),(3011,'enough. We die and are put into the earth forever.',15,1,128),(3012,'We should insist while there is still time. We must',16,1,128),(3013,'eat through the wildness of her sweet body already',17,1,128),(3014,'in our bed to reach the body within the body.',18,1,128),(3015,'Shall I compare you to a rainbowed shower',1,1,129),(3016,'Drawing to earth the very arc of dream,',2,1,129),(3017,'Or shall I say you are an orchid flower',3,1,129),(3018,'That fevers men beside a jungle stream?',4,1,129),(3019,'Shall I compare you to a windy morning',5,1,129),(3020,'Because you stir the sleeping blood and brain',6,1,129),(3021,'To rise and follow beauty till beauty, scorning',7,1,129),(3022,'Desire’s fleet runners, vanishes again?',8,1,129),(3023,'No, you are more than spectrum, than the find',9,2,129),(3024,'Of orchid hunters, than ariel dawn on wings.',10,2,129),(3025,'And I, who know you are the undefined',11,2,129),(3026,'Reality of all unreal things,',12,2,129),(3027,'Now wisely set your breathlessness apart',13,2,129),(3028,'As the unanswered challenge to the dreamer’s art.',14,2,129),(3029,'I want a god',1,1,130),(3030,'as my accomplice',2,1,130),(3031,'who spends nights',3,1,130),(3032,'in houses',4,1,130),(3033,'of ill repute',5,1,130),(3034,'and gets up late',6,1,130),(3035,'on Saturdays',7,1,130),(3036,'a god',8,2,130),(3037,'who whistles',9,2,130),(3038,'through the streets',10,2,130),(3039,'and trembles',11,2,130),(3040,'before the lips',12,2,130),(3041,'of his lover',13,2,130),(3042,'a god',14,3,130),(3043,'who waits in line',15,3,130),(3044,'at the entrance',16,3,130),(3045,'of movie houses',17,3,130),(3046,'and likes to drink',18,3,130),(3047,'café au lait',19,3,130),(3048,'a god',20,4,130),(3049,'who spits',21,4,130),(3050,'blood from',22,4,130),(3051,'tuberculosis and',23,4,130),(3052,'doesn’t even have',24,4,130),(3053,'enough for bus fare',25,4,130),(3054,'a god',26,5,130),(3055,'knocked',27,5,130),(3056,'unconscious',28,5,130),(3057,'by the billy club',29,5,130),(3058,'of a policeman',30,5,130),(3059,'at a demonstration',31,5,130),(3060,'a god',32,6,130),(3061,'who pisses',33,6,130),(3062,'out of fear',34,6,130),(3063,'before the flaring',35,6,130),(3064,'electrodes',36,6,130),(3065,'of torture',37,6,130),(3066,'a god',38,7,130),(3067,'who hurts',39,7,130),(3068,'to the last',40,7,130),(3069,'bone and',41,7,130),(3070,'bites the air',42,7,130),(3071,'in pain',43,7,130),(3072,'a jobless god',44,8,130),(3073,'a striking god',45,8,130),(3074,'a hungry god',46,8,130),(3075,'a fugitive god',47,8,130),(3076,'an exiled god',48,8,130),(3077,'an enraged god',49,8,130),(3078,'a god',50,9,130),(3079,'who longs',51,9,130),(3080,'from jail',52,9,130),(3081,'for a change',53,9,130),(3082,'in the order',54,9,130),(3083,'of things',55,9,130),(3084,'I want a',56,10,130),(3085,'more godlike',57,10,130),(3086,'god',58,10,130),(3087,'One wading a Fall meadow finds on all sides',1,1,131),(3088,'The Queen Anne’s Lace lying like lilies',2,1,131),(3089,'On water; it glides',3,1,131),(3090,'So from the walker, it turns',4,1,131),(3091,'Dry grass to a lake, as the slightest shade of',5,1,131),(3092,'you',6,1,131),(3093,'Valleys my mind in fabulous blue Lucernes.',7,1,131),(3094,'The beautiful changes as a forest is changed',8,2,131),(3095,'By a chameleon’s tuning his skin to it;',9,2,131),(3096,'As a mantis, arranged',10,2,131),(3097,'On a green leaf, grows',11,2,131),(3098,'Into it, makes the leaf leafier, and proves',12,2,131),(3099,'Any greenness is deeper than anyone knows.',13,2,131),(3100,'Your hands hold roses always in a way that',14,3,131),(3101,'says',15,3,131),(3102,'They are not only yours; the beautiful changes',16,3,131),(3103,'In such kind ways,',17,3,131),(3104,'Wishing ever to sunder',18,3,131),(3105,'Things and things’ selves for a second finding,',19,3,131),(3106,'to lose',20,3,131),(3107,'For a moment all that it touches back to',21,3,131),(3108,'wonder.',22,3,131),(3109,'somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond',1,1,132),(3110,'any experience, your eyes have their silence:',2,1,132),(3111,'in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,',3,1,132),(3112,'or which i cannot touch because they are too near',4,1,132),(3113,'your slightest look easily will unclose me',5,2,132),(3114,'though i have closed myself as fingers,',6,2,132),(3115,'you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens',7,2,132),(3116,'(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose',8,2,132),(3117,'or if your wish be to close me, i and',9,3,132),(3118,'my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,',10,3,132),(3119,'as when the heart of this flower imagines',11,3,132),(3120,'the snow carefully everywhere descending;',12,3,132),(3121,'nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals',13,4,132),(3122,'the power of your intense fragility: whose texture',14,4,132),(3123,'compels me with the colour of its countries,',15,4,132),(3124,'rendering death and forever with each breathing',16,4,132),(3125,'(i do not know what it is about you that closes',17,5,132),(3126,'and opens; only something in me understands',18,5,132),(3127,'the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)',19,5,132),(3128,'nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands',20,5,132),(3129,'Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.',1,1,133),(3130,'I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.',2,1,133),(3131,'Then the almost unnameable lust returns.',3,1,133),(3132,'Even then I have nothing against life.',4,2,133),(3133,'I know well the grass blades you mention,',5,2,133),(3134,'the furniture you have placed under the sun.',6,2,133),(3135,'But suicides have a special language.',7,3,133),(3136,'Like carpenters they want to know which tools.',8,3,133),(3137,'They never ask why build.',9,3,133),(3138,'Twice I have so simply declared myself,',10,4,133),(3139,'have possessed the enemy, eaten the enemy,',11,4,133),(3140,'have taken on his craft, his magic.',12,4,133),(3141,'In this way, heavy and thoughtful,',13,5,133),(3142,'warmer than oil or water,',14,5,133),(3143,'I have rested, drooling at the mouth-hole.',15,5,133),(3144,'I did not think of my body at needle point.',16,6,133),(3145,'Even the cornea and the leftover urine were gone.',17,6,133),(3146,'Suicides have already betrayed the body.',18,6,133),(3147,'Still-born, they don’t always die,',19,7,133),(3148,'but dazzled, they can’t forget a drug so sweet',20,7,133),(3149,'that even children would look on and smile.',21,7,133),(3150,'To thrust all that life under your tongue!—',22,8,133),(3151,'that, all by itself, becomes a passion.',23,8,133),(3152,'Death’s a sad bone; bruised, you’d say,',24,8,133),(3153,'and yet she waits for me, year after year,',25,9,133),(3154,'to so delicately undo an old wound,',26,9,133),(3155,'to empty my breath from its bad prison.',27,9,133),(3156,'Balanced there, suicides sometimes meet,',28,10,133),(3157,'raging at the fruit a pumped-up moon,',29,10,133),(3158,'leaving the bread they mistook for a kiss,',30,10,133),(3159,'leaving the page of the book carelessly open,',31,11,133),(3160,'something unsaid, the phone off the hook',32,11,133),(3161,'and the love whatever it was, an infection.',33,11,133),(3162,'I shall haunt you, O my lost one, as the twilight',1,1,134),(3163,'Haunts a grieving bamboo trail,',2,1,134),(3164,'And your dreams will linger strangely with the music',3,1,134),(3165,'Of a phantom lover’s tale',4,1,134),(3166,'You shall not forget, for I am past forgetting',5,2,134),(3167,'I shall come to you again',6,2,134),(3168,'With the starlight, and the scent of wild champakas,',7,2,134),(3169,'And the melody of rain.',8,2,134),(3170,'You shall not forget. Dusk will peer into your',9,3,134),(3171,'Window, tragic-eyed and still,',10,3,134),(3172,'And unbidden startle you into remembrance',11,3,134),(3173,'With its hand upon the sill.',12,3,134),(3174,'It’s wonderful how I jog',1,1,135),(3175,'on four honed-down ivory toes',2,1,135),(3176,'my massive buttocks slipping',3,1,135),(3177,'like oiled parts with each light step.',4,1,135),(3178,'I’m to market. I can smell',5,2,135),(3179,'the sour, grooved block, I can smell',6,2,135),(3180,'the blade that opens the hole',7,2,135),(3181,'and the pudgy white fingers',8,2,135),(3182,'that shake out the intestines',9,3,135),(3183,'like a hankie. In my dreams',10,3,135),(3184,'the snouts drool on the marble,',11,3,135),(3185,'suffering children, suffering flies,',12,3,135),(3186,'suffering the consumers',13,4,135),(3187,'who won’t meet their steady eyes',14,4,135),(3188,'for fear they could see. The boy',15,4,135),(3189,'who drives me along believes',16,4,135),(3190,'that any moment I’ll fall',17,5,135),(3191,'on my side and drum my toes',18,5,135),(3192,'like a typewriter or squeal',19,5,135),(3193,'and shit like a new housewife',20,5,135),(3194,'discovering television,',21,6,135),(3195,'or that I’ll turn like a beast',22,6,135),(3196,'cleverly to hook his teeth',23,6,135),(3197,'with my teeth. No. Not this pig.',24,6,135),(3198,'No hurt survives',1,1,136),(3199,'for long without',2,1,136),(3200,'our help, she said',3,1,136),(3201,'and then she kissed',4,2,136),(3202,'me and sent me out',5,2,136),(3203,'to play again',6,2,136),(3204,'for the rest',7,2,136),(3205,'of my life.',8,2,136),(3206,'Half of the world’s true glamour',1,1,137),(3207,'Is held–you know by whom?',2,1,137),(3208,'Not by the gilt Four Hundred',3,1,137),(3209,'Parading in perfume,',4,1,137),(3210,'Nor by the silvered meteors',5,2,137),(3211,'That light the celluloid sky–',6,2,137),(3212,'But by these eyes that called you,',7,2,137),(3213,'Blind fool who passed me by!',8,2,137),(3214,'For Michael',1,1,138),(3215,'It is difficult to know what to do with so much happiness.',2,2,138),(3216,'With sadness there is something to rub against,',3,2,138),(3217,'a wound to tend with lotion and cloth.',4,2,138),(3218,'When the world falls in around you, you have pieces to pick up,',5,2,138),(3219,'something to hold in your hands, like ticket stubs or change.',6,2,138),(3220,'But happiness floats.',7,3,138),(3221,'It doesn’t need you to hold it down.',8,3,138),(3222,'It doesn’t need anything.',9,3,138),(3223,'Happiness lands on the roof of the next house, singing,',10,3,138),(3224,'and disappears when it wants to.',11,3,138),(3225,'You are happy either way.',12,3,138),(3226,'Even the fact that you once lived in a peaceful tree house',13,3,138),(3227,'and now live over a quarry of noise and dust',14,3,138),(3228,'cannot make you unhappy.',15,3,138),(3229,'Everything has a life of its own,',16,3,138),(3230,'it too could wake up filled with possibilities',17,3,138),(3231,'of coffee cake and ripe peaches,',18,3,138),(3232,'and love even the floor which needs to be swept,',19,3,138),(3233,'the soiled linens and scratched records . . .',20,3,138),(3234,'Since there is no place large enough',21,4,138),(3235,'to contain so much happiness,',22,4,138),(3236,'you shrug, you raise your hands, and it flows out of you',23,4,138),(3237,'into everything you touch. You are not responsible.',24,4,138),(3238,'You take no credit, as the night sky takes no credit,',25,4,138),(3239,'for the moon, but continues to hold it, and share it,',26,4,138),(3240,'and in that way, be known.',27,4,138),(3241,'well, girl, goodbye,',1,1,139),(3242,'after thirty-eight years.',2,1,139),(3243,'thirty-eight years and you',3,1,139),(3244,'never arrived',4,1,139),(3245,'splendid in your red dress',5,1,139),(3246,'without trouble for me',6,1,139),(3247,'somewhere, somehow.',7,1,139),(3248,'now it is done,',8,2,139),(3249,'and i feel just like the',9,2,139),(3250,'grandmothers who,',10,2,139),(3251,'after the hussy has gone,',11,2,139),(3252,'sit holding her photograph',12,2,139),(3253,'and sighing, wasn’t she beautiful? wasn’t she beautiful?',13,2,139),(3254,'Of course it was a disaster.',1,1,140),(3255,'The unbearable, dearest secret',2,1,140),(3256,'has always been a disaster.',3,1,140),(3257,'The danger when we try to leave.',4,1,140),(3258,'Going over and over afterward',5,1,140),(3259,'what we should have done',6,1,140),(3260,'instead of what we did.',7,1,140),(3261,'But for those short times',8,1,140),(3262,'we seemed to be alive. Misled,',9,1,140),(3263,'misused, lied to and cheated,',10,1,140),(3264,'certainly. Still, for that',11,1,140),(3265,'little while, we visited',12,1,140),(3266,'our possible life.',13,1,140),(3267,'I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,',1,1,141),(3268,'or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.',2,1,141),(3269,'I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,',3,1,141),(3270,'in secret, between the shadow and the soul.',4,1,141),(3271,'I love you as the plant that never blooms',5,2,141),(3272,'but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;',6,2,141),(3273,'thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,',7,2,141),(3274,'risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.',8,2,141),(3275,'I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.',9,3,141),(3276,'I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;',10,3,141),(3277,'so I love you because I know no other way',11,3,141),(3278,'than this: where I does not exist, nor you,',12,4,141),(3279,'so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,',13,4,141),(3280,'so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.',14,4,141),(3281,'The whole idea of it makes me feel',1,1,142),(3282,'like I’m coming down with something,',2,1,142),(3283,'something worse than any stomach ache',3,1,142),(3284,'or the headaches I get from reading in bad light—',4,1,142),(3285,'a kind of measles of the spirit,',5,1,142),(3286,'a mumps of the psyche,',6,1,142),(3287,'a disfiguring chicken pox of the soul.',7,1,142),(3288,'You tell me it is too early to be looking back,',8,2,142),(3289,'but that is because you have forgotten',9,2,142),(3290,'the perfect simplicity of being one',10,2,142),(3291,'and the beautiful complexity introduced by two.',11,2,142),(3292,'But I can lie on my bed and remember every digit.',12,2,142),(3293,'At four I was an Arabian wizard.',13,2,142),(3294,'I could make myself invisible',14,2,142),(3295,'by drinking a glass of milk a certain way.',15,2,142),(3296,'At seven I was a soldier, at nine a prince.',16,2,142),(3297,'But now I am mostly at the window',17,3,142),(3298,'watching the late afternoon light.',18,3,142),(3299,'Back then it never fell so solemnly',19,3,142),(3300,'against the side of my tree house,',20,3,142),(3301,'and my bicycle never leaned against the garage',21,3,142),(3302,'as it does today,',22,3,142),(3303,'all the dark blue speed drained out of it.',23,3,142),(3304,'This is the beginning of sadness, I say to myself,',24,4,142),(3305,'as I walk through the universe in my sneakers.',25,4,142),(3306,'It is time to say good-bye to my imaginary friends,',26,4,142),(3307,'time to turn the first big number.',27,4,142),(3308,'It seems only yesterday I used to believe',28,5,142),(3309,'there was nothing under my skin but light.',29,5,142),(3310,'If you cut me I could shine.',30,5,142),(3311,'But now when I fall upon the sidewalks of life,',31,5,142),(3312,'I skin my knees. I bleed.',32,5,142),(3313,'The weight of the world',1,1,143),(3314,'is love.',2,1,143),(3315,'Under the burden',3,1,143),(3316,'of solitude,',4,1,143),(3317,'under the burden',5,1,143),(3318,'of dissatisfaction',6,1,143),(3319,'the weight,',7,2,143),(3320,'the weight we carry',8,2,143),(3321,'is love.',9,2,143),(3322,'Who can deny?',10,3,143),(3323,'In dreams',11,3,143),(3324,'it touches',12,3,143),(3325,'the body,',13,3,143),(3326,'in thought',14,3,143),(3327,'constructs',15,3,143),(3328,'a miracle,',16,3,143),(3329,'in imagination',17,3,143),(3330,'anguishes',18,3,143),(3331,'till born',19,3,143),(3332,'in human—',20,3,143),(3333,'looks out of the heart',21,3,143),(3334,'burning with purity—',22,3,143),(3335,'for the burden of life',23,3,143),(3336,'is love,',24,3,143),(3337,'but we carry the weight',25,4,143),(3338,'wearily,',26,4,143),(3339,'and so must rest',27,4,143),(3340,'in the arms of love',28,4,143),(3341,'at last,',29,4,143),(3342,'must rest in the arms',30,4,143),(3343,'of love.',31,4,143),(3344,'No rest',32,5,143),(3345,'without love,',33,5,143),(3346,'no sleep',34,5,143),(3347,'without dreams',35,5,143),(3348,'of love—',36,5,143),(3349,'be mad or chill',37,5,143),(3350,'obsessed with angels',38,5,143),(3351,'or machines,',39,5,143),(3352,'the final wish',40,5,143),(3353,'is love',41,5,143),(3354,'—cannot be bitter,',42,5,143),(3355,'cannot deny,',43,5,143),(3356,'cannot withhold',44,5,143),(3357,'if denied:',45,5,143),(3358,'the weight is too heavy',46,6,143),(3359,'—must give',47,7,143),(3360,'for no return',48,7,143),(3361,'as thought',49,7,143),(3362,'is given',50,7,143),(3363,'in solitude',51,7,143),(3364,'in all the excellence',52,7,143),(3365,'of its excess.',53,7,143),(3366,'The warm bodies',54,8,143),(3367,'shine together',55,8,143),(3368,'in the darkness,',56,8,143),(3369,'the hand moves',57,8,143),(3370,'to the center',58,8,143),(3371,'of the flesh,',59,8,143),(3372,'the skin trembles',60,8,143),(3373,'in happiness',61,8,143),(3374,'and the soul comes',62,8,143),(3375,'joyful to the eye—',63,8,143),(3376,'yes, yes,',64,9,143),(3377,'that’s what',65,9,143),(3378,'I wanted,',66,9,143),(3379,'I always wanted,',67,9,143),(3380,'I always wanted,',68,9,143),(3381,'to return',69,9,143),(3382,'to the body',70,9,143),(3383,'where I was born.',71,9,143),(3384,'You’re wondering if I’m lonely:',1,1,144),(3385,'OK then, yes, I’m lonely',2,1,144),(3386,'as a plane rides lonely and level',3,1,144),(3387,'on its radio beam, aiming',4,1,144),(3388,'across the Rockies',5,1,144),(3389,'for the blue-strung aisles',6,1,144),(3390,'of an airfield on the ocean.',7,1,144),(3391,'You want to ask, am I lonely?',8,2,144),(3392,'Well, of course, lonely',9,2,144),(3393,'as a woman driving across country',10,2,144),(3394,'day after day, leaving behind',11,2,144),(3395,'mile after mile',12,2,144),(3396,'little towns she might have stopped',13,2,144),(3397,'and lived and died in, lonely',14,2,144),(3398,'If I’m lonely',15,3,144),(3399,'it must be the loneliness',16,3,144),(3400,'of waking first, of breathing',17,3,144),(3401,'dawns’ first cold breath on the city',18,3,144),(3402,'of being the one awake',19,3,144),(3403,'in a house wrapped in sleep',20,3,144),(3404,'If I’m lonely',21,4,144),(3405,'it’s with the rowboat ice-fast on the shore',22,4,144),(3406,'in the last red light of the year',23,4,144),(3407,'that knows what it is, that knows it’s neither',24,4,144),(3408,'ice nor mud nor winter light',25,4,144),(3409,'but wood, with a gift for burning',26,4,144),(3410,'You are tired,',1,1,145),(3411,'(I think)',2,1,145),(3412,'Of the always puzzle of living and doing;',3,1,145),(3413,'And so am I.',4,1,145),(3414,'Come with me, then,',5,2,145),(3415,'And we’ll leave it far and far away–',6,2,145),(3416,'(Only you and I, understand!)',7,2,145),(3417,'You have played,',8,3,145),(3418,'(I think)',9,3,145),(3419,'And broke the toys you were fondest of,',10,3,145),(3420,'And are a little tired now;',11,3,145),(3421,'Tired of things that break, and–',12,3,145),(3422,'Just tired.',13,3,145),(3423,'So am I.',14,3,145),(3424,'But I come with a dream in my eyes tonight,',15,4,145),(3425,'And knock with a rose at the hopeless gate of your heart–',16,4,145),(3426,'Open to me!',17,4,145),(3427,'For I will show you the places Nobody knows,',18,4,145),(3428,'And, if you like,',19,4,145),(3429,'The perfect places of Sleep.',20,4,145),(3430,'Ah, come with me!',21,5,145),(3431,'I’ll blow you that wonderful bubble, the moon,',22,5,145),(3432,'That floats forever and a day;',23,5,145),(3433,'I’ll sing you the jacinth song',24,5,145),(3434,'Of the probable stars;',25,5,145),(3435,'I will attempt the unstartled steppes of dream,',26,5,145),(3436,'Until I find the Only Flower,',27,5,145),(3437,'Which shall keep (I think) your little heart',28,5,145),(3438,'While the moon comes out of the sea.',29,5,145),(3439,'I will die in Paris, on a rainy day,',1,1,146),(3440,'on some day I can already remember.',2,1,146),(3441,'I will die in Paris–and I don’t step aside—',3,1,146),(3442,'perhaps on a Thursday, as today is Thursday, in autumn.',4,1,146),(3443,'It will be a Thursday, because today, Thursday, setting down',5,2,146),(3444,'these lines, I have put my upper arm bones on',6,2,146),(3445,'wrong, and never so much as today have I found myself',7,2,146),(3446,'with all the road ahead of me, alone.',8,2,146),(3447,'Cesar Vallejo is dead. Everyone beat him',9,3,146),(3448,'although he never does anything to them;',10,3,146),(3449,'they beat him hard with a stick and hard also',11,3,146),(3450,'with a rope. These are the witnesses:',12,4,146),(3451,'the Thursdays, and the bones of my arms,',13,4,146),(3452,'the solitude, and the rain, and the roads…',14,4,146),(3453,'i haven’t done anything',1,1,147),(3454,'meaningful in so long',2,1,147),(3455,'it’s almost meaningful',3,1,147),(3456,'to do nothing',4,1,147),(3457,'i suppose i could fall in love',5,2,147),(3458,'or at least in line',6,2,147),(3459,'since i’m so discontented',7,2,147),(3460,'but that takes effort',8,2,147),(3461,'and i don’t want to exert anything',9,2,147),(3462,'neither my energy nor my emotions',10,2,147),(3463,'i’ve always prided myself',11,3,147),(3464,'on being a child of the sixties',12,3,147),(3465,'and we are all finished',13,3,147),(3466,'so that makes being',14,3,147),(3467,'nothing',15,3,147),(3468,'(After Bibi)',1,1,148),(3469,'My girlfriend said,',2,2,148),(3470,'you cannot produce a sound you haven’t heard,',3,2,148),(3471,'by way of explaining what happens when we sing,',4,2,148),(3472,'and alluding to a man in a Chinese opera',5,2,148),(3473,'who had effortlessly freed a note astounding to her ears.',6,2,148),(3474,'Her words had weight and sank deep in me.',7,3,148),(3475,'Those who do not fear to revel, saying,',8,3,148),(3476,'whatever the price or loss I’ve later to pay',9,3,148),(3477,'is worth this moment,',10,3,148),(3478,'have not lived that logic and been seared.',11,3,148),(3479,'The delicate palpitations of the desirous spirit,',12,3,148),(3480,'that waits upon a voice on the phone,',13,3,148),(3481,'a step at the door,',14,3,148),(3482,'a rustling of note paper,',15,3,148),(3483,'are destined almost always to a cheating of those hopes.',16,3,148),(3484,'Having desired and died, we ask,',17,4,148),(3485,'do we need to need? Why?',18,4,148),(3486,'I have heard a noise like the breaking of pavement',19,5,148),(3487,'when a terrible sob is muffled towards morning.',20,5,148),(3488,'Some women are made for love,',21,5,148),(3489,'but remembrance of such wailing can unmake them.',22,5,148),(3490,'Everyday he grows lovelier for the love of me.',23,6,148),(3491,'Shall I nurture, knowing the body I cradle can turn?',24,6,148),(3492,'A sound like that can make you repeat relentless questions,',25,6,148),(3493,'draw in your hands and count protestations.',26,6,148),(3494,'A love like that can ruin you for love.',27,6,148),(3495,'Listen:',1,1,149),(3496,'One afternoon, I saw a woman',2,1,149),(3497,'lift her head and wonder why no one stood',3,1,149),(3498,'beside her in the train,',4,1,149),(3499,'touching the back of her neck or maybe',5,1,149),(3500,'whispering or smiling into her eyes.',6,1,149),(3501,'I thought I caught her thinking,',7,1,149),(3502,'Who sees me?',8,1,149),(3503,'I knew she craved a lover who would',9,1,149),(3504,'linger over her body,',10,1,149),(3505,'cherish her strength,',11,1,149),(3506,'return her tenderness.',12,1,149),(3507,'I knew she had not found this love among men.',13,1,149),(3508,'How like my mother she was.',14,1,149),(3509,'How thankful I am for the ways',15,1,149),(3510,'women can sometimes love each other.',16,1,149),(3511,'There is something truer there than desire.',17,1,149),(3512,'It is wondrous for me to see a woman',18,1,149),(3513,'with a child’s delicate ace, and calloused, capable hands.',19,1,149),(3514,'I love the woman who has strength enough to do anything',20,1,149),(3515,'except hide her own strength.',21,1,149),(3516,'I have known women whose laughter was like bells',22,2,149),(3517,'because you knew they had been wounded before.',23,2,149),(3518,'I prize women who look best',24,2,149),(3519,'barefoot in their bedclothes, tousled and tired.',25,2,149),(3520,'I know women who remember the unremarked beauty of',26,2,149),(3521,'these tired women.',27,2,149),(3522,'I understand women who claim to hate children',28,2,149),(3523,'but shied their nephews from the wrath of loving parents.',29,2,149),(3524,'And I marvel at the women who serve the men they love',30,2,149),(3525,'while always struggling against servility.',31,2,149),(3526,'Their quick anger,',32,3,149),(3527,'their light slumber,',33,3,149),(3528,'their early morning voices on the phone.',34,3,149),(3529,'I love nape and collarbone,',35,3,149),(3530,'a cheek wet with tears,',36,3,149),(3531,'the line of the arm, of the ankle,',37,3,149),(3532,'and the infinite expressiveness of their hands when',38,3,149),(3533,'they speak,',39,3,149),(3534,'or touch themselves, or me.',40,3,149),(3535,'You show me the poems of some woman',1,1,150),(3536,'my age, or younger',2,1,150),(3537,'translated from your language',3,1,150),(3538,'Certain words occur: enemy, oven, sorrow',4,2,150),(3539,'enough to let me know',5,2,150),(3540,'she’s a woman of my time',6,2,150),(3541,'obsessed',7,3,150),(3542,'with Love, our subject:',8,4,150),(3543,'we’ve trained it like ivy to our walls',9,4,150),(3544,'baked it like bread in our ovens',10,4,150),(3545,'worn it like lead on our ankles',11,4,150),(3546,'watched it through binoculars as if',12,4,150),(3547,'it were a helicopter',13,4,150),(3548,'bringing food to our famine',14,4,150),(3549,'or the satellite',15,4,150),(3550,'of a hostile power',16,4,150),(3551,'I begin to see that woman',17,5,150),(3552,'doing things: stirring rice',18,5,150),(3553,'ironing a skirt',19,5,150),(3554,'typing a manuscript till dawn',20,5,150),(3555,'trying to make a call',21,6,150),(3556,'from a phonebook',22,6,150),(3557,'the phone rings unanswered',23,7,150),(3558,'in a man’s bedroom',24,7,150),(3559,'she hears him telling someone else',25,7,150),(3560,'never mind. she’ll get tired—',26,7,150),(3561,'hears him telling her story to her sister',27,7,150),(3562,'who becomes her enemy',28,8,150),(3563,'and will in her own time',29,8,150),(3564,'light her own way to sorrow',30,8,150),(3565,'ignorant of the fact this way of grief',31,9,150),(3566,'is shared, unnecessary',32,9,150),(3567,'and political',33,9,150),(3568,'After every war',1,1,151),(3569,'someone has to clean up.',2,1,151),(3570,'Things won’t',3,1,151),(3571,'straighten themselves up, after all.',4,1,151),(3572,'Someone has to push the rubble',5,2,151),(3573,'to the sides of the road,',6,2,151),(3574,'so the corpse-laden wagons',7,2,151),(3575,'can pass.',8,2,151),(3576,'Someone has to get mired',9,3,151),(3577,'in scum and ashes,',10,3,151),(3578,'sofa springs,',11,3,151),(3579,'splintered glass,',12,3,151),(3580,'and bloody rags.',13,3,151),(3581,'Someone must drag in a girder',14,4,151),(3582,'to prop up a wall.',15,4,151),(3583,'Someone must glaze a window,',16,4,151),(3584,'rehang a door.',17,4,151),(3585,'Photogenic it’s not,',18,5,151),(3586,'and takes years.',19,5,151),(3587,'All the cameras have left',20,5,151),(3588,'for another war.',21,5,151),(3589,'Again we’ll need bridges',22,6,151),(3590,'and new railway stations.',23,6,151),(3591,'Sleeves will go ragged',24,6,151),(3592,'from rolling them up.',25,6,151),(3593,'Someone, broom in hand,',26,7,151),(3594,'still recalls how it was.',27,7,151),(3595,'Someone listens',28,7,151),(3596,'and nods with unsevered head.',29,7,151),(3597,'Yet others milling about',30,7,151),(3598,'already find it dull.',31,7,151),(3599,'From behind the bush',32,8,151),(3600,'sometimes someone still unearths',33,8,151),(3601,'rust-eaten arguments',34,8,151),(3602,'and carries them to the garbage pile.',35,8,151),(3603,'Those who knew',36,9,151),(3604,'what was going on here',37,9,151),(3605,'must give way to',38,9,151),(3606,'those who know little.',39,9,151),(3607,'And less than little.',40,9,151),(3608,'And finally as little as nothing.',41,9,151),(3609,'In the grass which has overgrown',42,10,151),(3610,'causes and effects,',43,10,151),(3611,'someone must be stretched out,',44,10,151),(3612,'blade of grass in his mouth,',45,10,151),(3613,'gazing at the clouds.',46,10,151),(3614,'They went home and told their wives,',1,1,152),(3615,'that they never once in all their lives,',2,1,152),(3616,'had they known a girl like me,',3,1,152),(3617,'But…They went home.',4,1,152),(3618,'They said my house was licking clean,',5,1,152),(3619,'no word I spoke was ever mean,',6,1,152),(3620,'I had an air of mystery,',7,1,152),(3621,'But…They went home.',8,1,152),(3622,'My praises were on all mens lips,',9,1,152),(3623,'they liked my smile, my wit, my hips,',10,1,152),(3624,'they’d spend one night, or two or three.',11,1,152),(3625,'But…',12,1,152),(3626,'during my worst times',1,1,153),(3627,'on the park benches',2,1,153),(3628,'in the jails',3,1,153),(3629,'or living with',4,1,153),(3630,'whores',5,1,153),(3631,'I always had this certain',6,1,153),(3632,'contentment—',7,1,153),(3633,'I wouldn’t call it',8,1,153),(3634,'happiness—',9,1,153),(3635,'it was more of an inner',10,1,153),(3636,'balance',11,1,153),(3637,'that settled for',12,1,153),(3638,'whatever was occuring',13,1,153),(3639,'and it helped in the',14,1,153),(3640,'factories',15,1,153),(3641,'and when relationships',16,1,153),(3642,'went wrong',17,1,153),(3643,'with the',18,1,153),(3644,'girls.',19,1,153),(3645,'it helped',20,2,153),(3646,'through the',21,2,153),(3647,'wars and the',22,2,153),(3648,'hangovers',23,2,153),(3649,'the backalley fights',24,2,153),(3650,'the',25,2,153),(3651,'hospitals.',26,2,153),(3652,'to awaken in a cheap room',27,3,153),(3653,'in a strange city and',28,3,153),(3654,'pull up the shade—',29,3,153),(3655,'this was the craziest kind of',30,3,153),(3656,'contentment',31,3,153),(3657,'and to walk across the floor',32,4,153),(3658,'to an old dresser with a',33,4,153),(3659,'cracked mirror—',34,4,153),(3660,'see myself, ugly,',35,4,153),(3661,'grinning at it all.',36,4,153),(3662,'what matters most is',37,5,153),(3663,'how well you',38,5,153),(3664,'walk through the',39,5,153),(3665,'fire.',40,5,153),(3666,'As when someone',1,1,154),(3667,'You haven’t noticed before',2,1,154),(3668,'Gets up in an empty theater',3,1,154),(3669,'And projects his shadow',4,1,154),(3670,'Among the fabulous horsemen',5,1,154),(3671,'On the screen',6,1,154),(3672,'And you shudder',7,2,154),(3673,'As you realize it’s only you',8,2,154),(3674,'On your way',9,2,154),(3675,'To the blinding sunlight',10,2,154),(3676,'Of the street.',11,2,154),(3677,'1. Don’t see him. Don’t phone or write a letter.',1,1,155),(3678,'2. The easy way: get to know him better.',2,1,155),(3679,'I feel it when the game is done',1,1,156),(3680,'I feel it when I suffer most',2,1,156),(3681,'‘Tis better to have loved and lost',3,1,156),(3682,'Than ever to have loved and won.',4,1,156),(3683,'John Keats',1,1,157),(3684,'John Keats',2,1,157),(3685,'John',3,1,157),(3686,'Please put your scarf on.',4,1,157),(3687,'I want to write you',1,1,158),(3688,'a love poem as headlong',2,1,158),(3689,'as our creek',3,1,158),(3690,'after thaw',4,1,158),(3691,'when we stand',5,1,158),(3692,'on its dangerous',6,1,158),(3693,'banks and watch it carry',7,1,158),(3694,'with it every twig',8,1,158),(3695,'every dry leaf and branch',9,1,158),(3696,'in its path',10,1,158),(3697,'every scruple',11,1,158),(3698,'when we see it',12,1,158),(3699,'so swollen',13,1,158),(3700,'with runoff',14,1,158),(3701,'that even as we watch',15,1,158),(3702,'we must grab',16,1,158),(3703,'each other',17,1,158),(3704,'and step back',18,1,158),(3705,'we must grab each',19,1,158),(3706,'other or',20,1,158),(3707,'get our shoes',21,1,158),(3708,'soaked we must',22,1,158),(3709,'grab each other',23,1,158),(3710,'You’ve tried the rest.',1,1,159),(3711,'You’ve waited long enough.',2,1,159),(3712,'Everything catches up with you.',3,1,159),(3713,'And you’re too old,',4,2,159),(3714,'or too young.',5,2,159),(3715,'Or you don’t have the money',6,2,159),(3716,'or you don’t have the time.',7,3,159),(3717,'Maybe you’re shy, and maybe',8,3,159),(3718,'you’re just afraid.',9,3,159),(3719,'How often have you heard it,',10,4,159),(3720,'have you promised',11,4,159),(3721,'yourself you’d try',12,4,159),(3722,'something really different',13,5,159),(3723,'if you had the chance?',14,5,159),(3724,'Though you can’t help but wonder',15,5,159),(3725,'if all those people',16,6,159),(3726,'know what they’re doing, now',17,6,159),(3727,'you’re saying it with them:',18,6,159),(3728,'Eventually everything',19,7,159),(3729,'catches up with us,',20,7,159),(3730,'and it starts to show.',21,7,159),(3731,'We’ve waited all our lives, or as long',22,8,159),(3732,'as we can remember, whichever',23,8,159),(3733,'is long enough.',24,8,159),(3734,'One failure on',1,1,160),(3735,'Top of another',2,1,160),(3736,'I close the shop at six. Welcome wind,',1,1,161),(3737,'weekend with two suns, night with a travel book,',2,1,161),(3738,'the dog-eared sheets of a bed',3,1,161),(3739,'I will not see again.',4,1,161),(3740,'I not of time, lost in time',5,2,161),(3741,'learned from watches –',6,2,161),(3742,'a second is a killing thing.',7,2,161),(3743,'Live your life. Your eyes go. Take your body',8,3,161),(3744,'out for walks along the waters',9,3,161),(3745,'of a cold and loco planet.',10,3,161),(3746,'Love whatever flows. Cooking smoke, woman’s blood,',11,4,161),(3747,'tears. Do you hear what I’m telling you?',12,4,161),(3748,'A man said to the universe:',1,1,162),(3749,'“Sir, I exist!”',2,1,162),(3750,'“However,” replied the universe,',3,1,162),(3751,'“The fact has not created in me',4,1,162),(3752,'A sense of obligation.”',5,1,162),(3753,'What thoughts I have of you tonight, Walt Whitman, for',1,1,163),(3754,'I walked down the sidestreets under the trees with a headache',2,1,163),(3755,'self-conscious looking at the full moon.',3,1,163),(3756,'In my hungry fatigue, and shopping for images, I went',4,1,163),(3757,'into the neon fruit supermarket, dreaming of your enumerations!',5,1,163),(3758,'What peaches and what penumbras! Whole families',6,1,163),(3759,'shopping at night! Aisles full of husbands! Wives in the',7,1,163),(3760,'avocados, babies in the tomatoes!–and you, Garcia Lorca, what',8,1,163),(3761,'were you doing down by the watermelons?',9,1,163),(3762,'I saw you, Walt Whitman, childless, lonely old grubber,',10,2,163),(3763,'poking among the meats in the refrigerator and eyeing the grocery',11,2,163),(3764,'boys.',12,2,163),(3765,'I heard you asking questions of each: Who killed the',13,2,163),(3766,'pork chops? What price bananas? Are you my Angel?',14,2,163),(3767,'I wandered in and out of the brilliant stacks of cans',15,2,163),(3768,'following you, and followed in my imagination by the store',16,2,163),(3769,'detective.',17,2,163),(3770,'We strode down the open corridors together in our',18,2,163),(3771,'solitary fancy tasting artichokes, possessing every frozen',19,2,163),(3772,'delicacy, and never passing the cashier.',20,2,163),(3773,'Where are we going, Walt Whitman? The doors close in',21,3,163),(3774,'an hour. Which way does your beard point tonight?',22,3,163),(3775,'(I touch your book and dream of our odyssey in the',23,3,163),(3776,'supermarket and feel absurd.)',24,3,163),(3777,'Will we walk all night through solitary streets? The',25,3,163),(3778,'trees add shade to shade, lights out in the houses, we’ll both be',26,3,163),(3779,'lonely.',27,3,163),(3780,'Will we stroll dreaming of the lost America of love',28,4,163),(3781,'past blue automobiles in driveways, home to our silent cottage?',29,4,163),(3782,'Ah, dear father, graybeard, lonely old courage-teacher,',30,4,163),(3783,'what America did you have when Charon quit poling his ferry and',31,4,163),(3784,'you got out on a smoking bank and stood watching the boat',32,4,163),(3785,'disappear on the black waters of Lethe?',33,4,163),(3786,'There are who teach only the sweet lessons of peace and safety;',1,1,164),(3787,'But I teach lessons of war and death to those I love,',2,1,164),(3788,'That they readily meet invasions, when they come.',3,1,164),(3789,'After the first glass of vodka',1,1,165),(3790,'you can accept just about anything',2,1,165),(3791,'of life even your own mysteriousness',3,1,165),(3792,'you think it is nice that a box',4,1,165),(3793,'of matches is purple and brown and is called',5,1,165),(3794,'La Petite and comes from Sweden',6,1,165),(3795,'for they are words that you know and that',7,1,165),(3796,'is all you know words not their feelings',8,1,165),(3797,'or what they mean and you write because',9,1,165),(3798,'you know them not because you understand them',10,1,165),(3799,'because you don’t you are stupid and lazy',11,1,165),(3800,'and will never be great but you do',12,1,165),(3801,'what you know because what else is there?',13,1,165),(3802,'It is no longer night. But there is a sameness',1,1,166),(3803,'Of intention, all the same, in the ways',2,1,166),(3804,'We address it, rude',3,1,166),(3805,'Color of what an amazing world,',4,1,166),(3806,'As it goes flat, or rubs off, and this',5,1,166),(3807,'Is a marvel, we think, and are careful not to go past it.',6,1,166),(3808,'But it is the same thing we are all seeing,',7,2,166),(3809,'Our world. Go after it,',8,2,166),(3810,'Go get it boy, says the man holding the stick.',9,2,166),(3811,'Eat, says the hunger, and we plunge blindly in again,',10,2,166),(3812,'Into the chamber behind the thought.',11,2,166),(3813,'We can hear it, even think it, but can’t get disentangled',12,2,166),(3814,'from our brains.',13,2,166),(3815,'Here, I am holding the winning ticket. Over here.',14,2,166),(3816,'But it is all the same color again, as though the climate',15,2,166),(3817,'Dyed everything the same color. It’s more practical,',16,2,166),(3818,'Yet the landscape, these billboards, age as rapidly as before.',17,2,166),(3819,'Not a red rose or a satin heart.',1,1,167),(3820,'I give you an onion.',2,2,167),(3821,'It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.',3,2,167),(3822,'It promises light',4,2,167),(3823,'like the careful undressing of love.',5,2,167),(3824,'Here.',6,3,167),(3825,'It will blind you with tears',7,3,167),(3826,'like a lover.',8,3,167),(3827,'It will make your reflection',9,3,167),(3828,'a wobbling photo of grief.',10,3,167),(3829,'I am trying to be truthful.',11,4,167),(3830,'Not a cute card or a kissogram.',12,5,167),(3831,'I give you an onion.',13,6,167),(3832,'Its fierce kiss will stay on your lips,',14,6,167),(3833,'possessive and faithful',15,6,167),(3834,'as we are,',16,6,167),(3835,'for as long as we are.',17,6,167),(3836,'Take it.',18,7,167),(3837,'Its platinum loops shrink to a wedding-ring,',19,7,167),(3838,'if you like.',20,7,167),(3839,'Lethal.',21,8,167),(3840,'Its scent will cling to your fingers,',22,8,167),(3841,'cling to your knife.',23,8,167),(3842,'I felt a Funeral in my Brain,',1,1,168),(3843,'And Mourners, to and fro,',2,1,168),(3844,'Kept treading — treading — till it seemed',3,1,168),(3845,'That Sense was breaking through —',4,1,168),(3846,'And when they all were seated,',5,2,168),(3847,'A Service, like a Drum —',6,2,168),(3848,'Kept beating — beating — till I thought',7,2,168),(3849,'My Mind was going numb —',8,2,168),(3850,'And then I heard them lift a Box',9,3,168),(3851,'And creak across my Soul',10,3,168),(3852,'With those same Boots of Lead, again,',11,3,168),(3853,'Then Space — began to toll',12,3,168),(3854,'As all the Heavens were a Bell,',13,4,168),(3855,'And Being, but an Ear,',14,4,168),(3856,'And I, and Silence, some strange Race',15,4,168),(3857,'Wrecked, solitary, here —',16,4,168),(3858,'And then a Plank in Reason, broke,',17,5,168),(3859,'And I dropped down, and down —',18,5,168),(3860,'And hit a World, at every plunge,',19,5,168),(3861,'And Finished knowing — then —',20,5,168),(3862,'the history of melancholia',1,1,169),(3863,'includes all of us.',2,1,169),(3864,'me, I writhe in dirty sheets',3,2,169),(3865,'while staring at blue walls',4,2,169),(3866,'and nothing.',5,2,169),(3867,'I have gotten so used to melancholia',6,3,169),(3868,'that',7,3,169),(3869,'I greet it like an old',8,3,169),(3870,'friend.',9,3,169),(3871,'I will now do 15 minutes of grieving',10,4,169),(3872,'for the lost redhead,',11,4,169),(3873,'I tell the gods.',12,4,169),(3874,'I do it and feel quite bad',13,5,169),(3875,'quite sad,',14,5,169),(3876,'then I rise',15,5,169),(3877,'CLEANSED',16,5,169),(3878,'even though nothing',17,5,169),(3879,'is solved.',18,5,169),(3880,'that’s what I get for kicking',19,6,169),(3881,'religion in the ass.',20,6,169),(3882,'I should have kicked the redhead',21,7,169),(3883,'in the ass',22,7,169),(3884,'where her brains and her bread and',23,7,169),(3885,'butter are',24,7,169),(3886,'at …',25,7,169),(3887,'but, no, I’ve felt sad',26,8,169),(3888,'about everything:',27,8,169),(3889,'the lost redhead was just another',28,8,169),(3890,'smash in a lifelong',29,8,169),(3891,'loss …',30,8,169),(3892,'I listen to drums on the radio now',31,9,169),(3893,'and grin.',32,9,169),(3894,'there is something wrong with me',33,9,169),(3895,'besides',34,9,169),(3896,'melancholia.',35,9,169),(3897,'To B. Akhmadulina',1,1,170),(3898,'My love will come,',2,2,170),(3899,'will fold me in her arms,',3,2,170),(3900,'will notice all the changes,',4,2,170),(3901,'will understand my apprehensions.',5,2,170),(3902,'From the pouring dark, the infernal gloom,',6,3,170),(3903,'forgetting to close the taxi door,',7,3,170),(3904,'she’ll dash up the rickety steps',8,3,170),(3905,'all flushed with joy and longing.',9,3,170),(3906,'Drenched, she’ll burst in, without a knock,',10,4,170),(3907,'will take my head in her hands,',11,4,170),(3908,'and from a chair her blue fur coat',12,4,170),(3909,'will slip blissfully to the floor.',13,4,170),(3910,'May mga kalungkutang hindi mabansagan,',1,1,171),(3911,'Walang dahilan o katwiran,',2,1,171),(3912,'Kinahihinatnan nang walang kamalay-malay:',3,1,171),(3913,'May kaunting pangangatal sa ilang bahagi ng katawang',4,1,171),(3914,'Unti-unti mong napapakiramdaman.',5,1,171),(3915,'Tinutuluyan mo, o tumutuloy sa iyo,',6,1,171),(3916,'Bahagyang pananamlay na hindi maiospital.',7,1,171),(3917,'Ano ang gagawin nila sa ganito?',8,1,171),(3918,'Kay raming higit pang nag-aagaw-buhay!',9,1,171),(3919,'Kagabi, halimbawa, pagtalikod niya,',10,2,171),(3920,'Paglalaho sa sulok na walang ilaw,',11,2,171),(3921,'Para siyang hinigop ng dilim',12,2,171),(3922,'Na kahit dahil lamang sa patay na ilaw,',13,2,171),(3923,'Parang dilim ng—naku naman!—kamatayan.',14,2,171),(3924,'At ikaw ang parang—paano nga ba?—pumanaw',15,2,171),(3925,'O pinanawan.',16,2,171),(3926,'Pinanawan',17,2,171),(3927,'Ng lahat ng mga gunitang pinangalagaan:',18,2,171),(3928,'Mga walang-buto’t-balat na musmos sa kandungan',19,2,171),(3929,'O mga napakamaselang halaman, o ulap,',20,2,171),(3930,'O buhay na buhay na pangarap',21,2,171),(3931,'Na hindi marahil dapat pinagsakatawan.',22,2,171),(3932,'At ngayon tuloy,',23,3,171),(3933,'Pati gunita, gunita na lamang.',24,3,171),(3934,'Parang hindi ikaw ang labis maligayahan.',25,3,171),(3935,'Parang hindi sa dibdib mo lumatag ang kapayapaan.',26,3,171),(3936,'Sa sandaling iyon, nawalay kang lubos',27,3,171),(3937,'Sa sariling kilala mo kaninang-kanina lang',28,3,171),(3938,'At hindi mahulaan—bakit pa aasahan?—kung kailan',29,3,171),(3939,'Kayong muli—tiyak na hindi na!—magkakangitian.',30,3,171),(3940,'To S. Preobrazhenski',1,1,172),(3941,'No people are uninteresting.',2,2,172),(3942,'Their destinies are like histories of planets.',3,2,172),(3943,'Nothing in them is not particular,',4,2,172),(3944,'and no planet is like another.',5,2,172),(3945,'And if someone lives in obscurity,',6,3,172),(3946,'befriending that obscurity,',7,3,172),(3947,'he is interesting to people',8,3,172),(3948,'by his very obscurity.',9,3,172),(3949,'Everyone has his own secret, private world.',10,4,172),(3950,'In that world is a finest moment.',11,4,172),(3951,'In that world is a tragic hour,',12,4,172),(3952,'but it is all unknown to us.',13,4,172),(3953,'And if someone dies',14,5,172),(3954,'there dies with him his first snow,',15,5,172),(3955,'and first kiss, and first fight.',16,5,172),(3956,'He takes it all with him.',17,5,172),(3957,'Yes, books and bridges remain,',18,6,172),(3958,'and painted canvas and machinery,',19,6,172),(3959,'yes, much is sentenced to remain,',20,6,172),(3960,'but something really departs all the same!',21,6,172),(3961,'Such is the law of the pitiless game.',22,7,172),(3962,'It’s not people who die, but worlds.',23,7,172),(3963,'We remember people, sinful and earthly.',24,7,172),(3964,'But what did we know, in essence, about them?',25,7,172),(3965,'What do we know of brothers, of friends?',26,8,172),(3966,'What do we know of our one and only?',27,8,172),(3967,'And about our own fathers,',28,8,172),(3968,'knowing everything, we know nothing.',29,8,172),(3969,'They perish. They cannot be brought back.',30,9,172),(3970,'Their secret worlds are not regenerated.',31,9,172),(3971,'And every time I want again',32,9,172),(3972,'to cry out against the unretrievableness.',33,9,172),(3973,'You would not think',1,1,173),(3974,'the way he carries it in',2,1,173),(3975,'that he carries a thing:',3,1,173),(3976,'the way he favors',4,2,173),(3977,'his left hand (which touches',5,2,173),(3978,'its strings) as if it were a wing',6,2,173),(3979,'that touched God; the way',7,3,173),(3980,'his knees cling to its sides',8,3,173),(3981,'as if it were love. It is',9,3,173),(3982,'his cross, to love',10,4,173),(3983,'a mermaid whose hair',11,4,173),(3984,'can sing, his cross',12,4,173),(3985,'to bear, a wooden box,',13,5,173),(3986,'half hourglass, half',14,5,173),(3987,'hollowness restraining',15,5,173),(3988,'resonant air, to know',16,6,173),(3989,'what is not woman, not thing',17,6,173),(3990,'but voice,',18,6,173),(3991,'and, with the audience',19,7,173),(3992,'mute as landscapes,',20,7,173),(3993,'to let it scream.',21,7,173),(3994,'She was a girl',1,1,174),(3995,'no one ever chose',2,1,174),(3996,'for teams or clubs,',3,1,174),(3997,'dances or dates,',4,1,174),(3998,'so she chose the instrument',5,2,174),(3999,'no one else wanted:',6,2,174),(4000,'the tuba. Big as herself,',7,2,174),(4001,'heavy as her heart,',8,2,174),(4002,'its golden tubes',9,3,174),(4003,'and coils encircled her',10,3,174),(4004,'like a lover’s embrace.',11,3,174),(4005,'Its body pressed on hers.',12,3,174),(4006,'Into its mouthpiece she blew',13,4,174),(4007,'life, its deep-throated',14,4,174),(4008,'oompahs, oompahs sounding,',15,4,174),(4009,'almost, like mating cries.',16,4,174),(4010,'I have just listened to this',1,1,175),(4011,'symphony which Mozart dashed off',2,1,175),(4012,'in one day',3,1,175),(4013,'and it had enough wild and crazy',4,1,175),(4014,'joy to last',5,1,175),(4015,'forever,',6,1,175),(4016,'whatever forever',7,1,175),(4017,'is',8,1,175),(4018,'Mozart came as close as',9,1,175),(4019,'possible to',10,1,175),(4020,'that.',11,1,175),(4021,'Are you the new person drawn toward me?',1,1,176),(4022,'To begin with, take warning, I am surely far different from what you suppose;',2,1,176),(4023,'Do you suppose you will find in me your ideal?',3,1,176),(4024,'Do you think it so easy to have me become your lover?',4,1,176),(4025,'Do you think the friendship of me would be unalloy’d satisfaction?',5,1,176),(4026,'Do you think I am trusty and faithful?',6,1,176),(4027,'Do you see no further than this façade, this smooth and tolerant manner of me?',7,1,176),(4028,'Do you suppose yourself advancing on real ground toward a real heroic man?',8,1,176),(4029,'Have you no thought, O dreamer, that it may be all maya, illusion?',9,1,176),(4030,'I’ve got to tell you',1,1,177),(4031,'how I love you always',2,1,177),(4032,'I think of it on grey',3,1,177),(4033,'mornings with death',4,1,177),(4034,'in my mouth the tea',5,2,177),(4035,'is never hot enough',6,2,177),(4036,'then and the cigarette',7,2,177),(4037,'dry the maroon robe',8,2,177),(4038,'chills me I need you',9,3,177),(4039,'and look out the window',10,3,177),(4040,'at the noiseless snow',11,3,177),(4041,'At night on the dock',12,4,177),(4042,'the buses glow like',13,4,177),(4043,'clouds and I am lonely',14,4,177),(4044,'thinking of flutes',15,4,177),(4045,'I miss you always',16,5,177),(4046,'when I go to the beach',17,5,177),(4047,'the sand is wet with',18,5,177),(4048,'tears that seem mine',19,5,177),(4049,'although I never weep',20,6,177),(4050,'and hold you in my',21,6,177),(4051,'heart with a very real',22,6,177),(4052,'humor you’d be proud of',23,6,177),(4053,'the parking lot is',24,7,177),(4054,'crowded and I stand',25,7,177),(4055,'rattling my keys the car',26,7,177),(4056,'is empty as a bicycle',27,7,177),(4057,'what are you doing now',28,8,177),(4058,'where did you eat your',29,8,177),(4059,'lunch and were there',30,8,177),(4060,'lots of anchovies it',31,8,177),(4061,'is difficult to think',32,9,177),(4062,'of you without me in',33,9,177),(4063,'the sentence you depress',34,9,177),(4064,'me when you are alone',35,9,177),(4065,'Last night the stars',36,10,177),(4066,'were numerous and today',37,10,177),(4067,'snow is their calling',38,10,177),(4068,'card I’ll not be cordial',39,10,177),(4069,'there is nothing that',40,11,177),(4070,'distracts me music is',41,11,177),(4071,'only a crossword puzzle',42,11,177),(4072,'do you know how it is',43,11,177),(4073,'when you are the only',44,12,177),(4074,'passenger if there is a',45,12,177),(4075,'place further from me',46,12,177),(4076,'I beg you do not go',47,12,177),(4077,'Ah, Grief, I should not treat you',1,1,178),(4078,'like a homeless dog',2,1,178),(4079,'who comes to the back door',3,1,178),(4080,'for a crust, for a meatless bone.',4,1,178),(4081,'I should trust you.',5,1,178),(4082,'I should coax you',6,2,178),(4083,'into the house and give you',7,2,178),(4084,'your own corner,',8,2,178),(4085,'a worn mat to lie on,',9,2,178),(4086,'your own water dish.',10,2,178),(4087,'You think I don’t know you’ve been living',11,3,178),(4088,'under my porch.',12,3,178),(4089,'You long for your real place to be readied',13,3,178),(4090,'before winter comes. You need',14,3,178),(4091,'your name,',15,3,178),(4092,'your collar and tag. You need',16,3,178),(4093,'the right to warn off intruders,',17,3,178),(4094,'to consider',18,3,178),(4095,'my house your own',19,3,178),(4096,'and me your person',20,3,178),(4097,'and yourself',21,3,178),(4098,'my own dog.',22,3,178),(4099,'That spring when my parents’ bodies were still pristine,',1,1,179),(4100,'and the sex so new that each time they were dazed,',2,1,179),(4101,'grinning like kids holding sparklers in the dark—',3,1,179),(4102,'can she recall that giving in, knees first,',4,2,179),(4103,'the ground folding beneath her, how only then',5,2,179),(4104,'she began to know fear, that it tallies up beat for beat',6,2,179),(4105,'with love and the world can betray us because we finally',7,2,179),(4106,'want something from it? For her it was the do-gooders',8,2,179),(4107,'always claiming the most common things will kill us',9,2,179),(4108,'furnace pipes asbestos-wrapped, pesticide-sprayed grapes,',10,3,179),(4109,'even tap water radiated. And she began to wash her hands,',11,3,179),(4110,'trying to keep clean, to risk nothing; she became a genius,',12,3,179),(4111,'inventing the patterned travel of germs, from hand to mouth',13,4,179),(4112,'to vital organ and the lazy swirling ones that love to linger',14,4,179),(4113,'in towels and sink drains, how detergent itself was lethal.',15,4,179),(4114,'She scrubbed for us, each plate and spoon, her hands',16,5,179),(4115,'cracked and bleeding, she boiled and boiled our meat.',17,5,179),(4116,'I’ve decided it is a sweetness no one deserves, her love',18,5,179),(4117,'for us grown too large, like the oversized heart ever-expanding',19,6,179),(4118,'to compensate for one weak murmuring valve,',20,6,179),(4119,'and the weakness too is love, a constant falling.',21,6,179),(4120,'Soon we will plunge ourselves into cold shadows,',1,1,180),(4121,'And all of summer’s stunning afternoons will be gone.',2,1,180),(4122,'I already hear the dead thuds of logs below',3,1,180),(4123,'Falling on the cobblestones and the lawn.',4,1,180),(4124,'All of winter will return to me:',5,2,180),(4125,'derision, Hate, shuddering, horror, drudgery and vice,',6,2,180),(4126,'And exiled, like the sun, to a polar prison,',7,2,180),(4127,'My soul will harden into a block of red ice.',8,2,180),(4128,'I shiver as I listen to each log crash and slam:',9,3,180),(4129,'The echoes are as dull as executioners’ drums.',10,3,180),(4130,'My mind is like a tower that slowly succumbs',11,3,180),(4131,'To the blows of a relentless battering ram.',12,3,180),(4132,'It seems to me, swaying to these shocks, that someone',13,4,180),(4133,'Is nailing down a coffin in a hurry somewhere.',14,4,180),(4134,'For whom?—It was summer yesterday; now it’s autumn.',15,4,180),(4135,'Echoes of departure keep resounding in the air.',16,4,180),(4136,'The assignment was to fall in love.',1,1,181),(4137,'The author was female.',2,1,181),(4138,'The ego had to be called the soul.',3,1,181),(4139,'The action took place in the body.',4,2,181),(4140,'Stars represented everything else: dreams, the mind, etc.',5,2,181),(4141,'The beloved was identified',6,3,181),(4142,'with the self in a narcissistic projection.',7,3,181),(4143,'The mind was a sub-plot. It went nattering on.',8,3,181),(4144,'Time was experienced',9,4,181),(4145,'less as narrative than ritual.',10,4,181),(4146,'What was repeated had weight.',11,4,181),(4147,'Certain endings were tragic, thus acceptable.',12,5,181),(4148,'Everything else was failure.',13,5,181),(4149,'I think that I shall never know',1,1,182),(4150,'Why I am thus, and I am so.',2,1,182),(4151,'Around me, other girls inspire',3,1,182),(4152,'In men the rush and roar of fire,',4,1,182),(4153,'The sweet transparency of glass,',5,1,182),(4154,'The tenderness of April grass,',6,1,182),(4155,'The durability of granite;',7,1,182),(4156,'But me- I don’t know how to plan it.',8,1,182),(4157,'The lads I’ve met in Cupid’s deadlock',9,1,182),(4158,'Were- shall we say?- born out of wedlock.',10,1,182),(4159,'They broke my heart, they stilled my song,',11,1,182),(4160,'And said they had to run along,',12,1,182),(4161,'Explaining, so to sop my tears,',13,1,182),(4162,'First came their parents or careers.',14,1,182),(4163,'But ever does experience',15,1,182),(4164,'Deny me wisdom, calm, and sense!',16,1,182),(4165,'Though she’s a fool who seeks to capture',17,1,182),(4166,'The twenty-first fine, careless rapture,',18,1,182),(4167,'I must go on, till ends my rope,',19,1,182),(4168,'Who from my birth was cursed with hope.',20,1,182),(4169,'A heart in half is chaste, archaic;',21,1,182),(4170,'But mine resembles a mosaic-',22,1,182),(4171,'The thing’s become ridiculous!',23,1,182),(4172,'Why am I so? Why am I thus?',24,1,182),(4173,'I should be the shiny one,',1,1,183),(4174,'all my pores oozing the fat',2,1,183),(4175,'of the earth.',3,1,183),(4176,'When I lean to the table',4,2,183),(4177,'my breasts should rest on the cloth',5,2,183),(4178,'plump as hens.',6,2,183),(4179,'If I can’t pick and choose, fire',7,3,183),(4180,'guests who don’t please me after',8,3,183),(4181,'the first course,',9,3,183),(4182,'I should at least rule feast days,',10,4,183),(4183,'blushing as the family toasts',11,4,183),(4184,'my grand meal.',12,4,183),(4185,'Instead I’m the pet under',13,5,183),(4186,'the table, nosing crotches,',14,5,183),(4187,'begging scraps.',15,5,183),(4188,'I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair.',1,1,184),(4189,'Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.',2,1,184),(4190,'Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day',3,1,184),(4191,'I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps.',4,1,184),(4192,'I hunger for your sleek laugh,',5,2,184),(4193,'your hands the color of a savage harvest,',6,2,184),(4194,'hunger for the pale stones of your fingernails,',7,2,184),(4195,'I want to eat your skin like a whole almond.',8,2,184),(4196,'I want to eat the sunbeam flaring in your lovely body,',9,3,184),(4197,'the sovereign nose of your arrogant face,',10,3,184),(4198,'I want to eat the fleeting shade of your lashes,',11,3,184),(4199,'and I pace around hungry, sniffing the twilight,',12,4,184),(4200,'hunting for you, for your hot heart,',13,4,184),(4201,'like a puma in the barrens of Quitratue.',14,4,184),(4202,'Tuwing makakahanap ako ng tula',1,1,185),(4203,'sa laktaw-laktaw na liwanag sa ulap sa gabi,',2,1,185),(4204,'sa laganap na dilim ng ulap sa araw,',3,1,185),(4205,'ang natatagpuan ko ay buwan at ulan.',4,1,185),(4206,'Sa mukha ng buwan',5,2,185),(4207,'nababasa ko ang paglusong at pag-ahon,',6,2,185),(4208,'ang pagkukubli at paglalantad, at',7,2,185),(4209,'ang himala ng pagiging malinis na ostisya ng langit',8,2,185),(4210,'sa kabila ng maraming pilat.',9,2,185),(4211,'Sa patak ng ulan',10,3,185),(4212,'naririnig ko ang lagaslas at ragasa,',11,3,185),(4213,'ang hikbi at hagulgol, at',12,3,185),(4214,'ang himala ng pagiging dalisay na alak ng lupa',13,3,185),(4215,'sa kabila ng alat at pait.',14,3,185),(4216,'At isusulat ko:',15,4,185),(4217,'Ako ang ulap na bilanggo ng liwanag at dilim,',16,4,185),(4218,'na magpahanggang-ngayon lambong lamang ng buwan',17,4,185),(4219,'at magpahanggang-wakas lambat lamang ng ulan.',18,4,185),(4220,'The rising hills, the slopes,',1,1,186),(4221,'of statistics',2,1,186),(4222,'lie before us.',3,1,186),(4223,'The steep climb',4,1,186),(4224,'of everything, going up,',5,1,186),(4225,'up, as we all',6,1,186),(4226,'go down.',7,1,186),(4227,'In the next century',8,2,186),(4228,'or the one beyond that,',9,2,186),(4229,'they say,',10,2,186),(4230,'are valleys, pastures,',11,2,186),(4231,'we can meet there in peace',12,2,186),(4232,'if we make it.',13,2,186),(4233,'To climb these coming crests',14,3,186),(4234,'one word to you, to',15,3,186),(4235,'you and your children:',16,3,186),(4236,'stay together',17,4,186),(4237,'learn the flowers',18,4,186),(4238,'go light',19,4,186),(4239,'If you place a fern',1,1,187),(4240,'under a stone',2,1,187),(4241,'the next day it will be',3,1,187),(4242,'nearly invisible',4,1,187),(4243,'as if the stone has',5,1,187),(4244,'swallowed it.',6,1,187),(4245,'If you tuck the name of a loved one',7,2,187),(4246,'under your tongue too long',8,2,187),(4247,'without speaking it',9,2,187),(4248,'it becomes blood',10,2,187),(4249,'sigh',11,2,187),(4250,'the little sucked-in breath of air',12,2,187),(4251,'hiding everywhere',13,2,187),(4252,'beneath your words.',14,2,187),(4253,'No one sees',15,3,187),(4254,'the fuel that feeds you.',16,3,187),(4255,'They tore down the old movie palaces,',1,1,188),(4256,'Ripped up streetcar tracks, widened avenues.',2,1,188),(4257,'Lampposts, curbs with their trees vanished.',3,1,188),(4258,'They knew, who came after,',4,1,188),(4259,'A story of departing hands and affairs, that mostly',5,1,188),(4260,'Went untold, unless someone who was there once',6,1,188),(4261,'Visited the old neighborhood, and then',7,1,188),(4262,'They would tell about it, the space',8,1,188),(4263,'Of an afternoon, how it happened in the afternoon',9,1,188),(4264,'So that no record, no print of it could exist',10,1,188),(4265,'For the steep times to come. And sure enough,',11,1,188),(4266,'Even as the story ended its shadow vanished,',12,1,188),(4267,'A twice-told tale not to be told again',13,1,188),(4268,'Unless children one day dig up the past, in the attic',14,1,188),(4269,'Or under brush in the back yard: “What’s this?”',15,1,188),(4270,'And you have to tell them, will have to tell them then',16,1,188),(4271,'That the enormous nature of things had a face',17,1,188),(4272,'Once and feet like any human being, and one day',18,1,188),(4273,'Broke out of the shell that had always been,',19,1,188),(4274,'Changed its answers to lies, youthful ambition',20,1,188),(4275,'To a quirk of the past, a fancy, of some',21,1,188),(4276,'Antiquarian concern that this damaged day can never',22,1,188),(4277,'Countenance if we want to live past the rope',23,1,188),(4278,'Of noon, reach the bald summits by late afternoon.',24,1,188),(4279,'Surely we are protected, surely someone thinks of us',25,2,188),(4280,'Often enough to keep the stain from setting, surely',26,2,188),(4281,'All of us are alike and know each other from earliest',27,2,188),(4282,'Childhood, for better or for worse: surely we eat',28,2,188),(4283,'Breakfast each day, and shit, and put the kettle on the stove',29,2,188),(4284,'With much changing of the subject, much twisting the original',30,2,188),(4285,'Premise back to the nature of the actual itch',31,2,188),(4286,'Engulfing us, now. And when we come back',32,2,188),(4287,'From an outing expect to find the furniture magically',33,2,188),(4288,'Rearranged to accommodate revised, smaller projects',34,2,188),(4289,'No one bothers to question, except polite Puss-in-Boots with what',35,2,188),(4290,'Is in effect a new premise: “Try this one, the dust',36,2,188),(4291,'Shows less on these rather sad colors; the time',37,2,188),(4292,'To get started and gain time, however brief, over the neighbors',38,2,188),(4293,'Quarreling into sunset, once you’ve convinced them you’re',39,2,188),(4294,'Not playing and therefore not cheating. When the princess',40,2,188),(4295,'Comes to see you on some perfectly plausible pretext, you’ll know',41,2,188),(4296,'The underground stream that has never stood still is the surface',42,2,188),(4297,'And the theater for all that is to come. Too bad the revisions',43,2,188),(4298,'Will never be adopted, but how lucky for you, now,',44,2,188),(4299,'The change of face. Good times follow bad.”',45,2,188),(4300,'And the locket is still on the chain on a throat.',46,3,188),(4301,'The askers, the doers, fall into silent confusion',47,3,188),(4302,'As it comes time to stand up like a sheet of metal',48,3,188),(4303,'In the blast of sunrise. I will do this, I can do no more.',49,3,188),(4304,'I cannot think on the edge of a platform.',50,3,188),(4305,'But the abandonment by love is a de facto sign',51,4,188),(4306,'Of something else coming along,',52,4,188),(4307,'Something similar in its measuredness:',53,4,188),(4308,'Sweetness of things late, a memory for particulars',54,4,188),(4309,'As lively as though they happened still. As indeed',55,4,188),(4310,'They do sometimes, though like the transparent bricks',56,4,188),(4311,'In a particular dream, they cannot always be seen.',57,4,188),(4312,'I never want to go when it’s time',1,1,189),(4313,'to go; I want to hang back, to read',2,1,189),(4314,'a book, or make another line rhyme.',3,1,189),(4315,'I always think that what I really need',4,1,189),(4316,'is there in the place that I am leaving,',5,1,189),(4317,'not waiting in the new place I ached',6,1,189),(4318,'to go to. I go, but with a kind of grieving,',7,1,189),(4319,'saying, Why’d I ever wish to shake',8,1,189),(4320,'things up, when things were really fine?',9,1,189),(4321,'To be with him I always had to yank',10,1,189),(4322,'my roots, I always had to pull my bones',11,1,189),(4323,'by heartstrings, to tear my spine',12,1,189),(4324,'from land to land; sometimes I walked a plank',13,1,189),(4325,'to reach that world, and breathe, and write these poems.',14,1,189),(4326,'When you appeared it was as if',1,1,190),(4327,'magnets cleared the air.',2,1,190),(4328,'I had never seen that smile before',3,1,190),(4329,'or your hair, flying silver. Someone',4,1,190),(4330,'waving goodbye, she was silver, too.',5,1,190),(4331,'Of course you didn’t see me.',6,1,190),(4332,'I called softly so you could choose',7,1,190),(4333,'not to answer – then called again.',8,1,190),(4334,'You turned in the light, your eyes',9,1,190),(4335,'seeking your name.',10,1,190),(4336,'Nalulumbay ang puno ng goma sa gilid ng bulibard',1,1,191),(4337,'At ang puno ng akasya sa likod ng goma.',2,1,191),(4338,'Mukhang uulan sa buong mundo.',3,1,191),(4339,'Wala na ang mahal ko, iniwanan ako.',4,1,191),(4340,'Nalulumbay ang tubig na laging kulay-abo',5,2,191),(4341,'At ang tatlong bapor na kulay-kalawang sa laot,',6,2,191),(4342,'At sa likod, ang ulap na parang tinggang natunaw.',7,2,191),(4343,'Wala na ang mahal ko, iniwanan ako.',8,2,191),(4344,'Nakatungo ang mga dahon ng niyog,',9,3,191),(4345,'Marahang pakampay-kampay',10,3,191),(4346,'Sa hanging humahampas, naglalarong',11,3,191),(4347,'Anaki’y mga batang walang kamalay-malay',12,3,191),(4348,'Sa talas-kutsilyo, talas-labaha ng lumbay.',13,3,191),(4349,'At naalala ko ang isang awit na puno ng hinagpis,',14,4,191),(4350,'Parang sugat na humahapdi, lalong tinitistis.',15,4,191),(4351,'At naalala ko ang wala nang mahal ko',16,4,191),(4352,'Na naparaan sa aking mundo,',17,4,191),(4353,'Parang ulap na bumitin nang ilang saglit,',18,4,191),(4354,'Saka nagpatuloy sa maraming lakad sa himpapawid',19,4,191),(4355,'At, sa tingin ko, hindi na, hindi babalik.',20,4,191),(4356,'The dogs greet me, I descend',1,1,192),(4357,'into their world of fur and tongues',2,1,192),(4358,'and then my wife and I embrace',3,1,192),(4359,'as if we’d just closed the door',4,1,192),(4360,'in a motel, our two girls slip in',5,1,192),(4361,'between us and we’re all saying',6,1,192),(4362,'each other’s names and the dogs',7,1,192),(4363,'Buster and Sundown are on their hind legs,',8,1,192),(4364,'people-style, seeking more love.',9,1,192),(4365,'I’ve come home wanting to touch',10,1,192),(4366,'everyone, everything; usually I turn',11,1,192),(4367,'the key and they’re all lost',12,1,192),(4368,'in food or homework, even the dogs',13,1,192),(4369,'are preoccupied with themselves,',14,1,192),(4370,'I desire only to ease',15,1,192),(4371,'back in, the mail, a drink,',16,1,192),(4372,'but tonight the body-hungers have sent out',17,1,192),(4373,'their long-range signals',18,1,192),(4374,'or love itself has risen',19,1,192),(4375,'from its squalor of neglect.',20,1,192),(4376,'Everytime the kids turn their backs',21,1,192),(4377,'I touch my wife’s breasts',22,1,192),(4378,'and when she checks the dinner',23,1,192),(4379,'the unfriendly cat on the dishwasher',24,1,192),(4380,'wants to rub heads, starts to speak',25,1,192),(4381,'with his little motor and violin–',26,1,192),(4382,'everything, everyone is intelligible',27,1,192),(4383,'in the language of touch,',28,1,192),(4384,'and we sit down to dinner inarticulate',29,1,192),(4385,'as blood, all difficulties postponed',30,1,192),(4386,'because the weather is so good.',31,1,192),(4387,'Somewhere someone is traveling furiously toward you,',1,1,193),(4388,'At incredible speed, traveling day and night,',2,1,193),(4389,'Through blizzards and desert heat, across torrents, through narrow passes.',3,1,193),(4390,'But will he know where to find you,',4,1,193),(4391,'Recognize you when he sees you,',5,1,193),(4392,'Give you the thing he has for you?',6,1,193),(4393,'Hardly anything grows here,',7,2,193),(4394,'Yet the granaries are bursting with meal,',8,2,193),(4395,'The sacks of meal piled to the rafters.',9,2,193),(4396,'The streams run with sweetness, fattening fish;',10,2,193),(4397,'Birds darken the sky. Is it enough',11,2,193),(4398,'That the dish of milk is set out at night,',12,2,193),(4399,'That we think of him sometimes,',13,2,193),(4400,'Sometimes and always, with mixed feelings?',14,2,193),(4401,'The names are the first to go,',1,1,194),(4402,'then the dates of births and deaths.',2,1,194),(4403,'It’s as if everything moves on another,',3,1,194),(4404,'esoteric level, here among the gravestones',4,1,194),(4405,'where the elements collude so we don’t realize',5,1,194),(4406,'how we succumb to forgetting. The milkweed unfolds',6,1,194),(4407,'its damascened leaves and monarch caterpillars',7,1,194),(4408,'devour them scrupulously, and out of this simple act',8,1,194),(4409,'something marvelous is already happening,',9,1,194),(4410,'the promise of a massive and silent migration.',10,1,194),(4411,'Order is natural progression: a century from now',11,1,194),(4412,'the sugar maples planted by the pioneers',12,1,194),(4413,'will still be growing, too ancient to remember',13,1,194),(4414,'everyone who’s seen them here. This once',14,1,194),(4415,'was a church, where now two benches meet',15,1,194),(4416,'in mute conviviality, and this a pound for stray sheep;',16,1,194),(4417,'one village will be mowed over by another,',17,1,194),(4418,'one more road will cut through the forest here.',18,1,194),(4419,'A tractor roars to say the conquest is complete:',19,1,194),(4420,'we tame the land until it accepts',20,1,194),(4421,'our habits, our fear of need. When I hear these sounds,',21,1,194),(4422,'says Stansik, age five, my heart flies from its place.',22,1,194),(4423,'Just eight months in the country, he is learning',23,1,194),(4424,'the landscape of language where there is no',24,1,194),(4425,'fixed geography, and everything',25,1,194),(4426,'still evokes another memory: cowdung is',26,1,194),(4427,'smell of village, a pond is primal, rippling',27,1,194),(4428,'with translucent newts. The stones',28,1,194),(4429,'say little of these former lives, just that',29,1,194),(4430,'they once were valiantly loved;',30,1,194),(4431,'you can almost hear them calling the roll:',31,1,194),(4432,'Thompson, Merritt, Thayer, each a perfect',32,1,194),(4433,'solitude, a stilled comet. Stansik again:',33,1,194),(4434,'Why are there no blacks in Massachusetts?',34,1,194),(4435,'And: You are not black but gray. Pretty soon he’ll forget',35,1,194),(4436,'his Russian, the language he is slowly',36,1,194),(4437,'inventing, the man from whom his mother',37,1,194),(4438,'had to run away. I wonder if he will remember',38,1,194),(4439,'this summer, and how the heart feels',39,1,194),(4440,'when it flies for no reason other than',40,1,194),(4441,'—what was it? I didn’t know, I had never learned',41,1,194),(4442,'the word for it, and to this day I walk',42,1,194),(4443,'the unspeakable territories.',43,1,194),(4444,'It is an afternoon toward the end of August:',1,1,195),(4445,'Autumnal weather, cool following on,',2,1,195),(4446,'And riding in, after the heat of summer,',3,1,195),(4447,'Into the empty afternoon shade and light,',4,1,195),(4448,'The shade full of light without any thickness at all;',5,2,195),(4449,'You can see right through and right down into the depth',6,2,195),(4450,'Of the light and shade of the afternoon; there isn’t',7,2,195),(4451,'Any weight of the summer pressing down.',8,2,195),(4452,'In the backyard of the house next door there’s a kid,',9,3,195),(4453,'Maybe eleven or twelve, and a young man,',10,3,195),(4454,'Visitors at the house whom I don’t know,',11,3,195),(4455,'The house in which the sound of some kind of party,',12,3,195),(4456,'Perhaps even a wedding, is going on.',13,4,195),(4457,'Somehow you can tell from the tone of their voices',14,4,195),(4458,'That they don’t know each other very well–',15,4,195),(4459,'Two guests at the party, one of them, maybe,',16,4,195),(4460,'A friend of the bride or groom, the other the son',17,5,195),(4461,'Or the younger brother, maybe, of somebody there.',18,5,195),(4462,'A couple of blocks away the wash of traffic',19,5,195),(4463,'Dimly sounds, as if we were near the ocean.',20,5,195),(4464,'They’re shooting baskets, amiably and mildly.',21,6,195),(4465,'The noise of the basketball, though startingly louder',22,6,195),(4466,'Than the voices of the two of them as they play,',23,6,195),(4467,'Is peaceable as can be, something like meter.',24,6,195),(4468,'The earnest voice of the kid, girlish and manly,',25,7,195),(4469,'And the voice of the young man, carefully playing the game',26,7,195),(4470,'Of having a grown-up conversation with him:',27,7,195),(4471,'I can tell the young man is teaching the boy by example,',28,7,195),(4472,'The easy way he dribbles the ball and passes it',29,8,195),(4473,'Back with a single gesture of wrist to make it',30,8,195),(4474,'Easy for the kid to be in synch;',31,8,195),(4475,'Giving and taking, perfectly understood.',32,8,195),(4476,'These are amazing: each',1,1,196),(4477,'Joining a neighbor, as though speech',2,1,196),(4478,'Were a still performance.',3,1,196),(4479,'Arranging by chance',4,1,196),(4480,'To meet as far this morning',5,2,196),(4481,'From the world as agreeing',6,2,196),(4482,'With it, you and I',7,2,196),(4483,'Are suddenly what the trees try',8,2,196),(4484,'To tell us we are:',9,3,196),(4485,'That their merely being there',10,3,196),(4486,'Means something; that soon',11,3,196),(4487,'We may touch, love, explain.',12,3,196),(4488,'And glad not to have invented',13,4,196),(4489,'Such comeliness, we are surrounded:',14,4,196),(4490,'A silence already filled with noises,',15,4,196),(4491,'A canvas on which emerges',16,4,196),(4492,'A chorus of smiles, a winter morning.',17,5,196),(4493,'Placed in a puzzling light, and moving,',18,5,196),(4494,'Our days put on such reticence',19,5,196),(4495,'These accents seem their own defense.',20,5,196),(4496,'Here the frailest leaves of me, and yet my strongest-lasting:',1,1,197),(4497,'Here I shade and hide my thoughts—I myself do not expose them,',2,1,197),(4498,'And yet they expose me more than all my other poems.',3,1,197),(4499,'They have photographed the brain',1,1,198),(4500,'and here is the picture, it is full of',2,1,198),(4501,'branches as I always suspected,',3,1,198),(4502,'each time you arrive the electricity',4,2,198),(4503,'of seeing you is a huge',5,2,198),(4504,'tree lumbering through my skull, the roots waving.',6,2,198),(4505,'It is an earth, its fibres wrap',7,3,198),(4506,'things buried, your forgotten words',8,3,198),(4507,'are graved in my head, an intricate',9,3,198),(4508,'red blue and pink prehensile chemistry',10,4,198),(4509,'veined like a leaf',11,4,198),(4510,'network, or is it a seascape',12,4,198),(4511,'with corals and shining tentacles.',13,4,198),(4512,'I touch you, I am created in you',14,5,198),(4513,'somewhere as a complex',15,5,198),(4514,'filament of light',16,5,198),(4515,'You rest on me and my shoulder holds',17,6,198),(4516,'your heavy unbelievable',18,7,198),(4517,'skull, crowded with radiant',19,7,198),(4518,'suns, a new planet, the people',20,7,198),(4519,'submerged in you, a lost civilization',21,7,198),(4520,'I can never excavate:',22,7,198),(4521,'my hands trace the contours of a total',23,8,198),(4522,'universe, its different',24,8,198),(4523,'colors, flowers, its undiscovered',25,8,198),(4524,'animals, violent or serene',26,8,198),(4525,'its other air',27,9,198),(4526,'its claws',28,9,198),(4527,'its paradise rivers',29,10,198),(4528,'Sometimes the notes are ferocious,',1,1,199),(4529,'skirmishes against the author',2,1,199),(4530,'raging along the borders of every page',3,1,199),(4531,'in tiny black script.',4,1,199),(4532,'If I could just get my hands on you,',5,1,199),(4533,'Kierkegaard, or Conor Cruise O’Brien,',6,1,199),(4534,'they seem to say,',7,1,199),(4535,'I would bolt the door and beat some logic into your head.',8,1,199),(4536,'Other comments are more offhand, dismissive—',9,2,199),(4537,'“Nonsense.” “Please!” “HA!!”—',10,2,199),(4538,'that kind of thing.',11,2,199),(4539,'I remember once looking up from my reading,',12,2,199),(4540,'my thumb as a bookmark,',13,2,199),(4541,'trying to imagine what the person must look like',14,2,199),(4542,'who wrote “Don’t be a ninny”',15,2,199),(4543,'alongside a paragraph in The Life of Emily Dickinson.',16,2,199),(4544,'Students are more modest',17,3,199),(4545,'needing to leave only their splayed footprints',18,3,199),(4546,'along the shore of the page.',19,3,199),(4547,'One scrawls “Metaphor” next to a stanza of Eliot’s.',20,3,199),(4548,'Another notes the presence of “Irony”',21,3,199),(4549,'fifty times outside the paragraphs of A Modest Proposal.',22,3,199),(4550,'Or they are fans who cheer from the empty bleachers,',23,4,199),(4551,'Hands cupped around their mouths.',24,4,199),(4552,'“Absolutely,” they shout',25,4,199),(4553,'to Duns Scotus and James Baldwin.',26,4,199),(4554,'“Yes.” “Bull’s-eye.” “My man!”',27,4,199),(4555,'Check marks, asterisks, and exclamation points',28,4,199),(4556,'rain down along the sidelines.',29,4,199),(4557,'And if you have managed to graduate from college',30,5,199),(4558,'without ever having written “Man vs. Nature”',31,5,199),(4559,'in a margin, perhaps now',32,5,199),(4560,'is the time to take one step forward.',33,5,199),(4561,'We have all seized the white perimeter as our own',34,6,199),(4562,'and reached for a pen if only to show',35,6,199),(4563,'we did not just laze in an armchair turning pages;',36,6,199),(4564,'we pressed a thought into the wayside,',37,6,199),(4565,'planted an impression along the verge.',38,6,199),(4566,'Even Irish monks in their cold scriptoria',39,7,199),(4567,'jotted along the borders of the Gospels',40,7,199),(4568,'brief asides about the pains of copying,',41,7,199),(4569,'a bird singing near their window,',42,7,199),(4570,'or the sunlight that illuminated their page—',43,7,199),(4571,'anonymous men catching a ride into the future',44,7,199),(4572,'on a vessel more lasting than themselves.',45,7,199),(4573,'And you have not read Joshua Reynolds,',46,8,199),(4574,'they say, until you have read him',47,8,199),(4575,'enwreathed with Blake’s furious scribbling.',48,8,199),(4576,'Yet the one I think of most often,',49,9,199),(4577,'the one that dangles from me like a locket,',50,9,199),(4578,'was written in the copy of Catcher in the Rye',51,9,199),(4579,'I borrowed from the local library',52,9,199),(4580,'one slow, hot summer.',53,9,199),(4581,'I was just beginning high school then,',54,9,199),(4582,'reading books on a davenport in my parents’ living room,',55,9,199),(4583,'and I cannot tell you',56,9,199),(4584,'how vastly my loneliness was deepened,',57,9,199),(4585,'how poignant and amplified the world before me seemed,',58,9,199),(4586,'when I found on one page',59,9,199),(4587,'A few greasy looking smears',60,10,199),(4588,'and next to them, written in soft pencil—',61,10,199),(4589,'by a beautiful girl, I could tell,',62,10,199),(4590,'whom I would never meet—',63,10,199),(4591,'“Pardon the egg salad stains, but I’m in love.”',64,10,199),(4592,'There are many that I miss',1,1,200),(4593,'having sent my last one out a car window',2,1,200),(4594,'sparking along the road one night, years ago.',3,1,200),(4595,'The heralded one, of course:',4,2,200),(4596,'after sex, the two glowing tips',5,2,200),(4597,'now the lights of a single ship;',6,2,200),(4598,'at the end of a long dinner',7,2,200),(4599,'with more wine to come',8,2,200),(4600,'and a smoke ring coasting into the chandelier;',9,2,200),(4601,'or on a white beach,',10,2,200),(4602,'holding one with fingers still wet from a swim.',11,2,200),(4603,'How bittersweet these punctuations',12,3,200),(4604,'of flame and gesture;',13,3,200),(4605,'but the best were on those mornings',14,3,200),(4606,'when I would have a little something going',15,3,200),(4607,'in the typewriter,',16,3,200),(4608,'the sun bright in the windows,',17,3,200),(4609,'maybe some Berlioz on in the background.',18,3,200),(4610,'I would go into the kitchen for coffee',19,3,200),(4611,'and on the way back to the page,',20,3,200),(4612,'curled in its roller,',21,3,200),(4613,'I would light one up and feel',22,3,200),(4614,'its dry rush mix with the dark taste of coffee.',23,3,200),(4615,'Then I would be my own locomotive,',24,4,200),(4616,'trailing behind me as I returned to work',25,4,200),(4617,'little puffs of smoke,',26,4,200),(4618,'indicators of progress,',27,4,200),(4619,'signs of industry and thought,',28,4,200),(4620,'the signal that told the nineteenth century',29,4,200),(4621,'it was moving forward.',30,4,200),(4622,'That was the best cigarette,',31,4,200),(4623,'when I would steam into the study',32,4,200),(4624,'full of vaporous hope',33,4,200),(4625,'and stand there,',34,4,200),(4626,'the big headlamp of my face',35,4,200),(4627,'pointed down at all the words in parallel lines.',36,4,200),(4628,'I know what my heart is like',1,1,201),(4629,'Since your love died:',2,1,201),(4630,'It is like a hollow ledge',3,1,201),(4631,'Holding a little pool',4,1,201),(4632,'Left there by the tide,',5,1,201),(4633,'A little tepid pool,',6,1,201),(4634,'Drying inward from the edge.',7,1,201),(4635,'Although the wind',1,1,202),(4636,'blows terribly here,',2,1,202),(4637,'the moonlight also leaks',3,1,202),(4638,'between the roof planks',4,1,202),(4639,'of this ruined house.',5,1,202),(4640,'The clocks are sorry, the clocks are very sad.',1,1,203),(4641,'One stops, one goes on striking the wrong hours.',2,1,203),(4642,'And the grass burns terribly in the sun,',3,2,203),(4643,'The grass turns yellow secretly at the roots.',4,2,203),(4644,'Now suddenly the yard chairs look empty, the sky looks empty,',5,3,203),(4645,'The sky looks vast and empty.',6,3,203),(4646,'Out on Red Road the traffic continues; everything continues.',7,4,203),(4647,'Nor does memory sleep; it goes on.',8,4,203),(4648,'Out spring the butterflies of recollection,',9,5,203),(4649,'And I think that for the first time I understand',10,5,203),(4650,'The beautiful ordinary light of this patio',11,6,203),(4651,'And even perhaps the dark rich earth of a heart.',12,6,203),(4652,'(The bedclothes, they say, had been pulled down.',13,7,203),(4653,'I will not describe it. I do not want to describe it.',14,7,203),(4654,'No, but the sheets were drenched and twisted.',15,8,203),(4655,'They were the very handkerchiefs of grief.)',16,8,203),(4656,'Let summer come now with its schoolboy trumpets and fountains.',17,9,203),(4657,'But the years are gone, the years are finally over.',18,9,203),(4658,'And there is only',19,10,203),(4659,'This long desolation of flower-bordered sidewalks',20,10,203),(4660,'That runs to the corner, turns, and goes on,',21,11,203),(4661,'That disappears and goes on',22,11,203),(4662,'Into the black oblivion of a neighborhood and a world',23,12,203),(4663,'Without billboards or yesterdays.',24,12,203),(4664,'Sometimes a sad moon comes and waters the roof tiles.',25,13,203),(4665,'But the years are gone. There are no more years.',26,13,203),(4666,'Kashmir shrinks into my mailbox,',1,1,204),(4667,'my home a neat four by six inches.',2,1,204),(4668,'I always loved neatness. Now I hold',3,2,204),(4669,'the half-inch Himalayas in my hand.',4,2,204),(4670,'This is home. And this the closest',5,3,204),(4671,'I’ll ever be to home. When I return,',6,3,204),(4672,'the colors won’t be so brilliant,',7,3,204),(4673,'the Jhelum’s waters so clean,',8,3,204),(4674,'so ultramarine. My love',9,3,204),(4675,'so overexposed.',10,3,204),(4676,'And my memory will be a little',11,4,204),(4677,'out of focus, it in',12,4,204),(4678,'a giant negative, black',13,4,204),(4679,'and white, still undeveloped.',14,4,204),(4680,'There is a place where love begins and a place',1,1,205),(4681,'where love ends.',2,1,205),(4682,'There is a touch of two hands that foils all dictionaries.',3,2,205),(4683,'There is a look of eyes fierce as a big Bethlehem open hearth',4,3,205),(4684,'furnace or a little green-fire acetylene torch.',5,3,205),(4685,'There are single careless bywords portentous as a',6,4,205),(4686,'big bend in the Mississippi River.',7,4,205),(4687,'Hands, eyes, bywords–out of these love makes',8,5,205),(4688,'battlegrounds and workshops.',9,5,205),(4689,'There is a pair of shoes love wears and the coming',10,6,205),(4690,'is a mystery.',11,6,205),(4691,'There is a warning love sends and the cost of it',12,7,205),(4692,'is never written till long afterward.',13,7,205),(4693,'There are explanations of love in all languages',14,8,205),(4694,'and not one found wiser than this:',15,8,205),(4695,'There is a place where love begins and a place',16,9,205),(4696,'where love ends—and love asks nothing.',17,9,205),(4697,'You’re sad because you’re sad.',1,1,206),(4698,'It’s psychic. It’s the age. It’s chemical.',2,1,206),(4699,'Go see a shrink or take a pill,',3,1,206),(4700,'or hug your sadness like an eyeless doll',4,1,206),(4701,'you need to sleep.',5,1,206),(4702,'Well, all children are sad',6,2,206),(4703,'but some get over it.',7,2,206),(4704,'Count your blessings. Better than that,',8,2,206),(4705,'buy a hat. Buy a coat or pet.',9,2,206),(4706,'Take up dancing to forget.',10,2,206),(4707,'Forget what?',11,3,206),(4708,'Your sadness, your shadow,',12,3,206),(4709,'whatever it was that was done to you',13,3,206),(4710,'the day of the lawn party',14,3,206),(4711,'when you came inside flushed with the sun,',15,3,206),(4712,'your mouth sulky with sugar,',16,3,206),(4713,'in your new dress with the ribbon',17,3,206),(4714,'and the ice-cream smear,',18,3,206),(4715,'and said to yourself in the bathroom,',19,3,206),(4716,'I am not the favourite child.',20,3,206),(4717,'My darling, when it comes',21,4,206),(4718,'right down to it',22,4,206),(4719,'and the light fails and the fog rolls in',23,4,206),(4720,'and you’re trapped in your overturned body',24,4,206),(4721,'under a blanket or burning car,',25,4,206),(4722,'and the red flame is seeping out of you',26,5,206),(4723,'and igniting the tarmac beside your head',27,5,206),(4724,'or else the floor, or else the pillow,',28,5,206),(4725,'none of us is;',29,5,206),(4726,'or else we all are.',30,5,206),(4727,'(for my daughter)',1,1,207),(4728,'Composed in a shine of laughing, Monique brings in sacks',2,2,207),(4729,'of groceries, unloads them, straightens, and stretches her back.',3,2,207),(4730,'The child was a girl, the girl is a woman; the shift',4,3,207),(4731,'is subtle and absolute, worn like a gift.',5,3,207),(4732,'The woman, once girl once child, now is deft in her ease,',6,4,207),(4733,'is door to the forum, is cutter of keys.',7,4,207),(4734,'In space that her torque and lift have prefigured and set free',8,5,207),(4735,'between her mother and her child the woman stands',9,5,207),(4736,'having emptied her hands.',10,5,207),(4737,'I do not mean the symbol',1,1,208),(4738,'of love, a candy shape',2,1,208),(4739,'to decorate cakes with,',3,1,208),(4740,'the heart that is supposed',4,1,208),(4741,'to belong or break;',5,1,208),(4742,'I mean this lump of muscle',6,2,208),(4743,'that contracts like a flayed biceps,',7,2,208),(4744,'purple-blue, with its skin of suet,',8,2,208),(4745,'its skin of gristle, this isolate,',9,2,208),(4746,'this caved hermit, unshelled',10,2,208),(4747,'turtle, this one lungful of blood,',11,2,208),(4748,'no happy plateful.',12,2,208),(4749,'All hearts float in their own',13,3,208),(4750,'deep oceans of no light,',14,3,208),(4751,'wetblack and glimmering,',15,3,208),(4752,'their four mouths gulping like fish.',16,3,208),(4753,'Hearts are said to pound:',17,3,208),(4754,'this is to be expected, the heart’s',18,3,208),(4755,'regular struggle against being drowned.',19,3,208),(4756,'But most hearts say, I want, I want,',20,4,208),(4757,'I want, I want. My heart',21,4,208),(4758,'is more duplicitous,',22,4,208),(4759,'though to twin as I once thought.',23,4,208),(4760,'It says, I want, I don’t want, I',24,4,208),(4761,'want, and then a pause.',25,4,208),(4762,'It forces me to listen,',26,4,208),(4763,'and at night it is the infra-red',27,5,208),(4764,'third eye that remains open',28,5,208),(4765,'while the other two are sleeping',29,5,208),(4766,'but refuses to say what it has seen.',30,5,208),(4767,'It is a constant pestering',31,6,208),(4768,'in my ears, a caught moth, limping drum,',32,6,208),(4769,'a child’s fist beating',33,6,208),(4770,'itself against the bedsprings:',34,6,208),(4771,'I want, I don’t want.',35,6,208),(4772,'How can one live with such a heart?',36,6,208),(4773,'Long ago I gave up singing',37,7,208),(4774,'to it, it will never be satisfied or lulled.',38,7,208),(4775,'One night I will say to it:',39,7,208),(4776,'Heart, be still,',40,7,208),(4777,'and it will.',41,7,208),(4778,'Me up at does',1,1,209),(4779,'out of the floor',2,2,209),(4780,'quietly Stare',3,2,209),(4781,'a poisoned mouse',4,3,209),(4782,'still who alive',5,4,209),(4783,'is asking What',6,5,209),(4784,'have i done that',7,5,209),(4785,'You wouldn’t have',8,6,209),(4786,'Because you can be what you’re not',1,1,210),(4787,'for only so long,',2,1,210),(4788,'one day the tiger cub raised by goats',3,1,210),(4789,'wandered to the lake and saw himself.',4,2,210),(4790,'It was astounding',5,2,210),(4791,'to have a face like that, cat-handsome,',6,2,210),(4792,'hornless, and we can imagine he stared',7,3,210),(4793,'a long time, then sipped',8,3,210),(4794,'and pivoted, bemused yet burdened now',9,3,210),(4795,'with choice. The mother goat had nursed him.',10,4,210),(4796,'The others had tolerated',11,4,210),(4797,'his silly quickness and claws.',12,4,210),(4798,'And because once you know who you are',13,5,210),(4799,'you need not rush,',14,5,210),(4800,'and good parents are a blessing',15,5,210),(4801,'whoever they are, he went back to them,',16,6,210),(4802,'rubbing up against',17,6,210),(4803,'their bony shins, keeping his secret to himself.',18,6,210),(4804,'but after a while the tiger who’d found',19,7,210),(4805,'his true face',20,7,210),(4806,'felt the disturbing hungers, those desires',21,7,210),(4807,'to get low in the reeds, swish his tail',22,8,210),(4808,'charge.',23,8,210),(4809,'Because he was a cat he disappeared',24,8,210),(4810,'without goodbyes, his goat-parents relieved',25,9,210),(4811,'such a thing was gone.',26,9,210),(4812,'And we can imagine how, alone and beyond',27,9,210),(4813,'choice, he wholly became who he was—',28,10,210),(4814,'that zebra or gazelle',29,10,210),(4815,'stirring the great blood rush and odd calm',30,10,210),(4816,'as he discovered, while moving, what needed',31,11,210),(4817,'to be done.',32,11,210),(4818,'there’s a bluebird in my heart that',1,1,211),(4819,'wants to get out',2,1,211),(4820,'but I’m too tough for him,',3,1,211),(4821,'I say, stay in there, I’m not going',4,1,211),(4822,'to let anybody see',5,1,211),(4823,'you.',6,1,211),(4824,'there’s a bluebird in my heart that',7,2,211),(4825,'wants to get out',8,2,211),(4826,'but I pour whiskey on him and inhale',9,2,211),(4827,'cigarette smoke',10,2,211),(4828,'and the whores and the bartenders',11,2,211),(4829,'and the grocery clerks',12,2,211),(4830,'never know that',13,2,211),(4831,'he’s',14,2,211),(4832,'in there.',15,2,211),(4833,'there’s a bluebird in my heart that',16,3,211),(4834,'wants to get out',17,3,211),(4835,'but I’m too tough for him,',18,3,211),(4836,'I say,',19,3,211),(4837,'stay down, do you want to mess',20,3,211),(4838,'me up?',21,3,211),(4839,'you want to screw up the',22,3,211),(4840,'works?',23,3,211),(4841,'you want to blow my book sales in',24,3,211),(4842,'Europe?',25,3,211),(4843,'there’s a bluebird in my heart that',26,4,211),(4844,'wants to get out',27,4,211),(4845,'but I’m too clever, I only let him out',28,4,211),(4846,'at night sometimes',29,4,211),(4847,'when everybody’s asleep.',30,4,211),(4848,'I say, I know that you’re there,',31,4,211),(4849,'so don’t be sad.',32,4,211),(4850,'then I put him back,',33,5,211),(4851,'but he’s still singing a little',34,5,211),(4852,'in there, I haven’t quite let him',35,5,211),(4853,'die',36,5,211),(4854,'and we sleep together like',37,5,211),(4855,'that',38,5,211),(4856,'with our',39,5,211),(4857,'secret pact',40,5,211),(4858,'and it’s nice enough to',41,5,211),(4859,'make a man',42,5,211),(4860,'weep, but I don’t',43,5,211),(4861,'weep, do',44,5,211),(4862,'you?',45,5,211),(4863,'Love, is it a cat with claws and wild mate screams',1,1,212),(4864,'in the black night?',2,1,212),(4865,'Love, is it a bird–a goldfinch with a burnish',3,1,212),(4866,'on its wingtips or a little gray sparrow',4,1,212),(4867,'picking crumbs, hunting crumbs?',5,1,212),(4868,'Love, is it a tug at the heart that comes high and',6,1,212),(4869,'cost, always costs, as long as you have it?',7,1,212),(4870,'Love, is it a free glad spender, ready to spend to',8,1,212),(4871,'the limit, and then go head over heels in debt?',9,1,212),(4872,'Love, can it hit one without hitting two and leave',10,1,212),(4873,'the one lost and groping?',11,1,212),(4874,'Love, can you pick it up like a mouse and put it in',12,1,212),(4875,'your pocket and take it to your room and bring it',13,1,212),(4876,'out of your pocket and say,',14,1,212),(4877,'O here is my love,',15,1,212),(4878,'my little pretty mousey love?',16,1,212),(4879,'Yes–love, this little word you hear about,',17,2,212),(4880,'is love an elephant and you step out of the way',18,2,212),(4881,'where the elephant comes trampling, tromping,',19,2,212),(4882,'traveling with big feet and long flaps of',20,2,212),(4883,'drooping ears and straight white ivory tusks–',21,2,212),(4884,'and you step out of the way with respect,',22,2,212),(4885,'with high respect, and surprise near to shock',23,2,212),(4886,'as you say,',24,2,212),(4887,'Dear God, he’s big,',25,2,212),(4888,'big like stupendous is big,',26,2,212),(4889,'heavy and elephantine and funny,',27,2,212),(4890,'immense and slow and easy.',28,2,212),(4891,'I’m asking, is love an elephant?',29,2,212),(4892,'Or could it be love is a snake–like a rattlesnake,',30,3,212),(4893,'like a creeping winding slithering rattlesnake',31,3,212),(4894,'with fangs–poison fangs they tell me,',32,3,212),(4895,'and when the bite of it gets you',33,3,212),(4896,'then you run crying for help',34,3,212),(4897,'if you don’t fall cold and dead on the way.',35,3,212),(4898,'Can love be a snake?',36,3,212),(4899,'Or would you say love is a flamingo, with pink feathers–',37,4,212),(4900,'a soft sunset pink, a sweet gleaming naked pink–',38,4,212),(4901,'and with enough long pink feathers',39,4,212),(4902,'you could make the fan for a fan dance',40,4,212),(4903,'and hear a person telling their lover,',41,4,212),(4904,'Speak, my chosen one,',42,4,212),(4905,'and give me your wish',43,4,212),(4906,'as to what manner of fan dance',44,4,212),(4907,'you would have from me',45,4,212),(4908,'in the cool of evening',46,4,212),(4909,'or the black velvet sheen of midnight.',47,4,212),(4910,'Could it be love is a flamingo?',48,4,212),(4911,'Or is love a big red apple, and you don’t know',49,5,212),(4912,'whether to bite into it–and you knock on wood',50,5,212),(4913,'and call off your luck numbers and hold your breath–',51,5,212),(4914,'and you put your teeth into it and get a mouthful,',52,5,212),(4915,'tasting all there is to it,',53,5,212),(4916,'and whether it’s sweet and wild',54,5,212),(4917,'or a dry mush you want to spit out,',55,5,212),(4918,'it’s something else than you expected.',56,5,212),(4919,'I’m asking, sir, is love a big red apple?',57,5,212),(4920,'Or maybe love is goofer dust, I hadn’t thought about that–',58,6,212),(4921,'for you go to the goofer tree at midnight',59,6,212),(4922,'and gather the leaves and crush them into fine dust,',60,6,212),(4923,'very fine dust, sir, and when your man sleeps',61,6,212),(4924,'you sprinkle it in his shoes and he’s helpless',62,6,212),(4925,'and from then on he can’t get away from you,',63,6,212),(4926,'he’s snared and tangled and can’t keep from loving you.',64,6,212),(4927,'Could goofer dust be the answer?',65,6,212),(4928,'And I’ve heard some say love is a spy and a sneak,',66,7,212),(4929,'a blatherer, a gabby mouth,',67,7,212),(4930,'tattling and tittering as it tattles,',68,7,212),(4931,'and you believe it and take it to your heart',69,7,212),(4932,'and nurse it like good news,',70,7,212),(4933,'like heaven-sent news meant for you',71,7,212),(4934,'and you only–precious little you.',72,7,212),(4935,'Have you heard love comes creeping and cheating like that?',73,7,212),(4936,'And are they after beguiling and befoozling us',74,8,212),(4937,'when they tell us love is a rose, a red red rose,',75,8,212),(4938,'the mystery of leaves folded over and under',76,8,212),(4939,'and you can take it to pieces and throw it away',77,8,212),(4940,'or you can wear it for a soft spot of crimson',78,8,212),(4941,'in your hair, at your breast,',79,8,212),(4942,'and you can waltz and tango wearing your sweet crimson rose',80,8,212),(4943,'and take it home and lay it on a window sill and see it',81,8,212),(4944,'until one day you’re not careful',82,8,212),(4945,'and it crackles into dust in your hand',83,8,212),(4946,'and the wind whisks it whither you know not,',84,8,212),(4947,'whither you care not,',85,8,212),(4948,'for it is just one more flame of a rose',86,8,212),(4949,'that came with its red blush and crimson bloom',87,8,212),(4950,'and did the best it could with what it had',88,8,212),(4951,'and nobody wins, nobody loses,',89,8,212),(4952,'and what’s one more rose',90,8,212),(4953,'when on any street corner',91,8,212),(4954,'in bright summer mornings',92,8,212),(4955,'you see them with bunches of roses,',93,8,212),(4956,'their hands out toward you calling,',94,8,212),(4957,'Roses today, fresh roses,',95,8,212),(4958,'fresh-cut roses today',96,8,212),(4959,'a rose for you sir,',97,8,212),(4960,'the ladies like roses,',98,8,212),(4961,'now is the time,',99,8,212),(4962,'fresh roses sir.',100,8,212),(4963,'And I’m waiting–for days and weeks and months',101,9,212),(4964,'I’ve been waiting to see some flower seller,',102,9,212),(4965,'one of those hawkers of roses,',103,9,212),(4966,'I’ve been waiting to hear one of them calling,',104,9,212),(4967,'A cabbage with every rose,',105,9,212),(4968,'a good sweet cabbage with every rose,',106,9,212),(4969,'a head of cabbage for soup or slaw or stew,',107,9,212),(4970,'cabbage with the leaves folded over',108,9,212),(4971,'and under like a miracle',109,9,212),(4972,'and you can eat it and stand up and walk,',110,9,212),(4973,'today and today only your last chance',111,9,212),(4974,'a head of cabbage with every single lovely rose.',112,9,212),(4975,'And any time and any day I hear a flower seller so calling',113,9,212),(4976,'I shall be quick and I shall buy',114,9,212),(4977,'two roses and two cabbages,',115,9,212),(4978,'the roses for my lover',116,9,212),(4979,'and the cabbages for little luckless me.',117,9,212),(4980,'Or am I wrong–is love a rose you can buy and give away',118,9,212),(4981,'and keep for yourself cabbages, my lord and master,',119,9,212),(4982,'cabbages, kind sir?',120,9,212),(4983,'I am asking, can you?',121,9,212),(4984,'And it won’t help any, it won’t get us anywhere,',122,10,212),(4985,'it won’t wipe away what had been',123,10,212),(4986,'nor hold off what is to be,',124,10,212),(4987,'if you hear me saying',125,10,212),(4988,'love is a little white bird',126,10,212),(4989,'and the flight of it so fast',127,10,212),(4990,'you can’t see it',128,10,212),(4991,'and you know it’s there',129,10,212),(4992,'only by the faint whirr of its wings',130,10,212),(4993,'and the hush song coming so low to your ears',131,10,212),(4994,'you fear it might be silence',132,10,212),(4995,'and you listen keen and you listen long',133,10,212),(4996,'and you know it’s more than silence',134,10,212),(4997,'for you get the hush song so lovely',135,10,212),(4998,'it hurts and cuts into your heart',136,10,212),(4999,'and what you want is to give more than you can get',137,10,212),(5000,'and you’d like to write it but it can’t be written',138,10,212),(5001,'and you’d like to sing it but you don’t dare try',139,10,212),(5002,'because the little white bird sings it better than you can',140,10,212),(5003,'so you listen and while you listen you pray',141,10,212),(5004,'and after you pray you meditate, then pray more',142,10,212),(5005,'and one day it’s as though a great slow wind',143,10,212),(5006,'had washed you clean and strong inside and out',144,10,212),(5007,'and another day it’s as though you had gone to sleep',145,10,212),(5008,'in an early afternoon sunfall and your sleeping heart',146,10,212),(5009,'dumb and cold as a round polished stone,',147,10,212),(5010,'and the little white bird’s hush song',148,10,212),(5011,'telling you nothing can harm you,',149,10,212),(5012,'the days to come can weave in and weave out',150,10,212),(5013,'and spin their fabrics and designs for you',151,10,212),(5014,'and nothing can harm you–',152,10,212),(5015,'unless you change yourself into a thing of harm',153,10,212),(5016,'nothing can harm you.',154,10,212),(5017,'The little white bird is my candidate.',155,11,212),(5018,'Ladies and gentlemen, I give you',156,11,212),(5019,'the little white bird you can’t see',157,11,212),(5020,'though you can hear its hush song',158,11,212),(5021,'and when you hear that hush song it’s love',159,11,212),(5022,'and I’m ready to swear to it–',160,11,212),(5023,'you can bring a stack of affidavits',161,11,212),(5024,'and I’ll swear to it and sign my name',162,11,212),(5025,'to every last one, so help me God.',163,11,212),(5026,'And if a fat bumbling shopworn court clerk tells me,',164,11,212),(5027,'Hold up your hand, I’ll hold up my hand all right',165,11,212),(5028,'and when he bumbles and mumbles to me like I was',166,11,212),(5029,'one more witness it was work for him to give the oath to,',167,11,212),(5030,'when he blabs, You do solemnly swear so help you God',168,11,212),(5031,'that in this cause you will tell the truth,',169,11,212),(5032,'the whole truth and nothing but the truth,',170,11,212),(5033,'I’ll say to him, I do, and I’ll say to myself,',171,11,212),(5034,'And no thanks to you and you could be more immaculate',172,11,212),(5035,'with the name of God.',173,11,212),(5036,'I am done.',174,11,212),(5037,'I have finished.',175,11,212),(5038,'I give you the little white bird–',176,11,212),(5039,'and my thanks for your hearing me–',177,11,212),(5040,'and my prayers for you,',178,11,212),(5041,'my deep silent prayers.',179,11,212),(5042,'I said perhaps Patagonia, and pictured',1,1,213),(5043,'a peninsula, wide enough',2,1,213),(5044,'for a couple of ladderback chairs',3,1,213),(5045,'to wobble on at high tide. I thought',4,1,213),(5046,'of us in breathless cold, facing',5,2,213),(5047,'a horizon round as a coin, looped',6,2,213),(5048,'in a cat’s cradle strung by gulls',7,2,213),(5049,'from sea to sun. I planned to wait',8,2,213),(5050,'till the waves had bored themselves',9,3,213),(5051,'to sleep, till the last clinging barnacles,',10,3,213),(5052,'growing worried in the hush, had',11,3,213),(5053,'paddled off in tiny coracles, till',12,3,213),(5054,'those restless birds, your actor’s hands,',13,4,213),(5055,'had dropped slack into your lap,',14,4,213),(5056,'until you’d turned, at last, to me.',15,4,213),(5057,'When I spoke of Patagonia, I meant',16,4,213),(5058,'skies all empty aching blue. I meant',17,5,213),(5059,'years. I meant all of them with you.',18,5,213),(5060,'Orange blossoms blowing over Castile',1,1,214),(5061,'children begging for coins',2,1,214),(5062,'I met my love under an orange tree',3,2,214),(5063,'or was it an acacia tree',4,2,214),(5064,'or was he not my love?',5,2,214),(5065,'I read this, then I dreamed this:',6,3,214),(5066,'can waking take back what happened to me?',7,3,214),(5067,'Bells of San Miguel',8,3,214),(5068,'ringing in the distance',9,3,214),(5069,'his hair in the shadows blond-white',10,3,214),(5070,'I dreamed this,',11,4,214),(5071,'does that mean it didn’t happen?',12,4,214),(5072,'Does it have to happen in the world to be real?',13,4,214),(5073,'I dreamed everything, the story',14,5,214),(5074,'became my story:',15,5,214),(5075,'he lay beside me,',16,6,214),(5076,'my hand grazed the skin of his shoulder',17,6,214),(5077,'Mid-day, then early evening:',18,7,214),(5078,'in the distance, the sound of a train',19,7,214),(5079,'But it was not the world:',20,8,214),(5080,'in the world, a thing happens finally, absolutely,',21,8,214),(5081,'the mind cannot reverse it.',22,8,214),(5082,'Castile: nuns walking in pairs through the dark garden.',23,9,214),(5083,'Outside the walls of the Holy Angels',24,9,214),(5084,'children begging for coins',25,9,214),(5085,'When I woke I was crying,',26,10,214),(5086,'has that no reality?',27,10,214),(5087,'I met my love under an orange tree:',28,11,214),(5088,'I have forg otten',29,11,214),(5089,'only the facts, not the inference—',30,11,214),(5090,'there were children, somewhere, crying, begging for coins',31,11,214),(5091,'I dreamed everything, I gave myself',32,12,214),(5092,'completely and for all time',33,12,214),(5093,'And the train returned us',34,13,214),(5094,'first to Madrid',35,13,214),(5095,'then to the Basque country',36,13,214),(5096,'The world is full of women',1,1,215),(5097,'who’d tell me I should be ashamed of myself',2,1,215),(5098,'if they had the chance. Quit dancing.',3,1,215),(5099,'Get some self-respect',4,1,215),(5100,'and a day job.',5,1,215),(5101,'Right. And minimum wage,',6,1,215),(5102,'and varicose veins, just standing',7,1,215),(5103,'in one place for eight hours',8,1,215),(5104,'behind a glass counter',9,1,215),(5105,'bundled up to the neck, instead of',10,1,215),(5106,'naked as a meat sandwich.',11,1,215),(5107,'Selling gloves, or something.',12,1,215),(5108,'Instead of what I do sell.',13,1,215),(5109,'You have to have talent',14,1,215),(5110,'to peddle a thing so nebulous',15,1,215),(5111,'and without material form.',16,1,215),(5112,'Exploited, they’d say. Yes, any way',17,1,215),(5113,'you cut it, but I’ve a choice',18,1,215),(5114,'of how, and I’ll take the money.',19,1,215),(5115,'I do give value.',20,2,215),(5116,'Like preachers, I sell vision,',21,2,215),(5117,'like perfume ads, desire',22,2,215),(5118,'or its facsimile. Like jokes',23,2,215),(5119,'or war, it’s all in the timing.',24,2,215),(5120,'I sell men back their worse suspicions:',25,2,215),(5121,'that everything’s for sale,',26,2,215),(5122,'and piecemeal. They gaze at me and see',27,2,215),(5123,'a chain-saw murder just before it happens,',28,2,215),(5124,'when thigh, ass, inkblot, crevice, tit, and nipple',29,2,215),(5125,'are still connected.',30,2,215),(5126,'Such hatred leaps in them,',31,2,215),(5127,'my beery worshippers! That, or a bleary',32,2,215),(5128,'hopeless love. Seeing the rows of heads',33,2,215),(5129,'and upturned eyes, imploring',34,2,215),(5130,'but ready to snap at my ankles,',35,2,215),(5131,'I understand floods and earthquakes, and the urge',36,2,215),(5132,'to step on ants. I keep the beat,',37,2,215),(5133,'and dance for them because',38,2,215),(5134,'they can’t. The music smells like foxes,',39,2,215),(5135,'crisp as heated metal',40,2,215),(5136,'searing the nostrils',41,2,215),(5137,'or humid as August, hazy and languorous',42,2,215),(5138,'as a looted city the day after,',43,2,215),(5139,'when all the rape’s been done',44,2,215),(5140,'already, and the killing,',45,2,215),(5141,'and the survivors wander around',46,2,215),(5142,'looking for garbage',47,2,215),(5143,'to eat, and there’s only a bleak exhaustion.',48,2,215),(5144,'Speaking of which, it’s the smiling',49,2,215),(5145,'tires me out the most.',50,2,215),(5146,'This, and the pretence',51,2,215),(5147,'that I can’t hear them.',52,2,215),(5148,'And I can’t, because I’m after all',53,2,215),(5149,'a foreigner to them.',54,2,215),(5150,'The speech here is all warty gutturals,',55,2,215),(5151,'obvious as a slab of ham,',56,2,215),(5152,'but I come from the province of the gods',57,2,215),(5153,'where meanings are lilting and oblique.',58,2,215),(5154,'I don’t let on to everyone,',59,2,215),(5155,'but lean close, and I’ll whisper:',60,2,215),(5156,'My mother was raped by a holy swan.',61,2,215),(5157,'You believe that? You can take me out to dinner.',62,2,215),(5158,'That’s what we tell all the husbands.',63,2,215),(5159,'There sure are a lot of dangerous birds around.',64,2,215),(5160,'Not that anyone here',65,3,215),(5161,'but you would understand.',66,3,215),(5162,'The rest of them would like to watch me',67,3,215),(5163,'and feel nothing. Reduce me to components',68,3,215),(5164,'as in a clock factory or abattoir.',69,3,215),(5165,'Crush out the mystery.',70,3,215),(5166,'Wall me up alive',71,3,215),(5167,'in my own body.',72,3,215),(5168,'They’d like to see through me,',73,3,215),(5169,'but nothing is more opaque',74,3,215),(5170,'than absolute transparency.',75,3,215),(5171,'Look—my feet don’t hit the marble!',76,3,215),(5172,'Like breath or a balloon, I’m rising,',77,3,215),(5173,'I hover six inches in the air',78,3,215),(5174,'in my blazing swan-egg of light.',79,3,215),(5175,'You think I’m not a goddess?',80,3,215),(5176,'Try me.',81,3,215),(5177,'This is a torch song.',82,3,215),(5178,'Touch me and you’ll burn.',83,3,215),(5179,'O, how I faint when I of you do write,',1,1,216),(5180,'Knowing a better spirit doth use your name,',2,1,216),(5181,'And in the praise thereof spends all his might,',3,1,216),(5182,'To make me tongue-tied, speaking of your fame!',4,1,216),(5183,'But since your worth, wide as the ocean is,',5,1,216),(5184,'The humble as the proudest sail doth bear,',6,1,216),(5185,'My saucy bark inferior far to his',7,1,216),(5186,'On your broad main doth wilfully appear.',8,1,216),(5187,'Your shallowest help will hold me up afloat,',9,1,216),(5188,'Whilst he upon your soundless deep doth ride;',10,1,216),(5189,'Or being wreck’d, I am a worthless boat,',11,1,216),(5190,'He of tall building and of goodly pride:',12,1,216),(5191,'Then if he thrive and I be cast away,',13,1,216),(5192,'The worst was this; my love was my decay.',14,1,216),(5193,'Snow melting when I left you, and I took',1,1,217),(5194,'This fragile bone we’d found in melting snow',2,1,217),(5195,'Before I left, exposed beside a brook',3,1,217),(5196,'Where raccoons washed their hands. And this, I know,',4,1,217),(5197,'Is that raccoon we’d watched for every day.',5,2,217),(5198,'Though at the time her wild human hand',6,2,217),(5199,'Had gestured inexplicably, I say',7,2,217),(5200,'Her meaning now is more than I can stand.',8,2,217),(5201,'We’ve reasons, we have reasons, so we say,',9,3,217),(5202,'For giving love, and for withholding it.',10,3,217),(5203,'I who would love must marvel at the way',11,3,217),(5204,'I know aloneness when I’m holding it,',12,3,217),(5205,'Know near and far as words for live and die,',13,4,217),(5206,'Know distance, as I’m trying to draw near,',14,4,217),(5207,'Growing immense, and know, but don’t know why,',15,4,217),(5208,'Things seen up close enlarge, then disappear.',16,4,217),(5209,'Tonight this small room seems too huge to cross.',17,5,217),(5210,'And my life is that looming kind of place.',18,5,217),(5211,'Here, left with this alone, and at a loss',19,5,217),(5212,'I hold an alien and vacant face',20,5,217),(5213,'Which shrinks away, and yet is magnified–',21,6,217),(5214,'More so than I seem able to explain.',22,6,217),(5215,'Tonight the giant galaxies outside',23,6,217),(5216,'Are tiny, tiny on my windowpane.',24,6,217),(5217,'You are so beautiful and I am a fool',1,1,218),(5218,'to be in love with you',2,1,218),(5219,'is a theme that keeps coming up',3,1,218),(5220,'in songs and poems.',4,1,218),(5221,'There seems to be no room for variation.',5,1,218),(5222,'I have never heard anyone sing',6,1,218),(5223,'I am so beautiful',7,1,218),(5224,'and you are a fool to be in love with me,',8,1,218),(5225,'even though this notion has surely',9,1,218),(5226,'crossed the minds of women and men alike.',10,1,218),(5227,'You are so beautiful, too bad you are a fool',11,1,218),(5228,'is another one you don’t hear.',12,1,218),(5229,'Or, you are a fool to consider me beautiful.',13,1,218),(5230,'That one you will never hear, guaranteed.',14,1,218),(5231,'For no particular reason this afternoon',15,2,218),(5232,'I am listening to Johnny Hartman',16,2,218),(5233,'whose dark voice can curl around',17,2,218),(5234,'the concepts on love, beauty, and foolishness',18,2,218),(5235,'like no one else’s can.',19,2,218),(5236,'It feels like smoke curling up from a cigarette',20,2,218),(5237,'someone left burning on a baby grand piano',21,2,218),(5238,'around three o’clock in the morning;',22,2,218),(5239,'smoke that billows up into the bright lights',23,2,218),(5240,'while out there in the darkness',24,2,218),(5241,'some of the beautiful fools have gathered',25,2,218),(5242,'around little tables to listen,',26,2,218),(5243,'some with their eyes closed,',27,2,218),(5244,'others leaning forward into the music',28,2,218),(5245,'as if it were holding them up,',29,2,218),(5246,'or twirling the loose ice in a glass,',30,2,218),(5247,'slipping by degrees into a rhythmic dream.',31,2,218),(5248,'Yes, there is all this foolish beauty,',32,3,218),(5249,'borne beyond midnight,',33,3,218),(5250,'that has no desire to go home,',34,3,218),(5251,'especially now when everyone in the room',35,3,218),(5252,'is watching the large man with the tenor sax',36,3,218),(5253,'that hangs from his neck like a golden fish.',37,3,218),(5254,'He moves forward to the edge of the stage',38,3,218),(5255,'and hands the instrument down to me',39,3,218),(5256,'and nods that I should play.',40,3,218),(5257,'So I put the mouthpiece to my lips',41,3,218),(5258,'and blow into it with all my living breath.',42,3,218),(5259,'We are all so foolish,',43,3,218),(5260,'my long bebop solo begins by saying,',44,3,218),(5261,'so damn foolish',45,3,218),(5262,'we have become beautiful without even knowing it.',46,3,218),(5263,'Far away — far away —',1,1,219),(5264,'Far away — as far at least',2,1,219),(5265,'Lies that valley as the day',3,1,219),(5266,'Down within the golden east —',4,1,219),(5267,'All things lovely — are not they',5,1,219),(5268,'Far away — far away ?',6,1,219),(5269,'It is called the valley Nis.',7,2,219),(5270,'And a Syriac tale there is',8,2,219),(5271,'Thereabout which Time hath said',9,2,219),(5272,'Shall not be interpreted.',10,2,219),(5273,'Something about Satan’s dart —',11,2,219),(5274,'Something about angel wings —',12,2,219),(5275,'Much about a broken heart —',13,2,219),(5276,'All about unhappy things:',14,2,219),(5277,'But “the valley Nis” at best',15,2,219),(5278,'Means “the valley of unrest.”',16,2,219),(5279,'Once it smil’d a silent dell',17,3,219),(5280,'Where the people did not dwell,',18,3,219),(5281,'Having gone unto the wars —',19,3,219),(5282,'And the sly, mysterious stars,',20,3,219),(5283,'With a visage full of meaning,',21,3,219),(5284,'O’er the unguarded flowers were leaning:',22,3,219),(5285,'Or the sun ray dripp’d all red',23,3,219),(5286,'Thro’ the tulips overhead,',24,3,219),(5287,'Then grew paler as it fell',25,3,219),(5288,'On the quiet Asphodel.',26,3,219),(5289,'Now the unhappy shall confess',27,4,219),(5290,'Nothing there is motionless:',28,4,219),(5291,'Helen, like thy human eye',29,4,219),(5292,'There th’ uneasy violets lie —',30,4,219),(5293,'There the reedy grass doth wave',31,4,219),(5294,'Over the old forgotten grave —',32,4,219),(5295,'One by one from the tree top',33,4,219),(5296,'There the eternal dews do drop —',34,4,219),(5297,'There the vague and dreamy trees',35,4,219),(5298,'Do roll like seas in northern breeze',36,5,219),(5299,'Around the stormy Hebrides —',37,5,219),(5300,'There the gorgeous clouds do fly,',38,5,219),(5301,'Rustling everlastingly,',39,5,219),(5302,'Through the terror-stricken sky,',40,5,219),(5303,'Rolling like a waterfall',41,5,219),(5304,'O’er th’ horizon’s fiery wall —',42,5,219),(5305,'There the moon doth shine by night',43,5,219),(5306,'With a most unsteady light —',44,5,219),(5307,'There the sun doth reel by day',45,5,219),(5308,'“Over the hills and far away.”',46,5,219),(5309,'Finding a new poet',1,1,220),(5310,'is like finding a new wildflower',2,1,220),(5311,'out in the woods. You don’t see',3,1,220),(5312,'its name in the flower books, and',4,2,220),(5313,'nobody you tell believes',5,2,220),(5314,'in its odd color or the way',6,2,220),(5315,'its leaves grow in splayed rows',7,3,220),(5316,'down the whole length of the page. In fact',8,3,220),(5317,'the very page smells of spilled',9,3,220),(5318,'red wine and the mustiness of the sea',10,4,220),(5319,'on a foggy day – the odor of truth',11,4,220),(5320,'and of lying.',12,4,220),(5321,'And the words are so familiar,',13,5,220),(5322,'so strangely new, words',14,5,220),(5323,'you almost wrote yourself, if only',15,5,220),(5324,'in your dreams there had been a pencil',16,6,220),(5325,'or a pen or even a paintbrush,',17,6,220),(5326,'if only there had been a flower.',18,6,220),(5327,'I am not a painter, I am a poet.',1,1,221),(5328,'Why? I think I would rather be',2,1,221),(5329,'a painter, but I am not. Well,',3,1,221),(5330,'for instance, Mike Goldberg',4,2,221),(5331,'is starting a painting. I drop in.',5,2,221),(5332,'“Sit down and have a drink” he',6,2,221),(5333,'says. I drink; we drink. I look',7,2,221),(5334,'up. “You have SARDINES in it.”',8,2,221),(5335,'“Yes, it needed something there.”',9,2,221),(5336,'“Oh.” I go and the days go by',10,2,221),(5337,'and I drop in again. The painting',11,2,221),(5338,'is going on, and I go, and the days',12,2,221),(5339,'go by. I drop in. The painting',13,2,221),(5340,'is finished. “Where’s SARDINES?”',14,2,221),(5341,'All that’s left is just',15,2,221),(5342,'letters, “It was too much,” Mike says.',16,2,221),(5343,'But me? One day I am thinking of',17,3,221),(5344,'a color: orange. I write a line',18,3,221),(5345,'about orange. Pretty soon it is a',19,3,221),(5346,'whole page of words, not lines.',20,3,221),(5347,'Then another page. There should be',21,3,221),(5348,'so much more, not of orange, of',22,3,221),(5349,'words, of how terrible orange is',23,3,221),(5350,'and life. Days go by. It is even in',24,3,221),(5351,'prose, I am a real poet. My poem',25,3,221),(5352,'is finished and I haven’t mentioned',26,3,221),(5353,'orange yet. It’s twelve poems, I call',27,3,221),(5354,'it ORANGES. And one day in a gallery',28,3,221),(5355,'I see Mike’s painting, called SARDINES.',29,3,221),(5356,'I believe in trees.',1,1,222),(5357,'I believe in birds that live in trees.',2,1,222),(5358,'I believe that behind every one bird is a sky forever expanding.',3,1,222),(5359,'I believe all windows look out to the same sky.',4,1,222),(5360,'I believe in keeping secrets.',5,1,222),(5361,'I believe there is sincerity in lies.',6,1,222),(5362,'I believe when the lights go off the furniture keep to their places.',7,1,222),(5363,'I believe in faith.',8,1,222),(5364,'I believe that if you believe hard enough you will soon enough be saved.',9,1,222),(5365,'I believe in walls. That we need them.',10,1,222),(5366,'I believe in open spaces, that we need them more.',11,1,222),(5367,'I believe once in a while we crave loneliness.',12,1,222),(5368,'I believe we need sadness.',13,1,222),(5369,'I believe in the soft cave of the mouth, in what it has to say, savage and comforting.',14,1,222),(5370,'I believe in roads and streets, that they lead to ruins.',15,1,222),(5371,'I believe violence is a plea for mercy.',16,1,222),(5372,'I believe in the heart’s destructive implosions.',17,1,222),(5373,'I believe behind every painting or picture is a white canvass, complete in itself.',18,1,222),(5374,'I believe philosophy is difficult and silly; I prefer instead small delicate things like a knife.',19,1,222),(5375,'I believe Plato’s forms do not exist.',20,1,222),(5376,'I believe behind every space is just another space, and behind that just more space, and so on.',21,1,222),(5377,'I believe in clouds.',22,1,222),(5378,'I believe in the divinity of clouds.',23,1,222),(5379,'I believe mathematics is useless and noble.',24,1,222),(5380,'I believe in numbers.',25,1,222),(5381,'I believe that behind all distance is an admission of connectedness, that all space admits of openings.',26,1,222),(5382,'I believe that everything is open.',27,1,222),(5383,'I believe inside every mind is an open gun waiting to go off.',28,1,222),(5384,'I believe the mind is a gun.',29,1,222),(5385,'I believe behind every face is another face is another face.',30,1,222),(5386,'I believe some of us would like to be saints but cannot.',31,1,222),(5387,'I believe some women are virgins.',32,1,222),(5388,'I believe some women would like to be virgins.',33,1,222),(5389,'I believe in the inviolable and the insane.',34,1,222),(5390,'I believe in the quiet dignity of horses.',35,1,222),(5391,'I believe in the benefits of buying a house.',36,1,222),(5392,'I believe every house should be surrounded by trees.',37,1,222),(5393,'I believe in this century, that it is not yet over, that we are on the verge of yet another discovery.',38,1,222),(5394,'I believe our many voices thin out into only one voice.',39,1,222),(5395,'I believe in the end, but only if it fuels the past to continue expanding.',40,1,222),(5396,'I believe in the layering of clothes, one on top of another, in the Victorian style.',41,1,222),(5397,'I believe in skirts and lingerie and long black hair and virtue.',42,1,222),(5398,'I believe in sin.',43,1,222),(5399,'I believe in the woman under the man and vice versa.',44,1,222),(5400,'I believe in the invisible hand, in the wind that lifts the bird and elevates the sky.',45,1,222),(5401,'I believe in love without proof.',46,1,222),(5402,'I believe in landscapes.',47,1,222),(5403,'I believe that behind all love is all love itself, pure and soft and intense.',48,1,222),(5404,'I believe in things so huge we forget what they’re about and why.',49,1,222),(5405,'I believe in things so small that it’s taken us all these years to realize we’ve seen nothing.',50,1,222),(5406,'When you consider the radiance, that it does not withhold',1,1,223),(5407,'itself but pours its abundance without selection into every',2,1,223),(5408,'nook and cranny not overhung or hidden; when you consider',3,1,223),(5409,'that birds’ bones make no awful noise against the light but',4,2,223),(5410,'lie low in the light as in a high testimony; when you consider',5,2,223),(5411,'the radiance, that it will look into the guiltiest',6,2,223),(5412,'swervings of the weaving heart and bear itself upon them,',7,3,223),(5413,'not flinching into disguise or darkening; when you consider',8,3,223),(5414,'the abundance of such resource as illuminates the glow-blue',9,3,223),(5415,'bodies and gold-skeined wings of flies swarming the dumped',10,4,223),(5416,'guts of a natural slaughter or the coil of shit and in no',11,4,223),(5417,'way winces from its storms of generosity; when you consider',12,4,223),(5418,'that air or vacuum, snow or shale, squid or wolf, rose or lichen,',13,5,223),(5419,'each is accepted into as much light as it will take, then',14,5,223),(5420,'the heart moves roomier, the man stands and looks about, the',15,5,223),(5421,'leaf does not increase itself above the grass, and the dark',16,6,223),(5422,'work of the deepest cells is of a tune with May bushes',17,6,223),(5423,'and fear lit by the breadth of such calmly turns to praise.',18,6,223),(5424,'All night the sound had',1,1,224),(5425,'come back again,',2,1,224),(5426,'and again falls',3,1,224),(5427,'this quiet, persistent rain.',4,1,224),(5428,'What am I to myself',5,2,224),(5429,'that must be remembered,',6,2,224),(5430,'insisted upon',7,2,224),(5431,'so often? Is it',8,2,224),(5432,'that never the ease,',9,3,224),(5433,'even the hardness,',10,3,224),(5434,'of rain falling',11,3,224),(5435,'will have for me',12,3,224),(5436,'something other than this,',13,4,224),(5437,'something not so insistent—',14,4,224),(5438,'am I to be locked in this',15,4,224),(5439,'final uneasiness.',16,4,224),(5440,'Love, if you love me,',17,5,224),(5441,'lie next to me.',18,5,224),(5442,'Be for me, like rain,',19,5,224),(5443,'the getting out',20,5,224),(5444,'of the tiredness, the fatuousness, the semi-',21,6,224),(5445,'lust of intentional indifference.',22,6,224),(5446,'Be wet',23,6,224),(5447,'with a decent happiness.',24,6,224),(5448,'In Singapore, in the airport,',1,1,225),(5449,'A darkness was ripped from my eyes.',2,1,225),(5450,'In the women’s restroom, one compartment stood open.',3,1,225),(5451,'A woman knelt there, washing something in the white bowl.',4,1,225),(5452,'Disgust argued in my stomach',5,2,225),(5453,'and I felt, in my pocket, for my ticket.',6,2,225),(5454,'A poem should always have birds in it.',7,3,225),(5455,'Kingfishers, say, with their bold eyes and gaudy wings.',8,3,225),(5456,'Rivers are pleasant, and of course trees.',9,3,225),(5457,'A waterfall, or if that’s not possible, a fountain rising and falling.',10,3,225),(5458,'A person wants to stand in a happy place, in a poem.',11,3,225),(5459,'When the woman turned I could not answer her face.',12,4,225),(5460,'Her beauty and her embarrassment struggled together,',13,4,225),(5461,'and neither could win.',14,4,225),(5462,'She smiled and I smiled. What kind of nonsense is this?',15,4,225),(5463,'Everybody needs a job.',16,4,225),(5464,'Yes, a person wants to stand in a happy place, in a poem.',17,5,225),(5465,'But first we must watch her as she stares down at her labor,',18,5,225),(5466,'which is dull enough.',19,5,225),(5467,'She is washing the tops of the airport ashtrays, as big as hubcaps,',20,5,225),(5468,'with a blue rag.',21,5,225),(5469,'Her small hands turn the metal, scrubbing and rinsing.',22,5,225),(5470,'She does not work slowly, nor quickly, like a river.',23,5,225),(5471,'Her dark hair is like the wing of a bird.',24,5,225),(5472,'I don’t doubt for a moment that she loves her life.',25,6,225),(5473,'And I want her to rise up from the crust and the slop and',26,6,225),(5474,'fly down to the river.',27,6,225),(5475,'This probably won’t happen.',28,6,225),(5476,'But maybe it will.',29,6,225),(5477,'If the world were only pain and logic, who would want it?',30,6,225),(5478,'Of course, it isn’t.',31,7,225),(5479,'Neither do I mean anything miraculous, but only',32,7,225),(5480,'the light that can shine out of a life. I mean',33,7,225),(5481,'the way she unfolded and refolded the blue cloth,',34,7,225),(5482,'The way her smile was only for my sake; I mean',35,7,225),(5483,'the way this poem is filled with trees, and birds.',36,7,225),(5484,'As the cat',1,1,226),(5485,'climbed over',2,1,226),(5486,'the top of',3,1,226),(5487,'the jamcloset',4,2,226),(5488,'first the right',5,2,226),(5489,'forefoot',6,2,226),(5490,'carefully',7,3,226),(5491,'then the hind',8,3,226),(5492,'stepped down',9,3,226),(5493,'into the pit of',10,4,226),(5494,'the empty',11,4,226),(5495,'flowerpot',12,4,226),(5496,'You meant more than life to me. I lived through',1,1,227),(5497,'you not knowing, not knowing I was living.',2,1,227),(5498,'I learned that you called for me. I came to where',3,1,227),(5499,'you were living, up a stair. There was no one there.',4,1,227),(5500,'No one to appreciate me. The legality of it',5,1,227),(5501,'upset a chair. Many times to celebrate',6,1,227),(5502,'we were called together and where',7,1,227),(5503,'we had been there was nothing there,',8,1,227),(5504,'nothing that is anywhere. We passed obliquely,',9,1,227),(5505,'leaving no stare. When the sun was done muttering,',10,1,227),(5506,'in an optimistic way, it was time to leave that there.',11,1,227),(5507,'Blithely passing in and out of where, blushing shyly',12,2,227),(5508,'at the tag on the overcoat near the window where',13,2,227),(5509,'the outside crept away, I put aside the there and now.',14,2,227),(5510,'Now it was time to stumble anew,',15,2,227),(5511,'blacking out when time came in the window.',16,2,227),(5512,'There was not much of it left.',17,2,227),(5513,'I laughed and put my hands shyly',18,2,227),(5514,'across your eyes. Can you see now?',19,2,227),(5515,'Yes I can see I am only in the where',20,2,227),(5516,'where the blossoming stream takes off, under your window.',21,2,227),(5517,'Go presently you said. Go from my window.',22,2,227),(5518,'I am in love with your window I cannot undermine',23,2,227),(5519,'it, I said.',24,2,227),(5520,'whatever slid into my mother’s room that',1,1,228),(5521,'late june night, tapping her great belly,',2,1,228),(5522,'summoned me out roundheaded and unsmiling.',3,1,228),(5523,'is this the moon, my father used to grin.',4,1,228),(5524,'cradling me? it was the moon',5,1,228),(5525,'but nobody knew it then.',6,1,228),(5526,'the moon understands dark places.',7,2,228),(5527,'the moon has secrets of her own.',8,2,228),(5528,'she holds what light she can.',9,2,228),(5529,'we girls were ten years old and giggling',10,3,228),(5530,'in our hand-me-downs. we wanted breasts,',11,3,228),(5531,'pretended that we had them, tissued',12,3,228),(5532,'our undershirts. jay johnson is teaching',13,3,228),(5533,'me to french kiss, ella bragged, who',14,3,228),(5534,'is teaching you? how do you say; my father?',15,3,228),(5535,'the moon is queen of everything.',16,4,228),(5536,'she rules the oceans, rivers, rain.',17,4,228),(5537,'when I am asked whose tears these are',18,4,228),(5538,'I always blame the moon.',19,4,228),(5539,'I went for a walk on Hollywood Boulevard.',1,1,229),(5540,'I looked down and there was a large white dog',2,1,229),(5541,'walking beside me.',3,1,229),(5542,'his pace was exactly the same as mine,',4,1,229),(5543,'we stopped at traffic signals together.',5,1,229),(5544,'a woman smiled at us.',6,1,229),(5545,'he must have walked 8 blocks with me.',7,1,229),(5546,'then I went into a grocery store and',8,1,229),(5547,'when I came out he was gone.',9,1,229),(5548,'or she was gone.',10,1,229),(5549,'the wonderful white dog',11,1,229),(5550,'with a trace of yellow in its fur.',12,1,229),(5551,'the large blue eyes were gone.',13,1,229),(5552,'the grinning mouth was gone.',14,1,229),(5553,'the lolling tongue was gone.',15,1,229),(5554,'things are so easily lost.',16,2,229),(5555,'things just can’t be kept forever.',17,2,229),(5556,'I got the blues.',18,3,229),(5557,'I got the blues.',19,3,229),(5558,'that dog loved and',20,3,229),(5559,'trusted me and',21,3,229),(5560,'I let it walk away.',22,3,229),(5561,'Even if I now saw you',1,1,230),(5562,'only once,',2,1,230),(5563,'I would long for you',3,1,230),(5564,'through worlds,',4,1,230),(5565,'worlds.',5,1,230),(5566,'Though I go to you',1,1,231),(5567,'ceaselessly along dream paths,',2,1,231),(5568,'the sum of those trysts',3,1,231),(5569,'is less than a single glimpse',4,1,231),(5570,'granted in the waking world.',5,1,231),(5571,'Now that you’ve gone away for five days,',1,1,232),(5572,'I’ll smoke all the cigarettes I want,',2,1,232),(5573,'where I want. Make biscuits and eat them',3,1,232),(5574,'with jam and fat bacon. Loaf. Indulge',4,1,232),(5575,'myself. Walk on the beach if I feel',5,1,232),(5576,'like it. And I feel like it, alone and',6,1,232),(5577,'thinking about when I was young. The people',7,1,232),(5578,'then who loved me beyond reason.',8,1,232),(5579,'And how I loved them above all others.',9,1,232),(5580,'Except one. I’m saying I’ll do everything',10,1,232),(5581,'I want here while you’re away!',11,1,232),(5582,'But there’s one thing I won’t do.',12,1,232),(5583,'I won’t sleep in our bed without you.',13,1,232),(5584,'No. It doesn’t please me to do so.',14,1,232),(5585,'I’ll sleep where I damn well feel like it –',15,1,232),(5586,'where I sleep best when you’re away',16,1,232),(5587,'and I can’t hold you the way I do.',17,1,232),(5588,'On the broken sofa in my study.',18,1,232),(5589,'We don’t know how to say goodbye.',1,1,233),(5590,'We wander all over, shoulder to shoulder.',2,1,233),(5591,'It is already starting to get dark,',3,1,233),(5592,'You’re thoughtful, and I remain quiet.',4,1,233),(5593,'Let’s go inside a church, and watch',5,2,233),(5594,'A baptism, a wedding, a funeral.',6,2,233),(5595,'Why can’t we live like that?',7,2,233),(5596,'Let’s leave, not looking at each other.',8,2,233),(5597,'Or, let us sit in the cemetery,',9,3,233),(5598,'Quiet in the trampled snow.',10,3,233),(5599,'And watch you trace with a stick,',11,3,233),(5600,'Places where we will always be together.',12,3,233),(5601,'A girl whom I’ve not spoken to',1,1,234),(5602,'or shared coffee with for several years',2,1,234),(5603,'writes of an old scar.',3,1,234),(5604,'On her wrist it sleeps, smooth and white,',4,1,234),(5605,'the size of a leech.',5,1,234),(5606,'I gave it to her',6,1,234),(5607,'brandishing a new Italian penknife.',7,1,234),(5608,'Look, I said turning,',8,1,234),(5609,'and blood spat onto her shirt.',9,1,234),(5610,'My wife has scars like spread raindrops',10,2,234),(5611,'on knees and ankles,',11,2,234),(5612,'she talks of broken greenhouse panes',12,2,234),(5613,'and yet, apart from imagining red feet,',13,2,234),(5614,'(a nymph out of Chagall)',14,2,234),(5615,'I bring little to that scene.',15,2,234),(5616,'We remember the time around scars,',16,2,234),(5617,'they freeze irrelevant emotions',17,2,234),(5618,'and divide us from present friends.',18,2,234),(5619,'I remember this girl’s face,',19,2,234),(5620,'the widening rise of surprise.',20,2,234),(5621,'And would she',21,3,234),(5622,'moving with lover or husband',22,3,234),(5623,'conceal or flaunt it,',23,3,234),(5624,'or keep it at her wrist',24,3,234),(5625,'a mysterious watch.',25,3,234),(5626,'And this scar I then remember',26,3,234),(5627,'is a medallion of no emotion.',27,3,234),(5628,'I would meet you now',28,4,234),(5629,'and I would wish this scar',29,4,234),(5630,'to have been given with',30,4,234),(5631,'all the love',31,4,234),(5632,'that never occurred between us.',32,4,234),(5633,'Tonight my brother, in heavy boots, is walking',1,1,235),(5634,'through bare rooms over my head,',2,1,235),(5635,'opening and closing doors.',3,1,235),(5636,'What could he be looking for in an empty house?',4,1,235),(5637,'What could he possibly need there in heaven?',5,1,235),(5638,'Does he remember his earth, his birthplace set to torches?',6,1,235),(5639,'His love for me feels like spilled water',7,1,235),(5640,'running back to its vessel.',8,1,235),(5641,'At this hour, what is dead is restless',9,2,235),(5642,'and what is living is burning.',10,2,235),(5643,'Someone tell him he should sleep now.',11,3,235),(5644,'My father keeps a light on by our bed',12,4,235),(5645,'and readies for our journey.',13,4,235),(5646,'He mends ten holes in the knees',14,4,235),(5647,'of five pairs of boy’s pants.',15,4,235),(5648,'His love for me is like sewing:',16,4,235),(5649,'various colors and too much thread,',17,4,235),(5650,'the stitching uneven. But the needle pierces',18,4,235),(5651,'clean through with each stroke of his hand.',19,4,235),(5652,'At this hour, what is dead is worried',20,5,235),(5653,'and what is living is fugitive.',21,5,235),(5654,'Someone tell him he should sleep now.',22,6,235),(5655,'God, that old furnace, keeps talking',23,7,235),(5656,'with his mouth of teeth,',24,7,235),(5657,'a beard stained at feasts, and his breath',25,7,235),(5658,'of gasoline, airplane, human ash.',26,7,235),(5659,'His love for me feels like fire,',27,7,235),(5660,'feels like doves, feels like river-water.',28,7,235),(5661,'At this hour, what is dead is helpless, kind',29,8,235),(5662,'and helpless. While the Lord lives.',30,8,235),(5663,'Someone tell the Lord to leave me alone.',31,9,235),(5664,'I’ve had enough of his love',32,9,235),(5665,'that feels like burning and flight and running away.',33,9,235),(5666,'We can’t stand sitting still.',1,1,236),(5667,'We try, no holds barred, to be liked',2,1,236),(5668,'by ourselves, friends, the opposition, and the authorities',3,1,236),(5669,'(I no longer even speak about women).',4,1,236),(5670,'Then we want to be liked by the country,',5,2,236),(5671,'then the earth’s globe and the epoch,',6,2,236),(5672,'then by our descendants, and, as a result',7,2,236),(5673,'our own wives don’t like us.',8,2,236),(5674,'Naturally it is night.',1,1,237),(5675,'Under the overturned lute with its',2,1,237),(5676,'One string I am going my way',3,1,237),(5677,'Which has a strange sound.',4,1,237),(5678,'This way the dust, that way the dust.',5,2,237),(5679,'I listen to both sides',6,2,237),(5680,'But I keep right on.',7,2,237),(5681,'I remember the leaves sitting in judgment',8,2,237),(5682,'And then winter.',9,2,237),(5683,'I remember the rain with its bundle of roads.',10,3,237),(5684,'The rain taking all its roads.',11,3,237),(5685,'Nowhere.',12,3,237),(5686,'Young as I am, old as I am,',13,4,237),(5687,'I forget tomorrow, the blind man.',14,5,237),(5688,'I forget the life among the buried windows.',15,5,237),(5689,'The eyes in the curtains.',16,5,237),(5690,'The wall',17,5,237),(5691,'Growing through the immortelles.',18,5,237),(5692,'I forget silence',19,5,237),(5693,'The owner of the smile.',20,5,237),(5694,'This must be what I wanted to be doing,',21,6,237),(5695,'Walking at night between the two deserts,',22,6,237),(5696,'Singing.',23,6,237),(5697,'The sky is random. Even calling it “sky”',1,1,238),(5698,'is an attempt to make a meaning, say,',2,1,238),(5699,'a shape, from the humanly visible part',3,1,238),(5700,'of shapelessness in endlessness. It’s what',4,1,238),(5701,'we do, in some ways it’s entirely what',5,1,238),(5702,'we do—and so the devastating rose',6,1,238),(5703,'of a galaxy’s being born, the fatal lamé',7,2,238),(5704,'of another’s being torn and dying, we frame',8,2,238),(5705,'in the lenses of our super-duper telescopes the way',9,2,238),(5706,'we would those other completely incomprehensible',10,2,238),(5707,'fecund and dying subjects at a family picnic.',11,2,238),(5708,'Making them “subjects.” “Rose.” “Lamé.” The way',12,2,238),(5709,'our language scissors the enormity to scales',13,3,238),(5710,'we can tolerate. The way we gild and rubricate',14,3,238),(5711,'in memory, or edit out selectively.',15,3,238),(5712,'An infant’s gentle snoring, even, apportions',16,3,238),(5713,'the eternal. When they moved to the boonies,',17,3,238),(5714,'Dorothy Wordsworth measured their walk',18,3,238),(5715,'to Crewkerne—then the nearest town—',19,4,238),(5716,'by pushing a device invented especially',20,4,238),(5717,'for such a project, a “perambulator”: seven miles.',21,4,238),(5718,'Her brother William pottered at his daffodils poem.',22,4,238),(5719,'Ten thousand saw I at a glance: by which he meant',23,4,238),(5720,'too many to count, but could only say it in counting.',24,4,238),(5721,'And all of you so beautiful',1,1,239),(5722,'I want to bring you home with me',2,1,239),(5723,'to sit close on the couch.',3,1,239),(5724,'My invitation inserted in six billion bottles,',4,2,239),(5725,'corked with bark from the final forest',5,2,239),(5726,'and dropped in the ocean of my longing.',6,2,239),(5727,'We would speak the language of no words,',7,3,239),(5728,'pass the jug of our drunken joy',8,3,239),(5729,'at being babies growing into death.',9,3,239),(5730,'Sometimes, I know, life is stupid, pointless,',10,4,239),(5731,'beside the point, but here’s the point —',11,4,239),(5732,'maybe we would fall',12,4,239),(5733,'in love, settle down together,',13,5,239),(5734,'share the wine, the bills,',14,5,239),(5735,'the last of the oxygen and the remote.',15,5,239),(5736,'So that this will seem like words between',1,1,240),(5737,'old friends, I’ll say it was painless.',2,1,240),(5738,'And quick. I’ll say it was mercy',3,1,240),(5739,'and behind my face where I put',4,1,240),(5740,'things like The Truth and dreams about',5,1,240),(5741,'supernovae, I’ll try to mean it.',6,1,240),(5742,'But it was his time, we should all admit.',7,1,240),(5743,'Shouldn’t we, who loved him',8,1,240),(5744,'the way we love traffic',9,1,240),(5745,'and cell phones during spectacular sex',10,1,240),(5746,'and the degradations of puberty,',11,1,240),(5747,'shouldn’t we all feel',12,1,240),(5748,'as though light were swelling within us,',13,1,240),(5749,'inflaming us? Tell me where',14,1,240),(5750,'you were when you heard',15,1,240),(5751,'but tell me later, much later,',16,1,240),(5752,'the kind of later mathematicians get excited about.',17,1,240),(5753,'By then memory will have torn',18,1,240),(5754,'away from my body like a scab',19,1,240),(5755,'I’ll no longer have to pick at',20,1,240),(5756,'and I’ll listen to you like a stethoscope.',21,1,240),(5757,'It will be good for my heart.',22,1,240),(5758,'It will be good for your heart.',23,1,240),(5759,'In the air of that deferred spring',24,1,240),(5760,'we’ll be healthy, speaking',25,1,240),(5761,'of an ancient wound neither of us',26,1,240),(5762,'really remember, except',27,1,240),(5763,'that by starlight we promised',28,1,240),(5764,'to honor this question mark',29,1,240),(5765,'in the periodic sentence of our lives.',30,1,240),(5766,'Whatever you say, remember',31,1,240),(5767,'that we cried. The dead love that we weep,',32,1,240),(5768,'that we stain ourselves with',33,1,240),(5769,'salt, that we become for a moment',34,1,240),(5770,'indistinguishable from the sea,',35,1,240),(5771,'that our shining faces rock with grief.',36,1,240),(5772,'Even in this sharp weather there are lovers everywhere',1,1,241),(5773,'holding onto each other, hands in one another’s pockets',2,1,241),(5774,'for warmth, for the sense of I’m yours, the tender claim',3,1,241),(5775,'it keeps making—one couple stopping in the chill',4,1,241),(5776,'to stand there, faces pressed together, arms around',5,1,241),(5777,'jacketed shoulders so I can see bare hands grapple',6,1,241),(5778,'with padding, see the rosy redness of cold fingers',7,1,241),(5779,'as they shift a little, trying to register through fold',8,1,241),(5780,'after fold, This is my flesh feeling you you’re feeling.',9,1,241),(5781,'It must be some contrary instinct in the blood',10,2,241),(5782,'that sets itself against the weather like this, brings',11,2,241),(5783,'lovers out like early buds, like the silver-grey catkins',12,2,241),(5784,'I saw this morning polished to brightness',13,2,241),(5785,'by ice overnight. Geese, too: more and more couples',14,2,241),(5786,'voyaging north, great high-spirited congregations',15,2,241),(5787,'taking the freezing air in and letting it out',16,2,241),(5788,'as song, as if this frigid enterprise were all joy,',17,2,241),(5789,'nothing to be afraid of.',18,2,241),(5790,'The time will come',1,1,242),(5791,'when, with elation',2,1,242),(5792,'you will greet yourself arriving',3,1,242),(5793,'at your own door, in your own mirror',4,1,242),(5794,'and each will smile at the other’s welcome,',5,1,242),(5795,'and say, sit here. Eat.',6,2,242),(5796,'You will love again the stranger who was your self.',7,2,242),(5797,'Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart',8,2,242),(5798,'to itself, to the stranger who has loved you',9,2,242),(5799,'all your life, whom you ignored',10,3,242),(5800,'for another, who knows you by heart.',11,3,242),(5801,'Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,',12,3,242),(5802,'the photographs, the desperate notes,',13,4,242),(5803,'peel your own image from the mirror.',14,4,242),(5804,'Sit. Feast on your life.',15,4,242),(5805,'Everyone forgets that Icarus also flew.',1,1,243),(5806,'It’s the same when love comes to an end,',2,1,243),(5807,'or the marriage fails and people say',3,1,243),(5808,'they knew it was a mistake, that everybody',4,1,243),(5809,'said it would never work. That she was',5,1,243),(5810,'old enough to know better. But anything',6,1,243),(5811,'worth doing is worth doing badly.',7,1,243),(5812,'Like being there by that summer ocean',8,1,243),(5813,'on the other side of the island while',9,1,243),(5814,'love was fading out of her, the stars',10,1,243),(5815,'burning so extravagantly those nights that',11,1,243),(5816,'anyone could tell you they would never last.',12,1,243),(5817,'Every morning she was asleep in my bed',13,1,243),(5818,'like a visitation, the gentleness in her',14,1,243),(5819,'like antelope standing in the dawn mist.',15,1,243),(5820,'Each afternoon I watched her coming back',16,1,243),(5821,'through the hot stony field after swimming,',17,1,243),(5822,'the sea light behind her and the huge sky',18,1,243),(5823,'on the other side of that. Listened to her',19,1,243),(5824,'while we ate lunch. How can they say',20,1,243),(5825,'the marriage failed? Like the people who',21,1,243),(5826,'came back from Provence (when it was Provence)',22,1,243),(5827,'and said it was pretty but the food was greasy.',23,1,243),(5828,'I believe Icarus was not failing as he fell,',24,1,243),(5829,'but just coming to the end of his triumph.',25,1,243),(5830,'Sometimes you hear, fifth-hand,',1,1,244),(5831,'As epitaph:',2,1,244),(5832,'He chucked up everything And just cleared off,',3,1,244),(5833,'And always the voice will sound',4,1,244),(5834,'Certain you approve',5,1,244),(5835,'This audacious, purifying,',6,1,244),(5836,'Elemental move.',7,1,244),(5837,'And they are right, I think.',8,2,244),(5838,'We all hate home',9,2,244),(5839,'And having to be there:',10,2,244),(5840,'I detest my room,',11,2,244),(5841,'It’s specially-chosen junk,',12,2,244),(5842,'The good books, the good bed,',13,2,244),(5843,'And my life, in perfect order:',14,2,244),(5844,'So to hear it said',15,2,244),(5845,'He walked out on the whole crowd',16,3,244),(5846,'Leaves me flushed and stirred,',17,3,244),(5847,'Like Then she undid her dress',18,3,244),(5848,'Or Take that you bastard;',19,3,244),(5849,'Surely I can, if he did?',20,3,244),(5850,'And that helps me to stay',21,3,244),(5851,'Sober and industrious.',22,3,244),(5852,'But I’d go today,',23,3,244),(5853,'Yes, swagger the nut-strewn roads,',24,4,244),(5854,'Crouch in the fo’c’sle',25,4,244),(5855,'Stubbly with goodness, if',26,4,244),(5856,'It weren’t so artificial,',27,4,244),(5857,'Such a deliberate step backwards',28,4,244),(5858,'To create an object:',29,4,244),(5859,'Books; china; a life',30,4,244),(5860,'Reprehensibly perfect.',31,4,244),(5861,'And the stone word fell',1,1,245),(5862,'On my still-living breast.',2,1,245),(5863,'Never mind, I was ready.',3,1,245),(5864,'I will manage somehow.',4,1,245),(5865,'Today I have so much to do:',5,2,245),(5866,'I must kill memory once and for all,',6,2,245),(5867,'I must turn my soul to stone,',7,2,245),(5868,'I must learn to live again—',8,2,245),(5869,'Unless…Summer’s ardent rustling',9,3,245),(5870,'Is like a festival outside my window.',10,3,245),(5871,'For a long time I’ve foreseen this',11,3,245),(5872,'Brilliant day, deserted house.',12,3,245),(5873,'You must have felt it working in your bones. It’s begun: The papers',1,1,246),(5874,'print the same stories over and over, and have you checked',2,1,246),(5875,'the obituaries? Already, nobody remembers',3,2,246),(5876,'how their first kiss went. The phone keeps ringing and ringing',4,3,246),(5877,'when nobody’s home. Between our skins is a necessary friction',5,3,246),(5878,'that separates us forever. Look: space. Somewhere, a lost key. It’s begun:',6,4,246),(5879,'What was once the wind or an echo or an accidental sweetness',7,4,246),(5880,'is now a bird outside your window singing with perfect pitch and timbre',8,5,246),(5881,'the song that’s on all our tongues, cut. What pulls from the earth to exist',9,5,246),(5882,'the earth pulls back into itself: this and this and this is mine. You own nothing.',10,6,246),(5883,'Our bodies breathe to a rhythm, to one direction, to one regression. It’s begun:',11,6,246),(5884,'The truth stares us down like an owl: There’s no place to go: You own nothing.',12,7,246),(5885,'In the dark you hear movement— a squeak, a hiding. The heart opens, closes, opens.',13,8,246),(5886,'I watched the arctic landscape from above',1,1,247),(5887,'and thought of nothing, lovely nothing.',2,1,247),(5888,'I observed white canopies of clouds, vast',3,1,247),(5889,'expanses where no wolf tracks could be found.',4,1,247),(5890,'I thought about you and about the emptiness',5,2,247),(5891,'that can promise one thing only: plenitude—',6,2,247),(5892,'and that a certain sort of snowy wasteland',7,2,247),(5893,'bursts from a surfeit of happiness.',8,2,247),(5894,'As we drew closer to our landing,',9,3,247),(5895,'the vulnerable earth emerged among the clouds,',10,3,247),(5896,'comic gardens forgotten by their owners,',11,3,247),(5897,'pale grass plagued by winter and the wind.',12,3,247),(5898,'I put my book down and for an instant felt',13,4,247),(5899,'a perfect balance between waking and dreams.',14,4,247),(5900,'But when the plane touched concrete, then',15,4,247),(5901,'assiduously circled the airport’s labryinth,',16,4,247),(5902,'I once again knew nothing. The darkness',17,5,247),(5903,'of daily wanderings resumed, the day’s sweet darkness,',18,5,247),(5904,'the darkness of the voice that counts and measures,',19,5,247),(5905,'remembers and forgets.',20,5,247),(5906,'I lay down in the empty street and parked',1,1,248),(5907,'My feet against the gutter’s curb while from',2,1,248),(5908,'The building above a bunch of gawkers perched',3,1,248),(5909,'Along its ledges urged me don’t, don’t jump.',4,1,248),(5910,'Probably I hurt your aesthetic feelings.',1,1,249),(5911,'How I said a thing, how I held a lamp',2,1,249),(5912,'to the night. These should walk without us—',3,1,249),(5913,'words, the dark—is perhaps your view',4,1,249),(5914,'of existence. I can’t know,',5,1,249),(5915,'you provide no puppet theater,',6,2,249),(5916,'no tumbling routine for me to engage',7,2,249),(5917,'in spirited discourse. That a face',8,2,249),(5918,'comes with every body, and a body',9,2,249),(5919,'with every name, makes it seem',10,2,249),(5920,'like we’re the same species,',11,3,249),(5921,'when a cursory kissing shows how multiform',12,3,249),(5922,'any one puckerer is. I’m sorry',13,3,249),(5923,'I’m not the Wednesday or club sandwich',14,3,249),(5924,'you expected, imagine my surprise',15,3,249),(5925,'that you’re not the world peace',16,4,249),(5926,'I really do want, it’s not just a thing',17,4,249),(5927,'I say to the judges inspecting my cleavage.',18,4,249),(5928,'If you’ll try again I’ll try again,',19,4,249),(5929,'however trying we are. “To the puppies” is a phrase',20,4,249),(5930,'I carry around in search of the context',21,5,249),(5931,'in which shouting it will change everything.',22,5,249),(5932,'If you have no such rip-chord, we really',23,5,249),(5933,'shouldn’t be seen together in public,',24,5,249),(5934,'for you are the matter for which I',25,5,249),(5935,'am the anti-matter, and as “Lost in Space”',26,6,249),(5936,'showed us if it showed us nothing else,',27,6,249),(5937,'it’s not good for life when they meet,',28,6,249),(5938,'and I want to do what is good for life,',29,6,249),(5939,'because I want life to return the favor.',30,6,249),(5940,'We are protected from so much pain. For example: graves.',1,1,250),(5941,'The earth’s roots and brown-black blood are busy',2,1,250),(5942,'covering the soft, violated bodies of our loves.',3,2,250),(5943,'Death is a secret, and the rain with its many hands',4,2,250),(5944,'washes off the streets to the gutters death’s thick surprise.',5,3,250),(5945,'The automatic shutter of the eye never fails,',6,3,250),(5946,'the courtesies of the tongue. What goes on in the rooms of houses',7,4,250),(5947,'is guarded from us by the hardwood doors,',8,4,250),(5948,'the carefully closed windows. Whatever was said or done,',9,5,250),(5949,'night will come, eagerly, to clean up.',10,5,250),(5950,'And death will shield us, in time,',11,6,250),(5951,'from the sun’s megalithic promise:',12,6,250),(5952,'Tomorrow, the same day.',13,7,250),(5953,'Tomorrow, the same day.',14,7,250),(5954,'For example: A flower',15,8,250),(5955,'is the most beautiful lie.',16,8,250),(5956,'The sea-wash never ends.',1,1,251),(5957,'The sea-wash repeats, repeats.',2,1,251),(5958,'Only old songs? Is that all the sea knows?',3,1,251),(5959,'Only the old strong songs?',4,1,251),(5960,'Is that all?',5,1,251),(5961,'The sea-wash repeats, repeats.',6,1,251),(5962,'Always caught up in what they called',1,1,252),(5963,'the practical side of life',2,1,252),(5964,'(theory was for Plato),',3,1,252),(5965,'up to their elbows in furniture, in bedding,',4,1,252),(5966,'in cupboards and kitchen gardens,',5,1,252),(5967,'they never neglected the lavender sachets',6,1,252),(5968,'that turned a linen closet to a meadow.',7,1,252),(5969,'The practical side of life,',8,2,252),(5970,'like the Moon’s unlighted face,',9,2,252),(5971,'didn’t lack for mysteries;',10,2,252),(5972,'when Christmastime drew near,',11,2,252),(5973,'life became pure praxis',12,2,252),(5974,'and resided temporarily in hallways,',13,2,252),(5975,'took refuge in suitcases and satchels.',14,2,252),(5976,'And when somebody died—it happened',15,3,252),(5977,'even in our family, alas—',16,3,252),(5978,'my aunts, preoccupied',17,3,252),(5979,'with death’s practical side,',18,3,252),(5980,'forgot at last about the lavender,',19,3,252),(5981,'whose frantic scent bloomed selflessly',20,3,252),(5982,'beneath a heavy snow of sheets.',21,3,252),(5983,'is, after all, all we’ve ever done',1,1,253),(5984,'for centuries—except write them—but what',2,1,253),(5985,'a strange thing it is, after all, rose-cheeks and sun-',3,1,253),(5986,'hair and lips, and underarms, and that little gut',4,1,253),(5987,'I love to nuzzle on, soft under-belly—oops—',5,1,253),(5988,'that wasn’t what I meant to talk about;',6,1,253),(5989,'ever since handkerchiefs fell, and hoop-',7,1,253),(5990,'skirts around ankles swirled',8,1,253),(5991,'and smiled, lovers have dreamed their loves upon',9,1,253),(5992,'the pages, courted and schemed and twirled',10,1,253),(5993,'and styled, hoping that once they’d unfurled their down-',11,1,253),(5994,'deep longing, they would have their prize—',12,1,253),(5995,'not the songs of love, but love beneath disguise.',13,1,253),(5996,'The day he moved out was terrible —',1,1,254),(5997,'That evening she went through hell.',2,1,254),(5998,'His absence wasn’t a problem',3,1,254),(5999,'But the corkscrew had gone as well.',4,1,254),(6000,'Once you had a secret love: seeing',1,1,255),(6001,'even his photo, a window is flung open',2,1,255),(6002,'high in the airless edifice that is you.',3,1,255),(6003,'Though everything looks as if it is continuing',4,2,255),(6004,'just as before, it is not, it is continuing',5,2,255),(6005,'in a new way (sweet lingo O’Hara and Ashbery',6,2,255),(6006,'teach). That’s not how you naturally speak:',7,3,255),(6007,'you tell yourself, first, that he is not the air',8,3,255),(6008,'you need; second, that you loathe air.',9,3,255),(6009,'As a boy you despised the world for replacing',10,4,255),(6010,'God with another addiction, love.',11,4,255),(6011,'Despised yourself. Was there no third thing?',12,4,255),(6012,'But every blue moon the skeptical, the adamantly',13,5,255),(6013,'disabused find themselves, like you,',14,5,255),(6014,'returned to life by a secret: like him, in you.',15,5,255),(6015,'Now you understand Janácek at',16,6,255),(6016,'seventy, in love with a much younger',17,6,255),(6017,'married woman, chastely writing her.',18,6,255),(6018,'As in Mozart song remains no matter how',19,7,255),(6019,'ordinary, how flawed the personae. For us poor',20,7,255),(6020,'mortals: private accommodations. Magpie beauty.',21,7,255),(6021,'What can a yellow glove mean in a world of motorcars and governments?',1,1,256),(6022,'I was small, like everyone. Life was a string of precautions: Don’t kiss the squirrel before you bury him, don’t suck candy, pop balloons, drop watermelons, watch TV. When the new gloves appeared one Christmas, tucked in soft tissue, I heard it trailing me: Don’t lose the yellow gloves.',2,2,256),(6023,'I was small, there was too much to remember. One day, waving at a stream—the ice had cracked, winter chipping down, soon we would sail boats and roll into ditches—I let a glove go. Into the stream, sucked under the street. Since when did streets have mouths? I walked home on a desperate road. Gloves cost money. We didn’t have much. I would tell no one. I would wear the yellow glove that was left and keep the other hand in a pocket. I knew my mother’s eyes had tears they had not cried yet, I didn’t want to be the one to make them flow. It was the prayer I spoke secretly, folding socks, lining up donkeys in windowsills. To be good, a promise made to the roaches who scouted my closet at night. If you don’t get in my bed, I will be good. And they listened. I had a lot to fulfill.',3,3,256),(6024,'The months rolled down like towels out of a machine. I sang and drew and fattened the cat. Don’t scream, don’t lie, don’t cheat, don’t fight—you could hear it anywhere. A pebble could show you how to be smooth, tell the truth. A field could show how to sleep without walls. A stream could remember how to drift and change—next June I was stirring the stream like a soup, telling my brother dinner would be ready if he’d only hurry up with the bread, when I saw it. The yellow glove draped on a twig. A muddy survivor. A quiet flag.',4,4,256),(6025,'Where had it been in the three gone months? I could wash it, fold it in my winter drawer with its sister, no one in that world would ever know. There were miracles on Harvey Street. Children walked home in yellow light. Trees were reborn and gloves traveled far, but returned. A thousand miles later, what can a yellow glove mean in a world of bankbooks and stereos?',5,5,256),(6026,'Part of the difference between floating and going down.',6,6,256),(6027,'You’ll rejoice at how many kinds of shit there are:',1,1,257),(6028,'gosling shit (which J. Williams said something',2,1,257),(6029,'was as green as), fish shit (the generality), trout',3,1,257),(6030,'shit, rainbow trout shit (for the nice), mullet shit,',4,2,257),(6031,'sand dab shit, casual sloth shit, elephant shit',5,2,257),(6032,'(awesome as process or payload), wildebeest shit,',6,2,257),(6033,'horse shit (a favorite), caterpillar shit (so many dark',7,3,257),(6034,'kinds, neatly pelleted as mint seed), baby rhinoceros',8,3,257),(6035,'shit, splashy jaybird shit, mockingbird shit',9,3,257),(6036,'(dive-bombed with the aim of song), robin shit that',10,4,257),(6037,'oozes white down lawnchairs or down roots under roosts,',11,4,257),(6038,'chicken shit and chicken mite shit, pelican shit, gannet',12,4,257),(6039,'shit (wholesome guano), fly shit (periodic), cockatoo',13,5,257),(6040,'shit, dog shit (past catalog or assimilation),',14,5,257),(6041,'cricket shit, elk (high plains) shit, and',15,5,257),(6042,'tiny scribbled little shrew shit, whale shit (what',16,6,257),(6043,'a sight, deep assumption), mandril shit (blazing',17,6,257),(6044,'blast off), weasel shit (wiles’ waste), gazelle shit,',18,6,257),(6045,'magpie shit (total protein), tiger shit (too acid',19,7,257),(6046,'to contemplate), moral eel and manta ray shit, eerie',20,7,257),(6047,'shark shit, earthworm shit (a soilure), crab shit,',21,7,257),(6048,'wolf shit upon the germicidal ice, snake shit, giraffe',22,8,257),(6049,'shit that accelerates, secretary bird shit, turtle',23,8,257),(6050,'shit suspension invites, remora shit slightly in',24,8,257),(6051,'advance of the shark shit, hornet shit (difficult to',25,9,257),(6052,'assess), camel shit that slaps the ghastly dry',26,9,257),(6053,'siliceous, frog shit, beetle shit, bat shit (the',27,9,257),(6054,'marmoreal), contemptible cat shit, penguin shit,',28,10,257),(6055,'hermit crab shit, prairie hen shit, cougar shit, eagle',29,10,257),(6056,'shit (high totem stuff), buffalo shit (hardly less',30,10,257),(6057,'lofty), otter shit, beaver shit (from the animal of',31,11,257),(6058,'alluvial dreams)-a vast ordure is a broken down',32,11,257),(6059,'cloaca-macaw shit, alligator shit (that floats the Nile',33,11,257),(6060,'along), louse shit, macaque, koala, and coati shit,',34,12,257),(6061,'antelope shit, chuck-will’s-widow shit, alpaca shit',35,12,257),(6062,'(very high stuff), gooney bird shit, chigger shit, bull',36,12,257),(6063,'shit (the classic), caribou shit, rasbora, python, and',37,13,257),(6064,'razorbill shit, scorpion shit, man shit, laswing',38,13,257),(6065,'fly larva shit, chipmunk shit, other-worldly wallaby',39,13,257),(6066,'shit, gopher shit (or broke), platypus shit, aardvark',40,14,257),(6067,'shit, spider shit, kangaroo and peccary shit, guanaco',41,14,257),(6068,'shit, dolphin shit, aphid shit, baboon shit (that leopards',42,14,257),(6069,'induce), albatross shit, red-headed woodpecker (nine',43,15,257),(6070,'inches long) shit, tern shit, hedgehog shit, panda shit,',44,15,257),(6071,'seahorse shit, and the shit of the wasteful gallinule.',45,15,257),(6072,'Isn’t it always the heart that wants to wash',1,1,258),(6073,'the elephant, begging the body to do it',2,1,258),(6074,'with soap and water, a ladder, hands,',3,1,258),(6075,'in tree shade big enough for the vast savannas',4,1,258),(6076,'of your sadness, the strangler fig of your guilt,',5,1,258),(6077,'the cratered full moon’s light fuelling',6,1,258),(6078,'the windy spooling memory of elephant?',7,1,258),(6079,'What if Father Quinn had said, “Of course you’ll recognize',8,2,258),(6080,'your parents in Heaven,” instead of',9,2,258),(6081,'“Being one with God will make your mother and father',10,2,258),(6082,'pointless.” That was back when I was young enough',11,2,258),(6083,'to love them absolutely though still fear for their place',12,2,258),(6084,'in Heaven, imagining their souls like sponges full',13,2,258),(6085,'of something resembling street water after rain.',14,2,258),(6086,'Still my mother sent me every Saturday to confess,',15,3,258),(6087,'to wring the sins out of my small baffled soul, and I made up lies',16,3,258),(6088,'about lying, disobeying, chewing gum in church, to offer them',17,3,258),(6089,'as carefully as I handed over the knotted handkerchief of coins',18,3,258),(6090,'to the grocer when my mother sent me for a loaf of Wonder,',19,3,258),(6091,'Land of Lakes, and two Camels.',20,3,258),(6092,'If guilt is the damage of childhood, then eros is the fall of adolescence.',21,4,258),(6093,'Or the fall begins there, and never ends, desire after desire parading',22,4,258),(6094,'through a lifetime like the Ringling Brothers elephants',23,4,258),(6095,'made to walk through the Queens-Midtown Tunnel',24,4,258),(6096,'and down Thirty-fourth Street to the Garden.',25,4,258),(6097,'So much of our desire like their bulky, shadowy walking',26,4,258),(6098,'after midnight, exiled from the wild and destined',27,4,258),(6099,'for a circus with its tawdry gaudiness, its unspoken',28,4,258),(6100,'pathos.',29,4,258),(6101,'It takes more than half a century to figure out who they were,',30,5,258),(6102,'the few real loves-of-your-life, and how much of the rest—',31,5,258),(6103,'the mad breaking-heart stickiness—falls away, slowly,',32,5,258),(6104,'unnoticed, the way you lose your taste for things',33,5,258),(6105,'like popsicles unthinkingly.',34,5,258),(6106,'And though dailiness may have no place',35,5,258),(6107,'for the ones who have etched themselves in the laugh lines',36,5,258),(6108,'and frown lines on the face that’s harder and harder',37,5,258),(6109,'to claim as your own, often one love-of-your-life',38,5,258),(6110,'will appear in a dream, arriving',39,5,258),(6111,'with the weight and certitude of an elephant,',40,5,258),(6112,'and it’s always the heart that wants to go out and wash',41,5,258),(6113,'the huge mysteriousness of what they meant, those memories',42,5,258),(6114,'that have only memories to feed them, and only you to keep them clean.',43,5,258),(6115,'On average, 5 people are born every second and 1.78 die.',1,1,259),(6116,'So we’re ahead by 3.22, which is good, I think.',2,1,259),(6117,'The average person will spend two weeks in his life',3,2,259),(6118,'waiting for the traffic light to change.',4,2,259),(6119,'Pubescent girls wait two to four years',5,3,259),(6120,'for the tender lumps under their nipples to grow.',6,3,259),(6121,'So the average adult has over 1,460 dreams a year,',7,4,259),(6122,'laughs 15 times a day. Children, 385 more times.',8,4,259),(6123,'So the average male adult mates 2,580 times with five different people',9,5,259),(6124,'but falls in love only twice in his life—possibly',10,5,259),(6125,'with the same person. Seventy-nine long years for each of us,',11,6,259),(6126,'awakened to love in our twenties, so more or less',12,6,259),(6127,'thirty years to love our two lovers each. And if, in a lifetime,',13,7,259),(6128,'one walks a total of 13,640 miles by increments,',14,7,259),(6129,'Where are you headed, traveler?',15,8,259),(6130,'is a valid philosophical question to pose to a man, I think, along with',16,8,259),(6131,'Why does the blood in your veins travel endlessly?',17,9,259),(6132,'on account of those red cells flowing night and day',18,9,259),(6133,'through the traffic of the blood vessels, which if laid out',19,10,259),(6134,'in a straight line would be over 90,000 miles long.',20,10,259),(6135,'The great Nile River in Egypt is 4,180 miles long.',21,11,259),(6136,'The great circle of the earth’s equator is 24,903 miles.',22,11,259),(6137,'Dividing this green earth among all of us',23,12,259),(6138,'gives a hundred square feet of living space to each,',24,12,259),(6139,'but our brains take only one square foot of it,',25,13,259),(6140,'along with the 29 bones of the skull, so',26,13,259),(6141,'if you look outside your window with your mind only,',27,14,259),(6142,'why do you hear the housefly hum middle octave, key of F?',28,14,259),(6143,'If you listen to the cat on the rug by the fire with',29,15,259),(6144,'the 32 muscles in your ear, you will hear',30,15,259),(6145,'100 different vocal sounds. Listen to the dog',31,16,259),(6146,'wishing for your love: 10 different sounds.',32,16,259),(6147,'If you think loneliness is beyond calculation,',33,17,259),(6148,'think of the mole digging a tunnel underground',34,17,259),(6149,'ninety-eight miles long to China',35,18,259),(6150,'in one single night. If you think beauty escapes you',36,18,259),(6151,'or your entire genealogical tree, consider the slug',37,19,259),(6152,'with its four uneven noses, or the chameleon shifting colors',38,19,259),(6153,'under an arbitrary light. Think of the deepest point',39,20,259),(6154,'in the deepest ocean, the Marianas Trench in the Pacific,',40,20,259),(6155,'do you think anyone’s sadness can be deeper? In 1681,',41,21,259),(6156,'the last dodo bird died. In the 16th century,',42,21,259),(6157,'Queen Elizabeth suffered from a fear of roses.',43,22,259),(6158,'Anne Boleyn had six fingers. People fall in love',44,22,259),(6159,'twice. The human heart beats 3 billion times — only — in a lifetime.',45,23,259),(6160,'If you attempt to count all the stars in the galaxy, one',46,23,259),(6161,'every second, it’ll take 3 thousand years, if you’re lucky.',47,24,259),(6162,'As owls are the only birds that can see the color blue',48,24,259),(6163,'the ocean is bluish, along with the sky and the eyes',49,25,259),(6164,'of that boy who died alone by that little unnamed river',50,25,259),(6165,'in your dreams one blue night of the war',51,26,259),(6166,'of one of your lives. (Do you remember which one?)',52,26,259),(6167,'Duration of World War 1: four years, 3 months, 14 days.',53,27,259),(6168,'Duration of an equatorial sunset: 128 seconds, 142 tops.',54,27,259),(6169,'A neuron’s impulse takes 1/1000 of a second,',55,28,259),(6170,'a morning’s commute from Prospect Expressway',56,28,259),(6171,'to the Brooklyn Bridge, about 90 minutes,',57,29,259),(6172,'forty-five without traffic.',58,29,259),(6173,'Time it takes for a flower to wilt after it’s cut from the stem: five days.',59,30,259),(6174,'Time left our sun before it runs out of light: five billion years.',60,30,259),(6175,'Hence the number of happy citizens under the red glow',61,31,259),(6176,'of that sun: maybe 50% of us, 50% on good days, tops.',62,31,259),(6177,'Number who are sad: maybe 70% on the good days—',63,32,259),(6178,'especially on the good days. (The first emotion’s more intense, I think,',64,32,259),(6179,'when caught up with the second.) So children grow faster in the summer,',65,33,259),(6180,'their bright blue bodies expanding. The ocean, after all, is blue',66,33,259),(6181,'which is why the sky now outside your window is bluish',67,34,259),(6182,'expanding with the white of something beautiful, like clouds.',68,34,259),(6183,'Fact: The world is a beautiful place—once in a while.',69,35,259),(6184,'Another fact: We fall in love twice. Maybe more, if we’re lucky.',70,35,259),(6185,'All that I love',1,1,260),(6186,'I fold over once',2,1,260),(6187,'And once again',3,1,260),(6188,'And keep in a box',4,1,260),(6189,'Or a slit in a hollow post',5,1,260),(6190,'Or in my shoe.',6,1,260),(6191,'All that I love?',7,2,260),(6192,'Why, yes, but for the moment-',8,2,260),(6193,'And for all time, both.',9,2,260),(6194,'Something that folds and keeps easy,',10,2,260),(6195,'Son’s note or Dad’s one gaudy tie,',11,2,260),(6196,'A roto picture of a queen,',12,2,260),(6197,'A blue Indian shawl, even',13,2,260),(6198,'A money bill.',14,2,260),(6199,'It’s utter sublimation,',15,3,260),(6200,'A feat, this heart’s control',16,3,260),(6201,'Moment to moment',17,3,260),(6202,'To scale all love down',18,3,260),(6203,'To a cupped hand’s size',19,3,260),(6204,'Till seashells are broken pieces',20,4,260),(6205,'From God’s own bright teeth,',21,4,260),(6206,'And life and love are real',22,4,260),(6207,'Things you can run and',23,4,260),(6208,'Breathless hand over',24,4,260),(6209,'To the merest child.',25,4,260),(6210,'A white room and a party going on',1,1,261),(6211,'and I was standing with some friends',2,1,261),(6212,'under a large gilt-framed mirror',3,1,261),(6213,'that tilted slightly forward',4,1,261),(6214,'over the fireplace.',5,1,261),(6215,'We were drinking whiskey',6,1,261),(6216,'and some of us, feeling no pain,',7,1,261),(6217,'were trying to decide',8,1,261),(6218,'what precise shade of yellow',9,1,261),(6219,'the setting sun turned our drinks.',10,1,261),(6220,'I closed my eyes briefly,',11,1,261),(6221,'then looked up into the mirror:',12,1,261),(6222,'a woman in a green dress leaned',13,1,261),(6223,'against the far wall.',14,1,261),(6224,'She seemed distracted,',15,1,261),(6225,'the fingers of one hand',16,1,261),(6226,'fidgeted with her necklace,',17,1,261),(6227,'and she was staring into the mirror,',18,1,261),(6228,'not at me, but past me, into a space',19,1,261),(6229,'that might be filled by someone',20,1,261),(6230,'yet to arrive, who at that moment',21,1,261),(6231,'could be starting the journey',22,1,261),(6232,'which would lead eventually to her.',23,1,261),(6233,'Then, suddenly, my friends',24,1,261),(6234,'said it was time to move on.',25,1,261),(6235,'This was years ago,',26,1,261),(6236,'and though I have forgotten',27,1,261),(6237,'where we went and who we all were,',28,1,261),(6238,'I still recall that moment of looking up',29,1,261),(6239,'and seeing the woman stare past me',30,1,261),(6240,'into a place I could only imagine,',31,1,261),(6241,'and each time it is with a pang,',32,1,261),(6242,'as if just then I were stepping',33,1,261),(6243,'from the depths of the mirror',34,1,261),(6244,'into that white room, breathless and eager,',35,1,261),(6245,'only to discover too late',36,1,261),(6246,'that she is not there.',37,1,261),(6247,'I lived between my heart and my head,',1,1,262),(6248,'like a married couple who can’t get along.',2,1,262),(6249,'I lived between my left arm, which is swift',3,1,262),(6250,'and sinister, and my right, which is righteous.',4,1,262),(6251,'I lived between a laugh and a scowl,',5,1,262),(6252,'and voted against myself, a two-party system.',6,1,262),(6253,'My left leg dawdled or danced along,',7,1,262),(6254,'my right cleaved to the straight and narrow.',8,1,262),(6255,'My left shoulder was like a stripper on vacation,',9,1,262),(6256,'my right stood upright as a Roman soldier.',10,1,262),(6257,'Let’s just say that my left side was the organ',11,1,262),(6258,'donor and leave my private parts alone,',12,1,262),(6259,'but as for my eyes, which are two shades',13,1,262),(6260,'of brown, well, Dionysus, meet Apollo.',14,1,262),(6261,'Look at Eve raising her left eyebrow',15,1,262),(6262,'while Adam puts his right foot down.',16,1,262),(6263,'No one expected it to survive,',17,1,262),(6264,'but divorce seemed out of the question.',18,1,262),(6265,'I suppose my left hand and my right hand',19,1,262),(6266,'will be clasped over my chest in the coffin',20,1,262),(6267,'and I’ll be reconciled at last,',21,1,262),(6268,'I’ll be whole again.',22,1,262),(6269,'On the scales of desire, your absence weighs more',1,1,263),(6270,'than someone else’s presence, so I say no thanks',2,1,263),(6271,'to the woman who throws her girdle at my feet,',3,2,263),(6272,'as I drop a postcard in the mailbox and watch it',4,2,263),(6273,'throb like a blue heart in the dark. Your eyes',5,3,263),(6274,'are so green – one of your parents must be',6,3,263),(6275,'part traffic light. We’re both self-centered,',7,4,263),(6276,'but the world revolves around us at the same speed.',8,4,263),(6277,'Last night I tossed and turned inside a thundercloud.',9,5,263),(6278,'This morning my sheets were covered in pollen.',10,5,263),(6279,'I remember the long division of Saturday’s',11,6,263),(6280,'pomegranate, a thousand nebulae in your hair,',12,6,263),(6281,'as soldiers marched by, dragging big army bags',13,7,263),(6282,'filled with water balloons, and we passed a lit match,',14,7,263),(6283,'back and forth, between our lips, under an oak tree',15,8,263),(6284,'I had absolutely nothing to do with.',16,8,263),(6285,'We are apart; the city grows quiet between us,',1,1,264),(6286,'She hushes herself, for midnight makes heavy her eyes,',2,1,264),(6287,'The tangle of traffic is ended, the cars are empty,',3,1,264),(6288,'Five streets divide us, and on them the moonlight lies.',4,1,264),(6289,'Oh are you asleep, or lying awake, my lover?',5,2,264),(6290,'Open your dreams to my love and your heart to my words.',6,2,264),(6291,'I send you my thoughts–the air between us is laden,',7,2,264),(6292,'My thoughts fly in at your window, a flock of wild birds.',8,2,264),(6293,'I think I grow tensions',1,1,265),(6294,'like flowers',2,1,265),(6295,'in a wood where',3,1,265),(6296,'nobody goes.',4,1,265),(6297,'Each wound is perfect,',5,2,265),(6298,'encloses itself in a tiny',6,2,265),(6299,'imperceptible blossom,',7,2,265),(6300,'making pain.',8,2,265),(6301,'Pain is a flower like that one,',9,3,265),(6302,'like this one,',10,3,265),(6303,'like that one,',11,3,265),(6304,'like this one.',12,3,265),(6305,'You do not have to be good.',1,1,266),(6306,'You do not have to walk on your knees',2,1,266),(6307,'for a hundred miles through the desert repenting.',3,1,266),(6308,'You only have to let the soft animal of your body',4,1,266),(6309,'love what it loves.',5,1,266),(6310,'Tell me about despair, yours, and I will tell you mine.',6,1,266),(6311,'Meanwhile the world goes on.',7,1,266),(6312,'Meanwhile the sun and the clear pebbles of the rain',8,1,266),(6313,'are moving across the landscapes,',9,1,266),(6314,'over the prairies and the deep trees,',10,1,266),(6315,'the mountains and the rivers.',11,1,266),(6316,'Meanwhile the wild geese, high in the clean blue air,',12,1,266),(6317,'are heading home again.',13,1,266),(6318,'Whoever you are, no matter how lonely,',14,1,266),(6319,'the world offers itself to your imagination,',15,1,266),(6320,'calls to you like the wild geese, harsh and exciting',16,1,266),(6321,'over and over announcing your place',17,1,266),(6322,'in the family of things.',18,1,266),(6323,'So this is what the ocean has been pushing across the table at us',1,1,267),(6324,'all these years—',2,1,267),(6325,'the dry, white spot that opens like a moon at the back of the throat',3,2,267),(6326,'the quieted tongue, the last of all words.',4,2,267),(6327,'Our ever-faithful dinner guest—who kept her wet fingers lined up at the edge',5,3,267),(6328,'of the world, who politely folded and refolded her napkin—stops',6,3,267),(6329,'passing the peas, leans back quietly into her chair to watch',7,3,267),(6330,'what we’ll do now. She’s done, the sea quits, stands without comment on the shore, is',8,4,267),(6331,'just another dumb, beautiful animal considering the cliff, the final leap',9,4,267),(6332,'back into itself.',10,4,267),(6333,'At least say we were among those who kept the conversation up for so long—',11,5,267),(6334,'you and I handed always and never back and forth again and again',12,5,267),(6335,'while our arms distressed the surface.',13,6,267),(6336,'Let’s just say the table was too large, that we lifted the heaviest dish',14,6,267),(6337,'and got tired—',15,6,267),(6338,'that only the ocean knows how to spoon salt over a great distance',16,7,267),(6339,'under any kind of light.',17,7,267),(6340,'When we wake up in our bodies, first we weep.',1,1,268),(6341,'We weep because the air is thick as honey.',2,1,268),(6342,'Even the air is a body. Ours is the bottommost',3,2,268),(6343,'and newest body, nested inside other, older ones',4,2,268),(6344,'(though the mother’s body is repairing itself now;',5,3,268),(6345,'there’s no trace of us anywhere on her;',6,3,268),(6346,'why are we part of every body but our mother’s?)',7,4,268),(6347,'Die as soon as possible, the Scriptures say.',8,4,268),(6348,'And many do—or soon enough, as in the tales of',9,5,268),(6349,'a swollen boy, now years ago, in farthest Africa,',10,5,268),(6350,'who filled a grove of cherry trees with tears, then',11,6,268),(6351,'vanished into the grove. He hides behind trees.',12,6,268),(6352,'That’s death for you. Grief is a cherry grove.',13,7,268),(6353,'Don’t be born at all. My friend is on fast-forward now',14,7,268),(6354,'to reach the scene where they erase her childlessness.',15,8,268),(6355,'She knows she hid that kid somewhere inside of her,',16,8,268),(6356,'but where? We know nothing else except by learning:',17,9,268),(6357,'not walking, not eating. Only to cry comes naturally.',18,9,268),(6358,'The way the world is not',1,1,269),(6359,'astonished at you',2,1,269),(6360,'it doesn’t blink a leaf',3,1,269),(6361,'when we step from the house',4,1,269),(6362,'leads me to think',5,1,269),(6363,'that beauty is natural, unremarkable',6,1,269),(6364,'and not to be spoken of',7,1,269),(6365,'except in the course of things',8,1,269),(6366,'the course of singing and worksharing',9,1,269),(6367,'the course of squeezes and neighbors',10,1,269),(6368,'the course of you, tying back your raving hair to go out',11,1,269),(6369,'and the course, of course, of me',12,1,269),(6370,'astonished at you',13,1,269),(6371,'the way the world is not.',14,1,269),(6372,'I stopped looking for you',1,1,270),(6373,'I stopped waiting for you',2,1,270),(6374,'I stopped dying for you',3,1,270),(6375,'and I started dying for myself',4,1,270),(6376,'I aged rapidly',5,1,270),(6377,'I became fat in the face',6,1,270),(6378,'and soft in the gut',7,1,270),(6379,'and I forgot that I’d ever loved you',8,1,270),(6380,'I was old',9,1,270),(6381,'I had no focus, no mission',10,1,270),(6382,'I wandered around eating and buying',11,1,270),(6383,'bigger and bigger clothes',12,1,270),(6384,'and I forgot why I hated',13,1,270),(6385,'every long moment that was mine to fill',14,1,270),(6386,'Why did you come back to me tonight',15,1,270),(6387,'I can’t even get off this chair',16,1,270),(6388,'Tears run down my cheeks',17,1,270),(6389,'I am in love again',18,1,270),(6390,'I can live like this',19,1,270),(6391,'Beneath my hands',1,1,271),(6392,'your small breasts',2,1,271),(6393,'are the upturned bellies',3,1,271),(6394,'of breathing fallen sparrows.',4,1,271),(6395,'Wherever you move',5,2,271),(6396,'I hear the sounds of closing wings',6,2,271),(6397,'of falling wings.',7,2,271),(6398,'I am speechless',8,3,271),(6399,'because you have fallen beside me',9,3,271),(6400,'because your eyelashes',10,3,271),(6401,'are the spines of tiny fragile animals.',11,3,271),(6402,'I dread the time',12,4,271),(6403,'when your mouth',13,4,271),(6404,'begins to call me hunter.',14,4,271),(6405,'When you call me close',15,5,271),(6406,'to tell me',16,5,271),(6407,'your body is not beautiful',17,5,271),(6408,'I want to summon',18,5,271),(6409,'the eyes and hidden mouths',19,5,271),(6410,'of stone and light and water',20,5,271),(6411,'to testify against you.',21,5,271),(6412,'I want them',22,6,271),(6413,'to surrender before you',23,6,271),(6414,'the trembling rhyme of your face',24,6,271),(6415,'from their deep caskets.',25,6,271),(6416,'When you call me close',26,7,271),(6417,'to tell me',27,7,271),(6418,'your body is not beautiful',28,7,271),(6419,'I want my body and my hands',29,7,271),(6420,'to be pools',30,7,271),(6421,'for your looking and laughing.',31,7,271),(6422,'Out of the night that covers me,',1,1,272),(6423,'Black as the pit from pole to pole,',2,1,272),(6424,'I thank whatever gods may be',3,1,272),(6425,'For my unconquerable soul.',4,1,272),(6426,'In the fell clutch of circumstance',5,2,272),(6427,'I have not winced nor cried aloud.',6,2,272),(6428,'Under the bludgeonings of chance',7,2,272),(6429,'My head is bloody, but unbowed.',8,2,272),(6430,'Beyond this place of wrath and tears',9,3,272),(6431,'Looms but the Horror of the shade,',10,3,272),(6432,'And yet the menace of the years',11,3,272),(6433,'Finds and shall find me unafraid.',12,3,272),(6434,'It matters not how strait the gate,',13,4,272),(6435,'How charged with punishments the scroll,',14,4,272),(6436,'I am the master of my fate:',15,4,272),(6437,'I am the captain of my soul.',16,4,272),(6438,'You want to know what work is?',1,1,273),(6439,'I’ll tell you what work is:',2,1,273),(6440,'Work is work.',3,1,273),(6441,'You get up. You get on the bus.',4,1,273),(6442,'You don’t look from side to side.',5,1,273),(6443,'You keep your eyes straight ahead.',6,1,273),(6444,'That way nobody bothers you—see?',7,1,273),(6445,'You get off the bus. You work all day.',8,1,273),(6446,'You get back on the bus at night. Same thing.',9,1,273),(6447,'You go to sleep. You get up.',10,1,273),(6448,'You do the same thing again.',11,1,273),(6449,'Nothing more. Nothing less.',12,1,273),(6450,'There’s no handouts in this life.',13,1,273),(6451,'All this other stuff you’re looking for—',14,1,273),(6452,'it ain’t there.',15,1,273),(6453,'Work is work.',16,1,273),(6454,'I buried my father',1,1,274),(6455,'in the sky.',2,1,274),(6456,'Since then, the birds',3,1,274),(6457,'clean and comb him every morning',4,1,274),(6458,'and pull the blanket up to his chin',5,1,274),(6459,'every night.',6,1,274),(6460,'I buried my father underground.',7,2,274),(6461,'Since then, my ladders',8,2,274),(6462,'only climb down,',9,2,274),(6463,'and all the earth has become a house',10,2,274),(6464,'whose rooms are the hours, whose doors',11,2,274),(6465,'stand open at evening, receiving',12,2,274),(6466,'guest after guest.',13,2,274),(6467,'Sometimes I see past them',14,2,274),(6468,'to the tables spread for a wedding feast.',15,2,274),(6469,'I buried my father in my heart.',16,3,274),(6470,'Now he grows in me, my strange son,',17,3,274),(6471,'my little root who won’t drink milk,',18,3,274),(6472,'little pale foot sunk in unheard-of night,',19,3,274),(6473,'little clock spring newly wet',20,3,274),(6474,'in the fire, little grape, parent to the future',21,3,274),(6475,'wine, a son the fruit of his own son,',22,3,274),(6476,'little father I ransom with my life.',23,3,274),(6477,'I get into bed with it, and spring',1,1,275),(6478,'the scarab legs of its locks. Inside,',2,1,275),(6479,'the stacked, shy wealth of his print—',3,1,275),(6480,'he could not write in script, so the pages',4,1,275),(6481,'are sturdy with the beamwork of printedness,',5,1,275),(6482,'WENT TO LOOK AT A CAR, DAD',6,1,275),(6483,'IN A GOOD MOOD AT DINNER, WENT',7,1,275),(6484,'TO TRY OUT SOME NEW TENNIS RACQUETS,',8,1,275),(6485,'LUNCH WITH MOM, life of ease—',9,1,275),(6486,'except when he spun his father’s DeSoto on the',10,1,275),(6487,'ice, and a young tree whirled up to the',11,1,275),(6488,'hood, throwing up her arms—until',12,1,275),(6489,'LOIS. PLAYED TENNIS, WITH LOIS,',13,1,275),(6490,'LUNCH WITH MOM AND LOIS, LOIS',14,1,275),(6491,'LIKED THE CAR, DRIVING WITH LOIS,',15,1,275),(6492,'LONG DRIVE WITH LOIS. And then,',16,1,275),(6493,'LOIS! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT! SHE IS SO',17,1,275),(6494,'GOOD, SO SWEET, SO GENEROUS, I HAVE',18,1,275),(6495,'NEVER, WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE',19,1,275),(6496,'TO DESERVE SUCH A GIRL? Between the dark',20,1,275),(6497,'legs of the capitals, moonlight, soft',21,1,275),(6498,'tines of the printed letter gentled',22,1,275),(6499,'apart, nectar drawn from serif, the',23,1,275),(6500,'self of the grown boy pouring',24,1,275),(6501,'out, the heart’s charge, the fresh',25,1,275),(6502,'man kneeling in pine-needle weave,',26,1,275),(6503,'worshipping her. It was my father',27,1,275),(6504,'good, it was my father grateful,',28,1,275),(6505,'it was my father dead, who had left me',29,1,275),(6506,'these small structures of his young brain—',30,1,275),(6507,'he wanted me to know him, he wanted',31,1,275),(6508,'someone to know him.',32,1,275),(6509,'love is more thicker than forget',1,1,276),(6510,'more thinner than recall',2,1,276),(6511,'more seldom than a wave is wet',3,1,276),(6512,'more frequent than to fail',4,1,276),(6513,'it is most mad and moonly',5,2,276),(6514,'and less it shall unbe',6,2,276),(6515,'than all the sea which only',7,2,276),(6516,'is deeper than the sea',8,2,276),(6517,'love is less always than to win',9,3,276),(6518,'less never than alive',10,3,276),(6519,'less bigger than the least begin',11,3,276),(6520,'less littler than forgive',12,3,276),(6521,'it is most sane and sunly',13,4,276),(6522,'and more it cannot die',14,4,276),(6523,'than all the sky which only',15,4,276),(6524,'is higher than the sky',16,4,276),(6525,'The apparitionof these facesin the crowd:',1,1,277),(6526,'Petalson a wet, blackbough.',2,1,277),(6527,'A touch of cold in the Autumn night —',1,1,278),(6528,'I walked abroad,',2,1,278),(6529,'And saw the ruddy moon lean over a hedge',3,1,278),(6530,'Like a red-faced farmer.',4,1,278),(6531,'I did not stop to speak, but nodded;',5,1,278),(6532,'And round about were the wistful stars',6,1,278),(6533,'With white faces like town children.',7,1,278),(6534,'Crisp cluster',1,1,279),(6535,'plunged in shadow.',2,1,279),(6536,'Drops of violet water',3,1,279),(6537,'and raw sunlight',4,1,279),(6538,'floated up with your scent.',5,1,279),(6539,'A fresh',6,1,279),(6540,'subterranean beauty',7,1,279),(6541,'climbed up from your buds',8,1,279),(6542,'thrilling my eyes and my life.',9,1,279),(6543,'One at a time, flowers',10,2,279),(6544,'that stretched forward',11,2,279),(6545,'silvery stalks,',12,2,279),(6546,'creeping closer to an obscure light',13,2,279),(6547,'shoot by shoot in the shadows,',14,2,279),(6548,'till they crowned',15,2,279),(6549,'the mysterious mass',16,2,279),(6550,'with an intense weight of perfume',17,2,279),(6551,'and together',18,2,279),(6552,'formed a single star',19,2,279),(6553,'with a far-off scent and a purple center.',20,2,279),(6554,'Poignant cluster',21,3,279),(6555,'intimate',22,3,279),(6556,'scent',23,3,279),(6557,'of nature,',24,3,279),(6558,'you resemble',25,3,279),(6559,'a wave, or a head of hair,',26,3,279),(6560,'or the gaze',27,3,279),(6561,'of a ruined water nymph',28,3,279),(6562,'sunk in the depths.',29,3,279),(6563,'But up close,',30,3,279),(6564,'in your fragrance’s',31,3,279),(6565,'blue brazenness,',32,3,279),(6566,'you exhale the earth,',33,3,279),(6567,'an earthly flower, an earthen',34,3,279),(6568,'smell and your ultraviolet',35,3,279),(6569,'gleam',36,3,279),(6570,'in volcanoes’ faraway fires.',37,3,279),(6571,'Into your loveliness I sink',38,4,279),(6572,'a weathered face,',39,4,279),(6573,'a face that dust has often abused.',40,4,279),(6574,'You deliver',41,4,279),(6575,'something out of the soil.',42,4,279),(6576,'It isn’t simply perfume,',43,4,279),(6577,'nor simply the perfect cry',44,4,279),(6578,'of your entire color, no: it’s',45,4,279),(6579,'a word sprinkled with dew,',46,4,279),(6580,'a flowering wetness with roots.',47,4,279),(6581,'Fragile cluster of starry',48,5,279),(6582,'violets,',49,5,279),(6583,'tiny, mysterious',50,5,279),(6584,'planet',51,5,279),(6585,'of marine phosphorescence,',52,5,279),(6586,'nocturnal bouquet nestled in green leaves:',53,5,279),(6587,'the truth is',54,5,279),(6588,'there is no blue word to express you.',55,5,279),(6589,'Better than any word',56,6,279),(6590,'is the pulse of your scent.',57,6,279),(6591,'When I have you, the passions of love make me stay awake;',1,1,280),(6592,'When you are not with me, I cannot sleep—I moan, I ache;',2,1,280),(6593,'I’m awake the night you stay with me and the night you don’t—',3,1,280),(6594,'But how those two nights are worlds apart, look, for heaven’s sake.',4,1,280),(6595,'While my hair was still cut straight across my forehead',1,1,281),(6596,'I played about the front gate, pulling flowers.',2,1,281),(6597,'You came by on bamboo stilts, playing horse,',3,1,281),(6598,'You walked about my seat, playing with blue plums.',4,1,281),(6599,'And we went on living in the village of Chokan:',5,1,281),(6600,'Two small people, without dislike or suspicion.',6,1,281),(6601,'At fourteen I married My Lord you.',7,2,281),(6602,'I never laughed, being bashful.',8,2,281),(6603,'Lowering my head, I looked at the wall.',9,2,281),(6604,'Called to, a thousand times, I never looked back.',10,2,281),(6605,'At fifteen I stopped scowling,',11,3,281),(6606,'I desired my dust to be mingled with yours',12,3,281),(6607,'Forever and forever and forever.',13,3,281),(6608,'Why should I climb the look out?',14,3,281),(6609,'At sixteen you departed,',15,4,281),(6610,'You went into far Ku-to-yen, by the river of swirling eddies,',16,4,281),(6611,'And you have been gone five months.',17,4,281),(6612,'The monkeys make sorrowful noise overhead.',18,4,281),(6613,'You dragged your feet when you went out.',19,5,281),(6614,'By the gate now, the moss is grown, the different mosses,',20,5,281),(6615,'Too deep to clear them away!',21,5,281),(6616,'The leaves fall early this autumn, in wind.',22,5,281),(6617,'The paired butterflies are already yellow with August',23,5,281),(6618,'Over the grass in the West garden;',24,5,281),(6619,'They hurt me. I grow older.',25,5,281),(6620,'If you are coming down through the narrows of the river Kiang,',26,5,281),(6621,'Please let me know beforehand,',27,5,281),(6622,'And I will come out to meet you',28,5,281),(6623,'As far as Cho-fu-Sa.',29,5,281),(6624,'1.',1,1,282),(6625,'In this room I was born. And I knew I was in the wrong place: the world. I knew pain was to come. I knew it by the persistence of the blade that cut me out. I knew it as every baby born to the world knows it: I came here to die.',2,2,282),(6626,'2.',3,3,282),(6627,'Somewhere a beautiful woman in a story I do not understand is crying. If I strain hard enough I will hear a song in the background. She is holding a letter. She is in love with Peter. I am in love with her.',4,4,282),(6628,'3.',5,5,282),(6629,'Stand on the floor where it’s marked X. I am standing by your side where it’s marked Y. We are a shoulder’s length apart. I’m so close you can almost smell the perfume. If I step ten paces away from you, there could be a garden between us, or a table and some chairs. If I step another 20 paces there could be a house between us. If I continue to walk away from you in this way, tramping through walls and hovering above water, in 80,150,320 steps I will bump into you. I can never get away from you, and will you remember me? Distance brings us closer. There is no distance.',6,6,282),(6630,'4.',7,7,282),(6631,'In 1961 I was in Berlin. It was a dusty Sunday in August. In the radio news was out that Ulbricht had convinced Khrushchev to build a wall around West Berlin. I remember it precisely: By midnight East German troops had sealed off the zonal boundary with barbed wire. The streets along which the barrier ran had been torn up. I lived in that street. It was the day after my birthday. I remember the dust covering the sky. I remember being scared. Father had not returned from the other side. The Kampfgruppen der Arbeiterklasse had orders to shoot anyone who would attempt to defect. Father had not returned.',8,8,282),(6632,'5.',9,9,282),(6633,'Happiness is simple.',10,10,282),(6634,'Sadness forks into many roads.',11,10,282),(6635,'6.',12,11,282),(6636,'Before the time of Christ, Aristotle believed that the earth was the center of the universe because he needed a stationary reference point against which to measure all other motions: a rock falling, a star reeling through the sky, his heart beating against his chest like a club. He needed to believe in certainty, in absolute space. Without it, the world would not be known absolutely. Without it, the world cannot be known.',13,12,282),(6637,'Twenty centuries later Hendrik Lorentz needed to believe that every single molecule in the universe must move through a stationary material called the aether, as every human being in his various turnings must move through God. Scientists looked everywhere for proof of this aether. And everywhere they found nothing.',14,13,282),(6638,'7.',15,14,282),(6639,'I have sometimes been accused of being a bore. I beg to differ: people laugh at my jokes, and I’m handsome. I would like now to talk more about myself: I don’t like going to airports and hospitals. They make me uneasy. In both cases, somebody is always going to leave. I was born in 1983, and have never been to Berlin. But I have a memory of being in Berlin in 1961. I have a memory of something that never happened.',16,15,282),(6640,'I would like to elaborate on myself, but you will understand if I talk instead about the sky in Berlin in 1961: it was covered with dust. There were no birds. There was no sky.',17,16,282),(6641,'8.',18,17,282),(6642,'Memory is brutal because precise.',19,18,282),(6643,'9.',20,19,282),(6644,'She said: give me more space. I said: don’t you love me anymore? She said: give me more space. I said: why? Did I do something wrong? Is there something wrong? Is there someone else? When did you stop loving me? In what precise moment? In what room? What city?',21,20,282),(6645,'I held her tight as one who’s about to lose his own life holds on. Then she said: give me more space. I said: no.',22,21,282),(6646,'10.',23,22,282),(6647,'I have only one purpose: to live intensely.',24,23,282),(6648,'11.',25,24,282),(6649,'I wish I never met you',26,25,282),(6650,'and I wish you never left.',27,25,282),(6651,'You taste like a river in June.',28,26,282),(6652,'12.',29,27,282),(6653,'I’m going to say something important. Look at my face. Ignore my eyes. Just listen to me. But listen only to the timbre of my voice, not to what I am saying. They are different. They are two different rooms. The first is an exhibition of despair, the second only an explanation.',30,28,282),(6654,'The first is all you have to listen to. So listen carefully because I cannot repeat myself:',31,29,282),(6655,'“Everything/ one suspects to be true/ is true.”',32,30,282),(6656,'13.',33,31,282),(6657,'In 1879 a boy is born in Germany. At age five he’d throw a chair at his violin teacher and chase him out. In time he would develop the capacity to withdraw instantaneously from a crowd into loneliness. At twenty-six he would publish his theory of relativity in Annalen der Physik. He looks crazy, but he is certain: there is no aether, no absolute space.',34,32,282),(6658,'14.',35,33,282),(6659,'Sometimes they thought it was the words.',36,34,282),(6660,'What they wanted to say could not be said.',37,34,282),(6661,'They fixed the TV, vacuumed the rug,',38,35,282),(6662,'dusted the furniture, looked out the window.',39,35,282),(6663,'Sometimes she would purposefully lose hold of',40,36,282),(6664,'a plate and it would smash to the floor.',41,36,282),(6665,'Then they would have something to say,',42,37,282),(6666,'only to begin to say it then stop.',43,37,282),(6667,'15.',44,38,282),(6668,'Look at this box. It is empty except for a diary, a book, and this picture in my hand. Now look at this picture. It weighs nothing and occupies almost zero space. I can slip it in anywhere and it will fit: inside the diary, under the box, through a crack on the wall. If I tear it several times, it will occupy a different volume, many and various. It mutates, you see. If I burn it, it will smoke into the air. It will take up a whole expanse.',45,39,282),(6669,'16.',46,40,282),(6670,'How many more times',47,41,282),(6671,'are you going to let the world',48,41,282),(6672,'hurt you?',49,41,282),(6673,'17.',50,42,282),(6674,'My father is an incorrigible storyteller. He would tell the same stories in different ways. I wouldn’t know which ones to believe. So I believed all of them. “There is no story that is not true,” said Uchendu.',51,43,282),(6675,'Father would point at the TV. He would repeat lines, rehearse the beginnings and ends, explicate with his hands the elaborate twists and turns of every road.',52,44,282),(6676,'He said: “I am dying.”',53,45,282),(6677,'I said: “But aren’t all of us dying.”',54,46,282),(6678,'18.',55,47,282),(6679,'And I thought the world',56,48,282),(6680,'was about this leaving,',57,48,282),(6681,'not about anybody’s leaving',58,48,282),(6682,'but about this leaving.',59,48,282),(6683,'The next day it was the same.',60,48,282),(6684,'19.',61,49,282),(6685,'A beautiful woman walks into a room. The room is dark. There are no windows. There is one light bulb but any time now it will go off. I pretend not to notice and look away, my heart beating against my chest like a club. If I strain hard enough I will hear a song in the background. What other forms of happiness are there than this?',62,50,282),(6686,'20.',63,51,282),(6687,'In 1989 the Berlin wall falls down.',64,52,282),(6688,'21.',65,53,282),(6689,'I believe in love only when it rains.',66,54,282),(6690,'22.',67,55,282),(6691,'To appreciate the value of land, one need only look into a painting: so much beauty. Buying land means buying the layers of beauty directly above it. It means buying the sky above it. And the birds above it, the clouds, the gods.',68,56,282),(6692,'In truth you are buying a corner of the universe. You are saying: this is my room. You are saying: I live here. Here I exist.',69,57,282),(6693,'23.',70,58,282),(6694,'Your sadness is immaterial. You did',71,59,282),(6695,'not come into the world to be happy.',72,59,282),(6696,'You came to suffer/survive.',73,61,282),(6697,'24.',74,62,282),(6698,'How many words have you spoken in your life?',75,63,282),(6699,'How many did you mean?',76,63,282),(6700,'How many did you understand?',77,63,282),(6701,'25.',78,64,282),(6702,'Somebody picks up a phone. He dials a number. His voice travels a thousand miles into another country. On the other end somebody picks up and hears the voice. Who is this?– This is me. The phone is hung up. The voice travels back a thousand miles.',79,65,282),(6703,'Elsewhere somebody picks up a phone and before he could dial forgets the number.',80,66,282),(6704,'26.',81,67,282),(6705,'Sometimes wars are waged because there are too many people in too few rooms.',82,68,282),(6706,'27.',83,69,282),(6707,'Memory is incomplete–lost.',84,70,282),(6708,'The world is incomplete–vanishing.',85,70,282),(6709,'Nothing more happens. You open your eyes and it’s over.',86,71,282),(6710,'Memory is brutal.',87,72,282),(6711,'Memory is precise.',88,72,282),(6712,'28.',89,73,282),(6713,'In the next room people I do not know are talking with hushed voices. Their secret slips out the window like a cat. It is raining, and I press my ear to the wall. I imagine that one of them is smoking a cigarette. I imagine that one of them is covering his mouth in surprise.',90,74,282),(6714,'29.',91,75,282),(6715,'When my aunt died the doctors said the fat clogged her arteries. Every week she visited the hospital, and every week the vein on her wrist had to be ripped out so a catheter could be stuck into her body to suck out her blood. You could see the plasma pass through a filter and then back to the body. If you put your ear to her wrist you would hear her heart.',92,76,282),(6716,'Before my uncle died the heart attacks were so excruciating he said he’d prefer to just die. They transported him to the hospital, and on the way to the emergency room his heart gave. Mother said my uncle ate too much pork and drank too much beer. She wonders if he’s going to be happy in heaven.',93,77,282),(6717,'30.',94,78,282),(6718,'In some house in some province in some country in some novel there is a story of a man a father a child a lover who dies because of too much sadness.',95,79,282),(6719,'31.',96,80,282),(6720,'Nobody thought that what was wrong was the love.',97,81,282),(6721,'32.',98,82,282),(6722,'She said: give me more space.',99,83,282),(6723,'That time I thought I was in love',1,1,283),(6724,'and calmly said so',2,1,283),(6725,'was not much different from the time',3,1,283),(6726,'I was truly in love',4,1,283),(6727,'and slept poorly and spoke out loud',5,1,283),(6728,'to the wall',6,1,283),(6729,'and discovered the hidden genius',7,1,283),(6730,'of my hands.',8,1,283),(6731,'And the times I felt less in love,',9,1,283),(6732,'less than someone,',10,1,283),(6733,'were, to be honest, not so different',11,1,283),(6734,'either.',12,1,283),(6735,'Each was ridiculous in its own way',13,1,283),(6736,'and each was tender, yes,',14,1,283),(6737,'sometimes even the false is tender.',15,1,283),(6738,'I am astounded',16,1,283),(6739,'by the various kisses we’re capable of.',17,1,283),(6740,'Each from different heights',18,1,283),(6741,'diminished, which is simply the law.',19,1,283),(6742,'And the big bruise',20,1,283),(6743,'from the longer fall looked perfectly white',21,1,283),(6744,'in a few years.',22,1,283),(6745,'That astounded me most of all.',23,1,283),(6746,'is a system of posture for wood.',1,1,284),(6747,'A way of not falling down',2,1,284),(6748,'for twigs that happens',3,1,284),(6749,'to benefit birds. I don’t know.',4,1,284),(6750,'I’m staring at a tree,',5,1,284),(6751,'at yellow leaves',6,1,284),(6752,'threshed by wind and want you',7,1,284),(6753,'reading this to be staring',8,1,284),(6754,'at the same tree. I could',9,1,284),(6755,'cut it down and laminate it',10,1,284),(6756,'or ask you to live with me',11,1,284),(6757,'on the stairs with the window',12,1,284),(6758,'keeping an eye on the maple',13,1,284),(6759,'but I think your real life',14,1,284),(6760,'would miss you. The story',15,1,284),(6761,'here is that all morning',16,1,284),(6762,'I’ve thought of the statement',17,1,284),(6763,'that art is about loneliness',18,1,284),(6764,'while watching golden leaves',19,1,284),(6765,'become unhinged.',20,1,284),(6766,'By ones or in bunches',21,1,284),(6767,'they tumble and hang',22,1,284),(6768,'for a moment like a dress',23,1,284),(6769,'in the dryer.',24,1,284),(6770,'At the laundromat',25,1,284),(6771,'you’ve seen the arms',26,1,284),(6772,'thrown out to catch the shirt',27,1,284),(6773,'flying the other way.',28,1,284),(6774,'Just as you’ve stood',29,1,284),(6775,'at the bottom of a gray sky',30,1,284),(6776,'in a pile of leaves',31,1,284),(6777,'trying to lick them',32,1,284),(6778,'back into place.',33,1,284),(6779,'In the aftermath of calculus',1,1,285),(6780,'your toast fell butter-side down.',2,1,285),(6781,'Squirrels swarmed the lawns',3,2,285),(6782,'in flight patterns. The hovercraft',4,2,285),(6783,'helped the waves along. From',5,3,285),(6784,'every corner there was perspective.',6,3,285),(6785,'On the billboards the diamonds',7,4,285),(6786,'were real, in the stores, only zirconia.',8,4,285),(6787,'I cc’ed you. I let you know.',9,5,285),(6788,'Sat down to write the Black Ice Memo.',10,5,285),(6789,'Dinner would be meager &',11,6,285),(6790,'reminiscent of next week’s lunch.',12,6,285),(6791,'So what if I sat on the sectional?',13,7,285),(6792,'As always I was beside myself.',14,7,285),(6793,'If when my wife is sleeping',1,1,286),(6794,'and the baby and Kathleen',2,1,286),(6795,'are sleeping',3,1,286),(6796,'and the sun is a flame-white disc',4,1,286),(6797,'in silken mists',5,1,286),(6798,'above shining trees,—',6,1,286),(6799,'if I in my north room',7,1,286),(6800,'dance naked, grotesquely',8,1,286),(6801,'before my mirror',9,1,286),(6802,'waving my shirt round my head',10,1,286),(6803,'and singing softly to myself:',11,1,286),(6804,'“I am lonely, lonely.',12,1,286),(6805,'I was born to be lonely,',13,1,286),(6806,'I am best so!”',14,1,286),(6807,'If I admire my arms, my face,',15,1,286),(6808,'my shoulders, flanks, buttocks',16,1,286),(6809,'against the yellow drawn shades,—',17,1,286),(6810,'Who shall say I am not',18,2,286),(6811,'the happy genius of my household?',19,2,286),(6812,'In the worst hour of the worst season',1,1,287),(6813,'of the worst year of a whole people',2,1,287),(6814,'a man set out from the workhouse with his wife.',3,1,287),(6815,'He was walking — they were both walking — north.',4,1,287),(6816,'She was sick with famine fever and could not keep up.',5,2,287),(6817,'He lifted her and put her on his back.',6,2,287),(6818,'He walked like that west and west and north.',7,2,287),(6819,'Until at nightfall under freezing stars they arrived.',8,2,287),(6820,'In the morning they were both found dead.',9,3,287),(6821,'Of cold. Of hunger. Of the toxins of a whole history.',10,3,287),(6822,'But her feet were held against his breastbone.',11,3,287),(6823,'The last heat of his flesh was his last gift to her.',12,3,287),(6824,'Let no love poem ever come to this threshold.',13,4,287),(6825,'There is no place here for the inexact',14,4,287),(6826,'praise of the easy graces and sensuality of the body.',15,4,287),(6827,'There is only time for this merciless inventory:',16,4,287),(6828,'Their death together in the winter of 1847.',17,5,287),(6829,'Also what they suffered. How they lived.',18,5,287),(6830,'And what there is between a man and woman.',19,5,287),(6831,'And in which darkness it can best be proved.',20,5,287),(6832,'The people of my time are passing away: my',1,1,288),(6833,'wife is baking for a funeral, a 60-year-old who',2,1,288),(6834,'died suddenly, when the phone rings, and it’s',3,2,288),(6835,'Ruth we care so much about in intensive care:',4,2,288),(6836,'it was once weddings that came so thick and',5,3,288),(6837,'fast, and then, first babies, such a hullabaloo:',6,3,288),(6838,'now, it’s this that and the other and somebody',7,4,288),(6839,'else gone or on the brink: well, we never',8,4,288),(6840,'thought we would live forever (although we did)',9,5,288),(6841,'and now it looks like we won’t: some of us',10,5,288),(6842,'are losing a leg to diabetes, some don’t know',11,6,288),(6843,'what they went downstairs for, some know that',12,6,288),(6844,'a hired watchful person is around, some like',13,7,288),(6845,'to touch the cane tip into something steady,',14,7,288),(6846,'so nice: we have already lost so many,',15,8,288),(6847,'brushed the loss of ourselves ourselves: our',16,8,288),(6848,'address books for so long a slow scramble now',17,9,288),(6849,'are palimpsests, scribbles and scratches: our',18,9,288),(6850,'index cards for Christmases, birthdays,',19,10,288),(6851,'Halloweens drop clean away into sympathies:',20,10,288),(6852,'at the same time we are getting used to so',21,11,288),(6853,'many leaving, we are hanging on with a grip',22,11,288),(6854,'to the ones left: we are not giving up on the',23,12,288),(6855,'congestive heart failure or brain tumors, on',24,12,288),(6856,'the nice old men left in empty houses or on',25,13,288),(6857,'the widows who decide to travel a lot: we',26,13,288),(6858,'think the sun may shine someday when we’ll',27,14,288),(6859,'drink wine together and think of what used to',28,14,288),(6860,'be: until we die we will remember every',29,15,288),(6861,'single thing, recall every word, love every',30,15,288),(6862,'loss: then we will, as we must, leave it to',31,16,288),(6863,'others to love, love that can grow brighter',32,16,288),(6864,'and deeper till the very end, gaining strength',33,17,288),(6865,'and getting more precious all the way…',34,17,288),(6866,'While we stood in the window and wept.',1,1,289),(6867,'Well, not wept but sniveled',2,1,289),(6868,'A little and wiped our eyes',3,1,289),(6869,'On a coat sleeve. What',4,1,289),(6870,'Were we thinking, I wonder now.',5,2,289),(6871,'It was fall.',6,2,289),(6872,'It was clear. A boat sat',7,2,289),(6873,'Throwing a reflection of itself',8,2,289),(6874,'Onto a body of water.',9,3,289),(6875,'It sits and sits. As the ornament is',10,3,289),(6876,'A monument so is the bird in the sky',11,3,289),(6877,'One with the eyes',12,3,289),(6878,'That were taking it all in.',13,4,289),(6879,'An argument for a theory',14,4,289),(6880,'Of all-in-oneness. All as all. Imagine',15,4,289),(6881,'The “I” as a camera turned on',16,4,289),(6882,'To a mirror.',17,5,289),(6883,'Where the face in the mirror',18,5,289),(6884,'Isn’t that of the one looking in',19,5,289),(6885,'But of Jacqueline Onassis',20,5,289),(6886,'Or someone else famous',21,6,289),(6887,'Beyond saying.',22,6,289),(6888,'A full fifteen minutes.',23,6,289),(6889,'It’s in the nature of looking',24,6,289),(6890,'At the future while married to the moment.',25,7,289),(6891,'It’s Disney’s “Mickey',26,7,289),(6892,'And The Broken Mirror Mishap”',27,7,289),(6893,'All over again.',28,7,289),(6894,'The jagged glass reforming',29,8,289),(6895,'Into a narrative where',30,8,289),(6896,'The core event keeps clicking into place',31,8,289),(6897,'As a great, a terrible, shattering.',32,8,289),(6898,'This thought leads straight',33,9,289),(6899,'To the darkest thought: I miss home.',34,9,289),(6900,'Like a child misses home, or',35,9,289),(6901,'A line drawing of a Quebec Marmot.',36,9,289),(6902,'That’s what happens.',37,10,289),(6903,'Meanwhile, the madness.',38,10,289),(6904,'The brain-gray concourse.',39,10,289),(6905,'The utter factuality of the few true things.',40,10,289),(6906,'i carry your heart with me(i carry it in',1,1,290),(6907,'my heart)i am never without it(anywhere',2,1,290),(6908,'i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done',3,1,290),(6909,'by only me is your doing,my darling)',4,1,290),(6910,'i fear',5,1,290),(6911,'no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want',6,1,290),(6912,'no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)',7,1,290),(6913,'and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant',8,1,290),(6914,'and whatever a sun will always sing is you',9,1,290),(6915,'here is the deepest secret nobody knows',10,2,290),(6916,'(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud',11,2,290),(6917,'and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows',12,2,290),(6918,'higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)',13,2,290),(6919,'and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart',14,2,290),(6920,'i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)',15,3,290),(6921,'Morning at last: there in the snow',1,1,291),(6922,'Your small blunt footprints come and go.',2,1,291),(6923,'Night has left no more to show,',3,1,291),(6924,'Not the candle, the half-drunk wine,',4,2,291),(6925,'Or touching joy; only this sign',5,2,291),(6926,'Of your life walking into mine.',6,2,291),(6927,'But when they vanish with the rain',7,3,291),(6928,'What morning woke to will remain',8,3,291),(6929,'Whether as happiness or pain.',9,3,291),(6930,'I think of you',1,1,292),(6931,'?and the continents brilliant and arid',2,1,292),(6932,'and the slender heart you are sharing my share of with the American air',3,1,292),(6933,'?as the lungs I have felt sonorously subside slowly greet each morning',4,1,292),(6934,'and your brown lashes flutter revealing two perfect dawns colored by New York ??',5,1,292),(6935,'see a vast bridge stretching to the humbled outskirts with only you',6,2,292),(6936,'?Standing on the edge of the purple like an only tree',7,2,292),(6937,'and in Toledo the olive groves’ soft blue look at the hills with silver',8,2,292),(6938,'?like glasses like and old ladies hair',9,2,292),(6939,'It’s well known that God and I don’t get along together',10,2,292),(6940,'?It’s just a view of the brass works for me, I don’t care about the Moors',11,2,292),(6941,'seen through you the great works of death, you are greater ??',12,2,292),(6942,'you are smiling, you are emptying the world so we can be alone. ?',13,3,292),(6943,'Don’t talk to me of love. I’ve had an earful',1,1,293),(6944,'And I get tearful when I’ve downed a drink or two.',2,1,293),(6945,'I’m one of your talking wounded.',3,1,293),(6946,'I’m a hostage. I’m maroonded.',4,1,293),(6947,'But I’m in Paris with you.',5,1,293),(6948,'Yes I’m angry at the way I’ve been bamboozled',6,2,293),(6949,'And resentful at the mess I’ve been through.',7,2,293),(6950,'I admit I’m on the rebound',8,2,293),(6951,'And I don’t care where are we bound.',9,2,293),(6952,'I’m in Paris with you.',10,2,293),(6953,'Do you mind if we do not go to the Louvre',11,3,293),(6954,'If we say sod off to sodding Notre Dame,',12,3,293),(6955,'If we skip the Champs Elysées',13,3,293),(6956,'And remain here in this sleazy',14,3,293),(6957,'Old hotel room',15,4,293),(6958,'Doing this and that',16,4,293),(6959,'To what and whom',17,4,293),(6960,'Learning who you are,',18,4,293),(6961,'Learning what I am.',19,4,293),(6962,'Don’t talk to me of love. Let’s talk of Paris,',20,5,293),(6963,'The little bit of Paris in our view.',21,5,293),(6964,'There’s that crack across the ceiling',22,5,293),(6965,'And the hotel walls are peeling',23,5,293),(6966,'And I’m in Paris with you.',24,5,293),(6967,'Don’t talk to me of love. Let’s talk of Paris.',25,6,293),(6968,'I’m in Paris with the slightest thing you do.',26,6,293),(6969,'I’m in Paris with your eyes, your mouth,',27,6,293),(6970,'I’m in Paris with… all points south.',28,6,293),(6971,'Am I embarrassing you?',29,6,293),(6972,'I’m in Paris with you.',30,6,293),(6973,'There were the roses, in the rain.?',1,1,294),(6974,'Don’t cut them, I pleaded.?',2,1,294),(6975,'They won’t last, she said.?',3,1,294),(6976,'But they’re so beautiful?',4,1,294),(6977,'where they are.?',5,1,294),(6978,'Agh, we were all beautiful once, she said,?',6,1,294),(6979,'and cut them and gave them to me?',7,1,294),(6980,'in my hand.',8,1,294),(6981,'I could never say anything about my mother:',1,1,295),(6982,'how she repeated, you’ll regret it someday,',2,1,295),(6983,'when I’m not around anymore, and how I didn’t believe',3,1,295),(6984,'in either “I’m not” or “anymore,”',4,1,295),(6985,'how I liked to watch as she read bestsellers,',5,1,295),(6986,'always turning to the last chapter first,',6,1,295),(6987,'how in the kitchen, convinced it’s not',7,1,295),(6988,'her proper place, she made Sunday coffee,',8,1,295),(6989,'or, even worse, filet of cod,',9,1,295),(6990,'how she studied the mirror while expecting guests,',10,1,295),(6991,'making the face that best kept her',11,1,295),(6992,'from seeing herself as she was (I take',12,1,295),(6993,'after her here and in a few other weaknesses),',13,1,295),(6994,'how she went on at length about things',14,1,295),(6995,'that weren’t her strong suit and how I stupidly',15,1,295),(6996,'teased her, for example, when she',16,1,295),(6997,'compared herself to Beethoven going deaf,',17,1,295),(6998,'and I said, cruelly, but you know he',18,1,295),(6999,'had talent, and how she forgave everything',19,1,295),(7000,'and how I remember that, and how I flew from Houston',20,1,295),(7001,'to her funeral and couldn’t say anything',21,1,295),(7002,'and still can’t.',22,1,295),(7003,'It seems we’ve left skin',1,1,296),(7004,'in each other’s lungs. I should have',2,1,296),(7005,'looked under your bed skirt',3,2,296),(7006,'for my wallet, but how',4,2,296),(7007,'could credit cards compare',5,3,296),(7008,'to the sneeze after we’ve parted?',6,3,296),(7009,'Gone and still you make me',7,4,296),(7010,'reach for a tissue—still my palms',8,4,296),(7011,'turn circles in the red',9,5,296),(7012,'breakwater of your heartbeat.',10,5,296),(7013,'I want to tell you, I have nothing',11,6,296),(7014,'but respect for your ribcage',12,6,296),(7015,'now that we both know',13,7,296),(7016,'it’s not big enough to hold us.',14,7,296),(7017,'is even more fun than going to San Sebastian, Irún, Hendaye, Biarritz,',1,1,297),(7018,'Bayonne',2,1,297),(7019,'or being sick to my stomach on the Travesera de Gracia in Barcelona',3,1,297),(7020,'partly because in your orange shirt you look like a better happier',4,1,297),(7021,'St. Sebastian',5,1,297),(7022,'partly because of my love for you, partly because of your love for',6,1,297),(7023,'yoghurt',7,1,297),(7024,'partly because of the fluorescent orange tulips around the birches',8,1,297),(7025,'partly because of the secrecy our smiles take on before people and',9,1,297),(7026,'statuary',10,1,297),(7027,'it is hard to believe when I’m with you that there can be anything',11,1,297),(7028,'as still',12,1,297),(7029,'as solemn as unpleasantly definitive as statuary when right in front',13,1,297),(7030,'of it',14,1,297),(7031,'in the warm New York 4 o’clock light we are drifting back and forth',15,1,297),(7032,'between each other like a tree breathing through its spectacles',16,1,297),(7033,'and the portrait show seems to have no faces in it at all, just paint',17,2,297),(7034,'you suddenly wonder why in the world anyone ever did them',18,2,297),(7035,'I look',19,3,297),(7036,'at you and I would rather look at you than all the portraits in',20,3,297),(7037,'the world',21,3,297),(7038,'except possibly for the Polish Rider occasionally and anyway it’s',22,3,297),(7039,'in the Frick',23,3,297),(7040,'which thank heavens you haven’t gone to yet so we can go together',24,3,297),(7041,'the first time',25,3,297),(7042,'and the fact that you move so beautifully more or less takes care',26,3,297),(7043,'of Futurism',27,3,297),(7044,'just as at home I never think of the Nude Descending a Staircase or',28,3,297),(7045,'at a rehearsal a single drawing of Leonardo or Michelangelo that',29,3,297),(7046,'used to wow me',30,3,297),(7047,'and what good does all the research of the Impressionists do them',31,3,297),(7048,'when they never got the right person to stand near the tree when',32,3,297),(7049,'the sun sank',33,3,297),(7050,'or for that matter Marino Marini when he didn’t pick the rider',34,3,297),(7051,'as carefully',35,3,297),(7052,'as the horse',36,3,297),(7053,'it seems they were all cheated of some marvelous experience',37,4,297),(7054,'which is not going to go wasted on me which is why I am telling you',38,4,297),(7055,'about it',39,4,297),(7056,'This morning the green fists of the peonies are getting ready',1,1,298),(7057,'to break my heart',2,1,298),(7058,'as the sun rises,',3,1,298),(7059,'as the sun strokes them with his old, buttery fingers',4,1,298),(7060,'and they open —',5,2,298),(7061,'pools of lace,',6,2,298),(7062,'white and pink —',7,2,298),(7063,'and all day the black ants climb over them,',8,2,298),(7064,'boring their deep and mysterious holes',9,3,298),(7065,'into the curls,',10,3,298),(7066,'craving the sweet sap,',11,3,298),(7067,'taking it away',12,3,298),(7068,'to their dark, underground cities —',13,4,298),(7069,'and all day',14,4,298),(7070,'under the shifty wind,',15,4,298),(7071,'as in a dance to the great wedding,',16,4,298),(7072,'the flowers bend their bright bodies,',17,5,298),(7073,'and tip their fragrance to the air,',18,5,298),(7074,'and rise,',19,5,298),(7075,'their red stems holding',20,5,298),(7076,'all that dampness and recklessness',21,6,298),(7077,'gladly and lightly,',22,6,298),(7078,'and there it is again —',23,6,298),(7079,'beauty the brave, the exemplary,',24,6,298),(7080,'blazing open.',25,7,298),(7081,'Do you love this world?',26,7,298),(7082,'Do you cherish your humble and silky life?',27,7,298),(7083,'Do you adore the green grass, with its terror beneath?',28,7,298),(7084,'Do you also hurry, half-dressed and barefoot, into the garden,',29,8,298),(7085,'and softly,',30,8,298),(7086,'and exclaiming of their dearness,',31,8,298),(7087,'fill your arms with the white and pink flowers,',32,8,298),(7088,'with their honeyed heaviness, their lush trembling,',33,9,298),(7089,'their eagerness',34,9,298),(7090,'to be wild and perfect for a moment, before they are',35,9,298),(7091,'nothing, forever?',36,9,298),(7092,'A life should leave',1,1,299),(7093,'deep tracks:',2,1,299),(7094,'ruts where she',3,1,299),(7095,'went out and back',4,1,299),(7096,'to get the mail',5,1,299),(7097,'or move the hose',6,1,299),(7098,'around the yard;',7,1,299),(7099,'where she used to',8,1,299),(7100,'stand before the sink,',9,1,299),(7101,'a worn-out place;',10,1,299),(7102,'beneath her hand',11,1,299),(7103,'the china knobs',12,1,299),(7104,'rubbed down to',13,1,299),(7105,'white pastilles;',14,1,299),(7106,'the switch she',15,1,299),(7107,'used to feel for',16,1,299),(7108,'in the dark',17,1,299),(7109,'almost erased.',18,1,299),(7110,'Her things should',19,1,299),(7111,'keep her marks.',20,1,299),(7112,'The passage',21,1,299),(7113,'of a life should show;',22,1,299),(7114,'it should abrade.',23,1,299),(7115,'And when life stops,',24,1,299),(7116,'a certain space–',25,1,299),(7117,'however small–',26,1,299),(7118,'should be left scarred',27,1,299),(7119,'by the grand and',28,1,299),(7120,'damaging parade.',29,1,299),(7121,'Things shouldn’t be so hard.',30,1,299),(7122,'You can',1,1,300),(7123,'die for it–',2,1,300),(7124,'an idea,',3,1,300),(7125,'or the world. People',4,1,300),(7126,'have done so,',5,2,300),(7127,'brilliantly,',6,2,300),(7128,'letting',7,2,300),(7129,'their small bodies be bound',8,2,300),(7130,'to the stake,',9,3,300),(7131,'creating',10,3,300),(7132,'an unforgettable',11,3,300),(7133,'fury of light. But',12,3,300),(7134,'this morning,',13,4,300),(7135,'climbing the familiar hills',14,4,300),(7136,'in the familiar',15,4,300),(7137,'fabric of dawn, I thought',16,4,300),(7138,'of China,',17,5,300),(7139,'and India',18,6,300),(7140,'and Europe, and I thought',19,6,300),(7141,'how the sun',20,6,300),(7142,'blazes',21,7,300),(7143,'for everyone just',22,7,300),(7144,'so joyfully',23,7,300),(7145,'as it rises',24,7,300),(7146,'under the lashes',25,8,300),(7147,'of my own eyes, and I thought',26,8,300),(7148,'I am so many!',27,8,300),(7149,'What is my name?',28,8,300),(7150,'What is the name',29,9,300),(7151,'of the deep breath I would take',30,9,300),(7152,'over and over',31,9,300),(7153,'for all of us? Call it',32,9,300),(7154,'whatever you want, it is',33,10,300),(7155,'happiness, it is another one',34,10,300),(7156,'of the ways to enter',35,10,300),(7157,'fire.',36,10,300),(7158,'The evening was the same as any other.',1,1,301),(7159,'I came out and stood on the step.',2,1,301),(7160,'The suburb was closed in the weather',3,1,301),(7161,'of an early spring and the shallow tips',4,2,301),(7162,'of washed-out yellows of narcissi',5,2,301),(7163,'resisted dusk. And crocuses and snowdrops.',6,2,301),(7164,'I stood there and felt the melancholy',7,3,301),(7165,'of growing older in such a season,',8,3,301),(7166,'when all I could be certain of was simply',9,3,301),(7167,'in this time of fragrance and refrain,',10,4,301),(7168,'whatever else might flower before the fruit,',11,4,301),(7169,'and be renewed, I would not. Not again.',12,4,301),(7170,'A car splashed by in the twilight.',13,5,301),(7171,'Peat smoke stayed in the windless',14,5,301),(7172,'air overhead and I might have missed:',15,5,301),(7173,'a presence. Suddenly. In the very place',16,6,301),(7174,'where I would stand in other dusks, and look',17,6,301),(7175,'to pick out my child from the distance,',18,6,301),(7176,'was a shepherdess, her smile cracked,',19,7,301),(7177,'her arm injured from the mantelpieces',20,7,301),(7178,'and pastorals where she posed with her crook.',21,7,301),(7179,'Then I turned and saw in the spaces',22,8,301),(7180,'of the night sky constellations appear,',23,8,301),(7181,'one by one, over roof-tops and houses,',24,8,301),(7182,'and Cassiopeia trapped: stabbed where',25,9,301),(7183,'her thigh met her groin and her hand',26,9,301),(7184,'her glittering wrist, with the pin-point of a star.',27,9,301),(7185,'And by the road where rain made standing',28,10,301),(7186,'pools of water underneath cherry trees,',29,10,301),(7187,'and blossoms swam on their images,',30,10,301),(7188,'was a mermaid with invented tresses,',31,11,301),(7189,'her breasts printed with the salt of it and all',32,11,301),(7190,'the desolation of the North Sea in her face.',33,11,301),(7191,'I went nearer. They were disappearing.',34,12,301),(7192,'Dusk had turned to night but in the air –',35,12,301),(7193,'did I imagine it? – a voice was saying:',36,12,301),(7194,'This is what language did to us. Here',37,13,301),(7195,'is the wound, the silence, the wretchedness',38,13,301),(7196,'of tides and hillsides and stars where',39,13,301),(7197,'we languish in a grammar of sighs,',40,14,301),(7198,'in the high-minded search for euphony,',41,14,301),(7199,'in the midnight rhetoric of poesie.',42,14,301),(7200,'We cannot sweat here. Our skin is icy.',43,15,301),(7201,'We cannot breed here. Our wombs are empty.',44,15,301),(7202,'Help us to escape youth and beauty.',45,15,301),(7203,'Write us out of the poem. Make us human',46,16,301),(7204,'in cadences of change and mortal pain',47,16,301),(7205,'and words we can grow old and die in.',48,16,301),(7206,'Out of the sump rise the marigolds.',1,1,302),(7207,'From the rim of the marsh, muslin with mosquitoes,',2,1,302),(7208,'rises the egret, in his cloud-cloth.',3,1,302),(7209,'Through the soft rain, like mist, and mica,',4,1,302),(7210,'the withered acres of moss begin again.',5,1,302),(7211,'When I have to die, I would like to die',6,2,302),(7212,'on a day of rain–',7,2,302),(7213,'long rain, slow rain, the kind you think will never end.',8,2,302),(7214,'And I would like to have whatever little ceremony there might be',9,3,302),(7215,'take place while the rain is shoveled and shoveled out of the sky,',10,3,302),(7216,'and anyone who comes must travel, slowly and with thought,',11,4,302),(7217,'as around the edges of the great swamp.',12,4,302),(7218,'A mermaid found a swimming lad,',1,1,303),(7219,'Picked him for her own,',2,1,303),(7220,'Pressed her body to his body,',3,1,303),(7221,'Laughed; and plunging down',4,1,303),(7222,'Forgot in cruel happiness',5,1,303),(7223,'That even lovers drown.',6,1,303),(7224,'In sixth grade Mrs. Walker',1,1,304),(7225,'slapped the back of my head',2,1,304),(7226,'and made me stand in the corner',3,1,304),(7227,'for not knowing the difference',4,1,304),(7228,'between persimmon and precision.',5,1,304),(7229,'How to choose',6,1,304),(7230,'persimmons. This is precision.',7,2,304),(7231,'Ripe ones are soft and brown-spotted.',8,2,304),(7232,'Sniff the bottoms. The sweet one',9,2,304),(7233,'will be fragrant. How to eat:',10,2,304),(7234,'put the knife away, lay down newspaper.',11,2,304),(7235,'Peel the skin tenderly, not to tear the meat.',12,2,304),(7236,'Chew the skin, suck it,',13,2,304),(7237,'and swallow. Now, eat',14,2,304),(7238,'the meat of the fruit,',15,2,304),(7239,'so sweet,',16,2,304),(7240,'all of it, to the heart.',17,2,304),(7241,'Donna undresses, her stomach is white.',18,3,304),(7242,'In the yard, dewy and shivering',19,3,304),(7243,'with crickets, we lie naked,',20,3,304),(7244,'face-up, face-down.',21,3,304),(7245,'I teach her Chinese.',22,3,304),(7246,'Crickets: chiu chiu. Dew: I’ve forgotten.',23,3,304),(7247,'Naked: I’ve forgotten.',24,3,304),(7248,'Ni, wo: you and me.',25,3,304),(7249,'I part her legs,',26,3,304),(7250,'remember to tell her',27,3,304),(7251,'she is beautiful as the moon.',28,3,304),(7252,'Other words',29,4,304),(7253,'that got me into trouble were',30,4,304),(7254,'fight and fright, wren and yarn.',31,4,304),(7255,'Fight was what I did when I was frightened,',32,4,304),(7256,'Fright was what I felt when I was fighting.',33,4,304),(7257,'Wrens are small, plain birds,',34,4,304),(7258,'yarn is what one knits with.',35,4,304),(7259,'Wrens are soft as yarn.',36,4,304),(7260,'My mother made birds out of yarn.',37,4,304),(7261,'I loved to watch her tie the stuff;',38,4,304),(7262,'a bird, a rabbit, a wee man.',39,4,304),(7263,'Mrs. Walker brought a persimmon to class',40,5,304),(7264,'and cut it up',41,5,304),(7265,'so everyone could taste',42,5,304),(7266,'a Chinese apple. Knowing',43,5,304),(7267,'it wasn’t ripe or sweet, I didn’t eat',44,5,304),(7268,'but watched the other faces.',45,5,304),(7269,'My mother said every persimmon has a sun',46,6,304),(7270,'inside, something golden, glowing,',47,6,304),(7271,'warm as my face.',48,6,304),(7272,'Once, in the cellar, I found two wrapped in newspaper,',49,7,304),(7273,'forgotten and not yet ripe.',50,7,304),(7274,'I took them and set both on my bedroom windowsill,',51,7,304),(7275,'where each morning a cardinal',52,7,304),(7276,'sang, The sun, the sun.',53,7,304),(7277,'Finally understanding',54,8,304),(7278,'he was going blind,',55,8,304),(7279,'my father sat up all one night',56,8,304),(7280,'waiting for a song, a ghost.',57,8,304),(7281,'I gave him the persimmons,',58,8,304),(7282,'swelled, heavy as sadness,',59,8,304),(7283,'and sweet as love.',60,8,304),(7284,'This year, in the muddy lighting',61,9,304),(7285,'of my parents’ cellar, I rummage, looking',62,9,304),(7286,'for something I lost.',63,9,304),(7287,'My father sits on the tired, wooden stairs,',64,9,304),(7288,'black cane between his knees,',65,9,304),(7289,'hand over hand, gripping the handle.',66,9,304),(7290,'He’s so happy that I’ve come home.',67,9,304),(7291,'I ask how his eyes are, a stupid question.',68,9,304),(7292,'All gone, he answers.',69,9,304),(7293,'Under some blankets, I find a box.',70,10,304),(7294,'Inside the box I find three scrolls.',71,10,304),(7295,'I sit beside him and untie',72,10,304),(7296,'three paintings by my father:',73,10,304),(7297,'Hibiscus leaf and a white flower.',74,10,304),(7298,'Two cats preening.',75,10,304),(7299,'Two persimmons, so full they want to drop from the cloth.',76,10,304),(7300,'He raises both hands to touch the cloth,',77,11,304),(7301,'asks, Which is this?',78,11,304),(7302,'This is persimmons, Father.',79,12,304),(7303,'Oh, the feel of the wolftail on the silk, the strength, the tense precision in the wrist. I painted them hundreds of times eyes closed. These I painted blind. Some things never leave a person: scent of the hair of one you love, the texture of persimmons, in your palm, the ripe weight.',80,13,304),(7304,'‘Interesting, but futile,’ said his diary,',1,1,305),(7305,'Where day by day his movements were recorded',2,1,305),(7306,'And nothing but his loves received inquiry;',3,1,305),(7307,'He knew, of course, no actions were rewarded,',4,1,305),(7308,'There were no prizes: though the eye could see',5,1,305),(7309,'Wide beauty in a motion or a pause,',6,1,305),(7310,'It need expect no lasting salary',7,1,305),(7311,'Beyond the bounds’ momentary applause.',8,1,305),(7312,'He lived for years and never was surprised:',9,2,305),(7313,'A member of his foolish, lying race',10,2,305),(7314,'Explained away their vices: realised',11,2,305),(7315,'It was a gift that he possessed alone:',12,2,305),(7316,'To look the world directly in the face;',13,2,305),(7317,'The face he did not see to be his own.',14,2,305),(7318,'Lovely one,',1,1,306),(7319,'just as on the cool stone',2,1,306),(7320,'of the spring, the water',3,1,306),(7321,'opens a wide flash of foam,',4,1,306),(7322,'so is the smile of your face,',5,1,306),(7323,'lovely one.',6,1,306),(7324,'Lovely one,',7,2,306),(7325,'with delicate hands and slender feet',8,2,306),(7326,'like a silver pony,',9,2,306),(7327,'walking, flower of the world,',10,2,306),(7328,'thus I see you,',11,2,306),(7329,'lovely one.',12,2,306),(7330,'Lovely one,',13,3,306),(7331,'with a nest of copper entangled',14,3,306),(7332,'on your head, a nest',15,3,306),(7333,'the color of dark honey',16,3,306),(7334,'where my heart burns and rests,',17,3,306),(7335,'lovely one.',18,3,306),(7336,'Lovely one,',19,4,306),(7337,'your eyes are too big for your face,',20,4,306),(7338,'your eyes are too big for the earth.',21,4,306),(7339,'There are countries, there are rivers,',22,5,306),(7340,'in your eyes,',23,5,306),(7341,'my country is your eyes,',24,5,306),(7342,'I walk through them,',25,5,306),(7343,'they light the world',26,5,306),(7344,'through which I walk,',27,5,306),(7345,'lovely one.',28,5,306),(7346,'Lovely one,',29,6,306),(7347,'your breasts are like two loaves made',30,6,306),(7348,'of grainy earth and golden moon,',31,6,306),(7349,'lovely one.',32,6,306),(7350,'Lovely one,',33,7,306),(7351,'your waist,',34,7,306),(7352,'my arm shaped it like a river when',35,7,306),(7353,'it flowed a thousand years through your sweet body,',36,7,306),(7354,'lovely one.',37,7,306),(7355,'Lovely one,',38,8,306),(7356,'there is nothing like your hips,',39,8,306),(7357,'perhaps earth has',40,8,306),(7358,'in some hidden place',41,8,306),(7359,'the curve and the fragrance of your body,',42,8,306),(7360,'perhaps in some place,',43,8,306),(7361,'lovely one.',44,8,306),(7362,'Lovely one, my lovely one,',45,9,306),(7363,'your voice, your skin, your nails,',46,9,306),(7364,'lovely one, my lovely one,',47,9,306),(7365,'your being, your light, your shadow,',48,9,306),(7366,'lovely one,',49,9,306),(7367,'all that is mine, lovely one,',50,9,306),(7368,'all that is mine, my dear,',51,9,306),(7369,'when you walk or rest,',52,9,306),(7370,'when you sing or sleep,',53,9,306),(7371,'when you suffer or dream,',54,9,306),(7372,'always,',55,9,306),(7373,'when you are near or far,',56,9,306),(7374,'always,',57,9,306),(7375,'you are mine, my lovely one,',58,9,306),(7376,'always.',59,9,306),(7377,'I saw my father naked, once, I',1,1,307),(7378,'opened the blue bathroom door',2,1,307),(7379,'which he always locked — if it opened, it was empty —',3,1,307),(7380,'and there, surrounded by the glistening turquoise',4,1,307),(7381,'tile, sitting on the toilet, was my father,',5,1,307),(7382,'all of him, and all of him',6,1,307),(7383,'was skin. In an instant my gaze ran',7,1,307),(7384,'in a single, swerving, unimpeded',8,1,307),(7385,'swoop, up: toe, ankle,',9,1,307),(7386,'knee, hip, rib, nape,',10,1,307),(7387,'shoulder, elbow, wrist, knuckle,',11,1,307),(7388,'my father. He looked so unprotected,',12,1,307),(7389,'so seamless, and shy, like a girl on a toilet,',13,1,307),(7390,'and even though I knew he was sitting',14,1,307),(7391,'to shit, there was no shame in that',15,1,307),(7392,'but even a human peace. He looked up,',16,1,307),(7393,'I said Sorry, backed out, shut the door',17,1,307),(7394,'but I’d seen him, my father a shorn lamb,',18,1,307),(7395,'my father a cloud in the blue sky',19,1,307),(7396,'of the blue bathroom, my eye had driven',20,1,307),(7397,'up the hairpin mountain road of the',21,1,307),(7398,'naked male, I had turned a corner',22,1,307),(7399,'and found his flank ungarded — gentle',23,1,307),(7400,'bulge of the hip-joint, border of the pelvic cradle.',24,1,307),(7401,'I am dying',1,1,308),(7402,'because you have not',2,1,308),(7403,'died for me',3,1,308),(7404,'and the world',4,1,308),(7405,'still loves you.',5,1,308),(7406,'I write this because I know',6,2,308),(7407,'that your kisses',7,2,308),(7408,'are born blind',8,2,308),(7409,'on the songs that touch you.',9,2,308),(7410,'I don’t want a purpose',10,3,308),(7411,'in your life',11,3,308),(7412,'I want to be lost among',12,3,308),(7413,'your thoughts',13,3,308),(7414,'the way you listen to New York City',14,3,308),(7415,'when you fall asleep.',15,3,308),(7416,'They stand in parks and graveyards and gardens.',1,1,309),(7417,'Some of them are taller than department stores,',2,1,309),(7418,'yet they do not draw attention to themselves.',3,1,309),(7419,'You will be fitting a heated towel rail one day',4,2,309),(7420,'and see, through the louvre window,',5,2,309),(7421,'a shoal of olive-green fish changing direction',6,2,309),(7422,'in the air that swims above the little gardens.',7,2,309),(7423,'Or you will wake at your aunt’s cottage,',8,3,309),(7424,'your sleep broken by a coal train on the empty hill',9,3,309),(7425,'as the oaks roar in the wind off the channel.',10,3,309),(7426,'Your kindness to animals, your skill at the clarinet,',11,4,309),(7427,'these are accidental things.',12,4,309),(7428,'We lost this game a long way back.',13,4,309),(7429,'Look at you. You’re reading poetry.',14,4,309),(7430,'Outside the spring air is thick',15,4,309),(7431,'with the seeds of their children.',16,4,309),(7432,'In this world',1,1,310),(7433,'we walk on the roof of hell,',2,1,310),(7434,'gazing at flowers.',3,1,310),(7435,'How astonishing it is that language can almost mean,',1,1,311),(7436,'and frightening that it does not quite. Love, we say,',2,1,311),(7437,'God, we say, Rome and Michiko, we write, and the words',3,1,311),(7438,'get it wrong. We say bread and it means according',4,1,311),(7439,'to which nation. French has no word for home,',5,1,311),(7440,'and we have no word for strict pleasure. A people',6,1,311),(7441,'in northern India is dying out because their ancient tongue',7,1,311),(7442,'has no words for endearment. I dream of lost',8,1,311),(7443,'vocabularies that might express some of what',9,1,311),(7444,'we no longer can. Maybe the Etruscan texts would',10,1,311),(7445,'finally explain why the couples on their tombs',11,1,311),(7446,'are smiling. And maybe not. When the thousands',12,1,311),(7447,'of mysterious Sumerian tablets were translated,',13,1,311),(7448,'they seemed to be business records. But what if they',14,1,311),(7449,'are poems or psalms? My joy is the same as twelve',15,1,311),(7450,'Ethiopian goats standing silent in the morning light.',16,1,311),(7451,'O Lord, thou art slabs of salt and ingots of copper,',17,1,311),(7452,'as grand as ripe barley lithe under the wind’s labor.',18,1,311),(7453,'Her breasts are six white oxen loaded with bolts',19,1,311),(7454,'of long-fibered Egyptian cotton. My love is a hundred',20,1,311),(7455,'pitchers of honey. Shiploads of thuya are what',21,1,311),(7456,'my body wants to say to your body. Giraffes are this',22,1,311),(7457,'desire in the dark. Perhaps the spiral Minoan script',23,1,311),(7458,'is not a language but a map. What we feel most has',24,1,311),(7459,'no name but amber, archers, cinnamon, horses and birds.',25,1,311),(7460,'Marriage is not',1,1,312),(7461,'a house or even a tent',2,1,312),(7462,'it is before that, and colder:',3,2,312),(7463,'The edge of the forest, the edge',4,3,312),(7464,'of the desert',5,3,312),(7465,'the unpainted stairs',6,3,312),(7466,'at the back where we squat',7,3,312),(7467,'outside, eating popcorn',8,3,312),(7468,'where painfully and with wonder',9,4,312),(7469,'at having survived even',10,4,312),(7470,'this far',11,4,312),(7471,'we are learning to make fire',12,5,312),(7472,'O generation of the thoroughly smug',1,1,313),(7473,'and thoroughly uncomfortable,',2,1,313),(7474,'I have seen fishermen picnicking in the sun,',3,1,313),(7475,'I have seen them with untidy families,',4,1,313),(7476,'I have seen their smiles full of teeth',5,1,313),(7477,'and heard ungainly laughter.',6,1,313),(7478,'And I am happier than you are,',7,1,313),(7479,'And they were happier than I am;',8,1,313),(7480,'And the fish swim in the lake',9,1,313),(7481,'and do not even own clothing.',10,1,313),(7482,'My older brother is walking down the sidewalk into the suburban',1,1,314),(7483,'summer night:',2,1,314),(7484,'white T-shirt, blue jeans— to the field at the end of the street.',3,1,314),(7485,'Hangers Hideout the boys called it, an undeveloped plot, a pit',4,2,314),(7486,'overgrown',5,2,314),(7487,'with weeds, some old furniture thrown down there,',6,2,314),(7488,'and some metal hangers clinking in the trees like wind chimes.',7,3,314),(7489,'He’s running away from home because our father wants to cut his hair.',8,3,314),(7490,'And in two more days our father will convince me to go to him— you know',9,4,314),(7491,'where he is— and talk to him: No reprisals. He promised. A small parade',10,4,314),(7492,'of kids',11,4,314),(7493,'in feet pajamas will accompany me, their voices like the first peepers',12,5,314),(7494,'in spring.',13,5,314),(7495,'And my brother will walk ahead of us home, and my father',14,5,314),(7496,'will shave his head bald, and my brother will not speak to anyone the next',15,6,314),(7497,'month, not a word, not pass the milk, nothing.',16,6,314),(7498,'What happened in our house taught my brothers how to leave, how to walk',17,7,314),(7499,'down a sidewalk without looking back.',18,7,314),(7500,'I was the girl. What happened taught me to follow him, whoever he was,',19,8,314),(7501,'calling and calling his name.',20,8,314),(7502,'1.',1,1,315),(7503,'In the night, in the wind, at the edge of rain,',2,1,315),(7504,'I find five irises, and call them lovely.',3,1,315),(7505,'As if a woman, once, lay by them awhile,',4,1,315),(7506,'then woke, rose, went, the memory of hair',5,1,315),(7507,'lingers on their sweet tongues.',6,1,315),(7508,'I’d like to tear these petals with my teeth.',7,2,315),(7509,'I’d like to investigate these hairy selves,',8,2,315),(7510,'their beauty and indifference. They hold',9,2,315),(7511,'their breath all their lives',10,2,315),(7512,'and open, open.',11,2,315),(7513,'2.',12,3,315),(7514,'We are not lovers, not brother and sister,',13,3,315),(7515,'though we drift hand in hand through a hall',14,3,315),(7516,'thrilling and burning as thought and desire',15,3,315),(7517,'expire, and, over this dream of life,',16,3,315),(7518,'this life of sleep, we waken dying—',17,3,315),(7519,'violet becoming blue, growing',18,3,315),(7520,'black, black—all that',19,3,315),(7521,'an iris ever prays,',20,3,315),(7522,'when it prays,',21,3,315),(7523,'to be.',22,3,315),(7524,'They fuck you up, your mum and dad.',1,1,316),(7525,'They may not mean to, but they do.',2,1,316),(7526,'They fill you with the faults they had',3,1,316),(7527,'And add some extra, just for you.',4,1,316),(7528,'But they were fucked up in their turn',5,2,316),(7529,'By fools in old-style hats and coats,',6,2,316),(7530,'Who half the time were soppy-stern',7,2,316),(7531,'And half at one another’s throats.',8,2,316),(7532,'Man hands on misery to man.',9,3,316),(7533,'It deepens like a coastal shelf.',10,3,316),(7534,'Get out as early as you can,',11,3,316),(7535,'And don’t have any kids yourself.',12,3,316),(7536,'I pick an orange from a wicker basket',1,1,317),(7537,'and place it on the table',2,1,317),(7538,'to represent the sun.',3,1,317),(7539,'Then down at the other end',4,1,317),(7540,'a blue and white marble',5,1,317),(7541,'becomes the earth',6,1,317),(7542,'and nearby I lay the little moon of an aspirin.',7,1,317),(7543,'I get a glass from a cabinet,',8,2,317),(7544,'open a bottle of wine,',9,2,317),(7545,'then I sit in a ladder-back chair,',10,2,317),(7546,'a benevolent god presiding',11,2,317),(7547,'over a miniature creation myth,',12,2,317),(7548,'and I begin to sing',13,3,317),(7549,'a homemade canticle of thanks',14,3,317),(7550,'for this perfect little arrangement,',15,3,317),(7551,'for not making the earth too hot or cold',16,3,317),(7552,'not making it spin too fast or slow',17,3,317),(7553,'so that the grove of orange trees',18,4,317),(7554,'and the owl become possible,',19,4,317),(7555,'not to mention the rolling wave,',20,4,317),(7556,'the play of clouds, geese in flight,',21,4,317),(7557,'and the Z of lightning on a dark lake.',22,4,317),(7558,'Then I fill my glass again',23,5,317),(7559,'and give thanks for the trout,',24,5,317),(7560,'the oak, and the yellow feather,',25,5,317),(7561,'singing the room full of shadows,',26,6,317),(7562,'as sun and earth and moon',27,6,317),(7563,'circle one another in their impeccable orbits',28,6,317),(7564,'and I get more and more cockeyed with gratitude.',29,6,317),(7565,'Once when I was teaching “Dover Beach”',1,1,318),(7566,'to a class of freshmen, a young woman',2,1,318),(7567,'raised her hand and said, “I’m confused',3,1,318),(7568,'about this ‘Sea of Faith.’ “ “Well,” I said,',4,1,318),(7569,'“let’s talk about it. We probably need',5,1,318),(7570,'to talk a bit about figurative language.',6,1,318),(7571,'What confuses you about it?”',7,1,318),(7572,'“I mean, is it a real sea?” she asked.',8,1,318),(7573,'“You mean, is it a real body of water',9,1,318),(7574,'that you could point to on a map',10,1,318),(7575,'or visit on a vacation?”',11,1,318),(7576,'“Yes,” she said. “Is it a real sea?”',12,1,318),(7577,'Oh Christ, I thought, is this where we are?',13,1,318),(7578,'Next year I’ll be teaching them the alphabet',14,1,318),(7579,'and how to sound words out.',15,1,318),(7580,'I’ll have to teach them geography, apparently,',16,1,318),(7581,'before we can move on to poetry.',17,1,318),(7582,'I’ll have to teach them history, too-',18,1,318),(7583,'a few weeks on the Dark Ages might be instructive.',19,1,318),(7584,'“Yes,” I wanted to say, “it is.',20,1,318),(7585,'It is a real sea. In fact it flows',21,1,318),(7586,'right into the Sea of Ignorance',22,1,318),(7587,'IN WHICH YOU ARE DROWNING.',23,1,318),(7588,'Let me throw you a Rope of Salvation',24,1,318),(7589,'before the Sharks of Desire gobble you up.',25,1,318),(7590,'Let me hoist you back up onto this Ship of Fools',26,1,318),(7591,'so that we might continue our search',27,1,318),(7592,'for the Fountain of Youth. Here, take a drink',28,1,318),(7593,'of this. It’s fresh from the River of Forgetfulness.”',29,1,318),(7594,'But of course I didn’t say any of that.',30,1,318),(7595,'I tried to explain in such a way',31,1,318),(7596,'as to protect her from humiliation,',32,1,318),(7597,'tried to explain that poets',33,1,318),(7598,'often speak of things that don’t exist.',34,1,318),(7599,'It was only much later that I wished',35,1,318),(7600,'I could have answered differently,',36,1,318),(7601,'only after I’d betrayed myself',37,1,318),(7602,'and been betrayed that I wished',38,1,318),(7603,'it was true, wished there really was a Sea of Faith',39,1,318),(7604,'that you could wade out into,',40,1,318),(7605,'dive under its blue and magic waters,',41,1,318),(7606,'hold your breath, swim like a fish',42,1,318),(7607,'down to the bottom, and then emerge again',43,1,318),(7608,'able to believe in everything, faithful',44,1,318),(7609,'and unafraid to ask even the simplest of questions,',45,1,318),(7610,'happy to have them simply answered.',46,1,318),(7611,'Who would I show it to',1,1,319),(7612,'Kisses can kiss us',1,1,320),(7613,'A duck a hen and fishes, followed by wishes.',2,1,320),(7614,'Happy little pair.',3,1,320),(7615,'(to remind myself)',1,1,321),(7616,'Make a place to sit down.',2,3,321),(7617,'Sit down. Be quiet.',3,3,321),(7618,'You must depend upon',4,3,321),(7619,'affection, reading, knowledge,',5,3,321),(7620,'skill—more of each',6,3,321),(7621,'than you have—inspiration,',7,3,321),(7622,'work, growing older, patience,',8,3,321),(7623,'for patience joins time',9,3,321),(7624,'to eternity. Any readers',10,3,321),(7625,'who like your poems,',11,3,321),(7626,'doubt their judgment.',12,3,321),(7627,'ii',13,4,321),(7628,'Breathe with unconditional breath',14,5,321),(7629,'the unconditioned air.',15,5,321),(7630,'Shun electric wire.',16,5,321),(7631,'Communicate slowly. Live',17,5,321),(7632,'a three-dimensioned life;',18,5,321),(7633,'stay away from screens.',19,5,321),(7634,'Stay away from anything',20,5,321),(7635,'that obscures the place it is in.',21,5,321),(7636,'There are no unsacred places;',22,5,321),(7637,'there are only sacred places',23,5,321),(7638,'and desecrated places.',24,5,321),(7639,'iii',25,6,321),(7640,'Accept what comes from silence.',26,7,321),(7641,'Make the best you can of it.',27,7,321),(7642,'Of the little words that come',28,7,321),(7643,'out of the silence, like prayers',29,7,321),(7644,'prayed back to the one who prays,',30,7,321),(7645,'make a poem that does not disturb',31,7,321),(7646,'the silence from which it came.',32,7,321),(7647,'A man and a woman',1,1,322),(7648,'are lying together',2,1,322),(7649,'listening to news of a war.',3,1,322),(7650,'The radio dial',4,1,322),(7651,'is the only light in the room.',5,1,322),(7652,'Casualties are read out.',6,1,322),(7653,'He thinks, “Those are people',7,1,322),(7654,'I no longer have to love,”',8,1,322),(7655,'and he touches her hair',9,1,322),(7656,'and calls her name',10,1,322),(7657,'but it sounds strange to her',11,1,322),(7658,'like a stone left over',12,1,322),(7659,'from a house already built.',13,1,322),(7660,'Let me make this perfectly clear.',1,1,323),(7661,'I have never written anything because it is a Poem.',2,1,323),(7662,'This is a mistake you always make about me,',3,1,323),(7663,'A dangerous mistake. I promise you',4,1,323),(7664,'I am not writing this because it is a Poem.',5,1,323),(7665,'You suspect this is a posture or an act',6,2,323),(7666,'I am sorry to tell you it is not an act.',7,2,323),(7667,'You actually think I care if this',8,3,323),(7668,'Poem gets off the ground or not. Well',9,3,323),(7669,'I don’t care if this poem gets off the ground or not',10,3,323),(7670,'And neither should you.',11,3,323),(7671,'All I have ever cared about',12,3,323),(7672,'And all you should ever care about',13,3,323),(7673,'Is what happens when you lift your eyes from this page.',14,3,323),(7674,'Do not think for one minute it is the Poem that matters.',15,4,323),(7675,'Is is not the Poem that matters.',16,4,323),(7676,'You can shove the Poem.',17,4,323),(7677,'What matters is what is out there in the large dark',18,4,323),(7678,'and in the long light,',19,4,323),(7679,'Breathing.',20,4,323),(7680,'she died of alcoholism',1,1,324),(7681,'wrapped in a blanket',2,1,324),(7682,'on a deck chair',3,1,324),(7683,'on an ocean',4,1,324),(7684,'steamer.',5,1,324),(7685,'all her books of',6,2,324),(7686,'terrified loneliness',7,2,324),(7687,'all her books about',8,3,324),(7688,'the cruelty',9,3,324),(7689,'of loveless love',10,3,324),(7690,'were all that was left',11,4,324),(7691,'of her',12,4,324),(7692,'as the strolling vacationer',13,5,324),(7693,'discovered her body',14,5,324),(7694,'notified the captain',15,6,324),(7695,'and she was quickly dispatched',16,7,324),(7696,'to somewhere else',17,7,324),(7697,'on the ship',18,7,324),(7698,'as everything',19,8,324),(7699,'continued just',20,8,324),(7700,'as',21,8,324),(7701,'she had written it',22,8,324),(7702,'love is a deep and a dark and a lonely',1,1,325),(7703,'and you take it deep take it dark',2,1,325),(7704,'and take it with a lonely winding',3,1,325),(7705,'and when the winding gets too lonely',4,1,325),(7706,'then may come the windflowers',5,1,325),(7707,'and the breath of wind over many flowers',6,1,325),(7708,'winding its way out of many lonely flowers',7,1,325),(7709,'waiting in rainleaf whispers',8,1,325),(7710,'waiting in dry stalks of noon',9,1,325),(7711,'wanting in a music of windbreaths',10,1,325),(7712,'so you can take love as it comes keening',11,1,325),(7713,'as it comes with a voice and a face',12,1,325),(7714,'and you make a talk of it',13,1,325),(7715,'talking to yourself a talk worth keeping',14,1,325),(7716,'and you put it away for a keen keeping',15,1,325),(7717,'and you find it to be a hoarding',16,1,325),(7718,'and you give it away and yet it stays hoarded',17,1,325),(7719,'like a book read over and over again',18,2,325),(7720,'like one book being a long row of books',19,2,325),(7721,'like leaves of windflowers bending low',20,2,325),(7722,'and bending to be never broken',21,2,325),(7723,'I',1,1,326),(7724,'Living is no laughing matter:',2,1,326),(7725,'you must live with great seriousness',3,1,326),(7726,'like a squirrel, for example—',4,1,326),(7727,'I mean without looking for something beyond and above living,',5,1,326),(7728,'I mean living must be your whole occupation.',6,1,326),(7729,'Living is no laughing matter:',7,1,326),(7730,'you must take it seriously,',8,1,326),(7731,'so much so and to such a degree',9,1,326),(7732,'that, for example, your hands tied behind your back,',10,1,326),(7733,'your back to the wall,',11,1,326),(7734,'or else in a laboratory',12,1,326),(7735,'in your white coat and safety glasses,',13,1,326),(7736,'you can die for people—',14,1,326),(7737,'even for people whose faces you’ve never seen,',15,1,326),(7738,'even though you know living',16,1,326),(7739,'is the most real, the most beautiful thing.',17,1,326),(7740,'I mean, you must take living so seriously',18,1,326),(7741,'that even at seventy, for example, you’ll plant olive trees—',19,1,326),(7742,'and not for your children, either,',20,1,326),(7743,'but because although you fear death you don’t believe it,',21,1,326),(7744,'because living, I mean, weighs heavier.',22,1,326),(7745,'II',23,2,326),(7746,'Let’s say we’re seriously ill, need surgery—',24,2,326),(7747,'which is to say we might not get up',25,2,326),(7748,'from the white table.',26,2,326),(7749,'Even though it’s impossible not to feel sad',27,2,326),(7750,'about going a little too soon,',28,2,326),(7751,'we’ll still laugh at the jokes being told,',29,2,326),(7752,'we’ll look out the window to see if it’s raining,',30,2,326),(7753,'or still wait anxiously',31,2,326),(7754,'for the latest newscast…',32,2,326),(7755,'Let’s say we’re at the front—',33,2,326),(7756,'for something worth fighting for, say.',34,2,326),(7757,'There, in the first offensive, on that very day,',35,2,326),(7758,'we might fall on our face, dead.',36,2,326),(7759,'We’ll know this with a curious anger,',37,2,326),(7760,'but we’ll still worry ourselves to death',38,2,326),(7761,'about the outcome of the war, which could last years.',39,2,326),(7762,'Let’s say we’re in prison',40,2,326),(7763,'and close to fifty,',41,2,326),(7764,'and we have eighteen more years, say,',42,2,326),(7765,'before the iron doors will open.',43,2,326),(7766,'We’ll still live with the outside,',44,2,326),(7767,'with its people and animals, struggle and wind—',45,2,326),(7768,'I mean with the outside beyond the walls.',46,2,326),(7769,'I mean, however and wherever we are,',47,2,326),(7770,'we must live as if we will never die.',48,2,326),(7771,'III',49,3,326),(7772,'This earth will grow cold,',50,3,326),(7773,'a star among stars',51,3,326),(7774,'and one of the smallest,',52,3,326),(7775,'a gilded mote on blue velvet—',53,3,326),(7776,'I mean this, our great earth.',54,3,326),(7777,'This earth will grow cold one day,',55,3,326),(7778,'not like a block of ice',56,3,326),(7779,'or a dead cloud even',57,3,326),(7780,'but like an empty walnut it will roll along',58,3,326),(7781,'in pitch-black space…',59,3,326),(7782,'You must grieve for this right now',60,3,326),(7783,'—you have to feel this sorrow now—',61,3,326),(7784,'for the world must be loved this much',62,3,326),(7785,'if you’re going to say “I lived”…',63,3,326),(7786,'Why does one write, if not to put one’s pieces together? From the moment we enter school or church, education chops us into pieces: it teaches us to divorce soul from body and mind from heart. The fishermen of the Colombian coast must be learned doctors of ethics and morality, for they invented the word sentipensante, feeling-thinking, to define language that speaks the truth.',1,1,327),(7787,'We live in a modern society. Husbands and wives don’t grow',1,1,328),(7788,'on trees like in the old days. So where',2,1,328),(7789,'does one find love? When you’re sixteen it’s easy – like being',3,1,328),(7790,'unleashed with a credit card',4,1,328),(7791,'in a department store of kisses. There’s the first kiss.',5,1,328),(7792,'The sloppy kiss. The peck.',6,1,328),(7793,'The sympathy kiss. The backseat smooch. The we shouldn’t',7,1,328),(7794,'be doing this kiss. The but your lips',8,1,328),(7795,'taste so good kiss. The bury me in an avalanche of tingles kiss.',9,1,328),(7796,'The I wish you’d quit smoking kiss.',10,1,328),(7797,'The I accept your apology, but you make me really mad',11,1,328),(7798,'sometimes kiss. The I know your tongue like the back of my hand kiss. As you get older,',12,1,328),(7799,'kisses become scarce. You’ll be driving',13,1,328),(7800,'home and see a damaged kiss on the side of the road,',14,1,328),(7801,'with its purple thumb out. Now if you',15,1,328),(7802,'were younger, you’d pull over, slide open the mouth’s ruby door',16,1,328),(7803,'just to see how it fits. Oh where',17,1,328),(7804,'does one find love? If you rub two glances together, you get',18,1,328),(7805,'a smile; rub two smiles, you get',19,1,328),(7806,'a spark; rub two sparks together and you have a kiss. Now',20,1,328),(7807,'what? Don’t invite the kiss',21,1,328),(7808,'to your house and answer the door in your underwear. It’ll get',22,1,328),(7809,'suspicious and stare at your toes.',23,1,328),(7810,'Don’t water the kiss with whiskey. It’ll turn bright pink and explode',24,1,328),(7811,'into a thousand luscious splinters,',25,1,328),(7812,'but in the morning it’ll be ashamed and sneak out of your body',26,1,328),(7813,'without saying goodbye,',27,1,328),(7814,'and you’ll remember that kiss forever by all the little cuts it left',28,1,328),(7815,'on the inside of your mouth. You must',29,1,328),(7816,'nurture the kiss. Dim the lights, notice how it illuminates',30,1,328),(7817,'the room. Clutch it to your chest,',31,1,328),(7818,'wonder if the sand inside every hourglass comes from a special',32,1,328),(7819,'beach. Place it on the tongue’s pillow,',33,1,328),(7820,'then look up the first recorded French kiss in history: beneath',34,1,328),(7821,'a Babylonian olive tree in 1300 B.C.',35,1,328),(7822,'But one kiss levitates above all the others. The intersection',36,1,328),(7823,'of function and desire. The I do kiss.',37,1,328),(7824,'The I’ll love you through a brick wall kiss. Even when',38,1,328),(7825,'I’m dead, I’ll swim through the earth like a mermaid of the soil, just to be next to your bones.',39,1,328),(7826,'Strephon kissed me in the spring,',1,1,329),(7827,'Robin in the fall,',2,1,329),(7828,'But Colin only looked at me',3,1,329),(7829,'And never kissed at all.',4,1,329),(7830,'Strephon’s kiss was lost in jest,',5,2,329),(7831,'Robin’s lost in play,',6,2,329),(7832,'But the kiss in Colin’s eyes',7,2,329),(7833,'Haunts me night and day.',8,2,329),(7834,'Reminiscing in the drizzle of Portland, I notice',1,1,330),(7835,'the ring that’s landed on your finger, a massive',2,1,330),(7836,'insect of glitter, a chandelier shining at the end',3,1,330),(7837,'of a long tunnel. Thirteen years ago, you hid the hurt',4,2,330),(7838,'in your voice under a blanket and said there’s two kinds',5,2,330),(7839,'of women—those you write poems about',6,2,330),(7840,'and those you don’t. It’s true. I never brought you',7,3,330),(7841,'a bouquet of sonnets, or served you haiku in bed.',8,3,330),(7842,'My idea of courtship was tapping Jane’s Addiction',9,3,330),(7843,'lyrics in Morse code on your window at three A.M.,',10,4,330),(7844,'whiskey doing push-ups on my breath. But I worked',11,4,330),(7845,'within the confines of my character, cast',12,4,330),(7846,'as the bad boy in your life, the Magellan',13,5,330),(7847,'of your dark side. We don’t have a past so much',14,5,330),(7848,'as a bunch of electricity and liquor, power',15,5,330),(7849,'never put to good use. What we had together',16,6,330),(7850,'makes it sound like a virus, as if we caught',17,6,330),(7851,'one another like colds, and desire was merely',18,6,330),(7852,'a symptom that could be treated with soup',19,7,330),(7853,'and lots of sex. Gliding beside you now,',20,7,330),(7854,'I feel like the Benjamin Franklin of monogamy,',21,7,330),(7855,'as if I invented it, but I’m still not immune',22,8,330),(7856,'to your waterfall scent, still haven’t developed',23,8,330),(7857,'antibodies for your smile. I don’t know how long',24,8,330),(7858,'regret existed before humans stuck a word on it.',25,9,330),(7859,'I don’t know how many paper towels it would take',26,9,330),(7860,'to wipe up the Pacific Ocean, or why the light',27,9,330),(7861,'of a candle being blown out travels faster',28,10,330),(7862,'than the luminescence of one that’s just been lit,',29,10,330),(7863,'but I do know that all our huffing and puffing',30,10,330),(7864,'into each other’s ears—as if the brain was a trick',31,11,330),(7865,'birthday candle—didn’t make the silence',32,11,330),(7866,'any easier to navigate. I’m sorry all the kisses',33,11,330),(7867,'I scrawled on your neck were written',34,12,330),(7868,'in disappearing ink. Sometimes I thought of you',35,12,330),(7869,'so hard one of your legs would pop out',36,12,330),(7870,'of my ear hole, and when I was sleeping, you’d press',37,13,330),(7871,'your face against the porthole of my submarine.',38,13,330),(7872,'I’m sorry this poem has taken thirteen years',39,13,330),(7873,'to reach you. I wish that just once, instead of skidding',40,14,330),(7874,'off the shoulder blade’s precipice and joyriding',41,14,330),(7875,'over flesh, we’d put our hands away like chocolate',42,14,330),(7876,'to be saved for later, and deciphered the calligraphy',43,15,330),(7877,'of each other’s eyelashes, translated a paragraph',44,15,330),(7878,'from the volumes of what couldn’t be said.',45,15,330),(7879,'there are worse things than being alone',1,1,331),(7880,'but it often takes decades',2,1,331),(7881,'to realize this',3,1,331),(7882,'and most often',4,1,331),(7883,'when you do',5,1,331),(7884,'it’s too late',6,1,331),(7885,'and there’s nothing worse',7,1,331),(7886,'than',8,1,331),(7887,'too late.',9,1,331),(7888,'I fell out of love: that’s our story’s dull ending,',1,1,332),(7889,'as flat as life is, as dull as the grave.',2,1,332),(7890,'Excuse me—I’ll break off the string of this love song',3,1,332),(7891,'and smash the guitar. We have nothing to save.',4,1,332),(7892,'The puppy is puzzled. Our furry small monster',5,1,332),(7893,'can’t decide why we complicate simple things so—',6,1,332),(7894,'he whines at your door and I let him enter,',7,1,332),(7895,'when he scratches at my door, you always go.',8,1,332),(7896,'Dog, sentimental dog, you’ll surely go crazy,',9,1,332),(7897,'running from one to the other like this—',10,1,332),(7898,'too young to conceive of an ancient idea:',11,1,332),(7899,'it’s ended, done with, over, kaput. Finis.',12,1,332),(7900,'Get sentimental and we end up by playing',13,1,332),(7901,'the old melodrama, “Salvation of Love.”',14,1,332),(7902,'“Forgiveness,” we whisper, and hope for an echo;',15,1,332),(7903,'but nothing returns from the silence above.',16,1,332),(7904,'Better save love at the very beginning,',17,1,332),(7905,'avoiding all passionate “nevers,” “forevers;”',18,1,332),(7906,'we ought to have heard what the train wheels were shouting,',19,1,332),(7907,'“Do not make promises!” Promises are levers.',20,1,332),(7908,'We should have made note of the broken branches,',21,1,332),(7909,'we should have looked up at the smoky sky,',22,1,332),(7910,'warning the witless pretensions of lovers—',23,1,332),(7911,'the greater the hope is, the greater the lie.',24,1,332),(7912,'True kindness in love means staying quite sober,',25,1,332),(7913,'weighing each link of the chain you must bear.',26,1,332),(7914,'Don’t promise her heaven—suggest half an acre;',27,1,332),(7915,'not “unto death,” but at least to next year.',28,1,332),(7916,'And don’t keep declaring, “I love you, I love you.”',29,1,332),(7917,'That little phrase leads a durable life—',30,1,332),(7918,'when remembered again in some loveless hereafter,',31,1,332),(7919,'it can sting like a hornet or stab like a knife.',32,1,332),(7920,'So—our little dog in all his confusion',33,1,332),(7921,'turns and returns from door to door.',34,1,332),(7922,'I won’t say “forgive me” because I have left you;',35,1,332),(7923,'I ask pardon for one thing: I loved you before.',36,1,332),(7924,'The mind becomes a field of snow',1,1,333),(7925,'but then the snow melts and the dandelions',2,1,333),(7926,'blink on and you can walk through them,',3,1,333),(7927,'your trousers plastered with dew.',4,1,333),(7928,'They’re all waiting for you but first',5,1,333),(7929,'here’s a booth where you can win',6,1,333),(7930,'a peacock feather for bursting a balloon,',7,2,333),(7931,'a man in huge stripes shouting about',8,2,333),(7932,'a boy who is half swan, the biggest',9,2,333),(7933,'pig in the world. Then you will pass',10,2,333),(7934,'tractors pulling other tractors,',11,2,333),(7935,'trees snagged with bright wrappers',12,2,333),(7936,'and then you will come to a river',13,3,333),(7937,'and then you will wash your face.',14,3,333),(7938,'A boy told me',1,1,334),(7939,'if he roller-skated fast enough',2,1,334),(7940,'his loneliness couldn’t catch up to him,',3,1,334),(7941,'the best reason I ever heard',4,2,334),(7942,'for trying to be a champion.',5,2,334),(7943,'What I wonder tonight',6,3,334),(7944,'pedaling hard down King William Street',7,3,334),(7945,'is if it translates to bicycles.',8,3,334),(7946,'A victory! To leave your loneliness',9,4,334),(7947,'panting behind you on some street corner',10,4,334),(7948,'while you float free into a cloud of sudden azaleas,',11,4,334),(7949,'pink petals that have never felt loneliness,',12,4,334),(7950,'no matter how slowly they fell.',13,4,334),(7951,'I wonder how many people in this city',1,1,335),(7952,'live in furnished rooms.',2,1,335),(7953,'Late at night when I look out at the buildings',3,1,335),(7954,'I swear I see a face in every window',4,1,335),(7955,'looking back at me',5,1,335),(7956,'and when I turn away',6,1,335),(7957,'I wonder how many go back to their desks',7,1,335),(7958,'and write this down.',8,1,335),(7959,'Not so hot as this for a hundred years.',1,1,336),(7960,'You were where I was going. I was in tears.',2,1,336),(7961,'I surrendered my heart to the judgement of my peers.',3,1,336),(7962,'A century’s heat in the garden, fierce as love.',4,2,336),(7963,'You returned on the day I had to leave.',5,2,336),(7964,'I mimed the full, rich, busy life I had to live.',6,2,336),(7965,'Hotter than hell. I burned for you day and night;',7,3,336),(7966,'got bits of your body wrong, bits of it right,',8,3,336),(7967,'in the huge mouth of the dark, in the bite of the light.',9,3,336),(7968,'I planted a rose, burnt orange, the colour of flame,',10,4,336),(7969,'gave it the last of the water, gave it your name.',11,4,336),(7970,'It flared back at the sun in a perfect rhyme.',12,4,336),(7971,'Then the rain came, like stammered kisses at first',13,5,336),(7972,'on the back of my neck. I unfurled my fist',14,5,336),(7973,'for the rain to caress with its lips. I turned up my face,',15,5,336),(7974,'and water flooded my mouth, baptised my head,',16,6,336),(7975,'and the rainclouds gathered like midnight overhead,',17,6,336),(7976,'and the rain came down like a lover comes to a bed.',18,6,336),(7977,'Heart, you bully, you punk, I’m wrecked, I’m shocked',1,1,337),(7978,'stiff. You? you still try to rule the world–though',2,1,337),(7979,'I’ve got you: identified, starving, locked',3,1,337),(7980,'in a cage you will not leave alive, no',4,1,337),(7981,'matter how you hate it, pound its walls,',5,1,337),(7982,'& thrill its corridors with messages.',6,1,337),(7983,'Brute. Spy. I trusted you. Now you reel & brawl',7,2,337),(7984,'in your cell but I’m deaf to your rages,',8,2,337),(7985,'your greed to go solo, your eloquent',9,2,337),(7986,'threats of worse things you (knowing me) could do.',10,2,337),(7987,'You scare me, bragging you’re a double agent',11,2,337),(7988,'since jailers are prisoners’ prisoners too.',12,3,337),(7989,'Think! Reform! Make us one. Join the rest of us,',13,3,337),(7990,'and joy may come, and make its test of us.',14,3,337),(7991,'Your lungs fill & spread themselves,',1,1,338),(7992,'wings of pink blood, and your bones,',2,1,338),(7993,'empty themselves and become hollow.',3,1,338),(7994,'When you breathe in you’ll lift like a balloon',4,1,338),(7995,'and your heart is too light & too huge,',5,1,338),(7996,'beating with pure joy, with pure helium.',6,1,338),(7997,'The sun’s white winds blow through you,',7,1,338),(7998,'there’s nothing above you,',8,1,338),(7999,'you see the earth now as an oval jewel,',9,1,338),(8000,'radiant & seablue with love.',10,1,338),(8001,'It’s only in dreams you can do this.',11,1,338),(8002,'Waking, your heart is a shaken fist,',12,1,338),(8003,'a fine dust clogs the air you breathe in;',13,1,338),(8004,'the sun’s a hot copper weight pressing straight',14,1,338),(8005,'down on the think pink rind of your skull.',15,1,338),(8006,'It’s always the moment before the gunshot.',16,1,338),(8007,'You try & rise but you cannot.',17,1,338),(8008,'Do not make things too easy.',1,1,339),(8009,'There are rocks and abysses in the mind',2,1,339),(8010,'As well as meadows.',3,1,339),(8011,'There are things knotty and hard: intractable.',4,1,339),(8012,'Do not talk to me of love and understanding.',5,1,339),(8013,'I am sick of blandishments.',6,1,339),(8014,'I want the rock to be met by a rock.',7,1,339),(8015,'If I am vile, and behave hideously,',8,1,339),(8016,'Do not tell me it was just a misunderstanding.',9,1,339),(8017,'Let’s fall in love —',1,1,340),(8018,'In our mid-thirties',2,1,340),(8019,'It’s not only',3,1,340),(8020,'Where the hurt is.',4,1,340),(8021,'I won’t get smashed up',5,2,340),(8022,'Should you go',6,2,340),(8023,'Away for weekends —',7,2,340),(8024,'We both know',8,2,340),(8025,'No two people',9,3,340),(8026,'Can be completely',10,3,340),(8027,'All-sufficient.',11,3,340),(8028,'But twice weekly',12,3,340),(8029,'We’ll dine together',13,4,340),(8030,'Split the bill,',14,4,340),(8031,'Admire each other’s',15,4,340),(8032,'Wit. We will',16,4,340),(8033,'Be splendid lovers,',17,5,340),(8034,'Slow, well-trained,',18,5,340),(8035,'Tactful, gracefully',19,5,340),(8036,'Unrestrained.',20,5,340),(8037,'You’ll keep your flat',21,6,340),(8038,'And I’ll keep mine —',22,6,340),(8039,'Our bank accounts',23,6,340),(8040,'Shall not entwine.',24,6,340),(8041,'We’ll make the whole thing',25,7,340),(8042,'Hard and bright.',26,7,340),(8043,'We’ll call it love —',27,7,340),(8044,'We may be right.',28,7,340),(8045,'let it go – the',1,1,341),(8046,'smashed word broken',2,1,341),(8047,'open vow or',3,1,341),(8048,'the oath cracked length',4,1,341),(8049,'wise – let it go it',5,1,341),(8050,'was sworn to',6,1,341),(8051,'go',7,1,341),(8052,'let them go – the',8,2,341),(8053,'truthful liars and',9,2,341),(8054,'the false fair friends',10,2,341),(8055,'and the boths and',11,2,341),(8056,'neithers – you must let them go they',12,2,341),(8057,'were born',13,2,341),(8058,'to go',14,2,341),(8059,'let all go – the',15,3,341),(8060,'big small middling',16,3,341),(8061,'tall bigger really',17,3,341),(8062,'the biggest and all',18,3,341),(8063,'things – let all go',19,3,341),(8064,'dear',20,3,341),(8065,'so comes love',21,4,341),(8066,'Anyone here had a go at themselves',1,1,342),(8067,'for a laugh? Anyone opened their wrists',2,1,342),(8068,'with a blade in the bath? Those in the dark',3,1,342),(8069,'at the back, listen hard. Those at the front',4,1,342),(8070,'in the know, those of us who have, hands up,',5,1,342),(8071,'let’s show that inch of lacerated skin',6,1,342),(8072,'between the forearm and the fist. Let’s tell it',7,1,342),(8073,'like it is: strong drink, a crimson tidemark',8,1,342),(8074,'round the tub, a yard of lint, white towels',9,1,342),(8075,'washed a dozen times, still pink. Tough luck.',10,1,342),(8076,'A passion then for watches, bangles, cuffs.',11,1,342),(8077,'A likely story: you were lashed by brambles',12,1,342),(8078,'picking berries from the woods. Come clean, come good,',13,1,342),(8079,'repeat with me the punch line ‘Just like blood’',14,1,342),(8080,'when those at the back rush forward to say',15,1,342),(8081,'how a little love goes a long long long way.',16,1,342),(8082,'If you travel alone, hitchhiking,',1,1,343),(8083,'sleeping in woods,',2,1,343),(8084,'make a cathedral of the moonlight',3,1,343),(8085,'that reaches you, and lie down in it.',4,1,343),(8086,'Shake a box of nails',5,1,343),(8087,'at the night sounds',6,1,343),(8088,'for there is comfort in your own noise.',7,1,343),(8089,'And say out loud:',8,1,343),(8090,'somebody at sunrise be distraught',9,1,343),(8091,'for love of me,',10,1,343),(8092,'somebody at sunset call my name.',11,1,343),(8093,'There will soon be company.',12,1,343),(8094,'But if the moon clouds over',13,1,343),(8095,'you have to live with disapproval.',14,1,343),(8096,'You are a traveler,',15,1,343),(8097,'you know the open, hostile smiles',16,1,343),(8098,'of those stuck in their lives.',17,1,343),(8099,'Make a fire.',18,1,343),(8100,'If the Devil sits down, offer companionship,',19,1,343),(8101,'tell her you’ve always admired',20,1,343),(8102,'her magnificent, false moves.',21,1,343),(8103,'Then recite the list',22,1,343),(8104,'of what you’ve learned to do without.',23,1,343),(8105,'It is stronger than prayer.',24,1,343),(8106,'“I cannot go to school today,”',1,1,344),(8107,'Said little Peggy Ann McKay.',2,1,344),(8108,'“I have the measles and the mumps,',3,1,344),(8109,'A gash, a rash and purple bumps.',4,1,344),(8110,'My mouth is wet, my throat is dry,',5,1,344),(8111,'I’m going blind in my right eye.',6,1,344),(8112,'My tonsils are as big as rocks,',7,1,344),(8113,'I’ve counted sixteen chicken pox',8,1,344),(8114,'And there’s one more—that’s seventeen,',9,1,344),(8115,'And don’t you think my face looks green?',10,1,344),(8116,'My leg is cut—my eyes are blue—',11,1,344),(8117,'It might be instamatic flu.',12,1,344),(8118,'I cough and sneeze and gasp and choke,',13,1,344),(8119,'I’m sure that my left leg is broke—',14,1,344),(8120,'My hip hurts when I move my chin,',15,1,344),(8121,'My belly button’s caving in,',16,1,344),(8122,'My back is wrenched, my ankle’s sprained,',17,1,344),(8123,'My ‘pendix pains each time it rains.',18,1,344),(8124,'My nose is cold, my toes are numb.',19,1,344),(8125,'I have a sliver in my thumb.',20,1,344),(8126,'My neck is stiff, my voice is weak,',21,1,344),(8127,'I hardly whisper when I speak.',22,1,344),(8128,'My tongue is filling up my mouth,',23,1,344),(8129,'I think my hair is falling out.',24,1,344),(8130,'My elbow’s bent, my spine ain’t straight,',25,1,344),(8131,'My temperature is one-o-eight.',26,1,344),(8132,'My brain is shrunk, I cannot hear,',27,1,344),(8133,'There is a hole inside my ear.',28,1,344),(8134,'I have a hangnail, and my heart is—what?',29,1,344),(8135,'What’s that? What’s that you say?',30,1,344),(8136,'You say today is…Saturday?',31,1,344),(8137,'G’bye, I’m going out to play!',32,1,344),(8138,'Enter without knocking, hard-working ant.',1,1,345),(8139,'I’m just sitting here mulling over',2,1,345),(8140,'What to do this dark, overcast day?',3,1,345),(8141,'It was a night of the radio turned down low,',4,1,345),(8142,'Fitful sleep, vague, troubling dreams.',5,1,345),(8143,'I woke up lovesick and confused.',6,1,345),(8144,'I thought I heard Estella in the garden singing',7,1,345),(8145,'And some bird answering her,',8,1,345),(8146,'But it was the rain. Dark tree tops swaying',9,1,345),(8147,'And whispering. “Come to me my desire,”',10,1,345),(8148,'I said. And she came to me by and by,',11,1,345),(8149,'Her breath smelling of mint, her tongue',12,1,345),(8150,'Wetting my cheek, and then she vanished.',13,1,345),(8151,'Slowly day came, a gray streak of daylight',14,1,345),(8152,'To bathe my hands and face in.',15,1,345),(8153,'Hours passed, and then you crawled',16,1,345),(8154,'Under the door, and stopped before me.',17,1,345),(8155,'You visit the same tailors the mourners do,',18,1,345),(8156,'Mr. Ant. I like the silence between us,',19,1,345),(8157,'The quiet—that holy state even the rain',20,1,345),(8158,'Knows about. Listen to her begin to fall,',21,1,345),(8159,'As if with eyes closed,',22,1,345),(8160,'Muting each drop in her wild-beating heart.',23,1,345),(8161,'For the first time, on the road north of Tampico,',1,1,346),(8162,'I felt the life sliding out of me,',2,1,346),(8163,'a drum in the desert, harder and harder to hear.',3,1,346),(8164,'I was seven, I lay in the car',4,1,346),(8165,'watching palm trees swirl a sickening pattern past the glass.',5,1,346),(8166,'My stomach was a melon split wide inside my skin.',6,1,346),(8167,'“How do you know if you are going to die?”',7,2,346),(8168,'I begged my mother.',8,2,346),(8169,'We had been traveling for days.',9,2,346),(8170,'With strange confidence she answered,',10,2,346),(8171,'“When you can no longer make a fist.”',11,2,346),(8172,'Years later I smile to think of that journey,',12,3,346),(8173,'the borders we must cross separately,',13,3,346),(8174,'stamped with our unanswerable woes.',14,3,346),(8175,'I who did not die, who am still living,',15,3,346),(8176,'still lying in the backseat behind all my questions,',16,3,346),(8177,'clenching and opening one small hand.',17,3,346),(8178,'I couldn’t do it again,',1,1,347),(8179,'I can hardly bear to look at it—',2,1,347),(8180,'in the garden, in light rain',3,2,347),(8181,'the young couple planting',4,2,347),(8182,'a row of peas, as though',5,2,347),(8183,'no one has ever done this before,',6,2,347),(8184,'the great difficulties have never as yet',7,2,347),(8185,'been faced and solved—',8,2,347),(8186,'They cannot see themselves,',9,3,347),(8187,'in fresh dirt, starting up',10,3,347),(8188,'without perspective,',11,3,347),(8189,'the hills behind them pale green,',12,3,347),(8190,'clouded with flowers—',13,3,347),(8191,'She wants to stop;',14,4,347),(8192,'he wants to get to the end,',15,4,347),(8193,'to stay with the thing—',16,4,347),(8194,'Look at her, touching his cheek',17,5,347),(8195,'to make a truce, her fingers',18,5,347),(8196,'cool with spring rain;',19,5,347),(8197,'in thin grass, bursts of purple crocus—',20,5,347),(8198,'even here, even at the beginning of love,',21,6,347),(8199,'her hand leaving his face makes',22,6,347),(8200,'an image of departure',23,6,347),(8201,'and they think',24,7,347),(8202,'they are free to overlook',25,7,347),(8203,'this sadness.',26,7,347),(8204,'Last night you left me and slept',1,1,348),(8205,'your own deep sleep. Tonight you turn',2,1,348),(8206,'and turn. I say,',3,1,348),(8207,'‘You and I will be together',4,1,348),(8208,'till the universe dissolves.’',5,1,348),(8209,'You mumble back things you thought of',6,1,348),(8210,'when you were drunk.',7,1,348),(8211,'Among the first we learn is good-bye,',1,1,349),(8212,'your tiny wrist between Dad’s forefinger',2,1,349),(8213,'and thumb forced to wave bye-bye to Mom,',3,1,349),(8214,'whose hand sails brightly behind a windshield.',4,1,349),(8215,'Then it’s done to make us follow:',5,1,349),(8216,'in a crowded mall, a woman waves, “Bye,',6,1,349),(8217,'we’re leaving,” and her son stands firm',7,1,349),(8218,'sobbing, until at last he runs after her,',8,1,349),(8219,'among shoppers drifting like sharks',9,1,349),(8220,'who must drag their great hulks',10,1,349),(8221,'underwater, even in sleep, or drown.',11,1,349),(8222,'Living, we cover vast territories;',12,2,349),(8223,'imagine your life drawn on a map–',13,2,349),(8224,'a scribble on the town where you grew up,',14,2,349),(8225,'each bus trip traced between school',15,2,349),(8226,'and home, or a clean line across the sea',16,2,349),(8227,'to a place you flew once. Think of the time',17,2,349),(8228,'and things we accumulate, all the while growing',18,2,349),(8229,'more conscious of losing and leaving. Aging,',19,2,349),(8230,'our bodies collect wrinkles and scars',20,2,349),(8231,'for each place the world would not give',21,2,349),(8232,'under our weight. Our thoughts get laced',22,2,349),(8233,'with strange aches, sweet as the final chord',23,2,349),(8234,'that hangs in a guitar’s blond torso.',24,2,349),(8235,'Think how a particular ridge of hills',25,3,349),(8236,'from a summer of your childhood grows',26,3,349),(8237,'in significance, or one hour of light–',27,3,349),(8238,'late afternoon, say, when thick sun flings',28,3,349),(8239,'the shadow of Virginia creeper vines',29,3,349),(8240,'across the wall of a tiny, white room',30,3,349),(8241,'where a girl makes love for the first time.',31,3,349),(8242,'Its leaves tremble like small hands',32,3,349),(8243,'against the screen while she weeps',33,3,349),(8244,'in the arms of her bewildered lover.',34,3,349),(8245,'She’s too young to see that as we gather',35,3,349),(8246,'losses, we may also grow in love;',36,3,349),(8247,'as in passion, the body shudders',37,3,349),(8248,'and clutches what it must release.',38,3,349),(8249,'This room, how well I know it.',1,1,350),(8250,'Now they’re renting it, and the one next to it,',2,1,350),(8251,'as offices. The whole house has become',3,1,350),(8252,'an office building for agents, businessmen, companies.',4,1,350),(8253,'This room, how familiar it is.',5,2,350),(8254,'The couch was here, near the door,',6,3,350),(8255,'a Turkish carpet in front of it.',7,3,350),(8256,'Close by, the shelf with two yellow vases.',8,3,350),(8257,'On the right—no, opposite—a wardrobe with a mirror.',9,3,350),(8258,'In the middle the table where he wrote,',10,3,350),(8259,'and the three big wicker chairs.',11,3,350),(8260,'Beside the window the bed',12,3,350),(8261,'where we made love so many times.',13,3,350),(8262,'They must still be around somewhere, those old things.',14,4,350),(8263,'Beside the window the bed;',15,5,350),(8264,'the afternoon sun used to touch half of it.',16,5,350),(8265,'…One afternoon at four o’clock we separated',17,6,350),(8266,'for a week only…And then—',18,6,350),(8267,'that week became forever.',19,6,350),(8268,'Nature’s first green is gold,',1,1,351),(8269,'Her hardest hue to hold.',2,1,351),(8270,'Her early leaf’s a flower;',3,1,351),(8271,'But only so an hour.',4,1,351),(8272,'Then leaf subsides to leaf.',5,1,351),(8273,'So Eden sank to grief,',6,1,351),(8274,'So dawn goes down to day.',7,1,351),(8275,'Nothing gold can stay.',8,1,351),(8276,'I don’t know how to wish you well.',1,1,352),(8277,'Your hair is out of control, you are downgraded and strange.',2,1,352),(8278,'You used to be the man who whopped open his chest,',3,1,352),(8279,'wandered on a happy shoestring, made a nearly',4,1,352),(8280,'perfect girl. Times we were electric.',5,1,352),(8281,'Our talks teased out newness, mixed surprising',6,1,352),(8282,'pigment. Our battles were not over ground',7,1,352),(8283,'that mattered, so we walked away from them',8,1,352),(8284,'with invisible limps, beautiful sticks',9,1,352),(8285,'with no blood. Thinking ourselves',10,1,352),(8286,'a perfect fit, we began to forget each other.',11,1,352),(8287,'The way the roots of a perfect lawn watered too much',12,1,352),(8288,'get lazy. You thought you should not',13,1,352),(8289,'have to ask. I thought my private fizzings',14,1,352),(8290,'and stirrings weightless, but you got sapped.',15,1,352),(8291,'Your secret began as a scar and turned',16,1,352),(8292,'to a decision flavored with payback.',17,1,352),(8293,'The size of my thirst, your silence!',18,1,352),(8294,'Between us now is the continent we didn’t',19,1,352),(8295,'finish, and one person’s regret.',20,1,352),(8296,'Because you have none, this is what I will never',21,1,352),(8297,'tell you: I took too many days off',22,1,352),(8298,'from loving you. And: I thought we could both',23,1,352),(8299,'get larger. And: Neither of us was the right one',24,1,352),(8300,'to unlock the other’s body. My iron lung',25,1,352),(8301,'of a father has become soft tissue,',26,1,352),(8302,'joshing and washing the woman not quite still',27,1,352),(8303,'my mother—a long tack in a small, hand-made boat.',28,1,352),(8304,'You and I were so full of beans and promise—',29,1,352),(8305,'I’m ashamed we failed at forever.',30,1,352),(8306,'I used to lie on the floor for hours after',1,1,353),(8307,'school with the phone cradled between',2,1,353),(8308,'my shoulder and my ear, a plate of cold',3,1,353),(8309,'rice to my left, my school books to my right.',4,1,353),(8310,'Twirling the cord between my fingers',5,1,353),(8311,'I spoke to friends who recognized the',6,1,353),(8312,'language of our realm. Throats and lungs',7,1,353),(8313,'swollen, we talked into the heart of the night,',8,1,353),(8314,'toying with the idea of hair dye and suicide,',9,1,353),(8315,'about the boys who didn’t love us,',10,1,353),(8316,'who we loved too much, the pang',11,1,353),(8317,'of the nights. Each sentence was',12,1,353),(8318,'new territory, like a door someone was',13,1,353),(8319,'rushing into, the glass shattering',14,1,353),(8320,'with delirium, with knowledge and fear.',15,1,353),(8321,'My Mother never complained about the phone bill,',16,1,353),(8322,'what it cost for her daughter to disappear',17,1,353),(8323,'behind a door, watching the cord',18,1,353),(8324,'stretching its muscle away from her.',19,1,353),(8325,'Perhaps she thought it was the only way',20,1,353),(8326,'she could reach me, sending me away',21,1,353),(8327,'to speak in the underworld.',22,1,353),(8328,'As long as I was speaking',23,1,353),(8329,'she could put my ear to the tenuous earth',24,1,353),(8330,'and allow me to listen, to decipher.',25,1,353),(8331,'And these were the elements of my Mother,',26,1,353),(8332,'the earthed wire, the burning cable,',27,1,353),(8333,'as if she flowed into the room with',28,1,353),(8334,'me to somehow say, Stay where I can reach you,',29,1,353),(8335,'the dim room, the dark earth. Speak of this',30,1,353),(8336,'and when you feel removed from it',31,1,353),(8337,'I will pull the cord and take you',32,1,353),(8338,'back towards me.',33,1,353),(8339,'I woke to a voice within the room. Perhaps.',1,1,354),(8340,'The room itself: “You’re wasting this life',2,1,354),(8341,'expecting disappointment.”',3,1,354),(8342,'I packed my bag in the night',4,1,354),(8343,'and peered in its leather belly',5,1,354),(8344,'to count the essentials.',6,1,354),(8345,'Nothing is essential.',7,1,354),(8346,'To the east, the flood has begun.',8,1,354),(8347,'Men call to each other on the water',9,1,354),(8348,'for the comfort of voices.',10,1,354),(8349,'Love surprises us.',11,1,354),(8350,'It ends.',12,1,354),(8351,'I got out of bed',1,1,355),(8352,'on two strong legs.',2,1,355),(8353,'It might have been',3,1,355),(8354,'otherwise. I ate',4,1,355),(8355,'cereal, sweet',5,1,355),(8356,'milk, ripe, flawless',6,1,355),(8357,'peach. It might',7,1,355),(8358,'have been otherwise.',8,1,355),(8359,'I took the dog uphill',9,1,355),(8360,'to the birch wood.',10,1,355),(8361,'All morning I did',11,1,355),(8362,'the work I love.',12,1,355),(8363,'At noon I lay down',13,2,355),(8364,'with my mate. It might',14,2,355),(8365,'have been otherwise.',15,2,355),(8366,'We ate dinner together',16,2,355),(8367,'at a table with silver',17,2,355),(8368,'candlesticks. It might',18,2,355),(8369,'have been otherwise.',19,2,355),(8370,'I slept in a bed',20,2,355),(8371,'in a room with paintings',21,2,355),(8372,'on the walls, and',22,2,355),(8373,'planned another day',23,2,355),(8374,'just like this day.',24,2,355),(8375,'But one day, I know,',25,2,355),(8376,'it will be otherwise.',26,2,355),(8377,'After I broke up with someone,',1,1,356),(8378,'or someone with me, days would go by,',2,1,356),(8379,'nights, weeks, soon it would be months since I had',3,1,356),(8380,'touched anyone. i would move as little',4,1,356),(8381,'as possible, the air seemed to press on my skin, my',5,1,356),(8382,'breasts like something broken open, un-',6,1,356),(8383,'capped and not covered, the buds floated in the',7,1,356),(8384,'center at the front, if I turned a corner too',8,1,356),(8385,'fast I would almost come. Swollen,',9,1,356),(8386,'walking like someone carrying something',10,1,356),(8387,'filled to the brim, the lip of the liquid',11,1,356),(8388,'rocking, taut, at the edge, at the top–',12,1,356),(8389,'and at times, in the shower, no matter how quickly',13,1,356),(8390,'I washed I’d be over the top in seconds,',14,1,356),(8391,'and then the loneliness, which had felt enormous,',15,1,356),(8392,'would be begin to grow, easily, rapidly,',16,1,356),(8393,'triple, sextuple, dodecatuple,',17,1,356),(8394,'the palm fronds and camellia buds bent',18,1,356),(8395,'double under a campus sky of iron.',19,1,356),(8396,'Later, when the next first kiss would come,',20,1,356),(8397,'it would shock me, the size and power of happiness,',21,1,356),(8398,'and yet it was familiar–lips aching and',22,1,356),(8399,'pulling, hands and feet going numb, I’d be',23,1,356),(8400,'trying not to moan, streaming slowly',24,1,356),(8401,'across the arc of the sky– it was always',25,1,356),(8402,'a return, the face in the dashlight closer',26,1,356),(8403,'and closer, like the approaching earth,',27,1,356),(8404,'until it is all you can see. Each time,',28,1,356),(8405,'I wanted to be coming home',29,1,356),(8406,'to stay. But every time I went',30,1,356),(8407,'from months of hunger to those first kisses,',31,1,356),(8408,'soon there were the last kisses, and I',32,1,356),(8409,'felt I stood outside of life, held',33,1,356),(8410,'back– but no one was holding me, I was',34,1,356),(8411,'waiting, very near the human,',35,1,356),(8412,'my violence uncommitted, I was',36,1,356),(8413,'saving it. Once I stripped and',37,1,356),(8414,'entered the pit I did not want ever to come up out of it.',38,1,356),(8415,'The cruelest thing I did to my younger sister',1,1,357),(8416,'wasn’t shooting a homemade blowdart into her knee,',2,1,357),(8417,'where it dangled for a breathless second',3,1,357),(8418,'before dropping off, but telling her we had',4,2,357),(8419,'another, older sister who’d gone away.',5,2,357),(8420,'What my motives were I can’t recall: a whim,',6,2,357),(8421,'or was it some need of mine to toy with loss,',7,3,357),(8422,'to probe the ache of imaginary wounds?',8,3,357),(8423,'But that first sentence was like a strand of DNA',9,3,357),(8424,'that replicated itself in coiling lies',10,4,357),(8425,'when my sister began asking her desperate questions.',11,4,357),(8426,'I called our older sister Isabel',12,4,357),(8427,'and gave her hazel eyes and long blonde hair.',13,5,357),(8428,'I had her run away to California',14,5,357),(8429,'where she took drugs and made hippie jewelry.',15,5,357),(8430,'Before I knew it, she’d moved to Santa Fe',16,6,357),(8431,'and opened a shop. She sent a postcard',17,6,357),(8432,'every year or so, but she’d stopped calling.',18,6,357),(8433,'I can still see my younger sister staring at me,',19,7,357),(8434,'her eyes widening with desolation',20,7,357),(8435,'then filling with tears. I can still remember',21,7,357),(8436,'how thrilled and horrified I was',22,8,357),(8437,'that something I’d just made up',23,8,357),(8438,'had that kind of power, and I can still feel',24,8,357),(8439,'the blowdart of remorse stabbing me in the heart',25,9,357),(8440,'as I rushed to tell her none of it was true.',26,9,357),(8441,'But it was too late. Our other sister',27,9,357),(8442,'had already taken shape, and we could not',28,10,357),(8443,'call her back from her life far away',29,10,357),(8444,'or tell her how badly we missed her.',30,10,357),(8445,'I wake up in your bed. I know I have been dreaming.',1,1,358),(8446,'Much earlier, the alarm broke us from each other,',2,1,358),(8447,'you’ve been at your desk for hours. I know what I dreamed:',3,1,358),(8448,'our friend the poet comes into my room',4,1,358),(8449,'where I’ve been writing for days,',5,1,358),(8450,'drafts, carbons, poems are scattered everywhere,',6,1,358),(8451,'and I want to show her one poem',7,1,358),(8452,'which is the poem of my life. But I hesitate,',8,1,358),(8453,'and wake. You’ve kissed my hair',9,1,358),(8454,'to wake me. I dreamed you were a poem,',10,1,358),(8455,'I say, a poem I wanted to show someone…',11,1,358),(8456,'and I laugh and fall dreaming again',12,1,358),(8457,'of the desire to show you to everyone I love,',13,1,358),(8458,'to move openly together',14,1,358),(8459,'in the pull of gravity, which is not simple,',15,1,358),(8460,'which carried the feathered grass a long way down the upbreathing air.',16,1,358),(8461,'Down near the bottom',1,1,359),(8462,'of the crossed-out list',2,1,359),(8463,'of things you have to do today,',3,1,359),(8464,'between “green thread”',4,2,359),(8465,'and “broccoli” you find',5,2,359),(8466,'that you have penciled “sunlight.”',6,2,359),(8467,'Resting on the page, the word',7,3,359),(8468,'is as beautiful, it touches you',8,3,359),(8469,'as if you had a friend',9,3,359),(8470,'and sunlight were a present',10,4,359),(8471,'he had sent you from some place distant',11,4,359),(8472,'as this morning—to cheer you up,',12,4,359),(8473,'and to remind you that,',13,5,359),(8474,'among your duties, pleasure',14,5,359),(8475,'is a thing,',15,5,359),(8476,'that also needs accomplishing',16,6,359),(8477,'Do you remember?',17,6,359),(8478,'that time and light are kinds',18,6,359),(8479,'of love, and love',19,7,359),(8480,'is no less practical',20,7,359),(8481,'than a coffee grinder',21,7,359),(8482,'or a safe spare tire?',22,8,359),(8483,'Tomorrow you may be utterly',23,8,359),(8484,'without a clue',24,8,359),(8485,'but today you get a telegram,',25,9,359),(8486,'from the heart in exile',26,9,359),(8487,'proclaiming that the kingdom',27,9,359),(8488,'still exists,',28,10,359),(8489,'the king and queen alive,',29,10,359),(8490,'still speaking to their children,',30,10,359),(8491,'—to any one among them',31,11,359),(8492,'who can find the time,',32,11,359),(8493,'to sit out in the sun and listen.',33,11,359),(8494,'What do they think has happened, the old fools,',1,1,360),(8495,'To make them like this? Do they somehow suppose',2,1,360),(8496,'It’s more grown-up when your mouth hangs open and drools,',3,1,360),(8497,'And you keep on pissing yourself, and can’t remember',4,1,360),(8498,'Who called this morning? Or that, if they only chose,',5,1,360),(8499,'They could alter things back to when they danced all night,',6,1,360),(8500,'Or went to their wedding, or sloped arms some September?',7,1,360),(8501,'Or do they fancy there’s really been no change,',8,1,360),(8502,'And they’ve always behaved as if they were crippled or tight,',9,1,360),(8503,'Or sat through days of thin continuous dreaming',10,1,360),(8504,'Watching the light move? If they don’t (and they can’t), it’s strange;',11,1,360),(8505,'Why aren’t they screaming?',12,1,360),(8506,'At death you break up: the bits that were you',13,2,360),(8507,'Start speeding away from each other for ever',14,2,360),(8508,'With no one to see. It’s only oblivion, true:',15,2,360),(8509,'We had it before, but then it was going to end,',16,2,360),(8510,'And was all the time merging with a unique endeavour',17,2,360),(8511,'To bring to bloom the million-petalled flower',18,2,360),(8512,'Of being here. Next time you can’t pretend',19,2,360),(8513,'There’ll be anything else. And these are the first signs:',20,2,360),(8514,'Not knowing how, not hearing who, the power',21,2,360),(8515,'Of choosing gone. Their looks show that they’re for it:',22,2,360),(8516,'Ash hair, toad hands, prune face dried into lines –',23,2,360),(8517,'How can they ignore it?',24,2,360),(8518,'Perhaps being old is having lighted rooms',25,3,360),(8519,'Inside your head, and people in them, acting',26,3,360),(8520,'People you know, yet can’t quite name; each looms',27,3,360),(8521,'Like a deep loss restored, from known doors turning,',28,3,360),(8522,'Setting down a lamp, smiling from a stair, extracting',29,3,360),(8523,'A known book from the shelves; or sometimes only',30,3,360),(8524,'The rooms themselves, chairs and a fire burning,',31,3,360),(8525,'The blown bush at the window, or the sun’s',32,3,360),(8526,'Faint friendliness on the wall some lonely',33,3,360),(8527,'Rain-ceased midsummer evening. That is where they live:',34,3,360),(8528,'Not here and now, but where all happened once.',35,3,360),(8529,'This is why they give',36,3,360),(8530,'An air of baffled absence, trying to be there',37,4,360),(8531,'Yet being here. For the rooms grow farther, leaving',38,4,360),(8532,'Incompetent cold, the constant wear and tear',39,4,360),(8533,'Of taken breath, and them crouching below',40,4,360),(8534,'Extinction’s alp, the old fools, never perceiving',41,4,360),(8535,'How near it is. This must be what keeps them quiet:',42,4,360),(8536,'The peak that stays in view wherever we go',43,4,360),(8537,'For them is rising ground. Can they never tell',44,4,360),(8538,'What is dragging them back, and how it will end? Not at night?',45,4,360),(8539,'Not when the strangers come? Never, throughout',46,4,360),(8540,'The whole hideous inverted childhood? Well,',47,4,360),(8541,'We shall find out.',48,4,360),(8542,'The Road goes ever on and on',1,1,361),(8543,'Down from the door where it began.',2,1,361),(8544,'Now far ahead the Road has gone,',3,1,361),(8545,'And I must follow, if I can,',4,1,361),(8546,'Pursuing it with weary feet,',5,1,361),(8547,'Until it joins some larger way,',6,1,361),(8548,'Where many paths and errands meet.',7,1,361),(8549,'And whither then? I cannot say.',8,1,361),(8550,'Green Buddhas',1,1,362),(8551,'On the fruit stand.',2,1,362),(8552,'We eat the smile',3,1,362),(8553,'And spit out the teeth.',4,1,362),(8554,'I’ve sent you a poem; your first glimpse',1,1,363),(8555,'of how, in that other world, I speak.',2,1,363),(8556,'It is a life-line thrown to you, since',3,1,363),(8557,'things have changed between us. Though I feel weak',4,1,363),(8558,'wondering how you will be struck by this,',5,1,363),(8559,'I’m strong with the sense of this new thing, this freak',6,1,363),(8560,'version of me; because the poem, “Care”, is',7,1,363),(8561,'one that came in a kind of trance—',8,1,363),(8562,'which means I don’t know where it came from, or how',9,1,363),(8563,'it moved itself from thought to thought, sequenced',10,1,363),(8564,'without help of logic. All I did was allow',11,1,363),(8565,'it. Yet it says what I know I want',12,1,363),(8566,'to say to you: love’s a specter which haunts',13,1,363),(8567,'the living back to life. You see, the peak',14,1,363),(8568,'of it is not in the couplet ending,',15,1,363),(8569,'the rhyme, the period; but in the sending.',16,1,363),(8570,'You have to try. You see the shrink.',1,1,364),(8571,'You learn a lot. You read. You think.',2,1,364),(8572,'You struggle to improve your looks.',3,1,364),(8573,'You meet some men. You write some books.',4,1,364),(8574,'You eat good food. You give up junk.',5,1,364),(8575,'You do not smoke. You don’t get drunk.',6,1,364),(8576,'You take up yoga, walk and swim.',7,1,364),(8577,'And nothing works. The outlook’s grim.',8,1,364),(8578,'You don’t know what to do. You cry.',9,1,364),(8579,'You’re running out of things to try.',10,1,364),(8580,'You blow your nose. You see the shrink.',11,2,364),(8581,'You walk. You give up food and drink.',12,2,364),(8582,'You fall in love. You make a plan.',13,2,364),(8583,'You struggle to improve your man.',14,2,364),(8584,'And nothing works. The outlooks grim.',15,2,364),(8585,'You go to yoga, cry and swim.',16,2,364),(8586,'You eat and drink. You give up looks.',17,2,364),(8587,'You struggle to improve your books.',18,2,364),(8588,'You cannot see the point. You sigh.',19,2,364),(8589,'You do not smoke. You have to try.',20,2,364),(8590,'When the King of Siam disliked a courtier,',1,1,365),(8591,'he gave him a beautiful white elephant.',2,1,365),(8592,'The miracle beast deserved such ritual',3,1,365),(8593,'that to care for him properly meant ruin.',4,1,365),(8594,'Yet to care for him improperly was worse.',5,1,365),(8595,'It appears the gift could not be refused.',6,1,365),(8596,'The boy at the far end of the train car kept looking behind him',1,1,366),(8597,'as if he were afraid or expecting someone',2,1,366),(8598,'and then she appeared in the glass door of the forward car and he rose',3,2,366),(8599,'and opened the door and let her in',4,2,366),(8600,'and she entered the car carrying a large black case',5,3,366),(8601,'in the unmistakable shape of a cello.',6,3,366),(8602,'She looked like an angel with a high forehead and somber eyes and her hair',7,4,366),(8603,'was tied up behind her neck with a black bow.',8,4,366),(8604,'And because of all that, he seemed a little awkward in his happiness to see her,',9,5,366),(8605,'whereas she was simply there, perfectly existing as a creature with a soft face who played the cello.',10,5,366),(8606,'And the reason I am writing this on the back of a manila envelope',11,6,366),(8607,'now that they have left the train together',12,6,366),(8608,'is to tell you that when she turned to lift the large, delicate cello',13,6,366),(8609,'onto the overhead rack,',14,6,366),(8610,'I saw him looking up at her and what she was doing',15,7,366),(8611,'the way the eyes of saints are painted',16,7,366),(8612,'when they are looking up at God when he is doing something remarkable,',17,7,366),(8613,'something that identifies him as God.',18,7,366),(8614,'He laughs and a breeze',1,1,367),(8615,'lifts his hair. His face tilts up',2,1,367),(8616,'towards what has happened',3,1,367),(8617,'to his hair, that it should lift,',4,1,367),(8618,'and his laugh goes. Why',5,1,367),(8619,'is this happening, his suddenly',6,1,367),(8620,'serious face wants to know, and',7,1,367),(8621,'what is happening. But',8,1,367),(8622,'all it is is a little breeze',9,1,367),(8623,'lifting his hair for a few seconds,',10,1,367),(8624,'a little breeze passing by',11,1,367),(8625,'on its way to oblivion —',12,1,367),(8626,'as this day is on its way there too,',13,1,367),(8627,'and as that day, twenty years ago,',14,1,367),(8628,'was, too.',15,1,367),(8629,'Someone I love is dying, which is why,',1,1,368),(8630,'when I turn the key in the ignition',2,1,368),(8631,'and back the car out of the parking space',3,1,368),(8632,'in the underground garage, and the radio',4,1,368),(8633,'comes on, sudden and loud, something',5,1,368),(8634,'by Haydn, a diminishing fugue, and maneuver',6,1,368),(8635,'the car through the dimly lit tunnels',7,1,368),(8636,'with their low ceilings, following the yellow arrows',8,1,368),(8637,'stenciled at intervals on the gray cement walls,',9,1,368),(8638,'I think of him, moving slowly through the last',10,1,368),(8639,'hard days of his life and I can’t stop crying.',11,1,368),(8640,'When I arrive at the toll gate I have to make myself',12,1,368),(8641,'stop thinking as I dig in my pockets for the last',13,1,368),(8642,'of my coins, turn to the attendant, indifferent',14,1,368),(8643,'in his blue smock, his white hair curling like smoke',15,1,368),(8644,'around his weathered neck, and say Thank you,',16,1,368),(8645,'like an idiot, and drive into the blinding midday light.',17,1,368),(8646,'Everything is hideously symbolic,',18,1,368),(8647,'and everything reminds me of cancer:',19,1,368),(8648,'the Chevron truck, its rounded underbelly',20,1,368),(8649,'spattered with road grit and the sweat',21,1,368),(8650,'of last night’s rain, the dumpster',22,1,368),(8651,'behind the flower shop, its sprung lid',23,1,368),(8652,'pressing down on dead wedding bouquets—',24,1,368),(8653,'even the smell of something simple, coffee drifting',25,1,368),(8654,'from the open door of a cafe and my eyes',26,1,368),(8655,'glaze over, ache in their sockets.',27,1,368),(8656,'For months now all I’ve wanted is the blessing',28,1,368),(8657,'of inattention, to move carefully from room to room',29,1,368),(8658,'in my small house, numb with forgetfulness.',30,1,368),(8659,'To eat a bowl of cereal and not imagine him,',31,1,368),(8660,'scrubbed thin and pale, unable to swallow.',32,1,368),(8661,'How not to imagine the tumors',33,1,368),(8662,'ripening beneath his skin, flesh',34,1,368),(8663,'I have kissed, stroked with my fingertips,',35,1,368),(8664,'pressed my belly and breasts against, some nights',36,1,368),(8665,'so hard I thought I could enter him, open',37,1,368),(8666,'his back at the spine like a door or a curtain',38,1,368),(8667,'and slip in like a small fish between his ribs,',39,1,368),(8668,'nudge the coral of his brain with my lips,',40,1,368),(8669,'brushing over the blue coils of his bowels',41,1,368),(8670,'with the fluted silk of my tail.',42,1,368),(8671,'Death is not romantic. He is dying,',43,1,368),(8672,'no matter how I see it, no matter',44,1,368),(8673,'what I believe, that fact is stark',45,1,368),(8674,'and one dimensional, atonal,',46,1,368),(8675,'a black note on an empty staff.',47,1,368),(8676,'My feet are cold, but not as cold as his,',48,1,368),(8677,'and I hate this music that floods',49,1,368),(8678,'the cramped insides of my car, my head,',50,1,368),(8679,'slowing the world down with its',51,1,368),(8680,'lurid majesty, transforming everything I see',52,1,368),(8681,'into some sort of memorial to life,',53,1,368),(8682,'no matter how ugly or senseless—',54,1,368),(8683,'even the old Ford in front of me,',55,1,368),(8684,'its battered rear end thinning to scallops of rust,',56,1,368),(8685,'pumping black classical clouds of exhaust',57,1,368),(8686,'into the shimmering air— even the tenacious',58,1,368),(8687,'nasturtiums clinging to a fence, vine and bloom',59,1,368),(8688,'of the insignificant, music spilling',60,1,368),(8689,'from their open faces, spooling upward, past',61,1,368),(8690,'the last rim of blue and into the still pool',62,1,368),(8691,'of another galaxy, as if all that emptiness',63,1,368),(8692,'were a place of benevolence, a destination,',64,1,368),(8693,'a peace we could rise to.',65,1,368),(8694,'The married man dreamt last night',1,1,369),(8695,'of a house that someone’d left him:',2,1,369),(8696,'the sort of house you have in dreams,',3,1,369),(8697,'a thousand rooms, one corridor. He wandered',4,2,369),(8698,'round alone, he told me, smiled',5,2,369),(8699,'his quiet, inward smile. And found',6,2,369),(8700,'a secret garden, high walled, locked, odd',7,3,369),(8701,'velvet green. There, a window looked',8,3,369),(8702,'towards the ocean. He flexed his pale hands,',9,3,369),(8703,'I had, he said, the key. His wife touched',10,4,369),(8704,'their girl asleep, a lush and heavy animal,',11,4,369),(8705,'and watched him, knowing, satisfied.',12,4,369),(8706,'The light came through the window now',1,1,370),(8707,'straight from the sun above,',2,1,370),(8708,'and so inside my little room',3,1,370),(8709,'there plunged the rays of Love.',4,1,370),(8710,'In streams of light I clearly saw',5,2,370),(8711,'the dust you seldom see,',6,2,370),(8712,'the dust the Nameless makes to speak',7,2,370),(8713,'a Name for one like me.',8,2,370),(8714,'And all mixed up with sunlight now',9,3,370),(8715,'the flecks did float and dance',10,3,370),(8716,'and I was tumbled up with them',11,3,370),(8717,'in formless circumstance.',12,3,370),(8718,'I’ll try to say a little more:',13,4,370),(8719,'this Love went on and on',14,4,370),(8720,'until it reached an open door –',15,4,370),(8721,'Then Love itself was gone.',16,4,370),(8722,'The self-same moment words were seen',17,5,370),(8723,'from every window frame,',18,5,370),(8724,'but there was nothing left between',19,5,370),(8725,'the Nameless and the Name.',20,5,370),(8726,'The bloodstains on this page',1,1,371),(8727,'are islands made asleep',2,1,371),(8728,'by strangers. Not of my knife',3,1,371),(8729,'or knowing, they appear',4,1,371),(8730,'as Thule did to mariners',5,1,371),(8731,'lost in the monstered maps',6,1,371),(8732,'of medieval cartography.',7,1,371),(8733,'So, however here, be here,',8,1,371),(8734,'as proof or fiction that',9,1,371),(8735,'a secret brother dreams',10,1,371),(8736,'while I’m awake',11,1,371),(8737,'and wakes up while I sleep,',12,1,371),(8738,'as mapper, sea-self, twin,',13,1,371),(8739,'who navigates a course for me',14,1,371),(8740,'from here to the Bloodlust Isles',15,1,371),(8741,'so I can wake up as a liar,',16,1,371),(8742,'not knowing where I’ve been.',17,1,371),(8743,'I daydream, melancholy at the windowsill—',1,1,372),(8744,'memories I will never tell—',2,1,372),(8745,'our passion is the late night hours,',3,2,372),(8746,'our tearful goodbyes at dawn.',4,2,372),(8747,'Mountains and rivers divide us,',5,3,372),(8748,'I’ve given up hoping for rain.',6,3,372),(8749,'Divided, I dream of you today—',7,4,372),(8750,'I even embrace the pain.',8,4,372),(8751,'for Patricia',1,1,373),(8752,'As long as you want',2,2,373),(8753,'almost never is',3,2,373),(8754,'as long as you want,',4,2,373),(8755,'or it is much longer.',5,3,373),(8756,'He will not live',6,3,373),(8757,'as long as you want,',7,3,373),(8758,'but his forgetfulness',8,4,373),(8759,'will last as long as memory,',9,4,373),(8760,'as long as you. Want,',10,4,373),(8761,'at once desire and privation,',11,5,373),(8762,'is the work of his disease.',12,5,373),(8763,'As long as you want',13,5,373),(8764,'him, you return to watch hours',14,6,373),(8765,'unravel. Are they hard as yours,',15,6,373),(8766,'as long? As you want',16,6,373),(8767,'to let go of the ghost,',17,7,373),(8768,'you say “but I’ll stay',18,7,373),(8769,'as long as you want,',19,7,373),(8770,'as long as you want.”',20,7,373),(8771,'To smother their smallness',1,1,374),(8772,'in felt. Unsatisfied folds, filmic',2,1,374),(8773,'emotion — remote, pale and impalpable.',3,1,374),(8774,'Each with their own secret',4,1,374),(8775,'inflection of want.',5,1,374),(8776,'There was no debate on this but merely a mood',6,1,374),(8777,'shift when certain words were mentioned.',7,1,374),(8778,'Inane nexus of speech, never quite capturing',8,1,374),(8779,'the what invoked.',9,1,374),(8780,'She slid her panties down over her hips.',10,1,374),(8781,'The broidered hue of illusion,',11,1,374),(8782,'idea drunk in the delicate gloom.',12,1,374),(8783,'The picture of a hand becoming',13,1,374),(8784,'a hand. Whose? Yes. Desire reworked stepwise,',14,1,374),(8785,'a would weep. A was told and lying very still.',15,1,374),(8786,'Was allowing just so to happen',16,1,374),(8787,'to her. Neck nape a curve becoming',17,1,374),(8788,'infinite abyss extended to wish, wish, wish,',18,1,374),(8789,'and righty-o, a stunning result. Isn’t that nice?',19,1,374),(8790,'Rosey-o, rosey-o. She woke, took one look:',20,1,374),(8791,'Oh, it’s you. Yes. I thought I dreamed you.',21,1,374),(8792,'Siren girls sang somewhere. Nice, she said. Nice.',22,1,374),(8793,'I want a red dress.',1,1,375),(8794,'I want it flimsy and cheap,',2,1,375),(8795,'I want it too tight, I want to wear it',3,1,375),(8796,'until someone tears it off me.',4,1,375),(8797,'I want it sleeveless and backless,',5,1,375),(8798,'this dress, so no one has to guess',6,1,375),(8799,'what’s underneath. I want to walk down',7,1,375),(8800,'the street past Thrifty’s and the hardware store',8,1,375),(8801,'with all those keys glittering in the window,',9,1,375),(8802,'past Mr. and Mrs. Wong selling day-old',10,1,375),(8803,'donuts in their café, past the Guerra brothers',11,1,375),(8804,'slinging pigs from the truck and onto the dolly,',12,1,375),(8805,'hoisting the slick snouts over their shoulders.',13,1,375),(8806,'I want to walk like I’m the only',14,1,375),(8807,'woman on earth and I can have my pick.',15,1,375),(8808,'I want that red dress bad.',16,1,375),(8809,'I want it to confirm',17,1,375),(8810,'your worst fears about me,',18,1,375),(8811,'to show you how little I care about you',19,1,375),(8812,'or anything except what',20,1,375),(8813,'I want. When I find it, I’ll pull that garment',21,1,375),(8814,'from its hanger like I’m choosing a body',22,1,375),(8815,'to carry me into this world, through',23,1,375),(8816,'the birth-cries and the love-cries too,',24,1,375),(8817,'and I’ll wear it like bones, like skin,',25,1,375),(8818,'it’ll be the goddamned',26,1,375),(8819,'dress they bury me in.',27,1,375),(8820,'if it doesn’t come bursting out of you',1,1,376),(8821,'in spite of everything,',2,1,376),(8822,'don’t do it.',3,1,376),(8823,'unless it comes unasked out of your',4,1,376),(8824,'heart and your mind and your mouth',5,1,376),(8825,'and your gut,',6,1,376),(8826,'don’t do it.',7,1,376),(8827,'if you have to sit for hours',8,1,376),(8828,'staring at your computer screen',9,1,376),(8829,'or hunched over your',10,1,376),(8830,'typewriter',11,1,376),(8831,'searching for words,',12,1,376),(8832,'don’t do it.',13,1,376),(8833,'if you’re doing it for money or',14,1,376),(8834,'fame,',15,1,376),(8835,'don’t do it.',16,1,376),(8836,'if you’re doing it because you want',17,1,376),(8837,'women in your bed,',18,1,376),(8838,'don’t do it.',19,1,376),(8839,'if you have to sit there and',20,1,376),(8840,'rewrite it again and again,',21,1,376),(8841,'don’t do it.',22,1,376),(8842,'if it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,',23,1,376),(8843,'don’t do it.',24,1,376),(8844,'if you’re trying to write like somebody',25,1,376),(8845,'else,',26,1,376),(8846,'forget about it.',27,1,376),(8847,'if you have to wait for it to roar out of',28,2,376),(8848,'you,',29,2,376),(8849,'then wait patiently.',30,2,376),(8850,'if it never does roar out of you,',31,2,376),(8851,'do something else.',32,2,376),(8852,'if you first have to read it to your wife',33,3,376),(8853,'or your girlfriend or your boyfriend',34,3,376),(8854,'or your parents or to anybody at all,',35,3,376),(8855,'you’re not ready.',36,3,376),(8856,'don’t be like so many writers,',37,4,376),(8857,'don’t be like so many thousands of',38,4,376),(8858,'people who call themselves writers,',39,4,376),(8859,'don’t be dull and boring and',40,4,376),(8860,'pretentious, don’t be consumed with self-',41,4,376),(8861,'love.',42,4,376),(8862,'the libraries of the world have',43,4,376),(8863,'yawned themselves to',44,4,376),(8864,'sleep',45,4,376),(8865,'over your kind.',46,4,376),(8866,'don’t add to that.',47,4,376),(8867,'don’t do it.',48,4,376),(8868,'unless it comes out of',49,4,376),(8869,'your soul like a rocket,',50,4,376),(8870,'unless being still would',51,4,376),(8871,'drive you to madness or',52,4,376),(8872,'suicide or murder,',53,4,376),(8873,'don’t do it.',54,4,376),(8874,'unless the sun inside you is',55,4,376),(8875,'burning your gut,',56,4,376),(8876,'don’t do it.',57,4,376),(8877,'when it is truly time,',58,5,376),(8878,'and if you have been chosen,',59,5,376),(8879,'it will do it by',60,5,376),(8880,'itself and it will keep on doing it',61,5,376),(8881,'until you die or it dies in you.',62,5,376),(8882,'there is no other way.',63,6,376),(8883,'and there never was.',64,7,376),(8884,'The fist clenched round my heart',1,1,377),(8885,'loosens a little, and I gasp',2,1,377),(8886,'brightness; but it tightens',3,1,377),(8887,'again. When have I ever not loved',4,1,377),(8888,'the pain of love? But this has moved',5,1,377),(8889,'past love to mania. This has the strong',6,2,377),(8890,'clench of the madman, this is',7,2,377),(8891,'gripping the ledge of unreason, before',8,2,377),(8892,'plunging howling into the abyss.',9,2,377),(8893,'Hold hard then, heart. This way at least you live.',10,3,377),(8894,'Half past twelve. The time has quickly passed',1,1,378),(8895,'since nine o’clock when I first turned up the lamp',2,1,378),(8896,'and sat down here. I’ve been sitting without reading,',3,1,378),(8897,'without speaking. With whom should I speak,',4,1,378),(8898,'so utterly alone within this house?',5,1,378),(8899,'The apparition of my youthful body,',6,1,378),(8900,'since nine o’clock when I first turned up the lamp,',7,1,378),(8901,'has come and found me and reminded me',8,1,378),(8902,'of shuttered perfumed rooms',9,1,378),(8903,'and of pleasure spent—what wanton pleasure!',10,1,378),(8904,'And it also brought before my eyes',11,1,378),(8905,'streets made unrecognizable by time,',12,1,378),(8906,'bustling city centres that are no more',13,1,378),(8907,'and theatres and cafés that existed long ago.',14,1,378),(8908,'The apparition of my youthful body',15,1,378),(8909,'came and also brought me cause for pain:',16,1,378),(8910,'deaths in the family; separations;',17,1,378),(8911,'the feelings of my loved ones, the feelings of',18,1,378),(8912,'those long dead which I so little valued.',19,1,378),(8913,'Half past twelve. How the time has passed.',20,1,378),(8914,'Half past twelve. How the years have passed.',21,1,378),(8915,'The young girl wanted a new voice. After all, people got',1,1,379),(8916,'new things every day. A new hip, a new nose, a new set',2,1,379),(8917,'of suspenders. She adored the consonants that landed',3,1,379),(8918,'like wooden shoes. She loved the type of L-sounds',4,1,379),(8919,'that made a mouth drool from the back of the tongue',5,1,379),(8920,'to the front. She practiced her new voice into seashells,',6,1,379),(8921,'tin cans, caves. She gave her first performance quietly,',7,1,379),(8922,'into the ear of her sleeping dog. She could tell by his snorting',8,1,379),(8923,'that his dreams were of fat tree trunks and black, truffle-filled',9,1,379),(8924,'soil. Later, she drove to the local gas station and used her new',10,1,379),(8925,'voice to ask for a pack of cigarettes. She wasn’t wearing a bra,',11,1,379),(8926,'but the attendant didn’t notice. He was too busy listening',12,1,379),(8927,'to the way sound seemed to drip out of her mouth',13,1,379),(8928,'as she said the word, Camel.',14,1,379),(8929,'To grow old is to lose everything.',1,1,380),(8930,'Aging, everybody knows it.',2,1,380),(8931,'Even when we are young,',3,1,380),(8932,'we glimpse it sometimes, and nod our heads',4,1,380),(8933,'when a grandfather dies.',5,1,380),(8934,'Then we row for years on the midsummer',6,1,380),(8935,'pond, ignorant and content. But a marriage,',7,1,380),(8936,'that began without harm, scatters',8,1,380),(8937,'into debris on the shore,',9,1,380),(8938,'and a friend from school drops',10,1,380),(8939,'cold on a rocky strand.',11,1,380),(8940,'If a new love carries us',12,1,380),(8941,'past middle age, our wife will die',13,1,380),(8942,'at her strongest and most beautiful.',14,1,380),(8943,'New women come and go. All go.',15,1,380),(8944,'The pretty lover who announces',16,1,380),(8945,'that she is temporary',17,1,380),(8946,'is temporary. The bold woman,',18,1,380),(8947,'middle-aged against our old age,',19,1,380),(8948,'sinks under an anxiety she cannot withstand.',20,1,380),(8949,'Another friend of decades estranges himself',21,1,380),(8950,'in words that pollute thirty years.',22,1,380),(8951,'Let us stifle under mud at the pond’s edge',23,1,380),(8952,'and affirm that it is fitting',24,1,380),(8953,'and delicious to lose everything.',25,1,380),(8954,'This evening, I sat by an open window',1,1,381),(8955,'and read till the light was gone and the book',2,1,381),(8956,'was no more than a part of the darkness.',3,1,381),(8957,'I could easily have switched on a lamp,',4,1,381),(8958,'but I wanted to ride this day down into night,',5,1,381),(8959,'to sit alone and smooth the unreadable page',6,1,381),(8960,'with the pale gray ghost of my hand.',7,1,381),(8961,'I am lazy, the laziest',1,1,382),(8962,'girl in the world. I sleep during',2,1,382),(8963,'the day when I want to, ’til',3,1,382),(8964,'my face is creased and swollen,',4,1,382),(8965,'’til my lips are dry and hot. I',5,1,382),(8966,'eat as I please: cookies and milk',6,1,382),(8967,'after lunch, butter and sour cream',7,1,382),(8968,'on my baked potato, foods that',8,1,382),(8969,'slothful people eat, that turn',9,1,382),(8970,'yellow and opaque beneath the skin.',10,1,382),(8971,'Sometimes come dinnertime Sunday',11,1,382),(8972,'I am still in my nightgown, the one',12,1,382),(8973,'with the lace trim listing because',13,1,382),(8974,'I have not mended it. Many days',14,1,382),(8975,'I do not exercise, only',15,1,382),(8976,'consider it, then rub my curdy',16,1,382),(8977,'belly and lie down. Even',17,1,382),(8978,'my poems are lazy. I use',18,1,382),(8979,'syllabics instead of iambs,',19,1,382),(8980,'prefer slant to the gong of full rhyme,',20,1,382),(8981,'write briefly while others go',21,1,382),(8982,'for pages. And yesterday,',22,1,382),(8983,'for example, I did not work at all!',23,1,382),(8984,'I got in my car and I drove',24,1,382),(8985,'to factory outlet stores, purchased',25,1,382),(8986,'stockings and panties and socks',26,1,382),(8987,'with my father’s money.',27,1,382),(8988,'To think, in childhood I missed only',28,2,382),(8989,'one day of school per year. I went',29,2,382),(8990,'to ballet class four days a week',30,2,382),(8991,'at four-forty-five and on',31,2,382),(8992,'Saturdays, beginning always',32,2,382),(8993,'with plie, ending with curtsy.',33,2,382),(8994,'To think, I knew only industry,',34,2,382),(8995,'the industry of my race',35,2,382),(8996,'and of immigrants, the radio',36,2,382),(8997,'tuned always to the station',37,2,382),(8998,'that said, Line up your summer',38,2,382),(8999,'job months in advance. Work hard',39,2,382),(9000,'and do not shame your family,',40,2,382),(9001,'who worked hard to give you what you have.',41,2,382),(9002,'There is no sin but sloth. Burn',42,2,382),(9003,'to a wick and keep moving.',43,2,382),(9004,'I avoided sleep for years,',44,3,382),(9005,'up at night replaying',45,3,382),(9006,'evening news stories about',46,3,382),(9007,'nearby jailbreaks, fat people',47,3,382),(9008,'who ate fried chicken and woke up',48,3,382),(9009,'dead. In sleep I am looking',49,3,382),(9010,'for poems in the shape of open',50,3,382),(9011,'V’s of birds flying in formation,',51,3,382),(9012,'or open arms saying, I forgive you, all.',52,3,382),(9013,'Rain fell in a post-romantic way.',1,1,383),(9014,'Heads in the planets, toes tucked',2,1,383),(9015,'under carpets, that’s how we got our bodies',3,2,383),(9016,'through. The translator made the sign',4,2,383),(9017,'for twenty horses backing away from',5,3,383),(9018,'a lump of sugar. Yes, you.',6,3,383),(9019,'When I said did you want me',7,4,383),(9020,'I meant me in the general sense.',8,4,383),(9021,'The drink we drank was cordial.',9,5,383),(9022,'In a spoon, the ceiling fan whirled.',10,5,383),(9023,'The Old World smoked in the fireplace.',11,6,383),(9024,'Glum was the woman in the ostrich feather hat.',12,6,383),(9025,'“It is believed that the onion originally came from India. In Egypt it was an object of worship — why I haven’t been able to find out. From Egypt the onion entered Greece and on to Italy, thence into all of Europe.” — Better Living Cookbook',1,1,384),(9026,'When I think how far the onion has traveled',2,2,384),(9027,'just to enter my stew today, I could kneel and praise',3,2,384),(9028,'all small forgotten miracles,',4,2,384),(9029,'crackly paper peeling on the drainboard,',5,2,384),(9030,'pearly layers in smooth agreement,',6,2,384),(9031,'the way the knife enters onion',7,2,384),(9032,'and onion falls apart on the chopping block,',8,2,384),(9033,'a history revealed.',9,2,384),(9034,'And I would never scold the onion',10,3,384),(9035,'for causing tears.',11,3,384),(9036,'It is right that tears fall',12,3,384),(9037,'for something small and forgotten.',13,3,384),(9038,'How at meal, we sit to eat,',14,3,384),(9039,'commenting on texture of meat or herbal aroma',15,3,384),(9040,'but never on the translucence of onion,',16,3,384),(9041,'now limp, now divided,',17,3,384),(9042,'or it’s traditionally honorable career:',18,3,384),(9043,'For the sake of others,',19,3,384),(9044,'disappear.',20,3,384),(9045,'Nobody heard him, the dead man,',1,1,385),(9046,'But still he lay moaning:',2,1,385),(9047,'I was much further out than you thought',3,1,385),(9048,'And not waving but drowning.',4,1,385),(9049,'Poor chap, he always loved larking',5,2,385),(9050,'And now he’s dead',6,2,385),(9051,'It must have been too cold for him his heart gave way,',7,2,385),(9052,'They said.',8,2,385),(9053,'Oh, no no no, it was too cold always',9,3,385),(9054,'(Still the dead one lay moaning)',10,3,385),(9055,'I was much too far out all my life',11,3,385),(9056,'And not waving but drowning.',12,3,385),(9057,'Physics says: go to sleep. Of course',1,1,386),(9058,'you’re tired. Every atom in you',2,1,386),(9059,'has been dancing the shimmy in silver shoes',3,1,386),(9060,'nonstop from mitosis to now.',4,1,386),(9061,'Quit tapping your feet. They’ll dance',5,1,386),(9062,'inside themselves without you. Go to sleep.',6,1,386),(9063,'Geology says: it will be all right. Slow inch',7,2,386),(9064,'by inch America is giving itself',8,2,386),(9065,'to the ocean. Go to sleep. Let darkness',9,2,386),(9066,'lap at your sides. Give darkness an inch.',10,2,386),(9067,'You aren’t alone. All of the continents used to be',11,2,386),(9068,'one body. You aren’t alone. Go to sleep.',12,2,386),(9069,'Astronomy says: the sun will rise tomorrow,',13,3,386),(9070,'Zoology says: on rainbow-fish and lithe gazelle,',14,3,386),(9071,'Psychology says: but first it has to be night, so',15,3,386),(9072,'Biology says: the body-clocks are stopped all over town',16,3,386),(9073,'and',17,3,386),(9074,'History says: here are the blankets, layer on layer, down and down.',18,3,386),(9075,'Dear love, though I am a hopeless correspondent,',1,1,387),(9076,'I found your letter habits lacking too',2,1,387),(9077,'Till I received your card from H.-lulu.',3,1,387),(9078,'It made me more-than-slightly-less despondent',4,1,387),(9079,'To see how you transformed your ocean swim',5,1,387),(9080,'Among dumb bubble-blowers into meters',6,1,387),(9081,'And daffy rhymes about exotic tweeters',7,1,387),(9082,'Beyond your balcony at 2 a.m.',8,1,387),(9083,'I went to bed when you went to Hawaii,',9,2,387),(9084,'And shut my eyes so tightly I saw stars,',10,2,387),(9085,'And clenched my sheets like wadded-up memoirs',11,2,387),(9086,'And made some noise like wah-wah-wah, i.e.,',12,2,387),(9087,'I find your absence grimly problematic.',13,2,387),(9088,'The days stack up like empty boxes stored',14,2,387),(9089,'In ever-higher towers of cardboard',15,2,387),(9090,'Swaying in senseless-lost-time’s spooky attic.',16,2,387),(9091,'I’ll give the -atic rhyme another try.',17,2,387),(9092,'To misconstrue the point-of-view Socratic,',18,2,387),(9093,'Life is a painful stammered-out emphatic',19,2,387),(9094,'Pronunciation of the word Goodbye.',20,2,387),(9095,'Or, as it came out on the telephone,',21,3,387),(9096,'Sooner-the-better is the way I see it:',22,3,387),(9097,'Just say, “I guess not”; I’ll reply, “So be it.”',23,3,387),(9098,'Beloved, if you throw this dog a bone,',24,3,387),(9099,'TO readopt the stray-dog metaphor,',25,3,387),(9100,'I’ll keep my vigil till the cows come home.',26,3,387),(9101,'You’ll hear me howling over there in Rome.',27,3,387),(9102,'I have no explanations, furthermore—',28,3,387),(9103,'But let me say I’ve had it up to here',29,3,387),(9104,'With scrutinizing the inscrutable;',30,3,387),(9105,'The whys and how-comes of immutable',31,3,387),(9106,'Unhesitating passion are unclear—',32,3,387),(9107,'I don’t love you because you’re good at rhymes,',33,4,387),(9108,'And not because I think you’re not-so-dumb,',34,4,387),(9109,'I don’t love you because you make me come',35,4,387),(9110,'And come and come innumerable times,',36,4,387),(9111,'And not for your romantic overcoats,',37,4,387),(9112,'And not because our friends all say I should,',38,4,387),(9113,'And not because we wouldn’t or we would',39,4,387),(9114,'Be or not be at one another’s throats,',40,4,387),(9115,'And not because your accent thrills my ear—',41,4,387),(9116,'Last night you said not “sever” but “severe,”',42,4,387),(9117,'But then “severe” describes the act “to sever”—',43,4,387),(9118,'I love you for no reason whatsoever.',44,4,387),(9119,'And that’s the worst, as William S. the Bard',45,5,387),(9120,'Wrote out in black-and-white while cold-and-hot:',46,5,387),(9121,'Reasons can be removed, but love cannot.',47,5,387),(9122,'The comic view insists: Don’t take it hard,',48,5,387),(9123,'But every day I’m pacing up and down',49,5,387),(9124,'The hallway till I drive my neighbors mad,',50,5,387),(9125,'And evenings come with what-cannot-be-had',51,5,387),(9126,'As lights blink on around this boring town,',52,5,387),(9127,'Whence I unplug the phone and draw the shade',53,5,387),(9128,'And drink myself half-blind and fantasize',54,5,387),(9129,'That we’re between the sheets, your brilliant eyes',55,5,387),(9130,'Open me and, bang, we have it make—',56,5,387),(9131,'When in reality I sit alone',57,5,387),(9132,'And, staring at my hands, I think “I think',58,5,387),(9133,'Till love and fame to nothingness do sink”',59,5,387),(9134,'While hating everything I’ve always known',60,5,387),(9135,'About how you and I are sunk as well.',61,5,387),(9136,'Under the aspect of eternity',62,6,387),(9137,'The world has already ended anyway.',63,6,387),(9138,'And, without you, my life can go to hell',64,6,387),(9139,'On roller skates, as far as I’m concerned.',65,6,387),(9140,'Two things are clear: these quatrains should be burned,',66,6,387),(9141,'And love is awful, but it leads us to',67,6,387),(9142,'Our places in the human comedy,',68,6,387),(9143,'Frescoes of which abound in Italy.',69,6,387),(9144,'And though I won’t be sitting next to you,',70,6,387),(9145,'I’ll take my seat with minimal complaints.',71,6,387),(9146,'May you sit in the company of saints',72,6,387),(9147,'And intellectuals and fabulous beauties,',73,6,387),(9148,'And not forget this constant love of Trude’s.',74,6,387),(9149,'You begin this way:',1,1,388),(9150,'this is your hand,',2,1,388),(9151,'this is your eye,',3,1,388),(9152,'that is a fish, blue and flat',4,1,388),(9153,'on the paper, almost',5,1,388),(9154,'the shape of an eye.',6,1,388),(9155,'This is your mouth, this is an O',7,1,388),(9156,'or a moon, whichever',8,1,388),(9157,'you like. This is yellow.',9,1,388),(9158,'Outside the window',10,2,388),(9159,'is the rain, green',11,2,388),(9160,'because it is summer, and beyond that',12,2,388),(9161,'the trees and then the world,',13,2,388),(9162,'which is round and has only',14,2,388),(9163,'the colors of these nine crayons.',15,2,388),(9164,'This is the world, which is fuller',16,3,388),(9165,'and more difficult to learn than I have said.',17,3,388),(9166,'You are right to smudge it that way',18,3,388),(9167,'with the red and then',19,3,388),(9168,'the orange: the world burns.',20,3,388),(9169,'Once you have learned these words',21,4,388),(9170,'you will learn that there are more',22,4,388),(9171,'words than you can ever learn.',23,4,388),(9172,'The word hand floats above your hand',24,4,388),(9173,'like a small cloud over a lake.',25,4,388),(9174,'The word hand anchors',26,4,388),(9175,'your hand to this table,',27,4,388),(9176,'your hand is a warm stone',28,4,388),(9177,'I hold between two words.',29,4,388),(9178,'This is your hand, these are my hands, this is the world,',30,5,388),(9179,'which is round but not flat and has more colors',31,5,388),(9180,'than we can see.',32,5,388),(9181,'It begins, it has an end,',33,6,388),(9182,'this is what you will',34,6,388),(9183,'come back to, this is your hand.',35,6,388),(9184,'This ocean, humiliating in its disguises',1,1,389),(9185,'Tougher than anything.',2,1,389),(9186,'No one listens to poetry. The ocean',3,1,389),(9187,'Does not mean to be listened to. A drop',4,1,389),(9188,'Or crash of water. It means',5,1,389),(9189,'Nothing.',6,1,389),(9190,'It',7,1,389),(9191,'Is bread and butter',8,1,389),(9192,'Pepper and salt. The death',9,1,389),(9193,'That young men hope for. Aimlessly',10,1,389),(9194,'It pounds the shore. White and aimless signals. No',11,1,389),(9195,'One listens to poetry.',12,1,389),(9196,'There’s a thread you follow. It goes among',1,1,390),(9197,'things that change. But it doesn’t change.',2,1,390),(9198,'People wonder about what you are pursuing.',3,1,390),(9199,'You have to explain about the thread.',4,1,390),(9200,'But it is hard for others to see.',5,1,390),(9201,'While you hold it you can’t get lost.',6,1,390),(9202,'Tragedies happen; people get hurt',7,1,390),(9203,'or die; and you suffer and get old.',8,1,390),(9204,'Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.',9,1,390),(9205,'You don’t ever let go of the thread.',10,1,390),(9206,'The dark scissors of his legs',1,1,391),(9207,'cut the moon’s',2,1,391),(9208,'raw silk, highways of wind',3,2,391),(9209,'torn into lanes, his feet',4,2,391),(9210,'pushing down the shadow',5,3,391),(9211,'whose patterns he becomes',6,3,391),(9212,'while trucks, one by one,',7,4,391),(9213,'pass him by,',8,4,391),(9214,'headlights pouring',9,5,391),(9215,'from his pace, his eyes',10,5,391),(9216,'cracked as the Hudson',11,6,391),(9217,'wraps street lamps',12,6,391),(9218,'in its rippled blue shells,',13,7,391),(9219,'the summer’s thin, thin veins',14,7,391),(9220,'bursting with dawn,',15,8,391),(9221,'he, now suddenly free,',16,8,391),(9222,'from the air, from himself,',17,9,391),(9223,'his heart beating far, far',18,9,391),(9224,'behind him',19,10,391),(9225,'With some surprise, I balance my small female skull in my hands.',1,1,392),(9226,'What is it like? An ocarina? Blow in its eye.',2,1,392),(9227,'It cannot cry, holds its breath only as long as I exhale,',3,1,392),(9228,'mildly alarmed now, into the hole where the nose was,',4,1,392),(9229,'press my ear to its grin. A vanishing sigh.',5,1,392),(9230,'For some time, I sit on the lavatory seat with my head',6,1,392),(9231,'in my hands, appalled. It feels much lighter than I’d thought;',7,1,392),(9232,'the weight of a deck of cards, a slim volume of verse,',8,1,392),(9233,'but with something else, as though it could levitate. Disturbing.',9,1,392),(9234,'So why do I kiss it on the brow, my warm lips to its papery bone,',10,1,392),(9235,'and take it to the mirror to ask for a gottle of geer?',11,2,392),(9236,'I rinse it under the tap, watch dust run away, like sand',12,2,392),(9237,'from a swimming cap, then dry it – firstborn – gently',13,2,392),(9238,'with a towel. I see the scar where I fell for sheer love',14,2,392),(9239,'down treacherous stairs, and read that shattering day like braille.',15,2,392),(9240,'Love, I murmur to my skull, then, louder, other grand words,',16,3,392),(9241,'shouting the hollow nouns in a white-tiled room.',17,3,392),(9242,'Downstairs they will think I have lost my mind. No. I only weep',18,3,392),(9243,'into these two holes here, or I’m grinning back at the joke, this is',19,3,392),(9244,'a friend of mine. See, I hold her face in trembling, passionate hands.',20,3,392),(9245,'The birds they sang',1,1,393),(9246,'at the break of day',2,1,393),(9247,'Start again',3,1,393),(9248,'I heard them say',4,1,393),(9249,'Don’t dwell on what',5,1,393),(9250,'has passed away',6,1,393),(9251,'or what is yet to be.',7,1,393),(9252,'Ah the wars they will',8,1,393),(9253,'be fought again',9,1,393),(9254,'The holy dove',10,1,393),(9255,'She will be caught again',11,1,393),(9256,'bought and sold',12,1,393),(9257,'and bought again',13,1,393),(9258,'the dove is never free.',14,1,393),(9259,'Ring the bells that still can ring',15,1,393),(9260,'Forget your perfect offering',16,1,393),(9261,'There is a crack in everything',17,1,393),(9262,'That’s how the light gets in.',18,1,393),(9263,'We asked for signs',19,1,393),(9264,'the signs were sent:',20,1,393),(9265,'the birth betrayed',21,1,393),(9266,'the marriage spent',22,1,393),(9267,'Yeah the widowhood',23,1,393),(9268,'of every government —',24,1,393),(9269,'signs for all to see.',25,1,393),(9270,'I can’t run no more',26,1,393),(9271,'with that lawless crowd',27,1,393),(9272,'while the killers in high places',28,1,393),(9273,'say their prayers out loud.',29,1,393),(9274,'But they’ve summoned, they’ve summoned up',30,1,393),(9275,'a thundercloud',31,1,393),(9276,'and they’re going to hear from me.',32,1,393),(9277,'Ring the bells that still can ring…',33,1,393),(9278,'You can add up the parts',34,1,393),(9279,'but you won’t have the sum',35,1,393),(9280,'You can strike up the march,',36,1,393),(9281,'there is no drum',37,1,393),(9282,'Every heart, every heart',38,1,393),(9283,'to love will come',39,1,393),(9284,'but like a refugee.',40,1,393),(9285,'Ring the bells that still can ring',41,1,393),(9286,'Forget your perfect offering',42,1,393),(9287,'There is a crack, a crack in everything',43,1,393),(9288,'That’s how the light gets in.',44,1,393),(9289,'Ring the bells that still can ring',45,1,393),(9290,'Forget your perfect offering',46,1,393),(9291,'There is a crack, a crack in everything',47,1,393),(9292,'That’s how the light gets in.',48,1,393),(9293,'That’s how the light gets in.',49,1,393),(9294,'That’s how the light gets in.',50,1,393),(9295,'The history of my stupidity would fill many volumes.',1,1,394),(9296,'Some would be devoted to acting against consciousness,',2,2,394),(9297,'Like the flight of a moth which, had it known,',3,2,394),(9298,'Would have tended nevertheless toward the candle’s flame.',4,2,394),(9299,'Others would deal with ways to silence anxiety,',5,3,394),(9300,'The little whisper which, though it is a warning, is ignored.',6,3,394),(9301,'I would deal separately with satisfaction and pride,',7,4,394),(9302,'The time when I was among their adherents',8,4,394),(9303,'Who strut victoriously, unsuspecting.',9,4,394),(9304,'But all of them would have one subject, desire,',10,5,394),(9305,'If only my own—but no, not at all; alas,',11,5,394),(9306,'I was driven because I wanted to be like others.',12,5,394),(9307,'I was afraid of what was wild and indecent in me.',13,5,394),(9308,'The history of my stupidity will not be written.',14,6,394),(9309,'For one thing, it’s late. And the truth is laborious.',15,6,394),(9310,'And then we cowards',1,1,395),(9311,'who loved the whispering',2,1,395),(9312,'evening, the houses,',3,1,395),(9313,'the paths by the river,',4,1,395),(9314,'the dirty red lights',5,1,395),(9315,'of those places, the sweet',6,1,395),(9316,'soundless sorrow—',7,1,395),(9317,'we reached our hands out',8,1,395),(9318,'toward the living chain',9,1,395),(9319,'in silence, but our heart',10,1,395),(9320,'startled us with blood,',11,1,395),(9321,'and no more sweetness then,',12,1,395),(9322,'no more losing ourselves',13,1,395),(9323,'on the path by the river—',14,1,395),(9324,'no longer slaves, we knew',15,1,395),(9325,'we were alone and alive.',16,1,395),(9326,'When I see a couple of kids',1,1,396),(9327,'And guess he’s fucking her and she’s',2,1,396),(9328,'Taking pills or wearing a diaphragm,',3,1,396),(9329,'I know this is paradise',4,1,396),(9330,'Everyone old has dreamed of all their lives—',5,2,396),(9331,'Bonds and gestures pushed to one side',6,2,396),(9332,'Like an outdated combine harvester,',7,2,396),(9333,'And everyone young going down the long slide',8,2,396),(9334,'To happiness, endlessly. I wonder if',9,3,396),(9335,'Anyone looked at me, forty years back,',10,3,396),(9336,'And thought, That’ll be the life;',11,3,396),(9337,'No God any more, or sweating in the dark',12,3,396),(9338,'About hell and that, or having to hide',13,4,396),(9339,'What you think of the priest. He',14,4,396),(9340,'And his lot will all go down the long slide',15,4,396),(9341,'Like free bloody birds. And immediately',16,4,396),(9342,'Rather than words comes the thought of high windows:',17,5,396),(9343,'The sun-comprehending glass,',18,5,396),(9344,'And beyond it, the deep blue air, that shows',19,5,396),(9345,'Nothing, and is nowhere, and is endless.',20,5,396),(9346,'There was the day we swam in a river, a lake, and an ocean.',1,1,397),(9347,'And the day I quit the job my father got me.',2,1,397),(9348,'And the day I stood outside a door,',3,1,397),(9349,'and listened to my girlfriend making love',4,1,397),(9350,'to someone obviously not me, inside,',5,1,397),(9351,'and I felt strange because I didn’t care.',6,2,397),(9352,'There was the morning I was born,',7,3,397),(9353,'and the year I was a loser,',8,3,397),(9354,'and the night I was the winner of the prize',9,3,397),(9355,'for which the audience applauded.',10,3,397),(9356,'Then there was someone else I met,',11,4,397),(9357,'whose face and voice I can’t forget,',12,4,397),(9358,'and the memory of her',13,4,397),(9359,'is like a jail I’m trapped inside,',14,4,397),(9360,'or maybe she is something I just use',15,5,397),(9361,'to hold my real life at a distance.',16,5,397),(9362,'Happiness, Joe says, is a wild red flower',17,6,397),(9363,'plucked from a river of lava and held aloft on a tightrope',18,6,397),(9364,'strung between two scrawny trees above a canyon',19,6,397),(9365,'in a manic-depressive windstorm.',20,6,397),(9366,'Don’t drop it, Don’t drop it, Don’t drop it—,',21,7,397),(9367,'And when you do, you will keep looking for it',22,8,397),(9368,'everywhere, for years,',23,8,397),(9369,'while right behind you,',24,8,397),(9370,'the footprints you are leaving',25,8,397),(9371,'will look like notes',26,9,397),(9372,'of a crazy song.',27,9,397),(9373,'Tenderness and rot',1,1,398),(9374,'share a border.',2,1,398),(9375,'And rot is an',3,1,398),(9376,'aggressive neighbor',4,1,398),(9377,'Whose iridescence',5,1,398),(9378,'keeps creeping over.',6,1,398),(9379,'No lessons',7,2,398),(9380,'can be drawn',8,2,398),(9381,'from this however.',9,2,398),(9382,'One is not',10,3,398),(9383,'two countries.',11,3,398),(9384,'One is not meat',12,3,398),(9385,'corrupting.',13,3,398),(9386,'It is important',14,4,398),(9387,'to stay sweet',15,4,398),(9388,'and loving.',16,4,398),(9389,'My candle burns at both ends;',1,1,399),(9390,'It will not last the night;',2,1,399),(9391,'But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends—',3,1,399),(9392,'It gives a lovely light!',4,1,399),(9393,'My sister doesn’t write poems.',1,1,400),(9394,'and it’s unlikely that she’ll suddenly start writing poems.',2,1,400),(9395,'She takes after her mother, who didn’t write poems,',3,1,400),(9396,'and also her father, who likewise didn’t write poems.',4,1,400),(9397,'I feel safe beneath my sister’s roof:',5,1,400),(9398,'my sister’s husband would rather die than write poems.',6,1,400),(9399,'And, even though this is starting to sound as repetitive as',7,1,400),(9400,'Peter Piper,',8,1,400),(9401,'the truth is, none of my relatives write poems.',9,1,400),(9402,'My sister’s desk drawers don’t hold old poems,',10,2,400),(9403,'and her handbag doesn’t hold new ones,',11,2,400),(9404,'When my sister asks me over for lunch,',12,2,400),(9405,'I know she doesn’t want to read me her poems.',13,2,400),(9406,'Her soups are delicious without ulterior motives.',14,2,400),(9407,'Her coffee doesn’t spill on manuscripts.',15,2,400),(9408,'There are many families in which nobody writes poems,',16,3,400),(9409,'but once it starts up it’s hard to quarantine.',17,3,400),(9410,'Sometimes poetry cascades down through the generations,',18,3,400),(9411,'creating fatal whirlpools where family love may founder.',19,3,400),(9412,'My sister has tackled oral prose with some success.',20,4,400),(9413,'but her entire written opus consists of postcards from',21,4,400),(9414,'vacations',22,4,400),(9415,'whose text is only the same promise every year:',23,4,400),(9416,'when she gets back, she’ll have',24,4,400),(9417,'so much',25,4,400),(9418,'much',26,4,400),(9419,'much to tell.',27,4,400),(9420,'Always be drunk.',1,1,401),(9421,'That’s it!',2,1,401),(9422,'The great imperative!',3,1,401),(9423,'In order not to feel',4,1,401),(9424,'Time’s horrid fardel',5,1,401),(9425,'bruise your shoulders,',6,1,401),(9426,'grinding you into the earth,',7,1,401),(9427,'Get drunk and stay that way.',8,1,401),(9428,'On what?',9,1,401),(9429,'On wine, poetry, virtue, whatever.',10,1,401),(9430,'But get drunk.',11,1,401),(9431,'And if you sometimes happen to wake up',12,1,401),(9432,'on the porches of a palace,',13,1,401),(9433,'in the green grass of a ditch,',14,1,401),(9434,'in the dismal loneliness of your own room,',15,1,401),(9435,'your drunkenness gone or disappearing,',16,1,401),(9436,'ask the wind,',17,1,401),(9437,'the wave,',18,1,401),(9438,'the star,',19,1,401),(9439,'the bird,',20,1,401),(9440,'the clock,',21,1,401),(9441,'ask everything that flees,',22,1,401),(9442,'everything that groans',23,1,401),(9443,'or rolls',24,1,401),(9444,'or sings,',25,1,401),(9445,'everything that speaks,',26,1,401),(9446,'ask what time it is;',27,1,401),(9447,'and the wind,',28,1,401),(9448,'the wave,',29,1,401),(9449,'the star,',30,1,401),(9450,'the bird,',31,1,401),(9451,'the clock',32,1,401),(9452,'will answer you:',33,1,401),(9453,'“Time to get drunk!',34,1,401),(9454,'Don’t be martyred slaves of Time,',35,1,401),(9455,'Get drunk!',36,1,401),(9456,'Stay drunk!',37,1,401),(9457,'On wine, virtue, poetry, whatever!”',38,1,401),(9458,'I was always leaving, I was',1,1,402),(9459,'about to get up and go, I was',2,1,402),(9460,'on my way, not sure where.',3,1,402),(9461,'Somewhere else. Not here.',4,1,402),(9462,'Nothing here was good enough.',5,1,402),(9463,'It would be better there, where I',6,2,402),(9464,'was going. Not sure how or why.',7,2,402),(9465,'The dome I cowered under',8,2,402),(9466,'would be raised, and I would be released',9,2,402),(9467,'into my true life. I would meet there',10,2,402),(9468,'the ones I was destined to meet.',11,3,402),(9469,'They would make an opening for me',12,3,402),(9470,'among the flutes and boulders,',13,3,402),(9471,'and I would be taken up. That this',14,3,402),(9472,'might be a form of death',15,3,402),(9473,'did not occur to me. I only know',16,4,402),(9474,'that something held me back,',17,4,402),(9475,'a doubt, a debt, a face I could not',18,4,402),(9476,'leave behind. When the door',19,4,402),(9477,'fell open, I did not go through.',20,4,402),(9478,'Lord: it is time. The summer was immense.',1,1,403),(9479,'Lay your shadow on the sundials',2,1,403),(9480,'and let loose the wind in the fields.',3,1,403),(9481,'Bid the last fruits to be full;',4,2,403),(9482,'give them another two more southerly days,',5,2,403),(9483,'press them to ripeness, and chase',6,2,403),(9484,'the last sweetness into the heavy wine.',7,2,403),(9485,'Whoever has no house now will not build one anymore.',8,3,403),(9486,'Whoever is alone now will remain so for a long time,',9,3,403),(9487,'will stay up, read, write long letters,',10,3,403),(9488,'and wander the avenues, up and down,',11,3,403),(9489,'restlessly, while the leaves are blowing.',12,3,403),(9490,'We’ve come so far, thought the astronaut',1,1,404),(9491,'as he swam around the capsule in his third week',2,1,404),(9492,'and by accident kicked a god in the eye',3,1,404),(9493,'–so far',4,1,404),(9494,'that there’s no difference anymore between up and down,',5,1,404),(9495,'north and south, heavy and light.',6,1,404),(9496,'And how, then, can we know righteousness.',7,1,404),(9497,'So far.',8,2,404),(9498,'And weightless, in a sealed room',9,2,404),(9499,'we chase the sunrises at high speed',10,2,404),(9500,'and sicken with longing for a green stalk',11,2,404),(9501,'or the heft of something in our hands. Lifting a stone.',12,2,404),(9502,'One night he saw that the Earth was like an open eye',13,3,404),(9503,'that looked at him as gravely as the eye of a child',14,3,404),(9504,'awakened in the middle of the night.',15,3,404),(9505,'Even a rock',1,1,405),(9506,'has insides.',2,1,405),(9507,'Smash one and see',3,1,405),(9508,'how the shock',4,1,405),(9509,'reveals the rough',5,2,405),(9510,'dismantled gut',6,2,405),(9511,'of a thing once dense.',7,2,405),(9512,'Making the cut',8,2,405),(9513,'into yourself,',9,3,405),(9514,'maybe you hoped',10,3,405),(9515,'for rock solid through.',11,3,405),(9516,'That hope I hoped,',12,3,405),(9517,'too. Dashed',13,4,405),(9518,'on my rocks was my wish',14,4,405),(9519,'of what I was. Angry,',15,4,405),(9520,'dense and mulish,',16,4,405),(9521,'I smashed myself and found my heart',17,5,405),(9522,'a cave, ready to be',18,5,405),(9523,'lived in. A start,',19,5,405),(9524,'veined, unmined.',20,6,405),(9525,'This is how I come to you:',21,6,405),(9526,'broken,',22,6,405),(9527,'not what I knew.',23,6,405),(9528,'If I had a shining head',1,1,406),(9529,'and people turned to stare at me',2,1,406),(9530,'in the streetcars;',3,1,406),(9531,'and I could stretch my body',4,1,406),(9532,'through the bright water',5,1,406),(9533,'and keep abreast of fish and water snakes;',6,1,406),(9534,'if I could ruin my feathers',7,1,406),(9535,'in flight before the sun;',8,1,406),(9536,'do you think that I would remain in this room,',9,1,406),(9537,'reciting poems to you,',10,1,406),(9538,'and making outrageous dreams',11,1,406),(9539,'with the smallest movements of your mouth?',12,1,406),(9540,'Someone was reading in the back,',1,1,407),(9541,'two travelers had gone somewhere,',2,1,407),(9542,'maybe to Chicago,',3,1,407),(9543,'a boy was out walking, muffled up,',4,1,407),(9544,'alert on the frozen creek,',5,1,407),(9545,'a sauce was simmering on the stove.',6,1,407),(9546,'Birds outside at the feeder',7,1,407),(9547,'threw themselves softly',8,1,407),(9548,'from branch to branch.',9,1,407),(9549,'Suddenly I did not want my life',10,1,407),(9550,'to be any different.',11,1,407),(9551,'I was where I needed to be.',12,1,407),(9552,'The birds swirled in the dusk.',13,1,407),(9553,'The boy came back from the creek.',14,1,407),(9554,'The dead were holding us up',15,1,407),(9555,'the way the ice held him,',16,1,407),(9556,'helping us breathe the way',17,1,407),(9557,'air helps snowflakes swirl and fall.',18,1,407),(9558,'And the sadness felt just right,',19,1,407),(9559,'like a still and moving wave',20,1,407),(9560,'on which the sun shone brilliantly.',21,1,407),(9561,'In the end, I made myself',1,1,408),(9562,'Known to your wife as',2,1,408),(9563,'A god would, in her own house, in',3,1,408),(9564,'Ithaca, a voice',4,1,408),(9565,'Without a body: she',5,1,408),(9566,'Paused in her weaving, her head turning',6,1,408),(9567,'First to the right, then left',7,1,408),(9568,'Though it was hopeless of course',8,1,408),(9569,'To trace that sound to any',9,1,408),(9570,'Objective source: I doubt',10,1,408),(9571,'She will return to her loom',11,1,408),(9572,'With what she knows now. When',12,1,408),(9573,'You see her again, tell her',13,1,408),(9574,'This is how a god says goodbye:',14,1,408),(9575,'If I am in her head forever',15,1,408),(9576,'I am in your life forever.',16,1,408),(9577,'I’m thinking today of how we hold it together,',1,1,409),(9578,'arrive on time with the bottle of Zinfandel, a six-pack',2,1,409),(9579,'of Scuttlebutt beer, how we cover our wrinkles',3,2,409),(9580,'with Visible Lift, shove the mashed winter squash',4,2,409),(9581,'into the baby’s mouth, how we hold it all together',5,3,409),(9582,'despite clogged rain gutters, cracked',6,3,409),(9583,'transmissions, a new explanation for gravity’s',7,4,409),(9584,'half-hearted hold. I’m wondering how we do it,',8,4,409),(9585,'comb the tangles from our hair, trim the unwieldy',9,5,409),(9586,'camellia, speak to packed crowds about weight loss',10,5,409),(9587,'or fractals. I’m wondering how we don’t',11,6,409),(9588,'fall to our knees, knowing a hardened pea,',12,6,409),(9589,'lodged in the throat, can kill, knowing',13,7,409),(9590,'liquids are banned on all commercial flights.',14,7,409),(9591,'Leaves fall. The baby sucks her middle fingers.',15,8,409),(9592,'Meanwhile, the refrigerator acquires',16,8,409),(9593,'an unexplainable leak. Meanwhile, we call',17,9,409),(9594,'the plumber, open wide for the dental hygienist,',18,9,409),(9595,'check each month, with tentative circlings,',19,10,409),(9596,'our aging breasts. Somehow, each morning,',20,10,409),(9597,'the coffee gets made. Somehow, each evening,',21,11,409),(9598,'the crossing guard lifts fluorescent orange flag,',22,11,409),(9599,'and a child and her father cross the glistening street.',23,12,409),(9600,'I am a piece of chalk',1,1,410),(9601,'scrawling words on an empty blackboard.',2,1,410),(9602,'I am a banner of smoke',3,1,410),(9603,'that crosses the blue air and doesn’t dissolve.',4,1,410),(9604,'I don’t believe that only sorrow',5,1,410),(9605,'and misery can be written.',6,1,410),(9606,'Happiness, too, can be precise:',7,1,410),(9607,'Doctor, there’s a keen throbbing',8,1,410),(9608,'on the left side of my chest',9,1,410),(9609,'where my ribs are wrenched by joy.',10,1,410),(9610,'Wings flutter in my shoulders',11,1,410),(9611,'and blood courses through my body',12,1,410),(9612,'like waves cresting on a choppy sea.',13,1,410),(9613,'Look: the eyes blur with tears',14,1,410),(9614,'and the tears clear.',15,1,410),(9615,'My head is like skylight.',16,1,410),(9616,'My heart is like dawn.',17,1,410),(9617,'Is it dirty',1,1,411),(9618,'does it look dirty',2,1,411),(9619,'that’s what you think of in the city',3,1,411),(9620,'does it just seem dirty',4,2,411),(9621,'that’s what you think of in the city',5,2,411),(9622,'you don’t refuse to breathe do you',6,2,411),(9623,'someone comes along with a very bad character',7,3,411),(9624,'he seems attractive. is he really. yes. very',8,3,411),(9625,'he’s attractive as his character is bad. is it. yes',9,3,411),(9626,'that’s what you think of in the city',10,4,411),(9627,'run your finger along your no-moss mind',11,4,411),(9628,'that’s not a thought that’s soot',12,4,411),(9629,'and you take a lot of dirt off someone',13,5,411),(9630,'is the character less bad. no. it improves constantly',14,5,411),(9631,'you don’t refuse to breathe do you',15,5,411),(9632,'Listen carefully, my son: bombs were falling',1,1,412),(9633,'over Mexico City',2,1,412),(9634,'but no one even noticed.',3,1,412),(9635,'The air carried poison through',4,1,412),(9636,'the streets and open windows.',5,1,412),(9637,'You’d just finished eating and were watching',6,1,412),(9638,'cartoons on TV.',7,1,412),(9639,'I was reading in the bedroom next door',8,1,412),(9640,'when I realized we were going to die.',9,1,412),(9641,'Despite the dizziness and nausea I dragged myself',10,1,412),(9642,'to the kitchen and found you on the floor.',11,1,412),(9643,'We hugged. You asked what was happening',12,1,412),(9644,'and I didn’t tell you we were on death’s program',13,1,412),(9645,'but instead that we were going on a journey,',14,1,412),(9646,'one more, together, and that you shouldn’t be afraid.',15,1,412),(9647,'When it left, death didn’t even',16,1,412),(9648,'close our eyes.',17,1,412),(9649,'What are we? you asked a week or year later,',18,1,412),(9650,'ants, bees, wrong numbers',19,1,412),(9651,'in the big rotten soup of chance?',20,1,412),(9652,'We’re human beings, my son, almost birds,',21,1,412),(9653,'public heroes and secrets.',22,1,412),(9654,'I left this morning saying ‘I love you’',1,1,413),(9655,'as if setting out for some unknown country',2,1,413),(9656,'instead of the corner shop. I wanted',3,1,413),(9657,'you to be sure, in case',4,1,413),(9658,'this time – out of, say, 10,000 departures',5,1,413),(9659,'I never made it back: although',6,1,413),(9660,'after 50 years together, 2 countries,',7,1,413),(9661,'3 children, and several former journeys',8,1,413),(9662,'that would put this one to shame',9,1,413),(9663,'you’d think there’d be no need to pause',10,1,413),(9664,'on my own doorstep, suddenly afraid',11,1,413),(9665,'of the distance between us, of your absolute beauty,',12,1,413),(9666,'of the growing aloneness when I clicked the latch.',13,1,413),(9667,'It’s all I have to bring today —',1,1,414),(9668,'This, and my heart beside —',2,1,414),(9669,'This, and my heart, and all the fields —',3,1,414),(9670,'And all the meadows wide —',4,1,414),(9671,'Be sure you count — should I forget',5,1,414),(9672,'Some one the sum could tell —',6,1,414),(9673,'This, and my heart, and all the Bees',7,1,414),(9674,'Which in the Clover dwell.',8,1,414),(9675,'is that you can never see the one you’re wearing,',1,1,415),(9676,'that no one believes the lies they tell,',2,1,415),(9677,'that they grow to be more famous than you,',3,1,415),(9678,'that you could die in one but you won’t be buried in it.',4,1,415),(9679,'That we use them to create dogs',5,2,415),(9680,'in our own image. That the dogs',6,2,415),(9681,'in their mortarboards and baseball caps and veils',7,2,415),(9682,'crush our hubris with their unconcern.',8,2,415),(9683,'That Norma Desmond’s flirty cocktail hat flung aside',9,3,415),(9684,'left a cowlick that doomed her. That two old ladies',10,3,415),(9685,'catfighting in Hutzler’s Better Dresses both wore flowered',11,3,415),(9686,'straw. Of my grandmother the amateur hatmaker,',12,3,415),(9687,'this legend: that the holdup man at the Mercantile',13,4,415),(9688,'turned to say Madam I love your hat before',14,4,415),(9689,'he shot the teller dead who’d giggled at her',15,4,415),(9690,'homemade velvet roses. O happy tragedy of hats!',16,4,415),(9691,'That they make us mimic classic gestures,',17,5,415),(9692,'inspiring pleasure first, then pity and then fear.',18,5,415),(9693,'See how we tip them, hold them prettily against the wind',19,5,415),(9694,'or pull them off and mop our sweaty brows',20,5,415),(9695,'like our beloved foolish dead in photographs.',21,6,415),(9696,'Like farmers plowing under the ancient sun.',22,6,415),(9697,'What are days for?',1,1,416),(9698,'Days are where we live.',2,1,416),(9699,'They come, they wake us',3,1,416),(9700,'Time and time over.',4,1,416),(9701,'They are to be happy in:',5,1,416),(9702,'Where can we live but days?',6,1,416),(9703,'Ah, solving that question',7,2,416),(9704,'Brings the priest and the doctor',8,2,416),(9705,'In their long coats',9,2,416),(9706,'Running over the fields.',10,2,416),(9707,'And the days are not full enough',1,1,417),(9708,'And the nights are not full enough',2,1,417),(9709,'And life slips by like a field mouse',3,1,417),(9710,'Not shaking the grass',4,1,417),(9711,'Razors pain you;',1,1,418),(9712,'Rivers are damp;',2,1,418),(9713,'Acids stain you;',3,1,418),(9714,'And drugs cause cramp;',4,1,418),(9715,'Guns aren’t lawful;',5,1,418),(9716,'Nooses give;',6,1,418),(9717,'Gas smells awful;',7,1,418),(9718,'You might as well live.',8,1,418),(9719,'As you read, a white bear leisurely',1,1,419),(9720,'pees, dyeing the snow',2,1,419),(9721,'saffron,',3,1,419),(9722,'and as you read, many gods',4,2,419),(9723,'lie among lianas: eyes of obsidian',5,2,419),(9724,'are watching the generations of leaves,',6,2,419),(9725,'and as you read',7,3,419),(9726,'the sea is turning its dark pages,',8,3,419),(9727,'turning',9,3,419),(9728,'its dark pages.',10,3,419),(9729,'I am always hungry',1,1,420),(9730,'& wanting to have',2,1,420),(9731,'sex. This is a fact.',3,1,420),(9732,'If you get right',4,1,420),(9733,'down to it the new',5,1,420),(9734,'unprocessed peanut',6,1,420),(9735,'butter is no damn',7,1,420),(9736,'good & you should',8,1,420),(9737,'buy it in a jar as',9,1,420),(9738,'always in the',10,1,420),(9739,'largest supermarket',11,1,420),(9740,'you know. And',12,1,420),(9741,'I am an enemy',13,1,420),(9742,'of change, as',14,1,420),(9743,'you know. All',15,1,420),(9744,'the things I',16,1,420),(9745,'embrace as new',17,1,420),(9746,'are in',18,1,420),(9747,'fact old things,',19,1,420),(9748,'re-released: swimming,',20,1,420),(9749,'the sensation of',21,1,420),(9750,'being dirty in',22,1,420),(9751,'body and mind',23,1,420),(9752,'summer as a',24,1,420),(9753,'time to do',25,1,420),(9754,'nothing and make',26,1,420),(9755,'no money. Prayer',27,1,420),(9756,'as a last re-',28,1,420),(9757,'sort. Pleasure',29,1,420),(9758,'as a means,',30,1,420),(9759,'and then a',31,1,420),(9760,'means again',32,1,420),(9761,'with no ends',33,1,420),(9762,'in sight. I am',34,1,420),(9763,'absolutely in opposition',35,1,420),(9764,'to all kinds of',36,1,420),(9765,'goals. I have',37,1,420),(9766,'no desire to know',38,1,420),(9767,'where this, anything',39,1,420),(9768,'is getting me.',40,1,420),(9769,'When the water',41,1,420),(9770,'boils I get',42,1,420),(9771,'a cup of tea.',43,1,420),(9772,'Accidentally I',44,1,420),(9773,'read all the',45,1,420),(9774,'works of Proust.',46,1,420),(9775,'It was summer',47,1,420),(9776,'I was there',48,1,420),(9777,'so was he. I',49,1,420),(9778,'write because',50,1,420),(9779,'I would like',51,1,420),(9780,'to be used for',52,1,420),(9781,'years after',53,1,420),(9782,'my death. Not',54,1,420),(9783,'only my body',55,1,420),(9784,'will be compost',56,1,420),(9785,'but the thoughts',57,1,420),(9786,'I left during',58,1,420),(9787,'my life. During',59,1,420),(9788,'my life I was',60,1,420),(9789,'a woman with',61,1,420),(9790,'hazel eyes. Out',62,1,420),(9791,'the window',63,1,420),(9792,'is a crooked',64,1,420),(9793,'silo. Parts',65,1,420),(9794,'of your',66,1,420),(9795,'body I think',67,1,420),(9796,'of as stripes',68,1,420),(9797,'which I have',69,1,420),(9798,'learned to',70,1,420),(9799,'love along. We',71,1,420),(9800,'swim naked',72,1,420),(9801,'in ponds &',73,1,420),(9802,'I write be-',74,1,420),(9803,'hind your',75,1,420),(9804,'back. My thoughts',76,1,420),(9805,'about you are',77,1,420),(9806,'not exactly',78,1,420),(9807,'forbidden, but',79,1,420),(9808,'exalted because',80,1,420),(9809,'they are useless,',81,1,420),(9810,'not intended',82,1,420),(9811,'to get you',83,1,420),(9812,'because I have',84,1,420),(9813,'you & you love',85,1,420),(9814,'me. It’s more',86,1,420),(9815,'like a playground',87,1,420),(9816,'where I play',88,1,420),(9817,'with my reflection',89,1,420),(9818,'of you until',90,1,420),(9819,'you come back',91,1,420),(9820,'and into the',92,1,420),(9821,'real you I',93,1,420),(9822,'get to sink',94,1,420),(9823,'my teeth. With',95,1,420),(9824,'you I know how',96,1,420),(9825,'to relax. &',97,1,420),(9826,'so I work',98,1,420),(9827,'behind your',99,1,420),(9828,'back. Which',100,1,420),(9829,'is lovely.',101,1,420),(9830,'Nature',102,1,420),(9831,'is out of control',103,1,420),(9832,'you tell me &',104,1,420),(9833,'that’s what’s so',105,1,420),(9834,'good about',106,1,420),(9835,'it. I’m immoderately',107,1,420),(9836,'in love with you,',108,1,420),(9837,'knocked out by',109,1,420),(9838,'all your new',110,1,420),(9839,'white hair',111,1,420),(9840,'why shouldn’t',112,2,420),(9841,'something',113,2,420),(9842,'I have always',114,2,420),(9843,'known be the',115,2,420),(9844,'very best there',116,2,420),(9845,'is. I love',117,2,420),(9846,'you from my',118,2,420),(9847,'childhood,',119,2,420),(9848,'starting back',120,2,420),(9849,'there when',121,2,420),(9850,'one day was',122,2,420),(9851,'just like the',123,2,420),(9852,'rest, random',124,2,420),(9853,'growth and',125,2,420),(9854,'breezes, constant',126,2,420),(9855,'love, a sand-',127,2,420),(9856,'wich in the',128,2,420),(9857,'middle of',129,2,420),(9858,'day,',130,2,420),(9859,'a tiny step',131,2,420),(9860,'in the vastly',132,2,420),(9861,'conventional',133,2,420),(9862,'path of',134,2,420),(9863,'the Sun. I',135,2,420),(9864,'squint. I',136,2,420),(9865,'wink. I',137,2,420),(9866,'take the',138,2,420),(9867,'ride.',139,2,420),(9868,'A break in the clouds. The blue',1,1,421),(9869,'outline of the mountains.',2,1,421),(9870,'Dark yellow of the fields.',3,1,421),(9871,'Black river. What am I doing here,',4,1,421),(9872,'lonely and filled with remorse?',5,1,421),(9873,'I go on casually eating from the bowl',6,2,421),(9874,'of raspberries. If I were dead,',7,2,421),(9875,'I remind myself, I wouldn’t',8,2,421),(9876,'be eating them. It’s not so simple.',9,2,421),(9877,'It is that simple.',10,2,421),(9878,'The fog comes',1,1,422),(9879,'on little cat feet.',2,1,422),(9880,'It sits looking',3,2,422),(9881,'over harbor and city',4,2,422),(9882,'on silent haunches',5,2,422),(9883,'and then moves on.',6,2,422),(9884,'After the funeral, your hair',1,1,423),(9885,'and skin baked to ash,',2,1,423),(9886,'your body brought back in a gray box',3,2,423),(9887,'with a bag of soot inside,',4,2,423),(9888,'box and bag on a pedestal by the table,',5,3,423),(9889,'your brother came to see you.',6,3,423),(9890,'He asked where you were,',7,4,423),(9891,'and when I said By the table',8,4,423),(9892,'he thought I said On the table',9,5,423),(9893,'and he said Here?',10,5,423),(9894,'peeking under the lid',11,6,423),(9895,'of an empty drinking cup,',12,6,423),(9896,'as though we had gone',13,7,423),(9897,'to the local Kwik Stop',14,7,423),(9898,'for gas and fountain drinks',15,8,423),(9899,'then decided what the hell?',16,8,423),(9900,'and used a cardboard Pepsi cup',17,9,423),(9901,'for our mother’s urn.',18,9,423),(9902,'He actually thought that,',19,10,423),(9903,'and his eyes got wide',20,10,423),(9904,'as he stood in the dining room,',21,11,423),(9905,'unspeakably appalled,',22,11,423),(9906,'staring at that cup',23,11,423),(9907,'and mother, oh sweet jesus',24,12,423),(9908,'how I wanted to laugh.',25,12,423),(9909,'It’s so nice',1,1,424),(9910,'to wake up in the morning',2,1,424),(9911,'all alone',3,1,424),(9912,'and not have to tell somebody',4,1,424),(9913,'you love them',5,1,424),(9914,'when you don’t love them',6,1,424),(9915,'any more.',7,1,424),(9916,'Johannes Brahms and Clara Schumann ?',1,1,425),(9917,'The modern biographers worry',2,2,425),(9918,'“how far it went,” their tender friendship.',3,2,425),(9919,'They wonder just what it means',4,2,425),(9920,'when he writes he thinks of her constantly,',5,2,425),(9921,'his guardian angel, beloved friend.',6,2,425),(9922,'The modern biographers ask',7,2,425),(9923,'the rude, irrelevant question',8,2,425),(9924,'of our age, as if the event',9,2,425),(9925,'of two bodies meshing together',10,2,425),(9926,'establishes the degree of love,',11,2,425),(9927,'forgetting how softly Eros walked',12,2,425),(9928,'in the nineteenth-century, how a hand',13,2,425),(9929,'held overlong or a gaze anchored',14,2,425),(9930,'in someone’s eyes could unseat a heart,',15,2,425),(9931,'and nuances of address not known',16,2,425),(9932,'in our egalitarian language',17,2,425),(9933,'could make the redolent air',18,2,425),(9934,'tremble and shimmer with the heat',19,2,425),(9935,'of possibility. Each time I hear',20,2,425),(9936,'the Intermezzi, sad',21,2,425),(9937,'and lavish in their tenderness,',22,2,425),(9938,'I imagine the two of them',23,2,425),(9939,'sitting in a garden',24,2,425),(9940,'among late-blooming roses',25,2,425),(9941,'and dark cascades of leaves,',26,2,425),(9942,'letting the landscape speak for them,',27,2,425),(9943,'leaving us nothing to overhear.',28,2,425),(9944,'You asked me once,',1,1,426),(9945,'on our way back',2,1,426),(9946,'from the midmorning',3,1,426),(9947,'trip to the spring:',4,1,426),(9948,'“What do you hate,',5,1,426),(9949,'and who do you love?”',6,1,426),(9950,'And I answered,',7,2,426),(9951,'from behind the eyelashes',8,2,426),(9952,'of my surprise,',9,2,426),(9953,'my blood rushing',10,2,426),(9954,'like the shadow',11,2,426),(9955,'cast by a cloud of starlings:',12,2,426),(9956,'“I hate departure . . .',13,2,426),(9957,'I love the spring',14,2,426),(9958,'and the path to the spring,',15,2,426),(9959,'and I worship the middle',16,2,426),(9960,'hours of morning.”',17,2,426),(9961,'And you laughed . . .',18,2,426),(9962,'and the almond tree blossomed',19,2,426),(9963,'and the thicket grew loud with nightingales.',20,2,426),(9964,'. . . A question',21,3,426),(9965,'now four decades old:',22,3,426),(9966,'I salute that question’s answer;',23,3,426),(9967,'and an answer',24,3,426),(9968,'as old as your departure;',25,3,426),(9969,'I salute that answer’s question . . .',26,3,426),(9970,'And today,',27,4,426),(9971,'it’s preposterous,',28,4,426),(9972,'here we are at a friendly airport',29,4,426),(9973,'by the slimmest of chances,',30,4,426),(9974,'and we meet.',31,4,426),(9975,'Ah, Lord!',32,4,426),(9976,'we meet.',33,4,426),(9977,'And here you are',34,4,426),(9978,'asking—again,',35,4,426),(9979,'it’s absolutely preposterous—',36,4,426),(9980,'I recognized you',37,4,426),(9981,'but you didn’t recognize me.',38,4,426),(9982,'“Is it you?!”',39,4,426),(9983,'But you wouldn’t believe it.',40,4,426),(9984,'And suddenly',41,4,426),(9985,'you burst out and asked:',42,4,426),(9986,'“If you’re really you,',43,4,426),(9987,'What do you hate',44,4,426),(9988,'and who do you love?!”',45,4,426),(9989,'And I answered—',46,5,426),(9990,'my blood',47,5,426),(9991,'fleeing the hall,',48,5,426),(9992,'rushing in me',49,5,426),(9993,'like the shadow',50,5,426),(9994,'cast by a cloud of starlings:',51,5,426),(9995,'“I hate departure,',52,5,426),(9996,'and I love the spring,',53,5,426),(9997,'and the path to the spring,',54,5,426),(9998,'and I worship the middle',55,5,426),(9999,'hours of morning.”',56,5,426),(10000,'And you wept,',57,6,426),(10001,'and flowers bowed their heads,',58,6,426),(10002,'and doves in the silk of their sorrow stumbled.',59,6,426),(10003,'What seemed a mystery was',1,1,427),(10004,'in fact a choice. Insert bird for sorrow.',2,1,427),(10005,'What seemed a memory was in fact',3,2,427),(10006,'a dividing line. Insert bird for wind.',4,2,427),(10007,'Insert wind for departure when everyone is',5,3,427),(10008,'standing still. Insert three mountains',6,3,427),(10009,'burning and in three valleys a signal seer',7,4,427),(10010,'seeing a distant light and a signal bearer',8,4,427),(10011,'sprinting to a far-off bell. What seemed',9,5,427),(10012,'a promise was in fact a sigh.',10,5,427),(10013,'What seemed a hot wind, a not quite enough,',11,6,427),(10014,'a forgive me, it has flown away, is in fact.',12,6,427),(10015,'In the meantime we paint the floors',13,7,427),(10016,'red. We stroke the sound of certain names',14,7,427),(10017,'into a fine floss that drifts across our teeth.',15,8,427),(10018,'We stay in the room we share and listen',16,8,427),(10019,'all night to what drifts through the window—',17,9,427),(10020,'dog growl, owl call, a fleet of mosquitoes',18,9,427),(10021,'setting sail, and down the road,',19,10,427),(10022,'the swish of tomorrow’s donkey-threshed grain.',20,10,427),(10023,'I',1,1,428),(10024,'The Argument: You Wondered Why You Weren’t Published',2,1,428),(10025,'It’s because the postman has opened',3,2,428),(10026,'All your submissions and kept them',4,2,428),(10027,'Tucked your words, as it were, under',5,2,428),(10028,'His proverbial, federal wing.',6,2,428),(10029,'And just so you know,',7,3,428),(10030,'Your love poems work.',8,3,428),(10031,'He reads them to his wife in bed',9,3,428),(10032,'Before what has recently become',10,3,428),(10033,'Most lyrical sex; he even adds',11,4,428),(10034,'A few verbs here and there',12,4,428),(10035,'For the sake of flow.',13,4,428),(10036,'II',14,5,428),(10037,'The Consolation',15,5,428),(10038,'But you’ll be pleased to know',16,6,428),(10039,'He generally leaves your',17,6,428),(10040,'Enjambment alone',18,6,428),(10041,'And understands the way irony',19,6,428),(10042,'Goes; a fulcrum for your failure',20,7,428),(10043,'And his formally elegiac evenings',21,7,428),(10044,'Which he now has the diction',22,7,428),(10045,'And courage to call epiphanic.',23,7,428),(10046,'His only regret',24,8,428),(10047,'Is that you aren’t',25,8,428),(10048,'More prolific.',26,8,428),(10049,'dam’s broke,',1,1,429),(10050,'head’s a',2,1,429),(10051,'waterfall.',3,1,429),(10052,'That Mississippi chicken shack.',1,1,430),(10053,'That initial-scarred tabletop,',2,1,430),(10054,'that tiny little dance floor to the left of the band.',3,1,430),(10055,'That kiosk at the mall selling caramels and kitsch.',4,1,430),(10056,'That tollbooth with its white-plastic-gloved worker',5,1,430),(10057,'handing you your change.',6,1,430),(10058,'That phone booth with the receiver ripped out.',7,1,430),(10059,'That dressing room in the fetish boutique,',8,1,430),(10060,'those curtains and mirrors.',9,1,430),(10061,'That funhouse, that horror, that soundtrack of screams.',10,1,430),(10062,'That putti-filled heaven raining gilt from the ceiling.',11,1,430),(10063,'That haven for truckers, that bottomless cup.',12,1,430),(10064,'That biome. That wilderness preserve.',13,1,430),(10065,'That landing strip with no runway lights',14,1,430),(10066,'where you are aiming your plane,',15,1,430),(10067,'imagining a voice in the tower,',16,1,430),(10068,'imagining a tower.',17,1,430),(10069,'In the middle of the night, when we get up',1,1,431),(10070,'after making love, we look at each other in',2,1,431),(10071,'complete friendship, we know so fully',3,1,431),(10072,'what the other has been doing. Bound to each other',4,1,431),(10073,'like mountaineers coming down from a mountain,',5,1,431),(10074,'bound with the tie of the delivery-room,',6,1,431),(10075,'we wander down the hall to the bathroom, I can',7,1,431),(10076,'hardly walk, I hobble through the granular',8,1,431),(10077,'shadowless air, I know where you are',9,1,431),(10078,'with my eyes closed, we are bound to each other',10,1,431),(10079,'with huge invisible threads, our sexes',11,1,431),(10080,'muted, exhausted, crushed, the whole',12,1,431),(10081,'body a sex—surely this',13,1,431),(10082,'is the most blessed time of my life,',14,1,431),(10083,'our children asleep in their beds, each fate',15,1,431),(10084,'like a vein of abiding mineral',16,1,431),(10085,'not discovered yet. I sit',17,1,431),(10086,'on the toilet in the night, you are somewhere in the room,',18,1,431),(10087,'I open the window and snow has fallen in a',19,1,431),(10088,'steep drift, against the pane, I',20,1,431),(10089,'look up, into it,',21,1,431),(10090,'a wall of cold crystals, silent',22,1,431),(10091,'and glistening, I quietly call to you',23,1,431),(10092,'and you come and hold my hand and I say',24,1,431),(10093,'I cannot see beyond it. I cannot see beyond it.',25,1,431),(10094,'I am surprised to see',1,1,432),(10095,'that the ocean is still going on.',2,1,432),(10096,'Now I am going back',3,1,432),(10097,'and I have ripped my hand',4,1,432),(10098,'from your hand as I said I would',5,1,432),(10099,'and I have made it this far',6,1,432),(10100,'as I said I would',7,1,432),(10101,'and I am on the top deck now',8,1,432),(10102,'holding my wallet, my cigarettes',9,1,432),(10103,'and my car keys',10,1,432),(10104,'at 2 o’clock on a Tuesday',11,1,432),(10105,'in August of 1960.',12,1,432),(10106,'Dearest,',13,2,432),(10107,'although everything has happened,',14,2,432),(10108,'nothing has happened.',15,2,432),(10109,'The sea is very old.',16,2,432),(10110,'The sea is the face of Mary,',17,2,432),(10111,'without miracles or rage',18,2,432),(10112,'or unusual hope,',19,2,432),(10113,'grown rough and wrinkled',20,2,432),(10114,'with incurable age.',21,2,432),(10115,'Still,',22,3,432),(10116,'I have eyes.',23,3,432),(10117,'These are my eyes:',24,3,432),(10118,'the orange letters that spell',25,3,432),(10119,'ORIENT on the life preserver',26,3,432),(10120,'that hangs by my knees;',27,3,432),(10121,'the cement lifeboat that wears',28,3,432),(10122,'its dirty canvas coat;',29,3,432),(10123,'the faded sign that sits on its shelf',30,3,432),(10124,'saying KEEP OFF.',31,3,432),(10125,'Oh, all right, I say,',32,3,432),(10126,'I’ll save myself.',33,3,432),(10127,'Over my right shoulder',34,4,432),(10128,'I see four nuns',35,4,432),(10129,'who sit like a bridge club,',36,4,432),(10130,'their faces poked out',37,4,432),(10131,'from under their habits,',38,4,432),(10132,'as good as good babies who',39,4,432),(10133,'have sunk into their carriages.',40,4,432),(10134,'Without discrimination',41,4,432),(10135,'the wind pulls the skirts',42,4,432),(10136,'of their arms.',43,4,432),(10137,'Almost undressed,',44,4,432),(10138,'I see what remains:',45,4,432),(10139,'that holy wrist,',46,4,432),(10140,'that ankle,',47,4,432),(10141,'that chain.',48,4,432),(10142,'Oh God,',49,5,432),(10143,'although I am very sad,',50,5,432),(10144,'could you please',51,5,432),(10145,'let these four nuns',52,5,432),(10146,'loosen from their leather boots',53,5,432),(10147,'and their wooden chairs',54,5,432),(10148,'to rise out',55,5,432),(10149,'over this greasy deck,',56,5,432),(10150,'out over this iron rail,',57,5,432),(10151,'nodding their pink heads to one side,',58,5,432),(10152,'flying four abreast',59,5,432),(10153,'in the old-fashioned side stroke;',60,5,432),(10154,'each mouth open and round,',61,5,432),(10155,'breathing together',62,5,432),(10156,'as fish do,',63,5,432),(10157,'singing without sound.',64,5,432),(10158,'Dearest,',65,6,432),(10159,'see how my dark girls sally forth,',66,6,432),(10160,'over the passing lighthouse of Plum Gut,',67,6,432),(10161,'its shell as rusty',68,6,432),(10162,'as a camp dish,',69,6,432),(10163,'as fragile as a pagoda',70,6,432),(10164,'on a stone;',71,6,432),(10165,'out over the little lighthouse',72,6,432),(10166,'that warns me of drowning winds',73,6,432),(10167,'that rub over its blind bottom',74,6,432),(10168,'and its blue cover;',75,6,432),(10169,'winds that will take the toes',76,6,432),(10170,'and the ears of the rider',77,6,432),(10171,'or the lover.',78,6,432),(10172,'There go my dark girls,',79,7,432),(10173,'their dresses puff',80,7,432),(10174,'in the leeward air.',81,7,432),(10175,'Oh, they are lighter than flying dogs',82,7,432),(10176,'or the breath of dolphins;',83,7,432),(10177,'each mouth opens gratefully,',84,7,432),(10178,'wider than a milk cup.',85,7,432),(10179,'My dark girls sing for this.',86,7,432),(10180,'They are going up.',87,7,432),(10181,'See them rise',88,7,432),(10182,'on black wings, drinking',89,7,432),(10183,'the sky, without smiles',90,7,432),(10184,'or hands',91,7,432),(10185,'or shoes.',92,7,432),(10186,'They call back to us',93,7,432),(10187,'from the gauzy edge of paradise,',94,7,432),(10188,'good news, good news.',95,7,432),(10189,'Some folks will tell you the blues is a woman,',1,1,433),(10190,'Some type of supernatural creature.',2,1,433),(10191,'My mother would tell you, if she could,',3,1,433),(10192,'About her life with my father,',4,1,433),(10193,'A strange and sometimes cruel gentleman.',5,1,433),(10194,'She would tell you about the choices',6,1,433),(10195,'A young black woman faces.',7,1,433),(10196,'Is falling in love with some man',8,1,433),(10197,'A deal with the devil',9,1,433),(10198,'In blue terms, the tongue we use',10,1,433),(10199,'When we don’t want nuance',11,1,433),(10200,'To get in the way,',12,1,433),(10201,'When we need to talk straight.',13,1,433),(10202,'My mother chooses my father',14,1,433),(10203,'After choosing a man',15,1,433),(10204,'Who was, as we sing it,',16,1,433),(10205,'Of no account.',17,1,433),(10206,'This man made my father look good,',18,1,433),(10207,'That’s how bad it was.',19,1,433),(10208,'He made my father seem like an island',20,1,433),(10209,'In the middle of a stormy sea,',21,1,433),(10210,'He made my father look like a rock.',22,1,433),(10211,'And is the blues the moment you realize',23,1,433),(10212,'You exist in a stacked deck,',24,1,433),(10213,'You look in a mirror at your young face,',25,1,433),(10214,'The face my sister carries,',26,1,433),(10215,'And you know it’s the only leverage',27,1,433),(10216,'You’ve got.',28,1,433),(10217,'Does this create a hurt that whispers',29,1,433),(10218,'How you going to do?',30,1,433),(10219,'Is the blues the moment',31,1,433),(10220,'You shrug your shoulders',32,1,433),(10221,'And agree, a girl without money',33,1,433),(10222,'Is nothing, dust',34,1,433),(10223,'To be pushed around by any old breeze.',35,1,433),(10224,'Compared to this,',36,1,433),(10225,'My father seems, briefly,',37,1,433),(10226,'To be a fire escape.',38,1,433),(10227,'This is the way the blues works',39,1,433),(10228,'Its sorry wonders,',40,1,433),(10229,'Makes trouble look like',41,1,433),(10230,'A feather bed,',42,1,433),(10231,'Makes the wrong man’s kisses',43,1,433),(10232,'A healing.',44,1,433),(10233,'I am learning to abandon the world',1,1,434),(10234,'before it can abandon me.',2,1,434),(10235,'Already I have given up the moon',3,1,434),(10236,'and snow, closing my shades',4,1,434),(10237,'against the claims of white.',5,1,434),(10238,'And the world has taken',6,1,434),(10239,'my father, my friends.',7,1,434),(10240,'I have given up melodic lines of hills,',8,1,434),(10241,'moving to a flat, tuneless landscape.',9,1,434),(10242,'And every night I give my body up',10,1,434),(10243,'limb by limb, working upwards',11,1,434),(10244,'across bone, towards the heart.',12,1,434),(10245,'But morning comes with small',13,1,434),(10246,'reprieves of coffee and birdsong.',14,1,434),(10247,'A tree outside the window',15,1,434),(10248,'which was simply shadow moments ago',16,1,434),(10249,'takes back its branches twig',17,1,434),(10250,'by leafy twig.',18,1,434),(10251,'And as I take my body back',19,1,434),(10252,'the sun lays its warm muzzle on my lap',20,1,434),(10253,'as if to make amends.',21,1,434),(10254,'At last I can be with you!',1,1,435),(10255,'The grinding hours',2,1,435),(10256,'since I left your side!',3,1,435),(10257,'The labor of being fully human,',4,1,435),(10258,'working my opposable thumb,',5,1,435),(10259,'talking, and walking upright.',6,1,435),(10260,'Now I have unclasped',7,1,435),(10261,'unzipped, stepped out of.',8,1,435),(10262,'Husked, soft, a be-er only,',9,1,435),(10263,'I do nothing, but point',10,1,435),(10264,'my bare feet into your',11,1,435),(10265,'clean smoothness',12,1,435),(10266,'feel your quiet strength',13,1,435),(10267,'the whole length of my body.',14,1,435),(10268,'I close my eyes, hear myself',15,1,435),(10269,'moan, so grateful to be held this way.',16,1,435),(10270,'In the desert',1,1,436),(10271,'I saw a creature, naked, bestial,',2,1,436),(10272,'Who, squatting upon the ground,',3,1,436),(10273,'Held his heart in his hands,',4,1,436),(10274,'And ate of it.',5,1,436),(10275,'I said: “Is it good, friend?”',6,1,436),(10276,'“It is bitter – bitter,” he answered;',7,1,436),(10277,'“But I like it',8,1,436),(10278,'Because it is bitter,',9,1,436),(10279,'And because it is my heart.”',10,1,436),(10280,'i',1,1,437),(10281,'We are hard on each other',2,2,437),(10282,'and call it honesty,',3,2,437),(10283,'choosing our jagged truths',4,2,437),(10284,'with care and aiming them across',5,2,437),(10285,'the neutral table.',6,2,437),(10286,'The things we say are',7,3,437),(10287,'true; it is our crooked',8,3,437),(10288,'aim, our choices',9,3,437),(10289,'turn them criminal.',10,3,437),(10290,'ii',11,4,437),(10291,'Of course your lies',12,5,437),(10292,'are more amusing:',13,5,437),(10293,'you make them new each time.',14,5,437),(10294,'Your truths, painful and boring',15,6,437),(10295,'repeat themselves over & over',16,6,437),(10296,'perhaps because you own',17,6,437),(10297,'so few of them',18,6,437),(10298,'iii',19,7,437),(10299,'A truth should exist,',20,8,437),(10300,'it should not be used',21,8,437),(10301,'like this. If I love you',22,8,437),(10302,'is that a fact or a weapon?',23,9,437),(10303,'iv',24,10,437),(10304,'Does the body lie',25,11,437),(10305,'moving like this, are these',26,11,437),(10306,'touches, hairs, wet',27,11,437),(10307,'soft marble my tongue runs over',28,11,437),(10308,'lies you are telling me?',29,11,437),(10309,'Your body is not a word,',30,12,437),(10310,'it does not lie or',31,12,437),(10311,'speak truth either.',32,12,437),(10312,'It is only',33,13,437),(10313,'here or not here.',34,13,437),(10314,'What happens to a dream deferred?',1,1,438),(10315,'Does it dry up',2,2,438),(10316,'like a raisin in the sun?',3,2,438),(10317,'Or fester like a sore–',4,2,438),(10318,'And then run?',5,2,438),(10319,'Does it stink like rotten meat?',6,2,438),(10320,'Or crust and sugar over–',7,2,438),(10321,'like a syrupy sweet?',8,2,438),(10322,'Maybe it just sags',9,3,438),(10323,'like a heavy load.',10,3,438),(10324,'Or does it explode?',11,4,438),(10325,'In an effort to get people to look',1,1,439),(10326,'into each other’s eyes more,',2,1,439),(10327,'and also to appease the mutes,',3,1,439),(10328,'the government has decided',4,1,439),(10329,'to allot each person exactly one hundred',5,1,439),(10330,'and sixty-seven words, per day.',6,1,439),(10331,'When the phone rings, I put it to my ear',7,2,439),(10332,'without saying hello. In the restaurant',8,2,439),(10333,'I point at chicken noodle soup.',9,2,439),(10334,'I am adjusting well to the new way.',10,2,439),(10335,'Late at night, I call my long distance lover,',11,3,439),(10336,'proudly say I only used fifty-nine today. I saved the rest for you.',12,3,439),(10337,'When she doesn’t respond,',13,4,439),(10338,'I know she’s used up all her words,',14,4,439),(10339,'so I slowly whisper I love you',15,4,439),(10340,'thirty-two and a third times.',16,4,439),(10341,'After that, we just sit on the line',17,4,439),(10342,'and listen to each other breathe.',18,4,439),(10343,'All is quiet where I sit',1,1,440),(10344,'and listen to rain trickling',2,1,440),(10345,'through a hole in the waterspout',3,1,440),(10346,'outside my bedroom window.',4,1,440),(10347,'I seize the moment',5,1,440),(10348,'to be alone with my Yevtushenko.',6,1,440),(10349,'He is saying between quotation marks',7,1,440),(10350,'that look like droplets of rain',8,1,440),(10351,'suspended near the edge',9,1,440),(10352,'of my windowpane,',10,1,440),(10353,'he is saying,',11,1,440),(10354,'“And I run like mad',12,1,440),(10355,'Never catching up with myself.”',13,1,440),(10356,'How I wish he would run right',14,2,440),(10357,'into my room so he could see',15,2,440),(10358,'my pen struggling across this piece',16,2,440),(10359,'of white paper, writing as though',17,2,440),(10360,'on soggy stationery',18,2,440),(10361,'or on shreds of sandpaper.',19,2,440),(10362,'What would he say',20,2,440),(10363,'if he could see me thus?',21,2,440),(10364,'Would he recite,',22,2,440),(10365,'“I walk across life',23,2,440),(10366,'Shirt collar open” or,',24,2,440),(10367,'“I am cruel to the petals”?',25,2,440),(10368,'Or would he simply',26,2,440),(10369,'lead me out of this room',27,2,440),(10370,'to the rain-soaked grass',28,2,440),(10371,'in my garden',29,2,440),(10372,'where, in a quiet corner,',30,2,440),(10373,'under an awning,',31,2,440),(10374,'my soft-spoken washerwoman,',32,2,440),(10375,'tall and gentle as Yevtushenko,',33,2,440),(10376,'is noiselessly erasing with a bar of soap',34,2,440),(10377,'a darkish stain on my skirt?',35,2,440),(10378,'Or would he whisper',36,2,440),(10379,'with outstretched arms,',37,2,440),(10380,'“Come, let us kiss…”?',38,2,440),(10381,'But the rain has stopped.',39,3,440),(10382,'Yevtushenko has to go',40,3,440),(10383,'back to the second-to-the-last-shelf nook,',41,3,440),(10384,'next to my husband’s copy of',42,3,440),(10385,'The Stock Market Handbook.',43,3,440),(10386,'To D.G.',1,1,441),(10387,'I have been wounded so often and so painfully,',2,2,441),(10388,'dragging my way home at the merest crawl,',3,2,441),(10389,'impaled not only by malicious tongues—',4,2,441),(10390,'one can be wounded even by a petal.',5,2,441),(10391,'And I myself have wounded—quite unwittingly—',6,3,441),(10392,'with casual tenderness while passing by,',7,3,441),(10393,'and later someone felt the pain,',8,3,441),(10394,'it was like walking barefoot over the ice.',9,3,441),(10395,'So why do I step upon the ruins',10,4,441),(10396,'of those most near and dear to me,',11,4,441),(10397,'I, who can be so simply and so sharply wounded',12,4,441),(10398,'and can wound others with such deadly ease?',13,4,441),(10399,'your life is your life',1,1,442),(10400,'don’t let it be clubbed into dank submission.',2,1,442),(10401,'be on the watch.',3,1,442),(10402,'there are ways out.',4,1,442),(10403,'there is a light somewhere.',5,1,442),(10404,'it may not be much light but',6,1,442),(10405,'it beats the darkness.',7,1,442),(10406,'be on the watch.',8,1,442),(10407,'the gods will offer you chances.',9,1,442),(10408,'know them.',10,1,442),(10409,'take them.',11,1,442),(10410,'you can’t beat death but',12,1,442),(10411,'you can beat death in life, sometimes.',13,1,442),(10412,'and the more often you learn to do it,',14,1,442),(10413,'the more light there will be.',15,1,442),(10414,'your life is your life.',16,1,442),(10415,'know it while you have it.',17,1,442),(10416,'you are marvelous',18,1,442),(10417,'the gods wait to delight',19,1,442),(10418,'in you.',20,1,442),(10419,'I’m standing in a place where I once loved.',1,1,443),(10420,'The rain is falling. The rain is my home.',2,1,443),(10421,'I think words of longing: a landscape',3,2,443),(10422,'out to the very edge of what’s possible.',4,2,443),(10423,'I remember you waving your hand',5,3,443),(10424,'as if wiping mist from the windowpane,',6,3,443),(10425,'and your face, as if enlarged',7,4,443),(10426,'from an old blurred photo.',8,4,443),(10427,'Once I committed a terrible wrong',9,5,443),(10428,'to myself and others.',10,5,443),(10429,'But the world is beautifully made for doing good',11,6,443),(10430,'and for resting, like a park bench.',12,6,443),(10431,'And late in life I discovered',13,7,443),(10432,'a quiet joy',14,7,443),(10433,'like a serious disease that’s discovered too late:',15,7,443),(10434,'just a little time left now for quiet joy.',16,8,443),(10435,'Today I pass the time reading',1,1,444),(10436,'a favorite haiku,',2,1,444),(10437,'saying the few words over and over.',3,1,444),(10438,'It feels like eating',4,2,444),(10439,'the same small, perfect grape',5,2,444),(10440,'again and again.',6,2,444),(10441,'I walk through the house reciting it',7,3,444),(10442,'and leave its letters falling',8,3,444),(10443,'through the air of every room.',9,3,444),(10444,'I stand by the big silence of the piano and say it.',10,4,444),(10445,'I say it in front of a painting of the sea.',11,4,444),(10446,'I tap out its rhythm on an empty shelf.',12,4,444),(10447,'I listen to myself saying it,',13,5,444),(10448,'then I say it without listening,',14,5,444),(10449,'then I hear it without saying it.',15,5,444),(10450,'And when the dog looks up at me,',16,6,444),(10451,'I kneel down on the floor',17,6,444),(10452,'and whisper it into each of his long white ears.',18,6,444),(10453,'It’s the one about the one-ton',19,7,444),(10454,'temple bell',20,7,444),(10455,'with the moth sleeping on its surface,',21,7,444),(10456,'and every time I say it, I feel the excruciating',22,8,444),(10457,'pressure of the moth',23,8,444),(10458,'on the surface of the iron bell.',24,8,444),(10459,'When I say it at the window,',25,9,444),(10460,'the bell is the world',26,9,444),(10461,'and I am the moth resting there.',27,9,444),(10462,'When I say it into the mirror,',28,10,444),(10463,'I am the heavy bell',29,10,444),(10464,'and the moth is life with its papery wings.',30,10,444),(10465,'And later, when I say it to you in the dark,',31,11,444),(10466,'you are the bell,',32,11,444),(10467,'and I am the tongue of the bell, ringing you,',33,11,444),(10468,'and the moth has flown',34,12,444),(10469,'from its line',35,12,444),(10470,'and moves like a hinge in the air above our bed.',36,12,444),(10471,'In the dimly lit room',1,1,445),(10472,'I had a brief glimpse of bliss:',2,1,445),(10473,'sight of your naked body',3,1,445),(10474,'like a god reclining.',4,1,445),(10475,'That was all.',5,1,445),(10476,'Quite unaware',6,2,445),(10477,'you got up to get your clothes',7,2,445),(10478,'just naturally',8,2,445),(10479,'while I shuddered',9,2,445),(10480,'like the earth split open by lightning.',10,2,445),(10481,'When you fall in love,',1,1,446),(10482,'you jockey your horse',2,1,446),(10483,'into the flaming barn.',3,1,446),(10484,'You hire a cabin',4,2,446),(10485,'on the shiny Titanic.',5,2,446),(10486,'You tease the black bear.',6,2,446),(10487,'Reading the Monitor,',7,3,446),(10488,'you scan the obituaries',8,3,446),(10489,'looking for your name.',9,3,446),(10490,'Not soon, as late as the approach of my ninetieth year,',1,1,447),(10491,'I felt a door opening in me and I entered',2,1,447),(10492,'the clarity of early morning.',3,1,447),(10493,'One after another my former lives were departing,',4,2,447),(10494,'like ships, together with their sorrow.',5,2,447),(10495,'And the countries, cities, gardens, the bays of seas',6,3,447),(10496,'assigned to my brush came closer,',7,3,447),(10497,'ready now to be described better than they were before.',8,3,447),(10498,'I was not separated from people,',9,4,447),(10499,'grief and pity joined us.',10,4,447),(10500,'We forget – I kept saying – that we are all children of the King.',11,4,447),(10501,'For where we come from there is no division',12,5,447),(10502,'into Yes and No, into is, was, and will be.',13,5,447),(10503,'We were miserable, we used no more than a hundredth part',14,6,447),(10504,'of the gift we received for our long journey.',15,6,447),(10505,'Moments from yesterday and from centuries ago –',16,7,447),(10506,'a sword blow, the painting of eyelashes before a mirror',17,7,447),(10507,'of polished metal, a lethal musket shot, a caravel',18,7,447),(10508,'staving its hull against a reef – they dwell in us,',19,7,447),(10509,'waiting for a fulfillment.',20,7,447),(10510,'I knew, always, that I would be a worker in the vineyard,',21,8,447),(10511,'as are all men and women living at the same time,',22,8,447),(10512,'whether they are aware of it or not.',23,8,447),(10513,'For you I undress down to the sheaths of my nerves.',1,1,448),(10514,'I remove my jewelry and set it on the nightstand,',2,1,448),(10515,'I unhook my ribs, spread my lungs flat on a chair.',3,1,448),(10516,'I dissolve like a remedy in water, in wine.',4,1,448),(10517,'I spill without staining, and leave without stirring the air.',5,1,448),(10518,'I do it for love. For love, I disappear.',6,1,448),(10519,'bed calls. i sit in the dark in the living room',1,1,449),(10520,'trying to ignore them',2,1,449),(10521,'in the morning, especially Sunday mornings',3,2,449),(10522,'it will not let me up. you must sleep',4,2,449),(10523,'longer, it says',5,2,449),(10524,'facing south',6,3,449),(10525,'the bed makes me lay heavenward on my back',7,3,449),(10526,'while i prefer a westerly fetal position',8,3,449),(10527,'facing the wall',9,3,449),(10528,'the bed sucks me sideways into it when i',10,4,449),(10529,'sit down on it to put on my shoes. this',11,4,449),(10530,'persistence on its part forces me to dress in',12,4,449),(10531,'the bathroom where things are less subversive',13,4,449),(10532,'the bed lumps up in anger springs popping out to',14,5,449),(10533,'scratch my dusky thighs',15,5,449),(10534,'my little office sits in the alcove adjacent to',16,6,449),(10535,'the bed. it makes strange little sighs',17,6,449),(10536,'which distract me from my work',18,6,449),(10537,'sadistically i pull back the covers',19,6,449),(10538,'put my typewriter on the sheet and turn it on',20,6,449),(10539,'the bed complains that i’m difficult duty',21,7,449),(10540,'its slats are collapsing. it bitches when i',22,7,449),(10541,'blanket it with books and papers. it tells me',23,7,449),(10542,'it’s made for blood and bone',24,7,449),(10543,'lately spiders ants and roaches',25,8,449),(10544,'have invaded it searching for food',26,8,449),(10545,'Although you have betrayed him in a dream,',1,1,450),(10546,'you have betrayed him, and the infidelities',2,1,450),(10547,'of sleep will change you: you',3,1,450),(10548,'will find yourself suddenly in love',4,1,450),(10549,'with the two young women',5,1,450),(10550,'outside your window',6,1,450),(10551,'whose voices and laughter fell',7,1,450),(10552,'groundward',8,2,450),(10553,'with last winter’s snow. You will begin to think:',9,3,450),(10554,'I am beginning to move among them.',10,3,450),(10555,'But only you will be wearing a snap-brimmed',11,3,450),(10556,'hat. When the knock comes, it will knock',12,3,450),(10557,'a certain reticence. It will leave',13,4,450),(10558,'your door covered in white knuckles.',14,4,450),(10559,'And the windows will no longer breathe, they will die',15,5,450),(10560,'like paintings. And will no longer be',16,6,450),(10561,'worrying the stars into meaning, they will',17,6,450),(10562,'already mean something, but that will only be the wind,',18,6,450),(10563,'only the wind that will be',19,6,450),(10564,'keen and keening.',20,7,450),(10565,'All else will remain hidden and nameless.',21,8,450),(10566,'By which I mean: your soul. By which I mean',22,8,450),(10567,'you will begin by missing',23,9,450),(10568,'your old sadness, that old country: a country',24,10,450),(10569,'fielded in rye. A strange sore',25,10,450),(10570,'will just then start to form',26,10,450),(10571,'underneath your tongue.',27,10,450),(10572,'You will always find yourself being unfaithful to someone.',28,11,450),(10573,'You will always be gathering something from the landscape',29,11,450),(10574,'without poems:',30,12,450),(10575,'then, finally, winter,',31,13,450),(10576,'to once again',32,13,450),(10577,'thin things out, down',33,13,450),(10578,'to those two women’s',34,14,450),(10579,'voices. And their laughter, their laughter falling',35,14,450),(10580,'with the new snow?',36,14,450),(10581,'Perhaps by then you will no longer be in love.',37,15,450),(10582,'Your infidelities will have changed you.',38,16,450),(10583,'Try to praise the mutilated world.',1,1,451),(10584,'Remember June’s long days,',2,1,451),(10585,'and wild strawberries, drops of rosé wine.',3,1,451),(10586,'The nettles that methodically overgrow',4,1,451),(10587,'the abandoned homesteads of exiles.',5,1,451),(10588,'You must praise the mutilated world.',6,1,451),(10589,'You watched the stylish yachts and ships;',7,1,451),(10590,'one of them had a long trip ahead of it,',8,1,451),(10591,'while salty oblivion awaited others.',9,1,451),(10592,'You’ve seen the refugees heading nowhere,',10,1,451),(10593,'you’ve heard the executioners sing joyfully.',11,1,451),(10594,'You should praise the mutilated world.',12,1,451),(10595,'Remember the moments when we were together',13,1,451),(10596,'in a white room and the curtain fluttered.',14,1,451),(10597,'Return in thought to the concert where music flared.',15,1,451),(10598,'You gathered acorns in the park in autumn',16,1,451),(10599,'and leaves eddied over the earth’s scars.',17,1,451),(10600,'Praise the mutilated world',18,1,451),(10601,'and the gray feather a thrush lost,',19,1,451),(10602,'and the gentle light that strays and vanishes',20,1,451),(10603,'and returns.',21,1,451),(10604,'crossed',1,1,452),(10605,'in despair',2,1,452),(10606,'many deserts',3,1,452),(10607,'full of hope',4,1,452),(10608,'carrying',5,2,452),(10609,'their empty',6,2,452),(10610,'fists of sorrow',7,2,452),(10611,'everywhere',8,2,452),(10612,'mouthing',9,3,452),(10613,'a bitter night',10,3,452),(10614,'of shovels',11,3,452),(10615,'and nails',12,3,452),(10616,'“you’re nothing',13,4,452),(10617,'you’re shit',14,4,452),(10618,'your home’s',15,4,452),(10619,'nowhere”—',16,4,452),(10620,'mountains',17,5,452),(10621,'will speak',18,5,452),(10622,'for you',19,5,452),(10623,'rain',20,6,452),(10624,'will flesh',21,6,452),(10625,'your bones',22,6,452),(10626,'green again',23,7,452),(10627,'among ashes',24,7,452),(10628,'after a long fire',25,7,452),(10629,'started in',26,8,452),(10630,'a fantasy island',27,8,452),(10631,'some time ago',28,8,452),(10632,'turning',29,9,452),(10633,'Natives',30,9,452),(10634,'into aliens',31,9,452),(10635,'i like my body when it is with your',1,1,453),(10636,'body. It is so quite new a thing.',2,1,453),(10637,'Muscles better and nerves more.',3,1,453),(10638,'i like your body. i like what it does,',4,1,453),(10639,'i like its hows. i like to feel the spine',5,1,453),(10640,'of your body and its bones, and the trembling',6,1,453),(10641,'-firm-smooth ness and which i will',7,1,453),(10642,'again and again and again',8,1,453),(10643,'kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,',9,1,453),(10644,'i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz',10,1,453),(10645,'of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes',11,1,453),(10646,'over parting flesh … And eyes big love-crumbs,',12,1,453),(10647,'and possibly i like the thrill',13,2,453),(10648,'of under me you so quite new',14,3,453),(10649,'The shirt touches his neck',1,1,454),(10650,'and smooths over his back.',2,1,454),(10651,'It slides down his sides.',3,1,454),(10652,'It even goes down below his belt—',4,1,454),(10653,'down into his pants.',5,1,454),(10654,'Lucky shirt.',6,1,454),(10655,'I am in love, hence free to live',1,1,455),(10656,'by heart, to ad lib as I caress.',2,1,455),(10657,'A soul is light when full,',3,1,455),(10658,'heavy when vacuous.',4,1,455),(10659,'My soul is light. She is not afraid',5,1,455),(10660,'to dance the agony alone,',6,1,455),(10661,'for I was born wearing your shirt,',7,1,455),(10662,'will come from the dead with that shirt on.',8,1,455),(10663,'for John Fogleman',1,1,456),(10664,'There are some things we just don’t talk about—',2,2,456),(10665,'Not even in the morning, when we’re waking,',3,2,456),(10666,'When your calloused fingers tentatively walk',4,2,456),(10667,'The slope of my waist:',5,2,456),(10668,'How love’s a rust-worn boat,',6,2,456),(10669,'Abandoned at the dock—and who could doubt',7,2,456),(10670,'Waves lick their teeth, eyeing its hull? We’re taking',8,2,456),(10671,'Our wreckage as a promise, so we don’t talk.',9,2,456),(10672,'We wet the tired oars, tide drawing us out.',10,2,456),(10673,'We understand there’s nothing to be said.',11,3,456),(10674,'Both of us know the dangers of this sea,',12,3,456),(10675,'Warned by the tide-worn driftwood of our pasts—.',13,3,456),(10676,'But we’ve already strayed from the harbor. We thread',14,3,456),(10677,'A slow wake though the water—then silently,',15,3,456),(10678,'We start to row, and will for as long as this lasts.',16,3,456),(10679,'You lie in our bed as if an orchard were over us.',1,1,457),(10680,'You are what’s fallen from those fatal boughs.',2,1,457),(10681,'Where will we go when they send us away from here?',3,1,457),(10682,'It was your idea',1,1,458),(10683,'to park and watch the elephants',2,1,458),(10684,'swaying among the trees',3,1,458),(10685,'like royalty',4,1,458),(10686,'at that make-believe safari',5,1,458),(10687,'near Laguna.',6,1,458),(10688,'I didn’t know anything that big',7,1,458),(10689,'could be so quiet.',8,1,458),(10690,'And once, you stopped',9,2,458),(10691,'on a dark desert road',10,2,458),(10692,'to show me the stars',11,2,458),(10693,'climbing over each other',12,2,458),(10694,'riotously',13,2,458),(10695,'like insects',14,2,458),(10696,'like an orchestra',15,2,458),(10697,'thrashing its way',16,2,458),(10698,'through time itself',17,2,458),(10699,'I never saw light that way',18,2,458),(10700,'again.',19,2,458),(10701,'As the bruises fade, the lightning aches.',1,1,459),(10702,'Last week, making love, you bit me.',2,1,459),(10703,'Now the blue and dark have gone',3,1,459),(10704,'and yellow bruises grow toward pale daffodils,',4,1,459),(10705,'then paler to become until my body',5,1,459),(10706,'is all my own and what that ever got me.',6,1,459),(10707,'All the new thinking is about loss.',1,1,460),(10708,'In this it resembles all the old thinking.',2,1,460),(10709,'The idea, for example, that each particular erases',3,1,460),(10710,'the luminous clarity of a general idea. That the clown-',4,1,460),(10711,'faced woodpecker probing the dead sculpted trunk',5,1,460),(10712,'of that black birch is, by his presence,',6,1,460),(10713,'some tragic falling off from a first world',7,1,460),(10714,'of undivided light. Or the other notion that,',8,1,460),(10715,'because there is in this world no one thing',9,1,460),(10716,'to which the bramble of blackberry corresponds,',10,1,460),(10717,'a word is elegy to what it signifies.',11,1,460),(10718,'We talked about it late last night and in the voice',12,1,460),(10719,'of my friend, there was a thin wire of grief, a tone',13,1,460),(10720,'almost querulous. After a while I understood that,',14,1,460),(10721,'talking this way, everything dissolves: justice,',15,1,460),(10722,'pine, hair, woman, you and I. There was a woman',16,1,460),(10723,'I made love to and I remembered how, holding',17,1,460),(10724,'her small shoulders in my hands sometimes,',18,1,460),(10725,'I felt a violent wonder at her presence',19,1,460),(10726,'like a thirst for salt, for my childhood river',20,1,460),(10727,'with its island willows, silly music from the pleasure boat,',21,1,460),(10728,'muddy places where we caught the little orange-silver fish',22,1,460),(10729,'called pumpkinseed. It hardly had to do with her.',23,1,460),(10730,'Longing, we say, because desire is full',24,1,460),(10731,'of endless distances. I must have been the same to her.',25,1,460),(10732,'But I remember so much, the way her hands dismantled bread,',26,1,460),(10733,'the thing her father said that hurt her, what',27,1,460),(10734,'she dreamed. There are moments when the body is as numinous',28,1,460),(10735,'as words, days that are the good flesh continuing.',29,1,460),(10736,'Such tenderness, those afternoons and evenings,',30,1,460),(10737,'saying blackberry, blackberry, blackberry.',31,1,460),(10738,'I waited for you calmly, with infinite patience.',1,1,461),(10739,'I waited for you hungrily, just short of desperate.',2,1,461),(10740,'When you came I knew that desperate was unattractive.',3,2,461),(10741,'I was calm, no one wants the kind of calm I was.',4,2,461),(10742,'It tried your patience, it made you hungry for a man',5,3,461),(10743,'who was hungry. I am that man, I said,',6,3,461),(10744,'but I said it calmly. My body was an ache, a silence.',7,4,461),(10745,'It could not affirm how long it had waited for you.',8,4,461),(10746,'It could not claw or insist or extend its hands.',9,5,461),(10747,'It was just a stupid body, closed up and voracious.',10,5,461),(10748,'In the room where we lie,',1,1,462),(10749,'light stains the drawn shades yellow.',2,1,462),(10750,'We sweat and pull at each other, climb',3,1,462),(10751,'with our fingers the slippery ladders of rib.',4,1,462),(10752,'Wherever our bodies touch, the flesh',5,1,462),(10753,'comes alive. Head and need, like invisible',6,1,462),(10754,'animals, gnaw at my breast, the soft',7,1,462),(10755,'insides of your thighs. What I want',8,1,462),(10756,'I simply reach out and take, no delicacy now,',9,1,462),(10757,'the dark human bread I eat handful',10,1,462),(10758,'by greedy handful. Eyes fingers, mouths,',11,1,462),(10759,'sweet leeches of desire. Crazy woman,',12,1,462),(10760,'her brain full of bees, see how her palms curl',13,1,462),(10761,'into fists and beat the pillow senseless.',14,1,462),(10762,'And when my body finally gives in to it',15,1,462),(10763,'then pulls itself away, salt-laced',16,1,462),(10764,'and arched with its final ache, I am',17,1,462),(10765,'so grateful I would give you anything, anything.',18,1,462),(10766,'If I loved you, being this close would kill me.',19,1,462),(10767,'Although you mention Venice',1,1,463),(10768,'keeping it on your tongue like a fruit pit',2,1,463),(10769,'and I say yes, perhaps Bucharest, neither of us',3,1,463),(10770,'really knows. There is only this train',4,1,463),(10771,'slipping through pastures of snow,',5,1,463),(10772,'a sleigh reaching down',6,1,463),(10773,'to touch its buried runners.',7,1,463),(10774,'We meet on the shaking platform,',8,1,463),(10775,'the wind’s broken teeth sinking into us.',9,1,463),(10776,'You unwrap your dark bread',10,1,463),(10777,'and share with me the coffee',11,1,463),(10778,'sloshing into your gloves.',12,1,463),(10779,'Telegraph posts chop the winter fields',13,1,463),(10780,'into white blocks, in each window',14,1,463),(10781,'the crude painting of a small farm.',15,1,463),(10782,'We listen to mothers scolding',16,1,463),(10783,'children in English as if',17,1,463),(10784,'we do not understand a word of it–',18,1,463),(10785,'sit still, sit still.',19,1,463),(10786,'There are few clues as to where',20,2,463),(10787,'we are: the baled wheat scattered',21,2,463),(10788,'everywhere like missing coffins.',22,2,463),(10789,'The distant yellow kitchen lights',23,2,463),(10790,'wiped with oil.',24,2,463),(10791,'Everywhere the black dipping wires',25,2,463),(10792,'stretching messages from one side',26,2,463),(10793,'of a country to the other.',27,2,463),(10794,'The men who stand on every border',28,2,463),(10795,'waving to us.',29,2,463),(10796,'Wiping ovals of breath from the windows',30,3,463),(10797,'in order to see ourselves, you touch',31,3,463),(10798,'the glass tenderly wherever it holds my face.',32,3,463),(10799,'Days later, you are showing me',33,3,463),(10800,'photographs of a woman and children',34,3,463),(10801,'smiling from the windows of your wallet.',35,3,463),(10802,'Each time the train slows, a man',36,4,463),(10803,'with our faces in the gold buttons',37,4,463),(10804,'of his coat passes through the cars',38,4,463),(10805,'muttering the name of a city. Each time',39,4,463),(10806,'we lose people. Each time I find you',40,4,463),(10807,'again between the cars, holding out',41,4,463),(10808,'a scrap of bread for me, something',42,4,463),(10809,'hot to drink, until there are',43,4,463),(10810,'no more cities and you pull me',44,4,463),(10811,'toward you, sliding your hands',45,4,463),(10812,'into my coat, telling me',46,4,463),(10813,'your name over and over, hurrying',47,4,463),(10814,'your mouth into mine.',48,4,463),(10815,'We have, each of us, nothing.',49,4,463),(10816,'We will give it to each other.',50,4,463),(10817,'My body is white; my fate, softly rounded,',1,1,464),(10818,'Rising and sinking like mountains in streams.',2,1,464),(10819,'Whatever way hands may shape me,',3,1,464),(10820,'At center my heart is red and true.',4,1,464),(10821,'The plants of the lake',1,1,465),(10822,'saw you one morning.',2,1,465),(10823,'The stones the goats the sweat',3,1,465),(10824,'exist outside of days',4,1,465),(10825,'like the water of the lake.',5,1,465),(10826,'The lake remains unmarked',6,1,465),(10827,'by the days’ pain and clamor.',7,1,465),(10828,'The mornings will pass,',8,1,465),(10829,'the anguish will pass,',9,1,465),(10830,'other stones and sweat',10,1,465),(10831,'will bite into your blood—',11,1,465),(10832,'it won’t always be like this.',12,1,465),(10833,'You’ll rediscover something.',13,1,465),(10834,'Another morning will come',14,1,465),(10835,'when, beyond the clamor,',15,1,465),(10836,'you’ll be alone on the lake.',16,1,465),(10837,'You also are love.',17,2,465),(10838,'Made of blood and earth',18,2,465),(10839,'like the others. You walk',19,2,465),(10840,'like one who won’t stray far',20,2,465),(10841,'from your own front door.',21,2,465),(10842,'You watch like one who waits',22,2,465),(10843,'and doesn’t see. You are earth',23,2,465),(10844,'that aches and keeps silent.',24,2,465),(10845,'You have bursts and lapses,',25,2,465),(10846,'you have words — you walk',26,2,465),(10847,'and wait. Your blood',27,2,465),(10848,'is love — that’s all.',28,2,465),(10849,'A parrot of irritation sits',1,1,466),(10850,'on my shoulder, pecks',2,1,466),(10851,'at my head, ruffling his feathers',3,1,466),(10852,'in my ear. He repeats',4,1,466),(10853,'everything I say, like a child',5,1,466),(10854,'trying to irritate the parent.',6,1,466),(10855,'Too much to do today: the dracena',7,1,466),(10856,'that’s outgrown its pot, a mountain',8,1,466),(10857,'of bills to pay and nothing in the house',9,1,466),(10858,'to eat. Too many clothes need washing',10,1,466),(10859,'and the dog needs his shots.',11,1,466),(10860,'It just goes on and on, I say',12,1,466),(10861,'to myself, no one around, and catch',13,1,466),(10862,'myself saying it, a ball hit so straight',14,1,466),(10863,'to your glove you’d have to be',15,1,466),(10864,'blind not to catch it. And of course',16,1,466),(10865,'I hope it does go on and on',17,1,466),(10866,'forever, the little pain,',18,1,466),(10867,'the little pleasure, the sun',19,1,466),(10868,'a blood orange in the sky, the sky',20,1,466),(10869,'parrot blue and the day',21,1,466),(10870,'unfolding like a bird slowly',22,1,466),(10871,'spreading its wings, though I know,',23,1,466),(10872,'saying it, that it won’t.',24,1,466),(10873,'Who gives his heart away too easily must have a heart under his heart.',1,1,467),(10874,'—James Richardson',2,1,467),(10875,'The heart under your heart',3,2,467),(10876,'is not the one you share',4,2,467),(10877,'so readily so full of pleasantry',5,2,467),(10878,'& tenderness',6,2,467),(10879,'it is a single blackberry',7,2,467),(10880,'at the heart of a bramble',8,2,467),(10881,'or else some larger fruit',9,2,467),(10882,'heavy the size of a fist',10,2,467),(10883,'it is full of things',11,2,467),(10884,'you have never shared with me',12,2,467),(10885,'broken engagements bruises',13,2,467),(10886,'& baking dishes',14,2,467),(10887,'the scars on top of scars',15,2,467),(10888,'of sixteen thousand pinpricks',16,2,467),(10889,'the melody you want so much to carry',17,2,467),(10890,'& always fear black fear',18,2,467),(10891,'or so I imagine you have never shown me',19,2,467),(10892,'& how could I expect you to',20,2,467),(10893,'I also have a heart beneath my heart',21,2,467),(10894,'perhaps you have seen or guessed',22,2,467),(10895,'it is a beach at night',23,2,467),(10896,'where the waves lap & the wind hisses',24,2,467),(10897,'over a bank of thin',25,2,467),(10898,'translucent orange & yellow jingle shells',26,2,467),(10899,'on the far side of the harbor',27,2,467),(10900,'the lighthouse beacon',28,2,467),(10901,'shivers across the black water',29,2,467),(10902,'& someone stands there waiting',30,2,467),(10903,'One grand boulevard with trees',1,1,468),(10904,'with one grand cafe in sun',2,1,468),(10905,'with strong black coffee in very small cups.',3,1,468),(10906,'One not necessarily very beautiful',4,2,468),(10907,'man or woman who loves you.',5,2,468),(10908,'One fine day.',6,3,468),(10909,'1.',1,1,469),(10910,'Where what I see comes to rest,',2,2,469),(10911,'at the edge of the lake,',3,2,469),(10912,'against what I think I see',4,2,469),(10913,'and, up on the bank, who I am',5,3,469),(10914,'maintains an uneasy truce',6,3,469),(10915,'with who I fear I am,',7,3,469),(10916,'while in the cabin’s shade the gap between',8,4,469),(10917,'the words I said',9,4,469),(10918,'and those I remember saying',10,4,469),(10919,'is just wide enough to contain',11,5,469),(10920,'the remains that remain',12,5,469),(10921,'of what I assumed I knew.',13,5,469),(10922,'2.',14,6,469),(10923,'Out in the canoe, the person I thought you were',15,7,469),(10924,'gingerly trades spots',16,7,469),(10925,'with the person you are',17,7,469),(10926,'and what I believe I believe',18,8,469),(10927,'sits uncomfortably next to',19,8,469),(10928,'what I believe.',20,8,469),(10929,'When I promised I will always give you',21,9,469),(10930,'what I want you to want,',22,9,469),(10931,'you heard, or desired to hear,',23,9,469),(10932,'something else. As, over and in the lake,',24,10,469),(10933,'the cormorant and its image',25,10,469),(10934,'traced paths through the sky.',26,10,469),(10935,'Every year without knowing it I have passed the day',1,1,470),(10936,'When the last fires will wave to me',2,1,470),(10937,'And the silence will set out',3,1,470),(10938,'Tireless traveler',4,1,470),(10939,'Like the beam of a lightless star',5,1,470),(10940,'Then I will no longer',6,2,470),(10941,'Find myself in life as in a strange garment',7,2,470),(10942,'Surprised at the earth',8,2,470),(10943,'And the love of one woman',9,2,470),(10944,'And the shamelessness of men',10,2,470),(10945,'As today writing after three days of rain',11,2,470),(10946,'Hearing the wren sing and the falling cease',12,2,470),(10947,'And bowing not knowing to what',13,2,470),(10948,'When my dad first started to die',1,1,471),(10949,'All my mom could remember',2,1,471),(10950,'Was the time he kicked her out',3,1,471),(10951,'After they first started dating',4,1,471),(10952,'So that he could go play golf',5,1,471),(10953,'It is the sort of thing we all remember',6,1,471),(10954,'When we feel death upon us',7,1,471),(10955,'I remember he died twice',8,1,471),(10956,'And once in my dream',9,1,471),(10957,'I just had to see him all nursed and swaddled as if he were sleeping',10,1,471),(10958,'But he wasn’t sleeping',11,1,471),(10959,'I stood in the white light of the nursing home bathroom',12,1,471),(10960,'With the sun spilling everywhere on me',13,1,471),(10961,'And tried to talk to him, but never, he’d never listen',14,1,471),(10962,'People don’t always listen to you when they are dead',15,1,471),(10963,'But that’s not sad',16,1,471),(10964,'I get tired',17,1,471),(10965,'And I don’t listen to one Goddamn thing you are saying',18,1,471),(10966,'But that is because most of the time you bore me',19,1,471),(10967,'And when I am finally asleep it is really nice just to dream',20,1,471),(10968,'I have seen a lot of things in this life',21,1,471),(10969,'But one thing I saw most readily',22,1,471),(10970,'Was that despite his eternal heartbreak',23,1,471),(10971,'And girlish silliness',24,1,471),(10972,'Mike’s face was kind of sweet, a sweet wind',25,1,471),(10973,'He is going to think it is weird that I put him in this poem',26,1,471),(10974,'But I don’t think it is weird that I put him in this poem',27,1,471),(10975,'I slid the white louvers shut so I could stand in your closet',1,1,472),(10976,'a little while among the throng of flowered dresses',2,1,472),(10977,'you hadn’t worn in years, and touch the creases',3,1,472),(10978,'on each of their sleeves that smelled of forgiveness',4,1,472),(10979,'and even though you would still be alive a few more days',5,1,472),(10980,'I knew they were ready to let themselves be',6,1,472),(10981,'packed into liquor store boxes simply',7,1,472),(10982,'because you had asked that of them,',8,1,472),(10983,'and dropped at the door of the Salvation Army',9,1,472),(10984,'without having noticed me',10,1,472),(10985,'wrapping my arms around so many at once',11,1,472),(10986,'that one slipped a big padded shoulder off of its hanger',12,1,472),(10987,'as if to return the embrace.',13,1,472),(10988,'What do we do with the body, do we',1,1,473),(10989,'burn it, do we set it in dirt or in',2,1,473),(10990,'stone, do we wrap it in balm, honey,',3,1,473),(10991,'oil, and then gauze and tip it onto',4,1,473),(10992,'and trust it to a raft and to water?',5,1,473),(10993,'What will happen to the memory of his',6,2,473),(10994,'body, if one of us doesn’t hurry now',7,2,473),(10995,'and write it down fast? Will it be',8,2,473),(10996,'salt or late light that it melts like?',9,2,473),(10997,'Floss, rubber gloves, and a chewed cap',10,2,473),(10998,'to a pen elsewhere —how are we to',11,3,473),(10999,'regard his effects, do we throw them',12,3,473),(11000,'or use them away, do we say they are',13,3,473),(11001,'relics and so treat them like relics?',14,3,473),(11002,'Does his soiled linen count? If so,',15,3,473),(11003,'would we be wrong then, to wash it?',16,4,473),(11004,'There are no instructions whether it',17,4,473),(11005,'should go to where are those with no',18,4,473),(11006,'linen, or whether by night we should',19,4,473),(11007,'memorially wear it ourselves, by day',20,4,473),(11008,'reflect upon it folded, shelved, empty.',21,5,473),(11009,'Here, on the floor behind his bed is',22,5,473),(11010,'a bent photo—why? Were the two of',23,5,473),(11011,'them lovers? Does it mean, where we',24,5,473),(11012,'found it, that he forgot it or lost it',25,5,473),(11013,'or intended a safekeeping? Should we',26,6,473),(11014,'attempt to make contact? What if this',27,6,473),(11015,'other man too is dead? Or alive, but',28,6,473),(11016,'doesn’t want to remember, is human?',29,6,473),(11017,'Is it okay to be human, and fall away',30,6,473),(11018,'from oblation and memory, if we forget,',31,7,473),(11019,'and can’t sometimes help it and sometimes',32,7,473),(11020,'it is all that we want? How long, in',33,7,473),(11021,'dawns or new cocks, does that take?',34,7,473),(11022,'What if it is rest and nothing else that',35,7,473),(11023,'we want? Is it a findable thing, small?',36,8,473),(11024,'In what hole is it hidden? Is it, maybe,',37,8,473),(11025,'a country? Will a guide be required who',38,8,473),(11026,'will say to us how? Do we fly? Do we',39,8,473),(11027,'swim? What will I do now, with my hands?',40,8,473),(11028,'Your death must be loved this much.',1,1,474),(11029,'You have to know the grief—now.',2,2,474),(11030,'Standing by the water’s edge,',3,2,474),(11031,'looking down at the wave',4,3,474),(11032,'touching you. You have to lie,',5,4,474),(11033,'stiff, arms folded, on a heap of earth',6,4,474),(11034,'and see how far the darkness',7,5,474),(11035,'will take you. I mean it, this, now—',8,6,474),(11036,'before the ghost the cold leaves',9,6,474),(11037,'in your breath, rises;',10,7,474),(11038,'before the toes are put together',11,8,474),(11039,'inside the shoes. There it is—the goddamn',12,8,474),(11040,'orange-going-into-rose descending',13,9,474),(11041,'circle of beauty and time.',14,10,474),(11042,'You have nothing to be sad about.',15,10,474),(11043,'Rain so dark I',1,1,475),(11044,'can’t get through—',2,1,475),(11045,'train going by',3,1,475),(11046,'in a hurry. The voice',4,2,475),(11047,'said walk or die, I',5,2,475),(11048,'walked,—the train',6,2,475),(11049,'and the voice all',7,3,475),(11050,'blurry. I walked with',8,3,475),(11051,'my bones and my heart',9,3,475),(11052,'of chalk, not even',10,4,475),(11053,'a splintered notion:',11,4,475),(11054,'days of thought, nights',12,4,475),(11055,'of worry,—lonesome',13,5,475),(11056,'train in a hurry.',14,5,475),(11057,'The afternoon turned dark early;',1,1,476),(11058,'The light suddenly faded;',2,1,476),(11059,'The dusk was black although, elsewhere, the first star in the cold',3,1,476),(11060,'sky suddenly whistled;',4,1,476),(11061,'And I thought I heard the fresh scraping of the flying steel of boys',5,1,476),(11062,'on roller skates',6,1,476),(11063,'Rollicking over the asphalt in 1926,',7,1,476),(11064,'And I thought I heard the dusk and silence raided',8,1,476),(11065,'By a calm voice commanding consciousness:',9,1,476),(11066,'Wait: wait: wait as if you had always waited And as if it had always been dark And as if the world had been from the beginning A lost and drunken ark in which the only light Was the dread and white of the terrified animals’ eyes.',10,1,476),(11067,'And then, turning on the light, I took a book',11,1,476),(11068,'That I might gaze upon another’s vision of the abyss of conscious-',12,1,476),(11069,'ness—',13,1,476),(11070,'The hope, and the pain of hope, and the patience of hope, and its',14,1,476),(11071,'torment, its astonishment, its endlessness.',15,1,476),(11072,'My best lover ever',1,1,477),(11073,'is dead. And',2,1,477),(11074,'the second best.',3,2,477),(11075,'Nothing to do',4,2,477),(11076,'with me, it was years',5,3,477),(11077,'since I’d seen them.',6,3,477),(11078,'Still, they took',7,4,477),(11079,'something with them',8,4,477),(11080,'no one else knows',9,5,477),(11081,'about me, and if I',10,5,477),(11082,'know it, I know',11,6,477),(11083,'only half, like every',12,6,477),(11084,'other line of a poem.',13,7,477),(11085,'Who was this girl',1,1,478),(11086,'In her white night gown',2,1,478),(11087,'Clutching a pair of jeans',3,1,478),(11088,'On a foggy redwood deck.',4,2,478),(11089,'She looks up at me tender,',5,2,478),(11090,'Calm, surprised,',6,2,478),(11091,'What will we remember',7,3,478),(11092,'Bodied thick with food and lovers',8,3,478),(11093,'After twenty years.',9,3,478),(11094,'Long afterward, Oedipus, old and blinded, walked the',1,1,479),(11095,'roads. He smelled a familiar smell. It was',2,1,479),(11096,'the Sphinx Oedipus said, “I want to ask one question.',3,1,479),(11097,'Why didn’t I recognize my mother?” “You gave the',4,1,479),(11098,'wrong answer,” said the Sphinx “But that was what',5,1,479),(11099,'made everything possible,” said Oedipus “No,” she said.',6,1,479),(11100,'“When I asked, What walks on four legs in the morning,',7,1,479),(11101,'two at noon, and three in the evening, you answered,',8,1,479),(11102,'Man You didn’t say anything about woman.”',9,1,479),(11103,'“When you say Man,” said Oedipus, “you include women',10,1,479),(11104,'too. Everyone knows that.” She said, “That’s what',11,1,479),(11105,'you think.”',12,1,479),(11106,'They have spent their',1,1,480),(11107,'content of simpering,',2,1,480),(11108,'holding their lips this',3,1,480),(11109,'and that way, winding',4,1,480),(11110,'the lines between',5,1,480),(11111,'their brows. Old folks',6,1,480),(11112,'allow their bellies to jiggle like slow',7,1,480),(11113,'tambourines.',8,1,480),(11114,'The hollers',9,1,480),(11115,'rise up and spill',10,1,480),(11116,'over any way they want.',11,1,480),(11117,'When old folks laugh, they free the world.',12,1,480),(11118,'They turn slowly, slyly knowing',13,1,480),(11119,'the best and the worst',14,1,480),(11120,'of remembering.',15,1,480),(11121,'Saliva glistens in',16,1,480),(11122,'the corners of their mouths,',17,1,480),(11123,'their heads wobble',18,1,480),(11124,'on brittle necks, but',19,1,480),(11125,'their laps',20,1,480),(11126,'are filled with memories.',21,1,480),(11127,'When old folks laugh, they consider the promise',22,1,480),(11128,'of dear painless death, and generously',23,1,480),(11129,'forgive life for happening',24,1,480),(11130,'to them.',25,1,480),(11131,'I’m Nobody! Who are you?',1,1,481),(11132,'Are you — Nobody — Too?',2,1,481),(11133,'Then there’s a pair of us!',3,1,481),(11134,'Don’t tell! they’d advertise — you know!',4,1,481),(11135,'How dreary — to be — Somebody!',5,2,481),(11136,'How public — like a Frog —',6,2,481),(11137,'To tell one’s name — the livelong June —',7,2,481),(11138,'To an admiring Bog!',8,2,481),(11139,'I look across the table and think',1,1,482),(11140,'(fiery with love)',2,1,482),(11141,'Ask me, go on, ask me',3,1,482),(11142,'to do something impossible,',4,1,482),(11143,'something freakishly useless,',5,1,482),(11144,'something unimaginable and inimitable',6,1,482),(11145,'Like making a finger break into blossom',7,2,482),(11146,'or walking for half an hour in twenty minutes',8,2,482),(11147,'or remembering tomorrow.',9,2,482),(11148,'I will you to ask it.',10,3,482),(11149,'But all you say is',11,3,482),(11150,'Will you give me a cigarette?',12,3,482),(11151,'And I smile and,',13,3,482),(11152,'returning to the marvelous world',14,3,482),(11153,'of possibility',15,3,482),(11154,'I give you one',16,3,482),(11155,'with a hand that trembles',17,3,482),(11156,'with a human trembling.',18,3,482),(11157,'It is 12:20 in New York a Friday',1,1,483),(11158,'three days after Bastille day, yes',2,1,483),(11159,'it is 1959 and I go get a shoeshine',3,1,483),(11160,'because I will get off the 4:19 in Easthampton',4,1,483),(11161,'at 7:15 and then go straight to dinner',5,1,483),(11162,'and I don’t know the people who will feed me',6,1,483),(11163,'I walk up the muggy street beginning to sun',7,2,483),(11164,'and have a hamburger and a malted and buy',8,2,483),(11165,'an ugly NEW WORLD WRITING to see what the poets',9,2,483),(11166,'in Ghana are doing these days',10,2,483),(11167,'I go on to the bank',11,2,483),(11168,'and Miss Stillwagon (first name Linda I once heard)',12,2,483),(11169,'doesn’t even look up my balance for once in her life',13,2,483),(11170,'and in the GOLDEN GRIFFIN I get a little Verlaine',14,2,483),(11171,'for Patsy with drawings by Bonnard although I do',15,2,483),(11172,'think of Hesiod, trans. Richmond Lattimore or',16,2,483),(11173,'Brendan Behan’s new play or Le Balcon or Les Nègres',17,2,483),(11174,'of Genet, but I don’t, I stick with Verlaine',18,2,483),(11175,'after practically going to sleep with quandariness',19,2,483),(11176,'and for Mike I just stroll into the PARK LANE',20,3,483),(11177,'Liquor Store and ask for a bottle of Strega and',21,3,483),(11178,'then I go back where I came from to 6th Avenue',22,3,483),(11179,'and the tobacconist in the Ziegfeld Theatre and',23,3,483),(11180,'casually ask for a carton of Gauloises and a carton',24,3,483),(11181,'of Picayunes, and a NEW YORK POST with her face on it',25,3,483),(11182,'and I am sweating a lot by now and thinking of',26,4,483),(11183,'leaning on the john door in the 5 SPOT',27,4,483),(11184,'while she whispered a song along the keyboard',28,4,483),(11185,'to Mal Waldron and everyone and I stopped breathing',29,4,483),(11186,'Having used every subterfuge',1,1,484),(11187,'To shake you, lies, fatigue, or even that of passion,',2,1,484),(11188,'Now I see no way but a clean break.',3,1,484),(11189,'I add that I am willing to bear the guilt.',4,1,484),(11190,'You nod assent. Autumn turns windy, huge,',5,2,484),(11191,'A clear vase of dry leaves vibrating on and on.',6,2,484),(11192,'We sit, watching. When I next speak',7,2,484),(11193,'Love buries itself in me, up to the hilt.',8,2,484),(11194,'We met in a coastal village',1,1,485),(11195,'spent a lovely night without leaving an address',2,1,485),(11196,'going separate ways. Three years later',3,1,485),(11197,'we meet again by coincidence.',4,1,485),(11198,'The whole',5,1,485),(11199,'three years spun a novel',6,1,485),(11200,'we abandoned:',7,1,485),(11201,'They fail to recognize themselves',8,1,485),(11202,'as though meeting in another story',9,1,485),(11203,'for an encounter.',10,1,485),(11204,'One asks: Who are you, so cold and weary',11,1,485),(11205,'The other says: I only know a thread is loose on my sweater',12,1,485),(11206,'The more you pull it, the more it lengthens',13,1,485),(11207,'until I completely vanish.',14,1,485),(11208,'Afterward, the compromise.',1,1,486),(11209,'Bodies resume their boundaries.',2,1,486),(11210,'These legs, for instance, mine.',3,2,486),(11211,'Your arms take you back in.',4,2,486),(11212,'Spoons of our fingers, lips',5,3,486),(11213,'admit their ownership.',6,3,486),(11214,'The bedding yawns, a door',7,4,486),(11215,'blows aimlessly ajar',8,4,486),(11216,'and overhead, a plane',9,5,486),(11217,'singsongs coming down.',10,5,486),(11218,'Nothing is changed, except',11,6,486),(11219,'there was a moment when',12,6,486),(11220,'the wolf, the mongering wolf',13,7,486),(11221,'who stands outside the self',14,7,486),(11222,'lay lightly down, and slept.?',15,8,486),(11223,'They amputated',1,1,487),(11224,'Your thighs off my hips.',2,1,487),(11225,'As far as I’m concerned',3,1,487),(11226,'They are all surgeons. All of them.',4,1,487),(11227,'They dismantled us',5,2,487),(11228,'Each from the other.',6,2,487),(11229,'As far as I’m concerned',7,2,487),(11230,'They are all engineers. All of them.',8,2,487),(11231,'A pity. We were such a good',9,3,487),(11232,'And loving invention.',10,3,487),(11233,'An aeroplane made from a man and wife.',11,3,487),(11234,'Wings and everything.',12,3,487),(11235,'We hovered a little above the earth.',13,3,487),(11236,'We even flew a little.',14,4,487),(11237,'A heart that’s been broken',1,1,488),(11238,'has a tiny hinge',2,1,488),(11239,'And when it happens a',3,1,488),(11240,'second or third time',4,1,488),(11241,'it just',5,1,488),(11242,'swings open & shut',6,1,488),(11243,'like a gate.',7,1,488),(11244,'True love. Is it normal',1,1,489),(11245,'is it serious, is it practical?',2,1,489),(11246,'What does the world get from two people',3,1,489),(11247,'who exist in a world of their own?',4,1,489),(11248,'Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,',5,2,489),(11249,'drawn randomly from millions but convinced',6,2,489),(11250,'it had to happen this way – in reward for what?',7,2,489),(11251,'For nothing.',8,2,489),(11252,'The light descends from nowhere.',9,2,489),(11253,'Why on these two and not on others?',10,2,489),(11254,'Doesn’t this outrage justice? Yes it does.',11,2,489),(11255,'Doesn’t it disrupt our painstakingly erected principles,',12,2,489),(11256,'and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.',13,2,489),(11257,'Look at the happy couple.',14,3,489),(11258,'Couldn’t they at least try to hide it,',15,3,489),(11259,'fake a little depression for their friends’ sake?',16,3,489),(11260,'Listen to them laughing – it’s an insult.',17,3,489),(11261,'The language they use – deceptively clear.',18,3,489),(11262,'And their little celebrations, rituals,',19,3,489),(11263,'the elaborate mutual routines –',20,3,489),(11264,'it’s obviously a plot behind the human race’s back!',21,3,489),(11265,'It’s hard even to guess how far things might go',22,4,489),(11266,'if people start to follow their example.',23,4,489),(11267,'What could religion and poetry count on?',24,4,489),(11268,'What would be remembered? What renounced?',25,4,489),(11269,'Who’d want to stay within bounds?',26,4,489),(11270,'True love. Is it really necessary?',27,5,489),(11271,'Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,',28,5,489),(11272,'like a scandal in Life’s highest circles.',29,5,489),(11273,'Perfectly good children are born without its help.',30,5,489),(11274,'It couldn’t populate the planet in a million years,',31,5,489),(11275,'it comes along so rarely.',32,5,489),(11276,'Let the people who never find true love',33,6,489),(11277,'keep saying that there’s no such thing.',34,6,489),(11278,'Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.',35,7,489),(11279,'Interesting how we fall in love:',1,1,490),(11280,'In my case, absolutely. Absolutely, and, alas, often—',2,1,490),(11281,'so it was in my youth.',3,1,490),(11282,'And always with rather boyish men—',4,1,490),(11283,'unformed, sullen, or shyly kicking the dead leaves:',5,1,490),(11284,'in the manner of Balanchine.',6,1,490),(11285,'Nor did I see them as versions of the same thing.',7,1,490),(11286,'I, with my inflexible Platonism,',8,1,490),(11287,'my fierce seeing of only one thing at a time:',9,1,490),(11288,'I ruled against the indefinite article.',10,1,490),(11289,'And yet, the mistakes of my youth',11,1,490),(11290,'made me hopeless, because they repeated themselves,',12,1,490),(11291,'as is commonly true.',13,1,490),(11292,'But in you I felt something beyond the archetype—',14,1,490),(11293,'a true expansiveness, a buoyance and love of the earth',15,1,490),(11294,'utterly alien to my nature. To my credit,',16,1,490),(11295,'I blessed my good fortune in you.',17,1,490),(11296,'Blessed it absolutely, in the manner of those years.',18,1,490),(11297,'And you in your wisdom and cruelty',19,1,490),(11298,'gradually taught me the meaninglessness of that term.',20,1,490),(11299,'Skin meeting skin, we want to think',1,1,491),(11300,'we know each other scientifically;',2,1,491),(11301,'we want to believe',3,1,491),(11302,'it is objective knowledge',4,1,491),(11303,'gives this conviction of intimacy,',5,1,491),(11304,'makes us say it feels so right.',6,1,491),(11305,'That mole below your shoulder blade,',7,1,491),(11306,'the soft hair over my thighs—',8,1,491),(11307,'we examine our bodies with the precision',9,1,491),(11308,'known only to lovers or surgeons,',10,1,491),(11309,'all those whose profession is explication,',11,1,491),(11310,'who have to believe their own words.',12,1,491),(11311,'And yet, having memorized each turning,',13,1,491),(11312,'each place where bone strains or bends,',14,1,491),(11313,'each hollow, each hair, each failure of form,',15,1,491),(11314,'we still encounter that stubborn wall,',16,1,491),(11315,'that barrier which hides an infinite vastness',17,1,491),(11316,'the most sincere gesture can’t find.',18,1,491),(11317,'Nor does emotion take us further',19,2,491),(11318,'than the shared heat of our bodies',20,2,491),(11319,'aware of themselves,',21,2,491),(11320,'the flattery of multiple desires.',22,2,491),(11321,'We rest in each other’s arms unexplained',23,2,491),(11322,'by these currents of feeling rushing past',24,2,491),(11323,'like ripples over a pool of water',25,2,491),(11324,'whose substance never changes,',26,2,491),(11325,'reflecting each wave, each ribboned crossing,',27,2,491),(11326,'without being really moved.',28,2,491),(11327,'We search each other’s eyes so long',29,2,491),(11328,'beyond our own reflections,',30,2,491),(11329,'finding only the black centers,',31,2,491),(11330,'the immeasurable interior we’ll',32,2,491),(11331,'never reach with candle,',33,2,491),(11332,'never plumb with love.',34,2,491),(11333,'Perhaps it is just this ignorance,',35,3,491),(11334,'this absence of certainty, lack of clear view,',36,3,491),(11335,'more than anything, brings us together,',37,3,491),(11336,'draws us into and through each other',38,3,491),(11337,'to the unknown inside us all,',39,3,491),(11338,'that gray space from which',40,3,491),(11339,'what we know of ourselves',41,3,491),(11340,'emerges briefly, casts a transient',42,3,491),(11341,'shadow across the earth',43,3,491),(11342,'and learns to believe in itself just enough',44,3,491),(11343,'to believe in some one else.',45,3,491),(11344,'It scares me the genius we have',1,1,492),(11345,'for hurting one another. I’m seven,',2,1,492),(11346,'as tall as my mother kneeling and',3,1,492),(11347,'she’s kneeling and somehow I know',4,1,492),(11348,'exactly how to do it, calmly,',5,2,492),(11349,'enunciating like a good actor projecting',6,2,492),(11350,'to the last row, shocking the ones',7,2,492),(11351,'who’ve come in late, cowering',8,2,492),(11352,'out of their coats, sleet still sparkling',9,3,492),(11353,'on their collars, the voice nearly licking',10,3,492),(11354,'their ears above the swordplay and laments:',11,3,492),(11355,'I hate you.',12,3,492),(11356,'Now her hands are rising to her face.',13,4,492),(11357,'Now the fear done flashing through me,',14,4,492),(11358,'I wish I could undo it, take it back,',15,4,492),(11359,'but it’s a question of perfection,',16,4,492),(11360,'carrying it through, climbing the steps',17,5,492),(11361,'to my room, chosen banishment, where',18,5,492),(11362,'I’ll paint the hair of my model',19,5,492),(11363,'Bride of Frankenstein purple and pink,',20,5,492),(11364,'heap of rancor, vivacious hair',21,6,492),(11365,'that will not die. She’s rejected',22,6,492),(11366,'of course her intended, cathected',23,6,492),(11367,'the desires of six or seven bodies',24,6,492),(11368,'onto the wimp Doctor. And Herr Doktor,',25,7,492),(11369,'what does he want among the burning villages',26,7,492),(11370,'of his proven theories? Well, he wants',27,7,492),(11371,'to be a student again, free, drunk,',28,7,492),(11372,'making the cricket jump, but',29,8,492),(11373,'his distraught monster’s on the rampage',30,8,492),(11374,'again, lead-footed, weary, a corrosive',31,8,492),(11375,'and incommunicable need sputtering',32,8,492),(11376,'his chest, throwing oil like a fouled-up',33,9,492),(11377,'motor: how many times do you have to die',34,9,492),(11378,'before you’re really dead?',35,9,492),(11379,'even lying down, a sea',1,1,493),(11380,'of pine, red',2,1,493),(11381,'birds, crickets',3,1,493),(11382,'and your hands, the feel of',4,2,493),(11383,'waking up in the',5,2,493),(11384,'morning',6,2,493),(11385,'bursting with haves',7,3,493),(11386,'My father stands in the warm evening',1,1,494),(11387,'on the porch of my first house.',2,1,494),(11388,'I am four years old and growing tired.',3,1,494),(11389,'I see his head among the stars,',4,1,494),(11390,'the glow of his cigarette, redder',5,1,494),(11391,'than the summer moon riding',6,1,494),(11392,'low over the old neighborhood. We',7,1,494),(11393,'are alone, and he asks me if I am happy.',8,1,494),(11394,'“Are you happy?” I cannot answer.',9,1,494),(11395,'I do not really understand the word,',10,1,494),(11396,'and the voice, my father’s voice, is not',11,1,494),(11397,'his voice, but somehow thick and choked,',12,1,494),(11398,'a voice I have not heard before, but',13,1,494),(11399,'heard often since. He bends and passes',14,1,494),(11400,'a thumb beneath each of my eyes.',15,1,494),(11401,'The cigarette is gone, but I can smell',16,1,494),(11402,'the tiredness that hangs on his breath.',17,1,494),(11403,'He has found nothing, and he smiles',18,1,494),(11404,'and holds my head with both his hands.',19,1,494),(11405,'Then he lifts me to his shoulder,',20,1,494),(11406,'and now I too am among the stars,',21,1,494),(11407,'as tall as he. Are you happy? I say.',22,1,494),(11408,'He nods in answer, Yes! oh yes! oh yes!',23,1,494),(11409,'And in that new voice he says nothing,',24,1,494),(11410,'holding my head tight against his head,',25,1,494),(11411,'his eyes closed up against the starlight,',26,1,494),(11412,'as though those tiny blinking eyes',27,1,494),(11413,'of light might find a tall, gaunt child',28,1,494),(11414,'holding his child against the promises',29,1,494),(11415,'of autumn, until the boy slept',30,1,494),(11416,'never to waken in that world again.',31,1,494),(11417,'I empty myself of the names of others.',1,1,495),(11418,'I empty my pockets, I empty my shoes and leave them beside',2,1,495),(11419,'the road. At night I turn back the clocks; I open the family',3,1,495),(11420,'album and look at myself as a boy.',4,1,495),(11421,'What good does it do? The hours have done their job.',5,2,495),(11422,'I say my own name. I say goodbye.',6,2,495),(11423,'The words follow each other downwind.',7,2,495),(11424,'I love my wife but send her away.',8,2,495),(11425,'My parents rise out of their thrones',9,3,495),(11426,'into the milky rooms of clouds. How can I sing?',10,3,495),(11427,'Time tells me what I am. I change and I am the same.',11,3,495),(11428,'I empty myself of my life and my life remains.',12,3,495),(11429,'One day it will vanish,',1,1,496),(11430,'how you felt when you were overwhelmed',2,1,496),(11431,'by her, soaping each other in the shower,',3,1,496),(11432,'or when you heard the news',4,1,496),(11433,'of his death, there in the T-Bone diner',5,1,496),(11434,'on Queens Boulevard amid the shouts',6,1,496),(11435,'of short-order cooks, Armenian, oblivious.',7,1,496),(11436,'One day one thing and then a dear other',8,1,496),(11437,'will blur and though they won’t be lost',9,1,496),(11438,'they won’t mean as much,',10,1,496),(11439,'that motorcycle ride on the dirt road',11,1,496),(11440,'to the deserted beach near Cadiz,',12,1,496),(11441,'the Guardia mistaking you for a drug-runner,',13,1,496),(11442,'his machine gun in your belly—',14,1,496),(11443,'already history now, merely your history,',15,1,496),(11444,'which means everything to you.',16,1,496),(11445,'You strain to bring back',17,1,496),(11446,'your mother’s face and full body',18,1,496),(11447,'before her illness, the arc and tenor',19,1,496),(11448,'of family dinners, the mysteries',20,1,496),(11449,'of radio, and Charlie Collins,',21,1,496),(11450,'eight years old, inviting you',22,1,496),(11451,'to his house to see the largest turd',23,1,496),(11452,'that had ever come from him, unflushed.',24,1,496),(11453,'One day there’ll be almost nothing',25,1,496),(11454,'except what you’ve written down,',26,1,496),(11455,'then only what you’ve written down well,',27,1,496),(11456,'then little of that.',28,1,496),(11457,'The march on Washington in ’68',29,1,496),(11458,'where you hoped to change the world',30,1,496),(11459,'and meet beautiful, sensitive women',31,1,496),(11460,'is choreography now, cops on horses,',32,1,496),(11461,'everyone backing off, stepping forward.',33,1,496),(11462,'The exam you stole and put back unseen',34,1,496),(11463,'has become one of your stories,',35,1,496),(11464,'overtold, tainted with charm.',36,1,496),(11465,'All of it, anyway, will go the way of icebergs',37,1,496),(11466,'come summer, the small chunks floating',38,1,496),(11467,'in the Adriatic until they’re only water,',39,1,496),(11468,'pure, and someone taking sad pride',40,1,496),(11469,'that he can swim in it, numbly.',41,1,496),(11470,'For you, though, loss, almost painless,',42,1,496),(11471,'that Senior Prom at the Latin Quarter—',43,1,496),(11472,'Count Basie and Sarah Vaughan, and you',44,1,496),(11473,'just interested in your date’s cleavage',45,1,496),(11474,'and staying out all night at Jones Beach,',46,1,496),(11475,'the small dune fires fueled by driftwood.',47,1,496),(11476,'You can’t remember a riff or a song,',48,1,496),(11477,'and your date’s a woman now, married,',49,1,496),(11478,'has had sex as you have',50,1,496),(11479,'some few thousand times, good sex',51,1,496),(11480,'and forgettable sex, even boring sex,',52,1,496),(11481,'oh you never could have imagined',53,1,496),(11482,'back then with the waves crashing',54,1,496),(11483,'what the body could erase.',55,1,496),(11484,'It’s vanishing as you speak, the soul-grit,',56,1,496),(11485,'the story-fodder,',57,1,496),(11486,'everything you retrieve is your past,',58,1,496),(11487,'everything you let go',59,1,496),(11488,'goes to memory’s out-box, open on all sides,',60,1,496),(11489,'in cahoots with thin air.',61,1,496),(11490,'The jobs you didn’t get vanish like scabs.',62,1,496),(11491,'Her good-bye, causing the phone to slip',63,1,496),(11492,'from your hand, doesn’t hurt anymore,',64,1,496),(11493,'too much doesn’t hurt anymore,',65,1,496),(11494,'not even that hint of your father, ghost-thumping',66,1,496),(11495,'on your roof in Spain, hurts anymore.',67,1,496),(11496,'You understand and therefore hate',68,1,496),(11497,'because you hate the passivity of understanding',69,1,496),(11498,'that your worst rage and finest',70,1,496),(11499,'private gesture will flatten and collapse',71,1,496),(11500,'into history, become invisible',72,1,496),(11501,'like defeats inside houses. Then something happens',73,1,496),(11502,'(it is happening) which won’t vanish fast enough,',74,1,496),(11503,'your voice fails, chokes to silence;',75,1,496),(11504,'hurt (how could you have forgotten?) hurts.',76,1,496),(11505,'Every other truth in the world, out of respect,',77,1,496),(11506,'slides over, makes room for its superior.',78,1,496),(11507,'Wait, for now.',1,1,497),(11508,'Distrust everything, if you have to.',2,1,497),(11509,'But trust the hours. Haven’t they',3,1,497),(11510,'carried you everywhere, up to now?',4,1,497),(11511,'Personal events will become interesting again.',5,1,497),(11512,'Hair will become interesting.',6,1,497),(11513,'Pain will become interesting.',7,1,497),(11514,'Buds that open out of season will become lovely again.',8,1,497),(11515,'Second-hand gloves will become lovely again,',9,1,497),(11516,'their memories are what give them',10,1,497),(11517,'the need for other hands. And the desolation',11,1,497),(11518,'of lovers is the same: that enormous emptiness',12,1,497),(11519,'carved out of such tiny beings as we are',13,1,497),(11520,'asks to be filled; the need',14,1,497),(11521,'for the new love is faithfulness to the old.',15,1,497),(11522,'Wait.',16,2,497),(11523,'Don’t go too early.',17,2,497),(11524,'You’re tired. But everyone’s tired.',18,2,497),(11525,'But no one is tired enough.',19,2,497),(11526,'Only wait a while and listen.',20,2,497),(11527,'Music of hair,',21,2,497),(11528,'Music of pain,',22,2,497),(11529,'music of looms weaving all our loves again.',23,2,497),(11530,'Be there to hear it, it will be the only time,',24,2,497),(11531,'most of all to hear,',25,2,497),(11532,'the flute of your whole existence,',26,2,497),(11533,'rehearsed by the sorrows, play itself into total exhaustion.',27,2,497),(11534,'Take the used-up heart like a pebble',1,1,498),(11535,'and throw it far out.',2,1,498),(11536,'Soon there is nothing left.',3,2,498),(11537,'Soon the last ripple exhausts itself',4,2,498),(11538,'in the weeds.',5,2,498),(11539,'Returning home, slice carrots, onions, celery.',6,3,498),(11540,'Glaze them in oil before adding',7,3,498),(11541,'the lentils, water, and herbs.',8,3,498),(11542,'Then the roasted chestnuts, a little pepper, the salt.',9,4,498),(11543,'Finish with goat cheese and parsley. Eat.',10,4,498),(11544,'You may do this, I tell you, it is permitted.',11,5,498),(11545,'Begin again the story of your life.',12,5,498),(11546,'A man who keeps a diary, pays',1,1,499),(11547,'Due toll to many tedious days;',2,1,499),(11548,'But life becomes eventful–then',3,1,499),(11549,'His busy hand forgets the pen.',4,1,499),(11550,'Most books, indeed, are records less',5,1,499),(11551,'Of fulness than of emptiness.',6,1,499),(11552,'A hippo sandwich is easy to make.',1,1,500),(11553,'All you do is simply take',2,1,500),(11554,'One slice of bread,',3,1,500),(11555,'One slice of cake,',4,1,500),(11556,'Some mayonnaise',5,1,500),(11557,'One onion ring,',6,1,500),(11558,'One hippopotamus',7,1,500),(11559,'One piece of string,',8,1,500),(11560,'A dash of pepper —',9,1,500),(11561,'That ought to do it.',10,1,500),(11562,'And now comes the problem…',11,1,500),(11563,'Biting into it!',12,1,500),(11564,'First, grant me my sense of history:',1,1,501),(11565,'I did it for posterity,',2,1,501),(11566,'for kindergarten teachers',3,1,501),(11567,'and a clear moral:',4,1,501),(11568,'Little girls shouldn’t wander off',5,1,501),(11569,'in search of strange flowers,',6,1,501),(11570,'and they mustn’t speak to strangers.',7,1,501),(11571,'And then grant me my generous sense of plot:',8,2,501),(11572,'Couldn’t I have gobbled her up',9,2,501),(11573,'right there in the jungle?',10,2,501),(11574,'Why did I ask her where her grandma lived?',11,2,501),(11575,'As if I, a forest-dweller,',12,2,501),(11576,'didn’t know of the cottage',13,2,501),(11577,'under the three oak trees',14,2,501),(11578,'and the old woman lived there',15,2,501),(11579,'all alone?',16,2,501),(11580,'As if I couldn’t have swallowed her years before?',17,2,501),(11581,'And you may call me the Big Bad Wolf,',18,3,501),(11582,'now my only reputation.',19,3,501),(11583,'But I was no child-molester',20,3,501),(11584,'though you’ll agree she was pretty.',21,3,501),(11585,'And the huntsman:',22,4,501),(11586,'Was I sleeping while he snipped',23,4,501),(11587,'my thick black fur',24,4,501),(11588,'and filled me with garbage and stones?',25,4,501),(11589,'I ran with that weight and fell down,',26,4,501),(11590,'simply so children could laugh',27,4,501),(11591,'at the noise of the stones',28,4,501),(11592,'cutting through my belly,',29,4,501),(11593,'at the garbage spilling out',30,4,501),(11594,'with a perfect sense of timing,',31,4,501),(11595,'just when the tale',32,4,501),(11596,'should have come to an end.',33,4,501),(11597,'Don’t be ashamed that your parents',1,1,502),(11598,'Didn’t happen to meet at an art exhibit',2,1,502),(11599,'Or at a protest against a foreign policy',3,1,502),(11600,'Based on fear of negotiation,',4,1,502),(11601,'But in an aisle of a discount drugstore,',5,1,502),(11602,'Near the antihistamine section,',6,1,502),(11603,'Seeking relief from the common cold.',7,1,502),(11604,'You ought to be proud that even there,',8,1,502),(11605,'Amid coughs and sneezes,',9,1,502),(11606,'They were able to peer beneath',10,1,502),(11607,'The veil of pointless happenstance.',11,1,502),(11608,'Here is someone, each thought,',12,1,502),(11609,'Able to laugh at the indignities',13,1,502),(11610,'That flesh is heir to. Here',14,1,502),(11611,'Is a person one might care about.',15,1,502),(11612,'Not love at first sight, but the will',16,1,502),(11613,'To be ready to endorse the feeling',17,1,502),(11614,'Should it arise. Had they waited',18,1,502),(11615,'For settings more promising,',19,1,502),(11616,'You wouldn’t be here,',20,1,502),(11617,'Wishing things were different.',21,1,502),(11618,'Why not delight at how young they were',22,1,502),(11619,'When they made the most of their chances,',23,1,502),(11620,'How young still, a little later,',24,1,502),(11621,'When they bought a double plot',25,1,502),(11622,'At the cemetery. Look at you,',26,1,502),(11623,'Twice as old now as they were',27,1,502),(11624,'When they made arrangements,',28,1,502),(11625,'And still you’re thinking of moving on,',29,1,502),(11626,'Of finding a town with a climate',30,1,502),(11627,'Friendlier to your many talents.',31,1,502),(11628,'Don’t be ashamed of the homely thought',32,1,502),(11629,'That whatever you might do elsewhere,',33,1,502),(11630,'In the time remaining, you might do here',34,1,502),(11631,'If you can resolve, at last, to pay attention.',35,1,502),(11632,'This is not Love, perhaps,',1,1,503),(11633,'Love that lays down its life,',2,1,503),(11634,'that many waters cannot quench,',3,1,503),(11635,'nor the floods drown,',4,1,503),(11636,'But something written in lighter ink,',5,1,503),(11637,'said in a lower tone, something, perhaps, especially our own.',6,1,503),(11638,'A need, at times, to be together and talk,',7,2,503),(11639,'And then the finding we can walk',8,2,503),(11640,'More firmly through dark narrow places,',9,2,503),(11641,'And meet more easily nightmare faces;',10,2,503),(11642,'A need to reach out, sometimes, hand to hand,',11,2,503),(11643,'And then find Earth less like an alien land;',12,2,503),(11644,'A need for alliance to defeat',13,2,503),(11645,'The whisperers at the corner of the street.',14,2,503),(11646,'A need for inns on roads, islands in seas,',15,3,503),(11647,'Halts for discoveries to be shared,',16,3,503),(11648,'Maps checked, notes compared;',17,3,503),(11649,'A need, at times, of each for each,',18,3,503),(11650,'Direct as the need of throat and tongue for speech.',19,3,503),(11651,'Of all the public places, dear',1,1,504),(11652,'to make a scene, I’ve chosen here.',2,1,504),(11653,'Of all the doorways in the world',3,2,504),(11654,'to choose to sleep, I’ve chosen yours.',4,2,504),(11655,'I’m on the street, under the stars.',5,2,504),(11656,'For coppers I can dance or sing.',6,3,504),(11657,'For silver-swallow swords, eat fire.',7,3,504),(11658,'For gold-escape from locks and chains.',8,3,504),(11659,'It’s not as if I’m holding out',9,4,504),(11660,'for frankincense or myrrh, just change.',10,4,504),(11661,'You give me tea. That’s big of you.',11,5,504),(11662,'I’m on my knees. I beg of you.',12,5,504),(11663,'My heart, sing praises to the men',1,1,505),(11664,'I’ll never love; from whom a night',2,1,505),(11665,'away’s just that — a night — and not',3,1,505),(11666,'a lifetime in the desert without food',4,1,505),(11667,'and water. It’s because of them',5,1,505),(11668,'that breakfasts can be eaten, Lord, appointments',6,1,505),(11669,'kept, and letters left to lie',7,1,505),(11670,'where they have fallen; men with whom',8,1,505),(11671,'a perfect evening may be nothing more',9,1,505),(11672,'than beer and cards outside beneath the lean-to',10,1,505),(11673,'where straight-talk and easy gestures leave',11,1,505),(11674,'dark nests of sparrows and the scent',12,1,505),(11675,'of bonfires in their wake; the sort of men',13,1,505),(11676,'whose smiles I can endure without',14,1,505),(11677,'surrendering my all to them;',15,1,505),(11678,'in whose unswerving disregard,',16,1,505),(11679,'let heaven rejoice, let the earth be glad.',17,1,505),(11680,'When we were nine or ten and used to play',1,1,506),(11681,'at dying — hands clasped to the chest,',2,1,506),(11682,'Goodbye, beautiful world, I love you! —',3,1,506),(11683,'we didn’t believe it could ever really be done.',4,1,506),(11684,'Say goodbye to everything? A gunshot wound',5,2,506),(11685,'in ‘Alias Smith and Jones’ could set us thinking —',6,2,506),(11686,'please please don’t die — or a feathered mess',7,2,506),(11687,'that had been a pigeon squashed on the road.',8,2,506),(11688,'Even Divinity class, that final sponge of vinegar',9,3,506),(11689,'on a speartip. Goodbye, beautiful vinegar.',10,3,506),(11690,'Now, under the shag of decades, after so much',11,3,506),(11691,'contact with things, it takes a morning like this.',12,3,506),(11692,'Snow has fallen, a light crust. On the white field',13,4,506),(11693,'green trails zigzag where the horses wandered,',14,4,506),(11694,'a crazy scribble shows where they fed.',15,4,506),(11695,'There they are now, two statues stooping.',16,4,506),(11696,'All the ewes are sitting, thawing their grass.',17,5,506),(11697,'Puddles crunch like caramel. Little snowfalls',18,5,506),(11698,'crumble down a hedge. The silver-birch',19,5,506),(11699,'trembles with its own twigs’ shadows.',20,5,506),(11700,'And under the rusty chestnut I walk',21,6,506),(11701,'through a rain of crystals. There isn’t much to say.',22,6,506),(11702,'This is a day that decides by itself to be beautiful.',23,6,506),(11703,'This field is a bride. How are we to say goodbye?',24,6,506),(11704,'How many nights have I lain here like this, feverish with plans,',1,1,507),(11705,'with fears, with the last sentence someone spoke, still trying to finish',2,1,507),(11706,'a conversation already over? How many nights were wasted',3,1,507),(11707,'in not sleeping, how many in sleep—I don’t know',4,1,507),(11708,'how many hungers there are, how much radiance or salt, how many times',5,1,507),(11709,'the world breaks apart, disintegrates to nothing and starts up again',6,1,507),(11710,'in the course of an ordinary hour. I don’t know how God can bear',7,1,507),(11711,'seeing everything at once: the falling bodies, the monuments and burnings,',8,1,507),(11712,'the lovers pacing the floors of how many locked hearts. I want to close',9,1,507),(11713,'my eyes and find a quiet field in fog, a few sheep moving toward a fence.',10,1,507),(11714,'I want to count them, I want them to end. I don’t want to wonder',11,1,507),(11715,'how many people are sitting in restaurants about to close down,',12,1,507),(11716,'which of them will wander the sidewalks all night',13,1,507),(11717,'while the pies revolve in the refrigerated dark. How many days',14,1,507),(11718,'are left of my life, how much does it matter if I manage to say',15,1,507),(11719,'one true thing about it—how often have I tried, how often',16,1,507),(11720,'failed and fallen into depression? The field is wet, each grassblade',17,1,507),(11721,'gleaming with its own particularity, even here, so that I can’t help',18,1,507),(11722,'asking again, the white sky filling with footprints, bricks,',19,1,507),(11723,'with mutterings over rosaries, with hands that pass over flames',20,1,507),(11724,'before covering the eyes. I’m tired, I want to rest now.',21,1,507),(11725,'I want to kiss the body of my lover, the one mouth, the simple name',22,1,507),(11726,'without a shadow. Let me go. How many prayers',23,1,507),(11727,'are there tonight, how many of us must stay awake and listen?',24,1,507),(11728,'I am calling to wish you well. I am calling because I want to',1,1,508),(11729,'change something I said. A year ago you asked me three questions.',2,1,508),(11730,'I thought you were asking my birthday wishes and answered all',3,1,508),(11731,'wrong. If you remember (if I know you you’ll pretend you don’t)',4,1,508),(11732,'I answered:',5,1,508),(11733,'1) No, I have always been homely.',6,2,508),(11734,'2) Yes I believe you have always been too lovely for anyone to',7,2,508),(11735,'bear.',8,2,508),(11736,'3) Silk. it is not always expensive, and it is impossible to tear.',9,2,508),(11737,'It’s my birthday again and because I am cleverer now I can answer',10,3,508),(11738,'you with more nerve. But because I am still me I am pitiless',11,3,508),(11739,'enough to have your number and call you with this excuse to let',12,3,508),(11740,'you know I am still alive (I won’t push it by telling you that I am',13,3,508),(11741,'wonderful).',14,3,508),(11742,'1) Yes. Thank you.',15,4,508),(11743,'2) No. I found it a most repulsive photo.',16,4,508),(11744,'3 Same. Though I don’t think of you, still it’s a near-perfect place.',17,4,508),(11745,'And so dear when ruined.',18,4,508),(11746,'One day you finally knew',1,1,509),(11747,'what you had to do, and began,',2,1,509),(11748,'though the voices around you',3,1,509),(11749,'kept shouting',4,1,509),(11750,'their bad advice—',5,1,509),(11751,'though the whole house',6,1,509),(11752,'began to tremble',7,1,509),(11753,'and you felt the old tug',8,1,509),(11754,'at your ankles.',9,1,509),(11755,'“Mend my life!”',10,1,509),(11756,'each voice cried.',11,1,509),(11757,'But you didn’t stop.',12,1,509),(11758,'You knew what you had to do,',13,1,509),(11759,'though the wind pried',14,1,509),(11760,'with its stiff fingers',15,1,509),(11761,'at the very foundations,',16,1,509),(11762,'though their melancholy',17,1,509),(11763,'was terrible.',18,1,509),(11764,'It was already late',19,1,509),(11765,'enough, and a wild night,',20,1,509),(11766,'and the road full of fallen',21,1,509),(11767,'branches and stones.',22,1,509),(11768,'But little by little,',23,1,509),(11769,'as you left their voices behind,',24,1,509),(11770,'the stars began to burn',25,1,509),(11771,'through the sheets of clouds,',26,1,509),(11772,'and there was a new voice',27,1,509),(11773,'which you slowly',28,1,509),(11774,'recognized as your own,',29,1,509),(11775,'that kept you company',30,1,509),(11776,'as you strode deeper and deeper',31,1,509),(11777,'into the world,',32,1,509),(11778,'determined to do',33,1,509),(11779,'the only thing you could do—',34,1,509),(11780,'determined to save',35,1,509),(11781,'the only life you could save.',36,1,509),(11782,'We stand in the rain in a long line',1,1,510),(11783,'waiting at Ford Highland Park. For work.',2,1,510),(11784,'You know what work is—if you’re',3,1,510),(11785,'old enough to read this you know what',4,1,510),(11786,'work is, although you may not do it.',5,1,510),(11787,'Forget you. This is about waiting,',6,1,510),(11788,'shifting from one foot to another.',7,1,510),(11789,'Feeling the light rain falling like mist',8,1,510),(11790,'into your hair, blurring your vision',9,1,510),(11791,'until you think you see your own brother',10,1,510),(11792,'ahead of you, maybe ten places.',11,1,510),(11793,'You rub your glasses with your fingers,',12,1,510),(11794,'and of course it’s someone else’s brother,',13,1,510),(11795,'narrower across the shoulders than',14,1,510),(11796,'yours but with the same sad slouch, the grin',15,1,510),(11797,'that does not hide the stubbornness,',16,1,510),(11798,'the sad refusal to give in to',17,1,510),(11799,'rain, to the hours of wasted waiting,',18,1,510),(11800,'to the knowledge that somewhere ahead',19,1,510),(11801,'a man is waiting who will say, “No,',20,1,510),(11802,'we’re not hiring today,” for any',21,1,510),(11803,'reason he wants. You love your brother,',22,1,510),(11804,'now suddenly you can hardly stand',23,1,510),(11805,'the love flooding you for your brother,',24,1,510),(11806,'who’s not beside you or behind or',25,1,510),(11807,'ahead because he’s home trying to',26,1,510),(11808,'sleep off a miserable night shift',27,1,510),(11809,'at Cadillac so he can get up',28,1,510),(11810,'before noon to study his German.',29,1,510),(11811,'Works eight hours a night so he can sing',30,1,510),(11812,'Wagner, the opera you hate most,',31,1,510),(11813,'the worst music ever invented.',32,1,510),(11814,'How long has it been since you told him',33,1,510),(11815,'you loved him, held his wide shoulders,',34,1,510),(11816,'opened your eyes wide and said those words,',35,1,510),(11817,'and maybe kissed his cheek? You’ve never',36,1,510),(11818,'done something so simple, so obvious,',37,1,510),(11819,'not because you’re too young or too dumb,',38,1,510),(11820,'not because you’re jealous or even mean',39,1,510),(11821,'or incapable of crying in',40,1,510),(11822,'the presence of another man, no,',41,1,510),(11823,'just because you don’t know what work is.',42,1,510),(11824,'Somewhere a seed falls to the ground',1,1,511),(11825,'That will become a tree',2,1,511),(11826,'That will some day be felled',3,1,511),(11827,'From which thin shafts will be extracted',4,1,511),(11828,'To be made into arrows',5,1,511),(11829,'To be fitted with warheads',6,1,511),(11830,'One of which, some day when you least expect it,',7,1,511),(11831,'While a winter sun is shining',8,1,511),(11832,'On a river of ice',9,1,511),(11833,'And you feel farthest from self-pity,',10,1,511),(11834,'Will pierce your shit-filled heart.',11,1,511),(11835,'We smile at each other',1,1,512),(11836,'and I lean back against the wicker couch.',2,1,512),(11837,'How does it feel to be dead? I say.',3,1,512),(11838,'You touch my knees with your blue fingers.',4,1,512),(11839,'And when you open your mouth,',5,1,512),(11840,'a ball of yellow light falls to the floor',6,1,512),(11841,'and burns a hole through it.',7,1,512),(11842,'Don’t tell me, I say. I don’t want to hear.',8,1,512),(11843,'Did you ever, you start,',9,1,512),(11844,'wear a certain kind of dress',10,1,512),(11845,'and just by accident,',11,1,512),(11846,'so inconsequential you barely notice it,',12,1,512),(11847,'your fingers graze that dress',13,1,512),(11848,'and you hear the sound of a knife cutting paper,',14,1,512),(11849,'you see it too',15,1,512),(11850,'and you realize how that image',16,1,512),(11851,'is simply the extension of another image,',17,1,512),(11852,'that your own life',18,1,512),(11853,'is a chain of words',19,1,512),(11854,'that one day will snap.',20,1,512),(11855,'Words, you say, young girls in a circle, holding hands,',21,1,512),(11856,'and beginning to rise heavenward',22,1,512),(11857,'in their confirmation dresses,',23,1,512),(11858,'like white helium balloons,',24,1,512),(11859,'the wreathes of flowers on their heads spinning,',25,1,512),(11860,'and above all that,',26,1,512),(11861,'that’s where I’m floating,',27,1,512),(11862,'and that’s what it’s like',28,1,512),(11863,'only ten times clearer,',29,1,512),(11864,'ten times more horrible.',30,1,512),(11865,'Could anyone alive survive it?',31,1,512),(11866,'Night, what more do you want? Why this second per second',1,1,513),(11867,'scream? My friend Nick used to sit all night in the same',2,1,513),(11868,'booth all night with a pile of quarters for pinball and',3,1,513),(11869,'jukebox. He loved the one where the balls disappeared',4,1,513),(11870,'up the bonus-lit chute. He loved the song where the wife',5,1,513),(11871,'smelled shirts, all tilt and jilt and sometimes he’d',6,1,513),(11872,'bring back a waitress who’d play the records we never',7,1,513),(11873,'played. You know the ones, everyone has those records. It',8,1,513),(11874,'was the age of Aquarius and once we wanted to remember',9,1,513),(11875,'the comedy, movies, the primitive flutes. I’d come down',10,1,513),(11876,'and there they’d be, nearly glamorous with smoke and wine,',11,1,513),(11877,'all the shades pulled. Night, even then you couldn’t give',12,1,513),(11878,'up, there was your lariat in the corner, your ashes',13,1,513),(11879,'everywhere. It might have been the drugs we kept zip-',14,1,513),(11880,'locked in the cranial cavity of, a pig, a skull Nick',15,1,513),(11881,'found where a pig had died or at least a pig’s head had',16,1,513),(11882,'died. Aren’t I cute? Don’t you like my legs? Night, what',17,1,513),(11883,'pleases you? From the beginning, the body’s full of',18,1,513),(11884,'holes. Night, these are the facts and the philosophy of',19,1,513),(11885,'facts. See how they grin back fast faces like the 23',20,1,513),(11886,'windows he fell past. Jumped past. When does a jump',21,1,513),(11887,'become a fall? There were a few more floors but 23 was',22,1,513),(11888,'enough, enough climbing he must have thought then opened',23,1,513),(11889,'the window by the stairs. I thought at least there’d be',24,1,513),(11890,'a note. Help or a simple declarative sentence. They',25,1,513),(11891,'seemed to take forever with the organ, the hot-house',26,1,513),(11892,'arrangements and how his parents hated me that open-holed',27,1,513),(11893,'day. Adios, au revoir, good night. You want me on my',28,1,513),(11894,'knees? I’m on my knees. When I was a child I’d listen to',29,1,513),(11895,'the owls rouse their fiefdoms. Say the little prayer.',30,1,513),(11896,'When I was a child. When I was a cantaloupe. When I was',31,1,513),(11897,'an enemy spacecraft hovering over the Pentagon. Tick',32,1,513),(11898,'tock and such a puddle. Tick tock my soul to keep. Tick',33,1,513),(11899,'tock and such deep wagons on so many panged wheels.',34,1,513),(11900,'Half the people in the world',1,1,514),(11901,'love the other half,',2,1,514),(11902,'half the people',3,1,514),(11903,'hate the other half.',4,1,514),(11904,'Must I because of this half and that half',5,1,514),(11905,'go wandering and changing ceaselessly',6,1,514),(11906,'like rain in its cycle,',7,1,514),(11907,'must I sleep among rocks,',8,1,514),(11908,'and grow rugged like the trunks of olive trees,',9,1,514),(11909,'and hear the moon barking at me,',10,1,514),(11910,'and camouflage my love with worries,',11,1,514),(11911,'and sprout like frightened grass between the railroad tracks,',12,1,514),(11912,'and live underground like a mole,',13,1,514),(11913,'and remain with roots and not with branches,',14,1,514),(11914,'and not feel my cheek against the cheek of angels,',15,1,514),(11915,'and love in the first cave,',16,1,514),(11916,'and marry my wife beneath a canopy',17,1,514),(11917,'of beams that support the earth,',18,1,514),(11918,'and act out my death, always',19,1,514),(11919,'till the last breath and the last',20,1,514),(11920,'words and without ever understanding,',21,1,514),(11921,'and put flagpoles on top of my house',22,1,514),(11922,'and a bomb shelter underneath. And go out on roads',23,1,514),(11923,'made only for returning and go through',24,1,514),(11924,'all the appalling stations—',25,1,514),(11925,'cat, stick, fire, water, butcher,',26,1,514),(11926,'between the kid and the angel of death?',27,1,514),(11927,'Half the people love,',28,1,514),(11928,'half the people hate.',29,1,514),(11929,'And where is my place between such well-matched halves,',30,1,514),(11930,'and through what crack will I',31,1,514),(11931,'see the white housing projects of my dreams',32,1,514),(11932,'and the barefoot runners on the sands',33,1,514),(11933,'or, at least, the waving kerchief',34,1,514),(11934,'of a girl, beside the ancient hill?',35,1,514),(11935,'I live on the water,',1,1,515),(11936,'alone. Without wife and children,',2,1,515),(11937,'I have circled every possibility',3,1,515),(11938,'to come to this:',4,1,515),(11939,'a low house by grey water,',5,2,515),(11940,'with windows always open',6,2,515),(11941,'to the stale sea. We do not choose such things,',7,2,515),(11942,'but we are what we have made.',8,3,515),(11943,'We suffer, the years pass,',9,3,515),(11944,'we shed freight but not our need',10,3,515),(11945,'for encumbrances. Love is a stone',11,4,515),(11946,'that settled on the sea-bed',12,4,515),(11947,'under grey water. Now, I require nothing',13,4,515),(11948,'from poetry but true feeling,',14,5,515),(11949,'no pity, no fame, no healing. Silent wife,',15,5,515),(11950,'we can sit watching grey water,',16,5,515),(11951,'and in a life awash',17,6,515),(11952,'with mediocrity and trash',18,6,515),(11953,'live rock-like.',19,6,515),(11954,'I shall unlearn feeling,',20,7,515),(11955,'unlearn my gift. That is greater',21,7,515),(11956,'and harder than what passes there for life.',22,7,515),(11957,'We don’t see the ocean, not ever, but in July and August',1,1,516),(11958,'when the worst heat seems to rise from the hard clay',2,1,516),(11959,'of this valley, you could be walking through a fig orchard',3,1,516),(11960,'when suddenly the wind cools and for a moment',4,1,516),(11961,'you get a whiff of salt, and in that moment you can almost',5,1,516),(11962,'believe something is waiting beyond the Pacheco Pass,',6,1,516),(11963,'something massive, irrational, and so powerful even',7,1,516),(11964,'the mountains that rise east of here have no word for it.',8,1,516),(11965,'You probably think I’m nuts saying the mountains',9,2,516),(11966,'have no word for ocean, but if you live here',10,2,516),(11967,'you begin to believe they know everything.',11,2,516),(11968,'They maintain that huge silence we think of as divine,',12,2,516),(11969,'a silence that grows in autumn when snow falls',13,2,516),(11970,'slowly between the pines and the wind dies',14,2,516),(11971,'to less than a whisper and you can barely catch',15,2,516),(11972,'your breath because you’re thrilled and terrified.',16,2,516),(11973,'You have to remember this isn’t your land.',17,3,516),(11974,'It belongs to no one, like the sea you once lived beside',18,3,516),(11975,'and thought was yours. Remember the small boats',19,3,516),(11976,'that bobbed out as the waves rode in, and the men',20,3,516),(11977,'who carved a living from it only to find themselves',21,3,516),(11978,'carved down to nothing. Now you say this is home,',22,3,516),(11979,'so go ahead, worship the mountains as they dissolve in dust,',23,3,516),(11980,'wait on the wind, catch a scent of salt, call it our life.',24,3,516),(11981,'Radishes flip their skirts in the wind',1,1,517),(11982,'like a line of chorus girls',2,1,517),(11983,'throw them over their heads.',3,1,517),(11984,'If they were singers',4,2,517),(11985,'they’d be the Andrews sisters.',5,2,517),(11986,'If they had jobs',6,2,517),(11987,'they’d be nurses who drive',7,2,517),(11988,'red sports cars after work.',8,2,517),(11989,'Every spring you put up with',9,3,517),(11990,'their flirtations',10,3,517),(11991,'for the crunch between your teeth',11,3,517),(11992,'the quick surprise',12,3,517),(11993,'of rain and fire',13,3,517),(11994,'they’ve saved all season',14,3,517),(11995,'just for you.',15,3,517),(11996,'Peas never liked any of it.',1,1,518),(11997,'They make you suffer for the sweet',2,1,518),(11998,'burst of green in the mouth. Remember',3,1,518),(11999,'the hours of shelling on the front steps,',4,1,518),(12000,'the ping into the basin? Your mother',5,1,518),(12001,'bribing you with lemonade to keep you there,',6,1,518),(12002,'splitting them open with your thumbs.',7,1,518),(12003,'Your tongue finds them clitoral',8,2,518),(12004,'as it slides up the pod.',9,2,518),(12005,'Peas are not amused.',10,2,518),(12006,'They have spent all their lives',11,2,518),(12007,'keeping their knees together.',12,2,518),(12008,'Your letter unfolds and unfolds forever.',1,1,519),(12009,'I flatten it with my hands to read:',2,1,519),(12010,'tearstains, tearstains and a trace of rouge',3,2,519),(12011,'where it must have touched your cheek',4,2,519),(12012,'Three times my life has opened.',1,1,520),(12013,'Once, into darkness and rain.',2,1,520),(12014,'Once, into what the body carries at all times within it and',3,1,520),(12015,'starts to remember each time it enters the act of love.',4,1,520),(12016,'Once, into the fire that holds all.',5,1,520),(12017,'These three were not different.',6,1,520),(12018,'You will recognize what I am saying or you will not.',7,1,520),(12019,'But outside my window all day a maple has stepped',8,1,520),(12020,'from her leaves like a woman in love with winter, dropping',9,1,520),(12021,'the colored silks.',10,1,520),(12022,'Neither are we different in what we know.',11,1,520),(12023,'There is a door. It opens. Then it is closed. But a slip of',12,1,520),(12024,'light stays, like a scrap of unreadable paper left on the floor,',13,1,520),(12025,'or the one red leaf the snow releases in March.',14,1,520),(12026,'Near the wall of a house painted',1,1,521),(12027,'to look like stone,',2,1,521),(12028,'I saw visions of God.',3,1,521),(12029,'A sleepless night that gives others a headache',4,2,521),(12030,'gave me flowers',5,2,521),(12031,'opening beautifully inside my brain.',6,2,521),(12032,'And he who was lost like a dog',7,3,521),(12033,'will be found like a human being',8,3,521),(12034,'and brought back home again.',9,3,521),(12035,'Love is not the last room: there are others',10,4,521),(12036,'after it, the whole length of the corridor',11,4,521),(12037,'that has no end.',12,4,521),(12038,'You want to cry aloud for your',1,1,522),(12039,'mistakes. But to tell the truth the world',2,1,522),(12040,'doesn’t need anymore of that sound.',3,1,522),(12041,'So if you’re going to do it and can’t',4,2,522),(12042,'stop yourself, if your pretty mouth can’t',5,2,522),(12043,'hold it in, at least go by yourself across',6,2,522),(12044,'the forty fields and the forty dark inclines',7,3,522),(12045,'of rocks and water to the place where',8,3,522),(12046,'the falls are flinging out their white sheets',9,3,522),(12047,'like crazy, and there is a cave behind all that',10,4,522),(12048,'jubilation and water fun and you can',11,4,522),(12049,'stand there, under it, and roar all you',12,4,522),(12050,'want and nothing will be disturbed; you can',13,5,522),(12051,'drip with despair all afternoon and still,',14,5,522),(12052,'on a green branch, its wings just lightly touched',15,5,522),(12053,'by the passing foil of the water, the thrush,',16,6,522),(12054,'puffing out its spotted breast, will sing',17,6,522),(12055,'of the perfect, stone-hard beauty of everything.',18,6,522),(12056,'I have started to say',1,1,523),(12057,'“A quarter of a century”',2,1,523),(12058,'Or “thirty years back”',3,1,523),(12059,'About my own life.',4,1,523),(12060,'It makes me breathless',5,2,523),(12061,'It’s like falling and recovering',6,2,523),(12062,'In huge gesturing loops',7,2,523),(12063,'Through an empty sky.',8,2,523),(12064,'All that’s left to happen',9,3,523),(12065,'Is some deaths (my own included).',10,3,523),(12066,'Their order, and their manner,',11,3,523),(12067,'Remain to be learnt.',12,3,523),(12068,'Just before she flew off like a swan',1,1,524),(12069,'to her wealthy parents’ summer home,',2,1,524),(12070,'Bruce’s college girlfriend asked him',3,1,524),(12071,'to improve his expertise at oral sex,',4,1,524),(12072,'and offered him some technical advice:',5,1,524),(12073,'Use nothing but his tonguetip',6,2,524),(12074,'to flick the light switch in his room',7,2,524),(12075,'on and off a hundred times a day',8,2,524),(12076,'until he grew fluent at the nuances',9,2,524),(12077,'of force and latitude.',10,2,524),(12078,'Imagine him at practice every evening,',11,3,524),(12079,'more inspired than he ever was at algebra,',12,3,524),(12080,'beads of sweat sprouting on his brow,',13,3,524),(12081,'thinking, thirty-seven, thirty-eight,',14,3,524),(12082,'seeing, in the tunnel vision of his mind’s eye,',15,3,524),(12083,'the quadratic equation of her climax',16,3,524),(12084,'yield to the logic',17,3,524),(12085,'of his simple math.',18,3,524),(12086,'Maybe he unscrewed',19,4,524),(12087,'the bulb from his apartment ceiling',20,4,524),(12088,'so that passersby would not believe',21,4,524),(12089,'a giant firefly was pulsing',22,4,524),(12090,'its electric abdomen in 13 B.',23,4,524),(12091,'Maybe, as he stood',24,5,524),(12092,'two inches from the wall,',25,5,524),(12093,'in darkness, fogging the old plaster',26,5,524),(12094,'with his breath, he visualized the future',27,5,524),(12095,'as a mansion standing on the shore',28,5,524),(12096,'that he was rowing to',29,5,524),(12097,'with his tongue’s exhausted oar.',30,5,524),(12098,'Of course, the girlfriend dumped him:',31,6,524),(12099,'met someone, apres-ski, who,',32,6,524),(12100,'using nothing but his nose',33,6,524),(12101,'could identify the vintage of a Cabernet.',34,6,524),(12102,'Sometimes we are asked',35,7,524),(12103,'to get good at something we have',36,7,524),(12104,'no talent for,',37,7,524),(12105,'or we excel at something we will never',38,7,524),(12106,'have the opportunity to prove.',39,7,524),(12107,'Often we ask ourselves',40,8,524),(12108,'to make absolute sense',41,8,524),(12109,'out of what just happens,',42,8,524),(12110,'and in this way, what we are practicing',43,8,524),(12111,'is suffering,',44,9,524),(12112,'which everybody practices,',45,9,524),(12113,'but strangely few of us',46,9,524),(12114,'grow graceful in.',47,9,524),(12115,'The climaxes of suffering are complex,',48,10,524),(12116,'costly, beautiful, but secret.',49,10,524),(12117,'Bruce never played the light switch again.',50,10,524),(12118,'So the avenues we walk down,',51,11,524),(12119,'full of bodies wearing faces,',52,11,524),(12120,'are full of hidden talent:',53,11,524),(12121,'enough to make pianos moan,',54,11,524),(12122,'sidewalks split,',55,11,524),(12123,'streetlights deliriously flicker.',56,11,524),(12124,'It is all right. All they do',1,1,525),(12125,'Is go in by dividing',2,1,525),(12126,'One rib from another. I wouldn’t',3,1,525),(12127,'Lie to you. It hurts',4,1,525),(12128,'Like nothing I know. All they do',5,1,525),(12129,'Is burn their way in with a wire.',6,1,525),(12130,'It forks in and out a little like the tongue',7,1,525),(12131,'Of that frightened garter snake we caught',8,1,525),(12132,'At Cloverfield, you and me, Jenny',9,1,525),(12133,'So long ago.',10,1,525),(12134,'I would lie to you',11,2,525),(12135,'If I could.',12,2,525),(12136,'But the only way I can get you to come up',13,2,525),(12137,'Out of the suckhole, the south face',14,2,525),(12138,'Of the Powhatan pit, is to tell you',15,2,525),(12139,'What you know:',16,2,525),(12140,'You come up after dark, you poise alone',17,3,525),(12141,'With me on the shore.',18,3,525),(12142,'I lead you back to this world.',19,3,525),(12143,'Three lady doctors in Wheeling open',20,4,525),(12144,'Their offices at night.',21,4,525),(12145,'I don’t have to call them, they are always there.',22,4,525),(12146,'But they only have to put the knife once',23,4,525),(12147,'Under your breast.',24,4,525),(12148,'Then they hang their contraption.',25,4,525),(12149,'And you bear it.',26,4,525),(12150,'It’s awkward a while. Still, it lets you',27,5,525),(12151,'Walk about on tiptoe if you don’t',28,5,525),(12152,'Jiggle the needle.',29,5,525),(12153,'It might stab your heart, you see.',30,5,525),(12154,'The blade hangs in your lung and the tube',31,5,525),(12155,'Keeps it draining.',32,5,525),(12156,'That way they only have to stab you',33,5,525),(12157,'Once. Oh Jenny.',34,5,525),(12158,'I wish to God I had made this world, this scurvy',35,6,525),(12159,'And disastrous place. I',36,6,525),(12160,'Didn’t, I can’t bear it',37,6,525),(12161,'Either, I don’t blame you, sleeping down there',38,6,525),(12162,'Face down in the unbelievable silk of spring,',39,6,525),(12163,'Muse of black sand,',40,6,525),(12164,'Alone.',41,6,525),(12165,'I don’t blame you, I know',42,7,525),(12166,'The place where you lie.',43,7,525),(12167,'I admit everything. But look at me.',44,7,525),(12168,'How can I live without you?',45,7,525),(12169,'Come up to me, love,',46,7,525),(12170,'Out of the river, or I will',47,7,525),(12171,'Come down to you.',48,7,525),(12172,'If it’s any consolation, when your wife took me',1,1,526),(12173,'in her mouth, I closed my eyes and pretended',2,1,526),(12174,'I was a piece of wedding cake. I was the instigator,',3,2,526),(12175,'bringing her flowers so often her co-workers',4,2,526),(12176,'nicknamed me carnation hands. At night, I’d look',5,3,526),(12177,'at the stars and slither my petals through her hair.',6,3,526),(12178,'It was like we were on Mars–me staring over',7,4,526),(12179,'her skull at one moon, her gazing at another.',8,4,526),(12180,'What I’m really trying to say is I tumbled into her',9,5,526),(12181,'arms like a thousand reluctant dominoes.',10,5,526),(12182,'I mean, isn’t it odd–how you can buy a lap dance,',11,6,526),(12183,'phone sex, or blowjob in a snap, but can’t',12,6,526),(12184,'pay a person a dollar to just sit next to you',13,7,526),(12185,'on a park bench and simply hold your hand?',14,7,526),(12186,'Yesterday, for a long while,',1,1,527),(12187,'the early morning sunlight',2,1,527),(12188,'in the trees was sufficient,',3,1,527),(12189,'replaced by a hello',4,1,527),(12190,'from a long-limbed woman',5,1,527),(12191,'pedaling her bike,',6,1,527),(12192,'whereupon the wind came up,',7,1,527),(12193,'dispersing the mosquitoes.',8,1,527),(12194,'Blessings, all.',9,1,527),(12195,'I’d come so far, it seemed,',10,1,527),(12196,'happily looking for so little.',11,1,527),(12197,'But then I saw a cow in a room',12,2,527),(12198,'looking at the painting of a cow',13,2,527),(12199,'in a field — all of which',14,2,527),(12200,'was a painting itself —',15,2,527),(12201,'and I felt I’d been invited',16,2,527),(12202,'into the actual, someplace',17,2,527),(12203,'between the real and the real.',18,2,527),(12204,'The trees, now, are trees',19,3,527),(12205,'I’m seeing myself seeing.',20,3,527),(12206,'I’ll always deny that I kissed her.',21,3,527),(12207,'I was just whispering into her mouth.',22,3,527),(12208,'There are more like us. All over the world',1,1,528),(12209,'There are confused people, who can’t remember',2,1,528),(12210,'The name of their dog when they wake up, and',3,1,528),(12211,'people',4,1,528),(12212,'Who love God but can’t remember where',5,1,528),(12213,'He was when they went to sleep. It’s',6,2,528),(12214,'All right. The world cleanses itself this way.',7,2,528),(12215,'A wrong number occurs to you in the middle',8,2,528),(12216,'Of the night, you dial it, it rings just in time',9,2,528),(12217,'To save the house. And the second-story man',10,3,528),(12218,'Gets the wrong address, where the insomniac lives,',11,3,528),(12219,'And he’s lonely , and they talk, and the thief',12,3,528),(12220,'Goes back to college. Even in graduate school,',13,3,528),(12221,'You can wander into the wrong classroom,',14,4,528),(12222,'And hear great poems lovingly spoken',15,4,528),(12223,'By the wrong professor. And you find your soul',16,4,528),(12224,'And greatness has a defender, and even in death',17,4,528),(12225,'you’re safe',18,4,528),(12226,'to fold the clothes. No matter who lives',1,1,529),(12227,'or who dies, I’m still a woman.',2,1,529),(12228,'I’ll always have plenty to do.',3,1,529),(12229,'I bring the arms of his shirt',4,1,529),(12230,'together. Nothing can stop',5,1,529),(12231,'our tenderness. I’ll get back',6,1,529),(12232,'to the poem. I’ll get back to being',7,1,529),(12233,'a woman. But for now',8,1,529),(12234,'there’s a shirt, a giant shirt',9,1,529),(12235,'in my hands, and somewhere a small girl',10,1,529),(12236,'standing next to her mother',11,1,529),(12237,'watching to see how it’s done.',12,1,529),(12238,'I told them to go listen to people talking,',1,1,530),(12239,'To write exactly how some people really',2,1,530),(12240,'Talked to each other, and one young man',3,1,530),(12241,'Came to the next workshop, looking bewildered,',4,1,530),(12242,'Holding his notes by thumbtip and fingertip',5,1,530),(12243,'To avoid contamination. He said, “This',6,1,530),(12244,'Is how they talked. They weren’t actually',7,1,530),(12245,'Having a conversation, just interrupting',8,1,530),(12246,'Each other and saying whatever it was',9,1,530),(12247,'They wanted to keep on saying. They had to decide',10,1,530),(12248,'Today, here and now, like whether to go on',11,1,530),(12249,'With this, this whatever-it-was they couldn’t',12,1,530),(12250,'Think of a name for. They kept looking',13,1,530),(12251,'This way and that way, even at me (I wasn’t',14,1,530),(12252,'Anybody, just some student scribbling),',15,1,530),(12253,'But never at each other. You could tell',16,1,530),(12254,'They felt bad. They were making up their minds',17,1,530),(12255,'About something important enough to change',18,1,530),(12256,'Their lives maybe forever. But what was coming',19,1,530),(12257,'Out of their mouths wouldn’t have passed even',20,1,530),(12258,'Junior high school English. They were both trying',21,1,530),(12259,'To say what hurt, what was disappointing, what wasn’t',22,1,530),(12260,'Even common courtesy, let alone love.',23,1,530),(12261,'If they’d been actors, good ones, they’d have been making',24,1,530),(12262,'Contact. They’d have been improvising something',25,1,530),(12263,'More interesting than shoving their chairs back',26,1,530),(12264,'And standing up and trying to split the bill',27,1,530),(12265,'But dividing it wrong, dropping it, picking it up,',28,1,530),(12266,'And arguing all the way out. Now what the hell',29,1,530),(12267,'Am I supposed to make out of this crap?”',30,1,530),(12268,'Because the night you asked me,',1,1,531),(12269,'the small scar of the quarter moon',2,1,531),(12270,'had healed—the moon was whole again;',3,1,531),(12271,'because life seemed so short;',4,1,531),(12272,'because life stretched before me',5,1,531),(12273,'like the darkened halls of nightmare;',6,1,531),(12274,'because I knew exactly what I wanted;',7,1,531),(12275,'because I knew exactly nothing;',8,1,531),(12276,'because I shed my childhood with my clothes—',9,1,531),(12277,'they both had years of wear left in them;',10,1,531),(12278,'because your eyes were darker than my father’s;',11,1,531),(12279,'because my father said I could do better;',12,1,531),(12280,'because I wanted badly to say no;',13,1,531),(12281,'because Stanley Kowalski shouted “Stella…;”',14,1,531),(12282,'because you were a door I could slam shut;',15,1,531),(12283,'because endings are written before beginnings;',16,1,531),(12284,'because I knew that after twenty years',17,1,531),(12285,'you’d bring the plants inside for winter',18,1,531),(12286,'and make a jungle we’d sleep in naked;',19,1,531),(12287,'because I had free will;',20,1,531),(12288,'because everything is ordained;',21,1,531),(12289,'I said yes.',22,1,531),(12290,'Long ago, I was wounded. I lived',1,1,532),(12291,'to revenge myself',2,1,532),(12292,'against my father, not',3,1,532),(12293,'for what he was—',4,1,532),(12294,'for what I was: from the beginning of time,',5,1,532),(12295,'in childhood, I thought',6,1,532),(12296,'that pain meant',7,1,532),(12297,'I was not loved.',8,1,532),(12298,'It meant I loved.',9,1,532),(12299,'What the mouth sings, the soul must learn to forgive.',1,1,533),(12300,'A rat’s as moral as a monk in the eyes of the real world.',2,1,533),(12301,'Still, the heart is a river',3,1,533),(12302,'pouring from itself, a river that cannot be crossed.',4,1,533),(12303,'It opens on a bay',5,2,533),(12304,'and turns back upon itself as the tide comes in,',6,2,533),(12305,'it carries the cry of the loon and the salts',7,2,533),(12306,'of the unutterably human.',8,2,533),(12307,'A distant eagle enters the mouth of a river',9,3,533),(12308,'salmon no longer run and his wide wings glide',10,3,533),(12309,'upstream until he disappears',11,3,533),(12310,'into the nothing from which he came. Only the thought remains.',12,3,533),(12311,'Lacking the eagle’s cunning or the wisdom of the sparrow,',13,4,533),(12312,'where shall I turn, drowning in sorrow?',14,4,533),(12313,'Who will know what the trees know, the spidery patience',15,4,533),(12314,'of young maple or what the willows confess?',16,4,533),(12315,'Let me be water. The heart pours out in waves.',17,5,533),(12316,'Listen to what the water says.',18,5,533),(12317,'Wind, be a friend.',19,5,533),(12318,'There’s nothing I couldn’t forgive.',20,5,533),(12319,'Will obedience leave me unknown to myself, stranded?',1,1,534),(12320,'Is it enough for me to know where I’m from?',2,2,534),(12321,'If I do more truth-telling will I be happier with what I say?',3,3,534),(12322,'If I had three days to live would I still be sensible?',4,4,534),(12323,'Is the break between my feelings and my memory',5,5,534),(12324,'the reason I’m unable to sustain rage?',6,5,534),(12325,'Am I a peninsula slowly turning into an island?',7,6,534),(12326,'If I grew up gazing at the ocean would I think',8,7,534),(12327,'life came in waves?',9,7,534),(12328,'If I were a nomad would I measure time',10,8,534),(12329,'by the length of a footstep?',11,8,534),(12330,'If I can see a cup drop to the floor and shatter',12,9,534),(12331,'why can’t I see it gather itself back together?',13,9,534),(12332,'If a surgeon cut out my mistakes',14,10,534),(12333,'would the scar be under my heart?',15,10,534),(12334,'How much time will I spend protecting myself',16,11,534),(12335,'from what the people I love call love?',17,11,534),(12336,'Would my desires feel different if I lived forever?',18,12,534),(12337,'Will my desires destroy my politics?',19,13,534),(12338,'Is taboo sex the ultimate aphrodisiac?',20,14,534),(12339,'If I fall in love with the wrong person',21,15,534),(12340,'How do I learn to un-in love myself?',22,15,534),(12341,'Can I make my intuition into a divining rod?',23,16,534),(12342,'Is music the closest I can get to God?',24,17,534),(12343,'How many of these questions will remain',25,18,534),(12344,'when I kneel to wash my floors again?',26,18,534),(12345,'He loved her and she loved him',1,1,535),(12346,'His kisses sucked out her whole past and future or tried to',2,1,535),(12347,'He had no other appetite',3,1,535),(12348,'She bit him she gnawed him she sucked',4,1,535),(12349,'She wanted him complete inside her',5,1,535),(12350,'Safe and sure forever and ever',6,1,535),(12351,'Their little cries fluttered into the curtains',7,1,535),(12352,'Her eyes wanted nothing to get away',8,2,535),(12353,'Her looks nailed down his hands his wrists his elbows',9,2,535),(12354,'He gripped her hard so that life',10,2,535),(12355,'Should not drag her from that moment',11,2,535),(12356,'He wanted all future to cease',12,2,535),(12357,'He wanted to topple with his arms round her',13,2,535),(12358,'Off that moment’s brink and into nothing',14,2,535),(12359,'Or everlasting or whatever there was',15,2,535),(12360,'Her embrace was an immense press',16,2,535),(12361,'To print him into her bones',17,2,535),(12362,'His smiles were the garrets of a fairy palace',18,2,535),(12363,'Where the real world would never come',19,2,535),(12364,'Her smiles were spider bites',20,2,535),(12365,'So he would lie still till she felt hungry',21,2,535),(12366,'His words were occupying armies',22,2,535),(12367,'Her laughs were an assassin’s attempts',23,2,535),(12368,'His looks were bullets daggers of revenge',24,2,535),(12369,'Her glances were ghosts in the corner with horrible secrets',25,2,535),(12370,'His whispers were whips and jackboots',26,2,535),(12371,'Her kisses were lawyers steadily writing',27,2,535),(12372,'His caresses were the last hooks of a castaway',28,2,535),(12373,'Her love-trick were the grinding of locks',29,2,535),(12374,'And their deep cries crawled over the floors',30,2,535),(12375,'Like an animal dragging a great trap.',31,2,535),(12376,'I’m not going to cry all the time',1,1,536),(12377,'nor shall I laugh all the time,',2,1,536),(12378,'I don’t prefer one “strain” to another.',3,1,536),(12379,'I’d have the immediacy of a bad movie,',4,1,536),(12380,'not just a sleeper, but also the big,',5,1,536),(12381,'overproduced first-run kind. I want to be',6,1,536),(12382,'at least as alive as the vulgar. And if',7,1,536),(12383,'some aficionado of my mess says “That’s',8,1,536),(12384,'not like Frank!”, all to the good! I',9,1,536),(12385,'don’t wear brown and grey suits all the time,',10,1,536),(12386,'do I? No. I wear workshirts to the opera,',11,1,536),(12387,'often. I want my feet to be bare,',12,1,536),(12388,'I want my face to be shaven, and my heart—',13,1,536),(12389,'you can’t plan on the heart, but',14,1,536),(12390,'the better part of it, my poetry, is open.',15,1,536),(12391,'When she cannot be sure',1,1,537),(12392,'which of two lovers it was with whom she felt',2,1,537),(12393,'this or that moment of pleasure, of something fiery',3,1,537),(12394,'streaking from head to heels, the way the white',4,1,537),(12395,'flame of a cascade streaks a mountainside',5,1,537),(12396,'seen from a car across a valley, the car',6,1,537),(12397,'changing gear, skirting a precipice,',7,1,537),(12398,'climbing…',8,1,537),(12399,'When she can sit or walk for hours after a movie',9,1,537),(12400,'talking earnestly and with bursts of laughter',10,1,537),(12401,'with friends, without worrying',11,1,537),(12402,'that it’s late, dinner at midnight, her time',12,1,537),(12403,'spent without counting the change…',13,1,537),(12404,'When half her bed is covered with books',14,1,537),(12405,'and no one is kept awake by the reading light',15,1,537),(12406,'and she disconnects the phone, to sleep till noon…',16,1,537),(12407,'Then',17,1,537),(12408,'self-pity dries up, a joy',18,1,537),(12409,'untainted by guilt lifts her.',19,1,537),(12410,'She has fears, but not about loneliness;',20,1,537),(12411,'fears about how to deal with the aging',21,1,537),(12412,'of her body—how to deal',22,1,537),(12413,'with photographs and the mirror. She feels',23,1,537),(12414,'so much younger and more beautiful',24,1,537),(12415,'than the looks. At her happiest',25,1,537),(12416,'—or even in the midst of',26,1,537),(12417,'some less than joyful hour, sweating',27,1,537),(12418,'patiently through a heatwave in the city',28,1,537),(12419,'or hearing the sparrows at daybreak, dully gray,',29,1,537),(12420,'toneless, the sound of fatigue—',30,1,537),(12421,'a kind of sober euphoria makes her believe',31,1,537),(12422,'in her future as an old woman, a wanderer',32,1,537),(12423,'seamed and brown,',33,1,537),(12424,'little luxuries of the middle of life all gone,',34,1,537),(12425,'watching cities and rivers, people and mountains,',35,1,537),(12426,'without being watched; not grim nor sad,',36,1,537),(12427,'an old winedrinking woman, who knows',37,1,537),(12428,'the old roads, grass-grown, and laughs to herself…',38,1,537),(12429,'She knows it can’t be:',39,1,537),(12430,'that’s Mrs. Doasyouwouldbedoneby from The Water Babies,',40,1,537),(12431,'no one can walk the world any more,',41,1,537),(12432,'a world of fumes and decibels.',42,1,537),(12433,'But she thinks maybe',43,1,537),(12434,'she could get to be tough and wise, some way,',44,1,537),(12435,'anyway. Now at least',45,1,537),(12436,'she is past the time of mourning,',46,1,537),(12437,'now she can say without shame or deceit,',47,1,537),(12438,'O blessed Solitude.',48,1,537),(12439,'I once knew an eccentric electrician.',1,1,538),(12440,'We had a lot in common.',2,1,538),(12441,'He wrote poetry and I did.',3,1,538),(12442,'We both liked pasta.',4,1,538),(12443,'His poems were complex.',5,2,538),(12444,'Reading them was like riding a funnel-shaped wind inward.',6,2,538),(12445,'Finally, I said, “Don’t show me any more of them',7,3,538),(12446,'and don’t keep talking about unknown galaxies',8,3,538),(12447,'and how small we are.',9,3,538),(12448,'I already know that,” I said.',10,3,538),(12449,'“And fragile,” he added.',11,4,538),(12450,'You do not always know what I am feeling.',1,1,539),(12451,'Last night in the warm spring air while I was',2,1,539),(12452,'blazing my tirade against someone who doesn’t',3,1,539),(12453,'interest',4,1,539),(12454,'me, it was love for you that set me',5,1,539),(12455,'afire,',6,1,539),(12456,'and isn’t it odd? for in rooms full of',7,2,539),(12457,'strangers my most tender feelings',8,2,539),(12458,'writhe and',9,2,539),(12459,'bear the fruit of screaming. Put out your hand,',10,2,539),(12460,'isn’t there',11,2,539),(12461,'an ashtray, suddenly, there? beside',12,2,539),(12462,'the bed? And someone you love enters the room',13,2,539),(12463,'and says wouldn’t',14,2,539),(12464,'you like the eggs a little',15,2,539),(12465,'different today?',16,3,539),(12466,'And when they arrive they are',17,3,539),(12467,'just plain scrambled eggs and the warm weather',18,3,539),(12468,'is holding.',19,3,539),(12469,'Some people—',1,1,540),(12470,'that is not everybody',2,1,540),(12471,'Not even the majority but the minority.',3,1,540),(12472,'Not counting the schools where one must,',4,1,540),(12473,'and the poets themselves,',5,1,540),(12474,'there will be perhaps two in a thousand.',6,1,540),(12475,'Like—',7,2,540),(12476,'but we also like chicken noodle soup,',8,2,540),(12477,'we like compliments and the color blue,',9,2,540),(12478,'we like our old scarves,',10,2,540),(12479,'we like to have our own way,',11,2,540),(12480,'we like to pet dogs.',12,2,540),(12481,'Poetry—',13,3,540),(12482,'but what is poetry.',14,3,540),(12483,'More than one flimsy answer',15,3,540),(12484,'has been given to that question.',16,3,540),(12485,'And I don’t know, and don’t know, and I',17,3,540),(12486,'cling to it as to a life line.',18,3,540),(12487,'I spend all day in my office, reading a poem',1,1,541),(12488,'by Stevens, pretending I wrote it myself,',2,1,541),(12489,'which is what happens when someone is lonely',3,1,541),(12490,'and decides to go shopping and meets another customer',4,1,541),(12491,'and they buy the same thing. But I come to my senses,',5,1,541),(12492,'and decide when Stevens wrote the poem he was thinking',6,1,541),(12493,'of me, the way all my old lovers think of me',7,1,541),(12494,'whenever they lift their kids or carry the trash,',8,1,541),(12495,'and standing outside the store I think of them:',9,1,541),(12496,'I throw my arms around a tree, I kiss the pink',10,1,541),(12497,'and peeling bark, its dead skin, and the papery',11,1,541),(12498,'feel of its fucked-up beauty arouses me, lends my life',12,1,541),(12499,'a certain gait, like the stout man walking to work',13,1,541),(12500,'who sees a peony in his neighbor’s yard and thinks ah, there is a subject of white interpolation, and then',14,1,541),(12501,'the petals fall apart for a long time, as long as it takes',15,1,541),(12502,'summer to turn to snow, and I go home at the end and watch',16,1,541),(12503,'the news about the homeless couple who met in the park,',17,1,541),(12504,'and then the weather, to see how they will feel tomorrow.',18,1,541),(12505,'This being human is a guest house.',1,1,542),(12506,'Every morning a new arrival.',2,1,542),(12507,'A joy, a depression, a meanness,',3,2,542),(12508,'some momentary awareness comes',4,2,542),(12509,'as an unexpected visitor.',5,2,542),(12510,'Welcome and entertain them all!',6,3,542),(12511,'Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,',7,3,542),(12512,'who violently sweep your house',8,3,542),(12513,'empty of its furniture,',9,3,542),(12514,'still, treat each guest honorably.',10,3,542),(12515,'He may be clearing you out',11,3,542),(12516,'for some new delight.',12,3,542),(12517,'The dark thought, the shame, the malice.',13,4,542),(12518,'meet them at the door laughing and invite them in.',14,4,542),(12519,'Be grateful for whatever comes.',15,5,542),(12520,'because each has been sent',16,5,542),(12521,'as a guide from beyond.',17,5,542),(12522,'I have supposed my past is part of myself.',1,1,543),(12523,'As my shadow appears whenever I’m in the sun',2,1,543),(12524,'the past cannot be thrown off and its weight',3,1,543),(12525,'must be borne, or I will become another man.',4,1,543),(12526,'But I saw someone wall his past into a garden',5,2,543),(12527,'whose produce is always in fashion.',6,2,543),(12528,'If you enter his property without permission',7,2,543),(12529,'he will welcome you with a watchdog or a gun.',8,2,543),(12530,'I saw someone set up his past as a harbor.',9,3,543),(12531,'Wherever it sails, his boat is safe—',10,3,543),(12532,'If a storm comes, he can always head for home.',11,3,543),(12533,'His voyage is the adventure of a kite.',12,3,543),(12534,'I saw someone drop his past like trash.',13,4,543),(12535,'He buried it and shed it altogether.',14,4,543),(12536,'He has shown me that without the past',15,4,543),(12537,'one can also move ahead and get somewhere.',16,4,543),(12538,'Like a shroud my past surrounds me',17,5,543),(12539,'but I will cut it and stitch it,',18,5,543),(12540,'to make good shoes with it,',19,5,543),(12541,'shoes that fit my feet.',20,5,543),(12542,'Look at the birds. Even flying',1,1,544),(12543,'is born',2,1,544),(12544,'out of nothing. The first sky',3,2,544),(12545,'is inside you, Friend, open',4,2,544),(12546,'at either end of day.',5,3,544),(12547,'The work of wings',6,3,544),(12548,'was always freedom, fastening',7,4,544),(12549,'one heart to every falling thing.',8,4,544),(12550,'Even Eve, the only soul in all of time',1,1,545),(12551,'to never have to wait for love,',2,1,545),(12552,'must have leaned some sleepless nights',3,1,545),(12553,'alone against the garden wall',4,1,545),(12554,'and wailed, cold, stupified, and wild',5,1,545),(12555,'and wished to trade-in all of Eden',6,1,545),(12556,'to have but been a child.',7,1,545),(12557,'In fact, I gather that is why she leapt and fell from grace,',8,2,545),(12558,'that she might have a story of herself to tell',9,2,545),(12559,'in some other place.',10,2,545),(12560,'When I was lonely, I thought of death.',1,1,546),(12561,'When I thought of death I was lonely.',2,1,546),(12562,'I suppose this error will continue.',3,2,546),(12563,'I shall enter each gray morning',4,2,546),(12564,'Delighted by frost, which is death,',5,3,546),(12565,'& the trees that stand alone in mist.',6,3,546),(12566,'When I met my wife I was lonely.',7,4,546),(12567,'Our child in her body is lonely.',8,4,546),(12568,'I suppose this error will go on & on.',9,5,546),(12569,'Morning I kiss my wife’s cold lips,',10,5,546),(12570,'Nights her body, dripping with mist.',11,6,546),(12571,'This is the error that fascinates.',12,6,546),(12572,'I suppose you are secretly lonely,',13,7,546),(12573,'Thinking of death, thinking of love.',14,7,546),(12574,'I’d like, please, to leave on your sill',15,8,546),(12575,'Just one cold flower, whose beauty',16,8,546),(12576,'Would leave you inconsolable all day.',17,9,546),(12577,'The secret of poetry is cruelty.',18,9,546),(12578,'My apologies to chance for calling it necessity.',1,1,547),(12579,'My apologies to necessity if I’m mistaken, after all.',2,1,547),(12580,'Please, don’t be angry, happiness, that I take you as my due.',3,1,547),(12581,'May my dead be patient with the way my memories fade.',4,1,547),(12582,'My apologies to time for all the world I overlook each second.',5,1,547),(12583,'My apologies to past loves for thinking that the latest is the first.',6,1,547),(12584,'Forgive me, distant wars, for bringing flowers home.',7,1,547),(12585,'Forgive me, open wounds, for pricking my finger.',8,1,547),(12586,'I apologize for my record of minuets to those who cry from the depths.',9,1,547),(12587,'I apologize to those who wait in railway stations for being asleep today at five a.m.',10,1,547),(12588,'Pardon me, hounded hope, for laughing from time to time.',11,1,547),(12589,'Pardon me, deserts, that I don’t rush to you bearing a spoonful of water.',12,1,547),(12590,'And you, falcon, unchanging year after year, always in the same cage,',13,1,547),(12591,'your gaze always fixed on the same point in space,',14,1,547),(12592,'forgive me, even if it turns out you were stuffed.',15,1,547),(12593,'My apologies to the felled tree for the table’s four legs.',16,1,547),(12594,'My apologies to great questions for small answers.',17,1,547),(12595,'Truth, please don’t pay me much attention.',18,1,547),(12596,'Dignity, please be magnanimous.',19,1,547),(12597,'Bear with me, O mystery of existence, as I pluck the occasional thread from your train.',20,1,547),(12598,'Soul, don’t take offense that I’ve only got you now and then.',21,1,547),(12599,'My apologies to everything that I can’t be everywhere at once.',22,1,547),(12600,'My apologies to everyone that I can’t be each woman and each man.',23,1,547),(12601,'I know I won’t be justified as long as I live,',24,1,547),(12602,'since I myself stand in my own way.',25,1,547),(12603,'Don’t bear me ill will, speech, that I borrow weighty words,',26,1,547),(12604,'then labor heavily so that they may seem light.',27,1,547),(12605,'The moon was like a full cup tonight,',1,1,548),(12606,'too heavy, and sank in the mist',2,1,548),(12607,'soon after dark, leaving for light',3,1,548),(12608,'faint stars and the silver leaves',4,2,548),(12609,'of milkweed beside the road,',5,2,548),(12610,'gleaming before my car.',6,2,548),(12611,'Yet I like driving at night',7,3,548),(12612,'in summer and in Vermont:',8,3,548),(12613,'the brown road through the mist',9,3,548),(12614,'of mountain-dark, among farms',10,4,548),(12615,'so quiet, and the roadside willows',11,4,548),(12616,'opening out where I saw',12,4,548),(12617,'the cows. Always a shock',13,5,548),(12618,'to remember them there, those',14,5,548),(12619,'great breathings close in the dark.',15,5,548),(12620,'I stopped, and took my flashlight',16,6,548),(12621,'to the pasture fence. They turned',17,6,548),(12622,'to me where they lay, sad',18,6,548),(12623,'and beautiful faces in the dark,',19,7,548),(12624,'and I counted them–forty',20,7,548),(12625,'near and far in the pasture,',21,7,548),(12626,'turning to me, sad and beautiful',22,8,548),(12627,'like girls very long ago',23,8,548),(12628,'who were innocent, and sad',24,8,548),(12629,'because they were innocent,',25,9,548),(12630,'and beautiful because they were',26,9,548),(12631,'sad. I switched off my light.',27,9,548),(12632,'But I did not want to go,',28,10,548),(12633,'not yet, nor knew what to do',29,10,548),(12634,'if I should stay, for how',30,10,548),(12635,'in that great darkness could I explain',31,11,548),(12636,'anything, anything at all.',32,11,548),(12637,'I stood by the fence. And then',33,11,548),(12638,'very gently it began to rain.',34,12,548),(12639,'Had we nothing to prove',1,1,549),(12640,'we might have leaned all night at that window,',2,1,549),(12641,'merely beside each other,',3,1,549),(12642,'watching Peel Street, wrought-iron gates',4,1,549),(12643,'and weather vanes, black lace of trees',5,1,549),(12644,'between cautious Victorian silhouettes;',6,1,549),(12645,'but there were obligations, the formalities',7,1,549),(12646,'of passion; so we sealed the shutters',8,1,549),(12647,'and were expedient in the brevity of night;',9,1,549),(12648,'reading with empty sockets moonlight in dull hair,',10,1,549),(12649,'softness to chafed thighs;',11,1,549),(12650,'both of us anxious and shaking the night,',12,1,549),(12651,'with all my arm, she with fingers and gentle;',13,1,549),(12652,'no hope for silver leaves in the morning.',14,1,549),(12653,'And always a glance for the brightening windows,',15,1,549),(12654,'a suspension of breath for the hearing of birds',16,1,549),(12655,'and incantations to the sun',17,1,549),(12656,'which stirs in dust behind stone horizons.',18,1,549),(12657,'We searched for each other',1,1,550),(12658,'in the most unlikely places,',2,1,550),(12659,'among the most unlikely people,',3,1,550),(12660,'and when our paths finally crossed,',4,2,550),(12661,'it was for reasons so entangled',5,2,550),(12662,'in our daily bread,',6,2,550),(12663,'and the usual trespasses',7,2,550),(12664,'that we might not even have noticed,',8,3,550),(12665,'except for that faint quiver of wonder',9,3,550),(12666,'like a passing chill from the night air.',10,3,550),(12667,'We loved',11,4,550),(12668,'and the closest we’ve come to explaining why,',12,5,550),(12669,'is because it was you,',13,5,550),(12670,'and because it was I.',14,5,550),(12671,'Dawn’s faint breath',1,1,551),(12672,'breathes with your mouth',2,1,551),(12673,'at the ends of empty streets.',3,1,551),(12674,'Gray light your eyes,',4,1,551),(12675,'sweet drops of dawn',5,1,551),(12676,'on dark hills.',6,1,551),(12677,'Your steps and breath',7,1,551),(12678,'like the wind of dawn',8,1,551),(12679,'smother houses.',9,1,551),(12680,'The city shudders,',10,1,551),(12681,'Stones exhale—',11,1,551),(12682,'you are life, an awakening.',12,1,551),(12683,'Star lost',13,2,551),(12684,'in the light of dawn,',14,2,551),(12685,'trill of the breeze,',15,2,551),(12686,'warmth, breath—',16,2,551),(12687,'the night is done.',17,2,551),(12688,'You are light and morning.',18,3,551),(12689,'Watch out for power,',1,1,552),(12690,'for its avalanche can bury you,',2,1,552),(12691,'snow, snow, snow, smothering your mountain.',3,1,552),(12692,'Watch out for hate,',4,2,552),(12693,'it can open its mouth and you’ll fling yourself out',5,2,552),(12694,'to eat off your leg, an instant leper.',6,2,552),(12695,'Watch out for friends,',7,3,552),(12696,'because when you betray them,',8,3,552),(12697,'as you will,',9,3,552),(12698,'they will bury their heads in the toilet',10,3,552),(12699,'and flush themselves away.',11,3,552),(12700,'Watch out for intellect,',12,4,552),(12701,'because it knows so much it knows nothing',13,4,552),(12702,'and leaves you hanging upside down,',14,4,552),(12703,'mouthing knowledge as your heart',15,4,552),(12704,'falls out of your mouth.',16,4,552),(12705,'Watch out for games, the actor’s part,',17,5,552),(12706,'the speech planned, known, given,',18,5,552),(12707,'for they will give you away',19,5,552),(12708,'and you will stand like a naked little boy,',20,5,552),(12709,'pissing on your own child-bed.',21,5,552),(12710,'Watch out for love',22,6,552),(12711,'(unless it is true,',23,6,552),(12712,'and every part of you says yes including the toes) ,',24,6,552),(12713,'it will wrap you up like a mummy,',25,6,552),(12714,'and your scream won’t be heard',26,6,552),(12715,'and none of your running will end.',27,6,552),(12716,'Love? Be it man. Be it woman.',28,7,552),(12717,'It must be a wave you want to glide in on,',29,7,552),(12718,'give your body to it, give your laugh to it,',30,7,552),(12719,'give, when the gravelly sand takes you,',31,7,552),(12720,'your tears to the land. To love another is something',32,7,552),(12721,'like prayer and can’t be planned, you just fall',33,7,552),(12722,'into its arms because your belief undoes your disbelief.',34,7,552),(12723,'Special person,',35,8,552),(12724,'if I were you I’d pay no attention',36,8,552),(12725,'to admonitions from me,',37,8,552),(12726,'made somewhat out of your words',38,8,552),(12727,'and somewhat out of mine.',39,8,552),(12728,'A collaboration.',40,8,552),(12729,'I do not believe a word I have said,',41,8,552),(12730,'except some, except I think of you like a young tree',42,8,552),(12731,'with pasted-on leaves and know you’ll root',43,8,552),(12732,'and the real green thing will come.',44,8,552),(12733,'Let go. Let go.',45,9,552),(12734,'Oh special person,',46,9,552),(12735,'possible leaves,',47,9,552),(12736,'this typewriter likes you on the way to them,',48,9,552),(12737,'but wants to break crystal glasses',49,9,552),(12738,'in celebration,',50,9,552),(12739,'for you,',51,9,552),(12740,'when the dark crust is thrown off',52,9,552),(12741,'and you float all around',53,9,552),(12742,'like a happened balloon.',54,9,552),(12743,'What the bad news was',1,1,553),(12744,'became apparent too late',2,1,553),(12745,'for us to do anything good about it.',3,1,553),(12746,'I was offered no urgent dreaming,',4,2,553),(12747,'didn’t need a name or anything.',5,2,553),(12748,'Everything was taken care of.',6,2,553),(12749,'In the medium-size city of my awareness',7,3,553),(12750,'voles are building colossi.',8,3,553),(12751,'The blue room is over there.',9,3,553),(12752,'He put out no feelers.',10,4,553),(12753,'The day was all as one to him.',11,4,553),(12754,'Some days he never leaves his room',12,4,553),(12755,'and those are the best days,',13,4,553),(12756,'by far.',14,4,553),(12757,'There were morose gardens farther down the slope,',15,5,553),(12758,'anthills that looked like they belonged there.',16,5,553),(12759,'The sausages were undercooked,',17,5,553),(12760,'the wine too cold, the bread molten.',18,5,553),(12761,'Who said to bring sweaters?',19,5,553),(12762,'The climate’s not that dependable.',20,5,553),(12763,'The Atlantic crawled slowly to the left',21,6,553),(12764,'pinning a message on the unbound golden hair of sleeping maidens,',22,6,553),(12765,'a ruse for next time,',23,6,553),(12766,'where fire and water are rampant in the streets,',24,7,553),(12767,'the gate closed—no visitors today',25,7,553),(12768,'or any evident heartbeat.',26,7,553),(12769,'I got rid of the book of fairy tales,',27,8,553),(12770,'pawned my old car, bought a ticket to the funhouse,',28,8,553),(12771,'found myself back here at six o’clock,',29,8,553),(12772,'pondering “possible side effects.”',30,8,553),(12773,'There was no harm in loving then,',31,9,553),(12774,'no certain good either. But love was loving servants',32,9,553),(12775,'or bosses. No straight road issuing from it.',33,9,553),(12776,'Leaves around the door are penciled losses.',34,9,553),(12777,'Twenty years to fix it.',35,9,553),(12778,'Asters bloom one way or another.',36,9,553),(12779,'i don’t want to hate the president',1,1,554),(12780,'i don’t want to go to harvard',2,2,554),(12781,'i don’t want to win the pulitzer prize',3,3,554),(12782,'i just want to sit in my bathtub',4,4,554),(12783,'and think about relationships i will never have',5,5,554),(12784,'with people i will never meet',6,6,554),(12785,'and then go lay in my bed',7,7,554),(12786,'with a magnifying glass',8,8,554),(12787,'and count all the stiches in my sheets',9,9,554),(12788,'until i fall asleep',10,10,554),(12789,'and wake up',11,11,554),(12790,'to repeat again.',12,12,554),(12791,'my cat has been biting my cheeks lately',1,1,555),(12792,'she sits on my face and bites',2,2,555),(12793,'i look at her and show her my face is sad',3,3,555),(12794,'i say ‘look, my face is sad and it’s all your fault’',4,4,555),(12795,'she makes a face like ‘oh’',5,5,555),(12796,'i told my friend about my cat',6,6,555),(12797,'she said ‘your life is pretty much a bestseller’',7,7,555),(12798,'i thought ‘life is shit’',8,8,555),(12799,'then i realized that most bestsellers are shit',9,9,555),(12800,'she was right',10,10,555),(12801,'will you pay me for living?',11,11,555),(12802,'i’m a bestseller',12,12,555),(12803,'for Gustav Klimt',1,1,556),(12804,'The painter is beautiful because he can see',2,2,556),(12805,'the sway of a woman in a water snake. He names',3,2,556),(12806,'a painting Hope and means with child. To him,',4,2,556),(12807,'Eve is not the bedmate of a serpent, she is a soft,',5,2,556),(12808,'china-colored body for Adam to rest on. What is',6,2,556),(12809,'Voluptuousness? A pot-belly. Excess? A river',7,2,556),(12810,'of red hair. Poetry is a girl swimming in a white dress.',8,2,556),(12811,'Love is a gypsy. Sleep is a witch. The most beautiful',9,2,556),(12812,'girl in Vienna gave him her first kiss. She went to him',10,2,556),(12813,'to find out what beauty was. And so, he covered her',11,2,556),(12814,'in a blanket of carnations. Every woman he painted',12,2,556),(12815,'had daisies sewn into their curls. What exactly does',13,2,556),(12816,'a kiss do to a girl? It makes her face fold over,',14,2,556),(12817,'and her toes turn like scallops in the grass.',15,2,556),(12818,'The tree lay down',1,1,557),(12819,'on the garage roof',2,1,557),(12820,'and stretched, You',3,1,557),(12821,'have your heaven,',4,1,557),(12822,'it said, go to it.',5,1,557),(12823,'You simply go out and shut the door',1,1,558),(12824,'without thinking. And when you look back',2,1,558),(12825,'at what you’ve done',3,1,558),(12826,'it’s too late. If this sounds',4,1,558),(12827,'like the story of a life, okay.',5,1,558),(12828,'It was raining. The neighbors who had',6,2,558),(12829,'a key were away. I tried and tried',7,2,558),(12830,'the lower windows. Stared',8,2,558),(12831,'inside at the sofa, plants, the table',9,2,558),(12832,'and chairs, the stereo set-up.',10,2,558),(12833,'My coffee cup and ashtray waited for me',11,2,558),(12834,'on the glass-topped table, and my heart',12,2,558),(12835,'went out to them. I said, Hello, friends,',13,2,558),(12836,'or something like that. After all,',14,2,558),(12837,'this wasn’t so bad.',15,2,558),(12838,'Worse things had happened. This',16,2,558),(12839,'was even a little funny. I found the ladder.',17,2,558),(12840,'Took that and leaned it against the house.',18,2,558),(12841,'Then climbed in the rain to the deck,',19,2,558),(12842,'swung myself over the railing',20,2,558),(12843,'and tried the door. Which was locked,',21,2,558),(12844,'of course. But I looked in just the same',22,2,558),(12845,'at my desk, some papers, and my chair.',23,2,558),(12846,'This was the window on the other side',24,2,558),(12847,'of the desk where I’d raise my eyes',25,2,558),(12848,'and stare out when I sat at that desk.',26,2,558),(12849,'This is not like downstairs, I thought.',27,2,558),(12850,'This is something else.',28,2,558),(12851,'And it was something to look in like that, unseen,',29,3,558),(12852,'from the deck. To be there, inside, and not be there.',30,3,558),(12853,'I don’t even think I can talk about it.',31,3,558),(12854,'I brought my face close to the glass',32,3,558),(12855,'and imagined myself inside,',33,3,558),(12856,'sitting at the desk. Looking up',34,3,558),(12857,'from my work now and again.',35,3,558),(12858,'Thinking about some other place',36,3,558),(12859,'and some other time.',37,3,558),(12860,'The people I had loved then.',38,3,558),(12861,'I stood there for a minute in the rain.',39,4,558),(12862,'Considering myself to be the luckiest of men.',40,4,558),(12863,'Even though a wave of grief passed through me.',41,4,558),(12864,'Even though I felt violently ashamed',42,4,558),(12865,'of the injury I’d done back then.',43,4,558),(12866,'I bashed that beautiful window.',44,4,558),(12867,'And stepped back in.',45,4,558),(12868,'Winter is out for a lot this year',1,1,559),(12869,'the beach already is stiff',2,1,559),(12870,'all will be one will be one this year',3,1,559),(12871,'wings and ice will be one in the world',4,1,559),(12872,'all will be changed in the world:',5,1,559),(12873,'the boat will hear its steps on the ice',6,1,559),(12874,'the war will hear its war on the ice',7,1,559),(12875,'the woman will hear her hour on the ice',8,1,559),(12876,'the hour of birth in the ice of death',9,1,559),(12877,'winter is out for a lot.',10,1,559),(12878,'Out for the houses the cities',11,1,559),(12879,'out for the forests the clouds',12,1,559),(12880,'the mountains the valleys fear',13,1,559),(12881,'the heart the children peace.',14,1,559),(12882,'Winter is out for a lot this year',15,2,559),(12883,'the hand already is stiff',16,2,559),(12884,'the crying of children is heard in the house',17,2,559),(12885,'one will we be one life',18,2,559),(12886,'I hear my house slip with the world',19,2,559),(12887,'and scream all that has been screamed',20,2,559),(12888,'the heart rams its boat into ice',21,2,559),(12889,'shells rustling in the hull',22,2,559),(12890,'winter is out for as much.',23,2,559),(12891,'If I freeze fast in the ice',24,3,559),(12892,'if you freeze fast my child',25,3,559),(12893,'my great forest next summer',26,3,559),(12894,'my great fear as I come',27,3,559),(12895,'if you freeze fast my life:',28,3,559),(12896,'then I am a vulture of wings and ice',29,3,559),(12897,'tearing my liver, my living life',30,3,559),(12898,'awake in eternity.',31,3,559),(12899,'This winter is in for a lot.',32,4,559),(12900,'We have lost even this twilight.',1,1,560),(12901,'No one saw us this evening hand in hand',2,1,560),(12902,'while the blue night dropped on the world.',3,1,560),(12903,'I have seen from my window',4,2,560),(12904,'the fiesta of sunset in the distant mountain tops.',5,2,560),(12905,'Sometimes a piece of sun',6,3,560),(12906,'burned like a coin in my hand.',7,3,560),(12907,'I remembered you with my soul clenched',8,4,560),(12908,'in that sadness of mine that you know.',9,4,560),(12909,'Where were you then?',10,5,560),(12910,'Who else was there?',11,5,560),(12911,'Saying what?',12,5,560),(12912,'Why will the whole of love come on me suddenly',13,5,560),(12913,'when I am sad and feel you are far away?',14,5,560),(12914,'The book fell that always closed at twilight',15,6,560),(12915,'and my blue sweater rolled like a hurt dog at my feet.',16,6,560),(12916,'Always, always you recede through the evenings',17,7,560),(12917,'toward the twilight erasing statues.',18,7,560),(12918,'The rat makes her way up',1,1,561),(12919,'the mulberry tree, the branches',2,1,561),(12920,'getting thin and risky up close',3,1,561),(12921,'to the fruit, and she slows.',4,1,561),(12922,'The berry she is after is so ripe,',5,1,561),(12923,'there is almost no red. Prospero',6,1,561),(12924,'thinks of Christopher Smart saying',7,1,561),(12925,'purple is black blooming. She lifts',8,1,561),(12926,'her mouth to the berry, stretching.',9,1,561),(12927,'The throat is an elegant gray.',10,1,561),(12928,'A thousand shades, Christopher wrote',11,1,561),(12929,'among the crazy people. A thousand',12,1,561),(12930,'colors from white to silver.',13,1,561),(12931,'Your baby grows a tooth, then two,',1,1,562),(12932,'and four, and five, then she wants some meat',2,1,562),(12933,'directly from the bone. It’s all',3,1,562),(12934,'over: she’ll learn some words, she’ll fall',4,2,562),(12935,'in love with cretins, dolts, a sweet',5,2,562),(12936,'talker on his way to jail. And you,',6,2,562),(12937,'your wife, get old, flyblown, and rue',7,3,562),(12938,'nothing. You did, you loved, your feet',8,3,562),(12939,'are sore. It’s dusk. Your daughter’s tall.',9,3,562),(12940,'9',1,1,563),(12941,'I broke your heart.',2,2,563),(12942,'Now barefoot I tread',3,2,563),(12943,'on shards.',4,2,563),(12944,'17',5,3,563),(12945,'Why is the word yes so brief?',6,4,563),(12946,'It should be',7,4,563),(12947,'the longest,',8,4,563),(12948,'the hardest,',9,4,563),(12949,'so that you could not decide in an instant to say it,',10,4,563),(12950,'so that upon reflection you could stop',11,4,563),(12951,'in the middle of saying it.',12,4,563),(12952,'18',13,5,563),(12953,'—Sing me The Song of Songs.',14,6,563),(12954,'—Don’t know the words.',15,6,563),(12955,'—Then sing the notes.',16,6,563),(12956,'—Don’t know the notes.',17,6,563),(12957,'—Then simply hum.',18,6,563),(12958,'—Forgot the tune.',19,6,563),(12959,'—Then press my ear',20,6,563),(12960,'to your ear',21,6,563),(12961,'and sing what you hear.',22,6,563),(12962,'There are so many roots to the tree of anger',1,1,564),(12963,'that sometimes the branches shatter',2,1,564),(12964,'before they bear.',3,1,564),(12965,'Sitting in Nedicks',4,2,564),(12966,'the women rally before they march',5,2,564),(12967,'discussing the problematic girls',6,2,564),(12968,'they hire to make them free.',7,2,564),(12969,'An almost white counterman passes',8,2,564),(12970,'a waiting brother to serve them first',9,2,564),(12971,'and the ladies neither notice nor reject',10,2,564),(12972,'the slighter pleasures of their slavery.',11,2,564),(12973,'But I who am bound by my mirror',12,2,564),(12974,'as well as my bed',13,2,564),(12975,'see causes in colour',14,2,564),(12976,'as well as sex',15,2,564),(12977,'and sit here wondering',16,3,564),(12978,'which me will survive',17,3,564),(12979,'all these liberations.',18,3,564),(12980,'Rebuked, she turned and ran',1,1,565),(12981,'uphill to the barn. Anger, the inner',2,1,565),(12982,'arsonist, held a match to her brain.',3,1,565),(12983,'She observed her life: against her will',4,1,565),(12984,'it survived the unwavering flame.',5,1,565),(12985,'The barn was empty of animals.',6,2,565),(12986,'Only a swallow tilted',7,2,565),(12987,'near the beams, and bats',8,2,565),(12988,'hung from the rafters',9,2,565),(12989,'the roof sagged between.',10,2,565),(12990,'Her breath became steady',11,3,565),(12991,'where, years past, the farmer cooled',12,3,565),(12992,'the big tin amphoræ of milk.',13,3,565),(12993,'The stone trough was still',14,3,565),(12994,'filled with water: she watched it',15,3,565),(12995,'and received its calm.',16,3,565),(12996,'So it is when we retreat in anger:',17,4,565),(12997,'we think we burn alone',18,4,565),(12998,'and there is no balm.',19,4,565),(12999,'Then water enters, though it makes',20,4,565),(13000,'no sound.',21,4,565),(13001,'I am wearing dark glasses inside the house',1,1,566),(13002,'To match my dark mood.',2,1,566),(13003,'I have left all the sugar out of the pie.',3,2,566),(13004,'My rage is a kind of domestic rage.',4,2,566),(13005,'I learned it from my mother',5,3,566),(13006,'Who learned it from her mother before her',6,3,566),(13007,'And so on.',7,4,566),(13008,'Surely the Greeks had a word for this.',8,4,566),(13009,'Now surely the Germans do.',9,5,566),(13010,'The more words a person knows',10,5,566),(13011,'To describe her private sufferings',11,6,566),(13012,'The more distantly she can perceive them.',12,6,566),(13013,'I repeat the names of all the cities I’ve known',13,7,566),(13014,'And watch an ant drag its crooked shadow home.',14,7,566),(13015,'What does it mean to love the life we’ve been given?',15,8,566),(13016,'To act well the part that’s been cast for us?',16,8,566),(13017,'Wind. Light. Fire. Time.',17,9,566),(13018,'A train whistles through the far hills.',18,9,566),(13019,'One day I plan to be riding it.',19,10,566),(13020,'Some people might describe this room as spare:',1,1,567),(13021,'a bedside table and an ashtray and an antique',2,1,567),(13022,'chair; a mattress and a coffee mug;',3,2,567),(13023,'an unwashed cotton blanket and a rug',4,2,567),(13024,'my mother used to own. I used to have',5,3,567),(13025,'a phone. I used to have another',6,3,567),(13026,'room, a bigger broom, a wetter sponge.',7,4,567),(13027,'I used to water my bouquet',8,4,567),(13028,'of paper clips and empty pens, of things',9,5,567),(13029,'I thought I’d want to say if given chance;',10,5,567),(13030,'but now, to live, to sit somehow, to watch',11,6,567),(13031,'a particle of thought dote on the dust',12,6,567),(13032,'and dwindle in a little grid of shadow',13,7,567),(13033,'on the sunset’s patchy rust seems like enough.',14,7,567),(13034,'Don’t listen to me; my heart’s been broken.',1,1,568),(13035,'I don’t see anything objectively.',2,1,568),(13036,'I know myself; I’ve learned to hear like a psychiatrist.',3,2,568),(13037,'When I speak passionately,',4,2,568),(13038,'that’s when I’m least to be trusted.',5,2,568),(13039,'It’s very sad, really: all my life, I’ve been praised',6,3,568),(13040,'for my intelligence, my powers of language, of insight.',7,3,568),(13041,'In the end, they’re wasted—',8,3,568),(13042,'I never see myself,',9,4,568),(13043,'standing on the front steps, holding my sister’s hand.',10,4,568),(13044,'That’s why I can’t account',11,4,568),(13045,'for the bruises on her arm, where the sleeve ends.',12,4,568),(13046,'In my own mind, I’m invisible: that’s why I’m dangerous.',13,5,568),(13047,'People like me, who seem selfless,',14,5,568),(13048,'we’re the cripples, the liars;',15,5,568),(13049,'we’re the ones who should be factored out',16,5,568),(13050,'in the interest of truth.',17,5,568),(13051,'When I’m quiet, that’s when the truth emerges.',18,6,568),(13052,'A clear sky, the clouds like white fibers.',19,6,568),(13053,'Underneath, a little gray house, the azaleas',20,6,568),(13054,'red and bright pink.',21,6,568),(13055,'If you want the truth, you have to close yourself',22,7,568),(13056,'to the older daughter, block her out:',23,7,568),(13057,'when a living thing is hurt like that,',24,7,568),(13058,'in its deepest workings,',25,7,568),(13059,'all function is altered.',26,7,568),(13060,'That’s why I’m not to be trusted.',27,8,568),(13061,'Because a wound to the heart',28,8,568),(13062,'is also a wound to the mind.',29,8,568),(13063,'I wanted to know what it was like before we',1,1,569),(13064,'had voices and before we had bare fingers and before we',2,1,569),(13065,'had minds to move us through our actions',3,1,569),(13066,'and tears to help us over our feelings,',4,1,569),(13067,'so I drove my daughter through the snow to meet her friend',5,1,569),(13068,'and filled her car with suitcases and hugged her',6,1,569),(13069,'as an animal would, pressing my forehead against her,',7,1,569),(13070,'walking in circles, moaning, touching her cheek,',8,1,569),(13071,'and turned my head after them as an animal would,',9,1,569),(13072,'watching helplessly as they drove over the ruts,',10,1,569),(13073,'her smiling face and her small hand just visible',11,1,569),(13074,'over the giant pillows and coat hangers',12,1,569),(13075,'as they made their turn into the empty highway.',13,1,569),(13076,'Goodbye, lady in Bangor, who sent me',1,1,570),(13077,'snapshots of yourself, after definitely hinting',2,1,570),(13078,'you were beautiful; goodbye,',3,1,570),(13079,'Miami Beach urologist, who enclosed plain',4,1,570),(13080,'brown envelopes for the return of your very',5,1,570),(13081,'“Clinical Sonnets”; goodbye, manufacturer',6,1,570),(13082,'of brassieres on the Coast, whose eclogues',7,1,570),(13083,'give the fullest treatment in literature yet',8,1,570),(13084,'to the sagging breast motif; goodbye, you in San Quentin,',9,1,570),(13085,'who wrote, “Being German my hero is Hitler,”',10,1,570),(13086,'instead of “Sincerely yours,” at the end of long,',11,1,570),(13087,'neat-scripted letters extolling the Pre-Raphaelites:',12,1,570),(13088,'I swear to you, it was just my way',13,2,570),(13089,'of cheering myself up, as I licked',14,2,570),(13090,'the stamped, self-addressed envelopes,',15,2,570),(13091,'the game I had of trying to guess',16,2,570),(13092,'which one of you, this time,',17,2,570),(13093,'had poisoned his glue. I did care.',18,2,570),(13094,'I did read each poem entire.',19,2,570),(13095,'I did say everything I thought',20,2,570),(13096,'in the mildest words I knew. And now,',21,2,570),(13097,'in this poem, or chopped prose, no better,',22,2,570),(13098,'I realize, than those troubled lines',23,2,570),(13099,'I kept sending back to you,',24,2,570),(13100,'I have to say I am relieved it is over:',25,2,570),(13101,'at the end I could feel only pity',26,2,570),(13102,'for that urge toward more life',27,2,570),(13103,'your poems kept smothering in words, the smell',28,2,570),(13104,'of which, days later, tingled in your nostrils',29,2,570),(13105,'as new, God-given impulses',30,2,570),(13106,'to write.',31,2,570),(13107,'Goodbye,',32,3,570),(13108,'you who are, for me, the postmarks again',33,3,570),(13109,'of imaginary towns—Xenia, Burnt Cabins, Hornell—',34,3,570),(13110,'their solitude given away in poems, only their loneliness kept.',35,3,570),(13111,'Coming home with the last load I ride standing',1,1,571),(13112,'on the wagon tongue, behind the tractor',2,1,571),(13113,'in hot exhaust, lank with sweat,',3,1,571),(13114,'my arms strung',4,2,571),(13115,'awkwardly along the hayrack, cruciform.',5,2,571),(13116,'Almost 500 bales we’ve put up',6,2,571),(13117,'this afternoon, Marshall and I.',7,3,571),(13118,'And of course I think of another who hung',8,3,571),(13119,'like this on another cross. My hands are torn',9,3,571),(13120,'by baling twine, not nails, and my side is pierced',10,4,571),(13121,'by my ulcer, not a lance. The acid in my throat',11,4,571),(13122,'is only hayseed. Yet exhaustion and the way',12,4,571),(13123,'my body hands from twisted shoulders, suspended',13,5,571),(13124,'on two points of pain in the rising',14,5,571),(13125,'monoxide, recall that greater suffering.',15,5,571),(13126,'Well, I change grip and the image',16,6,571),(13127,'fades. It’s been an unlucky summer. Heavy rains',17,6,571),(13128,'brought on the grass tremendously, a monster crop,',18,6,571),(13129,'but wet, always wet. Haying was long delayed.',19,7,571),(13130,'Now is our last chance to bring in',20,7,571),(13131,'the winter’s feed, and Marshall needs help.',21,7,571),(13132,'We mow, rake, bale, and draw the bales',22,8,571),(13133,'to the barn, these late, half-green,',23,8,571),(13134,'improperly cured bales; some weigh 150 pounds',24,8,571),(13135,'or more, yet must be lugged by the twine',25,9,571),(13136,'across the field, tossed on the load, and then',26,9,571),(13137,'at the barn unloaded on the conveyor',27,9,571),(13138,'and distributed in the loft. I help—',28,10,571),(13139,'I, the desk-servant, word-worker—',29,10,571),(13140,'and hold up my end pretty well too; but God,',30,10,571),(13141,'the close of day, how I fall down then. My hands',31,11,571),(13142,'are sore, they flinch when I light my pipe.',32,11,571),(13143,'I think of those who have done slave labor,',33,11,571),(13144,'less able and less well prepared than I.',34,12,571),(13145,'Rose Marie in the rye fields of Saxony,',35,12,571),(13146,'her father in the camps of Moldavia',36,12,571),(13147,'and the Crimea, all clerks and housekeepers',37,13,571),(13148,'herded to the gaunt fields of torture. Hands',38,13,571),(13149,'too bloodied cannot bear',39,13,571),(13150,'even the touch of air, even',40,14,571),(13151,'the touch of love. I have a friend',41,14,571),(13152,'whose grandmother cut cane with a machete',42,14,571),(13153,'and cut and cut, until one day',43,15,571),(13154,'she snicked her hand off and took it',44,15,571),(13155,'and threw it grandly at the sky. Now',45,15,571),(13156,'in September our New England mountains',46,16,571),(13157,'under a clear sky for which we’re thankful at last',47,16,571),(13158,'begin to glow, maples, beeches, birches',48,16,571),(13159,'in their first color. I look',49,17,571),(13160,'beyond our famous hayfields to our famous hills,',50,17,571),(13161,'to the notch where the sunset is beginning,',51,17,571),(13162,'then in the other direction, eastward,',52,18,571),(13163,'where a full new-risen moon like a pale',53,18,571),(13164,'medallion hangs in a lavender cloud',54,18,571),(13165,'beyond the barn. My eyes',55,19,571),(13166,'sting with sweat and loveliness. And who',56,19,571),(13167,'is the Christ now, who',57,19,571),(13168,'if not I? It must be so. My strength',58,20,571),(13169,'is legion. And I stand up high',59,20,571),(13170,'on the wagon tongue in my whole bones to say',60,20,571),(13171,'woe to you, watch out',61,21,571),(13172,'you sons of bitches who would drive men and women',62,21,571),(13173,'to the fields where they can only die.',63,21,571),(13174,'Today it’s going to cost us twenty dollars',1,1,572),(13175,'To live. Five for a softball. Four for a book,',2,1,572),(13176,'A handful of ones for coffee and two sweet rolls,',3,1,572),(13177,'Bus fare, rosin for your mother’s violin.',4,1,572),(13178,'We’re completing our task. The tip I left',5,1,572),(13179,'For the waitress filters down',6,1,572),(13180,'Like rain, wetting the new roots of a child',7,1,572),(13181,'Perhaps, a belligerent cat that won’t let go',8,1,572),(13182,'Of a balled sock until there’s chicken to eat.',9,1,572),(13183,'As far as I can tell, daughter, it works like this:',10,1,572),(13184,'You buy bread from a grocery, a bag of apples',11,1,572),(13185,'From a fruit stand, and what coins',12,1,572),(13186,'Are passed on helps others buy pencils, glue,',13,1,572),(13187,'Tickets to a movie in which laughter',14,1,572),(13188,'Is thrown into their faces.',15,1,572),(13189,'If we buy a goldfish, someone tries on a hat.',16,1,572),(13190,'If we buy crayons, someone walks home with a broom.',17,1,572),(13191,'A tip, a small purchase here and there,',18,1,572),(13192,'And things just keep going. I guess.',19,1,572),(13193,'When despair for the world grows in me',1,1,573),(13194,'and I wake in the night at the least sound',2,1,573),(13195,'in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,',3,1,573),(13196,'I go and lie down where the wood drake',4,1,573),(13197,'rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.',5,1,573),(13198,'I come into the peace of wild things',6,1,573),(13199,'who do not tax their lives with forethought',7,1,573),(13200,'of grief. I come into the presence of still water.',8,1,573),(13201,'And I feel above me the day-blind stars',9,1,573),(13202,'waiting with their light. For a time',10,1,573),(13203,'I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.',11,1,573),(13204,'Every day when I pick up my four-year-old daughter from preschool',1,1,574),(13205,'she climbs into her back booster seat and says, Mom—–tell me your story.',2,1,574),(13206,'And almost every day I tell her: I dropped you off, I taught my class',3,1,574),(13207,'I ate a tuna fish sandwich, wrote e-mails, returned phone calls, talked with students',4,1,574),(13208,'and then I came to pick you up.',5,1,574),(13209,'And almost every day I think, My God, is that what I did?',6,1,574),(13210,'Yesterday, she climbed into the backseat and said, Mom',7,2,574),(13211,'tell me your story, and I did what I always did: I said I dropped you off',8,2,574),(13212,'taught my class, had lunch, returned e-mails, talked with students…',9,2,574),(13213,'And she said, No Mom, tell me the whole thing.',10,2,574),(13214,'And I said, ok. I feel a little sad.',11,3,574),(13215,'And she said, Tell me the whole thing Mom.',12,3,574),(13216,'And I said, ok Elise died.',13,3,574),(13217,'Elise is dead and the world feels weary and brokenhearted.',14,4,574),(13218,'And she said, Tell me the whole thing Mom.',15,4,574),(13219,'And I said, in my dream last night I felt my life building up around me and',16,4,574),(13220,'when I stepped forward and away from it and turned around I saw a high',17,4,574),(13221,'and frozen crested wave.',18,4,574),(13222,'And she said, the whole thing Mom.',19,5,574),(13223,'Then I thought of the other dream, I said, when a goose landed heavily on my head—',20,5,574),(13224,'But when I’d untangled it from my hair I saw it wasn’t a goose but a winged serpent',21,5,574),(13225,'writhing up into the sky like a disappearing bee.',22,5,574),(13226,'And she said, Tell me the whole story.',23,6,574),(13227,'And I said, Elise is dead, and all the frozen tears are mine of course',24,6,574),(13228,'and if that wave broke it might wash my life clear,',25,6,574),(13229,'and I might begin again from now and from here.',26,6,574),(13230,'And I looked into the rearview mirror—',27,7,574),(13231,'She was looking sideways, out the window, to the right',28,7,574),(13232,'—where they say the unlived life is.',29,7,574),(13233,'Ok? I said.',30,8,574),(13234,'And she said, Ok, still looking in that direction.',31,8,574),(13235,'They wanted me to tell the truth,',1,1,575),(13236,'so I said I’d lived among them,',2,1,575),(13237,'a spy, for year,',3,1,575),(13238,'but all that I wanted was love.',4,1,575),(13239,'They said they couldn’t love a spy.',5,1,575),(13240,'Couldn’t I tell them other truths?',6,1,575),(13241,'I said I was emotionally bankrupt,',7,1,575),(13242,'would turn any of them in for a kiss.',8,1,575),(13243,'I told them how a kiss feels',9,1,575),(13244,'when it’s especially undeserved;',10,1,575),(13245,'I thought they’d understand.',11,1,575),(13246,'They wanted me to say I was sorry,',12,1,575),(13247,'so I told them I was sorry.',13,1,575),(13248,'They didn’t like it that I laughed.',14,1,575),(13249,'They asked what I’d seen them do,',15,1,575),(13250,'and what I do with what I know.',16,1,575),(13251,'I told them: find out who you are',17,1,575),(13252,'before you die.',18,1,575),(13253,'Tell us, they insisted, what you saw.',19,1,575),(13254,'I saw the hawk kill a smaller bird.',20,1,575),(13255,'I said life is one long leavetaking.',21,1,575),(13256,'They wanted me to speak',22,1,575),(13257,'like a journalist. I’ll try, I said.',23,1,575),(13258,'I told them I could depict the end',24,1,575),(13259,'of the world, and my hand wouldn’t tremble.',25,1,575),(13260,'I said nothing’s serious except destruction.',26,1,575),(13261,'They wanted to help me then.',27,1,575),(13262,'They wanted me to share with them,',28,1,575),(13263,'that was the word they used, share.',29,1,575),(13264,'I said it’s bad taste',30,1,575),(13265,'to want to agree with many people.',31,1,575),(13266,'I told them I’ve tried to give',32,1,575),(13267,'as often as I’ve betrayed.',33,1,575),(13268,'They wanted to know my superiors,',34,1,575),(13269,'to whom did I report?',35,1,575),(13270,'I told them I accounted to no one,',36,1,575),(13271,'that each of us is his own punishment.',37,1,575),(13272,'If I love you, one of them cried out,',38,1,575),(13273,'what would you give up?',39,1,575),(13274,'There were others before you,',40,1,575),(13275,'I wanted to say, and you’d be the one',41,1,575),(13276,'before someone else. Everything, I said.',42,1,575),(13277,'I.',1,1,576),(13278,'You have only these hours and days.',2,1,576),(13279,'II.',3,2,576),(13280,'When you accept them,',4,2,576),(13281,'you have no need of',5,2,576),(13282,'afterlives or priorlives.',6,2,576),(13283,'You have the single empty box',7,2,576),(13284,'of a life and all the universe',8,2,576),(13285,'to fill it with.',9,2,576),(13286,'III.',10,3,576),(13287,'Live like this: there is an end to you.',11,3,576),(13288,'Don’t fear it. Don’t wallow.',12,3,576),(13289,'Flowers wilt. Rivers dry up.',13,3,576),(13290,'Even the stars extinguish themselves.',14,3,576),(13291,'Have your time and then let it go.',15,3,576),(13292,'IV.',16,4,576),(13293,'Do not shy from your ending',17,4,576),(13294,'with mad horse eyes.',18,4,576),(13295,'V.',19,5,576),(13296,'Allow the box of your life,',20,5,576),(13297,'when you have filled it,',21,5,576),(13298,'to have its spaces.',22,5,576),(13299,'Resist the temptation',23,5,576),(13300,'to stuff the gaps with gods',24,5,576),(13301,'who do not know you.',25,5,576),(13302,'VI.',26,6,576),(13303,'Pull Uncertainty into your arms',27,6,576),(13304,'and kiss her on the lips:',28,6,576),(13305,'too many neglect her,',29,6,576),(13306,'but she is an eager lover,',30,6,576),(13307,'and desires only your attention.',31,6,576),(13308,'Let her teach you how to say',32,6,576),(13309,'“I don’t know, and that is beautiful.”',33,6,576),(13310,'VII.',34,7,576),(13311,'You have only these minutes and years.',35,7,576),(13312,'We stopped at perfect days',1,1,577),(13313,'and got out of the car.',2,1,577),(13314,'The wind glanced at her hair.',3,1,577),(13315,'It was as simple as that.',4,1,577),(13316,'I turned to say something—',5,1,577),(13317,'She is sixty. She lives',1,1,578),(13318,'the greatest love of her life.',2,1,578),(13319,'She walks arm-in-arm with her dear one,',3,2,578),(13320,'her hair streams in the wind.',4,2,578),(13321,'Her dear one says:',5,2,578),(13322,'“You have hair like pearls.”',6,2,578),(13323,'Her children say:',7,3,578),(13324,'“Old fool.”',8,3,578),(13325,'Someone was saying',1,1,579),(13326,'something about shadows covering the field, about',2,1,579),(13327,'how things pass, how one sleeps towards morning',3,1,579),(13328,'and the morning goes.',4,1,579),(13329,'Someone was saying',5,2,579),(13330,'how the wind dies down but comes back,',6,2,579),(13331,'how shells are the coffins of wind',7,2,579),(13332,'but the weather continues.',8,2,579),(13333,'It was a long night',9,3,579),(13334,'and someone said something about the moon shedding its white',10,3,579),(13335,'on the cold field, that there was nothing ahead',11,3,579),(13336,'but more of the same.',12,3,579),(13337,'Someone mentioned',13,4,579),(13338,'a city she had been in before the war, a room with two candles',14,4,579),(13339,'against a wall, someone dancing, someone watching.',15,4,579),(13340,'We begin to believe',16,4,579),(13341,'the night would not end.',17,5,579),(13342,'Someone was saying the music was over and no one had noticed.',18,5,579),(13343,'Then someone said something about the planets, about the stars,',19,5,579),(13344,'how small they were, how far away.',20,5,579),(13345,'Mondays are meshed with Tuesdays',1,1,580),(13346,'and the week with the whole year.',2,1,580),(13347,'Time cannot be cut',3,1,580),(13348,'with your weary scissors,',4,1,580),(13349,'and all the names of the day',5,1,580),(13350,'are washed out by the waters of night.',6,1,580),(13351,'No one can claim the name of Pedro,',7,2,580),(13352,'nobody is Rosa or Maria,',8,2,580),(13353,'all of us are dust or sand,',9,2,580),(13354,'all of us are rain under rain.',10,2,580),(13355,'They have spoken to me of Venezuelas,',11,2,580),(13356,'of Chiles and of Paraguays;',12,2,580),(13357,'I have no idea what they are saying.',13,2,580),(13358,'I know only the skin of the earth',14,2,580),(13359,'and I know it is without a name.',15,2,580),(13360,'When I lived amongst the roots',16,3,580),(13361,'they pleased me more than flowers did,',17,3,580),(13362,'and when I spoke to a stone',18,3,580),(13363,'it rang like a bell.',19,3,580),(13364,'It is so long, the spring',20,4,580),(13365,'which goes on all winter.',21,4,580),(13366,'Time lost its shoes.',22,4,580),(13367,'A year is four centuries.',23,4,580),(13368,'When I sleep every night,',24,5,580),(13369,'what am I called or not called?',25,5,580),(13370,'And when I wake, who am I',26,5,580),(13371,'if I was not while I slept?',27,5,580),(13372,'This means to say that scarcely',28,6,580),(13373,'have we landed into life',29,6,580),(13374,'than we come as if new-born;',30,6,580),(13375,'let us not fill our mouths',31,6,580),(13376,'with so many faltering names,',32,6,580),(13377,'with so many sad formallities,',33,6,580),(13378,'with so many pompous letters,',34,6,580),(13379,'with so much of yours and mine,',35,6,580),(13380,'with so much of signing of papers.',36,6,580),(13381,'I have a mind to confuse things,',37,7,580),(13382,'unite them, bring them to birth,',38,7,580),(13383,'mix them up, undress them,',39,7,580),(13384,'until the light of the world',40,7,580),(13385,'has the oneness of the ocean,',41,7,580),(13386,'a generous, vast wholeness,',42,7,580),(13387,'a crepitant fragrance.',43,7,580),(13388,'It is more onerous',1,1,581),(13389,'than the rites of beauty',2,1,581),(13390,'or housework, harder than love.',3,1,581),(13391,'But you expect it of me casually,',4,1,581),(13392,'the way you expect the sun',5,1,581),(13393,'to come up, not in spite of rain',6,1,581),(13394,'or clouds but because of them.',7,1,581),(13395,'And so I smile, as if my own fidelity',8,2,581),(13396,'to sadness were a hidden vice—',9,2,581),(13397,'that downward tug on my mouth,',10,2,581),(13398,'my old suspicion that health',11,2,581),(13399,'and love are brief irrelevancies,',12,2,581),(13400,'no more than laughter in the warm dark',13,2,581),(13401,'strangled at dawn.',14,2,581),(13402,'Happiness. I try to hoist it',15,3,581),(13403,'on my narrow shoulders again—',16,3,581),(13404,'a knapsack heavy with gold coins.',17,3,581),(13405,'I stumble around the house,',18,3,581),(13406,'bump into things.',19,3,581),(13407,'Only Midas himself',20,3,581),(13408,'would understand.',21,3,581),(13409,'and then Tony showed us the lake',1,1,582),(13410,'where he had thrown some of his sadness last summer',2,1,582),(13411,'and it had dissolved like powder',3,1,582),(13412,'so he thought maybe the lake could take',4,1,582),(13413,'some of the radiant, aluminum kind',5,1,582),(13414,'he had been making lately.',6,1,582),(13415,'And it did.',7,1,582),(13416,'It was a perfect lake,',8,1,582),(13417,'none of the paint had chipped off,',9,1,582),(13418,'no bolts showing, the arms that Dante',10,1,582),(13419,'and Virgil would have to hack through',11,1,582),(13420,'not even breaking the surface.',12,1,582),(13421,'Mumbling Italian to itself,',13,1,582),(13422,'it had climbed down two wooden stairs',14,1,582),(13423,'back to the beach now that the rains were done.',15,1,582),(13424,'How strange to be water so close to the ocean',16,1,582),(13425,'yet the only other water you get to talk to',17,1,582),(13426,'comes from the sky. Maybe this is why',18,1,582),(13427,'it seems so willing to take on',19,1,582),(13428,'Tony’s sadness which sometimes corrodes',20,1,582),(13429,'his friends, which is really',21,1,582),(13430,'many different sadnesses, smaller',22,1,582),(13431,'and smaller, surrounded by more',23,1,582),(13432,'and more space, each a world and',24,1,582),(13433,'at its core an engine like a bee',25,1,582),(13434,'inside a lily, like buzzing inside',26,1,582),(13435,'the bee. It seems like nothing',27,1,582),(13436,'could change its color although',28,1,582),(13437,'we couldn’t tell what color it was,',29,1,582),(13438,'it kept changing. In the summer,',30,1,582),(13439,'Tony says he comes down early each day',31,1,582),(13440,'and there’s no one around so the lake',32,1,582),(13441,'barely says a thing when he dives in',33,1,582),(13442,'and once when his kitchen was on fire in Maine',34,1,582),(13443,'and he was asleep, the lake came and bit his hand,',35,1,582),(13444,'trying to drag him to safety',36,1,582),(13445,'and some nights in New Mexico,',37,1,582),(13446,'he can hear it howling,',38,1,582),(13447,'searching for him in the desert',39,1,582),(13448,'so we’re glad Tony has this lake',40,1,582),(13449,'and we promise to come back in August',41,1,582),(13450,'and swim with him across,',42,1,582),(13451,'maybe even race.',43,1,582),(13452,'Maybe you need to write a poem about grace.',1,1,583),(13453,'When everything broken is broken,',2,2,583),(13454,'and everything dead is dead,',3,2,583),(13455,'and the hero has looked into the mirror with complete contempt,',4,2,583),(13456,'and the heroine has studied her face and its defects',5,2,583),(13457,'remorselessly, and the pain they thought might,',6,2,583),(13458,'as a token of their earnestness, release them from themselves',7,2,583),(13459,'has lost its novelty and not released them,',8,2,583),(13460,'and they have begun to think, kindly and distantly,',9,2,583),(13461,'watching the others go about their days—',10,2,583),(13462,'likes and dislikes, reasons, habits, fears—',11,2,583),(13463,'that self-love is the one weedy stalk',12,2,583),(13464,'of every human blossoming, and understood,',13,2,583),(13465,'therefore, why they had been, all their lives,',14,2,583),(13466,'in such a fury to defend it, and that no one—',15,2,583),(13467,'except some almost inconceivable saint in his pool',16,2,583),(13468,'of poverty and silence—can escape this violent, automatic',17,2,583),(13469,'life’s companion ever, maybe then, ordinary light,',18,2,583),(13470,'faint music under things, a hovering like grace appears.',19,2,583),(13471,'As in the story a friend told once about the time',20,3,583),(13472,'he tried to kill himself. His girl had left him.',21,3,583),(13473,'Bees in the heart, then scorpions, maggots, and then ash.',22,3,583),(13474,'He climbed onto the jumping girder of the bridge,',23,3,583),(13475,'the bay side, a blue, lucid afternoon.',24,3,583),(13476,'And in the salt air he thought about the word “seafood,”',25,3,583),(13477,'that there was something faintly ridiculous about it.',26,3,583),(13478,'No one said “landfood.” He thought it was degrading to the rainbow',27,3,583),(13479,'perch',28,3,583),(13480,'he’d reeled in gleaming from the cliffs, the black rockbass,',29,3,583),(13481,'scales like polished carbon, in beds of kelp',30,3,583),(13482,'along the coast—and he realized that the reason for the word',31,3,583),(13483,'was crabs, or mussels, clams. Otherwise',32,3,583),(13484,'the restaurants could just put “fish” up on their signs,',33,3,583),(13485,'and when he woke—he’d slept for hours, curled up',34,3,583),(13486,'on the girder like a child—the sun was going down',35,3,583),(13487,'and he felt a little better, and afraid. He put on the jacket',36,3,583),(13488,'he’d used for a pillow, climbed over the railing',37,3,583),(13489,'carefully, and drove home to an empty house.',38,3,583),(13490,'There was a pair of her lemon yellow panties',39,4,583),(13491,'hanging on a doorknob. He studied them. Much-washed.',40,4,583),(13492,'A faint russet in the crotch that made him sick',41,4,583),(13493,'with rage and grief. He knew more or less',42,4,583),(13494,'where she was. A flat somewhere on Russian Hill.',43,4,583),(13495,'They’d have just finished making love. She’d have tears',44,4,583),(13496,'in her eyes and touch his jawbone gratefully. “God,”',45,4,583),(13497,'she’d say, “you are so good for me.” Winking lights,',46,4,583),(13498,'a foggy view downhill toward the harbor and the bay.',47,4,583),(13499,'“You’re sad,” he’d say. “Yes.” “Thinking about Nick?”',48,4,583),(13500,'“Yes,” she’d say and cry. “I tried so hard,” sobbing now,',49,4,583),(13501,'“I really tried so hard.” And then he’d hold her for a while—',50,4,583),(13502,'Guatemalan weavings from his fieldwork on the wall—',51,4,583),(13503,'and then they’d fuck again, and she would cry some more,',52,4,583),(13504,'and go to sleep.',53,4,583),(13505,'And he, he would play that scene',54,4,583),(13506,'once only, once and a half, and tell himself',55,4,583),(13507,'that he was going to carry it for a very long time',56,4,583),(13508,'and that there was nothing he could do',57,4,583),(13509,'but carry it. He went out onto the porch, and listened',58,4,583),(13510,'to the forest in the summer dark, madrone bark',59,4,583),(13511,'cracking and curling as the cold came up.',60,4,583),(13512,'It’s not the story though, not the friend',61,5,583),(13513,'leaning toward you, saying “And then I realized—,”',62,5,583),(13514,'which is the part of stories one never quite believes.',63,5,583),(13515,'I had the idea that the world’s so full of pain',64,5,583),(13516,'it must sometimes make a kind of singing.',65,5,583),(13517,'And that the sequence helps, as much as order helps—',66,5,583),(13518,'First an ego, and then pain, and then the singing.',67,5,583),(13519,'Roselva says the only thing that doesn’t change',1,1,584),(13520,'is train tracks. She’s sure of it.',2,1,584),(13521,'The train changes, or the weeds that grow up spidery',3,1,584),(13522,'by the side, but not the tracks.',4,1,584),(13523,'I’ve watched one for three years, she says,',5,1,584),(13524,'and it doesn’t curve, doesn’t break, doesn’t grow.',6,1,584),(13525,'Peter isn’t sure. He saw an abandoned track',7,2,584),(13526,'near Sabinas, Mexico, and says a track without a train',8,2,584),(13527,'is a changed track. The metal wasn’t shiny anymore.',9,2,584),(13528,'The wood was split and some of the ties were gone.',10,2,584),(13529,'Every Tuesday on Morales Street',11,3,584),(13530,'butchers crack the necks of a hundred hens.',12,3,584),(13531,'The widow in the tilted house',13,3,584),(13532,'spices her soup with cinnamon.',14,3,584),(13533,'Ask her what doesn’t change.',15,3,584),(13534,'Stars explode.',16,4,584),(13535,'The rose curls up as if there is fire in the petals.',17,4,584),(13536,'The cat who knew me is buried under the bush.',18,4,584),(13537,'The train whistle still wails its ancient sound',19,5,584),(13538,'but when it goes away, shrinking back',20,5,584),(13539,'from the walls of the brain,',21,5,584),(13540,'it takes something different with it every time.',22,5,584),(13541,'Isn’t the moon dark too,',1,1,585),(13542,'most of the time?',2,1,585),(13543,'And doesn’t the white page',3,2,585),(13544,'seem unfinished',4,2,585),(13545,'without the dark stain',5,3,585),(13546,'of alphabets?',6,3,585),(13547,'When God demanded light,',7,4,585),(13548,'he didn’t banish darkness.',8,4,585),(13549,'Instead he invented',9,5,585),(13550,'ebony and crows',10,5,585),(13551,'and that small mole',11,6,585),(13552,'on your left cheekbone.',12,6,585),(13553,'Or did you mean to ask',13,7,585),(13554,'“Why are you sad so often?”',14,7,585),(13555,'Ask the moon.',15,8,585),(13556,'Ask what it has witnessed.',16,8,585),(13557,'Must I, in this question I am asking, include myself',1,1,586),(13558,'Asking it? Must I include my face—',2,1,586),(13559,'My face that I cannot see—through which I speak',3,1,586),(13560,'This question about my eyes, about the field',4,1,586),(13561,'Of vision, in which my hands press down these letters',5,1,586),(13562,'Unattached to my arms? The sunlight',6,1,586),(13563,'Comes in the window and lights up my hands',7,1,586),(13564,'As they work. The world is not being kind',8,1,586),(13565,'But there is the sensation of kindness.',9,1,586),(13566,'There is an appeal to a rule when we realize a term',10,1,586),(13567,'Behaves uncomfortably. God falls down',11,1,586),(13568,'Into grammar and says I am but the words are spoken',12,1,586),(13569,'From a bush on fire. God is included in this grammar',13,1,586),(13570,'Philosophy offers to the fly stuck in the bottle—',14,1,586),(13571,'There it is on the table, walking in circles within the empty',15,1,586),(13572,'Bottle, pausing only to rub its forelegs together,',16,1,586),(13573,'In anticipation or prayer. I remember',17,1,586),(13574,'Walking into the glass-walled museum and seeing myself',18,1,586),(13575,'Reflected in the head and in the belly of the metal rabbit’s',19,1,586),(13576,'Mirror-like skin. This was not long ago, this experience',20,1,586),(13577,'Of the ancient world, reason simultaneous with appetite,',21,1,586),(13578,'Watching myself think, seeing my eyes thinking,',22,1,586),(13579,'My body a body that contained this thinking',23,1,586),(13580,'That I write in the margins of the books I read, a script',24,1,586),(13581,'That over time appears less legible, a form',25,1,586),(13582,'Of cuneiform I cannot read myself what I wrote',26,1,586),(13583,'In the margins. There is a fragment that floats in the air',27,1,586),(13584,'Floating in my mind, spoken by a voice not mine:',28,1,586),(13585,'To study circumcises the heart and calms,',29,1,586),(13586,'The book steadies the heart [many words are missing Or illegible] if not, to turn away,',30,1,586),(13587,'Fire courses through the veins [many words are Missing or illegible] then',31,1,586),(13588,'Anger, anger. Leaning back in the tall grass,',32,1,586),(13589,'Putting my book aside, my toe covers the sun.',33,1,586),(13590,'I am imagining this world but I’m inviting you in',34,1,586),(13591,'So I can join you. In the old language, the language',35,1,586),(13592,'No one ever spoke, the language whose words',36,1,586),(13593,'In the scholarly papers are marked by stars,',37,1,586),(13594,'Asterisks that say this word exists by not existing,',38,1,586),(13595,'The imaginary root pushing down from the sky',39,1,586),(13596,'Into our heads, the root of the tongue;',40,1,586),(13597,'In this language “I” meant “here,” it did not mean “me,”',41,1,586),(13598,'It meant a location in which this body I am',42,1,586),(13599,'Was not an expression of love but a word of',43,1,586),(13600,'Presence. Here I am. Voice in a boundary.',44,1,586),(13601,'In this place I am I once had a dream.',45,1,586),(13602,'Cylindrical seals rolled across the earth',46,1,586),(13603,'Printing in the mud the image of a woman braiding',47,1,586),(13604,'Her hair was loose and then her hair was bound.',48,1,586),(13605,'These roads end at the horizon where I also end,',49,1,586),(13606,'Present in this world as the alphabet is present',50,1,586),(13607,'In this poem. *I. *I. Sometimes *I like to stutter.',51,1,586),(13608,'*I like to think the sky is blue. *I see sometimes it’s red.',52,1,586),(13609,'More soon on the nature of impossible constructions.',53,1,586),(13610,'The man in the moon. The sea rose. The living room.',54,1,586),(13611,'You turn towards meteor showers in August,',1,1,587),(13612,'wishing yourself like that:',2,1,587),(13613,'bright and burning wholly out.',3,1,587),(13614,'When feeling finally comes it is',4,1,587),(13615,'that falling, matter breaking away',5,1,587),(13616,'from air, the sound',6,1,587),(13617,'of crickets moving through the grass like fire—',7,1,587),(13618,'and the strangely twisted metal',8,1,587),(13619,'in the field that a child finds:',9,1,587),(13620,'residue, crown.',10,1,587),(13621,'Then there’s the story of the Chinese sage,',11,1,587),(13622,'in anger and despair, who cut his body away in pieces,',12,1,587),(13623,'flung them into the lake.',13,1,587),(13624,'Each one, becoming finned and whole, swims off.',14,1,587),(13625,'It’s four o’clock in the afternoon,',1,1,588),(13626,'and it is finished;',2,1,588),(13627,'I sit back and light my cigarette',3,1,588),(13628,'on a ray of dusk.',4,1,588),(13629,'I don’t want to write anymore.',5,1,588),(13630,'All I want to do is smoke.',6,1,588),(13631,'I have no illusions.',1,1,589),(13632,'When I roll towards you at dawn,',2,1,589),(13633,'I can’t see you in the fog.',3,1,589),(13634,'We’ve simply memorized each other.',4,1,589),(13635,'I read a story about a giant',5,1,589),(13636,'who couldn’t see his tiny wife',6,1,589),(13637,'for all the clouds',7,1,589),(13638,'drifting around his huge, sad head.',8,1,589),(13639,'He’d stroke the tops of fir trees',9,1,589),(13640,'thinking he’d found her hair.',10,1,589),(13641,'In another version, his wife',11,1,589),(13642,'turned into an egret,',12,1,589),(13643,'her strong wings',13,1,589),(13644,'brushing her husband’s face;',14,1,589),(13645,'then she fell into the sea',15,1,589),(13646,'weighted down by his immense tear.',16,1,589),(13647,'Let me tell you this:',17,1,589),(13648,'I miss your shadow, too,',18,1,589),(13649,'but I know it waits above the fog',19,1,589),(13650,'black as the shadow of the oak',20,1,589),(13651,'you saw in your dream',21,1,589),(13652,'when you woke up, almost happy.',22,1,589),(13653,'I know our town’s invisible.',23,1,589),(13654,'The pilots on the way to Alaska',24,1,589),(13655,'think they’re over the sea.',25,1,589),(13656,'Even if they glimpsed a light',26,1,589),(13657,'through a rift in the clouds',27,1,589),(13658,'they’d call it a ship',28,1,589),(13659,'loaded with timber for the south.',29,1,589),(13660,'Still, I hear those planes.',30,1,589),(13661,'Last night on the satellite map',31,1,589),(13662,'I saw land without clouds.',32,1,589),(13663,'Remember, I groped for your hand.',33,1,589),(13664,'Suppose the men go barefoot?',34,1,589),(13665,'Suppose the women own fans?',35,1,589),(13666,'Nothing in the cry',1,1,590),(13667,'of cicadas suggests they',2,1,590),(13668,'are about to die',3,1,590),(13669,'I was fifty-three this morning,',1,1,591),(13670,'But I feel so much older now,',2,1,591),(13671,'Having lived a lifetime in a day.',3,1,591),(13672,'It started like a thousand others,',4,2,591),(13673,'Time suddenly skipped a track,',5,2,591),(13674,'Everyone I know is dead and gone—',6,2,591),(13675,'I didn’t even get to say goodbye.',7,3,591),(13676,'I never knew that time was precious,',8,3,591),(13677,'This morning was a hundred years ago.',9,3,591),(13678,'She tells her love while half asleep,',1,1,592),(13679,'In the dark hours,',2,1,592),(13680,'With half words whispered low:',3,1,592),(13681,'As earth stirs in her winter sleep',4,1,592),(13682,'And puts out grass and flowers',5,1,592),(13683,'Despite the snow,',6,1,592),(13684,'Despite the falling snow.',7,1,592),(13685,'Nothing on earth',1,1,593),(13686,'can last forever.',2,1,593),(13687,'It’s become an art:',3,1,593),(13688,'rain and the river',4,1,593),(13689,'cut cliffs. Cold swings;',5,2,593),(13690,'leaves fall with fervor.',6,2,593),(13691,'Birds molt: their wings',7,2,593),(13692,'lost feather by feather.',8,2,593),(13693,'By increments,',9,3,593),(13694,'tides slink like fever',10,3,593),(13695,'from shore. Immense,',11,3,593),(13696,'they drift out further.',12,3,593),(13697,'So, when she leaves,',13,4,593),(13698,'the world’s small favor:',14,4,593),(13699,'I’ll forget, by degrees—',15,4,593),(13700,'if over and over.',16,4,593),(13701,'What birds plunge through is not the intimate space',1,1,594),(13702,'in which you see all forms intensified.',2,1,594),(13703,'(Out in the Open, you would be denied',3,1,594),(13704,'your self, would disappear into that vastness.)',4,1,594),(13705,'Space reaches from us and construes the world:',5,2,594),(13706,'to know a tree, in its true element,',6,2,594),(13707,'throw inner space around it, from that pure',7,2,594),(13708,'abundance in you. Surround it with restraint.',8,2,594),(13709,'It has no limits. Not till it is held',9,2,594),(13710,'in your renouncing is it truly there.',10,2,594),(13711,'How on earth did it happen, I used to wonder',1,1,595),(13712,'that a whole city—arches, pillars, colonnades,',2,1,595),(13713,'not to mention vehicles and animals—had all',3,1,595),(13714,'one fine day gone under?',4,1,595),(13715,'I mean, I said to myself, the world was small then.',5,2,595),(13716,'Surely a great city must have been missed?',6,2,595),(13717,'I miss our old city—',7,2,595),(13718,'white pepper, white pudding, you and I meeting',8,3,595),(13719,'under fanlights and low skies to go home in it. Maybe',9,3,595),(13720,'what really happened is',10,3,595),(13721,'this: the old fable-makers searched hard for a word',11,4,595),(13722,'to convey that what is gone is gone forever and',12,4,595),(13723,'never found it. And so, in the best traditions of',13,4,595),(13724,'where we come from, they gave their sorrow a name',14,5,595),(13725,'and drowned it.',15,5,595),(13726,'Was it for this I uttered prayers,',1,1,596),(13727,'And sobbed and cursed and kicked the stairs,',2,1,596),(13728,'That now, domestic as a plate,',3,1,596),(13729,'I should retire at half-past eight?',4,1,596),(13730,'Today when I woke',1,1,597),(13731,'you were gone',2,1,597),(13732,'and I',3,1,597),(13733,'was like a salesman',4,1,597),(13734,'in a small-town hotel room',5,1,597),(13735,'drunk on loneliness',6,1,597),(13736,'and listening to laughter',7,1,597),(13737,'next door',8,1,597),(13738,'and I was',9,1,597),(13739,'a boy scout marooned',10,1,597),(13740,'in a dry-rotted cabin',11,1,597),(13741,'by the greatest snowstorm',12,1,597),(13742,'even seen in northern Vermont',13,1,597),(13743,'listening to strange birds',14,1,597),(13744,'scratching the roof',15,1,597),(13745,'and I was',16,1,597),(13746,'a man coming home',17,1,597),(13747,'to his house full of children',18,1,597),(13748,'and finding nothing there',19,1,597),(13749,'but the echoes of his scream.',20,1,597),(13750,'I am going out now',21,2,597),(13751,'to look at',22,2,597),(13752,'the green ducks',23,2,597),(13753,'paddle nowhere',24,2,597),(13754,'on the river',25,2,597),(13755,'but if you should return',26,2,597),(13756,'while I’m out marking time',27,2,597),(13757,'this is to tell you',28,2,597),(13758,'I’m home.',29,2,597),(13759,'It’s a kitchen. Its curtains fill',1,1,598),(13760,'with a morning light so bright',2,1,598),(13761,'you can’t see beyond its windows',3,1,598),(13762,'into the afternoon. A kitchen',4,1,598),(13763,'falling through time with its things',5,1,598),(13764,'in their places, the dishes jingling',6,1,598),(13765,'up in the cupboard, the bucket',7,1,598),(13766,'of drinking water rippled as if',8,1,598),(13767,'a truck had just gone past, but that truck',9,1,598),(13768,'was thirty years. No one’s at home',10,1,598),(13769,'in this room. Its counter is wiped,',11,1,598),(13770,'and the dishrag hangs from its nail,',12,1,598),(13771,'a dry leaf. In housedresses of mist,',13,1,598),(13772,'blue aprons of rain, my grandmother',14,1,598),(13773,'moved through this life like a ghost,',15,1,598),(13774,'and when she had finished her years,',16,1,598),(13775,'she put them all back in their places',17,1,598),(13776,'and wiped out the sink, turning her back',18,1,598),(13777,'on the rest of us, forever.',19,1,598),(13778,'All morning, doing the hard, root-wrestling',1,1,599),(13779,'work of turning a yard from the wild',2,1,599),(13780,'to a gardener’s will, I heard a bird singing',3,1,599),(13781,'from a hidden, though not distant, perch;',4,1,599),(13782,'a song of swift, syncopated syllables sounding',5,1,599),(13783,'like, Can you believe this, believe this, believe? Can you believe this, believe this, believe?',6,1,599),(13784,'And all morning, I did believe. All morning,',7,1,599),(13785,'between break-even bouts with the unwanted,',8,1,599),(13786,'I wanted to see that bird, and looked up so',9,1,599),(13787,'I might later recognize it in a guide, and know',10,1,599),(13788,'and call its name, but even more, I wanted',11,1,599),(13789,'to join its church. For all morning, and many',12,1,599),(13790,'a time in my life, I have wondered who, beyond',13,1,599),(13791,'this plot I work, has called the order of being,',14,1,599),(13792,'that givers of food are deemed lesser',15,1,599),(13793,'than are the receivers. All morning,',16,1,599),(13794,'muscling my will against that of the wild,',17,1,599),(13795,'to claim a place in the bounty of earth,',18,1,599),(13796,'seed, root, sun and rain, I offered my labor',19,1,599),(13797,'as a kind of grace, and gave thanks even',20,1,599),(13798,'for the aching in my body, which reached',21,1,599),(13799,'beyond this work and this gift of struggle.',22,1,599),(13800,'Your body, hard vowels',1,1,600),(13801,'In a soft dress, is still.',2,1,600),(13802,'What you can’t know',3,2,600),(13803,'is that after you died',4,2,600),(13804,'All the black poets',5,2,600),(13805,'In New York City',6,2,600),(13806,'Took a deep breath,',7,2,600),(13807,'And breathed you out;',8,2,600),(13808,'Dark corners of small clubs,',9,2,600),(13809,'The silence you left twitching',10,2,600),(13810,'On the floors of the gigs',11,3,600),(13811,'You turned your back on,',12,3,600),(13812,'The balled-up fists of notes',13,3,600),(13813,'Flung, angry from a keyboard.',14,3,600),(13814,'You won’t be able to hear us',15,4,600),(13815,'Try to etch what rose',16,4,600),(13816,'Off your eyes, from your throat.',17,4,600),(13817,'Out you bleed, not as sweet, or sweaty,',18,5,600),(13818,'Through our dark fingertips.',19,5,600),(13819,'We drum rest',20,5,600),(13820,'We drum thank you',21,5,600),(13821,'We drum stay.',22,5,600),(13822,'Oh, when I was in love with you,',1,1,601),(13823,'Then I was clean and brave,',2,1,601),(13824,'And miles around the wonder grew',3,1,601),(13825,'How well did I behave.',4,1,601),(13826,'And now the fancy passes by,',5,2,601),(13827,'And nothing will remain,',6,2,601),(13828,'And miles around they’ll say that I',7,2,601),(13829,'Am quite myself again.',8,2,601),(13830,'1.',1,1,602),(13831,'You could say I grew up in a rough neighborhood: We owned boxing gloves. The red ones I loved, which represented fire and strength. I loved how they looked on me. It was rough because my uncle who lived next door was a blackbelter, and we were born with fists. My brother would wear black gloves and my uncle would be the referee of the two of us. When the fighting went on, we would hide love the best way we could. Everyday it was morning. The chickens my other uncle owned — he also lived next door — would flit and putter in their cage as they watched us step into and out of each other. The chickens had feathers so white you’d think heaven was caged with chicken wire. But they were delicious when cooked. Especially with butter, and with much care.',2,2,602),(13832,'2.',3,3,602),(13833,'The world is incomplete.',4,4,602),(13834,'3.',5,5,602),(13835,'I doubt goodness. For instance, I lost my virginity to a prostitute. My nature is to increase sin, to relegate/buy it with money. I am not capable of committing evil by myself: I need an agent. She was pretending to enjoy it, and I was pretending to enjoy it. We both lied about our age. She had hair down to her hips. I was once, you know, a child.',6,6,602),(13836,'4.',7,7,602),(13837,'I will make a list of things I know:',8,8,602),(13838,'1) A leaf is green.',9,8,602),(13839,'2) A leaf is black at night.',10,8,602),(13840,'5.',11,9,602),(13841,'According to its dual nature, light can also act as a particle. Seeing an object (a chair, table, or person) requires that we move it with the solid particles of light that make sight possible, much the same way that one billiard ball will push another. In other words, we move all objects to some unknown future so we can see their past. (I know this. I was a scientist in my past life.)',12,10,602),(13842,'Conclusion: Nobody knows what’s happening now. The present is a rumor, a story spread by eye.',13,11,602),(13843,'Said Werner Heisenberg of the subatomic particle: “The more precisely the position is determined, the less precisely the momentum is known in this instant, and vice versa.” To illustrate in bigger terms: if you know a white chicken is trapped in your bathroom exactly at the center of your bathtub, then you cannot know exactly how fast or in what direction the chicken is dodging your ax. The second case: if you know a certain girl is drawing away from you radially at a speed of 5 inches per day, then the universe won’t allow you to know exactly how far away she already is, or how to find her. (I know this. I was a scientist in my past life.)',14,12,602),(13844,'Conclusion: Separation can’t be predicted. We cannot know, even by force. We cannot keep.',15,13,602),(13845,'6.',16,14,602),(13846,'The history of my body: this little nose I got from my mother, this daffy hair from my father, and my blue eyes I inherited from the sea. The earth bequeathed me brown skin. Look at my feet: tree roots. And my arms: branches. Twenty years ago there was only air where I am. Fifty years from now, air again.',17,15,602),(13847,'7.',18,16,602),(13848,'My family is crazy about white dogs. Our first one got ill and died. The second (named Petite) died giving birth. The third (Bingo) ran away. What I really mean: my family is crazy. Mother said Petite couldn’t give birth because her babies were too big for her. I think it was because we didn’t call a veterinarian. In any case, it was sad. We ate ice cream afterwards. It was delicious. Then it was okay again.',19,17,602),(13849,'You see, years before he ran away, Bingo was a puppy. Then he got older, and as was our nature, we tried to avoid his ugliness by ignoring him. There was less petting going on, less tail-wagging. And we locked him up in our backyard for three years.',20,18,602),(13850,'When he ran away, the dogs from all over barked at hm because they didn’t know he existed until then. He was always there and nobody knew except us. Everywhere he was lost.',21,19,602),(13851,'We scoured the streets calling his name. We asked strangers. It was a time when words lost their connections to their referents. I remember sitting at our door-sill, waiting for any shuffle of feet, any bark.',22,20,602),(13852,'8.',23,21,602),(13853,'I believe, sometimes, that I am a good man.',24,22,602),(13854,'9.',25,23,602),(13855,'I remember',26,24,602),(13856,'looking at trees.',27,24,602),(13857,'I remember',28,25,602),(13858,'Not looking at trees.',29,25,602),(13859,'10.',30,26,602),(13860,'In this world there are two types of things that make people happy: the first type pleasures the self directly (e.g., food, sex), while the second pleasures the self only after directing pleasure to others (e.g., clothes, shoes). The first gives solitary joy, the second social. There are exceptions — items that belong to both lists (e.g., beauty) or to none. This is only my observation.',31,27,602),(13861,'To illustrate beauty: the size of my sex, at rest, is x inches. In the presence of a beautiful woman, longer (beauty elongates matter to fullness). The woman, in turn, now conscious of her erotic effect, will surprise herself with a sudden flush of happiness in the form of two hard nipples, pink like sunrise.',32,28,602),(13862,'Another observation: a recluse is selfish with his joy, without care for clothes or shoes.',33,29,602),(13863,'Another observation: dust collects itself out of nowhere.',34,30,602),(13864,'11.',35,31,602),(13865,'The history of my spirit: I don’t have a spirit, and borrow only from the air.',36,32,602),(13866,'12.',37,33,602),(13867,'The earth accommodates 6,398,649,394 human beings on 148,380,000 square kilometers of land. If these people were spread equally, there’d be a distance of 152.279 meters between each of them, give or take some. This is the average amount of solitude the world allows by distance. When a person dies, everyone in the world is allowed more remove from everyone else. Thus, the resultant sadness. When a person is born, everybody is closer to everybody else.',38,34,602),(13868,'“I am waiting only for death,” said my grandmother one late afternoon in June.',39,35,602),(13869,'I said to myself: “So this is the world.”',40,36,602),(13870,'Some people are born diabetic: my grandmother hid chocolates in her purse and ate them when nobody was looking. The church, in the person of the priest, visited her every week. And the TV was always on. Once she thought aliens were invading the earth. It was a movie. She was really scared.',41,37,602),(13871,'I said to myself: “So this is the world.”',42,38,602),(13872,'13.',43,39,602),(13873,'I will make a list of things I don’t know:',44,40,602),(13874,'1) God’s first name',45,40,602),(13875,'2) The color of a leaf',46,40,602),(13876,'14.',47,41,602),(13877,'In 1982 my mother was rivetingly beautiful. She had hair down to her hips. And red lips, too — a cunning innocence. But in the 1970s her pictures were black-and-whites only, and the sky was the color of a lie. I have asked myself many times: How many colors did she need to believe in the world? How many to reproduce beauty? How many so it can last?',48,42,602),(13878,'15.',49,43,602),(13879,'Said Gandhi: “If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide.”',50,44,602),(13880,'I will be honest: I am a very funny person sometimes.',51,45,602),(13881,'16.',52,46,602),(13882,'In my uncle’s backyard where his chickens roamed free, I would search around for eggs. I loved newly laid eggs, especially the little brown ones with white spots. And if I was lucky — they are still warm.',53,47,602),(13883,'Once I find one I would wrap my fingers around it and close my eyes. It was like holding life in your own — hands-your own life. Then I would put the egg back where I found it, and it was over.',54,48,602),(13884,'17.',55,49,602),(13885,'I will be honest: I love the world and I am curiously happy. Nobody knows this because nobody knows. I would tell you about the time I grew my hair past the norm but I don’t remember much about it because it never happened. This is another story. The world is incomplete and in a game of poker I lost all of my body-hair to a monkey. I will be honest: the sun is a flashlight and some divine idiot is checking on us once in a while in this eternal blackout. Watch out for me, my brothers! Before the next war I will be smug in my coffin wearing formal attire. I have been known, you know, to dress up extravagantly for such grand occasions.',56,50,602),(13886,'Stand still. The trees ahead and the bushes beside you',1,1,603),(13887,'Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,',2,1,603),(13888,'And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,',3,1,603),(13889,'Must ask permission to know it and be known.',4,1,603),(13890,'The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,',5,1,603),(13891,'I have made this place around you.',6,1,603),(13892,'If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.',7,1,603),(13893,'No two trees are the same to Raven.',8,1,603),(13894,'No two branches are the same to Wren.',9,1,603),(13895,'If what a tree or bush does is lost on you,',10,1,603),(13896,'You are surely lost. Stand still. The forest knows',11,1,603),(13897,'Where you are. You must let it find you.',12,1,603),(13898,'The talkative guest has gone,',1,1,604),(13899,'and we sit in the yard',2,1,604),(13900,'saying nothing. The slender moon',3,1,604),(13901,'comes over the peak of the barn.',4,1,604),(13902,'The air is damp, and dense',5,2,604),(13903,'with the scent of honeysuckle…',6,2,604),(13904,'The last clever story has been told',7,2,604),(13905,'and answered with laughter.',8,2,604),(13906,'With my sleeping self I met',9,3,604),(13907,'my obligations, but now I am aware',10,3,604),(13908,'of the silence, and your affection,',11,3,604),(13909,'and the delicate sadness of dusk.',12,3,604),(13910,'Your silence is leaning toward judgment.',1,1,605),(13911,'Yesterday I bragged, writing to calm',2,1,605),(13912,'my paranoid friend, that I never assume',3,1,605),(13913,'the worst when my pals don’t write. Now',4,1,605),(13914,'assuming the worst, I think what I must have',5,1,605),(13915,'done, or not done. Surely some recognition',6,1,605),(13916,'will brand the door of my house, or',7,1,605),(13917,'rich attention flutter down.',8,1,605),(13918,'How natural, in silence, to credit delay',9,2,605),(13919,'with intention, like the word oar',10,2,605),(13920,'insisting on water. The need also to',11,2,605),(13921,'advise the self around exaggeration,',12,2,605),(13922,'i.e., “nobody loves me,” because nothing is',13,2,605),(13923,'coming back, and, next to nothing, not',14,2,605),(13924,'to act like a transistor radio left on into',15,2,605),(13925,'the night, voices singing like an ear',16,2,605),(13926,'baffled by the rain, or someone refused',17,2,605),(13927,'because they think so.',18,2,605),(13928,'Those others you loved elsewhere, you miss',19,3,605),(13929,'what they haven’t said. They belong',20,3,605),(13930,'to some permission to go on as more',21,3,605),(13931,'than yourself, a clarity that adds you back',22,3,605),(13932,'to all you cast off, as when',23,3,605),(13933,'you want to be the good light of a lamp',24,3,605),(13934,'scanning the firmament, or rain- its pleasure',25,3,605),(13935,'with an open boat.',26,3,605),(13936,'So what is unanswered keeps you coming back',27,4,605),(13937,'to yourself, telling you what you wanted',28,4,605),(13938,'only when it didn’t come, having now',29,4,605),(13939,'to make up this difference.',30,4,605),(13940,'Even moments you think empty, the world',31,4,605),(13941,'doesn’t stop speaking – the windshield',32,4,605),(13942,'blurred suddenly by a sighting of gravestones,',33,4,605),(13943,'before you are driven',34,4,605),(13944,'through the underpass.',35,4,605),(13945,'What I see now in our snapshots',1,1,606),(13946,'together is the hole in your T-shirt,',2,1,606),(13947,'a torn seam at your left shoulder, dark',3,1,606),(13948,'in the sun. Already up close, you can see',4,1,606),(13949,'the indigo thread coming out, and this is',5,1,606),(13950,'what worries me, how fast a thing',6,1,606),(13951,'unravels. From the loose weave of what',7,1,606),(13952,'covers us, touches our freckled skin, we are',8,1,606),(13953,'open to desire or absence.',9,1,606),(13954,'We count on the way our clothes keep us',10,1,606),(13955,'together, separate and intact,',11,1,606),(13956,'though we know better. We are',12,1,606),(13957,'no closer beneath the careful fabric,',13,1,606),(13958,'the small, easy buttons — only more',14,1,606),(13959,'honest, unyielding, foreign. Nor are we',15,1,606),(13960,'any safer, any more beyond touch',16,1,606),(13961,'across heavy cotton, a white linen sleeve.',17,1,606),(13962,'And if the distance we’ve sewn together',18,1,606),(13963,'is thin, what begins to give',19,1,606),(13964,'has been there all along: always',20,1,606),(13965,'how things come apart into their own',21,1,606),(13966,'basic pieces, all texture and hue of color,',22,1,606),(13967,'all fiber and cut and bone, where',23,1,606),(13968,'we are most ourselves revealed.',24,1,606),(13969,'This time I want to take each unbroken',25,1,606),(13970,'thread between my fingers, worrying it,',26,1,606),(13971,'undoing slowly what I know to follow',27,1,606),(13972,'where it takes me, how it ends.',28,1,606),(13973,'Is that where it happens?',1,1,607),(13974,'Only yesterday when I came back, I had this',2,1,607),(13975,'diaphanous disaffection for this room, for spaces,',3,1,607),(13976,'for the whole sky and whatever lies beyond.',4,1,607),(13977,'I felt the eggplant, then the rhubarb.',5,1,607),(13978,'Nothing seems strong enough for',6,1,607),(13979,'this life to manage, that sees beyond',7,1,607),(13980,'into particles forming some kind of entity?',8,1,607),(13981,'so we get dressed kindly, crazy at the moment.',9,1,607),(13982,'A life of afterwords begins.',10,1,607),(13983,'We never live long enough in our lives',11,2,607),(13984,'to know what today is like.',12,2,607),(13985,'Shards, smiling beaches,',13,2,607),(13986,'abandon us somehow even as we converse with them.',14,2,607),(13987,'And the leopard is transparent, like iced tea.',15,2,607),(13988,'I wake up, my face pressed',16,3,607),(13989,'in the dewy mess of a dream. It mattered,',17,3,607),(13990,'because of the dream, and because dreams are by nature sad',18,3,607),(13991,'even when there’s a lot of exclaiming and beating',19,3,607),(13992,'as there was in this one. I want the openness',20,3,607),(13993,'of the dream turned inside out, exploded',21,3,607),(13994,'into pieces of meaning by its own unasked questions,',22,3,607),(13995,'beyond the calculations of heaven. Then the larkspur',23,3,607),(13996,'would don its own disproportionate weight,',24,3,607),(13997,'and trees return to the starting gate.',25,3,607),(13998,'See, our lips bend.',26,3,607),(13999,'Eleven o’clock, and the curtain falls.',1,1,608),(14000,'The cold wind tears the strands of illusion;',2,1,608),(14001,'The delicate music is lost',3,1,608),(14002,'In the blare of home-going crowds',4,1,608),(14003,'And a midnight paper.',5,1,608),(14004,'The night has grown martial;',6,2,608),(14005,'It meets us with blows and disaster.',7,2,608),(14006,'Even the stars have turned shrapnel,',8,2,608),(14007,'Fixed in silent explosions.',9,2,608),(14008,'And here at our door',10,2,608),(14009,'The moonlight is laid',11,2,608),(14010,'Like a drawn sword.',12,2,608),(14011,'You looked at me with eyes grown bright with pain,',1,1,609),(14012,'Like some trapped thing’s. And then you moved your head',2,1,609),(14013,'Slowly from side to side, as though the strain',3,1,609),(14014,'Ached in your throat with anger and with dread.',4,1,609),(14015,'And then you turned and left me, and I stood',5,2,609),(14016,'With a queer sense of deadness over me,',6,2,609),(14017,'And only wondered dully that you could',7,2,609),(14018,'Fasten your trench-coat up so carefully.',8,2,609),(14019,'Till you were gone. Then all the air was quick',9,3,609),(14020,'With my last words, that seemed to leap and quiver.',10,3,609),(14021,'And in my heart I heard the little click',11,3,609),(14022,'Of a door that closes—quietly, forever.',12,3,609),(14023,'Did you too see it, drifting, all night, on the black river?',1,1,610),(14024,'Did you see it in the morning, rising into the silvery air –',2,1,610),(14025,'An armful of white blossoms,',3,1,610),(14026,'A perfect commotion of silk and linen as it leaned',4,1,610),(14027,'into the bondage of its wings; a snowbank, a bank of lilies,',5,1,610),(14028,'Biting the air with its black beak?',6,1,610),(14029,'Did you hear it, fluting and whistling',7,1,610),(14030,'A shrill dark music – like the rain pelting the trees – like a waterfall',8,1,610),(14031,'Knifing down the black ledges?',9,1,610),(14032,'And did you see it, finally, just under the clouds –',10,1,610),(14033,'A white cross Streaming across the sky, its feet',11,1,610),(14034,'Like black leaves, its wings Like the stretching light of the river?',12,1,610),(14035,'And did you feel it, in your heart, how it pertained to everything? And have you too finally figured out what beauty is for? And have you changed your life?',13,1,610),(14036,'They don’t publish',1,1,611),(14037,'the good news.',2,1,611),(14038,'The good news is published',3,1,611),(14039,'by us.',4,1,611),(14040,'We have a special edition every moment,',5,1,611),(14041,'and we need you to read it.',6,1,611),(14042,'The good news is that you are alive,',7,1,611),(14043,'and the linden tree is still there,',8,1,611),(14044,'standing firm in the harsh Winter.',9,1,611),(14045,'The good news is that you have wonderful eyes',10,1,611),(14046,'to touch the blue sky.',11,1,611),(14047,'The good news is that your child is there before you,',12,1,611),(14048,'and your arms are available:',13,1,611),(14049,'hugging is possible.',14,1,611),(14050,'They only print what is wrong.',15,1,611),(14051,'Look at each of our special editions.',16,1,611),(14052,'We always offer the things that are not wrong.',17,1,611),(14053,'We want you to benefit from them',18,1,611),(14054,'and help protect them.',19,1,611),(14055,'The dandelion is there by the sidewalk,',20,1,611),(14056,'smiling its wondrous smile,',21,1,611),(14057,'singing the song of eternity.',22,1,611),(14058,'Listen! You have ears that can hear it.',23,1,611),(14059,'Bow your head.',24,1,611),(14060,'Listen to it.',25,1,611),(14061,'Leave behind the world of sorrow',26,1,611),(14062,'and preoccupation',27,1,611),(14063,'and get free.',28,1,611),(14064,'The latest good news',29,1,611),(14065,'is that you can do it.',30,1,611),(14066,'On average, odd years have been the best for me.',1,1,612),(14067,'I’m at a point where everyone I meet looks like a version',2,2,612),(14068,'of someone I already know.',3,2,612),(14069,'Without fail, fall makes me nostalgic for things I’ve never experienced.',4,3,612),(14070,'The sky is molting. I don’t know',5,4,612),(14071,'if this is global warming or if the atmosphere is reconfiguring',6,4,612),(14072,'itself to accommodate all the new bright suffering.',7,4,612),(14073,'I am struck by an overwhelming need to go to Iceland.',8,5,612),(14074,'Despite all awful variables, we are still full of ideas',9,6,612),(14075,'as possible as unsexed fruit.',10,6,612),(14076,'I was terribly sorry to be the one to explain to the first graders',11,7,612),(14077,'the connection between the sunset and pollution.',12,7,612),(14078,'On Venus you and I are not even a year old.',13,8,612),(14079,'Then there were two skies.',14,9,612),(14080,'The one we fly through and the one',15,9,612),(14081,'we bury ourselves in.',16,9,612),(14082,'I appreciate my wide beveled spatula which fulfills',17,10,612),(14083,'the moment I realized I would grow up and own such things.',18,10,612),(14084,'I am glad I do not yet want sexy bathroom accessories.',19,11,612),(14085,'Such things.',20,11,612),(14086,'In the story we were together every time.',21,12,612),(14087,'On his wedding day, the stone in his chest',22,13,612),(14088,'not fully melted but enough.',23,13,612),(14089,'Sometimes I feel like there are birds flying out of me.',24,14,612),(14090,'I write poetry, worry, smile,',1,1,613),(14091,'laugh',2,1,613),(14092,'sleep',3,1,613),(14093,'continue for a while',4,1,613),(14094,'just like most of us',5,1,613),(14095,'just like all of us;',6,1,613),(14096,'sometimes I want to hug all',7,1,613),(14097,'Mankind on earth',8,1,613),(14098,'and say,',9,1,613),(14099,'god damn all this that they’ve brought down',10,1,613),(14100,'upon us,',11,1,613),(14101,'we are brave and good',12,1,613),(14102,'even though we are selfish',13,1,613),(14103,'and kill each other and',14,1,613),(14104,'kill ourselves,',15,1,613),(14105,'we are the people',16,1,613),(14106,'born to kill and die and weep in dark rooms',17,1,613),(14107,'and love in dark rooms,',18,1,613),(14108,'and wait, and',19,1,613),(14109,'wait and wait and wait.',20,1,613),(14110,'we are the people.',21,1,613),(14111,'we are nothing',22,1,613),(14112,'more.',23,1,613),(14113,'How funny you are today New York',1,1,614),(14114,'like Ginger Rogers in Swingtime',2,1,614),(14115,'and St. Bridget’s steeple leaning a little to the left',3,1,614),(14116,'here I have just jumped out of a bed full of V-days',4,2,614),(14117,'(I got tired of D-days) and blue you there still',5,2,614),(14118,'accepts me foolish and free',6,2,614),(14119,'all I want is a room up there',7,2,614),(14120,'and you in it',8,2,614),(14121,'and even the traffic halt so thick is a way',9,2,614),(14122,'for people to rub up against each other',10,2,614),(14123,'and when their surgical appliances lock',11,2,614),(14124,'they stay together',12,2,614),(14125,'for the rest of the day (what a day)',13,2,614),(14126,'I go by to check a slide and I say',14,2,614),(14127,'that painting’s not so blue',15,2,614),(14128,'where’s Lana Turner',16,3,614),(14129,'she’s out eating',17,3,614),(14130,'and Garbo’s backstage at the Met',18,3,614),(14131,'everyone’s taking their coat off',19,3,614),(14132,'so they can show a rib-cage to the rib-watchers',20,3,614),(14133,'and the park’s full of dancers with their tights and shoes',21,3,614),(14134,'in little bags',22,3,614),(14135,'who are often mistaken for worker-outers at the West Side Y',23,3,614),(14136,'why not',24,3,614),(14137,'the Pittsburgh Pirates shout because they won',25,3,614),(14138,'and in a sense we’re all winning',26,3,614),(14139,'we’re alive',27,3,614),(14140,'the apartment was vacated by a gay couple',28,4,614),(14141,'who moved to the country for fun',29,4,614),(14142,'they moved a day too soon',30,4,614),(14143,'even the stabbings are helping the population explosion',31,4,614),(14144,'though in the wrong country',32,4,614),(14145,'and all those liars have left the UN',33,4,614),(14146,'the Seagram Building’s no longer rivalled in interest',34,4,614),(14147,'not that we need liquor (we just like it)',35,4,614),(14148,'and the little box is out on the sidewalk',36,5,614),(14149,'next to the delicatessen',37,5,614),(14150,'so the old man can sit on it and drink beer',38,5,614),(14151,'and get knocked off it by his wife later in the day',39,5,614),(14152,'while the sun is still shining',40,5,614),(14153,'oh god it’s wonderful',41,6,614),(14154,'to get out of bed',42,6,614),(14155,'and drink too much coffee',43,6,614),(14156,'and smoke too many cigarettes',44,6,614),(14157,'and love you so much',45,6,614),(14158,'With what stillness at last',1,1,615),(14159,'you appear in the valley',2,1,615),(14160,'your first sunlight reaching down',3,1,615),(14161,'to touch the tips of a few',4,1,615),(14162,'high leaves that do not stir',5,1,615),(14163,'as though they had not noticed',6,1,615),(14164,'and did not know you at all',7,1,615),(14165,'then the voice of a dove calls',8,1,615),(14166,'from far away in itself',9,1,615),(14167,'to the hush of the morning',10,1,615),(14168,'so this is the sound of you',11,2,615),(14169,'here and now whether or not',12,2,615),(14170,'anyone hears it this is',13,2,615),(14171,'where we have come with our age',14,2,615),(14172,'our knowledge such as it is',15,2,615),(14173,'and our hopes such as they are',16,2,615),(14174,'invisible before us',17,2,615),(14175,'untouched and still possible',18,2,615),(14176,'Flesh is heretic.',1,1,616),(14177,'My body is a witch.',2,1,616),(14178,'I am burning it.',3,1,616),(14179,'Yes I am torching',4,2,616),(14180,'her curves and paps and wiles.',5,2,616),(14181,'They scorch in my self denials.',6,2,616),(14182,'How she meshed my head',7,3,616),(14183,'in the half-truths',8,3,616),(14184,'of her fevers',9,3,616),(14185,'till I renounced',10,4,616),(14186,'milk and honey',11,4,616),(14187,'and the taste of lunch.',12,4,616),(14188,'I vomited',13,5,616),(14189,'her hungers.',14,5,616),(14190,'Now the bitch is burning.',15,5,616),(14191,'I am starved and curveless.',16,6,616),(14192,'I am skin and bone.',17,6,616),(14193,'She has learned her lesson.',18,6,616),(14194,'Thin as a rib',19,7,616),(14195,'I turn in sleep.',20,7,616),(14196,'My dreams probe',21,7,616),(14197,'a claustrophobia',22,8,616),(14198,'a sensuous enclosure.',23,8,616),(14199,'How warm it was and wide',24,8,616),(14200,'once by a warm drum,',25,9,616),(14201,'once by the song of his breath',26,9,616),(14202,'and in his sleeping side.',27,9,616),(14203,'Only a little more,',28,10,616),(14204,'only a few more days',29,10,616),(14205,'sinless, foodless,',30,10,616),(14206,'I will slip',31,11,616),(14207,'back into him again',32,11,616),(14208,'as if I had never been away.',33,11,616),(14209,'Caged so',34,12,616),(14210,'I will grow',35,12,616),(14211,'angular and holy',36,12,616),(14212,'past pain,',37,13,616),(14213,'keeping his heart',38,13,616),(14214,'such company',39,13,616),(14215,'as will make me forget',40,14,616),(14216,'in a small space',41,14,616),(14217,'the fall',42,14,616),(14218,'into forked dark,',43,15,616),(14219,'into python needs',44,15,616),(14220,'heaving to hips and breasts',45,15,616),(14221,'and lips and heat',46,15,616),(14222,'and sweat and fat and greed.',47,15,616),(14223,'Lately, I’ve become accustomed to the way',1,1,617),(14224,'The ground opens up and envelopes me',2,1,617),(14225,'Each time I go out to walk the dog.',3,1,617),(14226,'Or the broad edged silly music the wind',4,1,617),(14227,'Makes when I run for a bus…',5,1,617),(14228,'Things have come to that.',6,1,617),(14229,'And now, each night I count the stars.',7,2,617),(14230,'And each night I get the same number.',8,2,617),(14231,'And when they will not come to be counted,',9,2,617),(14232,'I count the holes they leave.',10,2,617),(14233,'Nobody sings anymore.',11,3,617),(14234,'And then last night I tiptoed up',12,4,617),(14235,'To my daughter’s room and heard her',13,4,617),(14236,'Talking to someone, and when I opened',14,4,617),(14237,'The door, there was no one there…',15,4,617),(14238,'Only she on her knees, peeking into',16,4,617),(14239,'Her own clasped hands',17,5,617),(14240,'I ask them to take a poem',1,1,618),(14241,'and hold it up to the light',2,1,618),(14242,'like a color slide',3,1,618),(14243,'or press an ear against its hive.',4,2,618),(14244,'I say drop a mouse into a poem',5,3,618),(14245,'and watch him probe his way out,',6,3,618),(14246,'or walk inside the poem’s room',7,4,618),(14247,'and feel the walls for a light switch.',8,4,618),(14248,'I want them to waterski',9,5,618),(14249,'across the surface of a poem',10,5,618),(14250,'waving at the author’s name on the shore.',11,5,618),(14251,'But all they want to do',12,6,618),(14252,'is tie the poem to a chair with rope',13,6,618),(14253,'and torture a confession out of it.',14,6,618),(14254,'They begin beating it with a hose',15,7,618),(14255,'to find out what it really means.',16,7,618),(14256,'Losing too is still ours; and even forgetting',1,1,619),(14257,'still has a shape in the kingdom of transformation.',2,1,619),(14258,'When something’s let go of, it circles; and though we are',3,1,619),(14259,'rarely the center',4,1,619),(14260,'of the circle, it draws around us its unbroken, marvelous',5,1,619),(14261,'curve.',6,1,619),(14262,'As soon as you begin to ask the question, Who loves me?',1,1,620),(14263,'you are completely screwed, because',2,1,620),(14264,'the next question is How Much?',3,1,620),(14265,'and then it is hundreds of hours later,',4,2,620),(14266,'and you are still hunched over',5,2,620),(14267,'your flowcharts and abacus,',6,2,620),(14268,'trying to decide if you have gotten enough.',7,3,620),(14269,'This is the loneliest job in the world:',8,3,620),(14270,'to be an accountant of the heart.',9,3,620),(14271,'It is late at night. You are by yourself,',10,4,620),(14272,'and all around you, you can hear',11,4,620),(14273,'the sounds of people moving',12,4,620),(14274,'in and out of love,',13,5,620),(14275,'pushing the turnstiles, putting',14,5,620),(14276,'their coins in the slots,',15,5,620),(14277,'paying the price which is asked,',16,6,620),(14278,'which constantly changes.',17,6,620),(14279,'No one knows why.',18,6,620),(14280,'I went to sleep smiling,',1,1,621),(14281,'I wakened despairing—',2,1,621),(14282,'Where was my soul,',3,1,621),(14283,'On what terror-path faring?',4,1,621),(14284,'What grief shall befall me,',5,1,621),(14285,'By midnight or noon,',6,1,621),(14286,'What thing has my soul learned',7,1,621),(14287,'That I shall know soon?',8,1,621),(14288,'Those who love the most,',1,1,622),(14289,'Do not talk of their love,',2,1,622),(14290,'Francesca, Guinevere,',3,1,622),(14291,'Deirdre, Iseult, Heloise,',4,1,622),(14292,'In the fragrant gardens of heaven',5,1,622),(14293,'Are silent, or speak if at all',6,1,622),(14294,'Of fragile, inconsequent things.',7,1,622),(14295,'And a woman I used to know',8,2,622),(14296,'Who loved one man from her youth,',9,2,622),(14297,'Against the strength of the fates',10,2,622),(14298,'Fighting in somber pride,',11,2,622),(14299,'Never spoke of this thing,',12,2,622),(14300,'But hearing his name by chance,',13,2,622),(14301,'A light would pass over her face.',14,2,622),(14302,'to love life, to love it even',1,1,623),(14303,'when you have no stomach for it',2,1,623),(14304,'and everything you’ve held dear',3,1,623),(14305,'crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,',4,1,623),(14306,'your throat filled with the silt of it.',5,1,623),(14307,'When grief sits with you, its tropical heat',6,1,623),(14308,'thickening the air, heavy as water',7,1,623),(14309,'more fit for gills than lungs;',8,1,623),(14310,'when grief weights you like your own flesh',9,1,623),(14311,'only more of it, an obesity of grief,',10,1,623),(14312,'you think, How can a body withstand this?',11,1,623),(14313,'Then you hold life like a face',12,1,623),(14314,'between your palms, a plain face,',13,1,623),(14315,'no charming smile, no violet eyes,',14,1,623),(14316,'and you say, yes, I will take you',15,1,623),(14317,'I will love you, again.',16,1,623),(14318,'All night long the hockey pictures',1,1,624),(14319,'gaze down at you',2,1,624),(14320,'sleeping in your tracksuit.',3,1,624),(14321,'Belligerent goalies are your ideal.',4,1,624),(14322,'Threats of being traded',5,1,624),(14323,'cuts and wounds',6,1,624),(14324,'–all this pleases you.',7,1,624),(14325,'O my god! you say at breakfast',8,1,624),(14326,'reading the sports page over the Alpen',9,1,624),(14327,'as another player breaks his ankle',10,1,624),(14328,'or assaults the coach.',11,1,624),(14329,'When I thought of daughters',12,2,624),(14330,'I wasn’t expecting this',13,2,624),(14331,'but I like this more.',14,2,624),(14332,'I like all your faults',15,2,624),(14333,'even your purple moods',16,2,624),(14334,'when you retreat from everyone',17,2,624),(14335,'to sit in bed under a quilt.',18,2,624),(14336,'And when I say ‘like’',19,2,624),(14337,'I mean of course ‘love’',20,2,624),(14338,'but that embarrasses you.',21,2,624),(14339,'You who feel superior to black and white movies',22,2,624),(14340,'(coaxed for hours to see Casablanca)',23,2,624),(14341,'though you were moved',24,2,624),(14342,'by Creature from the Black Lagoon.',25,2,624),(14343,'One day I’ll come swimming',26,3,624),(14344,'beside your ship or someone will',27,3,624),(14345,'and if you hear the siren',28,3,624),(14346,'listen to it. For if you close your ears',29,3,624),(14347,'only nothing happens. You will never change.',30,3,624),(14348,'I don’t care if you risk',31,4,624),(14349,'your life to angry goalies',32,4,624),(14350,'creatures with webbed feet.',33,4,624),(14351,'You can enter their caves and castles',34,4,624),(14352,'their glass laboratories. Just',35,4,624),(14353,'don’t be fooled by anyone but yourself.',36,4,624),(14354,'This is the first lecture I’ve given you.',37,5,624),(14355,'You’re ‘sweet sixteen’ you said.',38,5,624),(14356,'I’d rather be your closest friend',39,5,624),(14357,'than your father. I’m not good at advice',40,5,624),(14358,'you know that, but ride',41,5,624),(14359,'the ceremonies',42,5,624),(14360,'until they grow dark.',43,5,624),(14361,'Sometimes you are so busy',44,6,624),(14362,'discovering your friends',45,6,624),(14363,'I ache with loss',46,6,624),(14364,'–but that is greed.',47,6,624),(14365,'And sometimes I’ve gone',48,6,624),(14366,'into my purple world',49,6,624),(14367,'and lost you.',50,6,624),(14368,'One afternoon I stepped',51,7,624),(14369,'into your room. You were sitting',52,7,624),(14370,'at the desk where I now write this.',53,7,624),(14371,'Forsythia outside the window',54,7,624),(14372,'and sun spilled over you',55,7,624),(14373,'like a thick yellow miracle',56,7,624),(14374,'as if another planet',57,7,624),(14375,'was coaxing you out of the house',58,7,624),(14376,'–all those possible worlds!–',59,7,624),(14377,'and you, meanwhile, busy with mathematics.',60,7,624),(14378,'I cannot look at forsythia now',61,8,624),(14379,'without loss, or joy for you.',62,8,624),(14380,'You step delicately',63,8,624),(14381,'into the wild world',64,8,624),(14382,'and your real prize will be',65,8,624),(14383,'the frantic search.',66,8,624),(14384,'Want everything. If you break',67,8,624),(14385,'break going out not in.',68,8,624),(14386,'How you live your life I don’t care',69,8,624),(14387,'but I’ll sell my arms for you,',70,8,624),(14388,'hold your secrets forever.',71,8,624),(14389,'If I speak of death',72,9,624),(14390,'which you fear now, greatly,',73,9,624),(14391,'it is without answers.',74,9,624),(14392,'Except that each',75,9,624),(14393,'one we know is',76,9,624),(14394,'in our blood.',77,9,624),(14395,'Don’t recall graves.',78,9,624),(14396,'Memory is permanent.',79,9,624),(14397,'Remember the afternoon’s',80,9,624),(14398,'yellow suburban annunciation.',81,9,624),(14399,'Your goalie',82,9,624),(14400,'in his frightening mask',83,9,624),(14401,'dreams perhaps',84,9,624),(14402,'of gentleness.',85,9,624),(14403,'My heart was full of softening showers,',1,1,625),(14404,'I used to swing like this for hours,',2,1,625),(14405,'I did not care for war or death,',3,1,625),(14406,'I was glad to draw my breath.',4,1,625),(14407,'If Baroque were more than a manner',1,1,626),(14408,'of music, it would be this last afternoon.',2,1,626),(14409,'Sun, disciplined by hours, moves slowly',3,1,626),(14410,'across the floor. The shadows of pears',4,1,626),(14411,'in the basket compose a pattern',5,1,626),(14412,'described only once. If you spoke now,',6,1,626),(14413,'it would be a kind of violence troubling',7,1,626),(14414,'the skin of the moment. We have stepped',8,1,626),(14415,'out of the past and the future waits',9,1,626),(14416,'without us. Outside, the wind ruffles grass,',10,1,626),(14417,'invisibly bending each blade. A single piano note',11,1,626),(14418,'repeated without variation floats across',12,1,626),(14419,'the lawn. Naked, we are suddenly strange,',13,1,626),(14420,'in time again, you are already moving away',14,1,626),(14421,'from me. Yesterday, we walked',15,1,626),(14422,'saying the names of streets and trees,',16,2,626),(14423,'bringing them forever into us. Later,',17,2,626),(14424,'you came behind me in the doorway, slid',18,2,626),(14425,'your arms around my waist. I wanted to ask',19,2,626),(14426,'if you had said everything, but only',20,2,626),(14427,'said your name. Tomorrow,',21,2,626),(14428,'it will all be different. Already,',22,3,626),(14429,'I see you in a hotel room, curtain',23,3,626),(14430,'half-drawn. You will sit in profile',24,3,626),(14431,'unfolding the news of another country.',25,3,626),(14432,'The same sky will go on reinventing',26,3,626),(14433,'itself. I will put on the clothes',27,4,626),(14434,'laid out the night before',28,4,626),(14435,'while the morning stains with traffic.',29,4,626),(14436,'I will slice grapefruit',30,4,626),(14437,'and wonder if distance',31,4,626),(14438,'will give us back to ourselves.',32,4,626),(14439,'Morning of buttered toast;',1,1,627),(14440,'of coffee, sweetened, with milk.',2,1,627),(14441,'Out of the window,',3,2,627),(14442,'snow-spruces step from their cobwebs.',4,2,627),(14443,'Flurry of chickadees, feeding then gone.',5,2,627),(14444,'A single cardinal stipples an empty branch –',6,2,627),(14445,'one maple leaf lifted back.',7,2,627),(14446,'I turn my blessings like photographs into the light;',8,3,627),(14447,'over my shoulder the god of Not-Yet looks on:',9,3,627),(14448,'Not-yet-dead, not-yet-lost, not-yet-taken. Not-yet-shattered, not-yet-sectioned, not-yet-strewn.',10,4,627),(14449,'Ample litany, sparing nothing I hate or love,',11,5,627),(14450,'not-yet-silenced, not-yet-fractured, not-yet-',12,5,627),(14451,'Not-yet-not.',13,6,627),(14452,'I move my ear a little closer to that humming figure,',14,7,627),(14453,'I ask him only to stay.',15,7,627),(14454,'He would not stay for me, and who can wonder?',1,1,628),(14455,'He would not stay for me to stand and gaze.',2,1,628),(14456,'I shook his hand, and tore my heart in sunder,',3,1,628),(14457,'And went with half my life about my ways.',4,1,628),(14458,'Darwin.',1,1,629),(14459,'They say he read novels to relax,',2,1,629),(14460,'But only certain kinds:',3,1,629),(14461,'nothing that ended unhappily.',4,1,629),(14462,'If anything like that turned up,',5,1,629),(14463,'enraged, he flung the book into the fire.',6,1,629),(14464,'True or not,',7,2,629),(14465,'I’m ready to believe it.',8,2,629),(14466,'Scanning in his mind so many times and places,',9,3,629),(14467,'he’d had enough of dying species,',10,3,629),(14468,'the triumphs of the strong over the weak,',11,3,629),(14469,'the endless struggles to survive,',12,3,629),(14470,'all doomed sooner or later.',13,3,629),(14471,'He’d earned the right to happy endings,',14,3,629),(14472,'at least in fiction',15,3,629),(14473,'with its diminutions.',16,3,629),(14474,'Hence the indispensable',17,4,629),(14475,'silver lining,',18,4,629),(14476,'the lovers reunited, the families reconciled,',19,4,629),(14477,'the doubts dispelled, fidelity rewarded,',20,4,629),(14478,'fortunes regained, treasures uncovered,',21,4,629),(14479,'stiff-necked neighbors mending their ways,',22,4,629),(14480,'good names restored, greed daunted,',23,4,629),(14481,'old maids married off to worthy parsons,',24,4,629),(14482,'troublemakers banished to other hemispheres,',25,4,629),(14483,'forgers of documents tossed down the stairs,',26,4,629),(14484,'seducers scurrying to the altar,',27,4,629),(14485,'orphans sheltered, widows comforted,',28,4,629),(14486,'pride humbled, wounds healed over,',29,4,629),(14487,'prodigal sons summoned home,',30,4,629),(14488,'cups of sorrow thrown into the ocean,',31,4,629),(14489,'hankies drenched with tears of reconciliation,',32,4,629),(14490,'general merriment and celebration,',33,4,629),(14491,'and the dog Fido,',34,4,629),(14492,'gone astray in the first chapter,',35,4,629),(14493,'turns up barking gladly',36,4,629),(14494,'in the last.',37,4,629),(14495,'You wake up filled with dread.',1,1,630),(14496,'There seems no reason for it.',2,1,630),(14497,'Morning light sifts through the window,',3,1,630),(14498,'there is birdsong,',4,1,630),(14499,'you can’t get out of bed.',5,1,630),(14500,'It’s something about the crumpled sheets',6,2,630),(14501,'hanging over the edge like jungle',7,2,630),(14502,'foliage, the terry slippers gaping',8,2,630),(14503,'their dark pink mouths for your feet,',9,2,630),(14504,'the unseen breakfast— some of it',10,2,630),(14505,'in the refrigerator you do not dare',11,2,630),(14506,'to open— you will not dare to eat.',12,2,630),(14507,'What prevents you? The future. The future tense,',13,3,630),(14508,'immense as outer space.',14,3,630),(14509,'You could get lost there.',15,3,630),(14510,'No. Nothing so simple. The past, its density',16,3,630),(14511,'and drowned events pressing you down,',17,3,630),(14512,'like sea water, like gelatin',18,3,630),(14513,'filling your lungs instead of air.',19,3,630),(14514,'Forget all that and let’s get up.',20,4,630),(14515,'Try moving your arm.',21,4,630),(14516,'Try moving your head.',22,4,630),(14517,'Pretend the house in on fire',23,4,630),(14518,'and you must run or burn.',24,4,630),(14519,'No, that one’s useless.',25,4,630),(14520,'It’s never worked before.',26,4,630),(14521,'Where is it coming from, this echo,',27,5,630),(14522,'this huge No that surrounds you,',28,5,630),(14523,'silent as the folds of the yellow',29,5,630),(14524,'curtains, mute as the cheerful',30,5,630),(14525,'Mexican bowl with its cargo',31,6,630),(14526,'of mummified flowers?',32,6,630),(14527,'(You chose the colours of the sun,',33,6,630),(14528,'not the dried neutrals of shadow.',34,6,630),(14529,'God knows you’ve tried.)',35,6,630),(14530,'Now here’s a good one:',36,7,630),(14531,'you’re lying on your deathbed.',37,7,630),(14532,'You have one hour to live.',38,7,630),(14533,'Who is it, exactly, you have needed',39,7,630),(14534,'all these years to forgive?',40,7,630),(14535,'The problem (if there was one) was simply a problem with the question. He wants to paint a bird, needs to, and the problem is why. Why paint a bird? Why do anything at all? Not how, because hows are easy, series or sequence, one foot after the other, but existentially why bother, what does it solve? Be the tree, solve for bird. What does that mean? It’s a problem of focus, it’s a problem of diligence, it’s supposed to be a grackle but it sort of got away from him. But why not let the colors do what they want, which is blend, which is kind of neighborly, if you think about it. Blackbird, he says. So be it. Indexed and normative. Who gets to measure the distance between experience and its representation? Who controls the lines of inquiry? He does, but he’s not very good at it. And just because you want to paint a bird, do actually paint a bird, it doesn’t mean you’ve accomplished anything. Maybe if it was pretty, it would mean something. Maybe if it was beautiful it would be true. But it’s not, not beautiful, not true, not even realistic, more like a man in a birdsuit, blue shoulders instead of feathers, because he isn’t looking at a bird, real bird, as he paints, he is looking at his heart, which is impossible, unless his heart is a metaphor for his heart, as everything is a metaphor for itself, so that looking at the page is like looking out the window at a bird in your chest with a song in its throat that you don’t want to hear but you paint anyway because the hand is a voice that can sing what the voice will not and the hand wants to do something useful. Sometimes, at night, in bed, before I fall asleep, I think about a poem I might write, someday, about my heart, says the heart. Answer: be the heart. Answer: be the hand. Answer: be the bird. Answer: be the sky.',1,1,631),(14536,'Time will say nothing but I told you so,',1,1,632),(14537,'Time only knows the price we have to pay;',2,1,632),(14538,'If I could tell you I would let you know.',3,1,632),(14539,'If we should weep when clowns put on their show,',4,2,632),(14540,'If we should stumble when musicians play,',5,2,632),(14541,'Time will say nothing but I told you so.',6,2,632),(14542,'There are no fortunes to be told, although,',7,3,632),(14543,'Because I love you more than I can say,',8,3,632),(14544,'If I could tell you I would let you know.',9,3,632),(14545,'The winds must come from somewhere when they blow,',10,4,632),(14546,'There must be reasons why the leaves decay;',11,4,632),(14547,'Time will say nothing but I told you so.',12,4,632),(14548,'Perhaps the roses really want to grow,',13,5,632),(14549,'The vision seriously intends to stay;',14,5,632),(14550,'If I could tell you I would let you know.',15,5,632),(14551,'Suppose all the lions get up and go,',16,6,632),(14552,'And all the brooks and soldiers run away;',17,6,632),(14553,'Will Time say nothing but I told you so?',18,6,632),(14554,'If I could tell you I would let you know.',19,6,632),(14555,'For some semitropical reason',1,1,633),(14556,'when the rains fall',2,1,633),(14557,'relentlessly they fall',3,1,633),(14558,'into swimming pools, these otherwise',4,2,633),(14559,'bright and scary',5,2,633),(14560,'arachnids. They can swim',6,2,633),(14561,'a little, but not for long',7,2,633),(14562,'and they can’t climb the ladder out.',8,3,633),(14563,'They usually drown—but',9,3,633),(14564,'if you want their favor,',10,3,633),(14565,'if you believe there is justice,',11,3,633),(14566,'a reward for not loving',12,3,633),(14567,'the death of ugly',13,4,633),(14568,'and even dangerous (the eel, hog snake,',14,4,633),(14569,'rats) creatures, if',15,4,633),(14570,'you believe these things, then',16,5,633),(14571,'you would leave a lifebuoy',17,5,633),(14572,'or two in your swimming pool at night.',18,5,633),(14573,'And in the morning',19,6,633),(14574,'you would haul ashore',20,6,633),(14575,'the huddled, hairy survivors',21,6,633),(14576,'and escort them',22,7,633),(14577,'back to the bush, and know,',23,7,633),(14578,'be assured that at least these saved,',24,7,633),(14579,'as individuals, would not turn up',25,7,633),(14580,'again someday',26,8,633),(14581,'in your hat, drawer,',27,8,633),(14582,'or the tangled underworld',28,8,633),(14583,'of your socks, and that even—',29,9,633),(14584,'when your belief in justice',30,9,633),(14585,'merges with your belief in dreams—',31,9,633),(14586,'they may tell the others',32,9,633),(14587,'in a sign language',33,10,633),(14588,'four times as subtle',34,10,633),(14589,'and complicated as man’s',35,10,633),(14590,'that you are good,',36,11,633),(14591,'that you love them,',37,11,633),(14592,'that you would save them again.',38,11,633),(14593,'Distance',1,1,634),(14594,'is where we were',2,1,634),(14595,'but empty of us and ahead of',3,1,634),(14596,'me lying out in the rushes thinking',4,1,634),(14597,'even the nights cannot come back to their hill',5,1,634),(14598,'any time',6,1,634),(14599,'I would rather the wind came from outside',7,2,634),(14600,'from mountains anywhere',8,2,634),(14601,'from the stars from other',9,2,634),(14602,'worlds even as',10,2,634),(14603,'cold as it is this',11,2,634),(14604,'ghost of mine passing',12,2,634),(14605,'through me',13,2,634),(14606,'I know your silence',14,3,634),(14607,'and the repetition',15,3,634),(14608,'like that of a word in the ear of death',16,3,634),(14609,'teaching',17,3,634),(14610,'itself',18,3,634),(14611,'itself',19,3,634),(14612,'that is the sound of my running',20,3,634),(14613,'the plea',21,3,634),(14614,'plea that it makes',22,3,634),(14615,'which you will never hear',23,3,634),(14616,'oh god of beginnings',24,3,634),(14617,'immortal',25,3,634),(14618,'I might have been right',26,4,634),(14619,'not who I am',27,4,634),(14620,'but all right',28,4,634),(14621,'among the walls among the reasons',29,4,634),(14622,'not even waiting',30,4,634),(14623,'not seen',31,4,634),(14624,'but now I am out in my feet',32,4,634),(14625,'and they on their way',33,4,634),(14626,'the old trees jump up again and again',34,4,634),(14627,'strangers',35,4,634),(14628,'there are no names for the rivers',36,4,634),(14629,'for the days for the nights',37,4,634),(14630,'I am who I am',38,4,634),(14631,'oh lord cold as the thoughts of birds',39,4,634),(14632,'and everyone can see me',40,4,634),(14633,'Caught again and held again',41,5,634),(14634,'again I am not a blessing',42,5,634),(14635,'they bring me',43,5,634),(14636,'names',44,5,634),(14637,'that would fit anything',45,5,634),(14638,'they bring them to me',46,5,634),(14639,'they bring me hopes',47,5,634),(14640,'all day I turn',48,5,634),(14641,'making ropes',49,5,634),(14642,'helping',50,5,634),(14643,'My eyes are waiting for me',51,6,634),(14644,'in the dusk',52,6,634),(14645,'they are still closed',53,6,634),(14646,'they have been waiting a long time',54,6,634),(14647,'and I am feeling my way toward them',55,6,634),(14648,'I am going up stream',56,7,634),(14649,'taking to the water from time to time',57,7,634),(14650,'my marks dry off the stones before morning',58,7,634),(14651,'the dark surface',59,7,634),(14652,'strokes the night',60,7,634),(14653,'above its way',61,7,634),(14654,'There are no stars',62,7,634),(14655,'there is no grief',63,7,634),(14656,'I will never arrive',64,7,634),(14657,'I stumble when I remember how it was',65,7,634),(14658,'with one foot',66,7,634),(14659,'one foot still in a name',67,7,634),(14660,'I can turn myself toward the other joys and their lights',68,8,634),(14661,'but not find them',69,8,634),(14662,'I can put my words into the mouths',70,8,634),(14663,'of spirits',71,8,634),(14664,'but they will not say them',72,8,634),(14665,'I can run all night and win',73,8,634),(14666,'and win',74,8,634),(14667,'Dead leaves crushed grasses fallen limbs',75,9,634),(14668,'the world is full of prayers',76,9,634),(14669,'arrived at from',77,9,634),(14670,'afterwards',78,9,634),(14671,'a voice full of breaking',79,9,634),(14672,'heard from afterwards',80,9,634),(14673,'through all',81,9,634),(14674,'the length of the night',82,9,634),(14675,'I am never all of me',83,10,634),(14676,'unto myself',84,10,634),(14677,'and sometimes I go slowly',85,10,634),(14678,'knowing that a sound one sound',86,10,634),(14679,'is following me from world',87,10,634),(14680,'to world',88,10,634),(14681,'and that I die each time',89,10,634),(14682,'before it reaches me',90,10,634),(14683,'When I stop I am alone',91,11,634),(14684,'at night sometimes it is almost good',92,11,634),(14685,'as though I were almost there',93,11,634),(14686,'sometimes then I see there is',94,11,634),(14687,'in a bush beside me the same question',95,11,634),(14688,'why are you',96,11,634),(14689,'on this way',97,11,634),(14690,'I said I will ask the stars',98,11,634),(14691,'why are you falling and they answered',99,11,634),(14692,'which of us',100,11,634),(14693,'I dreamed I had no nails',101,12,634),(14694,'no hair',102,12,634),(14695,'I had lost one of the senses',103,12,634),(14696,'not sure which',104,12,634),(14697,'the soles peeled from my feet and',105,12,634),(14698,'drifted away',106,12,634),(14699,'clouds',107,12,634),(14700,'It’s all one',108,12,634),(14701,'feet',109,12,634),(14702,'stay mine',110,12,634),(14703,'hold the world lightly',111,12,634),(14704,'Stars even you',112,13,634),(14705,'have been used',113,13,634),(14706,'but not you',114,13,634),(14707,'silence',115,13,634),(14708,'blessing',116,13,634),(14709,'calling me when I am lost',117,13,634),(14710,'Maybe I will come',118,14,634),(14711,'to where I am one',119,14,634),(14712,'and find',120,14,634),(14713,'I have been waiting there',121,14,634),(14714,'as a new',122,14,634),(14715,'year finds the song of the nuthatch',123,14,634),(14716,'Send me out into another life',124,15,634),(14717,'lord because this one is growing faint',125,15,634),(14718,'I do not think it goes all the way',126,15,634),(14719,'I found you and I lost you,',1,1,635),(14720,'All on a gleaming day.',2,1,635),(14721,'The day was filled with sunshine,',3,1,635),(14722,'And the land was full of May.',4,1,635),(14723,'A golden bird was singing',5,2,635),(14724,'Its melody divine,',6,2,635),(14725,'I found you and I loved you,',7,2,635),(14726,'And all the world was mine.',8,2,635),(14727,'I found you and I lost you,',9,3,635),(14728,'All on a golden day,',10,3,635),(14729,'But when I dream of you, dear,',11,3,635),(14730,'It is always brimming May.',12,3,635),(14731,'You will hear thunder and remember me,',1,1,636),(14732,'And think: she wanted storms. The rim',2,1,636),(14733,'Of the sky will be the colour of hard crimson,',3,1,636),(14734,'And your heart, as it was then, will be on fire.',4,1,636),(14735,'That day in Moscow, it will all come true,',5,2,636),(14736,'when, for the last time, I take my leave,',6,2,636),(14737,'And hasten to the heights that I have longed for,',7,2,636),(14738,'Leaving my shadow still to be with you.',8,2,636),(14739,'Whispering to each handhold, “I’ll be back,”',1,1,637),(14740,'I go up the cliff in the dark. One place',2,1,637),(14741,'I loosen a rock and listen a long time',3,1,637),(14742,'till it hits, faint in the gulf, but the rush',4,1,637),(14743,'of the torrent almost drowns it out, and the wind—',5,1,637),(14744,'I almost forgot the wind: it tears at your side',6,1,637),(14745,'or it waits and then buffets; you sag outward. . . .',7,1,637),(14746,'I remember they said it would be hard. I scramble',8,2,637),(14747,'by luck into a little pocket out of',9,2,637),(14748,'the wind and begin to beat on the stones',10,2,637),(14749,'with my scratched numb hands, rocking back and forth',11,2,637),(14750,'in silent laughter there in the dark—',12,2,637),(14751,'“Made it again!” Oh how I love this climb!',13,2,637),(14752,'—the whispering to stones, the drag, the weight',14,2,637),(14753,'as your muscles crack and ease on, working',15,2,637),(14754,'right. They are back there, discontent,',16,2,637),(14755,'waiting to be driven forth. I pound',17,2,637),(14756,'on the earth, riding the earth past the stars:',18,2,637),(14757,'“Made it again! Made it again!”',19,2,637),(14758,'Water, bone, bed, bedrock –',1,1,638),(14759,'whatever is underneath, below what’s below.',2,1,638),(14760,'Sudden touchable quiet, shadow',3,1,638),(14761,'of a shadow. Weather. Sadness turning',4,1,638),(14762,'ordinary. Nameless illness coming on.',5,1,638),(14763,'A knock at the door so gentle',6,1,638),(14764,'it could be anything. Distance.',7,1,638),(14765,'The just thing not said, or said too late',8,1,638),(14766,'or said exactly and without mercy.',9,1,638),(14767,'Wind rising. Whatever might rise.',10,1,638),(14768,'love is not concerned',1,1,639),(14769,'with whom you pray',2,1,639),(14770,'or where you slept',3,1,639),(14771,'the night you ran away',4,1,639),(14772,'from home',5,1,639),(14773,'love is concerned',6,1,639),(14774,'that the beating of your heart',7,1,639),(14775,'should kill no one',8,1,639),(14776,'He offers, between planes,',1,1,640),(14777,'to buy me a drink. I’ve never talked',2,1,640),(14778,'to a fireman before, not one from Brooklyn',3,1,640),(14779,'anyway. Okay. Fine, I say. Somehow',4,1,640),(14780,'the subject is bound to come up, women',5,1,640),(14781,'firefighters, and since I’m',6,1,640),(14782,'a woman and he’s a fireman, between',7,1,640),(14783,'the two of us, we know something',8,1,640),(14784,'about this subject. Already',9,1,640),(14785,'he’s telling me he doesn’t mind',10,1,640),(14786,'women firefighters, but what',11,1,640),(14787,'they look like',12,1,640),(14788,'after fighting a fire, well',13,1,640),(14789,'they lose all respect. He’s sorry, but',14,1,640),(14790,'he looks at them',15,1,640),(14791,'covered with the cinders of someone’s',16,1,640),(14792,'lost hope, and he feels disgust, he just',17,1,640),(14793,'wants to turn the hose on them, they',18,1,640),(14794,'are that sweaty and stinking, just like',19,1,640),(14795,'him, of course, but not the woman he',20,1,640),(14796,'wants, you get me? And to come to that—',21,1,640),(14797,'isn’t it too bad, to be despised',22,1,640),(14798,'for what you do to prove yourself',23,1,640),(14799,'among men',24,1,640),(14800,'who want to love you, to love you,',25,1,640),(14801,'love you.',26,1,640),(14802,'On the beach, close to sunset, a dog runs',1,1,641),(14803,'toward us fast, agitated, perhaps feral,',2,1,641),(14804,'scrounging for anything he can eat.',3,1,641),(14805,'We pull the children close and let him pass.',4,1,641),(14806,'Is there such a thing as a stray child? Simon asks.',5,2,641),(14807,'Like if a mother had a child from her body but then decided she wanted to be a different child’s mother, what would happen to that first child?',6,2,641),(14808,'The dog finds a satisfying scrap and calms.',7,3,641),(14809,'The boys break free and leap from rock to rock.',8,3,641),(14810,'I was a stray man before I met your mother,',9,3,641),(14811,'you say, but they have run on and cannot hear you.',10,3,641),(14812,'How fast they run on, past the dark pool',11,4,641),(14813,'your voice makes, our arms which hold them back.',12,4,641),(14814,'I was a stray man before I met you,',13,4,641),(14815,'you say. This time you are speaking to me.',14,4,641),(14816,'The way air is at the same time',1,1,642),(14817,'intimate and out of reach',2,1,642),(14818,'(a void with light inside it',3,2,642),(14819,'turned on a wheel of wheres)',4,2,642),(14820,'Stars’ lease on sky expires, breathes',5,3,642),(14821,'in leisures of sparrows, wrens',6,3,642),(14822,'and casual trees, wet sidewalks',7,4,642),(14823,'twittering with tattered news, old',8,4,642),(14824,'leaves (hollow bones and branches)',9,5,642),(14825,'wind of wish and which and boys',10,5,642),(14826,'waiting for white kisses, rain',11,6,642),(14827,'of feathers, clouds saving their later',12,6,642),(14828,'Suppose this sunlight, day split open',13,7,642),(14829,'suppose these senses and the information',14,7,642),(14830,'carried, thing and news of the thing',15,8,642),(14831,'repeating place, location of position',16,8,642),(14832,'Birds, for example, remembered',17,9,642),(14833,'fluttering torn terms, congregations',18,9,642),(14834,'shimmer of hummingbirds',19,10,642),(14835,'but when does one see more than one',20,10,642),(14836,'tumbling bright flesh (sky',21,11,642),(14837,'at hand) pleating afternoon, banking',22,11,642),(14838,'on mere atmosphere, primary',23,12,642),(14839,'colors dividing white into',24,12,642),(14840,'three clean halves (red, green,',25,13,642),(14841,'blue-bitter berries rasp, crabapples',26,13,642),(14842,'crush underfoot), the spectrum',27,14,642),(14843,'says don’t stop there',28,14,642),(14844,'(smudged light a lapse of attention)',29,15,642),(14845,'there’s never enough world for you',30,15,642),(14846,'I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,',1,1,643),(14847,'your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,',2,1,643),(14848,'yes, many loved before us, I know that we are not new,',3,1,643),(14849,'in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,',4,1,643),(14850,'but now it’s come to distances and both of us must try,',5,1,643),(14851,'your eyes are soft with sorrow,',6,1,643),(14852,'Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye.',7,1,643),(14853,'I’m not looking for another as I wander in my time,',8,2,643),(14854,'walk me to the corner, our steps will always rhyme',9,2,643),(14855,'you know my love goes with you as your love stays with me,',10,2,643),(14856,'it’s just the way it changes, like the shoreline and the sea,',11,2,643),(14857,'but let’s not talk of love or chains and things we can’t untie,',12,2,643),(14858,'your eyes are soft with sorrow,',13,2,643),(14859,'Hey, that’s no way to say goodbye.',14,2,643),(14860,'At one glance',1,1,644),(14861,'I loved you',2,1,644),(14862,'With a thousand hearts',3,1,644),(14863,'They can hold against me',4,2,644),(14864,'No sin except my love for you',5,2,644),(14865,'Come to me',6,2,644),(14866,'Don’t go away',7,2,644),(14867,'Let the zealots think',8,3,644),(14868,'Loving is sinful',9,3,644),(14869,'Never mind',10,3,644),(14870,'Let me burn in the hellfire',11,3,644),(14871,'Of that sin',12,3,644),(14872,'Sparrows were feeding in a freezing drizzle',1,1,645),(14873,'That while you watched turned to pieces of snow',2,1,645),(14874,'Riding a gradient invisible',3,1,645),(14875,'From silver aslant to random, white, and slow.',4,1,645),(14876,'There came a moment that you couldn’t tell.',5,2,645),(14877,'And then they clearly flew instead of fell.',6,2,645),(14878,'Days you are sick, we get dressed slow,',1,1,646),(14879,'find our hats, and ride the train.',2,1,646),(14880,'We pass a junkyard and the bay,',3,1,646),(14881,'then a dark tunnel, then a dark tunnel.',4,1,646),(14882,'You lose your hat. I find it. The train',5,2,646),(14883,'sighs open at Burlingame,',6,2,646),(14884,'past dark tons of scrap and water.',7,2,646),(14885,'I carry you down the black steps.',8,2,646),(14886,'Burlingame is the size of joy:',9,3,646),(14887,'a race past bakeries, gold rings',10,3,646),(14888,'in open black cases. I don’t care',11,3,646),(14889,'who sees my crooked smile',12,3,646),(14890,'or what erases it, past the bakery,',13,4,646),(14891,'when you tire. We ride the blades again',14,4,646),(14892,'beside the crooked bay. You smile.',15,4,646),(14893,'I hold you like a hole holds light.',16,4,646),(14894,'We wear our hats and ride the knives.',17,5,646),(14895,'They cannot fix you. They try and try.',18,5,646),(14896,'Tunnel! Into the dark open we go.',19,5,646),(14897,'Days you are sick, we get dressed slow.',20,5,646),(14898,'For Sally Amis',1,1,647),(14899,'Tightly-folded bud,',2,2,647),(14900,'I have wished you something',3,2,647),(14901,'None of the others would:',4,2,647),(14902,'Not the usual stuff',5,2,647),(14903,'About being beautiful,',6,2,647),(14904,'Or running off a spring',7,2,647),(14905,'Of innocence and love —',8,2,647),(14906,'They will all wish you that,',9,2,647),(14907,'And should it prove possible,',10,2,647),(14908,'Well, you’re a lucky girl.',11,2,647),(14909,'But if it shouldn’t, then',12,3,647),(14910,'May you be ordinary;',13,3,647),(14911,'Have, like other women,',14,3,647),(14912,'An average of talents:',15,3,647),(14913,'Not ugly, not good-looking,',16,3,647),(14914,'Nothing uncustomary',17,3,647),(14915,'To pull you off your balance,',18,3,647),(14916,'That, unworkable itself,',19,3,647),(14917,'Stops all the rest from working.',20,3,647),(14918,'In fact, may you be dull —',21,3,647),(14919,'If that is what a skilled,',22,3,647),(14920,'Vigilant, flexible,',23,3,647),(14921,'Unemphasised, enthralled',24,3,647),(14922,'Catching of happiness is called.',25,3,647),(14923,'I want to write something',1,1,648),(14924,'so simply',2,1,648),(14925,'about love',3,1,648),(14926,'or about pain',4,1,648),(14927,'that even',5,1,648),(14928,'as you are reading',6,1,648),(14929,'you feel it',7,1,648),(14930,'and as you read',8,1,648),(14931,'you keep feeling it',9,1,648),(14932,'and though it be my story',10,1,648),(14933,'it will be common,',11,1,648),(14934,'though it be singular',12,1,648),(14935,'it will be known to you',13,1,648),(14936,'so that by the end',14,1,648),(14937,'you will think—',15,1,648),(14938,'no, you will realize—',16,1,648),(14939,'that it was all the while',17,1,648),(14940,'yourself arranging the words,',18,1,648),(14941,'that it was all the time',19,1,648),(14942,'words that you yourself,',20,1,648),(14943,'out of your heart',21,1,648),(14944,'had been saying.',22,1,648),(14945,'It happens surprisingly fast,',1,1,649),(14946,'the way your shadow leaves you.',2,1,649),(14947,'All day you’ve been linked by',3,1,649),(14948,'the light, but now that darkness',4,1,649),(14949,'gathers the world in a great black tide,',5,1,649),(14950,'your shadow leaves you to join',6,1,649),(14951,'the sea of all other shadows.',7,1,649),(14952,'If you stand here long enough,',8,1,649),(14953,'you, too, will forget your lines',9,1,649),(14954,'and merge with the tall grass and',10,1,649),(14955,'old trees, with the crows and the',11,1,649),(14956,'flooding river—all these pieces',12,1,649),(14957,'of the world that daylight has broken',13,1,649),(14958,'into objects of singular loneliness.',14,1,649),(14959,'It happens surprisingly fast, the loss',15,1,649),(14960,'of your shadow, and standing',16,1,649),(14961,'in the field, you become the field,',17,1,649),(14962,'and standing in the night, you',18,1,649),(14963,'are gathered by night. Invisible',19,1,649),(14964,'birds sing to the memory of light',20,1,649),(14965,'but then even those separate songs fade',21,1,649),(14966,'into the one big silence that always',22,1,649),(14967,'seems to be waiting.',23,1,649),(14968,'“Which is bigger,” he asks me, “the ocean or sky,”',1,1,650),(14969,'and I want to tell him the heart, which even today',2,1,650),(14970,'has been practicing vastness, is learning to say yes',3,1,650),(14971,'in new languages, learning to stretch beyond',4,2,650),(14972,'the center, beyond the lips, learning to be more moon',5,2,650),(14973,'and less woman, to reflect light without owning it,',6,2,650),(14974,'learning to lose whatever it has used before as a measure.',7,3,650),(14975,'This is the way I want to love: in an idiom stronger',8,3,650),(14976,'than tongues, I want to love in the way that tides pull',9,3,650),(14977,'and release, like the moon which holds without touch,',10,4,650),(14978,'I want to invite the sky to create a bigger space in me',11,4,650),(14979,'a place spacious enough to hold all the wings',12,4,650),(14980,'of the passing moment. I want to be buoyant enough',13,5,650),(14981,'to carry all of love’s weight. “The sky,” I say.',14,5,650),(14982,'“The sky is bigger, but the ocean is also wide.”',15,5,650),(14983,'He is satisfied by my words, closes his eyes.',16,6,650),(14984,'In my chest, a star falls. In my belly',17,6,650),(14985,'strong tug of tides.',18,6,650),(14986,'All day I waited to be blown;',1,1,651),(14987,'then someone cut me down.',2,1,651),(14988,'I have, instead of thoughts,',3,2,651),(14989,'uses; uses instead of feelings.',4,2,651),(14990,'One day I’ll feel the wind again.',5,3,651),(14991,'A moment later I’ll be gone.',6,3,651),(14992,'To lie in your child’s bed when she is gone',1,1,652),(14993,'Is calming as anything I know. To fall',2,1,652),(14994,'Asleep, her books arranged above your head,',3,1,652),(14995,'Is to admit that you have never been',4,1,652),(14996,'So tired, so enchanted by the spell',5,1,652),(14997,'Of your grown body. To feel small instead',6,1,652),(14998,'Of blocking out the light, to feel alone,',7,1,652),(14999,'Not knowing what you should or shouldn’t feel,',8,1,652),(15000,'Is to find out, no matter what you’ve said',9,1,652),(15001,'About the cramped escapes and obstacles',10,1,652),(15002,'You plan and face and have to call the world,',11,1,652),(15003,'That there remain these places, occupied',12,1,652),(15004,'By children, yours if lucky, like the girl',13,1,652),(15005,'Who finds you here and lies down by your side.',14,1,652),(15006,'to W.S. Merwin',1,1,653),(15007,'I said, “Nothing for the last time.”',2,2,653),(15008,'You said, “Everything for the last time.”',3,2,653),(15009,'Later I thought you made everything more',4,2,653),(15010,'precious with “everything for the last time”:',5,2,653),(15011,'the last meditation, the last falling asleep,',6,2,653),(15012,'the last dream before the final makebelieve,',7,2,653),(15013,'the last kiss good night,',8,2,653),(15014,'the last look out the window at the last moonlight.',9,2,653),(15015,'Last leaves no time to hesitate.',10,2,653),(15016,'I would drink strong coffee before my last sleep.',11,2,653),(15017,'I’d rather remember childhood, rehearse forgiveness,',12,2,653),(15018,'listen to birdsong or a Spanish housemaid singing,',13,2,653),(15019,'scrubbing a tiled floor in Seville—',14,2,653),(15020,'I’d scrub and sing myself. O Susanna Susanna, quanta pena mi costi.',15,2,653),(15021,'I would strangle the snakes of lastness',16,2,653),(15022,'like Herakles in his crib',17,2,653),(15023,'before I cocked my ear to Mozart for the last time.',18,2,653),(15024,'There is not sky or clouds enough to cover',19,2,653),(15025,'the music I would hear for the last time.',20,2,653),(15026,'I know a bank whereon the wild thyme of',21,2,653),(15027,'everything for the last time grows, covered with',22,2,653),(15028,'deadly nightshade and poison hemlock.',23,2,653),(15029,'No last, no first, thinking in the moment,',24,3,653),(15030,'years ago, you prepared the soil in Hawaii',25,3,653),(15031,'before you planted your palm trees, then shared',26,3,653),(15032,'most of your days and nights with them as equals.',27,3,653),(15033,'You built your house with a Zen room.',28,3,653),(15034,'I made no prayer when I dug a hole',29,3,653),(15035,'and pushed in a twelve-foot white pine,',30,3,653),(15036,'root ball locked in green plastic netting.',31,3,653),(15037,'I did not cut the netting, so twenty years later',32,3,653),(15038,'a tall, beautiful, white pine died.',33,3,653),(15039,'I lynched the roots. To save my life',34,3,653),(15040,'I would let them seize, cut out a bear’s heart,',35,3,653),(15041,'I would partake in its flesh.',36,3,653),(15042,'But you would die before you’d let them kill that bear.',37,3,653),(15043,'Again, I say, “Nothing for the last time.”',38,3,653),(15044,'You say, “Everything for the last time.”',39,3,653),(15045,'Sailor, I would have killed a stranger',40,3,653),(15046,'to save the world. Sailor, you would not.',41,3,653),(15047,'We kissed goodbye on the cheek.',42,3,653),(15048,'I hope not for the last time.',43,3,653),(15049,'Home, I look into my brass telescope—',44,4,653),(15050,'at the far end, where the moon and distant stars',45,4,653),(15051,'should be, I see my eye looking back at me,',46,4,653),(15052,'it’s twinkling and winking like a star. I go to bed.',47,4,653),(15053,'My dogs, donkeys and wife are sleeping. I am safe.',48,4,653),(15054,'You are home with your wife',49,4,653),(15055,'you met and decided to marry in four days.',50,4,653),(15056,'‘Man who is a serious novel would like to hear from a woman who is a poem’ (classified advertisement, New York Review of Books)',1,1,654),(15057,'Dear Serious Novel,',2,2,654),(15058,'I am a terse assured lyric with impeccable rhythmic flow, some apt and original metaphors, and a music that is all my own. Some people say I am beautiful.',3,3,654),(15059,'My vital statistics are eighteen lines, divided into three-line stanzas, with an average of four words per line.',4,4,654),(15060,'My first husband was a cheap romance; the second was Wisden’s Cricketers’ Almanac. Most of the men I meet nowadays are autobiographies, but a substantial minority are books about photography or trains.',5,5,654),(15061,'I have always hoped for a relationship with an upmarket work of fiction. Please write and tell me more about yourself.',6,6,654),(15062,'Yours intensely,',7,7,654),(15063,'Song of the First Snowdrop',8,7,654),(15064,'Dear Song of the First Snowdrop,',9,8,654),(15065,'Many thanks for your letter. You sound like just the kind of poem I am hoping to find. I’ve always preferred short, lyrical women to the kind who go on for page after page.',10,9,654),(15066,'I am an important 150,000 word comment on the dreams and dilemmas of twentieth-century Man. It took six years to attain my present weight and stature but all the twenty-seven publishers I have so far approached have failed to understand me. I have my share of sex and violence and a very good joke in chapter nine, but to no avail. I am sustained by the belief that I am ahead of my time.',11,10,654),(15067,'Let’s meet as soon as possible. I am longing for you to read me from cover to cover and get to know my every word.',12,11,654),(15068,'Yours impatiently,',13,12,654),(15069,'Death of the Zeitgeist',14,12,654),(15070,'Clear smoke,',1,1,655),(15071,'a fire in the far off',2,1,655),(15072,'haze of summer,',3,1,655),(15073,'burning somewhere.',4,1,655),(15074,'What is',5,2,655),(15075,'a lonely heart for',6,2,655),(15076,'if not',7,2,655),(15077,'for itself alone.',8,2,655),(15078,'Do the questions',9,3,655),(15079,'answer themselves,',10,3,655),(15080,'all wonder',11,3,655),(15081,'brought to a reckoning?',12,3,655),(15082,'When you are done,',13,4,655),(15083,'I am done,',14,4,655),(15084,'then it seems that',15,4,655),(15085,'one by one',16,4,655),(15086,'we can leave it all,',17,5,655),(15087,'to go on.',18,5,655),(15088,'Because birds will show only',1,1,656),(15089,'the side',2,1,656),(15090,'that you’re not looking at',3,1,656),(15091,'And you won’t close',4,2,656),(15092,'your eyes',5,2,656),(15093,'Because you want',6,3,656),(15094,'a feather in your cap',7,3,656),(15095,'Long ago on a night of danger and vigil',1,1,657),(15096,'a friend said, why are you happy?',2,1,657),(15097,'He explained (we lay together',3,1,657),(15098,'on a cold hard floor) what prison',4,1,657),(15099,'meant because he had done',5,1,657),(15100,'time, and I talked of the death',6,1,657),(15101,'of friends. Why are you happy',7,1,657),(15102,'then, he asked, close to',8,1,657),(15103,'angry.',9,1,657),(15104,'I said, I like my life. If I',10,2,657),(15105,'have to give it back, if they',11,2,657),(15106,'take it from me, let me',12,2,657),(15107,'not feel I wasted any, let me',13,2,657),(15108,'not feel I forgot to love anyone',14,2,657),(15109,'I meant to love, that I forgot',15,2,657),(15110,'to give what I held in my hands,',16,2,657),(15111,'that I forgot to do some little',17,2,657),(15112,'piece of the work that wanted',18,2,657),(15113,'to come through.',19,2,657),(15114,'Sun and moonshine, starshine,',20,3,657),(15115,'the muted light off the waters',21,3,657),(15116,'of the bay at night, the white',22,3,657),(15117,'light of the fog stealing in,',23,3,657),(15118,'the first spears of morning',24,3,657),(15119,'touching a face',25,3,657),(15120,'I love. We all lose',26,3,657),(15121,'everything. We lose',27,3,657),(15122,'ourselves. We are lost.',28,3,657),(15123,'Only what we manage to do',29,4,657),(15124,'lasts, what love sculpts from us;',30,4,657),(15125,'but what I count, my rubies, my',31,4,657),(15126,'children, are those moments',32,4,657),(15127,'wide open when I know clearly',33,4,657),(15128,'who I am, who you are, what we',34,4,657),(15129,'do, a marigold, an oakleaf, a meteor,',35,4,657),(15130,'with all my senses hungry and filled',36,4,657),(15131,'at once like a pitcher with light.',37,4,657),(15132,'[2]',1,1,658),(15133,'I go where I love and where I am loved,',2,2,658),(15134,'into the snow;',3,2,658),(15135,'I go to the things I love',4,3,658),(15136,'with no thought of duty or pity;',5,3,658),(15137,'I go where I belong, inexorably,',6,4,658),(15138,'as the rain that has lain long',7,4,658),(15139,'in the furrow; I have given',8,5,658),(15140,'or would have given',9,5,658),(15141,'life to the grain;',10,6,658),(15142,'but if it will not grow or ripen',11,6,658),(15143,'with the rain of beauty,',12,7,658),(15144,'the rain will return to the cloud;',13,7,658),(15145,'the harvester sharpens his steel on the stone;',14,8,658),(15146,'but this is not our field,',15,8,658),(15147,'we have not sown this;',16,9,658),(15148,'pitiless, pitiless, let us leave',17,9,658),(15149,'The-place-of-a-skull',18,10,658),(15150,'to those who have fashioned it.',19,10,658),(15151,'This is what life does. It lets you walk up to',1,1,659),(15152,'the store to buy breakfast and the paper, on a',2,1,659),(15153,'stiff knee. It lets you choose the way you have',3,1,659),(15154,'your eggs, your coffee. Then it sits a fisherman',4,1,659),(15155,'down beside you at the counter who says, Last night,',5,1,659),(15156,'the channel was full of starfish. And you wonder,',6,1,659),(15157,'is this a message, finally, or just another day?',7,1,659),(15158,'Life lets you take the dog for a walk down to the',8,2,659),(15159,'pond, where whole generations of biological',9,2,659),(15160,'processes are boiling beneath the mud. Reeds',10,2,659),(15161,'speak to you of the natural world: they whisper,',11,2,659),(15162,'they sing. And herons pass by. Are you old',12,2,659),(15163,'enough to appreciate the moment? Too old?',13,2,659),(15164,'There is movement beneath the water, but it',14,2,659),(15165,'may be nothing. There may be nothing going on.',15,2,659),(15166,'And then life suggests that you remember the',16,3,659),(15167,'years you ran around, the years you developed',17,3,659),(15168,'a shocking lifestyle, advocated careless abandon,',18,3,659),(15169,'owned a chilly heart. Upon reflection, you are',19,3,659),(15170,'genuinely surprised to find how quiet you have',20,3,659),(15171,'become. And then life lets you go home to think',21,3,659),(15172,'about all this. Which you do, for quite a long time.',22,3,659),(15173,'Later, you wake up beside your old love, the one',23,4,659),(15174,'who never had any conditions, the one who waited',24,4,659),(15175,'you out. This is life’s way of letting you know that',25,4,659),(15176,'you are lucky. (It won’t give you smart or brave,',26,4,659),(15177,'so you’ll have to settle for lucky.) Because you',27,4,659),(15178,'were born at a good time. Because you were able',28,4,659),(15179,'to listen when people spoke to you. Because you',29,4,659),(15180,'stopped when you should have and started again.',30,4,659),(15181,'So life lets you have a sandwich, and pie for your',31,5,659),(15182,'late night dessert. (Pie for the dog, as well.) And',32,5,659),(15183,'then life sends you back to bed, to dreamland,',33,5,659),(15184,'while outside, the starfish drift through the channel,',34,5,659),(15185,'with smiles on their starry faces as they head',35,5,659),(15186,'out to deep water, to the far and boundless sea.',36,5,659),(15187,'Think in ways you’ve never thought before',1,1,660),(15188,'If the phone rings, think of it as carrying a message',2,1,660),(15189,'Larger than anything you’ve ever heard,',3,1,660),(15190,'Vaster than a hundred lines of Yeats.',4,1,660),(15191,'Think that someone may bring a bear to your door,',5,2,660),(15192,'Maybe wounded and deranged: or think that a moose',6,2,660),(15193,'Has risen out of the lake, and he’s carrying on his antlers',7,2,660),(15194,'A child of your own whom you’ve never seen.',8,2,660),(15195,'When someone knocks on the door, think that he’s about',9,3,660),(15196,'To give you something large: tell you you’re forgiven,',10,3,660),(15197,'Or that it’s not necessary to work all the time, or that it’s',11,3,660),(15198,'Been decided that if you lie down no one will die.',12,3,660),(15199,'I never intended to have this life, believe me—',1,1,661),(15200,'It just happened. You know how dogs turn up',2,1,661),(15201,'At a farm, and they wag but can’t explain.',3,1,661),(15202,'It’s good if you can accept your life—you’ll notice',4,2,661),(15203,'Your face has become deranged trying to adjust',5,2,661),(15204,'To it. Your face thought your life would look',6,2,661),(15205,'Like your bedroom mirror when you were ten.',7,3,661),(15206,'That was a clear river touched by mountain wind.',8,3,661),(15207,'Even your parents can’t believe how much you’ve changed.',9,3,661),(15208,'Sparrows in winter, if you’ve ever held one, all feathers,',10,4,661),(15209,'Burst out of your hand with a fiery glee.',11,4,661),(15210,'You see them later in hedges. Teachers praise you,',12,4,661),(15211,'But you can’t quite get back to the winter sparrow.',13,5,661),(15212,'Your life is a dog. He’s been hungry for miles,',14,5,661),(15213,'Doesn’t particularly like you, but gives up, and comes in.',15,5,661),(15214,'Stay, I said',1,1,662),(15215,'to the cut flowers.',2,1,662),(15216,'They bowed',3,1,662),(15217,'their heads lower.',4,1,662),(15218,'Stay, I said to the spider,',5,2,662),(15219,'who fled.',6,2,662),(15220,'Stay, leaf.',7,3,662),(15221,'It reddened,',8,3,662),(15222,'embarrassed for me and itself.',9,3,662),(15223,'Stay, I said to my body.',10,4,662),(15224,'It sat as a dog does,',11,4,662),(15225,'obedient for a moment,',12,4,662),(15226,'soon starting to tremble.',13,4,662),(15227,'Stay, to the earth',14,5,662),(15228,'of riverine valley meadows,',15,5,662),(15229,'of fossiled escarpments,',16,5,662),(15230,'of limestone and sandstone.',17,5,662),(15231,'It looked back',18,5,662),(15232,'with a changing expression, in silence.',19,5,662),(15233,'Stay, I said to my loves.',20,6,662),(15234,'Each answered,',21,6,662),(15235,'Always.',22,6,662),(15236,'Walking in the dark streets of Seoul',1,1,663),(15237,'under the almost full moon.',2,1,663),(15238,'Lost for the last two hours.',3,1,663),(15239,'Finishing a loaf of bread',4,1,663),(15240,'and worried about the curfew.',5,1,663),(15241,'I have not spoken for three days',6,1,663),(15242,'and I am thinking, “Why not just',7,1,663),(15243,'settle for love? Why not just',8,1,663),(15244,'settle for love instead?”',9,1,663),(15245,'You are riding the bus again',1,1,664),(15246,'burrowing into the blackness of Interstate 80,',2,1,664),(15247,'the sole passenger',3,1,664),(15248,'with an overhead light on.',4,2,664),(15249,'And I am with you.',5,2,664),(15250,'I’m the interminable fields you can’t see,',6,2,664),(15251,'the little lights off in the distance',7,3,664),(15252,'(in one of those rooms we are',8,3,664),(15253,'living) and I am the rain',9,3,664),(15254,'and the others all',10,4,664),(15255,'around you, and the loneliness you love,',11,4,664),(15256,'and the universe that loves you specifically, maybe,',12,4,664),(15257,'and the catastrophic dawn,',13,5,664),(15258,'the nicotine crawling on your skin—',14,5,664),(15259,'and when you begin',15,5,664),(15260,'to cough I won’t cover my face,',16,6,664),(15261,'and if you vomit this time I will hold you:',17,6,664),(15262,'everything’s going to be fine',18,6,664),(15263,'I will whisper.',19,7,664),(15264,'It won’t always be like this.',20,7,664),(15265,'I am going to buy you a sandwich.',21,7,664),(15266,'Even pain you can take, in waves:',1,1,665),(15267,'call the interval happiness. You can',2,1,665),(15268,'travel; whatever nags you, you can',3,1,665),(15269,'change it. You can roll this burden away.',4,1,665),(15270,'In the pinched bend of your street',5,1,665),(15271,'you can look back, or ahead, or wait.',6,1,665),(15272,'And there is easy talk, for throwing',7,2,665),(15273,'back like Annie-Over, or a minuet,',8,2,665),(15274,'a way to act human in these years the stars',9,2,665),(15275,'look past. And somewhere around you begins',10,2,665),(15276,'that lifted road lighted by sunset, offered',11,2,665),(15277,'again and again, laced where the sky lives:',12,2,665),(15278,'Someday your road.',13,3,665),(15279,'Pain froze you, for years—and fear—leaving scars.',1,1,666),(15280,'But now, as though miraculously, it seems, here you are',2,1,666),(15281,'walking easily across the ground, and into town',3,2,666),(15282,'as though you were floating on air, which in part you are,',4,2,666),(15283,'or riding a wave of what feels like the world’s good will—',5,3,666),(15284,'though helped along by something foreign and older than you are',6,3,666),(15285,'and yet much younger too, inside you, and so palpable',7,4,666),(15286,'an X-ray, you’re sure, would show it, within the body you are,',8,4,666),(15287,'not all that far beneath the skin, and even in',9,5,666),(15288,'some bones. Making you wonder: Are you what you are—',10,5,666),(15289,'with all that isn’t actually you having flowed',11,6,666),(15290,'through and settled in you, and made you what you are?',12,6,666),(15291,'The pain was never replaced, nor was it quite erased.',13,7,666),(15292,'It’s memory now—so you know just how lucky you are.',14,7,666),(15293,'You didn’t always. Were you then? And where’s the fear?',15,8,666),(15294,'Inside your words, like an engine? The car you are?!',16,8,666),(15295,'Face it, friend, you most exist when you’re driven',17,9,666),(15296,'away, or on—by forms and forces greater than you are.',18,9,666),(15297,'I climb the mountain.',1,1,667),(15298,'Up steps the moon has already taken.',2,1,667),(15299,'Of Absence. Of things broken.',3,1,667),(15300,'To see if the moon is a mouth.',4,1,667),(15301,'To see if I am what it wants.',5,1,667),(15302,'We say',1,1,668),(15303,'pinhole.',2,1,668),(15304,'A pin hole',3,1,668),(15305,'of light. We',4,1,668),(15306,'can’t imagine',5,1,668),(15307,'how bright',6,1,668),(15308,'more of it',7,1,668),(15309,'could be,',8,1,668),(15310,'the way',9,1,668),(15311,'this much',10,1,668),(15312,'defeats night.',11,1,668),(15313,'It almost',12,1,668),(15314,'isn’t fair,',13,1,668),(15315,'whoever',14,1,668),(15316,'poked this,',15,1,668),(15317,'with such',16,1,668),(15318,'a small act',17,1,668),(15319,'to vanquish',18,1,668),(15320,'blackness.',19,1,668),(15321,'The poppies send up their',1,1,669),(15322,'orange flares; swaying',2,1,669),(15323,'in the wind, their congregations',3,1,669),(15324,'are a levitation',4,1,669),(15325,'of bright dust, of thin',5,2,669),(15326,'and lacy leaves.',6,2,669),(15327,'There isn’t a place',7,2,669),(15328,'in this world that doesn’t',8,2,669),(15329,'sooner or later drown',9,3,669),(15330,'in the indigos of darkness,',10,3,669),(15331,'but now, for a while,',11,3,669),(15332,'the roughage',12,3,669),(15333,'shines like a miracle',13,4,669),(15334,'as it floats above everything',14,4,669),(15335,'with its yellow hair.',15,4,669),(15336,'Of course nothing stops the cold,',16,4,669),(15337,'black, curved blade',17,5,669),(15338,'from hooking forward—',18,5,669),(15339,'of course',19,5,669),(15340,'loss is the great lesson.',20,5,669),(15341,'But I also say this: that light',21,6,669),(15342,'is an invitation',22,6,669),(15343,'to happiness,',23,6,669),(15344,'and that happiness,',24,6,669),(15345,'when it’s done right,',25,7,669),(15346,'is a kind of holiness,',26,7,669),(15347,'palpable and redemptive.',27,7,669),(15348,'Inside the bright fields,',28,7,669),(15349,'touched by their rough and spongy gold,',29,8,669),(15350,'I am washed and washed',30,8,669),(15351,'in the river',31,8,669),(15352,'of earthly delight—',32,8,669),(15353,'and what are you going to do—',33,9,669),(15354,'what can you do',34,9,669),(15355,'about it—',35,9,669),(15356,'deep, blue night?',36,9,669),(15357,'won’t you celebrate with me',1,1,670),(15358,'what i have shaped into',2,1,670),(15359,'a kind of life? i had no model.',3,1,670),(15360,'born in babylon',4,1,670),(15361,'both nonwhite and woman',5,1,670),(15362,'what did i see to be except myself?',6,1,670),(15363,'i made it up',7,1,670),(15364,'here on this bridge between',8,1,670),(15365,'starshine and clay,',9,1,670),(15366,'my one hand holding tight',10,1,670),(15367,'my one hand; come celebrate',11,1,670),(15368,'with me that everyday',12,1,670),(15369,'something has tried to kill me',13,1,670),(15370,'and has failed.',14,1,670),(15371,'Seeing that there’s no other way,',1,1,671),(15372,'I turn his absence into a chair.',2,1,671),(15373,'I can sit in it,',3,1,671),(15374,'gaze out through the window.',4,1,671),(15375,'I can do what I do best',5,1,671),(15376,'and then go out into the world.',6,1,671),(15377,'And I can return then with my useless love,',7,1,671),(15378,'to rest,',8,1,671),(15379,'because the chair is there.',9,1,671),(15380,'Broken things are loveliest,',1,1,672),(15381,'Broken clouds when dusk is red,',2,1,672),(15382,'Broken waves where a rainbow rides,',3,1,672),(15383,'Broken words left half unsaid.',4,1,672),(15384,'Broken things, broken things—',5,2,672),(15385,'How quietly they comfort me,',6,2,672),(15386,'Riven cliffs, where I can watch',7,2,672),(15387,'The broken beauty of the sea.',8,2,672),(15388,'Listen',1,1,673),(15389,'with the night falling we are saying thank you',2,1,673),(15390,'we are stopping on the bridges to bow from the railings',3,1,673),(15391,'we are running out of the glass rooms',4,1,673),(15392,'with our mouths full of food to look at the sky',5,1,673),(15393,'and say thank you',6,1,673),(15394,'we are standing by the water thanking it',7,1,673),(15395,'smiling by the windows looking out',8,1,673),(15396,'in our directions',9,1,673),(15397,'back from a series of hospitals back from a mugging',10,2,673),(15398,'after funerals we are saying thank you',11,2,673),(15399,'after the news of the dead',12,2,673),(15400,'whether or not we knew them we are saying thank you',13,2,673),(15401,'over telephones we are saying thank you',14,3,673),(15402,'in doorways and in the backs of cars and in elevators',15,3,673),(15403,'remembering wars and the police at the door',16,3,673),(15404,'and the beatings on stairs we are saying thank you',17,3,673),(15405,'in the banks we are saying thank you',18,3,673),(15406,'in the faces of the officials and the rich',19,3,673),(15407,'and of all who will never change',20,3,673),(15408,'we go on saying thank you thank you',21,3,673),(15409,'with the animals dying around us',22,4,673),(15410,'our lost feelings we are saying thank you',23,4,673),(15411,'with the forests falling faster than the minutes',24,4,673),(15412,'of our lives we are saying thank you',25,4,673),(15413,'with the words going out like cells of a brain',26,4,673),(15414,'with the cities growing over us',27,4,673),(15415,'we are saying thank you faster and faster',28,4,673),(15416,'with nobody listening we are saying thank you',29,4,673),(15417,'we are saying thank you and waving',30,4,673),(15418,'dark though it is',31,4,673),(15419,'Finding is losing something else.',1,1,674),(15420,'I think about, perhaps even mourn,',2,1,674),(15421,'what I lost to find this.',3,1,674),(15422,'Woke up this morning with',1,1,675),(15423,'a terrific urge to lie in bed all day',2,1,675),(15424,'and read. Fought against it for a minute.',3,1,675),(15425,'Then looked out the window at the rain.',4,2,675),(15426,'And gave over. Put myself entirely',5,2,675),(15427,'in the keep of this rainy morning.',6,2,675),(15428,'Would I live my life over again?',7,3,675),(15429,'Make the same unforgiveable mistakes?',8,3,675),(15430,'Yes, given half a chance. Yes.',9,3,675),(15431,'Sometimes you look at an empty valley like this,',1,1,676),(15432,'and suddenly the air is filled with snow.',2,1,676),(15433,'That is the way the whole world happened—',3,1,676),(15434,'there was nothing, and then…',4,1,676),(15435,'But maybe some time you will look out and even',5,2,676),(15436,'the mountains are gone, the world become nothing',6,2,676),(15437,'again. What can a person do to help',7,2,676),(15438,'bring back the world?',8,2,676),(15439,'We have to watch it and then look at each other.',9,3,676),(15440,'Together we hold it close and carefully',10,3,676),(15441,'save it, like a bubble that can disappear',11,3,676),(15442,'if we don’t watch out.',12,3,676),(15443,'Please think about this as you go on. Breath on the world.',13,4,676),(15444,'Hold out your hands to it. When mornings and evenings',14,4,676),(15445,'roll along, watch how they open and close, how they',15,4,676),(15446,'invite you to the long party that your life is.',16,4,676),(15447,'Love, love, love, says Percy.',1,1,677),(15448,'And hurry as fast as you can',2,1,677),(15449,'along the shining beach, or the rubble, or the dust.',3,1,677),(15450,'Then, go to sleep.',4,2,677),(15451,'Give up your body heat, your beating heart.',5,2,677),(15452,'Then, trust.',6,2,677),(15453,'Even the long-beloved',1,1,678),(15454,'was once',2,1,678),(15455,'an unrecognized stranger.',3,1,678),(15456,'Just so,',4,2,678),(15457,'the chipped lip',5,2,678),(15458,'of a blue-glazed cup,',6,2,678),(15459,'blown field',7,2,678),(15460,'of a yellow curtain,',8,2,678),(15461,'might also,',9,2,678),(15462,'flooding and falling,',10,2,678),(15463,'ruin your heart.',11,2,678),(15464,'A table painted with roses.',12,3,678),(15465,'An empty clothesline.',13,3,678),(15466,'Each time,',14,4,678),(15467,'the found world surprises—',15,4,678),(15468,'that is its nature.',16,4,678),(15469,'And then',17,5,678),(15470,'what is said by all lovers:',18,5,678),(15471,'“What fools we were, not to have seen.”',19,5,678),(15472,'I’m not feeling strong yet, but I am taking',1,1,679),(15473,'good care of myself. The weather is perfect.',2,1,679),(15474,'I read and walk all day and then walk to the sea.',3,1,679),(15475,'I expect to swim soon. For now I am content.',4,1,679),(15476,'I am not sure what I hope for. I feel I am',5,1,679),(15477,'doing my best. It reminds me of when I was',6,1,679),(15478,'sixteen dreaming of Lorca, the gentle trees outside',7,1,679),(15479,'and the creek. Perhaps poetry replaces something',8,1,679),(15480,'in me that others receive more naturally.',9,1,679),(15481,'Perhaps my happiness proves a weakness in my life.',10,1,679),(15482,'Even my failures in poetry please me.',11,1,679),(15483,'Time is very different here. It is very good',12,1,679),(15484,'to be away from public ambition.',13,1,679),(15485,'I sweep and wash, cook and shop.',14,1,679),(15486,'Sometimes I go into town in the evening',15,1,679),(15487,'and have pastry with custard. Sometimes I sit',16,1,679),(15488,'at a table by the harbor and drink half a beer.',17,1,679),(15489,'Do you know what I was, how I lived? You know',1,1,680),(15490,'what despair is; then',2,1,680),(15491,'winter should have meaning for you.',3,1,680),(15492,'I did not expect to survive,',4,2,680),(15493,'earth suppressing me. I didn’t expect',5,2,680),(15494,'to waken again, to feel',6,2,680),(15495,'in damp earth my body',7,2,680),(15496,'able to respond again, remembering',8,2,680),(15497,'after so long how to open again',9,2,680),(15498,'in the cold light',10,2,680),(15499,'of earliest spring—',11,2,680),(15500,'afraid, yes, but among you again',12,3,680),(15501,'crying yes risk joy',13,3,680),(15502,'in the raw wind of the new world.',14,4,680),(15503,'What am I, after all, but a child, pleas’d with the sound of my own name? repeating it over and over;',1,1,681),(15504,'I stand apart to hear—it never tires me.',2,1,681),(15505,'To you, your name also;',3,2,681),(15506,'Did you think there was nothing but two or three pronunciations in the sound of your name?',4,2,681),(15507,'Letters swallow themselves in seconds.',1,1,682),(15508,'Notes friends tied to the doorknob,',2,1,682),(15509,'transparent scarlet paper,',3,1,682),(15510,'sizzle like moth wings,',4,1,682),(15511,'marry the air.',5,1,682),(15512,'So much of any year is flammable,',6,2,682),(15513,'lists of vegetables, partial poems.',7,2,682),(15514,'Orange swirling flame of days,',8,2,682),(15515,'so little is a stone.',9,2,682),(15516,'Where there was something and suddenly isn’t,',10,3,682),(15517,'an absence shouts, celebrates, leaves a space.',11,3,682),(15518,'I begin again with the smallest numbers.',12,3,682),(15519,'Quick dance, shuffle of losses and leaves,',13,4,682),(15520,'only the things I didn’t do',14,4,682),(15521,'crackle after the blazing dies.',15,4,682),(15522,'it will not be simple, it will not be long',1,1,683),(15523,'it will take little time, it will take all your thought',2,1,683),(15524,'it will take all your heart, it will take all your breath',3,1,683),(15525,'it will be short, it will not be simple',4,1,683),(15526,'it will touch through your ribs, it will take all your heart',5,2,683),(15527,'it will not be long, it will occupy your thought',6,2,683),(15528,'as a city is occupied, as a bed is occupied',7,2,683),(15529,'it will take all your flesh, it will not be simple',8,2,683),(15530,'You are coming into us who cannot withstand you',9,3,683),(15531,'you are coming into us who never wanted to withstand you',10,3,683),(15532,'you are taking parts of us into places never planned',11,3,683),(15533,'you are going far away with pieces of our lives',12,3,683),(15534,'it will be short, it will take all your breath',13,4,683),(15535,'it will not be simple, it will become your will',14,4,683),(15536,'Taking the hands of someone you love,',1,1,684),(15537,'You see they are delicate cages…',2,1,684),(15538,'Tiny birds are singing',3,1,684),(15539,'In the secluded prairies',4,1,684),(15540,'And in the deep valleys of the hand.',5,1,684),(15541,'January finally drags into February and one fumbles with',1,1,685),(15542,'numb fingers at the ordinary knots and hooks of life. People',2,1,685),(15543,'are irritable, difficult. Some days you want to stay in bed',3,1,685),(15544,'with the covers over your head and dream of paradise. A',4,1,685),(15545,'place where the warm sea washes the white sand. There',5,1,685),(15546,'are a few palm trees on the higher ground, many brightly',6,1,685),(15547,'colored fish in the lagoon, waves breaking on the reef',7,1,685),(15548,'farther out. No one in sight. Occasionally an incredibly',8,1,685),(15549,'large, split-second shark darkens the clear water. Sea birds',9,1,685),(15550,'ride the wind currents, albatross, kittiwake, … and pass',10,1,685),(15551,'on. Day after day, sea wind and perfect sky … You make a',11,1,685),(15552,'big heap of driftwood on the beach.',12,1,685),(15553,'Today again I am hardly myself.',1,1,686),(15554,'It happens over and over.',2,1,686),(15555,'It is heaven-sent.',3,1,686),(15556,'It flows through me',4,2,686),(15557,'like the blue wave.',5,2,686),(15558,'Green leaves — you may believe this or not —',6,2,686),(15559,'have once or twice',7,2,686),(15560,'emerged from the tips of my fingers',8,2,686),(15561,'somewhere',9,3,686),(15562,'deep in the woods,',10,3,686),(15563,'in the reckless seizure of spring.',11,3,686),(15564,'Though, of course, I also know that other song,',12,4,686),(15565,'the sweet passion of one-ness.',13,4,686),(15566,'Just yesterday I watched an ant crossing a path, through the',14,5,686),(15567,'tumbled pine needles she toiled.',15,5,686),(15568,'And I thought: she will never live another life but this one.',16,5,686),(15569,'And I thought: if she lives her life with all her strength',17,5,686),(15570,'is she not wonderful and wise?',18,5,686),(15571,'And I continued this up the miraculous pyramid of everything',19,5,686),(15572,'until I came to myself.',20,5,686),(15573,'And still, even in these northern woods, on these hills of sand,',21,6,686),(15574,'I have flown from the other window of myself',22,6,686),(15575,'to become white heron, blue whale,',23,6,686),(15576,'red fox, hedgehog.',24,6,686),(15577,'Oh, sometimes already my body has felt like the body of a flower!',25,6,686),(15578,'Sometimes already my heart is a red parrot, perched',26,6,686),(15579,'among strange, dark trees, flapping and screaming.',27,6,686),(15580,'who needs it',1,1,687),(15581,'I had another day in mind',2,1,687),(15582,'something like this one',3,1,687),(15583,'sunny green the earth',4,1,687),(15584,'just right having suffered',5,1,687),(15585,'the assault of what is called',6,1,687),(15586,'torrential rain the pepper',7,1,687),(15587,'the basil sitting upright',8,1,687),(15588,'in their little boxes waiting',9,1,687),(15589,'I suppose for me also the',10,1,687),(15590,'cosmos the zinnias nearly',11,1,687),(15591,'blooming a year too late',12,1,687),(15592,'forget it let the day go',13,1,687),(15593,'the sweet green day let it',14,1,687),(15594,'take care of itself',15,1,687),(15595,'I whispered, ‘I am too young,’',1,1,688),(15596,'And then, ‘I am old enough’;',2,1,688),(15597,'Wherefore I threw a penny',3,1,688),(15598,'To find out if I might love.',4,1,688),(15599,'‘Go and love, go and love, young man,',5,1,688),(15600,'If the lady be young and fair.’',6,1,688),(15601,'Ay, penny, brown penny, brown penny,',7,1,688),(15602,'I am looped in the loops of her hair.',8,1,688),(15603,'O love is the crooked thing,',9,2,688),(15604,'There is nobody wise enough',10,2,688),(15605,'To find out all that is in it,',11,2,688),(15606,'For he would be thinking of love',12,2,688),(15607,'Till the stars had run away',13,2,688),(15608,'And the shadows eaten the moon.',14,2,688),(15609,'Ah, penny, brown penny, brown penny,',15,2,688),(15610,'One cannot begin it too soon.',16,2,688),(15611,'Finally, I gave up on obeisance,',1,1,689),(15612,'and refused to welcome',2,1,689),(15613,'either retribution or the tease',3,1,689),(15614,'of sunny days. As for the can’t-be-',4,2,689),(15615,'seen, the sum-of-all-details,',5,2,689),(15616,'the One—oh, when it came',6,2,689),(15617,'to salvation I was only sure',7,3,689),(15618,'I needed to be spared',8,3,689),(15619,'someone else’s version of it.',9,3,689),(15620,'The small prayers I devised',10,4,689),(15621,'had in them the hard sounds',11,4,689),(15622,'of split and frost.',12,4,689),(15623,'I wanted them to speak',13,5,689),(15624,'as if it made sense to speak',14,5,689),(15625,'to what isn’t there',15,5,689),(15626,'in the beaconless dark.',16,6,689),(15627,'I wanted them to startle',17,6,689),(15628,'by how little they asked.',18,6,689),(15629,'a drink',1,1,690),(15630,'would be nice now',2,1,690),(15631,'sunset sky',3,1,690),(15632,'Sitting on the deck, bare feet',1,1,691),(15633,'on the railing, I watch and listen to',2,1,691),(15634,'this day spilling out its myriad flow of details, one',3,1,691),(15635,'after another, one on top of another, seamlessly,',4,1,691),(15636,'with no apologies, not the slightest backing off:',5,1,691),(15637,'two ruby-throated humming birds',6,1,691),(15638,'drinking their sugar water, distant dogs',7,1,691),(15639,'barking, the sudden shriek',8,1,691),(15640,'of wood surrendering to a neighbor’s power saw,',9,1,691),(15641,'those boulders poking out of the hillside, another subdivision',10,1,691),(15642,'materializing on the stripped land across the valley.',11,1,691),(15643,'Each detail says “This!”',12,1,691),(15644,'and has always and ever only said “This!”',13,1,691),(15645,'Wish I were here.',14,1,691),(15646,'At times my life suddenly opens its eyes in the dark.',1,1,692),(15647,'A feeling of masses of people pushing blindly',2,1,692),(15648,'through the streets, excitedly, toward some miracle,',3,1,692),(15649,'while I remain here and no one sees me.',4,1,692),(15650,'It is like the child who falls asleep in terror',5,2,692),(15651,'listening to the heavy thumps of his heart.',6,2,692),(15652,'For a long, long time till morning puts his light in the locks',7,2,692),(15653,'and the doors of darkness open.',8,2,692),(15654,'A slower pace, a somewhat slower pace will do.',1,1,693),(15655,'Of a sudden, should it start to rain,',2,1,693),(15656,'let yourself get soaked.',3,1,693),(15657,'An old friend, the rain.',4,1,693),(15658,'One thing alone is beautiful: setting off.',5,2,693),(15659,'The world’s too vast',6,2,693),(15660,'to live in a single place,',7,2,693),(15661,'or three or four.',8,2,693),(15662,'Walk on and on',9,3,693),(15663,'until the sun sets,',10,3,693),(15664,'with your old accomplice,',11,3,693),(15665,'shadow, late as ever.',12,3,693),(15666,'If the day clouds over,',13,3,693),(15667,'go on anyway',14,3,693),(15668,'regardless.',15,3,693),(15669,'There are two versions of every life.',1,1,694),(15670,'In the first one, you get a mother, a father,',2,2,694),(15671,'your very own room.',3,2,694),(15672,'You learn to walk, which is only done by walking.',4,3,694),(15673,'You learn the past tense of have, which is hunger.',5,3,694),(15674,'You learn to ask almost anything',6,4,694),(15675,'is to ask it to be over,',7,4,694),(15676,'as when the lover asks the other',8,4,694),(15677,'“Are you sleeping? Are you beginning',9,5,694),(15678,'to go away?”',10,5,694),(15679,'(And whether or not you learn it, life does not penetrate',11,6,694),(15680,'more than five miles above the earth',12,6,694),(15681,'or reach more than three miles beneath the sea.',13,6,694),(15682,'Life is eight miles long.',14,7,694),(15683,'You could walk it, and be there before sundown.',15,8,694),(15684,'Or swim it, or fall it, or crawl it.)',16,8,694),(15685,'The second is told from the point',17,9,694),(15686,'of view of the sky.',18,9,694),(15687,'What little we have ever understood',1,1,695),(15688,'is like an offering we make beside the sea.',2,1,695),(15689,'It is pure worship when pursued',3,1,695),(15690,'as its own end, to find out. Mystery,',4,1,695),(15691,'the undiminishable silent flood,',5,1,695),(15692,'stretches on out from where we pray',6,1,695),(15693,'round the clear altar flame. The god',7,1,695),(15694,'accepts the sacrifice and turns away.',8,1,695),(15695,'It is a kind of love, is it not?',1,1,696),(15696,'How the cup holds the tea,',2,1,696),(15697,'How the chair stands sturdy and foursquare,',3,1,696),(15698,'How the floor receives the bottoms of shoes',4,1,696),(15699,'Or toes. How soles of feet know',5,1,696),(15700,'Where they’re supposed to be.',6,1,696),(15701,'I’ve been thinking about the patience',7,1,696),(15702,'Of ordinary things, how clothes',8,1,696),(15703,'Wait respectfully in closets',9,1,696),(15704,'And soap dries quietly in the dish,',10,1,696),(15705,'And towels drink the wet',11,1,696),(15706,'From the skin of the back.',12,1,696),(15707,'And the lovely repetition of stairs.',13,1,696),(15708,'And what is more generous than a window?',14,1,696),(15709,'So, there’s no way to be sure. Not',1,1,697),(15710,'about much of anything. No more about',2,1,697),(15711,'anyone else than ourselves. Perhaps',3,1,697),(15712,'not even of death, except that it’s bound',4,1,697),(15713,'to happen. To you, yes; to me, us: the lot',5,1,697),(15714,'of humankind, given how humankind sees it',6,1,697),(15715,'from this near side. So what.',7,1,697),(15716,'So nothing that we here and now',8,2,697),(15717,'can perfectly know. Save, though the lens',9,2,697),(15718,'our eyes raise, the old here and now.',10,2,697),(15719,'The this, the already-going that moves us.',11,2,697),(15720,'The red-shift we’re constantly part of.',12,2,697),(15721,'And why not? Between what we were, and',13,2,697),(15722,'are going to be, is who and how we best love.',14,2,697),(15723,'crumbling. It died of old age,',1,1,698),(15724,'I tell you, like a man. We wept.',2,1,698),(15725,'We had worn our time upon it, put',3,1,698),(15726,'our arms around to touch fingertips',4,1,698),(15727,'and we measured ourselves, our feelings',5,1,698),(15728,'on the years. We made our calculations',6,1,698),(15729,'pay, then. Now, the fears, age,',7,1,698),(15730,'daily mathematics. The tree held',8,1,698),(15731,'the green. Birds, squirrels, coons',9,1,698),(15732,'made memory there until the day it fell.',10,1,698),(15733,'They got out. It groaned for twenty minutes.',11,1,698),(15734,'I tell you, it sighed as it bent,',12,1,698),(15735,'its branches catching the dull fall,',13,1,698),(15736,'the soft turning in wet dissolution.',14,1,698),(15737,'The body lay exposed: a gut of grubs,',15,1,698),(15738,'a lust of hollowness. We wept,',16,1,698),(15739,'as I say, more than it was called for.',17,1,698),(15740,'This morning was something. A little snow',1,1,699),(15741,'lay on the ground. The sun floated in a clear',2,1,699),(15742,'blue sky. The sea was blue, and blue-green,',3,1,699),(15743,'as far as the eye could see.',4,1,699),(15744,'Scarcely a ripple. Calm. I dressed and went',5,1,699),(15745,'for a walk — determined not to return',6,1,699),(15746,'until I took in what Nature had to offer.',7,1,699),(15747,'I passed close to some old, bent-over trees.',8,1,699),(15748,'Crossed a field strewn with rocks',9,1,699),(15749,'where snow had drifted. Kept going',10,1,699),(15750,'until I reached the bluff.',11,1,699),(15751,'Where I gazed at the sea, and the sky, and',12,1,699),(15752,'the gulls wheeling over the white beach',13,1,699),(15753,'far below. All lovely. All bathed in a pure',14,1,699),(15754,'cold light. But, as usual, my thoughts',15,1,699),(15755,'began to wander. I had to will',16,1,699),(15756,'myself to see what I was seeing',17,1,699),(15757,'and nothing else. I had to tell myself this is what',18,1,699),(15758,'mattered, not the other. (And I did see it,',19,1,699),(15759,'for a minute or two!) For a minute or two',20,1,699),(15760,'it crowded out the usual musings on',21,1,699),(15761,'what was right, and what was wrong — duty,',22,1,699),(15762,'tender memories, thoughts of death, how I should treat',23,1,699),(15763,'with my former wife. All the things',24,1,699),(15764,'I hoped would go away this morning.',25,1,699),(15765,'The stuff I live with every day. What',26,1,699),(15766,'I’ve trampled on in order to stay alive.',27,1,699),(15767,'But for a minute or two I did forget',28,1,699),(15768,'myself and everything else. I know I did.',29,1,699),(15769,'For when I turned back i didn’t know',30,1,699),(15770,'where I was. Until some birds rose up',31,1,699),(15771,'from the gnarled trees. And flew',32,1,699),(15772,'in the direction I needed to be going.',33,1,699),(15773,'If this is Wednesday, write Lazartigues, return library books, pick up passport form, cancel the paper.',1,1,700),(15774,'If this is Wednesday, mail B her flyers and K her shirts. Last thing I asked as I walked K to her car, “You sure you have everything?” “Oh yes,” she smiled, as she squalled off. Whole wardrobe in front closet.',2,2,700),(15775,'Go to Morrison’s for paint samples, that’s where housepainter has account (near Pier One), swing by Gano St. for another bunch of hydroponic lettuce. Stop at cleaners if there’s parking.',3,3,700),(15776,'Pap smear at 4. After last month with B’s ear infections, can’t bear sitting in damn doctor’s office. Never a magazine or picture on the wall worth looking at. Pack a book.',4,4,700),(15777,'Ever since B born, nothing comes clear. My mind like a mirror that’s been in a fire. Does this happen to the others.',5,5,700),(15778,'If this is Wednesday, meet Moss at the house at noon. Pick B up first, call sitter about Friday evening. If she prefers, can bring B to her (hope she keeps the apartment warmer this year).',6,6,700),(15779,'Need coat hooks and picture hangers for office. Should take car in for air filter, oil change. F said one of back tires low. Don’t forget car payment, late last two months in a row.',7,7,700),(15780,'If this is Wednesday, there’s a demo on the green at 11. Took B to his first down at Quonset Point in August. Blue skies. Boston collective provided good grub for all. Long column of denims and flannel shirts. Smell of patchouli made me so wistful, wanted to buy a woodstove, prop my feet up, share a J and a pot of Constant Comment with a friend. Maybe some zucchini bread.',8,8,700),(15781,'Meet with honors students from 1 to 4. At the community college I tried to incite them to poetry. Convince them this line of work, beat the bejesus out of a gig as gizzard splitter at the processing plant or cleaning up after a leak at the germ warfare center. Be all you can be, wrap rubber band around your trigger finger until it drops off.',9,9,700),(15782,'Swim at 10:00 before picking up B, before demo on the green, and before meeting moss, if it isn’t too crowded. Only three old women talking about their daughters-in-law last Wednesday at 10:00.',10,10,700),(15783,'Phone hardware to see if radon test arrived.',11,11,700),(15784,'Keep an eye out for a new yellow blanket. Left B’s on the plane, though he seems over it already. Left most recent issue of Z in the seat. That will make a few businessmen boil. I liked the man who sat next to me, he was sweet to B. Hated flying, said he never let all of his weight down.',12,12,700),(15785,'Need to get books in the mail today. Make time pass in line at the P.O. imagining man in front of me butt naked. Fellow in the good-preacher-blue-suit, probably has a cold, hard bottom.',13,13,700),(15786,'Call N for green tomato recipe. Have to get used to the Yankee growing season. If this is Wednesday, N goes in hospital today. Find out how long after marrow transplant before can visit.',14,14,700),(15787,'Mother said she read in paper that Pete was granted a divorce. His third. My highschool boyfriend. Meanest thing I could have done, I did to him, returning a long-saved-for engagement ring in a Band-Aid box, while he was stationed in Da Nang.',15,15,700),(15788,'Meant to tell F this morning about dream of eating grasshoppers, fried but happy. Our love a difficult instrument we are learning to play. Practice, practice.',16,16,700),(15789,'No matter where I call home anymore, feel like a boat under the trees. Living is strange.',17,17,700),(15790,'This week only; bargain on laid paper at East Side Copy Shop.',18,18,700),(15791,'Woman picking her nose at the stoplight. Shouldn’t look, only privacy we have anymore in the car. Isn’t that the woman from the colloquium last fall, who told me she was a stand-up environmentalist. What a wonderful trade, I said, because the evidence of planetary wrongdoing is overwhelming. Because because because of the horrible things we do.',19,19,700),(15792,'If this is Wednesday, meet F at Health Department at 10:45 for AIDS test.',20,20,700),(15793,'If this is Wednesday, it’s trash night.',21,21,700),(15794,'Reality demands',1,1,701),(15795,'that we also mention this:',2,1,701),(15796,'Life goes on.',3,1,701),(15797,'It continues at Cannae and Borodino,',4,1,701),(15798,'at Kosovo Polje and Guernica.',5,1,701),(15799,'There’s a gas station',6,2,701),(15800,'on a little square in Jericho,',7,2,701),(15801,'and wet paint',8,2,701),(15802,'on park benches in Bila Hora.',9,2,701),(15803,'Letters fly back and forth',10,2,701),(15804,'between Pearl Harbor and Hastings,',11,2,701),(15805,'a moving van passes',12,2,701),(15806,'beneath the eye of the lion at Chaeronea,',13,2,701),(15807,'and the blooming orchards near Verdun',14,2,701),(15808,'cannot escape',15,2,701),(15809,'the approaching atmospheric front.',16,2,701),(15810,'There is so much Everything',17,3,701),(15811,'that Nothing is hidden quite nicely.',18,3,701),(15812,'Music pours',19,3,701),(15813,'from the yachts moored at Actium',20,3,701),(15814,'and couples dance on the sunlit decks.',21,3,701),(15815,'So much is always going on,',22,4,701),(15816,'that it must be going on all over.',23,4,701),(15817,'Where not a stone still stands,',24,4,701),(15818,'you see the Ice Cream Man',25,4,701),(15819,'besieged by children.',26,4,701),(15820,'Where Hiroshima had been',27,4,701),(15821,'Hiroshima is again,',28,4,701),(15822,'producing many products',29,4,701),(15823,'for everyday use.',30,4,701),(15824,'This terrifying world is not devoid of charms,',31,4,701),(15825,'of the mornings',32,4,701),(15826,'that make waking up worthwhile.',33,4,701),(15827,'The grass is green',34,5,701),(15828,'on Maciejowice’s fields,',35,5,701),(15829,'and it is studded with dew,',36,5,701),(15830,'as is normal grass.',37,5,701),(15831,'Perhaps all fields are battlefields,',38,6,701),(15832,'those we remember',39,6,701),(15833,'and those that are forgotten:',40,6,701),(15834,'the birch forests and the cedar forests,',41,6,701),(15835,'the snow and the sand, the iridescent swamps',42,6,701),(15836,'and the canyons of black defeat,',43,6,701),(15837,'where now, when the need strikes, you don’t cower',44,6,701),(15838,'under a bush but squat behind it.',45,6,701),(15839,'What moral flows from this? Probably none.',46,7,701),(15840,'Only that blood flows, drying quickly,',47,7,701),(15841,'and, as always, a few rivers, a few clouds.',48,7,701),(15842,'On tragic mountain passes',49,8,701),(15843,'the wind rips hats from unwitting heads',50,8,701),(15844,'and we can’t help',51,8,701),(15845,'laughing at that.',52,8,701),(15846,'The moon did not become the sun.',1,1,702),(15847,'It just fell on the desert',2,1,702),(15848,'in great sheets, reams',3,1,702),(15849,'of silver handmade by you.',4,1,702),(15850,'The night is your cottage industry now,',5,1,702),(15851,'the day is your brisk emporium.',6,1,702),(15852,'The world is full of paper.',7,1,702),(15853,'Write to me.',8,2,702),(15854,'And did you get what',1,1,703),(15855,'you wanted from this life, even so?',2,1,703),(15856,'I did.',3,1,703),(15857,'And what did you want?',4,1,703),(15858,'To call myself beloved, to feel myself',5,1,703),(15859,'beloved on the earth.',6,1,703),(15860,'The arrowhead,',1,1,704),(15861,'which I found beside the river,',2,1,704),(15862,'was glittering and pointed.',3,1,704),(15863,'I picked it up, and said,',4,1,704),(15864,'“Now, it’s mine.”',5,1,704),(15865,'I thought of showing it to friends.',6,1,704),(15866,'I thought of putting it—such an imposing trinket—',7,1,704),(15867,'in a little box, on my desk.',8,1,704),(15868,'Halfway home, past the cut fields,',9,1,704),(15869,'the old ghost',10,1,704),(15870,'stood under the hickories.',11,1,704),(15871,'“I would rather drink the wind,” he said,',12,1,704),(15872,'“I would rather eat mud and die',13,1,704),(15873,'than steal as you steal,',14,1,704),(15874,'than lie as you lie.”',15,1,704),(15875,'I go down to the edge of the sea.',1,1,705),(15876,'How everything shines in the morning light!',2,1,705),(15877,'The cusp of the whelk,',3,1,705),(15878,'the broken cupboard of the clam,',4,1,705),(15879,'the opened, blue mussels,',5,1,705),(15880,'moon snails, pale pink and barnacle scarred—',6,1,705),(15881,'and nothing at all whole or shut, but tattered, split,',7,1,705),(15882,'dropped by the gulls onto the gray rocks and all the moisture gone.',8,1,705),(15883,'It’s like a schoolhouse',9,1,705),(15884,'of little words,',10,1,705),(15885,'thousands of words.',11,1,705),(15886,'First you figure out what each one means by itself,',12,1,705),(15887,'the jingle, the periwinkle, the scallop',13,1,705),(15888,'full of moonlight.',14,1,705),(15889,'Then you begin, slowly, to read the whole story.',15,2,705),(15890,'My left hand will live longer than my right. The rivers',1,1,706),(15891,'of my palms tell me so.',2,1,706),(15892,'Never argue with rivers. Never expect your lives to finish',3,1,706),(15893,'at the same time. I think',4,1,706),(15894,'praying, I think clapping is how hands mourn. I think',5,2,706),(15895,'staying up and waiting',6,2,706),(15896,'for paintings to sigh is science. In another dimension this',7,2,706),(15897,'is exactly what’s happening,',8,2,706),(15898,'it’s what they write grants about: the chromodynamics',9,3,706),(15899,'of mournful Whistlers,',10,3,706),(15900,'the audible sorrow and beta decay of Old Battersea Bridge.',11,3,706),(15901,'I like the idea of different',12,3,706),(15902,'theres and elsewheres, an Idaho known for bluegrass,',13,4,706),(15903,'a Bronx where people talk',14,4,706),(15904,'like violets smell. Perhaps I am somewhere patient, somehow',15,4,706),(15905,'kind, perhaps in the nook',16,4,706),(15906,'of a cousin universe I’ve never defiled or betrayed',17,5,706),(15907,'anyone. Here I have',18,5,706),(15908,'two hands and they are vanishing, the hollow of your back',19,5,706),(15909,'to rest my cheek against,',20,5,706),(15910,'your voice and little else but my assiduous fear to cherish.',21,6,706),(15911,'My hands are webbed',22,6,706),(15912,'like the wind-torn work of a spider, like they squeezed',23,6,706),(15913,'something in the womb',24,6,706),(15914,'but couldn’t hang on. One of those other worlds',25,7,706),(15915,'or a life I felt',26,7,706),(15916,'passing through mine, or the ocean inside my mother’s belly',27,7,706),(15917,'she had to scream out.',28,7,706),(15918,'Here, when I say I never want to be without you,',29,8,706),(15919,'somewhere else I am saying',30,8,706),(15920,'I never want to be without you again. And when I touch you',31,8,706),(15921,'in each of the places we meet,',32,8,706),(15922,'in all of the lives we are, it’s with hands that are dying',33,9,706),(15923,'and resurrected.',34,9,706),(15924,'When I don’t touch you it’s a mistake in any life,',35,9,706),(15925,'in each place and forever.',36,9,706),(15926,'Honored when',1,1,707),(15927,'the butterfly lights',2,1,707),(15928,'on my shoulder.',3,1,707),(15929,'Next stop:',4,2,707),(15930,'a rotting log.',5,2,707),(15931,'I asked God if it was okay to be melodramatic',1,1,708),(15932,'and she said yes',2,1,708),(15933,'I asked her if it was okay to be short',3,1,708),(15934,'and she said it sure is',4,1,708),(15935,'I asked her if I could wear nail polish',5,1,708),(15936,'or not wear nail polish',6,1,708),(15937,'and she said honey',7,1,708),(15938,'she calls me that sometimes',8,1,708),(15939,'she said you can do just exactly',9,1,708),(15940,'what you want to',10,1,708),(15941,'Thanks God I said',11,1,708),(15942,'And is it even okay if I don’t paragraph',12,1,708),(15943,'my letters',13,1,708),(15944,'Sweetcakes God said',14,1,708),(15945,'who knows where she picked that up',15,1,708),(15946,'what I’m telling you is',16,1,708),(15947,'Yes Yes Yes',17,1,708),(15948,'It is possible that things will not get better',1,1,709),(15949,'than they are now, or have been known to be.',2,1,709),(15950,'It is possible that we are past the middle now.',3,1,709),(15951,'It is possible that we have crossed the great water',4,1,709),(15952,'without knowing it, and stand now on the other side.',5,1,709),(15953,'Yes: I think that we have crossed it. Now',6,1,709),(15954,'we are being given tickets, and they are not',7,1,709),(15955,'tickets to the show we had been thinking of,',8,1,709),(15956,'but to a different show, clearly inferior.',9,1,709),(15957,'Check again: it is our own name on the envelope.',10,2,709),(15958,'The tickets are to that other show.',11,2,709),(15959,'It is possible that we will walk out of the darkened hall',12,3,709),(15960,'without waiting for the last act: people do.',13,3,709),(15961,'Some people do. But it is probable',14,3,709),(15962,'that we will stay seated in our narrow seats',15,3,709),(15963,'all through the tedious denouement',16,3,709),(15964,'to the unsurprising end— riveted, as it were;',17,3,709),(15965,'spellbound by our own imperfect lives',18,3,709),(15966,'because they are lives,',19,3,709),(15967,'and because they are ours.',20,3,709),(15968,'What starts things',1,1,710),(15969,'are the accidents behind the eyes',2,2,710),(15970,'touched off by, say, the missing cheekbone',3,2,710),(15971,'of a woman who might have been beautiful',4,2,710),(15972,'it is thinking about',5,3,710),(15973,'your transplanted life-line going places',6,3,710),(15974,'in someone else’s palm, or the suicidal games',7,3,710),(15975,'your mind plays with the edge',8,3,710),(15976,'of old wounds, or something',9,3,710),(15977,'you couldn’t share with your lover',10,3,710),(15978,'there are no endings',11,4,710),(15979,'people die between birthdays and go on for years;',12,5,710),(15980,'what stops things for a moment',13,5,710),(15981,'are the words you’ve found for the last bit of light',14,5,710),(15982,'you think there is',15,5,710),(15983,'It doesn’t',1,1,711),(15984,'matter',2,1,711),(15985,'to me',3,2,711),(15986,'if',4,2,711),(15987,'poems mean',5,3,711),(15988,'nothing:',6,3,711),(15989,'there’s no',7,4,711),(15990,'floor',8,4,711),(15991,'to the',9,5,711),(15992,'universe',10,5,711),(15993,'and yet',11,6,711),(15994,'one',12,6,711),(15995,'walks the',13,7,711),(15996,'floor.',14,7,711),(15997,'For Valerie',1,1,712),(15998,'All girls should have a poem',2,2,712),(15999,'written for them even if',3,2,712),(16000,'we have to turn this God-damn world',4,2,712),(16001,'upside down to do it.',5,2,712),(16002,'New Mexico March 16, 1969',6,3,712),(16003,'I caught a tremendous fish',1,1,713),(16004,'and held him beside the boat',2,1,713),(16005,'half out of water, with my hook',3,1,713),(16006,'fast in a corner of his mouth.',4,1,713),(16007,'He didn’t fight.',5,1,713),(16008,'He hadn’t fought at all.',6,1,713),(16009,'He hung a grunting weight,',7,1,713),(16010,'battered and venerable',8,1,713),(16011,'and homely. Here and there',9,1,713),(16012,'his brown skin hung in strips',10,1,713),(16013,'like ancient wallpaper,',11,1,713),(16014,'and its pattern of darker brown',12,1,713),(16015,'was like wallpaper:',13,1,713),(16016,'shapes like full-blown roses',14,1,713),(16017,'stained and lost through age.',15,1,713),(16018,'He was speckled with barnacles,',16,1,713),(16019,'fine rosettes of lime,',17,1,713),(16020,'and infested',18,1,713),(16021,'with tiny white sea-lice,',19,1,713),(16022,'and underneath two or three',20,1,713),(16023,'rags of green weed hung down.',21,1,713),(16024,'While his gills were breathing in',22,1,713),(16025,'the terrible oxygen',23,1,713),(16026,'—the frightening gills,',24,1,713),(16027,'fresh and crisp with blood,',25,1,713),(16028,'that can cut so badly—',26,1,713),(16029,'I thought of the coarse white flesh',27,1,713),(16030,'packed in like feathers,',28,1,713),(16031,'the big bones and the little bones,',29,1,713),(16032,'the dramatic reds and blacks',30,1,713),(16033,'of his shiny entrails,',31,1,713),(16034,'and the pink swim-bladder',32,1,713),(16035,'like a big peony.',33,1,713),(16036,'I looked into his eyes',34,1,713),(16037,'which were far larger than mine',35,1,713),(16038,'but shallower, and yellowed,',36,1,713),(16039,'the irises backed and packed',37,1,713),(16040,'with tarnished tinfoil',38,1,713),(16041,'seen through the lenses',39,1,713),(16042,'of old scratched isinglass.',40,1,713),(16043,'They shifted a little, but not',41,1,713),(16044,'to return my stare.',42,1,713),(16045,'—It was more like the tipping',43,1,713),(16046,'of an object toward the light.',44,1,713),(16047,'I admired his sullen face,',45,1,713),(16048,'the mechanism of his jaw,',46,1,713),(16049,'and then I saw',47,1,713),(16050,'that from his lower lip',48,1,713),(16051,'—if you could call it a lip—',49,1,713),(16052,'grim, wet, and weaponlike,',50,1,713),(16053,'hung five old pieces of fish-line,',51,1,713),(16054,'or four and a wire leader',52,1,713),(16055,'with the swivel still attached,',53,1,713),(16056,'with all their five big hooks',54,1,713),(16057,'grown firmly in his mouth.',55,1,713),(16058,'A green line, frayed at the end',56,1,713),(16059,'where he broke it, two heavier lines,',57,1,713),(16060,'and a fine black thread',58,1,713),(16061,'still crimped from the strain and snap',59,1,713),(16062,'when it broke and he got away.',60,1,713),(16063,'Like medals with their ribbons',61,1,713),(16064,'frayed and wavering,',62,1,713),(16065,'a five-haired beard of wisdom',63,1,713),(16066,'trailing from his aching jaw.',64,1,713),(16067,'I stared and stared',65,1,713),(16068,'and victory filled up',66,1,713),(16069,'the little rented boat,',67,1,713),(16070,'from the pool of bilge',68,1,713),(16071,'where oil had spread a rainbow',69,1,713),(16072,'around the rusted engine',70,1,713),(16073,'to the bailer rusted orange,',71,1,713),(16074,'the sun-cracked thwarts,',72,1,713),(16075,'the oarlocks on their strings,',73,1,713),(16076,'the gunnels—until everything',74,1,713),(16077,'was rainbow, rainbow, rainbow!',75,1,713),(16078,'And I let the fish go.',76,1,713),(16079,'We know the story.',1,1,714),(16080,'She turns',2,2,714),(16081,'back to find her trail',3,2,714),(16082,'devoured by birds.',4,2,714),(16083,'The years: the',5,3,714),(16084,'undergrowth',6,3,714),(16085,'1.',1,1,715),(16086,'Something came up',2,2,715),(16087,'out of the dark.',3,2,715),(16088,'It wasn’t anything I had ever seen before.',4,2,715),(16089,'It wasn’t an animal',5,2,715),(16090,'or a flower,',6,2,715),(16091,'unless it was both.',7,2,715),(16092,'Something came up out of the water,',8,3,715),(16093,'a head the size of a cat',9,3,715),(16094,'but muddy and without ears.',10,3,715),(16095,'I don’t know what God is.',11,3,715),(16096,'I don’t know what death is.',12,3,715),(16097,'But I believe they have between them',13,4,715),(16098,'some fervent and necessary arrangement.',14,4,715),(16099,'2.',15,5,715),(16100,'Sometime',16,6,715),(16101,'melancholy leaves me breathless…',17,6,715),(16102,'3.',18,7,715),(16103,'Water from the heavens! Electricity from the source!',19,8,715),(16104,'Both of them mad to create something!',20,8,715),(16105,'The lighting brighter than any flower.',21,9,715),(16106,'The thunder without a drowsy bone in its body.',22,9,715),(16107,'4.',23,10,715),(16108,'Instructions for living a life:',24,11,715),(16109,'Pay attention.',25,11,715),(16110,'Be astonished.',26,11,715),(16111,'Tell about it.',27,11,715),(16112,'5.',28,12,715),(16113,'Two or three times in my life I discovered love.',29,12,715),(16114,'Each time it seemed to solve everything.',30,12,715),(16115,'Each time it solved a great many things',31,12,715),(16116,'but not everything.',32,12,715),(16117,'Yet left me as grateful as if it had indeed, and',33,12,715),(16118,'thoroughly, solved everything.',34,12,715),(16119,'6.',35,13,715),(16120,'God, rest in my heart',36,14,715),(16121,'and fortify me,',37,14,715),(16122,'take away my hunger for answers,',38,14,715),(16123,'let the hours play upon my body',39,14,715),(16124,'like the hands of my beloved.',40,15,715),(16125,'Let the cathead appear again—',41,15,715),(16126,'the smallest of your mysteries,',42,15,715),(16127,'some wild cousin of my own blood probably—',43,15,715),(16128,'some cousin of my own wild blood probably,',44,15,715),(16129,'in the black dinner-bowl of the pond.',45,15,715),(16130,'7.',46,16,715),(16131,'Death waits for me, I know it, around',47,17,715),(16132,'one corner or another.',48,17,715),(16133,'This doesn’t amuse me.',49,17,715),(16134,'Neither does it frighten me.',50,17,715),(16135,'After the rain, I went back into the field of sunflowers.',51,18,715),(16136,'It was cool, and I was anything but drowsy.',52,18,715),(16137,'I walked slowly, and listened',53,18,715),(16138,'to the crazy roots, in the drenched earth, laughing and growing.',54,19,715),(16139,'VII',1,1,716),(16140,'At least I have the flowers of myself,',2,2,716),(16141,'and my thoughts, no god',3,2,716),(16142,'can take that;',4,2,716),(16143,'I have the fervour of myself for a presence',5,2,716),(16144,'and my own spirit for light;',6,2,716),(16145,'and my spirit with its loss',7,3,716),(16146,'knows this;',8,3,716),(16147,'though small against the black,',9,3,716),(16148,'small against the formless rocks,',10,3,716),(16149,'hell must break before I am lost;',11,3,716),(16150,'before I am lost,',12,4,716),(16151,'hell must open like a red rose',13,4,716),(16152,'for the dead to pass.',14,4,716),(16153,'For Bobby Jack Nelson',1,1,717),(16154,'Older, more generous,',2,2,717),(16155,'We give each other hope.',3,2,717),(16156,'The gift is ominous:',4,2,717),(16157,'Enough praise, enough rope.',5,2,717),(16158,'We will call you “Agua” like the rivers and cool jugs.',1,1,718),(16159,'We will persuade the clouds to nestle around your neck',2,1,718),(16160,'so you may sleep late.',3,1,718),(16161,'We would be happy if you slept forever.',4,1,718),(16162,'We will tend the slopes we plant, singing the songs',5,1,718),(16163,'our grandfathers taught us before we inherited their fear.',6,1,718),(16164,'We will try not to argue among ourselves.',7,1,718),(16165,'When the widow demands extra flour, we will provide it,',8,1,718),(16166,'remembering the smell of incense on the day of our Lord.',9,1,718),(16167,'Please think of us as we are, tiny, with skins that burn easily.',10,2,718),(16168,'Please notice how we have watered the shrubs around our houses',11,2,718),(16169,'and transplanted the peppers into neat tin cans.',12,2,718),(16170,'Forgive any anger we feel toward the earth,',13,2,718),(16171,'when the rains do not come, or they come too much,',14,2,718),(16172,'and swallow our corn.',15,2,718),(16173,'It is not easy to be this small and live in your shadow.',16,2,718),(16174,'Often while we are eating our evening meal',17,3,718),(16175,'you cross our rooms like a thief,',18,3,718),(16176,'touching first the radio and then the loom.',19,3,718),(16177,'Later our dreams begin catching fire around the edges,',20,3,718),(16178,'they burn like paper, we wake with our hands full of ash.',21,3,718),(16179,'How can we live like this?',22,4,718),(16180,'We need to wake and find our shelves intact,',23,4,718),(16181,'our children slumbering in their quilts.',24,4,718),(16182,'We need dreams the shape of lakes,',25,4,718),(16183,'with mornings in them thick as fish.',26,4,718),(16184,'Shade us while we cast and hook—',27,4,718),(16185,'but nothing else, nothing else.',28,4,718),(16186,'It’s my lunch hour, so I go',1,1,719),(16187,'for a walk among the hum-colored',2,1,719),(16188,'cabs. First, down the sidewalk',3,1,719),(16189,'where laborers feed their dirty',4,1,719),(16190,'glistening torsos sandwiches',5,1,719),(16191,'and Coca-Cola, with yellow helmets',6,1,719),(16192,'on. They protect them from falling',7,1,719),(16193,'bricks, I guess. Then onto the',8,1,719),(16194,'avenue where skirts are flipping',9,1,719),(16195,'above heels and blow up over',10,1,719),(16196,'grates. The sun is hot, but the',11,1,719),(16197,'cabs stir up the air. I look',12,1,719),(16198,'at bargains in wristwatches. There',13,1,719),(16199,'are cats playing in sawdust.',14,1,719),(16200,'On',15,1,719),(16201,'to Times Square, where the sign',16,1,719),(16202,'blows smoke over my head, and higher',17,1,719),(16203,'the waterfall pours lightly. A',18,1,719),(16204,'Negro stands in a doorway with a',19,1,719),(16205,'toothpick, languorously agitating.',20,1,719),(16206,'A blonde chorus girl clicks: he',21,1,719),(16207,'smiles and rubs his chin. Everything',22,1,719),(16208,'suddenly honks: it is 12:40 of',23,1,719),(16209,'a Thursday.',24,1,719),(16210,'Neon in daylight is a',25,1,719),(16211,'great pleasure, as Edwin Denby would',26,1,719),(16212,'write, as are light bulbs in daylight.',27,1,719),(16213,'I stop for a cheeseburger at JULIET’S',28,1,719),(16214,'CORNER. Giulietta Masina, wife of',29,1,719),(16215,'Federico Fellini, è bell’ attrice.',30,1,719),(16216,'And chocolate malted. A lady in',31,1,719),(16217,'foxes on such a day puts her poodle',32,1,719),(16218,'in a cab.',33,1,719),(16219,'There are several Puerto',34,1,719),(16220,'Ricans on the avenue today, which',35,1,719),(16221,'makes it beautiful and warm. First',36,1,719),(16222,'Bunny died, then John Latouche,',37,1,719),(16223,'then Jackson Pollock. But is the',38,1,719),(16224,'earth as full as life was full, of them?',39,1,719),(16225,'And one has eaten and one walks,',40,1,719),(16226,'past the magazines with nudes',41,1,719),(16227,'and the posters for BULLFIGHT and',42,1,719),(16228,'the Manhattan Storage Warehouse,',43,1,719),(16229,'which they’ll soon tear down. I',44,1,719),(16230,'used to think they had the Armory',45,1,719),(16231,'Show there.',46,1,719),(16232,'A glass of papaya juice',47,1,719),(16233,'and back to work. My heart is in my',48,1,719),(16234,'pocket, it is Poems by Pierre Reverdy.',49,1,719),(16235,'Life is simple and gay',1,1,720),(16236,'The bright sun rings with a quiet sound',2,1,720),(16237,'The sound of the bells has quieted down',3,1,720),(16238,'This morning the light hits it all',4,1,720),(16239,'The footlights of my head are lit again',5,1,720),(16240,'And the room I live in is finally bright',6,1,720),(16241,'Just one beam is enough',7,2,720),(16242,'Just one burst of laughter',8,2,720),(16243,'My joy that shakes the house',9,2,720),(16244,'Restrains those wanting to die',10,2,720),(16245,'By the notes of its song',11,2,720),(16246,'I sing off-key',12,3,720),(16247,'Ah it’s funny',13,3,720),(16248,'My mouth open to every breeze',14,3,720),(16249,'Spews mad notes everywhere',15,3,720),(16250,'That emerge I don’t know how',16,3,720),(16251,'To fly toward other ears',17,3,720),(16252,'Listen I’m not crazy',18,4,720),(16253,'I laugh at the bottom of the stairs',19,4,720),(16254,'Before the wide-open door',20,4,720),(16255,'In the sunlight scattered',21,4,720),(16256,'On the wall among green vines',22,4,720),(16257,'And my arms are held out toward you',23,4,720),(16258,'It’s today I love you',24,5,720),(16259,'I’m ordered out to a big hump of stones',1,1,721),(16260,'as if I were an aristocratic corpse from the Iron Age.',2,1,721),(16261,'The rest are still back in the tent sleeping,',3,1,721),(16262,'stretched out like spokes in a wheel.',4,1,721),(16263,'In the tent the stove is boss: it is a big snake',5,2,721),(16264,'that swallows a ball of fire and hisses.',6,2,721),(16265,'But it is silent out here in the spring night',7,2,721),(16266,'among chill stones waiting for dawn.',8,2,721),(16267,'Out here in the cold I start to fly',9,3,721),(16268,'like a shaman, straight to her body—',10,3,721),(16269,'some places pale from her swimming suit.',11,3,721),(16270,'The sun shone right on us. The moss was hot.',12,3,721),(16271,'I brush along the side of warm moments,',13,4,721),(16272,'but I can’t stay there long.',14,4,721),(16273,'I’m whistled back through space—',15,4,721),(16274,'I crawl among the stones. Back to here and now.',16,4,721),(16275,'Task: to be where I am.',17,5,721),(16276,'Even when I’m in this solemn and absurd',18,5,721),(16277,'role: I am still the place',19,5,721),(16278,'where creation works on itself.',20,5,721),(16279,'Dawn comes, the sparse tree trunks',21,6,721),(16280,'rake on color now, the frostbitten',22,6,721),(16281,'forest flowers form a silent search party',23,6,721),(16282,'after something that has disappeared in the dark.',24,6,721),(16283,'But to be where I am…and to wait.',25,7,721),(16284,'I am full of anxiety, obstinate, confused.',26,7,721),(16285,'Things not yet happened are already here!',27,7,721),(16286,'I feel that. They’re just out there:',28,7,721),(16287,'a murmuring mass outside the barrier.',29,8,721),(16288,'They can only slip in one by one.',30,8,721),(16289,'They want to slip in. Why? They do',31,8,721),(16290,'one by one. I am the turnstile.',32,8,721),(16291,'I carry joy as a choir sings,',1,1,722),(16292,'but quietly as the dark',2,1,722),(16293,'carols. To keep the wind away',3,1,722),(16294,'so the hidden ones will come',4,1,722),(16295,'out into the street and add',5,1,722),(16296,'themselves to this array of',6,1,722),(16297,'stars, constellations and moon.',7,1,722),(16298,'I notice the ones in pain',8,1,722),(16299,'shine more than the others.',9,1,722),(16300,'It’s so they can be found,',10,1,722),(16301,'I think. Found and harbored.',11,1,722),(16302,'[love letter to self]',1,1,723),(16303,'i don’t think so. but, i forgive you, girl, who tallied stretch marks into reasons why no one should get close. i forgive you, silly girl, sweet breath, decent by default. i forgive you for being afraid. did everything betray you? even the rain you love so much made rust out of your jewellery? i forgive you, soft spoken girl speaking with fake brash voice, fooling no one. i see you, tender even on your hardest days. i forgive you, waiting for him to call, i forgive you, the diets and the cruel friends. especially for that one time you said ‘i fucking give up on love, it’s not worth it, i’d rather be alone forever’. you were just pretending, weren’t you? i know you didn’t mean that. your body, your mouth, your heart, made specifically for loving. sometimes the things we love, will kill us, but weren’t we dying anyway? i forgive you for being something that will eventually die. perishable goods, fading out slowly, little human, i wouldn’t want to be in a world where you don’t exist.',2,2,723),(16304,'This is not fantasy, this is our life.',1,1,724),(16305,'We are the characters',2,1,724),(16306,'who have invaded the moon,',3,1,724),(16307,'who cannot stop their computers.',4,1,724),(16308,'We are the gods who can unmake',5,1,724),(16309,'the world in seven days.',6,1,724),(16310,'Both hands are stopped at noon.',7,2,724),(16311,'We are beginning to live forever,',8,2,724),(16312,'in lightweight, aluminum bodies',9,2,724),(16313,'with numbers stamped on our backs.',10,2,724),(16314,'We dial our words like Muzak.',11,2,724),(16315,'We hear each other through water.',12,2,724),(16316,'The genre is dead. Invent something new.',13,3,724),(16317,'Invent a man and a woman',14,3,724),(16318,'naked in a garden,',15,3,724),(16319,'invent a child that will save the world,',16,3,724),(16320,'a man who carries his father',17,3,724),(16321,'out of a burning city.',18,3,724),(16322,'Invent a spool of thread',19,3,724),(16323,'that leads a hero to safety,',20,3,724),(16324,'invent an island on which he abandons',21,3,724),(16325,'the woman who saved his life',22,3,724),(16326,'with no loss of sleep over his betrayal.',23,3,724),(16327,'Invent us as we were',24,4,724),(16328,'before our bodies glittered',25,4,724),(16329,'and we stopped bleeding:',26,4,724),(16330,'invent a shepherd who kills a giant,',27,4,724),(16331,'a girl who grows into a tree,',28,4,724),(16332,'a woman who refuses to turn',29,4,724),(16333,'her back on the past and is changed to salt,',30,4,724),(16334,'a boy who steals his brother’s birthright',31,4,724),(16335,'and becomes the head of a nation.',32,4,724),(16336,'Invent real tears, hard love,',33,4,724),(16337,'slow-spoken, ancient words,',34,4,724),(16338,'difficult as a child’s',35,4,724),(16339,'first steps across a room.',36,4,724),(16340,'Measure the walls. Count the ribs. Notch the long days.',1,1,725),(16341,'Look up for blue sky through the spout. Make small fires',2,1,725),(16342,'with the broken hulls of fishing boats. Practice smoke signals.',3,1,725),(16343,'Call old friends, and listen for echoes of distant voices.',4,1,725),(16344,'Organize your calendar. Dream of the beach. Look each way',5,1,725),(16345,'for the dim glow of light. Work on your reports. Review',6,1,725),(16346,'each of your life’s ten million choices. Endure moments',7,1,725),(16347,'of self-loathing. Find the evidence of those before you.',8,1,725),(16348,'Destroy it. Try to be very quiet, and listen for the sound',9,1,725),(16349,'of gears and moving water. Listen for the sound of your heart.',10,1,725),(16350,'Be thankful that you are here, swallowed with all hope,',11,1,725),(16351,'where you can rest and wait. Be nostalgic. Think of all',12,1,725),(16352,'the things you did and could have done. Remember',13,1,725),(16353,'treading water in the center of the still night sea, your toes',14,1,725),(16354,'pointing again and again down, down into the black depths.',15,1,725),(16355,'I sink back upon the ground, expecting to die. A voice speaks out of my ear, You are not going to die, you are being changed into a zebra. You will have black and white stripes up and down your back and you will love people as you do not now. That is why you will be changed into a zebra that people will tame and exhibit in a zoo. You will be a favorite among children and you will love the children in return whom you do not love now. Zoo keepers will make a pet of you because of your round, sad eyes and musical bray, and you will love your keeper as you do not now. All is well, then, I tell myself silently, listening to the voice in my ear speak to me of my future. And what will happen to you, voice in my ear, I ask silently, and the answer comes at once: I will be your gentle, musical bray that will help you as a zebra all your days. I will mediate between the world and you, and I will learn to love you as a zebra whom I did not love as a human being.',1,1,726),(16356,'I’m curled into a ball',1,1,727),(16357,'like a dog',2,1,727),(16358,'that is cold.',3,1,727),(16359,'Who will tell me',4,2,727),(16360,'why I was born,',5,2,727),(16361,'why this monstrosity',6,2,727),(16362,'called life.',7,2,727),(16363,'The telephone rings. I have to give',8,3,727),(16364,'a poetry reading.',9,3,727),(16365,'I enter.',10,4,727),(16366,'A hundred people, a hundred pairs of eyes.',11,4,727),(16367,'They look, they wait.',12,4,727),(16368,'I know for what.',13,4,727),(16369,'I am supposed to tell them',14,5,727),(16370,'why there were born,',15,5,727),(16371,'why there is',16,5,727),(16372,'this monstrosity called life.',17,5,727),(16373,'For Marjorie Welish',1,1,728),(16374,'Even the purest writer is not entirely in his work, we must admit. A saturated white tilts off the page, a ricochet of sense like children heard, not understood. You see the gap between chance and breath and the continuous line of the horizon, method to infinite power or out one candle. Anatole aboli. Bibelot Anatole. Walks down the stairs, one by one, to the bottom of the mirror. It is the lack of self splits his ear. A labyrinth like a sentence. Always, word follows word, to stave off those little deaths. Is he alive?',2,2,728),(16375,'When he leaves the room, he recaptures a memory called meaning. A matrix where a word is carried by a foreign language. Say “th.” Say the whole word: “death.” The Box for Learning English by Yourself and Playing is broken, the string to push the puppet’s tongue between his teeth. “Debt” is not comparable, not part of the body. Throw the dice, throw. Again. If often enough, only everything. Between the teeth.',3,3,728),(16376,'To track your dream, enter by way of the corridor and comparative grammar. The dream is called work. The corridor leads to Hebrew, which shows how to replace lacking inflection by ideal nakedness. The corridor passes time, so that the girl is cold. When you caress her name, somber and red like an open pomegranate, you slowly descend toward. Stop. The dream insists that meaning, memory, and music are the same. Out of its own lack, it fashions a flesh of vowels, and of consonants a skeleton delicate to dissect. What is a faun to do?',4,4,728),(16377,'A simple laryngitis. Does not abolish breath. A lacking word, a thought that terrible would vibrate suffocating like an open spasm splits his ear terrible his throat. Geneviève, virgin spasm, vivacious, and beautiful today suffocating. A fan of lacking experiences. For Mademoiselle Mallarmé. It is hot. Wants a book on anatomy, it cannot be too simple: he might place the larynx in the brain. Again. His breath stops, and we are all speechless.',5,5,728),(16378,'At lunchtime I bought a huge orange—',1,1,729),(16379,'The size of it made us all laugh.',2,1,729),(16380,'I peeled it and shared it with Robert and Dave—',3,1,729),(16381,'They got quarters and I got a half.',4,1,729),(16382,'And that orange, it made me so happy,',5,2,729),(16383,'As ordinary things often do',6,2,729),(16384,'Just lately. The shopping. A walk in the park.',7,2,729),(16385,'This is peace and contentment. It’s new.',8,2,729),(16386,'The rest of the day was quite easy.',9,3,729),(16387,'I did all the jobs on my list',10,3,729),(16388,'And enjoyed them and had some time over.',11,3,729),(16389,'I love you. I’m glad I exist.',12,3,729),(16390,'I spend the days deciding',1,1,730),(16391,'on a commemorative poem.',2,1,730),(16392,'Not, luckily, an epitaph.',3,1,730),(16393,'A quiet poem',4,1,730),(16394,'to establish the fact of me.',5,1,730),(16395,'As one of the incidental faces',6,1,730),(16396,'in those stone processions.',7,1,730),(16397,'Carefully done.',8,1,730),(16398,'Not claiming that I was',9,1,730),(16399,'at any of the great victories.',10,1,730),(16400,'But that I volunteered.',11,1,730),(16401,'I reason, Earth is short —',1,1,731),(16402,'And Anguish — absolute —',2,1,731),(16403,'And many hurt,',3,1,731),(16404,'But, what of that?',4,1,731),(16405,'I reason, we could die —',5,2,731),(16406,'The best Vitality',6,2,731),(16407,'Cannot excel Decay,',7,2,731),(16408,'But, what of that?',8,2,731),(16409,'I reason that in Heaven —',9,3,731),(16410,'Somehow, it will be even —',10,3,731),(16411,'Some new Equation, given —',11,3,731),(16412,'But, what of that?',12,3,731),(16413,'The fire in leaf and grass',1,1,732),(16414,'so green it seems',2,1,732),(16415,'each summer the last summer.',3,1,732),(16416,'The wind blowing, the leaves',4,2,732),(16417,'shivering in the sun,',5,2,732),(16418,'each day the last day.',6,2,732),(16419,'A red salamander',7,3,732),(16420,'so cold and so',8,3,732),(16421,'easy to catch, dreamily',9,3,732),(16422,'moves his delicate feet',10,4,732),(16423,'and long tail. I hold',11,4,732),(16424,'my hand open for him to go.',12,4,732),(16425,'Each minute the last minute.',13,5,732),(16426,'Thank you whoever tuned the radio',1,1,733),(16427,'to rain, thank you who spilled',2,1,733),(16428,'the strong-willed wine for not',3,1,733),(16429,'being me so I’m not to blame. I’m glad',4,1,733),(16430,'I’m not that broken tree although',5,2,733),(16431,'it looks sublime. And glad I’m not',6,2,733),(16432,'taking a test and running out of time.',7,2,733),(16433,'What’s a tetrahedron anyway? What’s',8,2,733),(16434,'the sublime, 3,483 divided by 9,',9,3,733),(16435,'the tenth amendment, the ferryman’s name',10,3,733),(16436,'on the River Styx? We’re all missing',11,3,733),(16437,'more and more tricks, losing our grips,',12,3,733),(16438,'guilty of crimes we didn’t commit.',13,4,733),(16439,'The horse rears and races then moves no more,',14,4,733),(16440,'the sports coupe grinds to a stop, beginning',15,4,733),(16441,'a new life as rot, beaten to shit. Whitman',16,4,733),(16442,'grass stain, consciousness swamp gas,',17,5,733),(16443,'the bones and brain, protoplasm and liver,',18,5,733),(16444,'ground down like stones in a river. Or does',19,5,733),(16445,'the heart’s cinder wash up as delta froth',20,5,733),(16446,'out of which hops frog spawn, dog song,',21,6,733),(16447,'the next rhyming grind, next kid literati?',22,6,733),(16448,'Maybe the world’s just a bubble, all',23,6,733),(16449,'philosophy ants in a muddle,',24,6,733),(16450,'an engine inside an elk’s skull on a pole.',25,7,733),(16451,'Maybe an angel’s long overdue and we’re',26,7,733),(16452,'all in trouble. Meanwhile thanks whoever',27,7,733),(16453,'for the dial turned to green downpour, thanks',28,7,733),(16454,'for feathery conniptions at the seashore',29,8,733),(16455,'and moth-minded, match-flash breath.',30,8,733),(16456,'Thank you for whatever’s left.',31,8,733),(16457,'Nothing to tell. Nothing to desire.',1,1,734),(16458,'A silence that is not unhappy.',2,1,734),(16459,'Who will guess I am not',3,1,734),(16460,'backing away? I am pleased',4,1,734),(16461,'every morning because the stones',5,1,734),(16462,'are cold, then warm in the sun.',6,1,734),(16463,'Sometimes wet. One, two, three days',7,1,734),(16464,'in a row. Easy to say yes and no.',8,1,734),(16465,'Realizing this power delicately.',9,1,734),(16466,'Remembering the cow dying on the ground,',10,1,734),(16467,'smelling dirt, seeing a mountain',11,1,734),(16468,'in the distance one foot away.',12,1,734),(16469,'Making a world in the mind.',13,1,734),(16470,'The spirit still connected to the body.',14,1,734),(16471,'Eyes open, uncovered to the bone.',15,1,734),(16472,'—not pen. It’s got',1,1,735),(16473,'that same silken',2,2,735),(16474,'dust about it, doesn’t it,',3,2,735),(16475,'that same sense of',4,3,735),(16476,'having been roughed',5,3,735),(16477,'onto paper even',6,4,735),(16478,'as it was planned.',7,4,735),(16479,'It had to be a labor',8,5,735),(16480,'of love. It must’ve',9,5,735),(16481,'taken its author some',10,6,735),(16482,'time, some shove.',11,6,735),(16483,'I’ll bet it felt good',12,7,735),(16484,'in the hand—the o',13,7,735),(16485,'of the ocean, and',14,8,735),(16486,'the and and the and',15,8,735),(16487,'of the land.',16,9,735),(16488,'I tried to live small.',1,1,736),(16489,'I took a narrow bed.',2,1,736),(16490,'I held my elbows to my sides.',3,1,736),(16491,'I tried to step carefully',4,1,736),(16492,'And to think softly',5,1,736),(16493,'And to breathe shallowly',6,1,736),(16494,'In my portion of air',7,1,736),(16495,'And to disturb no one.',8,1,736),(16496,'Yet see how I spread out and I cannot help it.',9,2,736),(16497,'I take to myself more and more, and I take nothing',10,2,736),(16498,'That I do not need, but my needs grow like weeds,',11,2,736),(16499,'All over and invading; I clutter this place',12,2,736),(16500,'With all the apparatus of living.',13,2,736),(16501,'You stumble over it daily.',14,2,736),(16502,'And then my lungs take their fill.',15,3,736),(16503,'And then you gasp for air.',16,3,736),(16504,'Excuse me for living,',17,4,736),(16505,'But, since I am living,',18,4,736),(16506,'Given inches, I take yards,',19,4,736),(16507,'Taking yards, dream of miles,',20,4,736),(16508,'And a landscape, unbounded',21,4,736),(16509,'And vast in abandon.',22,4,736),(16510,'You too dreaming of the same.',23,5,736),(16511,'I have a friend',1,1,737),(16512,'who is turning gray,',2,1,737),(16513,'not just her hair,',3,1,737),(16514,'and I do not know',4,1,737),(16515,'why this is so.',5,1,737),(16516,'Is it a lack of vitamin E',6,2,737),(16517,'pantothenic acid, or B-12?',7,2,737),(16518,'Or is it from being frantic',8,2,737),(16519,'and alone?',9,2,737),(16520,'‘How long does it take you to love someone?’',10,3,737),(16521,'I ask her.',11,3,737),(16522,'‘A hot second,’ she replies.',12,3,737),(16523,'‘And how long do you love them?’',13,3,737),(16524,'‘Oh, anywhere up to several months.’',14,3,737),(16525,'‘And how long does it take you',15,3,737),(16526,'to get over loving them?’',16,3,737),(16527,'‘Three weeks,’ she said, ‘tops.’',17,3,737),(16528,'Did I mention I am also',18,4,737),(16529,'turning gray?',19,4,737),(16530,'It is because I adore this woman',20,4,737),(16531,'who thinks of love',21,4,737),(16532,'in this way.',22,4,737),(16533,'Look, your longing swung from the trapeze.',1,1,738),(16534,'The clown is you as well and the tame tiger',2,1,738),(16535,'who begs for mercy calls someone to mind.',3,1,738),(16536,'Even the tin-pot music',4,1,738),(16537,'has its charm; it seems',5,1,738),(16538,'you’re starting to make peace',6,1,738),(16539,'with your times (everyone else has,',7,1,738),(16540,'why not me?—you say).',8,1,738),(16541,'So why then does the circus tent',9,1,738),(16542,'rise above an ancient graveyard?',10,1,738),(16543,'I had a sense of',1,1,739),(16544,'my preparedness',2,2,739),(16545,'only a person',3,2,739),(16546,'lost in pursuing',4,3,739),(16547,'a calling loved knows.',5,4,739),(16548,'As natural as',6,4,739),(16549,'breathing. All of life.',7,5,739),(16550,'For Catherine and Jamie',1,1,740),(16551,'It is big sky and its changes,',2,2,740),(16552,'the sea all round and the waters within.',3,2,740),(16553,'It is the way sea and sky',4,2,740),(16554,'work off each other constantly,',5,2,740),(16555,'like people meeting in Alfred Street,',6,2,740),(16556,'each face coming away with a hint',7,2,740),(16557,'of the other’s face pressed in it.',8,2,740),(16558,'It is the way a week-long gale',9,2,740),(16559,'ends and folk emerge to hear',10,2,740),(16560,'a single bird cry way high up.',11,2,740),(16561,'It is the way you lean to me',12,3,740),(16562,'and the way I lean to you, as if',13,3,740),(16563,'we are each other’s prevailing;',14,3,740),(16564,'how we connect along our shores,',15,3,740),(16565,'the way we are tidal islands',16,3,740),(16566,'joined for hours then inaccessible,',17,3,740),(16567,'I’ll go for that, and smile when I',18,3,740),(16568,'pick sand off myself in the shower.',19,3,740),(16569,'The way I am an inland loch to you',20,3,740),(16570,'when a clatter of white whoops and rises…',21,3,740),(16571,'It is the way Scotland looks to the South,',22,4,740),(16572,'the way we enter friends’ houses',23,4,740),(16573,'to leave what we came with, or flick',24,4,740),(16574,'the kettle’s switch and wait.',25,4,740),(16575,'This is where I want to live,',26,4,740),(16576,'close to where the heart gives out,',27,4,740),(16577,'ruined, perfected, an empty arch against the sky',28,4,740),(16578,'where birds fly through instead of prayers',29,4,740),(16579,'while in Hoy Sound the ferry’s engines thrum',30,4,740),(16580,'this life this life this life.',31,4,740),(16581,'It is the work of feeling',1,1,741),(16582,'to undo expectation.',2,1,741),(16583,'A black-faced sheep',3,2,741),(16584,'looks back at you as you pass',4,2,741),(16585,'and your heart is startled',5,2,741),(16586,'as if by the shadow',6,2,741),(16587,'of someone once loved.',7,2,741),(16588,'Neither comforted by this',8,3,741),(16589,'nor made lonely.',9,3,741),(16590,'Only remembering',10,4,741),(16591,'that a self in exile is still a self,',11,4,741),(16592,'as a bell unstruck for years',12,4,741),(16593,'is still a bell.',13,4,741),(16594,'I have a feeling that my boat',1,1,742),(16595,'has struck, down there in the depths,',2,1,742),(16596,'against a great thing.',3,1,742),(16597,'And nothing',4,1,742),(16598,'happens! Nothing… Silence… Waves…',5,1,742),(16599,'—Nothing happens? Or has everything happened,',6,2,742),(16600,'and are we standing now, quietly, in the new life?',7,2,742),(16601,'It is dusk. The birds sweep low to the lake and then dive',1,1,743),(16602,'up. The wind picks a few leaves off the ground',2,1,743),(16603,'and turns them into wheels that roll',3,1,743),(16604,'a little way and then collapse. There’s nothing like branches',4,1,743),(16605,'planted against the sky to remind you',5,1,743),(16606,'of the feel of your feet on the earth, the way your hands',6,1,743),(16607,'sometimes touch each other. All those memories,',7,1,743),(16608,'you wouldn’t want them over again, there’s no point.',8,1,743),(16609,'What’s next, you ask yourself.',9,1,743),(16610,'You ask it ten thousand times.',10,1,743),(16611,'it’s 1962 March 28th',1,1,744),(16612,'I’m sitting by the window on the Prague-Berlin train',2,1,744),(16613,'night is falling',3,1,744),(16614,'I never knew I liked',4,1,744),(16615,'night descending like a tired bird on a smoky wet plain',5,1,744),(16616,'I don’t like',6,1,744),(16617,'comparing nightfall to a tired bird',7,1,744),(16618,'I didn’t know I loved the earth',8,2,744),(16619,'can someone who hasn’t worked the earth love it',9,2,744),(16620,'I’ve never worked the earth',10,2,744),(16621,'it must be my only Platonic love',11,2,744),(16622,'and here I’ve loved rivers all this time',12,3,744),(16623,'whether motionless like this they curl skirting the hills',13,3,744),(16624,'European hills crowned with chateaus',14,3,744),(16625,'or whether stretched out flat as far as the eye can see',15,3,744),(16626,'I know you can’t wash in the same river even once',16,3,744),(16627,'I know the river will bring new lights you’ll never see',17,3,744),(16628,'I know we live slightly longer than a horse but not nearly as long as a crow',18,3,744),(16629,'They say I mope too much',1,1,745),(16630,'but really I’m loudly dancing.',2,1,745),(16631,'I eat paper. It’s good for my bones.',3,1,745),(16632,'I play the piano pedal. I dance,',4,1,745),(16633,'I am never quiet, I mean silent.',5,1,745),(16634,'Some day I’ll love Frank O’Hara.',6,1,745),(16635,'I think I’ll be alone for a little while.',7,1,745),(16636,'Be strong Bernadette',1,1,746),(16637,'Nobody will ever know',2,1,746),(16638,'I came here for a reason',3,1,746),(16639,'Perhaps there is a life here',4,1,746),(16640,'Of not being afraid of your own heart beating',5,1,746),(16641,'Do not be afraid of your own heart beating',6,1,746),(16642,'Look at very small things with your eyes',7,1,746),(16643,'& stay warm',8,1,746),(16644,'Nothing outside can cure you but everything’s outside',9,1,746),(16645,'There is great shame for the world in knowing',10,1,746),(16646,'You may have gone this far',11,1,746),(16647,'Perhaps this is why you love the presence of other people so much',12,1,746),(16648,'Perhaps this is why you wait so impatiently',13,1,746),(16649,'You have nothing more to teach',14,1,746),(16650,'Until there is no more panic at the knowledge of your own real existence',15,1,746),(16651,'& then only special childish laughter to be shown',16,1,746),(16652,'& no more lies no more',17,1,746),(16653,'Not to find you no',18,1,746),(16654,'More coming back & more returning',19,1,746),(16655,'Southern journey',20,1,746),(16656,'Small things & not my own debris',21,1,746),(16657,'Something to fight against',22,1,746),(16658,'& we are all very fluent about ourselves',23,1,746),(16659,'Our own ideas of food, a Wild sauce',24,1,746),(16660,'There’s not much point in its being over: but we do not speak them:',25,1,746),(16661,'I had written: “the man who sewed his soles back on his feet”',26,1,746),(16662,'And then I panicked most at the sound of what the wind could do',27,1,746),(16663,'to me',28,1,746),(16664,'if I crawled back to the house, two feet give no position, if',29,1,746),(16665,'the branches cracked over my head & their threatening me, if I',30,1,746),(16666,'covered my face with beer & sweated till you returned',31,1,746),(16667,'If I suffered what else could I do',32,1,746),(16668,'The teacher asks a question.',1,1,747),(16669,'You know the answer, you suspect',2,1,747),(16670,'you are the only one in the classroom',3,1,747),(16671,'who knows the answer, because the person',4,1,747),(16672,'in question is yourself, and on that',5,1,747),(16673,'you are the greatest living authority,',6,1,747),(16674,'but you don’t raise your hand.',7,1,747),(16675,'You raise the top of your desk',8,1,747),(16676,'and take out an apple.',9,1,747),(16677,'You look out the window.',10,1,747),(16678,'You don’t raise your hand and there is',11,1,747),(16679,'some essential beauty in your fingers,',12,1,747),(16680,'which aren’t even drumming, but lie',13,1,747),(16681,'flat and peaceful.',14,1,747),(16682,'The teacher repeats the question.',15,1,747),(16683,'Outside the window, on an overhanging branch,',16,1,747),(16684,'a robin is ruffling its feathers',17,1,747),(16685,'and spring is in the air.',18,1,747),(16686,'The birds have vanished down the sky.',1,1,748),(16687,'Now the last cloud drains away.',2,1,748),(16688,'We sit together, the mountain and me,',3,2,748),(16689,'until only the mountain remains.',4,2,748),(16690,'And then I stood for the last time in that room.',1,1,749),(16691,'The key was in my hand. I held my ground,',2,1,749),(16692,'and listened to the quiet that was like a sound,',3,1,749),(16693,'and saw how the long sun of winter afternoon',4,1,749),(16694,'fell slantwise on the floorboards, making bloom',5,1,749),(16695,'the grain in the blond wood. (All that they owned',6,1,749),(16696,'was once contained here.) At the window moaned',7,1,749),(16697,'a splinter of wind. I would be going soon.',8,1,749),(16698,'I would be going soon; but first I stood,',9,2,749),(16699,'hearing the years turn in that emptied place',10,2,749),(16700,'whose fullness echoed. Whose familiar smell,',11,2,749),(16701,'of a tranquil life, lived simply, clung like a mood',12,2,749),(16702,'or a long-loved melody there. A lingering grace.',13,2,749),(16703,'Then I locked up, and rang the janitor’s bell.',14,2,749),(16704,'The sea asks “How is your life now?”',1,1,750),(16705,'It does so obliquely, changing colour.',2,1,750),(16706,'It is never the same on any two visits.',3,1,750),(16707,'It is never the same in any particular',4,2,750),(16708,'Only in generalities: tide and such matters',5,2,750),(16709,'Wave height and suction, pebbles that rattle.',6,2,750),(16710,'It doesn’t presume to wear a white coat',7,3,750),(16711,'But it questions you like a psychologist',8,3,750),(16712,'As you walk beside it on its long couch.',9,3,750),(16713,'You need a reason, any reason—skiing, a job in movies,',1,1,751),(16714,'the Golden Gate Bridge.',2,1,751),(16715,'Take your reason and drive west, past the Rockies.',3,1,751),(16716,'When you’re bored with bare hills, dry flats, and distance,',4,1,751),(16717,'stop anywhere.',5,1,751),(16718,'Forget where you thought you were going.',6,1,751),(16719,'Rattle through the beer cans in the ditch.',7,2,751),(16720,'If there’s a fence, try your luck—they don’t stop cows.',8,2,751),(16721,'Follow the first hawk you see, and when the sagebrush',9,2,751),(16722,'trips you, take a good look before you get up.',10,2,751),(16723,'The desert gets by without government.',11,2,751),(16724,'Crush juniper berries, breathe the smell, smear your face.',12,3,751),(16725,'When you wonder why you’re here, yell as loud',13,3,751),(16726,'as you can and don’t look behind.',14,3,751),(16727,'Walk. Your feet are learning.',15,3,751),(16728,'Admit you’re afraid of the dark.',16,4,751),(16729,'Soak the warmth from scabrock, cheek to lichen.',17,4,751),(16730,'The wind isn’t talking to you. Listen anyway.',18,4,751),(16731,'Let the cries of coyotes light a fire in your heart.',19,4,751),(16732,'Remember the terrible song of stars—you knew it once,',20,4,751),(16733,'before you were born.',21,4,751),(16734,'Tell a story about why the sun comes back.',22,5,751),(16735,'Sit still until the itches give up, lizards ignore you,',23,5,751),(16736,'a mule deer holds you in her eyes.',24,5,751),(16737,'Explain yourself over and over. Forget it all',25,5,751),(16738,'when a scrub jay shrieks.',26,5,751),(16739,'Imagine sun, sky, and wind the same, over your',27,5,751),(16740,'scattered white bones.',28,5,751),(16741,'Account for all the work.',1,1,752),(16742,'Do the arithmetic: this much finish',2,1,752),(16743,'day by day. Feel better. You feel',3,1,752),(16744,'you’re holding cats under a rug.',4,1,752),(16745,'You balk, refuse your own assignments,',5,1,752),(16746,'stalk reunion with your other,',6,1,752),(16747,'lazy self, this one harnessed',7,1,752),(16748,'in a soggy woolen swimsuit, body',8,1,752),(16749,'doughy under puzzle straps. She asks',9,1,752),(16750,'her one repeating question as if',10,1,752),(16751,'what you have said definitively were',11,1,752),(16752,'still unclear. In different ways she asks:',12,1,752),(16753,'always a but, always a what if.',13,1,752),(16754,'Always impossible to finish.',14,1,752),(16755,'If you believe in the magic of language,',1,1,753),(16756,'then Elvis really Lives',2,1,753),(16757,'and Princess Diana foretold I end as car spin.',3,1,753),(16758,'If you believe the letters themselves',4,2,753),(16759,'contain a power within them,',5,2,753),(16760,'then you understand',6,2,753),(16761,'what makes outside tedious,',7,2,753),(16762,'how desperation becomes a rope ends it.',8,2,753),(16763,'The circular logic that allows senator to become treason,',9,3,753),(16764,'and treason to become atoners.',10,3,753),(16765,'That eleven plus two is twelve plus one,',11,4,753),(16766,'and an admirer is also married.',12,4,753),(16767,'That if you could just rearrange things the right way',13,5,753),(16768,'you’d find your true life,',14,5,753),(16769,'the right path, the answer to your questions:',15,5,753),(16770,'you’d understand how the Titanic',16,5,753),(16771,'turns into that ice tin,',17,5,753),(16772,'and debit card becomes bad credit.',18,5,753),(16773,'How listen is the same as silent,',19,6,753),(16774,'and not one letter separates stained from sainted.',20,6,753),(16775,'Say tomorrow doesn’t come.',1,1,754),(16776,'Say the moon becomes an icy pit.',2,1,754),(16777,'Say the sweet-gum tree is petrified.',3,1,754),(16778,'Say the sun’s a foul black tire fire.',4,1,754),(16779,'Say the owl’s eyes are pinpricks.',5,1,754),(16780,'Say the raccoon’s a hot tar stain.',6,1,754),(16781,'Say the shirt’s plastic ditch-litter.',7,1,754),(16782,'Say the kitchen’s a cow’s corpse.',8,1,754),(16783,'Say we never get to see it: bright',9,1,754),(16784,'future, stuck like a bum star, never',10,1,754),(16785,'coming close, never dazzling.',11,1,754),(16786,'Say we never meet her. Never him.',12,1,754),(16787,'Say we spend our last moments staring',13,1,754),(16788,'at each other, hands knotted together,',14,1,754),(16789,'clutching the dog, watching the sky burn.',15,1,754),(16790,'Say, It doesn’t matter. Say, That would be',16,1,754),(16791,'enough. Say you’d still want this: us alive,',17,1,754),(16792,'right here, feeling lucky.',18,1,754),(16793,'I waited for my life to start',1,1,755),(16794,'for years, standing at bus stops',2,1,755),(16795,'looking into the curved distance',3,1,755),(16796,'thinking each bus was the wrong bus;',4,1,755),(16797,'or lost in books where I would travel',5,1,755),(16798,'without luggage from one page',6,1,755),(16799,'to another; where the only breeze',7,1,755),(16800,'was the rustle of pages turning,',8,1,755),(16801,'and lives rose and set',9,1,755),(16802,'in the violent colors of suns.',10,1,755),(16803,'Sometimes my life coughed and coughed:',11,2,755),(16804,'a stalled car about to catch,',12,2,755),(16805,'and I would hold someone in my arms,',13,2,755),(16806,'though it was always someone else I wanted.',14,2,755),(16807,'Or I would board any bus, jostled',15,2,755),(16808,'by thighs and elbows that knew',16,2,755),(16809,'where they were going; collecting scraps',17,2,755),(16810,'of talk, setting them down like bird song',18,2,755),(16811,'in my notebook, where someday I would go',19,2,755),(16812,'prospecting for my life.',20,2,755),(16813,'Yes, I’m truly a dunce',1,1,756),(16814,'Living among trees and plants.',2,1,756),(16815,'Please don’t question me about illusion and enlightenment —',3,1,756),(16816,'This old fellow just likes to smile to himself.',4,1,756),(16817,'I wade across streams with bony legs,',5,1,756),(16818,'And carry a bag about in fine spring weather.',6,1,756),(16819,'That’s my life,',7,1,756),(16820,'And the world owes me nothing.',8,1,756),(16821,'In Lijiang, the sign outside your hostel',1,1,757),(16822,'glares: Ride alone, ride alone, ride',2,1,757),(16823,'alone – it taunts you for the mileage',3,1,757),(16824,'of your solitude, must be past',4,1,757),(16825,'thousands, for you rode this plane',5,2,757),(16826,'alone, this train alone, you’ll ride',6,2,757),(16827,'this bus alone well into the summer night,',7,2,757),(16828,'well into the next hamlet, town,',8,2,757),(16829,'city, the next century, as the trees twitch',9,3,757),(16830,'and the clouds wane and the tides',10,3,757),(16831,'quiver and the galaxies tilt and the sun',11,3,757),(16832,'spins us another lonely cycle, you’ll',12,3,757),(16833,'wonder if this compass will ever change.',13,4,757),(16834,'The sun doesn’t need more heat,',14,4,757),(16835,'so why should you? The trees don’t need',15,4,757),(16836,'to be close, so why should you?',16,4,757),(16837,'Anything can happen. You know how Jupiter',1,1,758),(16838,'Will mostly wait for clouds to gather head',2,1,758),(16839,'Before he hurls the lightning? Well, just now',3,1,758),(16840,'He galloped his thunder cart and his horses',4,1,758),(16841,'Across a clear blue sky. It shook the earth',5,2,758),(16842,'And the clogged underearth, the River Styx,',6,2,758),(16843,'The winding streams, the Atlantic shore itself.',7,2,758),(16844,'Anything can happen, the tallest towers',8,2,758),(16845,'Be overturned, those in high places daunted,',9,3,758),(16846,'Those overlooked regarded. Stropped-beak Fortune',10,3,758),(16847,'Swoops, making the air gasp, tearing the crest off one,',11,3,758),(16848,'Setting it down bleeding on the next.',12,3,758),(16849,'Ground gives. The heaven’s weight',13,4,758),(16850,'Lifts up off Atlas like a kettle-lid.',14,4,758),(16851,'Capstones shift, nothing resettles right.',15,4,758),(16852,'Telluric ash and fire-spores boil away.',16,4,758),(16853,'Morning is such a welcome time. It doesn’t demand',1,1,759),(16854,'much from the pocket—Some coffee, a cigarette,',2,1,759),(16855,'and the day starts, full of optimism & clarity of hope',3,1,759),(16856,'While the Muse holds her head, and the crazy Elementals',4,1,759),(16857,'hold down their wrath',5,1,759),(16858,'lightly under the earth’s surface.',6,1,759),(16859,'Some vague attention',7,1,759),(16860,'of wind stirs the golden oats',8,1,759),(16861,'and Ita Siamese drags her breakfast rabbit over',9,1,759),(16862,'the roof three',10,1,759),(16863,'times into the house and escorted out',11,1,759),(16864,'the door. While Aram Saroyan & W.S. Merwin',12,1,759),(16865,'debate the paucity of their fathers’ feelings',13,1,759),(16866,'in New York Times reviews,',14,1,759),(16867,'the deer',15,1,759),(16868,'coming down the pathway still',16,1,759),(16869,'are my startled guests as this morning proceeds normally',17,1,759),(16870,'The moment when, after many years',1,1,760),(16871,'of hard work and a long voyage',2,1,760),(16872,'you stand in the centre of your room,',3,1,760),(16873,'house, half-acre, square mile, island, country,',4,1,760),(16874,'knowing at last how you got there,',5,1,760),(16875,'and say, I own this,',6,1,760),(16876,'is the same moment when the trees unloose',7,2,760),(16877,'their soft arms from around you,',8,2,760),(16878,'the birds take back their language,',9,2,760),(16879,'the cliffs fissure and collapse,',10,2,760),(16880,'the air moves back from you like a wave',11,2,760),(16881,'and you can’t breathe.',12,2,760),(16882,'No, they whisper. You own nothing.',13,3,760),(16883,'You were a visitor, time after time',14,3,760),(16884,'climbing the hill, planting the flag, proclaiming.',15,3,760),(16885,'We never belonged to you.',16,3,760),(16886,'You never found us.',17,3,760),(16887,'It was always the other way round.',18,3,760),(16888,'I closed the book and changed my life and changed my life and changed my life and one more change and I was back here looking up at a blue sky with russets and the World was hypnotic but it wasn’t great. I wanted more range, maybe, more bliss, I didn’t know about bliss. Is bliss just a rant about the size of the bowl? The trance was the true thing, no, the rant, no, the sky, now, that icy whiteness.',1,1,761),(16889,'When they say Don’t I know you?',1,1,762),(16890,'say no.',2,1,762),(16891,'When they invite you to the party',3,2,762),(16892,'remember what parties are like',4,2,762),(16893,'before answering.',5,2,762),(16894,'Someone telling you in a loud voice',6,2,762),(16895,'they once wrote a poem.',7,2,762),(16896,'Greasy sausage balls on a paper plate.',8,2,762),(16897,'Then reply.',9,2,762),(16898,'If they say We should get together',10,3,762),(16899,'say why?',11,3,762),(16900,'It’s not that you don’t love them anymore.',12,4,762),(16901,'You’re trying to remember something',13,4,762),(16902,'too important to forget.',14,4,762),(16903,'Trees. The monastery bell at twilight.',15,4,762),(16904,'Tell them you have a new project.',16,4,762),(16905,'It will never be finished.',17,4,762),(16906,'When someone recognizes you in a grocery store',18,5,762),(16907,'nod briefly and become a cabbage.',19,5,762),(16908,'When someone you haven’t seen in ten years',20,5,762),(16909,'appears at the door,',21,5,762),(16910,'don’t start singing him all your new songs.',22,5,762),(16911,'You will never catch up.',23,5,762),(16912,'Walk around feeling like a leaf.',24,6,762),(16913,'Know you could tumble any second.',25,6,762),(16914,'Then decide what to do with your time.',26,6,762),(16915,'It’s not how we leave one’s life. How go off',1,1,763),(16916,'the air. You never know do you. You think you’re ready',2,1,763),(16917,'for anything; then it happens, and you’re not. You’re really',3,1,763),(16918,'not. The genesis of an ending, nothing',4,1,763),(16919,'but a feeling, a slow movement, the dusting',5,1,763),(16920,'of furniture with a remnant of the revenant’s shirt.',6,1,763),(16921,'Seeing the candles sink in their sockets; we turn',7,1,763),(16922,'away, yet the music never quits. The fire kisses our face.',8,1,763),(16923,'O phthsis, o lotharian dead eye, no longer',9,1,763),(16924,'will you gaze on the baize of the billiard table. No more',10,1,763),(16925,'shooting butter dishes out of the sky. Scattering light.',11,1,763),(16926,'Between snatches of poetry and penitence you left',12,1,763),(16927,'the brumal wood of men and women. Snow drove',13,1,763),(16928,'the butterflies home. You must know',14,1,763),(16929,'how it goes, known all along what to expect,',15,1,763),(16930,'sooner or later…the faded cadence of anonymity.',16,1,763),(16931,'Frankly, my dear, frankly, my dear, frankly',17,1,763),(16932,'For those of us who live at the shoreline',1,1,764),(16933,'standing upon the constant edges of decision',2,1,764),(16934,'crucial and alone',3,1,764),(16935,'for those of us who cannot indulge',4,1,764),(16936,'the passing dreams of choice',5,1,764),(16937,'who love in doorways coming and going',6,1,764),(16938,'in the hours between dawns',7,1,764),(16939,'looking inward and outward',8,1,764),(16940,'at once before and after',9,1,764),(16941,'seeking a now that can breed',10,1,764),(16942,'futures',11,1,764),(16943,'like bread in our children’s mouths',12,1,764),(16944,'so their dreams will not reflect',13,1,764),(16945,'the death of ours:',14,1,764),(16946,'For those of us',15,2,764),(16947,'who were imprinted with fear',16,2,764),(16948,'like a faint line in the center of our foreheads',17,2,764),(16949,'learning to be afraid with our mother’s milk',18,2,764),(16950,'for by this weapon',19,2,764),(16951,'this illusion of some safety to be found',20,2,764),(16952,'the heavy-footed hoped to silence us',21,2,764),(16953,'For all of us',22,2,764),(16954,'this instant and this triumph',23,2,764),(16955,'We were never meant to survive.',24,2,764),(16956,'And when the sun rises we are afraid',25,3,764),(16957,'it might not remain',26,3,764),(16958,'when the sun sets we are afraid',27,3,764),(16959,'it might not rise in the morning',28,3,764),(16960,'when our stomachs are full we are afraid',29,3,764),(16961,'of indigestion',30,3,764),(16962,'when our stomachs are empty we are afraid',31,3,764),(16963,'we may never eat again',32,3,764),(16964,'when we are loved we are afraid',33,3,764),(16965,'love will vanish',34,3,764),(16966,'when we are alone we are afraid',35,3,764),(16967,'love will never return',36,3,764),(16968,'and when we speak',37,3,764),(16969,'we are afraid our words will not be heard',38,3,764),(16970,'nor welcomed',39,3,764),(16971,'but when we are silent',40,3,764),(16972,'we are still afraid',41,3,764),(16973,'So it is better to speak',42,4,764),(16974,'remembering',43,4,764),(16975,'we were never meant to survive',44,4,764),(16976,'Days the weather sits',1,1,765),(16977,'in the endless sky,',2,1,765),(16978,'the clouds drifting by.',3,1,765),(16979,'The winter’s snow,',4,2,765),(16980,'summer’s heat,',5,2,765),(16981,'same street.',6,2,765),(16982,'Nothing changes',7,3,765),(16983,'but the faces, the people,',8,3,765),(16984,'all the things they do',9,3,765),(16985,'‘spite of heaven and hell',10,4,765),(16986,'or city hall—',11,4,765),(16987,'Nothing’s wiser than a moment.',12,4,765),(16988,'No one’s chance',13,5,765),(16989,'is simply changed by wishing,',14,5,765),(16990,'right or wrong.',15,5,765),(16991,'What you do is how you get along.',16,6,765),(16992,'What you did is all it ever means.',17,6,765),(16993,'Why do you always stand there shivering',1,1,766),(16994,'Between the white stream and the road?',2,1,766),(16995,'The people pass through the dust',3,2,766),(16996,'On bicycles, in carts, in motor-cars;',4,2,766),(16997,'The waggoners go by at dawn;',5,2,766),(16998,'The lovers walk on the grass path at night.',6,2,766),(16999,'Stir from your roots, walk, poplar!',7,3,766),(17000,'You are more beautiful than they are.',8,3,766),(17001,'I know that the white wind loves you,',9,4,766),(17002,'Is always kissing you and turning up',10,4,766),(17003,'The white lining of your green petticoat.',11,4,766),(17004,'The sky darts through you like blue rain,',12,4,766),(17005,'And the grey rain drips on your flanks',13,4,766),(17006,'And loves you.',14,4,766),(17007,'And I have seen the moon',15,4,766),(17008,'Slip his silver penny into your pocket',16,4,766),(17009,'As you straightened your hair;',17,4,766),(17010,'And the white mist curling and hesitating',18,4,766),(17011,'Like a bashful lover about your knees.',19,4,766),(17012,'I know you, poplar;',20,5,766),(17013,'I have watched you since I was ten.',21,5,766),(17014,'But if you had a little real love,',22,5,766),(17015,'A little strength,',23,5,766),(17016,'You would leave your nonchalant idle lovers',24,5,766),(17017,'And go walking down the white road',25,5,766),(17018,'Behind the waggoners.',26,5,766),(17019,'There are beautiful beeches',27,6,766),(17020,'Down beyond the hill.',28,6,766),(17021,'Will you always stand there shivering?',29,6,766),(17022,'This morning as I walked along the lakeshore,',1,1,767),(17023,'I fell in love with a wren',2,1,767),(17024,'and later in the day with a mouse',3,1,767),(17025,'the cat had dropped under the dining room table.',4,1,767),(17026,'In the shadows of an autumn evening,',5,2,767),(17027,'I fell for a seamstress',6,2,767),(17028,'still at her machine in the tailor’s window,',7,2,767),(17029,'and later for a bowl of broth,',8,2,767),(17030,'steam rising like smoke from a naval battle.',9,2,767),(17031,'This is the best kind of love, I thought,',10,3,767),(17032,'without recompense, without gifts,',11,3,767),(17033,'or unkind words, without suspicion,',12,3,767),(17034,'or silence on the telephone.',13,3,767),(17035,'The love of the chestnut,',14,4,767),(17036,'the jazz cap and one hand on the wheel.',15,4,767),(17037,'No lust, no slam of the door –',16,5,767),(17038,'the love of the miniature orange tree,',17,5,767),(17039,'the clean white shirt, the hot evening shower,',18,5,767),(17040,'the highway that cuts across Florida.',19,5,767),(17041,'No waiting, no huffiness, or rancor –',20,6,767),(17042,'just a twinge every now and then',21,6,767),(17043,'for the wren who had built her nest',22,7,767),(17044,'on a low branch overhanging the water',23,7,767),(17045,'and for the dead mouse,',24,7,767),(17046,'still dressed in its light brown suit.',25,7,767),(17047,'But my heart is always propped up',26,8,767),(17048,'in a field on its tripod,',27,8,767),(17049,'ready for the next arrow.',28,8,767),(17050,'After I carried the mouse by the tail',29,9,767),(17051,'to a pile of leaves in the woods,',30,9,767),(17052,'I found myself standing at the bathroom sink',31,9,767),(17053,'gazing down affectionately at the soap,',32,9,767),(17054,'so patient and soluble,',33,10,767),(17055,'so at home in its pale green soap dish.',34,10,767),(17056,'I could feel myself falling again',35,10,767),(17057,'as I felt its turning in my wet hands',36,10,767),(17058,'and caught the scent of lavender and stone.',37,10,767),(17059,'You can get there from here, though',1,1,768),(17060,'there’s no going home.',2,1,768),(17061,'Everywhere you go will be somewhere',3,2,768),(17062,'you’ve never been. Try this:',4,2,768),(17063,'head south on Mississippi 49, one—',5,3,768),(17064,'by—one mile markers ticking off',6,3,768),(17065,'another minute of your life. Follow this',7,4,768),(17066,'to its natural conclusion—dead end',8,4,768),(17067,'at the coast, the pier at Gulfport where',9,5,768),(17068,'riggings of shrimp boats are loose stitches',10,5,768),(17069,'in a sky threatening rain. Cross over',11,6,768),(17070,'the man-made beach, 26 miles of sand',12,6,768),(17071,'dumped on a mangrove swamp—buried',13,7,768),(17072,'terrain of the past. Bring only',14,7,768),(17073,'what you must carry—tome of memory',15,8,768),(17074,'its random blank pages. On the dock',16,8,768),(17075,'where you board the boat for Ship Island,',17,9,768),(17076,'someone will take your picture:',18,9,768),(17077,'the photograph—who you were—',19,10,768),(17078,'will be waiting when you return',20,10,768),(17079,'Time and again',1,1,769),(17080,'You, too,',2,1,769),(17081,'Must long for',3,1,769),(17082,'Your old nest',4,1,769),(17083,'Deep in the mountain.',5,1,769),(17084,'In the deep fall, the body awakes,',1,1,770),(17085,'And we find lions on the seashore—',2,1,770),(17086,'Nothing to fear.',3,1,770),(17087,'The wind rises, the water is born,',4,1,770),(17088,'Spreading white tomb-clothes on a rocky shore,',5,1,770),(17089,'Drawing us up',6,1,770),(17090,'From the bed of the land.',7,1,770),(17091,'We did not come to remain whole.',8,2,770),(17092,'We came to lose our leaves like the trees,',9,2,770),(17093,'The trees that are broken',10,2,770),(17094,'And start again, drawing up on great roots;',11,2,770),(17095,'Like mad poets captured by the Moors,',12,2,770),(17096,'Men who live out',13,2,770),(17097,'A second life.',14,2,770),(17098,'That we should learn of poverty and rags,',15,3,770),(17099,'That we should taste the weed of Dillinger,',16,3,770),(17100,'And swim in the sea,',17,3,770),(17101,'Not always walking on dry land,',18,3,770),(17102,'And, dancing, find in the trees a saviour,',19,3,770),(17103,'A home in the dark grass,',20,3,770),(17104,'And nourishment in death.',21,3,770),(17105,'Oh! kangaroos, sequins, chocolate sodas!',1,1,771),(17106,'You really are beautiful! Pearls,',2,1,771),(17107,'harmonicas, jujubes, aspirins! all',3,1,771),(17108,'the stuff they’ve always talked about',4,1,771),(17109,'still makes a poem a surprise!',5,1,771),(17110,'These things are with us every day',6,1,771),(17111,'even on beachheads and biers. They',7,1,771),(17112,'do have meaning. They’re strong as rocks.',8,1,771),(17113,'was when the',1,1,772),(17114,'lights were',2,1,772),(17115,'out',3,1,772),(17116,'the whole city',4,2,772),(17117,'in darkness',5,2,772),(17118,'& we drove north',6,3,772),(17119,'to our friend’s',7,3,772),(17120,'yellow apt.',8,3,772),(17121,'where she had',9,3,772),(17122,'power & we',10,3,772),(17123,'could work',11,3,772),(17124,'later we stayed',12,4,772),(17125,'in the darkened',13,4,772),(17126,'apt. you sick',14,4,772),(17127,'in bed & me',15,4,772),(17128,'writing ambitiously',16,4,772),(17129,'by candle light',17,4,772),(17130,'in thin blue',18,4,772),(17131,'books',19,4,772),(17132,'your neighbor had',20,5,772),(17133,'a generator &',21,5,772),(17134,'after a while',22,5,772),(17135,'we had a little',23,5,772),(17136,'bit of light',24,5,772),(17137,'I walked the',25,6,772),(17138,'dog & you',26,6,772),(17139,'were still',27,6,772),(17140,'a little bit',28,6,772),(17141,'sick',29,6,772),(17142,'we sat on a stoop',30,7,772),(17143,'one day in the',31,7,772),(17144,'late afternoon',32,7,772),(17145,'we had very little',33,7,772),(17146,'money. enough for',34,7,772),(17147,'a strong cappuccino',35,7,772),(17148,'which we shared',36,7,772),(17149,'sitting there &',37,7,772),(17150,'suddenly the',38,7,772),(17151,'city was lit.',39,7,772),(17152,'Once, I knew a fine song,',1,1,773),(17153,'—It is true, believe me,—',2,1,773),(17154,'It was all of birds,',3,1,773),(17155,'And I held them in a basket;',4,1,773),(17156,'When I opened the wicket,',5,1,773),(17157,'Heavens! They all flew away.',6,1,773),(17158,'I cried, “Come back, little thoughts!”',7,1,773),(17159,'But they only laughed.',8,1,773),(17160,'They flew on',9,1,773),(17161,'Until they were as sand',10,1,773),(17162,'Thrown between me and the sky.',11,1,773),(17163,'Somewhere in the Sargasso Sea',1,1,774),(17164,'the water disappears into itself,',2,1,774),(17165,'hauling an ocean in.',3,1,774),(17166,'Vortex, how you repeat',4,2,774),(17167,'a single gesture,',5,2,774),(17168,'come round to find only',6,2,774),(17169,'yourself, a cup full of questions,',7,3,774),(17170,'perhaps some curl of wisdom,',8,3,774),(17171,'a bit of flung salt.',9,3,774),(17172,'You hold an absence',10,4,774),(17173,'at your center,',11,4,774),(17174,'as if it were a life.',12,4,774),(17175,'Dawn comes later and later now,',1,1,775),(17176,'and I, who only a month ago',2,1,775),(17177,'could sit with coffee every morning',3,1,775),(17178,'watching the light walk down the hill',4,1,775),(17179,'to the edge of the pond and place',5,1,775),(17180,'a doe there, shyly drinking,',6,1,775),(17181,'then see the light step out upon',7,2,775),(17182,'the water, sowing reflections',8,2,775),(17183,'to either side—a garden',9,2,775),(17184,'of trees that grew as if by magic—',10,2,775),(17185,'now see no more than my face,',11,2,775),(17186,'mirrored by darkness, pale and odd,',12,2,775),(17187,'startled by time. While I slept,',13,3,775),(17188,'night in its thick winter jacket',14,3,775),(17189,'bridled the doe with a twist',15,3,775),(17190,'of wet leaves and led her away,',16,3,775),(17191,'then brought its black horse with harness',17,3,775),(17192,'that creaked like a cricket, and turned',18,3,775),(17193,'the water garden under. I woke,',19,4,775),(17194,'and at the waiting window found',20,4,775),(17195,'the curtains open to my open face;',21,4,775),(17196,'beyond me, darkness. And I,',22,4,775),(17197,'who only wished to keep looking out,',23,4,775),(17198,'must now keep looking in.',24,4,775),(17199,'A woman is reading a poem on the street',1,1,776),(17200,'and another woman stops to listen. We stop too.',2,1,776),(17201,'with our arms around each other.',3,1,776),(17202,'Suddenly a hug comes over me and I’m',4,2,776),(17203,'giving it to you, like a variable star shooting light',5,2,776),(17204,'off to make itself comfortable, then',6,2,776),(17205,'subsiding. I finish but keep on holding',7,2,776),(17206,'you. A man walks up to us and we know he hasn’t',8,2,776),(17207,'come out of nowhere, but if he could, he',9,2,776),(17208,'would have. He looks homeless because of how',10,2,776),(17209,'he needs. “Can I have one of those?” he asks you,',11,2,776),(17210,'and I feel you nod. I’m surprised,',12,2,776),(17211,'surprised you don’t tell him how',13,2,776),(17212,'it is – that I’m yours, only',14,2,776),(17213,'yours, etc., exclusive as a nose to',15,2,776),(17214,'its face. Love – that’s what we’re talking about, love',16,2,776),(17215,'that nabs you with “for me',17,2,776),(17216,'only” and holds on.',18,2,776),(17217,'So I walk over to him and put my',19,3,776),(17218,'arms around him and try to',20,3,776),(17219,'hug him like I mean it. He’s got an overcoat on',21,3,776),(17220,'so thick I can’t feel',22,3,776),(17221,'him past it. I’m starting the hug',23,3,776),(17222,'and thinking, “How big a hug is this supposed to be?',24,3,776),(17223,'How long shall I hold this hug?” Already',25,3,776),(17224,'we could be eternal, his arms falling over my',26,3,776),(17225,'shoulders, my hands not',27,3,776),(17226,'meeting behind his back, he is so big!',28,3,776),(17227,'I put my head into his chest and snuggle',29,4,776),(17228,'in. I lean into him. I lean my blood and my wishes',30,4,776),(17229,'into him. He stands for it. This is his',31,4,776),(17230,'and he’s starting to give it back so well I know he’s',32,4,776),(17231,'getting it. This hug. So truly, so tenderly',33,4,776),(17232,'we stop having arms and I don’t know if',34,4,776),(17233,'my lover has walked away or what, or',35,4,776),(17234,'whether the woman is still reading the poem…',36,4,776),(17235,'Clearly, a little permission is a dangerous thing.',37,5,776),(17236,'But when you hug someone you want it',38,5,776),(17237,'to be a masterpiece of connection, the way the button',39,5,776),(17238,'on his coat will leave the imprint of',40,5,776),(17239,'a planet in my cheek',41,5,776),(17240,'when I walk away. When I try to find some place',42,5,776),(17241,'to go back to.',43,5,776),(17242,'Light splashed this morning',1,1,777),(17243,'on the shell-pink anemones',2,1,777),(17244,'swaying on their tall stems;',3,1,777),(17245,'down blue-spiked veronica',4,1,777),(17246,'light flowed in rivulets',5,1,777),(17247,'over the humps of the honeybees;',6,1,777),(17248,'this morning I saw light kiss',7,1,777),(17249,'the silk of the roses',8,1,777),(17250,'in their second flowering,',9,1,777),(17251,'my late bloomers',10,1,777),(17252,'flushed with their brandy.',11,1,777),(17253,'A curious gladness shook me.',12,1,777),(17254,'So I have shut the doors of my house,',13,2,777),(17255,'so I have trudged downstairs to my cell,',14,2,777),(17256,'so I am sitting in semi-dark',15,2,777),(17257,'hunched over my desk',16,2,777),(17258,'with nothing for a view',17,2,777),(17259,'to tempt me',18,2,777),(17260,'but a bloated compost heap,',19,2,777),(17261,'steamy old stinkpile,',20,2,777),(17262,'under my window;',21,2,777),(17263,'and I pick my notebook up',22,2,777),(17264,'and I start to read aloud',23,2,777),(17265,'the still-wet words I scribbled',24,2,777),(17266,'on the blotted page:',25,2,777),(17267,'“Light splashed . . .”',26,2,777),(17268,'I can scarcely wait till tomorrow',27,3,777),(17269,'when a new life begins for me,',28,3,777),(17270,'as it does each day,',29,3,777),(17271,'as it does each day.',30,3,777),(17272,'When I was a child',1,1,778),(17273,'I played by myself in a',2,1,778),(17274,'corner of the schoolyard',3,1,778),(17275,'all alone.',4,1,778),(17276,'I hated dolls and I',5,2,778),(17277,'hated games, animals were',6,2,778),(17278,'not friendly and birds',7,2,778),(17279,'flew away.',8,2,778),(17280,'If anyone was looking',9,3,778),(17281,'for me I hid behind a',10,3,778),(17282,'tree and cried out “I am',11,3,778),(17283,'an orphan.”',12,3,778),(17284,'And here I am, the',13,4,778),(17285,'center of all beauty!',14,4,778),(17286,'writing these poems!',15,4,778),(17287,'Imagine!',16,4,778),(17288,'We were riding through frozen fields in a wagon at dawn.',1,1,779),(17289,'A red wing rose in the darkness.',2,1,779),(17290,'And suddenly a hare ran across the road.',3,2,779),(17291,'One of us pointed to it with his hand.',4,2,779),(17292,'That was long ago. Today neither of them is alive,',5,3,779),(17293,'Not the hare, nor the man who made the gesture.',6,3,779),(17294,'O my love, where are they, where are they going',7,4,779),(17295,'The flash of a hand, streak of movement, rustle of pebbles.',8,4,779),(17296,'I ask not out of sorrow, but in wonder.',9,4,779),(17297,'Things do not explode,',1,1,780),(17298,'they fail, they fade,',2,1,780),(17299,'as sunlight fades from the flesh,',3,2,780),(17300,'as the foam drains quick in the sand,',4,2,780),(17301,'even love’s lightning flash',5,3,780),(17302,'has no thunderous end,',6,3,780),(17303,'it dies with the sound',7,4,780),(17304,'of flowers fading like the flesh',8,4,780),(17305,'from sweating pumice stone,',9,5,780),(17306,'everything shapes this',10,5,780),(17307,'till we are left',11,6,780),(17308,'with the silence that surrounds Beethoven’s head.',12,6,780),(17309,'Of the genesis of birds we know nothing,',1,1,781),(17310,'save the legend they are descended',2,1,781),(17311,'from reptiles: flying, snap-jawed lizards',3,1,781),(17312,'that have somehow taken to air. Better the story',4,1,781),(17313,'that they were crab-apple blossoms',5,1,781),(17314,'or such, blown along by the wind; time after time',6,1,781),(17315,'finding themselves tossed from perhaps a seaside tree,',7,1,781),(17316,'floated or lifted over the thin blue lazarine waves',8,1,781),(17317,'until something in the snatch of color',9,1,781),(17318,'began to flutter and rise. But what does it matter',10,1,781),(17319,'anyway how they got up high',11,1,781),(17320,'in the trees or over the rusty shoulders',12,1,781),(17321,'of some mountain? There they are,',13,1,781),(17322,'little figments,',14,1,781),(17323,'animated—soaring. And if occasionally a tern washes up',15,1,781),(17324,'greased and stiff, and sometimes a cardinal',16,1,781),(17325,'or a mockingbird slams against the windshield',17,1,781),(17326,'and your soul goes oh God and shivers',18,1,781),(17327,'at the quick and unexpected end',19,1,781),(17328,'to beauty, it is not news that we live in a world',20,1,781),(17329,'where beauty is unexplainable',21,1,781),(17330,'and suddenly ruined',22,1,781),(17331,'and has its own routines. We are often far',23,1,781),(17332,'from home in a dark town, and our griefs',24,1,781),(17333,'are difficult to translate into a language',25,1,781),(17334,'understood by others. We sense the downswing of time',26,1,781),(17335,'and learn, having come of age, that the reluctant',27,1,781),(17336,'concessions made in youth',28,1,781),(17337,'are not sufficient to heat the cold drawn breath',29,1,781),(17338,'of age. Perhaps temperance',30,1,781),(17339,'was not enough, foresight or even wisdom',31,1,781),(17340,'fallacious, not only in conception',32,1,781),(17341,'but in the thin acts',33,1,781),(17342,'themselves. So our lives are difficult,',34,1,781),(17343,'and perhaps unpardonable, and the fey gauds',35,1,781),(17344,'of youth have, as the old men told us they would,',36,1,781),(17345,'faded. But still, it is morning again, this day.',37,1,781),(17346,'In the flowering trees',38,1,781),(17347,'the birds take up their indifferent, elegant cries.',39,1,781),(17348,'Look around. Perhaps it isn’t too late',40,1,781),(17349,'to make a fool of yourself again. Perhaps it isn’t too late',41,1,781),(17350,'to flap your arms and cry out, to give',42,1,781),(17351,'one more cracked rendition of your singular, aspirant song.',43,1,781),(17352,'Make some room for yourself, human animal.',1,1,782),(17353,'Even a dog jostles about on his master’s lap to',2,1,782),(17354,'improve his position. And when he needs space he',3,1,782),(17355,'runs forward, without paying attention to commands',4,1,782),(17356,'or calls.',5,1,782),(17357,'If you didn’t manage to receive freedom as a gift,',6,1,782),(17358,'demand it as courageously as bread and meat.',7,1,782),(17359,'Make some room for yourself, human pride and',8,1,782),(17360,'dignity.',9,1,782),(17361,'The Czech writer Hrabal said:',10,1,782),(17362,'I have as much freedom as I take.',11,1,782),(17363,'I was watching a robin fly after a finch — the smaller bird',1,1,783),(17364,'chirping with excitement, the bigger, its breast blazing, silent',2,1,783),(17365,'in light-winged earnest chase — when, out of nowhere',3,1,783),(17366,'over the chimneys and the shivering front gardens,',4,1,783),(17367,'flashes a sparrowhawk headlong, a light brown burn',5,1,783),(17368,'scorching the air from which it simply plucks',6,1,783),(17369,'like a ripe fruit the stopped robin, whose two or three',7,1,783),(17370,'cheeps of terminal surprise twinkle in the silence',8,1,783),(17371,'closing over the empty street when the birds have gone',9,1,783),(17372,'about their own business, and I began to understand',10,1,783),(17373,'how a poem can happen: you have your eye on a small',11,1,783),(17374,'elusive detail, pursuing its music, when a terrible truth',12,1,783),(17375,'strikes and your heart cries out, being carried off.',13,1,783),(17376,'Whatever happens. Whatever',1,1,784),(17377,'what is is is what',2,1,784),(17378,'I want. Only that. But that.',3,1,784),(17379,'i am running into a new year',1,1,785),(17380,'and the old years blow back',2,1,785),(17381,'like a wind',3,1,785),(17382,'that i catch in my hair',4,1,785),(17383,'like strong fingers like',5,1,785),(17384,'all my old promises and',6,1,785),(17385,'it will be hard to let go',7,1,785),(17386,'of what i said to myself',8,1,785),(17387,'about myself',9,1,785),(17388,'when i was sixteen and',10,1,785),(17389,'twenty-six and thirty-six',11,1,785),(17390,'even thirty-six but',12,1,785),(17391,'i am running into a new year',13,1,785),(17392,'and i beg what i love and',14,1,785),(17393,'i leave to forgive me',15,1,785),(17394,'Dreamed the thong of my sandal broke.',1,1,786),(17395,'Nothing to hold it to my foot.',2,1,786),(17396,'How shall I walk?',3,1,786),(17397,'Barefoot?',4,1,786),(17398,'The sharp stones, the dirt. I would',5,1,786),(17399,'hobble.',6,1,786),(17400,'And–',7,1,786),(17401,'Where was I going?',8,1,786),(17402,'Where was I going I can’t',9,1,786),(17403,'go to now, unless hurting?',10,1,786),(17404,'Where am I standing, if I’m',11,1,786),(17405,'to stand still now?',12,1,786),(17406,'So here I am, in the middle way, having had twenty years–',1,1,787),(17407,'Twenty years largely wasted, the years of l’entre deux guerres',2,1,787),(17408,'Trying to learn to use words, and every attempt',3,1,787),(17409,'Is a wholly new start, and a different kind of failure',4,1,787),(17410,'Because one has only learnt to get the better of words',5,1,787),(17411,'For the thing one no longer has to say, or the way in which',6,1,787),(17412,'One is no longer disposed to say it, and so each venture',7,1,787),(17413,'Is a new beginning, a raid on the inarticulate',8,1,787),(17414,'With shabby equipment always deteriorating',9,1,787),(17415,'In the general mess of imprecision of feeling,',10,1,787),(17416,'Undisciplined squads of emotion. And what there is to conquer',11,1,787),(17417,'By strength and submission, has already been discovered',12,1,787),(17418,'Once or twice, or several times, by men whom one cannot hope',13,1,787),(17419,'To emulate–but there is no competition–',14,1,787),(17420,'There is only the fight to recover what has been lost',15,1,787),(17421,'And found and lost again and again: and now, under conditions',16,1,787),(17422,'That seem unpropitious. But perhaps neither gain nor loss.',17,1,787),(17423,'For us, there is only the trying. The rest is not our business.',18,1,787),(17424,'A scar’s width of warmth on a worn man’s neck.',1,1,788),(17425,'That’s all I wanted to be.',2,1,788),(17426,'Sometimes I ask for too much just to feel my mouth overflow.',3,2,788),(17427,'Discovery: my longest pubic hair is 1.2 inches.',4,3,788),(17428,'Good or bad?',5,4,788),(17429,'7:18 a.m. Kevin overdosed last night. His sister left a message. Couldn’t listen',6,5,788),(17430,'to all of it. That makes three this year.',7,5,788),(17431,'I promise to stop soon.',8,6,788),(17432,'Spilled orange juice all over the table this morning. Sudden sunlight',9,7,788),(17433,'I couldn’t wipe away.',10,7,788),(17434,'My hands were daylight all through the night.',11,8,788),(17435,'Woke up at 1 a.m and, for no reason, ran through Duffy’s cornfield. Boxers only.',12,9,788),(17436,'Corn was dry. I sounded like a fire,',13,10,788),(17437,'for no reason.',14,10,788),(17438,'Grandma said In the war they would grab a baby, a soldier at each ankle, and pull…',15,11,788),(17439,'Just like that.',16,11,788),(17440,'It’s finally spring! Daffodils everywhere.',17,12,788),(17441,'Just like that.',18,12,788),(17442,'There are over 13,000 unidentified body parts from the World Trade Center',19,13,788),(17443,'being stored in an underground repository in New York City.',20,13,788),(17444,'Good or bad?',21,14,788),(17445,'Shouldn’t heaven be superheavy by now?',22,15,788),(17446,'Maybe rain is “sweet” because it falls',23,16,788),(17447,'through so much of the world.',24,16,788),(17448,'Even sweetness can scratch the throat, so stir the sugar well.—Grandma',25,17,788),(17449,'4:37 a.m. How come depression makes me feel more alive?',26,18,788),(17450,'Life is funny.',27,19,788),(17451,'Note to self: If a guy tells you his favorite poet is Jack Kerouac,',28,20,788),(17452,'there’s a very good chance he’s a douchebag.',29,20,788),(17453,'Note to self: If Orpheus were a woman, I wouldn’t be stuck down here.',30,21,788),(17454,'Why do all my books leave me empty-handed?',31,22,788),(17455,'In Vietnamese, the word for grenade is “bom,” from the French “pomme,”',32,23,788),(17456,'meaning “apple.”',33,23,788),(17457,'Or was it American for “bomb”?',34,24,788),(17458,'Woke up screaming with no sound. The room filling with a bluish water',35,25,788),(17459,'called dawn. Went to kiss grandma on the forehead',36,25,788),(17460,'just in case.',37,26,788),(17461,'An American soldier fucked a Vietnamese farmgirl. Thus my mother exists.',38,27,788),(17462,'Thus I exist. Thus no bombs = no family = no me.',39,27,788),(17463,'Yikes.',40,28,788),(17464,'9:47 a.m. Jerked off four times already. My arm kills.',41,29,788),(17465,'Eggplant = cà pháo = “grenade tomato.” Thus nourishment defined',42,30,788),(17466,'by extinction.',43,30,788),(17467,'I met a man tonight. A high school English teacher',44,31,788),(17468,'from the next town. A small town. Maybe',45,31,788),(17469,'I shouldn’t have, but he had the hands',46,32,788),(17470,'of someone I used to know. Someone I was used to.',47,32,788),(17471,'The way they formed brief churches',48,33,788),(17472,'over the table as he searched for the right words.',49,33,788),(17473,'I met a man, not you. In his room the Bibles shook on the shelf',50,34,788),(17474,'from candlelight. His scrotum a bruised fruit. I kissed it',51,34,788),(17475,'lightly, the way one might kiss a grenade',52,35,788),(17476,'before hurling it into the night’s mouth.',53,35,788),(17477,'Maybe the tongue is also a key.',54,36,788),(17478,'Yikes.',55,37,788),(17479,'I could eat you he said, brushing my cheek with his knuckles.',56,38,788),(17480,'I think I love my mom very much.',57,39,788),(17481,'Some grenades explode with a vision of white flowers.',58,40,788),(17482,'Baby’s breath blooming in a darkened sky, across',59,41,788),(17483,'my chest.',60,41,788),(17484,'Maybe the tongue is also a pin.',61,42,788),(17485,'I’m going to lose it when Whitney Houston dies.',62,43,788),(17486,'I met a man. I promise to stop.',63,44,788),(17487,'A pillaged village is a fine example of a perfect rhyme. He said that.',64,45,788),(17488,'He was white. 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A cassia flower falls.',4,1,791),(17550,'I want to be bruised by God.',5,2,791),(17551,'I want to be strung up in a strong light and singled out.',6,2,791),(17552,'I want to be stretched, like music wrung from a dropped seed.',7,2,791),(17553,'I want to be entered and picked clean.',8,2,791),(17554,'And the wind says “What?” to me.',9,3,791),(17555,'And the castor beans, with their little earrings of death, say “What?” to me.',10,3,791),(17556,'And the stars start out on their cold slide through the dark.',11,3,791),(17557,'And the gears notch and the engines wheel.',12,3,791);
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